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she still takes up a significant amount of my headspace every day
#alba baptista#warrior nun#avatrice#like i'm branching off into other things#other fandoms and actors and games and stuff#but still#she's always there#and when new pics or movies or hers come out#i'm gonna be screaming at the top of my lungs about them#my forever fave
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Hit FX sitcom It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia has genuinely compelled me to read and appreciate classic literature more than any of my many former years of school. I look at the silly rat show and am like I get it now, I'm gonna read Shakespeare, Beckett, Dostoyevsky, etc. and analyze the world for funsies, my grades 7-11 English teachers could NEVER.
#iasip#text#anmmbposts#it's about tracing back+understanding the source of influences+underlying connections that intertwine+remain inherently part of us today#it's about the beauty and horror of a universal idea and experience that perpetuates beyond time and setting#and you know much more whatever *kicks ten impulse purchased books under the bed*#it's about the tragicomic structure and the inevitability of a story's end and and and#oh that made me think of something else#ignore me! i'm just losing/expanding my mind over here#like i was good in english i did the analysis i got 90s and all but i never really “got” or liked most of the things they made us read#i didn't have real world experience or frames of reference to understand and teachers are... not the best at teaching#but there's just something in sunny that helped my perception grow up immediately something real and tangible and like#yeah it's paired w/ time that's passed i'm older now but also idk there's just something there that made the entire world click into place#okay dost*yevsky im picking up for other reasons but still branched off from sunny!
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My kingdom for a "So you say” (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#Helix#ZEX#Dexter Favin#Hhhh they ;; Their ''first'' interaction!#Officially up to three cryings - not that I'm surprised I love Dex <3#My head was fully abuzz during this scene there are so so so many interesting details!#So interesting to see which ''held true'' and which were left behind - which ones became Helix while others didn't!#At this point I almost see Helix as an alternate timeline - kind of like how Defeated is a branching arm off the main body#Not terribly dissimilar but the details that are different are too interesting to let go of so just make it all canon in its own way! Hehe#Especially since Helix is largely from Max's 3rd person perspective so the way he tells it is different than Dexter haha#Very interesting what he leaves out in his retelling hehehehe ♪♫#Anyhow enough of Max he's not even here rn sheesh ♪ ZEX! And Dexter ;;#Hghhghh it's all set up so deviously <3 That fact that up to this point ZEX has been relying on Zelnick especially to give him credence#And then as soon as someone he ''knows he trusts'' comes to throw a wrench into things - Dexter has as much weight or more!#He's specifically engineered to sow doubt and confusion! Gosh what a place to grow his character from <3 <3#ZEX's pride undoes him completely it's So well written ♥ Truly a fatal flaw for VUX and the way he's picked apart aghh <3#And?? The fact that I can hear ''Max's'' voice in ZEX's syntax as soon as he doesn't have a good argument??? Hello????#I know they come from the same base but like!! How!!! Masterful 💖#As I drew it it's a bit out of order - Dexter says he can't protect Max (😭) before ZEX starts crying it all got a bit mixed in my head#I was very emotional at the time you understand haha#It's all so sad! They're so close in some ways to being or having what the other wants but both fall just short#No wonder they took what little comfort in each other they could <3 ZEX comforted by his voice and Dex comforted by caring for his body#They have so little to offer each other trapped as they are ;;#It's all so interesting and distressing!! There's so much to think about as everything falls into place!
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i applied for a $13000 a year scholarship and got it btw. if you even care
#quil's unholy underworld#yay! it thought I'd get it but wasn't sure#I have not processed it nor do I have any idea how to#but! I applied for it a few months ago and got the notif today!#and I have submitted the form to accept it#it's nerve wracking because of all the like 'you gotta do this to maintain your scholarship you aren't allowed to take#classes at other branches and if you go to another institution this will be canceled'#but like. i know it just seems intimidating and it's fine#and what am I gonna do? /not/ accept the 13 grand a year scholarship?#that I submitted like one day before the deadline?#anyway i got like two other college things to submit as well but one isn't due until the 15th and the other isn't due until...#actually idk when it's due#and oh there's a third thing! that's due may 1st but I gotta make a phone call maybe so I'm putting it off#but anyway. got a scholarship :)
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Is there another hobbyist or writer whose style or content is one that you enjoy?
《 I've been hesitant to answer this one because I haven't really read a lot of fiction lately, so this question feels like I'm being asked to pick favorite RP partners and that feels kinda mean. I love writing with all of y'all.
Still, I think I ought to give special mention to Dragon because oh boy do I reread their replies a lot...and I mean a lot. It's like comfort food to me. It makes my day (my week, even) whenever I get a new reply from them and I read new replies at least five times while trying to formulate a reply back...and then I reread it a billion times more while I wait for the next reply. There's so many Dragonisms in their writing I absolutely eat up. Their OCs are immaculate and they truly get their canon muses.
I also want to shout out Calvin. We haven't written together in a while, but I went back to reread old threads recently and they were so charming. There's this one reply that's now forever lost to the void because he deleted his old blog and my heart is broken because it was such a cute/sweet reply. I didn't reply to it because it was such a perfect bookending to the thread and now I'm kicking myself for not reblogging it without a reply. Maybe it's still in my drafts somewhere; but I might've deleted it while cleaning out my drafts.
I'll add to this post if I think of more people to shout out. 》
#ooc tag#answered#anonymous#《 i swear i want to branch out and rp with more people 》#《 this is not just a 'post things that Dragon likes' blog 》#《 that's what my oc blogs are for /j 》#《 but seriously 》#《 i really need to clean this blog up more and see who i can throw my muses at 》#《 i feel like i add a lot of muses based on what i think my pre-existing mutuals would appreciate 》#《 which only encourages me to remain more insular 》#《 it doesn't help that i have this sort of impostor syndrome when it comes to canon muse stuff 》#《 i started out as an OC rper and though i have 10 years of experience writing canon stuff— 》#《—I feel like i let myself bleed into the characters too much??? if that makes sense??? 》#《 like i know canon blogs are all about personal interpretations but i feel like I'm not doing a good job sticking to the characters 》#《 it doesn't help that getting me to watch/rewatch things is like pulling teeth so I'm going off of vibes and things i vaguely remember 》#《 makes me hesitant to reach out to other people because idk if they'd have as much tolerance for my writing as my mutuals do 》#《 i didn't mean for this to become a post about me whining about my own writing in the tags I'm sorry hghghhngh 》
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sketching with a brush u don't like vs sketching with one you do /hj
Valeyna was originally my new DS2 character but I'm also porting her into an original thing I'm working on cuz it needs more of a cast of characters alongside Vasya besides Faust (again... who invited him THIS time huh /j) and a thirsty fairy (starring as the "weird little guy:tm:) LMAO
she is a soft spoken sorceress who is from a nomadic people with a bad reputation for their namesake - Albedo. She has an interest in the dark/occult and uses hexes, but as a result, she's very open-minded.
#myart#sketch#oc#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#trying to make myself not reject Vasya's stuff just because the DnD stuff didn't work out (like I tend to do to 'cope')#JUST MEANS I HAVE A BASELINE FOR NEW IDEAS I can branch off from pre-campaign heh...#(i'm not using characters that weren't mine tho obviously... but I haven't made a group of new OCs in a long time... so this'll be fun)#uh anyway semi-related but DS2 I still stand by being a decent game#yes it has it's absolutely diabolical moments/designed areas#but it's a hell of a lot more tolerable than DS1 imo (but im biased I lost over 7000 souls early in a new game in DS1 the other day...)#was extremely devastating and I deadass just quit and went back to DS2 after that LMAO#meanwhile#Fume Knight somehow punched/hit me from the OPPOSITE side... like sword in left hand but got hit on his right side?? like... rude smh#idk if I'm feeling the name 'Valeyna' still... it's grown on me but I'm undecided#DS2 is weird and makes u put in/save a name *before* making the character so I was unfortunately committed in-game lol#also really liking the watercolour pencil I used on the sketch on the right lately... has really nice shading capability#only thing im iffy on is the angle of the brush in particular (one of those chisel shapes)... but I don't think it's a deal breaker tho
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I don't really consider this a spoiler/might not even take this route anyway, but. Sharena Engage active wear color palette. Choose.
Also factoring in my notes from when I flipped through all the chara's outfits to find The Pattern
Okay NOW you can Choose
Another thing you can consider is having the shoes be all one color/Not having the second color stripe accent. I noticed some characters wouldn't have that as part of their palettes! Seemed arbitrary which ones would and which ones wouldn't!
#i feel like i'm maybe leaning towards the first? idk though#i feel like esp w the bridal alt design like. that dark blue is also a prominent color for her#beyond the uniforms/it being present in all the askr royal designs. thinking off that other official art#an anniversary one where she's wearing a dark blue dress/w the golden askr motif accents#like it's actually p reoccurring! it's neat#also i just did not realize how fucking exhausted i still am. i am feeling the time crunch.#but i don't think i'm getting shit done today tbh. i feel burnt out.#sharena#my art#ohhh another thing i just thought of. if i were to make one for alfonse. i think i'd want them to match and branch off#like they'd both have primary dark blue and then secondary sig color. which tbh a sky blue would be Such a choice#for alfonse. you could probably choose red too but. i bet the dark blue/light blue would be so easy on the eyes#but. the male active wear designs are ugly as sin LMFAOOOO which is why i'm not even gonna bother 🧍#i feel like the one and only chara who makes the male active wear work is alfred. he was made for this. built in a lab for it. his destiny.
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touma & kento 🤝 koh & canalo
🔥&⚡
#i have not yet concluded what this means in the grand scheme of things like rn i'm just drawing parallels between my fav little guys#been thinking about canalo and kento and i'm currently branching off to think about canalo interacting with other rangers#like hyde and canalo where hyde is interested in canalo's conservation efforts#ishiro and canalo where ishiro is excited about meeting mosa rex but tries not to show it#utchy and canalo bonding over their loyalty to their reds and their hesitance to join the teams#jeramie assisting canalo in preserving the history and culture of the sea tribe and creating an archive#i have a lot of thoughts on canalo really#umbrella.reflection#umbrella.thoughts#umbrella.posts
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#everybody's always on about miyazaki and poison swamps what about miyazaki and him making us platform off the narrowest of ledges#anyways this is where that levitating coffin from yesterday brought me#other things that happened today:#tracked down all the night cavalry and death bird fights i'd missed for some easy runes#and then lost most of them right here because there's a glitch that sometimes happens when you drop onto a branch slightly off center#that makes the game act like you just jumped off a ten story building and kills you instantly#fought the big boss crucible knight with the name i can't remember (-fuck- that gold dagger) and got the crucible armour set#fought preceptor miriam again and mr. boing boing beach ball after her and then went up the thing and found [redacted]#i finally got my somber smithing stone 7#already had an eight and a nine so now all i need is an ancient dragon one to peak off my dear bloodhound's fang#fought the “baleful shadow” which looked ominously like [redacted] which is probably foreshadowing#:(#and I finally got some manageable champions in the big jar challenge so now i can wear (most of) radahn's armor#now i'm just gonna finish off this place#tomorrow i think i'll try to round out ranni's quests#i.e. continue into the lake of rot#somehow#yay#ølden ring
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things i learned today:
my stepdad doesn't like the word obituary. why? well i can't be 100% certain because i asked no follow-up questions, but based on the way he relayed this information ("i don't like to use the word [lowers voice] oBITCHuary") i have a pretty good idea.
"we have to google meet" (as in, call each other on the Google Meet app) and "we have to google 'meat'" sound identical and i will interpret it as the latter regardless of how little sense that makes in context.
some drinking glasses have a little divot at the top of the handle into which my thumb fits perfectly!!!!!!!!
apparently when you find yourself at a branch of the library that's closing in three days for renovations, you should go ahead and check out all 11 books you have an eye on, because the computer will give you a due date SEVEN MONTHS INTO THE FUTURE. even though you could return the books at any other branch! jackpot.
#besties i am soooo sleep-deprived and i tell you when she said 'we have to google meet' to me...#i was like oh yeah makes sense. because you have anemia. and she was like what. and i was like wait googling 'meat' wouldn't help#with anemia...like you already know you should eat meat...you already know what foods meat is in...okay so why are we googling 'meat'?#fully trusting her to have a totally rational reason for announcing to me that we should google 'meat' while dropping me off @ the bus stop#fully prepared to support her in this random endeavor of mysterious utility#but she showed me her phone with the google meet icon and was like 'no i'm calling my girlfriend when you get out of the car'#and then we laughed hysterically for like three straight minutes. one of those days besties <3#fun with words#libraries#my posts#no but the library thing is so funny. these weren't even holds i just started running low on library books so i took myself to a branch#only to see all these signs like 'closing in three days!' which i had no idea was happening because it's not my usual branch#so i was like okay whatever. good thing i didn't try to come three days from now i guess!#then i checked out and it was like due date: october 1 2023. they're like please temporarily store these books for us while we renovate 🥺#we don't have room for them 🥺because of construction 😫 will you pretty please give them a good home for all of the spring and summer 🙏#like a of all don't mind if i do and secondly that's so fucking funny what the fuck. you guys know about other branches right#like you're aware i can put these books in any book return in the county? yeah? alright haha take it easy
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Davina Claire is allowed to commit mass murder if she ever so desires. As a treat.
#the things y'all have done to this girl#after everything getting her SHUNNED from the witch community was the answer? really marcel? (and vincent)#she didn't even want this shit in the first place. wanted nothing to do with the covens.#then she was convinced into it because NO ONE wanted the position#then people were pissed she was regent. DESPITE THE FACT NO ONE ELSE WANTED THE POSITION#her best chance at bringing kol back gets hijacked#she follows marcel's advice for proving power by force by instructing for ONE witch to be killed. who had already made a move on davina#ten witches are instead killed (unfortunate but not davina's plan. she feels immense guilt even)#(and this is the only thing that's like... yeah fair if the witches don't want her after that)#but she doesn't continue on this vengeful murder path. she extends an olive branch to the witches suspicious of her (fair that they don't -#- accept but she's working on repsiring shit)#the this vamoire secret society (cult) wants her. and marcel and vincent's plan to make sure she can't be used by them#is to trick her to admit what she did to the witches so that she is cut off from the ancestors and completely excommunicated#to the point where she can't even buy shit from witches in the quarter#WE LEAVE HER ALONE FOR LIKE FOUR EPISODES#she's living in that attic she wanted to escape so bad#and now she's gonna join the vampire cults personal coven because she has no other community and it's the only method she has to res kol#like good fucking job guys. your work to make sure the vamp cult couldn't potentially pressure her to do shit for them#has given her no choice but to be permanently on retainer for them#AND VINCENT GOT COERCED BY THE VAMP CULT TO DO WHAT THEY NEEDED FUCKING ANYWAY#haven't seen a witch this mistreated since bonnie bennett#and it's almost worse cause unlike vampire diaries everyone except davina is an adult#(whereas bonnie wasn't the only teenager and she aged along with the others)#so davina's age is felt way more. and the way she is used and manipulated by everyone is just that much more awful#literally only one who actually gives her supoort is josh. and he's also a teenager (and more recently vamped)#and even then#the originals#davina claire#((i'm only around halfway through s3))
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"I don't like gluten"
Immediate red flag tbh
#Context: woo woo person#Celiac wouldn't (couldn't) say this#This person is aware enough they can't use that language (prob realizing cohabitation w 5 others might cause issues)#Issues being we cook for each other and stick to budgets#But also as someone w pretty severe ibs who does great on fodmap...#I'm not gonna demand shit be gluten free#(not eating gluten is Bad when you don't have celiac disease or an actual allergy basically)#(and in the latter two cases pls don't live in a place that keeps to a tight groceries budget!)#(fodmap relevance is that no gluten products tend to also be lower in the fodmap that causes issues in ibs)#(but spelt bread is low fodmap while it has gluten)#Anyway idfk I fucking hate people saying they dislike (insert) ingredient#Especially when it's not based on flavour#Sorry not sorry fuck off#You make shit difficult for people who have actual severe reactions#And I'm not including myself there!#Like I have some things I can't eat bec I don't wanna feel like puking and unable to eat but#I also don't call that “I don't like x”#Idk it's just this branch of woo woo that pisses me off#Gluten sensitivity is probably bs#And it's pretty likely a lot of ppl who think they respond to gluten actually have ibs and#Respond to oligosaccharides#(fructans and/or galactans aka sugars)#Urgh
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i hate that thing i do where i prioritize drawing/painting/sculpture above like every other form of art. like if i fill a sketchbook that's more of an accomplishment than this cool hat i made. maybe the equivalent to that is crafting an entire outfit down to making the pattern myself. or filling a box with Stuff I Sewed. idk, i think drawing is just valued so so so much online and i watch all those sketchbook tours and i'm like Wow! these people are so motivated and these sketchbooks are so cool and filled with personality and just. so dense with creativity and I Wish I Could Do That but i already do. i just don't do the 'one sketchbook a month' thing. i have The Yearning but not the drive to draw that much and i need to just value what i'm already doing that's easy for me to do right now.
#i (and i think a lot of other people) are definitely not meant to stick to one thing their entire lives#and ESPECIALLY not one artistic style. it PISSES me off when kids are like 'how do i Find My Art Style??'#it's like. when you find a label and you try to fit yourself into that label instead of doing self exploration and finding a label that fit#YOU. or just doing away with labels entirely#it doesn't piss me off in a Kids These Days kinda way but in a Don't You Know It's A Trap kinda way#humans crave variety!! fuck#dude you don't have to stick to one thing forever. branch out!! hold my hand. come with me. i will show you#sketchbook tutorials are so. inspirational to me. like they make me feel good. it feels good to look at peoples' art and it's a bonus#that it's such a personal thing they're sharing. but they're all the same and they also make me feel endlessly hopelss#so i avoid them like the plague. i think my problem is that i hate art school and being told what to do with my art#guidance with a specific thing you're working on is one thing but so much of it is like 'you need to develop these skills to do art good'#and like. you really don't. if that's boring and you hate it and it makes you wanna die then don't do it#fuck around with ms paint and 'perfect your craft' on there and like#find people who like your art and whose are you like and collaborate because community is a part of it also#make a quilt. follow a pattern. make your own fucked up pattern and then realize there's an easier way to make a pattern#do. mud sculptures. buy some dollar store clay.#don't spend more than you have to on art supplies. use a mouse to draw for goodness sake it's so freeing#i'm mad about nothing if you couldn't tell. i'm very sleepy and i want to make art but i don't have the energy#gonna make another hat later
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Trying to explain what the fuck just happened in Lankan politics today.
The leftist party has won 159 seats out of 218 in the Parliamentary elections. The single biggest landslide win since we broke from the British and achieved universal franchise in 1948.
Any party achieving a super majority in the executive and legislative is, objectively speaking, bad. It disables checks and balances, which is a catastrophic thing for any democracy, and the only two other times it's happened for us has irrevocably eroded the fabric of civic rights and democratic freedom. Also, the reason the NPP won the North and East is that the colonized, genocided and subjugated people there have no faith in electoralism anymore. The way this government has engaged minority issues has been utterly abysmal and now they've been rewarded for it.
On the other hand:
The winners. Are all. Grassroots. Candidates.¹
We have voted out every single career criminal that's been barnacled into the Lankan political arena since before I've been alive. The fascist party has only three seats.² The other fascists didn't win a single seat. The neoliberal legacy party won none. There are only forty people in Parliament that represent any sort of dynastic political legacy. After 76 solid years of nothing but political dynasties.
This is barely five years after the Rajapaksas swept in and absolutely glutted the Parliament with their family members and cronies end to end.
This is the illegitimate interim government we had for most of the last 18 months. We literally, physically, chased the Rajapaksas out of the country and this fucking demon set up a puppet government just so he could finally sit in that goddamn chair and be the despot he'd always dreamed of in exchange for letting them all come back. He's now gone. His entire circle is gone.
THEY ARE ALL FUCKING GONE.
In US terms, just imagine that, five years from now, when Trump's GOP has control of everything, the entire GOP and the worst of the Dems are all purged from Congress and Senate, the Green Party in control of all three branches of government under a pro-union left-wing President and an unmarried female LGBT rights activist Vice President, and the Dems reduced to barely 20% of the House.
This is my anthropology professor. She joined politics from the small nascent leftist coalition to help keep the government accountable. She's now the Prime Minister and the most popular Parliamentary candidate in the nation's history. (Edit: She was knocked off first place by a dude in the final result. Boo.)
(On the other hand— the woman who helped make me a radical anarchist and literally helped write a book on political dissent and resistance...now is the state. Uh.)
But there are so many women in Parliament! We had the lowest female representation in a South Asian Parliament and some of them were from the list of seats reserved for parties rather than elected ones. Most were either anti-feminist conservative embarrassments, widows and daughters of elite politicians and neoliberal shills. It's still only an increase of a few percentage points (Edit: from the previous 5% to 10% in the final result!) but now we have elected academics, feminist advocates, activists! There Is a representative for Malaiyaha Tamils in the Central Province for the first time in history and it's a young woman! (Edit: now it's two female Malaiyaha MPS!!) This is the plantation community that still live in conditions closest to the slavery the British forced upon them two hundred years ago!
I'm like. Completely mindfucked. To be very very clear, the NPP coalition formed around the nucleus of the JVP that used to be communist but haven't been in 30 years, they're now just social democrats who are left of places like the US and UK, whose "left" is now center-right. They're only threatening to the Western mainstream media for some reason who can't stop bleating about how we have a "Marxist" government now. In reality, the actual chances for radical reform are still quite low, and the opportunity for further erosion is quite high with a super majority government regardless of affiliation.
On the other hand:
What the fuck.
Sometimes living through historical events is really damn amazing.
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¹ Well, nearly. There are a few career politicians and a nepo baby but they aren't so bad either.
² Goddamn it, Baby Rajapaksa and Sri Lanka's answer to JD Vance have wormed their way in using the list of Constitutionally reserved party seats for non-elected members. FUCK the National List.
#five years ago i was working a news desk watching a band of violent ethnofascists known for genocide torture kidnappings and murder sweep in#and take control of the entire country#on the heels of the worst terrorist attack we've suffered that they orchestrated for this purpose#wondering how many of our colleagues would be safe#and watching the people that opposed them flee the country#i cannot tell you the enraging hopeless terror#and now#they're all gone#THEY'RE FUCKING GONE#sri lanka politics#sri lanka news#sri lanka protests#sri lankan parliamentary elections#sri lanka election 2024#anura kumara dissanayake#harini amarasuriya#feminism#leftism#world news#faith in humanity#power to the people#aragalaya#knee of huss#අරගලයට ජය!#අරගලයට ජය
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i feel like i won the lottery with my hometown/highschool friends
#like i've been feeling like shit so much lately being around my roommates and college 'friends'#that i've recently cut off bc i was sick of them shit talking each other and me and being lowkey racist#and i was starting to think there was something wrong with me that i couldn't get along with this group of people#but one weekend spent talking with my friends from home and suddenly i'm cured#they made me realize there isn't anything wrong with me and these people just suck which. so true#i think the best thing to do when i go back to school after break now is to just try to surround myself with people that are more like me#which is what i avoided when i was 18-19 bc i wanted to branch out and 'find myself' (aka make more white friends that liked to party)#but really it's what i should have done in the beginning bc the ppl i love most i became friends with by acting like myself#i feel like i'm having friendship revelations at 21 that most people had when they were 17 but whatever#shut up hanna
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✧.* what happens if you see your ex-boyfriend, theodore nott, at a halloween party?
ex!bf!theo x fawn!reader (fem pov)
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cw: MDNI!!, smut, dom!theo, innocent!reader, piv, unprotected sex, creampie, tit sucking/fondling, oral sex (f receiving), praise, rekindling
a/n: last minute, sleep deprived, and not proof-read halloween treat ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა
You stirred awake as you heard your dorm room's door click shut and saw a glimpse of your roommate's hair disappearing from view. She was undoubtedly headed to the infamous yearly Halloween party in the Room of Requirement.
You had previously declined her offer to go with her, deciding to spend most of your time moping over your ex-boyfriend, Theodore Nott.
Two weeks prior you had your heart broken when you called things off with him. Your peers had convinced you it was the right thing to do at the time as he never paid you any attention, seemingly avoiding you constantly for no good reason, sometimes days at a time. Although you initiated the separation, you wasted no time in mourning the early stages of your relationship; the moments where you would be alone with him, talking to him, kissing him, and the times you guys almost said you loved each other.
You fluffed up your pillows, preparing yourself to lay down and think of Theodore until you slept like you had been doing for the past week when you heard more shuffling outside your dorm room. It seemed like everybody would be attending the Halloween party.
Dreading the idea that he'd probably be wooing someone new, you sat back up and groaned, forcing yourself up onto your feet and into your bathroom. You stared back at yourself in the mirror; puffy-eyed and your nose tinged pink. You felt the sudden urge to go, feeling your time would be better spent seeing a few familiar faces and dancing out your blues.
You had a small problem though.
You vaguely recalled seeing the bustling students leave wearing costumes, but given the spontaneous nature of your new feelings, you had nothing to wear. You tentatively looked around your bathroom and then at your full dorm, hoping for a costume to spawn from thin air. Biting your lip, your eyes landed on a headband of fuzzy deer ears and short plush antlers.
Theodore had bought you the headband in Hogsmeade during your first date as a way to poke fun at your meek demeanor. You contemplated wearing the headband, allowing yourself a quick Halloween if you simply did the makeup. Against your better judgment, you put it on before propping yourself in front of your vanity to do the deer makeup you so saw often on your Pinterest feed. Luckily, your closet consisted of many warm browns with white accents, granting you the ability to not have to freak over finding matching clothing.
You took a final breath before walking out the door, headed towards an evening of branching out.
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Theodore's gaze lingered around the room, his face stoic, as he seemingly tried to look for someone.
"Someone missing his girl?" Draco teased, pinching his cheek.
Shoving him lightly with his shoulder, Theodore turned his face towards his pestering friend. "Don't smudge m'fucking makeup." He groaned inwardly as he saw no sign of you after his eyes finished their fourth round around the room. "I'm not looking for anyone either. Don't got a girl."
"Ohh yeah, we forgot," Lorenzo snorted beside him. Theodore seemed unamused, brushing past him and bumping his shoulder on the way.
"Seems angry," Blaise said, stifling a laugh.
"Would be too if I lost what he did," Draco shrugged.
Theodore Nott stalked around the perimeter of the large crowd, avoiding the large wings and costumes present. He took a swig out of his red solo cup, about to give up before seeing you walk in.
Seeing your face illuminated in the party's dim lighting, his lips parted slightly, soaking in the way you looked so graceful when entering, yet so lost.
Your headband piqued his interest. His brows furrowing, he tilted his head slightly to get a better view. Definitely his.
You walked around the room, the heel of your shoes clicking. You caught a glimpse of someone with their face completely obscured by their skeleton makeup, but there was no mistaking those eyes.
No way were you going to purposefully talk to him, the sting of your breakup still apparent. You headed towards the drinks, acting as if you were in your element when truth be told, you didn't care for drinking. You stood awkwardly at the table, looking for your friends to no avail.
You saw him striding towards you in the corner of your eyes and quickly scattered to an area with a larger crowd. Planning to circle back to the drinks table to throw him off, you weaved through the people, getting small peeks at different costumes; an American cowboy, a devil, and a very strange furry octopus.
You grabbed a red cup from the table, bringing the emptiness to your lips to fake a sip, your eyes scanning the room intensely, relieved that you lost him.
Your heart was beating faster than usual, a small bead of sweat forming on your forehead. You adjusted the headband to not fall off and straightened your top.
Coming was a mistake. The dark lighting made it difficult for you to locate your friends, Theodore was looking as handsome normal as ever, and the room seemed to shrink with each step you took.
A bit jumpy from nervousness, you started to fill a cup of oddly green punch before feeling a large hand clamp down on your wrist. Flinching, you immediately looked at the one responsible and met their piercing blue eyes.
"Avoiding me?" he said.
The way he said it like he didn't really care, only bothering to use two words like you both hadn't been pretending not to stare at each other for two weeks made you uneasy.
Pulling your hand away, you swallowed before answering. "No."
Your voice made him smile, his face clearly finding humor in your denial.
God, he looked so handsome with the skull makeup.
He placed his hands on both of your shoulders, pulling slightly away from you to get a better view of your face. "I missed you. Did you miss me?"
Unconvinced by him, you looked at him suspiciously, your body taut. "No," you said again. Frowning slightly, he dropped his hands to his side and said,
"I'm serious. I really did."
Your face started to heat up and you bit the inside of your cheeks to contain yourself. You knew that if you didn't restrain yourself, you would immediately jump up into his arms and embrace him like old times.
"Okay," you said quietly. "That's cool." You tried to sound casual, pretending like you didn't notice his gaze flickering to your deer ears and antlers.
"I like the uh, the makeup," he complimented you, gesturing towards his own face.
"Same to you. Skull-- very nice." You nodded slowly, unsure of the conversation's direction.
"Thanks. That mine?" he asked you, pointing at your headband.
Turning pink, you gave a small chuckle. "Uh yeah, just you know--" you said dismissively. "No costume..."
"Ah, I see I see. So, you here with someone?"
"No, no I'm not." You felt a bit surprised by his question, it seemed somewhat bold in a way. You both stood around some more, staring at each other and then looking away only to subtly shift your arms together.
"Alright well, I'm gonna ask you again," he suddenly spoke up. "Did you miss me?"
You didn't want to answer him truthfully, yet you didn't want to just lie to him.
"I did."
It seemed as though those two words were all he needed to hear to do what he did next. Immediately moving his hands to your face, he leaned into a kiss, wasting no time in slipping his tongue into your mouth. It was far more different than the kisses you guys shared before, this time it felt like your mouths were on fire and the other person's was water; the only way to extinguish it. Your hands were still at your side, allowing him to do most of the work.
Pulling away, you swallowed thickly, trying to process what had just happened. He gave a small, amused huff before dropping his head down to face the ground as you stood there dazed.
"I don't think we should..." you started, trying to find the words. "Like just not here right...?"
Theodore looked at the lively party and nodded as he looked back at you. "You're right. Let's find someplace else."
He grabbed your hand lightly, walking you out the door, and leaving the party. You weren't sure why, but you let him, trailing behind him, trying to keep your steps light in the corridors.
"Come on, there's this classroom-- always unlocked," he smiled at you. "Bit far though," he added. You didn't mind. The anticipation and excitement of getting back with Theodore fogged your mind, shooting out every other piece of information that ever resided in your brain.
He brought you to the stairs and you started to descend, but your heels echoed loudly. "Careful, it's past curfew," he said, bringing a finger to his mouth.
"Sorry, sorry!" you whispered. "I can't it's my shoes."
Theodore stopped mid-step and so did you. His head darted around in all directions looking to see if someone was approaching. "Up you go," he said. Before you could possibly protest, he picked you up off the ground, allowing you to wrap your legs around his torso. He placed one of his hands around your back to support you, the other on your ass.
Despite the extra weight, he seemed to have no problem walking at his normal speed, quickly going down the many flights of stairs until you both reached the ground floor. He opened the door to a classroom, shutting it behind you guys before placing you to sit on the teacher's desk in the front of the room. You observed the classroom, your mouth slowly growing wider.
"Theo-- this is McGonagall's room! She's going to fucking kill us!"
He shook his head to reassure you. "She's not going to find out, don't worry."
You looked uncertain and he said nothing, trying to give you some time to believe him.
"Theo?" you piped up.
"Mm?" he answered, leaning on his hand placed on the table you sat on.
"Why did we break up?" you asked him.
He had a smirk on his face, but you could tell he felt as bad as you did. "What do you mean? You broke up with me."
"No I mean, why did we break up? Why did you start acting like that?" You drew invisible circles on the desk, adverting eye contact.
"I was an idiot," he scoffed. "I just- I just got scared. Always felt bad you were too good for me," he said, starting to get agitated with himself. "You're so sweet you know. I'm," he shrugged. He cupped your face with his hands, making you look at him.
"Didn't wanna drag you down with me."
You opened your mouth again to argue, but he brought his finger to your lips before leaning back in for another kiss. You felt his hands all over your body and you brought yours to his jawline. The kisses started soft, clean. But they became sloppy as he went down to kiss your neck.
"I'll be different now," he breathed out. "I promise."
His kisses grew more intense and you couldn't help but let out low whimpers as he reached the top of your chest. He took your shirt off, taking a step back to admire the view of you in your lacy white bra. He unclasped your bra, hanging it on the handle of McGonagall's closet next to her desk.
Never having gotten this far in your previous relationship, he gave a low gasp, cupping one of your tits in his large hands. Fondling you lightly, he then pinched a nipple between his fingers, suppressing his laughter as he watched you squirm on the desk. He bent over slightly taking the other nipple in his mouth.
Having his hand on your tit, combined with him gently sucking the other, you gave out quiet moans, clawing at the edge of McGonagall's desk. Pulling his head away, a string of saliva still connecting his lips to your nipple, he stood back up, bringing his hands to your waist.
He pulled your skirt down your thighs, letting it fall to your ankles. He kneeled down on the ground, shuffling closer to you.
The sight of his face between your legs, his face with the skeleton makeup on, practically had you shaking in excitement. He kept his eyes on you the whole time; as he moved the underwear sticking to your wet cunt aside, lightly trailed a finger over your wet folds, and as he moved his head closer, slipping his hot tongue into you.
"Mmm, T-theo..." you whined as he brought his tongue deeper inside of you. He flicked his tongue around, exploring freely, the sounds coming out sounding far more erotic than what you were used to.
His tongue slipped out of your cunt, and he used it to circle around your clit, eliciting shaky moans from your mouth as you bought your hands to his hair. Your eyes began to water and you felt your orgasm nearing. About to crush his skull with the way you wanted to squeeze your thighs together, your legs shook against the sides of his head.
Theodore placed his hands on your knees, spreading your legs further apart, continuing to travel around your folds with his tongue with increased speed. Before you could orgasm, he pulled away suddenly, making you whine loudly in surprise.
"Theodore..." you said, tugging on his hair. He stood up and began to unbuckle his belt, slipping his pants off.
"Be patient sweetheart," he smiled. His boxers fell down his legs next, his glistening cock springing out. You placed your hands behind your back on the desk to support yourself as you stayed seated and he guided the tip of his cock with your entrance.
You felt a bit afraid, this being your first time having sex with Theodore, and it seemed like he could tell because he tilted your chin up softly and said, "I'll go slow okay?"
You nodded sheepishly, letting him push into you slowly. A tear rolled down your face, some of your deer makeup coming off. He let out a guttural moan as he inserted his large cock fully into your cunt, beginning to move slowly in and out of you.
"F-fuck," you whispered. He found your reaction cute when you looked wide-eyed at him, face contorting with pleasure.
"Got it?" he asked you. You nodded quickly, giving him the message that you were okay. "Yeah, yeah... you can take it," he whispered in your ear.
He went at a moderate pace, not wanting to overexert you for your first time.
"Theo-- Theo!" you huffed out. He stopped, backing away so that only the head of his cock was still in your sopping cunt.
"Yeah, what's up? Are you okay?" he said in concern.
"Faster..." you requested meekly. "Please?"
Surprised but not complaining, he gave a lowly chuckle, practically grinning from ear to ear.
"If that's what my good girl wants."
He increased his pace, thrusting into you quickly. Your soaking folds allowed him back in every time he pulled out. He took your tits into his hands again, twisting and pinching as he simultaneously pumped in and out of you.
Both of your moans filled the room; his low and paced, yours messy and uncontrolled.
You neared an orgasm again and you could tell he was about to come as his hair became mussed and a light layer of sweat glistened on him.
"Shit... Do you want me to come inside? Is that what you want?"
"Y-yes!" you answered desperately. Your legs shook and you threw your head back as your orgasm washed over you, his following suit right after.
His ropes of release filled your insides, beginning to seep out. He pulled out, looking at the mess he made you. He readjusted the headband on you.
"I love you."
You looked at him, mouth somewhat agape before uttering, "I love you too."
He grabbed your head, planting a kiss on your forehead before helping you off the desk and onto your feet. You looked at him hesitantly.
"Does this mean I'm your girl again?"
"Well..." he feigned uncertainty, giving you a gallic shrug.
"Don't tease..." you complained, leaning into him.
"Sorry, y'know I can't help it," he grinned. "And you never stopped being my girl."
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