#kabby mom is tired

[kane-and-griffin]

What's your opinion of Jason, given all the BTS drama, the disaster that was s3 and what went down with C/exa and now Bella/ke? (what if that ship doesn't sail? even with all the social media frenzy around that one now) Is it possible you're being an apologist for him?

Hi anon! 

If your assumption is that I am an apologist for Jason, I’m going to assumeyou’re probably new to this blog (welcome!) and have not listened to thepodcast I co-host, Meta Station.  We recapped all of 3B here and I suspectif you listen to any of the episodes that will put that matter to rest prettyquickly.)

If you are new, you might have missed my “I’m no longer taking anons askingme to defend why I still like this show” policy (which you can read here). I answered that question once, at great length, here,and I try to avoid repeating myself where possible.

My opinion of Jason is that I’m done just kind of bitching about himrecreationally, tbh.  I have draggedJason, you have dragged Jason, we have all dragged Jason, it has been agloriously unifying fandom pastime, and there was a time when we probably allfound it cathartic, but I no longer think it serves us and I don’t think itmakes this fandom a better place.  I am only human, I may slip up fromtime to time, especially if he does something really boneheaded, but I amtrying VERY HARD to get myself out of the dragging Jason Rothenberg business.

That said, if you have a particular, specific question about how I feelabout a writing choice, a character choice, or something concrete like that,I’m always happy to take those.  On our podcast, Erin and I critique hisstorytelling choices at LENGTH and have never been quiet about the places wherewe think the writing has been lazy, irresponsible, thoughtless about tropes,fandom-baiting, or just bad storytelling.  In addition, I think based oneverything we all know and hear coming out of the continual BTS rumors, as I’vementioned many times in recent posts, it sounds like for at least a couple ofthe cast members he creates/has created a really difficult workingenvironment.  And yes, I think there were some catastrophically badchoices in S3 - not just Lexa (whose death I have blogged about before here),but the character assassination of Bellamy, the fridging of Gina, the erasureand the death of Lincoln coupled with the way it sounds like Ricky was beingtreated personally, the gross Murphy/Ontari thing - and I think it’s wise that the network brought in a newco-executive producer as a tactful indication that they know Jason needs alittle reining-in. 

That said, I don’t think he’s Satan, I don’t think any human being deservesto have people tweet “kill yourself” at them over and over, and I am cautiouslyoptimistic that he has learned some really key lessons from the fallout ofS3.  We’ll see how S4 progresses, and we’ll know what we know when we knowit, but I’m hopeful and positive that this season could be great, and I’m notinterested in apologizing for that.

If your assumption that I’m an apologist from him stems with some of therecent posts in response to fears about cancellation, what I have been sayingover and over is that the NETWORK continues to support Jason, believe in hisvision, show enthusiasm for the stories he is telling, and speak positively ofhim and the show.

I do want to point out, however, that it sounds to me like the question youare at heart asking is “Jason fucked up Clexa and might fuck up Bellarke, whydon’t you hate him and this show more,” which I am happy to answer because thisgives me a chance to remind you that you have sent that question to A KABBY BLOG.Whether Bellarke or Clexa or neither is endgame isn’t why I watch this show, soit is not a dealbreaker for me. 

I have said this before, many times, and I will say it again, VERY LOUDLY,in boldface and italic type:

it is very frustrating for all the rest of us in the fandom who don’tlabel ourselves as “Bellarke” or “Clexa” to be addressed as though absolutelynothing else on this show matters except those two ships. 

I plan to continue watching the show with enthusiasm.  It’s fine if youdon’t.  That’s a personal choice.  But I loved a lot of things in S3that had nothing to do with Bellarke or Clexa, and I am sure I will find a lotof things in S4 to love that have nothing to do with Bellarke or Clexa, becausefor me this show is not about Bellarke and Clexa.  If it is for you,that’s fine!  We all consume media differently.  But I don’t thinkit’s being an apologist for Jason to feel, for example, that the show is stilltelling really important stories about all kinds of different representation thatdeserve to continue to be dignified, and I don’t think it’s erasing the crappystuff he’s done to say that he’s also done a lot of things really, really well.

Here, in no particular order, is a list of just some of the many things Iloved about S3 that I want to make sure are not erased or drowned out by thenegatives of S3:

Literally every single moment Kane or Abby wereonscreen, separately or together, especially THE KISS and THE PRISON SCENE and THE CHEEK KISS andTHE FINALE HUG and BEING PLOT-RELEVANT

The whole City of Light/ALIE storyline,especially its connection to Grounder mythology

Lindsey’s performance in “Nevermore”

Briller

Indra

There were a lot of big writing/editing problems in the Bellamy/Pike/Kane storyline, but hot damn those performances were fantastic

Becca and the Polaris flashbacks

Roan and Luna

Kanetavia/Rebel!Dad with Harper and Miller

Jasper’s PTSD arc

Monty getting a new level of nuance and complexity

Sinclair getting all the dialogue they probablywrote for Wick and getting to really flesh out his bond with Raven

The Griffin women finally getting the chance toteam up and save the day

Multiple Wells callbacks

Jake callbacks for both Abby and Clarke (especially “I can’t do this again”)

Niylah

Murphy’s entire arc (obviously not counting the creepy Ontari sexual assault/consent violation thing), especially the Indra/Piketrio and his finale teamup with Abby

Raven’s entire arc – running from her pain, thenpushing through it, then becoming a superhero without her injury ever beingdismissed or minimized

The new Arkadia sets, the Rover, and the waythey depicted the Sky People gradually settling in and building a home

Jaha’s slow-burn three-season good guy tovillain arc

I’m excited and enthusiastic about S4, as is pretty much everyone I know inthe Kabby fandom.  It’s okay if you aren’t.  That’s a personalchoice.  But the fact that I’d never take a job working for JasonRothenberg because he sounds like a really awful boss doesn’t mean I’mobligated to hate the way he tells stories or want his show to becanceled. 

I gently encourage you to let go of any assumptions you may have that thepeople who continue to enjoy this show are doing so blindly or stupidly, thatliking the show is a blanket endorsement of all a showrunner’s worst personaland professional choices, or that people who like a thing you don’t like do sobecause they’re not as smart as you are and they haven’t figured out that they’rewrong for liking it.  

I love this show enough that I have never kept my mouth shut when thewriters make choices I object to.  I lovethis show enough to believe it can bear the weight of a substantial amount ofthoughtful criticism from a wide and diverse range of perspectives, and Ibelieve doing so is vital.  

If you just want to tell me Jason is a garbage person and you’re annoyedthat I still like things he’s doing, then I’m afraid I can’t actually help you. If you are here to be an informed, thoughtful critic of this show and are interested in debate, you will always be welcome.  I would just ask you to maybe consider, for next time, the limits of this binary assumption that Clexa and Bellarke are the only aspects of this show that anyone cares about. 

[ellanainthetardis]

Hello! It’s me! I’ve been in a bit of roll writing Kabby one shots/drabbles lately so I guess... Hi! I’m back! So here, have some domestic modern Au... @akachankami said it was good enough to be released into the wild so... Yep.

[ff] or [ao3]

The Appeasing Virtues Of Baths

The relief Marcus felt when the front door of his house closed behind him was immediate. It didn’t matter that he hadn’t been living there for more than three months or that the transition hadn’t been as smooth as everyone had wished, Abby’s house already felt like home to him.

The moment he shed his jacket and placed it on the coat rack, the moment he slipped off his shoes and aligned them by the door with the others, it felt like finally letting go of the wrongness of his day.

It was late and the house was very quiet. He had missed dinner for sure and he felt a pang of regret because both he and Abby had said they would try to limit missing dinners as much as possible and it was the third time this week it had happened. It wasn’t entirely his fault, being a Detective was time-consuming – as time-consuming as being a highly qualified general surgeon and the previous week it was Abby who had missed more dinners than she had wanted.

Marcus headed to the kitchen because he couldn’t hear the rumble of the TV in the living-room. He found Clarke perched on the stool at the central island, already in her comfortable PJs, her blond hair pulled back in a high ponytail.

“Hey.” the teenager greeted him distractedly, barely looking up from her books. “You’re back late.”

It always felt a little like he was walking on eggshells around Clarke, she tended to get defensive sometimes when not outright resentful. He didn’t want to take a space that wasn’t his to take, he cherished the memory of Jake too, but it was difficult when his own kids had adopted Abby so easily.

“Work.” he mumbled, too tired to think of a proper sentence.

He opened the fridge and stared, trying to find the strength to put a sandwich together.

“We kept some lasagna in the oven for you.” Clarke offered suddenly, finally looking up. “It should still be warm.”

He thanked her and fetched the dish. It was more lukewarm than anything and it could have done with reheating but he didn’t remember if he had stopped for lunch and he was starving so he ate it like that, still in the main dish, sitting on one of the free stools.

“Where’s everyone?” he asked, once he had some food in his belly and his brain accepted to work properly again.

“Bellamy went out with his friends.” she hummed. “Octavia is somewhere upstairs and Mom is taking a bath. I’m stuck with homework.”

He glanced at the books, noticed it was History and perked up a little. “Anything I can help with?”  

“Thanks but I’m good and you look like you’re about to crash.” Clarke half-mocked half-teased. “Did you catch the killer?”

His face fell and he took a forkful of lasagna to delay his answer. It tasted like ashes in his mouth. Just like that, the events of the days came back in his mind and his home was invaded with the unwelcomed violence of the outside world.

That case was testing his faith in humanity.

“Not yet.” he sighed. He shook his head. “You and O are being careful, right? Don’t go alone anywhere.”

Clarke rolled her eyes. “Buddy system. You said that a hundred times already. We got it.”

He hoped they did. He couldn’t think of anything more terrible than ever finding his daughter or his stepdaughter’s bodies.

He really wasn’t hungry anymore so he put the lasagna away, wished her good luck with her homework and headed upstairs.

He stopped at Octavia’s closed door, unable not to smile at the music coming from inside. It wasn’t a normal day if he didn’t ask the girl to lower her music. Not unlike Clarke, Octavia barely greeted him, too focused on whatever she was doing on her computer.

He wished her goodnight, closed the door and finally headed for his own bedroom, wondering if they had finally reached the stage when the kids didn’t need them anymore. Bellamy was already working, the girls would graduate from high school soon enough and leave for college…

It all went too fast.

Far too fast for him to keep on missing dinners…

The master bedroom was empty but the lights were on. He took the time to place his gun in the drawer of his nightstand, and then discarded the tie, the shirt and the belt before making his way to the bathroom.

As Clarke had promised, Abby was in the bathtub. There was a glass of wine abandoned on the floor and the same novel she had been trying to finish for a whole month propped open on the edge of the tub. She had been staring at the wall but lighted up when she spotted him, her eyes roaming over his bare chest with amusement – and a little hunger.

“That’s not a bad view.” she teased.

“Mine isn’t terrible either.” he replied, his lips stretching into a smile. The foam had mostly disappeared and he could guess at the shape of her body in the water. “Is there enough room for two in there?”

She relocated the book to the sink and shifted forward so he could sit behind her. It took a few minutes but they managed to make it work well enough. Eventually, she relaxed back against his chest, trapped between his thighs and Marcus took his first real breath since he had left the house that morning. His arms wrapped around her stomach and she gently stroke his forearms in a way that could lull him to sleep very fast.

“I lost a patient.” she whispered.

He tightened his embrace a little. “I’m sorry.”

She squeezed his arm but left it unacknowledged. There was nothing else to say. The same way he couldn’t save all the victims, she couldn’t save all the people who came to her for surgery. Not everything was fixable in life.

“How was your day?” she asked, turning her head to nuzzle his neck.

He couldn’t help the bitter chuckles. “Terrible.” He didn’t want to think about it again. About the blood, the gore, the violence. He liked the peacefulness of the moment, just being there with Abby. “It’s getting better though.”

He felt her smile against his skin, then there was the brush of her lips against his Adam’s apple.

“I love you, you know.” she reminded him.

He pressed a kiss on the crown of her head, narrowly avoiding the jaw clip that kept her hair up. “I love you too.”

And, somehow, that was always enough.

[shefollowedfires]

Kabby reluctant soulmates season 1 AU!

Okay I hope you know I literally went “OH SHIT” when this popped up in my inbox. This is amazing.

So, Vera has always known.

She knew because she had the unique ability to discern every pair of soulmates on the Ark. When a match would cross paths, she’d see a flash of light, almost like a halo or aura, momentarily surrounding the duo in question. But a soulmate is far from a rare thing - there are tons of them to be found, to varying degrees. This, Vera discerns by colour and quality of that aura. A short flicker of red, they might be good friends. A pulse of yellow, they’re almost certainly suited for marriage. With the minimal population of the Ark, married couples tended to settle for being somewhere around amber - anything higher was rare. And that’s if they bothered to ask.

Many people, like her son Marcus, considered the whole thing to be a sham.

When Vera married, she married a man who radiated a sunny gold. He was the brightest match she’d seen thus far, and she considered herself impossibly lucky to have found and kept him. He was a passionate man, artistic - a dreamer. But life on the Ark wasn’t easy for dreamers. And so, the parts of him that didn’t quite fit with her, the parts of him that kept him from being an even better match, began to show through. While Vera chose to cling to her faith, Marcus’ father decided he didn’t have that kind of strength, and slowly succumbed to any coping mechanism he could find to deal with the pain of dreams that will never come true. He drank. He slept around. But Vera, knowing he was her finest match, stuck by him. She had to believe in the parts of them that they shared, and the parts of them that complemented each other.

She had to believe, because as they watched her husband’s humiliating fall from grace, her followers dwindled, and whispers travelled quickly throughout the Ark that she was little more than a pathetic madwoman.

For an attentive child like Marcus, these whispers were difficult to ignore. He was helpless as he seemingly watched his family destroy itself. When his father was ultimately floated on charges of forgery - a crime he’d tried to justify to his wife and young son as “trying to build a better life for us” - Marcus told himself he should have been surprised. Shocked. Devastated. He should have felt fucking anything at all. But as the breath was sucked from his father’s lungs, there was only white noise. And, sickeningly, a whisper of…. relief.

Maybe now, without his father, he and Vera could rebuild themselves. Maybe they could emerge stronger. Maybe she would finally give up her delusions.

She nearly did.

Marcus, already a naturally-intelligent kid, threw himself into his schooling, determined to find a better - more legitimate - way to make a better life for his family. And he did: he was easily selected for the private post-secondary academy that would put him on track towards a leadership role on the Ark, on full scholarship. But he largely kept to himself about his studies, and those he met along the way - and so, it wasn’t until his graduation that she finally saw her.—The ceremony had been cold and somewhat alienating, Vera painfully aware that she sat alone amid a crowd comprised almost entirely of Alpha Station elites. Marcus had already received his certificate as part of the Law Enforcement division, which had gone first, being the largest class; but she was forced to wait through all the others as he returned to the wings for the award ceremony that would follow. He was to be recognized as the top of his class. She had never been more proud. But the more time went on, the harder the anxiety was to quell.But as soon as Abigail Walters’ name was called during the Medical division, the effect was instant. She set foot onstage, and Vera was flooded with a supernatural, overwhelming calm.The girl had an easy smile as she crossed the stage to receive her license from the Head of Medical, immediately foregoing formality to throw her arms around the older man in a grateful embrace. Cheers erupted from a multitude of friends and family. There was something truly special that effortlessly radiated from her, and Vera made a note to herself to ask her son if they’d ever crossed paths. At the celebration that followed the ceremony, Marcus insisted sternly that it didn’t matter, that she didn’t matter, that “please, mom, you’re starting to sound like… like you used to”. And Vera tried, really, she did. She tried to put away those thoughts that were pounding inside her skull like sledgehammers, tried not to search out the girl’s beaming, beautiful face in the crowd while Marcus chatted up his peers. But this was a task not easily done while the girl was politely dismissing herself from her entourage - congratulating her on her own award as top of her class - and pointedly making her way over to Vera’s son. He instantly stiffened. “Abby,” he greeted.“Kane,” she returned, a coy smirk on her lips. So she did know her son. “Just wanted to offer you my congrats,” she cheered, extending her hand. Marcus pursed his lips before reaching out to complete the shake. There was a flash. No, this was a flood of light - almost blinding, a swift crescendo from red to gold, and then right to a white so pure it was almost blue. It swept through the entire room before Vera’s eyes, casting their surroundings in a bright, ethereal glow for what felt like an eternity.It vanished with the sound of Marcus’ voice, and Vera had to blink away the onset of tears as she introduced herself. “Are you alright?” Abby inquired gently, her warm smile edged with concern.Vera nodded.“I’m just so happy for Marcus,” she answered, with a truth she knew none of them could possibly know. —She knew better than to confront him right away about the matter. It was years later, in fact, when she realized just how hard he was bucking her attempts to nudge him towards Abby, that it finally slipped out. She didn’t even mean anything by it, really. She was tired, and frustrated with the way his new relationship with Callie seemed to be hitting wall after wall, and she really just meant it as a way out. That’s all. He erupted. He was furious that after all this time, after how hard he’d worked, after everything they’d been through - she still held onto the beliefs that had almost destroyed them. She wanted to let go, for him, but this was impossible to ignore, and her son’s stubbornness wasn’t just inherited from his father. So they parted ways. He went to stay in the Guard barracks, she stayed in their family quarters alone. We’ve seen how it played out after that. He became Head of the Guard, the Chancellor’s lieutenant, with his own quarters in Alpha Station. He’d built what he thought was a better life for himself. But Abby was still there, closer in orbit to him than ever before, a constant reminder of what had torn his family apart - and what he’d now done to contribute to that.And Vera was still there, quietly watching from the sidelines, praying over her son’s life. Only God could help him now, for certainly she could not. Should not.The sudden reality of Earth awoke something in her, however, that promised redemption not only for her, but for her son, for her husband - for the dreamers inside each of them that had been mercilessly buried in their own ways by life on the Ark. It felt right, somehow, for Abby to be the one to rush over to her and make the prognosis that this was, indeed, the end for her. It felt right to have that calming presence by her side. It felt right that the driving force behind their mission to the ground, the source of Vera’s every hope, would be the one to close this chapter of her story.It felt right that - as her son looked into Abby’s eyes with a raw, open vulnerability she herself hadn’t witnessed in decades - Vera got to see that bright, beautiful flood of light one last time.And so, a new chapter began. 

[team-adults-blog]

4.07 Gimme Shelter

They didn’t even get the rights to play the Stone’s song. 

Let’s talk about chicken nuggets, Grey’s Anatomy, and Ethics.

HERE WE GOOOOO THAT BLACK RAIN IS REAL

Damn everyone just stripped. Hero boys out to save that kid Harper left for dead.

FUUUUCKKKKKKKKKK. I literally had to pause the show and take a moment to calm down. Everyone’s half nakey. I can handle this. It’s just that it’s EVERYONE. ALL AT ONCE. 

“Why don’t you make a fire, you’re good at that” OOOHHHH Octaviaaaaa burn him. Puns.

Big bro Jackson showing Clarke around like a cool bro should. Abby’s smile is radiating (hah) sunshine and can provide all the solar energy that rocket needs. Jackson is so happy for her. Sachin is the best because he only gets these little moments and kills every single one. 

AWWW she needed to see her mom and get a hug. This is so nice. They used to be pretty mad at each other over dumb misunderstandings and now look at them. I’ve missed you so much. It’s important to remember Clarke is what, like 16-17? Listen. She may have been forced to grow up but you’re allowed to turn into a kid again when you go home. I made my mom buy me chicken nuggets over break and I’m older than Clarke so get wrecked. Here I am, going to brewerys with friends and coming home for the nuggets. But I’m like. An adult. So I make them in the oven and not the microwave. Plus you don’t have to count how many nuggets per 11 minutes. You can have as many as you want. This is important to me because I have no self-control. I also talked my friend into buying the dino chicken nuggets so I’ve basically been living off of beer, nuggets, and smoothies. I’m the picture of health.

Raven’s sedated? AKA you couldn’t get her to take it easy. When was the last time you slept? Um. Try the last episode? Murphy wasn’t only asking do I need to go get the doc, but also do I need to go wake the doc. “I’ll sleep soon enough, one way or another” to quote my cutie patootie B, “dark” aaannnndddd Jackson told on you to Clarke anyways because he knew you’d try this crap. 

Bone marrow? Literally Mt. Weather. Ethicssss. Clarke, why are you not alarmed? DOCTOR LORELEI TSING WAS DOING SOMETHING VERY SIMILAR TO YOU MOTHER (who should also remember this) AND NEITHER OF YOU ARE TALKING ETHICS EXPLICITLY TO EACH OTHER? It’s different because Luna is “ok” with giving you her bone marrow, but creating a human test subject against their will? Whoaaa, Nelly. Glad we’re not rushing into this yet. And Emori is going to misinterpret things. Abs is going to make it voluntary like the culling, right? You don’t need to freak out.

Clarke gets laid, 2 hugs, a SHOWER, and a NAP. All in 2 episodes. She is living the dream. That nap is what she needed to be calm and collected later.

Jump scare! Oh shit someone’s here. I hate this. It’s scary. I fucking screamed so loud. I’m hella tired and saw it coming and still. Apparently I use real swear words and more of them when I’m tired.

Yeah, Murphy! Kill ‘em with a cutting board! My weapon of choice in that kitchen. It’s sturdy and will knock a dude out. 2nd choice in that kitchen is a frying pan because it has a handle. #tangled You’d think knives right? You have to be able to get close to use a knife, and that grounder could kick my ass. My strategy: hit him with something sturdy and solid- not heavy because then he’ll see it coming- and then if he’s not k.o.’d  get him in a headlock. we’re not about stab wounds. we’re about concussions. #5andcounting

Guys Forever is coming back! What a good ad too. “It’s a long story.” I screamed. CW cancels a show for low viewership even though it has an interesting plot, only to bring it back 2 years later. “It’s a long story” covers both the behind the scenes process of bringing it back and how he came back to life this time. The water coming out of the body locker? Fantastic. I knew instantly. But I didn’t believe it until I saw his face. I am excited. Amanda in France is excited.

Bellamy distracted driving in the rain and gets stuck in the mud. Kane has zero ability to help. Awful. All he can do is say sit tight, babe. You’re self-sacrificial, but come one. This sucks so much.

Octavia and Ilian stuck in an elevator I mean cave (thanks B for identifying the actual name of the trope because I was just calling it cave but you’re smarter than me). What a classic way to make two people talk or hook up. Have y’all seen Greys Anatomy? People would just halt the elevator to have an important conversation and/or sex. I should have maybe realized this is what it’s called earlier...They’re not using it as much currently (S13 baby), but it got so bad in the early years it became a bit of a running joke that gets carried onto the spin-off, Private Practice:

This screen grab (from the google.com) may actually be from Grey’s while they were still trying to sell the spin-off. Like when Psych had that The Finder episode? I don’t remember, it’s been years. Anyways, on The 100 they’ve used the trope a little more tactfully: S1 Finn/Clarke hook up and acid fog, S2 Kabby talk about deserving/not deserving salvation in Ton DC. Uh there are most def more but I give up.

The trope for the cave scene felt very in your face, glaringly obvious. Ilian tells Octavia his sad story, then he says it’s her turn. O’s gonna pass. Feeling numb hard. But everytime I find myself saying “fuck it, I’m tired of being this way” a little voice (my conscious, not the scary ones) tells me that the “I’d rather feel pain than nothing at all” mindset is actually incredibly unhealthy and dangerous. The show could have played the entire song “Pain” by Three Day’s Grace and it would have been spot on for what’s happening in this scene (except for who’s actually initiating the sex). “Just make me feel something else,” that’s using someone. That’s how you get in trouble with people because you’re not taking their emotions into consideration. So maybe Ilian does want this, but it’s clearly not the way he would want it. He pushes Octavia away more than once before he gives in. It’s so clear from an outside perspective that it’s wrong, and yet it makes sense emotionally. To me at least. I have a lot of repressed memories that are surfacing and I would like to shove them back down where they belong so we’re just going to leave this and go somewhere less personal.

“It’s good to hear your voice.” Damn right I would rather talk about Kabby. SOOOOO sorry to be the bearer of bad news but we’re running out of water Abs. We’re getting pretty desperate. I trust you 100% to make the right choice on your medical ethics question. This whole conversation is great because Paige and Ian are acting alone in radio scenes; they’re not feeding off each other. Being able to bring up that emotion by yourself is commendable (for Bob too) and they’re all so lovely. Back to the plot- Kane has made poor decisions before, most notably the culling, and Abby has pretty much always been on the right side of the moral issue, trusting the people to volunteer. Abby will do the right thing, she always does is Kane’s angle from being wrong as well as building this trusting and loving little thing. Speaking of which, Clarke you didn’t send his love? Sure they radioed later but. This isn’t a “tell them I say hi!” from my mom whenever I go to my brother’s house. This is important! (sorry mom) Now, the questions:

Take a life to save everyone? Is it murder? Even if we don’t call it murder, could I live with myself if I did this? Whenever philosophical questions come up, I want more details before I commit to a side. Specific circumstances will drive the answers. Unfortunately, they’re operating under a lie Emori is telling everyone, a lie that says, he’s a bad guy. A really bad guy. Even if we’re not 100% ok that this is a forcible injection of nightblood and then we’ll see if he dies or can run out into the world, it’s not like we’re doing this to a sweet child. Clarke reassures Abby that it’s a good decision, but Abby was about to do it anyway, so are they framing it as Clarke holding more responsibility? Or did they just want to give her some? Everyone there shares the responsibility- I won’t call it blame just yet because they don’t know- but doing this gives Clarke a bigger piece? Will finding out the circumstances they think are driving the situation are lies change how they feel about their decision?  Of course! Will Abby feel incredibly guilty? Of course! Does it matter to anything other than your conscious that he’s not the bad person Emori lead you to believe he was? You still made the decision to do this against his will. What a #fun plot to explore, especially with Murphy knowing it’s a lie as well. It’s not if the others find out, but when.

The Blakes and dad!Kane are ripping my heart apart. Kane’s just trying to keep Bellamy safe and reassure him. He missteps. Big. “your mother would be proud of the man you’ve become. I know I am.” He reads that Bellamy need to know he’s doing a good job despite things being out of his control. If he had said “I’m proud of you” he would have been fine. But. Ya didn’t. “You floated my mother.” Damn. He sure did. For having Octavia, the other kid you’re highkey trying to parent. Nothing like a good reminder that all of the delinquents have good reasons to hate/ fear Kane because he put them all there. Jaha gave the order to drop them on the Earth, but S1 Kane arrested them and floated a lot of their families (which makes the dad!Kane bits a little sad). It’s a nice slap in the face to wake up and remember ALL of the character development he’s gone through since the pilot. He’s incredible now, but he still has a lot of baggage he hasn’t had to really deal with aside from Octavia and Abby. He and Clarke never even talked about it back S2 when they started teaming up bit by bit.

He blunders the Harper situation because he’s too worried about Bellamy, Peter and Mark/Matthew (I’ve already forgotten which) and Abby. “Who you want to be doesn’t always win.” Ok. True. But that’s a shitty thing to say to Harper who’s already feeling like shit and has told you she’s wrecked with guilt. You dropped the ball there. ESPECIALLY when you’re trying to comfort Octavia after she ALMOST murders Ilian TWO HOURS AGO. ??????. Harper not off killing people, she just freaked out in a crowd/mob/crazed herd environment and this guy grabbed her. She shook him off and instead of fighting to help him, she lets herself be pushed along by the crowd. She’s not a terrible person, her guilt is evident of that.

Bellamy gets back- how did he dig that rover out of the mud all by himself? Kane tries to apologize, Bellamy flips his line from earlier back in his face. “You can’t save someone who doesn’t want to be saved.” I can’t save Octavia. You can’t save me. Savage. Gut punch. Which must be even worse when you think about how those arms pushed a 2,000 lb rover out of the mud. Boy packs a punch. Poor Kane. He deserved it after bringing up Aurora Blake, that doesn’t make it hurt less.

Octavia throws her weapons away and is taking Ilian home. She doesn’t want to fight anymore. I’m glad, but I’m not sure how sleeping with Ilian brought her to this conclusion. If I missed a line help me out.

My exact thought process on the last scene: OH MY GOD IT ISN’T HIM. EMORI. MURPHY WHY DO YOU GO FROM ALARM TO SMIRKING AND THINKING “THAT’S MY GIRL.” THIS IS NOT HOT.

Shirtless everyone and cool questions give this episode a 9/10. I’m fine with being unclear as to where Octavia is going, I’m not cool with not understanding the morning after and how that decision was made because its 1) really important and 2)the show acknowledges it’s important enough to show is (unlike Abby’s rings). -1 for that.

[jq37]

I was tagged by: @wired-but-tired (sorry this is so late!)

Rules: Tag 9 people you want to know better

Relationship Status: Single

Lipstick or Chapstick: Chapstick 100%

(Bonus Story This is how I got my first and only tube of lipstick. Last summer I did EIW which is like the law school job interview hunger games. The career center gave me all this advice about how I should dress (that I mainly ignored in a Mulan-esque fit of defiance) and one of the pieces of advice was to get makeup. So I went to Walmart with a list of products to buy but they didn’t have any of them and I was so frustrated. So then I called my mom and had this conversation:

Me: Mom, which one should I get.

Mom: Idk man, just get a pink one. (may be slightly paraphrasing) 

Me: THERE’S AN ENTIRE SECTION OF PINK ONES, MOM.

So I just ended up buying on and using it like once and then I had my true to myself fit and I have no idea where it is right now.

The End.)

Last song/music I listened to: The Addams Family Soundtrack Suite for some reason 

Top 3 shows: This is so vague. Of all time? On air now? I’m gonna go with on air now and say...ah Brooklyn 99, Supergirl, and somehow The 100.   

Top 3 characters: Same vagueness as above. Same condition. Amy Santiago (really any B99 character has an equal claim to this spot but I’m limiting it to one), Abby Griffin, and Wonder Woman has a permanent spot. 

Top 3 ships: at the moment Kabby, EvyxRick (The Mummy), and LeiaxHan because R1 reminded me how much I love Star Wars.

[entireoranges]

☄️

I don’t feel like going to sleep quite yet so I’m gonna write a bit while laying in bed…in the dark. Which I realize is the worst thing I can do. Likely several topics and of course all over the map. Not tagging but you know on mobile things pop up. I can’t control that.

My mom needs to realize not everything I do is her business. I am 34…yeah I’m old for those unaware…I don’t have to explain every post on FB. She needs to be in the “know” about every detail. I get its her way of connecting but 8 times out 10 after I explain the inside joke, discuss a show, etc she doesn’t get it and almost seems upset. If she wants to connect more often call me, message me, she NEVER does it first. I get busy, lazy, frustrated at times and up to three months will pass without a phone conversation and its my fault.

I find it funny in my current list of 115 prompts taken from comment_fic that like 98% are any meaning whatever fandom I wish and earlier today when I used the random generator to get a prompt it landed on one of the 2% that specified a fandom and it was Harry Potter. How is that funny? Well on FB out of nowhere a few people where discussing HP and it was on my mind.

I wish my character alignment I did for The 100 got more attention but I am not shocked. Its a big, crazy fandom things get lost in the shuffle. Plus graphically speaking it was weak (though it took hours to do). Perhaps if I made a follow up post EXPLAINING my decision it would help? I tried that with my sorting graphic a few months ago; it didn’t help.

If I am honest when it comes to The 100 and I like everything about it behind just my “favorite ship” all my interaction with it is the Kabby tag. I get all I need from there. Than I feel bad the last few months I have fallen off the cliff and hardly interact. Not to say I was every truely in the cliche (and I don’t mean that to be negative) but I felt near it; at least in my head. Now I’m way out there and idea of attempting to get close is scary so I don’t try.

I don’t even think I even follow anyone from there. I am horrible at following people. I wanna say I follow 20 actual people and 98% are my Valdaya peeps. Its a preeve of mine to see literally the same post pop up on my dash 30 times. Still if I followed more and not just there but in general I might feel more connected to people. And also less of a snob. Oh and I feel weird following someone I have known for years; like I fear the person will be like what the hell?! We’ve interacted for years and you’re just now following?! Its embarrassing.

Its really cold in here. I keep shivering makes it hard to type. Might get the other cover before I call it a night.

I have a feeling Jason will want breakfast out before I go to work. Time wise I don’t see it happening. So will he later order pizza or sandwich? Unless John is off and wants to take him somewhere.

Suppose to have a Solution Shirt with John tonight. Should be entertaining. Our playing party game podcast only has 2 episodes and a grand total of I think 6 listens? I think we are funny. John wasn’t in the first two.

Perfect Pairs Podcast if you didn’t know. Excited for our season two (maybe one) thoughts on The 100 with the hubby. I might later ask for questions we can discuss. But he needs to finish the season first and trying not to spoil too much.

My hand hurts. I’m tired. Sorry I rambled.

[ao3feed-the100]

She Didn't Have Time

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/30tDCGf

by Kabby_Kru

Abby Griffin is a single mom raising a 5 year old on her own. She barely has time to eat, sleep, and shower, let alone date. Her friends tell her she needs to get out of the house and maybe she'll meet someone new, but her answer is always the same: she doesn't have time. But when she finds herself with a flat tire in a crowded parking lot and agrees to have dinner with the man who fixes her tire, her life takes a turn and she finds herself falling in love, with no time to to even be afraid.

Words: 2218, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 2 of Kabby as Country Songs

Fandoms: The 100 (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: Abby Griffin, Marcus Kane, Jake Griffin (brief), Child Clarke Griffin (mention)

Relationships: Abby Griffin/Marcus Kane, Abby Griffin & Marcus Kane

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/30tDCGf

[kane-and-griffin]

Hey! So I know that you're the most famous person of the kabby fandom (and I love you btw) so there's something I need to tell you. I've seen a lot of people from the kabby fandom (which I am a part of it) getting mad whenever someone on twitter doesn't like Kane or Abby, saying that it's because they are ageist which I think is really annoying (like they start going off on them almost every time ) 1/2

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and if they don’t like a character it’s not necessarily bc they’re ageist. I think that this is the reason a lot of people don’t like us so (if you agree with me ofc) could you maybe pass the word? I love you btw you’re an amazing person and your ff are the best 😘 2/2             

Okay.  So.  

There’s a lot to unpack here.

I have a lot of thoughts, some of which may notbe the thoughts you were hoping that I would have.  I do want to thank you for your very sweet words, but I also want to address a few things about this askI find extremely frustrating, not with the intent of making you feel bad butbecause I think there are some big conversations here worth having in a broadercontext.

First and foremost, and this is something most ofyou have heard me reiterate many times, I am a strong advocate of peopleaddressing their problems with each other directly.  If you saw someone on Twitter accuse someoneof being ageist and you disagree, that’s fair to say!  Social media is a free and open exchange ofideas.  Also, if you’re a member of theKabby fandom, and you witness another member of the Kabby fandom engaging inbad internet behavior, call them out!  It’salways better for communities to go collect their own people when they crossthe line rather than expecting others to do it. If your fellow fan tweets something mean, call it out.  We all need to do our part to shut that stuffdown and make the fandom a better place. But the right forum for that is to bring it up with the person whoactually said or did the thing you’re upset about, and not to bring it to acompletely unrelated party.

Which brings me to my second point: I’m extremelyuncomfortable being addressed as though I speak for the entirety of the Kabbyfandom.  I don’t.  No one person does.  Fandoms are communities made of individualpeople who have shared interests, but there’s no hierarchy. I don’t want to bethe Bad Fandom Behavior Police. This is especially frustrating when I getasks where one member of the fandom comes to Kabby Mom about something anothermember of the fandom did … especially when it’s something I wasn’t part ofand didn’t witness.  

And that, my dear Anon, is the big problem that I’mhaving with this request.  I don’t haveany idea what incident you’re referring to, what was said, by whom, to whom, orwhat the context was.  You’re asking meto agree with you that somebody was out of line, and that, quote, “that’s whypeople don’t like us.”  But I can’t grantthat premise without knowing what you’re talking about.  

(Also, by the way, I would urge you to let go ofspending too much time caring about whether other fandoms like us.  I can assure you, most of them honestly probablyaren’t thinking about us that much.)  

If I understand the situation correctly, and ifwe’re referring to a real incident and not a hypothetical, you’re saying that PersonA tweeted something negative about Kabby and Person B said “that’s ageist.”  You, Anon, believe that Person A was not being ageist, that Person B overreacted,and that B is the one whose behavior is the problem.  And that’s certainly one possibility.  But the other possibility is that maybePerson A was being ageist but neither Person A nor you have recognizedit.

And I cannot make that determination for you,because you haven’t told me anything concrete, and I wasn’t there.

I am also a thirty-six-year-old woman in a fandomfull of teenagers and if you are not thirty-six then it is entirely possiblethat you and I are seeing the concept of ageism from two very different andincompatible points of view in the first place.

That being said, if you want my opinion, here is my opinion.

First, there really is no excuse for being a jerk onthe internet, no matter what you disagree about.  There will always be people who love thingsyou hate and hate things you love and ship things you find incomprehensible andreject headcanons you treat as gospel, because we all fandom in our ownways.  So if you’re asking me, shouldKabby shippers get a pass on being jerks to non-Kabby shippers just because I,personally, ship Kabby, my answer to that is, “of course not, that is insane.”  Disagreement and discussion are always okay;Twitter is a public forum, and if someone voices an opinion, you get to haveyour own opinion about it.  But being ajerk is never okay.  

In general, I am a strong proponent of stayingin your lane. I’m a pretty ruthless curator of my Twitter and Tumblr feeds, soI don’t follow anyone who talks shit about Kane or Abby (I have a one-strikeblock policy with this), and I recommend this approach to everyone.  Make your social media feed your happy place.

Now, there are lots of people in the fandom who don’tlike, or simply don’t care for, Kane and/or Abby.  There are probably plenty of reasons forthis, and not, not every single one of these reasons is inherently ageist. HOWEVER!The fact that you did not see the comment in question as being ageist does not actually mean it was not ageistor that the person who called them out was wrong for doing so.  

Ageism is hardwired into the very fabric of oursociety – like misogny and heterosexism and racism – and just like with thoseother -isms, most of the time when we serenely think that we are guiltless ofit, we are lying to ourselves. And that goes for internalized prejudices,too.  This stuff is ingrained in us from birth. In general, the sameway I am inherently suspicious of white people saying “I AM ZERO PERCENTRACIST” and men saying “I AM THE MOST FEMINIST MAN TO EVER MAN”, I tend to takewith a grain of salt the words of people much younger than me talking about ageism in this fandom because I actually see it a lot.

And fam, we need to talk about the differencebetween fandom discourse about Abby and fandom discourse about Kane.

Now, your mileage may vary, but I will say thatin my personal experience, when I stumble upon someone who does like Abby but doesn’t likeKane, I agree that it frequently has its roots in reasons which are notinherently, automatically ageist.  Ittends to be rooted rather clearly in plot. More often than not, they’re still tripping up over something he did in aprevious season that they can’t get past. (We should probably save the conversation about our fandom’s selectiveforgiveness problem for another time.)  Theycan’t get past the Culling, or arresting/shocklashing/attempting to float Abby,or being too hard on Bellamy, or losing the election to Pike by choosing toally with the Grounders, or floating Aurora or Jake, or just in general being amega-dick in the pilot.  And that’sfine!  I mean I feel like you’re missingout by giving his four-season character development arc short shrift andignoring the way all the terrible things he’s done in the past shaped him intoa better person once he confronted them, but whatever!  The point is that, you’re right, thatreasoning is not, in and of itself, inherently ageist.  That’s not to say that there aren’t any fanswho straight-up just don’t like him because they think old guys are boring, forthe most part, when I see people dislike Kane, it’s a reaction to something that he did.

But we actually do need to talk about ageism andAbby in this fandom.  Because it is a big fucking problem. 

The problem with ageism and Abby is that moreoften than not, from what I’ve seen, when people dislike Abby, it’s a reactionto who and what she is.  It is absolutely impossible to separate itfrom internalized misogyny and the way older women are systematically devaluedby our culture in ways that sometimes we can’t even see as ageist, because they’rejust hardwired into us. 

Sure, every once in awhile you get an easy one,and someone whines on Twitter about “gross old person sex,” and then you canpoint to it very clearly, and nobody will dispute that we’re talking aboutageism here.  But it’s often so muchmurkier than that.  Ageism can look likea lot of different things, many of which you’ll believe are completelyunrelated.

Ageism can look like fans who show up in thecomments of the writers’ room Twitter and Instagram when they post pictures ofthe adults to say “nobody cares about them, post [whoever I personally stan themost] instead.”

Ageism can look like gifset after gifset featuring “leading ladies of The 100″ where they include Fox and Maya and Charlotte, but not Abby (who has second billing in the cast after Clarke).

Ageism can look like a blanket refusal, under inany situation where Clarke and Abby are at odds, to grant that Abby might havea point, even when the narrative is clearlytelling us that Clarke is the character at fault. The tendency within thisfandom for young girls who closely identify with Clarke to graft their own momfrustrations onto Abby is virtually never-ending, and it can be hard to sift throughthe the complex intersection of ageism and misogyny that makes it impossiblefor them not to see mothers as human beings who are interesting, who are wise,who are right, who know things their children do not, who are sexual, who areallowed to make mistakes, who deserve screen time and plot agency, who are justas vital to the story as the teenagers.

Ageism can look like giving Clarke sole creditfor establishing peace with the Grounders through Lexa, when in fact it wasKane who made the first contact with her and got her to offer the treaty in thefirst place, and it was Abby turning Lincoln from a Reaper back into himselfagain that cemented the alliance.

Ageism can look like shutting down Kabby shippersgleefully enjoying headcanons about bunker baby theory because Abby is “too oldto have a baby” – a misconception that has permeated so deeply into our culturethat we have all internalized the belief that no woman is supposed to have ababy over the age of 35 as though it is inarguable scientific fact, even thoughit may interest you to know thatis a myth.  (“What? How did I notknow that that was a myth?” BECAUSE OUR ENTIRE SOCIETY IS AGEIST TOWARDS WOMENAND THE STUDY THAT GAVE US 35 AS THE MAGIC STOP NUMBER IS FROM LIKE THE 1700’S,THAT’S HOW FEW FUCKS THE MEDICAL COMMUNITY GIVES ABOUT UP-TO-DATE RESEARCH ON THEHEALTH OF OLDER WOMEN)

Ageism can look like a fan who ships all thenon-canon ships … except Doctor Mechanic, because it’s “gross” and “Abby isbasically her mom.”  The inherentdesexualization of age-difference relationships is often rooted in ageism.  You don’t have to ship it!  But if you insist that no one should ship it, then there may be some ageism in the rootsof your ship-shaming.

My point here, dear Anon, is that if you arelooking for someone to tell you, “you’re right, Kabby shippers overreact aboutageism in this fandom,” you are barking up the wrong tree, because from where Istand, as a woman far closer to Abby’s age than Clarke’s, I’m going to venturethat we don’t talk about ageism enough.  And like many -isms in our society, if itdoesn’t appear to you to be that big a problem, that may be because it doesn’tapply to you.  (Yet.)

Now, to be clear – before someone sends me anangry rebuttal to this – not in a million years am I saying that it makes you inherently ageist if you don’t shipKabby.  Just like it doesn’t make you inherentlyhomophobic if you don’t like Lexa or inherently racist if you don’t like Bellamy or inherentlymisogynist if you don’t like Clarke.  Butall squares are rectangles, even if not all rectangles are squares.  By which I mean that, contained within thegroup of people who don’t ship Kabby, there is a lot of ageism, just as,contained within the group of people who hate Bellamy, there’s a lot ofproblematic racial shit, and it means we need to have a clearer understandingof where those lines are so that we recognize the ugly stuff when it shows upon our timeline and call it out when we see it.

[kane-and-griffin]

5 Vera lived headcanons?

1) She would forever be making innocent Mom-esque comments just within earshot of Kane about how great Abby is and then discreetly checking over her shoulder to see if he heard her.  She would be the O.G. Kabby shipper.

2) The Grounders would love her.  She’d hit it off with Lincoln immediately, and later Niylah and Nyko.  They would take her out on long walks around Arkadia to teach her how to look for medical plants or to show her amazing views.  She would never get tired of exploring.

3) She would plant the Eden Tree with Kane together, and begin very slowly and very gently bringing together a scrappy, fragmented new faith community, including both Grounders and Skaikru.  She would be extraordinarily respectful of the religious traditions of the Grounders, but would always welcome them to come and sit with her congregation and celebrate the beauty of the earth.

4) She would quietly take responsibility for the rite of performing funerals for everyone in Arkadia.  The Grounders would learn to love her very quickly for her careful attention to respecting their tradition and how quickly she picks up Trigedasleng.

5) She would absolutely have gone back to Mount Weather with Kane and Abby to rescue the kids.