#like i was afraid to do hw on the white board w my friend in case someone else saw and butted in and started belittling my work or something

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ive talked about this before but god i understand why physics is a male dominated field now. I understand. i havent even faced anything horrifically bad like other universities have (the horror stories … the rampant sexual harassment and assault ….. by god) but just the general culture is so fucking antagonistic. every single conversation is like a competition to see who’s smarter it’s so nerve wracking and deeply fucking annoying. sorry i just keep thinking back to a week or so ago when i was showing off my shitty jupiter pics in a mocking way, like i was purposefully saying “look at how bad my jupiter pic is, lol, lmao, isnt it so bad that its funny, lol” and then i showed it to this one guy and he was like genuinely critiquing it and it just ruined the mood. like dude. im even making fun of myself for you already why do you have to rub it in even more. he was like “whats with those colors” i was like well thats chromatic aberration and he even said “that doesnt look like chromatic aberration” like pray tell what the fuck else is it then! why are you trying to sound smarter than me in a conversation when im already fucking making fun of myself. Lord almighty