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pepprs · 4 years ago

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having many thought’s and realization’s this week and one of them is.... i fucking hate the conventional (western / american / white supremacist / capitalist / etc culture) approach to change. i don’t know how to articulate it well im very tired but im angry @ how much damage these like.. constructs! and linear ways ofnthinking or whatever.. have caused and how the ripples of that r so... felt. Idk

#purrs #just like. mad abt trauma on every level i guess. like ppl think that they are powerless to do anything to meaningufllt address problems and #electrd officials are the ones w all the power. and all we can do is donate and sign petitions and votr and do community service and shit an #and all of that is important but irs also like.. ah. idk how to explain it my stomach is like. Twisting Witb Existential Dread but..... its.#its more than that. its more than that! we can make change in our own communities. we can be intentional abt building community and sense of #place and consequentiality and connectednness in2 thise things. and like. idk im explaining it bad and kicking myself 4 explaining it bad bu #but the very SETUP and FRAMING and HISTORIES and CONTEXTS of these conventional approaches 2 making change... like they actually are so..#flawed and disempowering. on purpose. and they dont have to be. we can be intentional abt giving ppl space to discover their own agency and #shit. its thst same question that i think i want to answer w my life: how do u CREATE THE CONDITIONS... what ARE the conditions. in which in #any space or phenomenon ppl feel empowered to make meaningful change. and recognize the power in their lived experiences. what are the #capacities and shit ppl need 2 have in order to do thst and how do we build them while also navigating all these other crises. and i kinda #am answering that question w my life rn um. but i actually.. i dont know. im just thinking abt how the ppl around me feel powerless and #how our traumas and experiences w feeling poeerless and shit can hold us back and its like how do u shift ur perspective so the those #experiences....... like!!!! so u can.. idk reinterpret it and find new meaning that Does empower u. and showing ppl that theyre not alone in #what theyve gone thru even if the circumstances r different. i dont know what im saying im just emotional abt this it literally. fucking #keeps me up at night trying 2 think abt it and feelinf like i dont have the words but also knowing i do and that im learning them. which is #in a way exactly the thing im trying to talk abt so its meta J SH SKFJDH. idk who reads these or if it makes sense im just Riled And Stirred #and im gonna be honest so many of the posts i see on here and on social media in geberal r like.. distressing bc theres always something....#disempowering! like smth that ..... idk how to describe it. like smth thst negates ppl or likr... idk i think u have to reach 2 the core of #a person thru their dtory thats all. and ppl dont do that cuz thats not how we... Do things and it should be and the fact that it isnt is a #lot to unpack on maby vectors of like. capitalism and white supremacy etc and its like. idk my brain is spinning out of control idk how 2 r #rein it in and im gonna hit tag limit but i just. am thinking a lot but its not making me any less scared which is ok bc i can use that. ok #i think im done now idk what injust saidnbut im gonna hit post now #likenwhat does mutual aid look like? what do reparations look like? what does giving land back look like? how do these processes happen in w #ways that r genuinely supportive and empowriring 2 marginalized communities and not subtly disempoweringg. i think is what im trying to say #or something along those lines i guess um. its like creating the conditions 2 imagine those things where they dont uet exist. i think #oh fuck there r so many tags on this post it doesnt even show up in my talk tag KDHSKDHSKDHDJ HELP

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