#just saw someone had answered an ask about how jimin of all of the members doesnt get lines in songs and 💀💀💀

[bisexualnamjoonie]

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[piedinthepiper]

Before: Disease ˖ ⊹

Yandere!jimin x bully!reader

Summary: Before everything went down in his doctors office

Warnings: bullying, mention of smut, swearing

Wc: 2.1 k

A/n: someone requested the backstory to disease, and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it!

This can be read as both a pt. 1 or pt. 2 to Disease. They can also be read separately, you decide!

Disclaimer: This is 100% fiction. I am in no way saying that this is how any member of bts would act. Nor do I condone the actions detailed in the story. This is purely for entertainment purposes only. If any of the warnings trigger you, or you’re under 18 ¡do not read! I’m not your mother, and I don’t take any accountability for what you decide to read online!

How could you be so perfect? Walking down the halls with your books tucked close to your chest. Talking and casually laughing with one of your friends. You always walked front and center. Like you were the mean girl. But you weren’t. Or you were, but he didn’t mind. You were his mean girl. You were the only reason Jimin hadn’t dropped out of school yet. He actually looked forward to every day now. Knowing that he’d see you. And if he was lucky he would maybe even get to talk to you. Or more you talk to him. Yell at him. Call him names and insult him. That’s what he loved so much about you. Your honesty. Always so straight forward. You were just perfect. Gorgeous. Always in skirts, sometimes they were really short. Not that he looked or anything, he was sure you would kill him if you found that out. But he was a man wasn’t he? What’s wrong about admiring a good pair of legs? You wanted to show them off didn’t you? He wondered if it was for him. If you knew the effect you had on him. The way he would think about you while touching himself. Pretending to fuck you pretty pussy instead of his cold hands. He knew it would happen one day. One day you would realise that the two of you were meant to be. He had known that since the day he met you. He would never forget that day.

“Watch it, nerd.”

The three first words you ever spoke to him. Jimin stopped in his tracks, looking over his shoulder to see who he bumped into, but also who that angelic voice belonged to. He was met with you. The most beautiful eyes he’s ever looked into. He stood there in awe. Taking in all your features. Eyes trailing up and down your body. Once he reached your eyes again he saw that your perfectly shaped eyebrows were frowning.

“Eww what’s wrong with you?!”

You asked sounding almost disgusted.

“Did you see the way he looked at me? Oh my god.”

You asked your friends who all looked even more disgusted than you.

“You could at least say sorry you know?”

“I- I’m sorry.”

“I- I-. You’re pathetic.”

You mocked him before turning around and walking away.

“Watch where you’re going next time loser.”

One of your friends added before she joined the rest. He didn’t care for your friends. All he could think about was you. Your words who were supposed to hurt him, had another impact. All he wanted to hear was your voice again.

Three years later his feelings were still the same. Your bond had only grown stronger after that eventful day. Your relationship had become a daily thing, and he couldn’t be more happy.

“God you’re such a nerd.”

You said as you sat down opposite of him, throwing your bag onto the floor next to you. He was studying for the next science exam in the library, one of the places he never thought he’d meet you. Not that he didn’t think you read or anything. It just didn’t suit you. You were too gorgeous to be surrounded by yellowing walls and cheap plastic chairs.

“Y/n!”

He said your name a little too excited, and was met with yet another disgusted facial expression.

“Anyways… you’re going to help me.”

You said.

“Sure. I’ll help you.”

You scoffed at his answer.

“It wasn’t a question.”

You added mockingly.

“You see, I need to pass the science exam. And the only one I know that has a miserable enough life to even care about science is you.”

He tried his best to hide his growing smile. You addressed him as someone you know. You think about him!

“I can make you pass.”

“You better.”

You got up from the chair and brushed off imaginary dust from your skirt.

“When you’re finished you’ll switch papers with me. I’ll make sure we’re seated next to each other.”

He was too busy checking out your figure to even comprehend what you were saying at that moment. You snapped your fingers at him.

“Hello? Stop fucking looking at me, freak.”

You said, and brought him back from his thoughts. That’s when he understood the reality of your words. If he switched papers with you he would fail, and he couldn’t put his career at risk. No matter how much he loved you.

“I don’t think I can do that.”

He stated and looked up at you, scared of what you would say next. You crossed your arms over your chest.

“Again, it wasn’t a question.”

He got up from his chair when he saw you were about to turn around and leave.

“Seriously, y/n. I can’t fail. I won’t get into-“

“Blah blah blah. Does it look like I care? You’ll do as I say.”

You interrupted him. He gulped at your tone, sometimes you could be really scary.

“But-“

“Listen here, dumbass.”

You suddenly reached over the table and grabbed him by his collar.

“How hard is it to get into your thick skull, huh?You don’t want to know what I’ll do if you don’t do as I say. Alright?”

He nodded carefully, and you let him go. You stayed bent over the table though. Jimin couldn’t help but look at your prominent cleavage. You slowly moved your hand to his face, he was ready to feel the embrace of your hand. He closed his eyes waiting for the moment, but was met with the sudden feeling of his glasses being slipped off his nose. He looked at you again, confused.

“Take this as a warning.”

You said coldly and threw the glasses on the grown. Thankfully they didn’t break. But the feeling of relief suddenly stopped as he watched your foot stomp down onto them. The sound of broken glass was heard through the library. He let out a little gasp.

“See you in a week.”

You said before you walked away, swaying your hips as you exited the library. What the fuck was he going to do?

He knew he had to help you. He didn’t want to end up with a broken nose, even if it meant you would put your hands on him. Besides he’d do anything to help you succeed. Maybe he would even get a thank you? He thought, bringing the science book even closer to his face. You had broken his glasses, a bit unnecessary in his opinion, but he won’t question your judgment. In order to study he had to have the book so close to his face he could feel it brush against his nose. He had come up with a plan though. If he studied even harder he could be able to finish your test super quick, and then he could just fill out the same answers on his own. It was his only option. So now he sat in his dark room with only the small table lamp lit. Book in his face as he desperately tried to remember everything for the exam.

He walked into the classroom, mentally going through all the information he read the night before. He saw you in the back. A finger twirling your gorgeous shiny hair as you looked him up and down. The sight alone was enough for his pants to tighten. He moved his textbooks down to his hips so you wouldn’t see the effect you had on him.

“Nice glasses.”

You sarcastically said. Giving him an evil smile. He pushed his new glasses higher up on his nose as he sat down beside you.

“Not even a thank you? How rude you are, Jimin.”

He almost moaned out loud when he heard his name fall from your lips. You rarely used his name, so whenever he was lucky enough to hear it from you he would usually have to go to the toilet and jerk off. If only you knew what you did to him.

“I’m sorry.”

He mumbled. You just scoffed at him before crossing your arms and leaning back in your chair to listen to the teacher who started speaking.

The exam went great. He had to spend a few minutes on erasing your scribbles on his sheet. It wouldn’t be appropriate to hand in an exam with “nerd” written all over it. But it went well, you didn’t get caught and both of you would get a good grade. He couldn’t be more happy. Until he saw you approaching him. He was sat outside, eating his lunch in his usual spot. You would always eat with the rest of the popular people inside. You would never eat outside in a secluded area on the ground, that’s just not you. You wouldn’t hide, like he did. So he knew you didn’t come to join him. He quickly swallowed before you were able to talk to him. Ready to hear whatever you had to say. But you walked right passed him. He followed you and your friends with his gaze as he saw the three of you heading to the parking lot. He realised that he wouldn’t get a thank you, that he wouldn’t even get to talk to you after he just saved your ass.

“Stand up.”

He suddenly heard your voice coming from right beside him. He looked up to find you with your hands on your hips. A displeased look painted your face. Again, he swallowed before standing up.

“You fucking creep!”

You yelled at him before delivering a harsh slap to his face. He couldn’t help but moan at the feeling. He reached for his cheek that had already turned red. He looked at you and found your face was in pure shock. Did he really moan that loudly?

“Did he just-“

He heard one of your friends whisper to the other. His blood went cold, he had never been so embarrassed in his entire life. Your mouth turned slowly into a devilish smile.

“How fucking pathetic was that?”

You started laughing, and your friends followed. He tried to make himself smaller. He wanted the ground to open up and swallow him whole.

“I’m s-sorry.”

He stuttered out and looked down at the ground. To his horror he found out that his pants was definitely bulging as well. He crossed his hands quickly over the area, not wanting to be tormented yet again. But it was too late. You looked him up and down.

“Please, don’t tell me you have a boner.”

You let out a small laugh, a “eww” was heard from your friend. You stepped closer to him. So close that his back had to press up against the concrete wall. You looked him deep in the eyes, your smile turning into a smirk. God, he felt like coming just from you being so close. Smelling your perfume and feeling your hands on his chest. His breathing rapidly increased.

“Do you think I’m hot, Jimin?”

You whispered to him. It took a few seconds for him to comprehend what you were saying. Too focused on the feeling of your manicured hands on him. Eventually he desperately he nodded.

“Do you want to fuck me?”

You asked with a small laugh. He couldn’t believe his ears. Was this his chance? Was this the moment he finally got you? He nodded yet again. You tsked at him as he felt your sharp nail tracing his cheekbone.

“Use your words.”

You said.

“Y/n, what the fuck are you doing?”

He heard one of your friends say from behind you. He didn’t look at her, only taking you in. He couldn’t believe this.

“Shut up!”

You quickly looked at your friend. Warning her in a mean tone. You turned back to him. Finding his dark eyes.

“Jimin was just about to say something.”

He couldn’t even remember his own name in the moment. Every single one of his senses was filled with you. He feared he would actually orgasm soon if you didn’t back off.

“Please- Y/n. Yes, I want to fuck you so bad!”

He begged. Almost yelling at you out of desperation. In the next moment you were laughing. He didn’t understand what he did that was so funny. Maybe he had been a little too forward, but you didn’t seem to care about that in the first place.

“Oh god. You’re almost cute.”

You said as your fit of laughter came to a stop. You stepped away from him, crossing your arms.

“I would never ever fuck you, pervert.”

Your tone turned from sensual to mean right away. His heart dropped to his stomach as your friends laughed at him.

“You’re so dumb! You really thought you had a chance with me! I wouldn’t even blow you.”

Yet again he felt like he wanted to disappear. How could you be so evil? So absolutely heartless? In that moment he realised what he had to do. He was going to get his revenge one day. Just you wait.

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Masterlist

[jeonscatalyst]

You're correct that Tae & JK clearly don't they keep updated or talk all the time like others claim. This was also made clear by Jk several times he does not speak to Tae regularly. He was asked during his camping vlog about members and said they don't always hang out and would be off doing their own thing, when they tried to lie and say Tae was with him and it was proven it was staff only. He was specifically asked about Tae during his pre recording and he said he's some where out there, we don't always keep up and talk. He made that very clear and then got called a liar cause Tae either saw his live or saw the group chat and went and surprised him. And he was so annoyed being called a liar he kept clarifying he didn't know. Hell Jk didn't even call Tae to hang out, he sent it out in a group chat when he and hobi came. Tae had no idea about the MMA thing or Jimin even being sick in NY when they told him in Jeju. That was two whole months early, so if JK is dating Tae, how come he didn't share his experience with Jimin & their vacation with Tae? So in the 2 months they didn't talk regularly to even have those conversations. Tae even showed up to Jk's with Suga show after reading a group chat and again, JK didn't even talk to him then either about NY, clearly, about what he and Jimin did or at his pre recording. I mean if I'm dating someone and I just spent time in NY alone with another man sleeping with him and caressing his ass in bed and slapping it, I would at least tell him things that happened, but they didn't and its confirmed since Tae had no clue when it was brought up in Jeju. Jk also spent more time with his 97 line and randoms in chapter 2 then Tae and Tae spent more time with his GF and wooga, tkk know that, but they will never admit it.

I mean, they are friends so they are not supposed to be updated on every little thing the other one is doing all the time but the issue here is that, the cult insists that taekook were glued at the hip through out chapter two and that they spend all their time talking on the phone or texting when they can’t be together physically. They even claimed that Jk was on his phone the entire time in Sapporo (episode 6) texting with Tae yet my question is, what do they talk about when they clearly don’t know alot of things about each other and are constantly not updated about what the other is up to? Because for people who text or call each other that much or are glued to each other that much according to the cult, Tae shouldn’t CONSTANTLY be finding out about Jk’s schedules from a group chat.

A tkkr once said if jkkrs payed attention to Jimin and Jungkook’s actions or words they would know Jikook are not a couple but I wonder what exactly they pay attention to to truely believe taekook are a couple because nothing taekook ever say or do gives me the impression that they are anything close to a couple. Every single time we have heard Tae talk about how he got to know about Jk’s schedule, it was always via groupchat and it’s always been like this. We literally have about 3 instances of Tae admitting that he didn’t even know Jungkook’s hotel rooms while they were on tours. Anon, when you pay attention, you get all the answers you want both about Jikook and Taekook.

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Bodyguard

Pairing- Hobi x Named Reader

Word count- 4.5k

Includes- Heavy themes, angst, physical fight, saesang present, shooting, character death, funeral, implied suicide

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Hobi POV

I stare at the manager in disbelief

Is he freaking kidding?

"Her?", I ask incredously

"Yes her. What is the issue?"

"What's the issue? She's a short skinny kid. She's supposed to protect me? Are you kidding?"

"You know she can hear you", he snaps

"Give her to Jimin or Tae. They'll take her"

"She's assigned to you Hoseok"

"How is she a bodyguard? A freaking broom is stronger than her", I snap

He snorts, "You're in for a surprise. Strength isn't everything. She passed all the requirements to be a bodyguard. And she's yours. Deal with it"

I sigh, staring at the girl that's supposed to be my bodyguard

She's really short, petite and skinny

How is she supposed to protect me?

"Follow me Hoseok and I'll introduce you"

I really don't want to

The guys are going to make fun of me so much

"Hoseok, this is Joanne.", the manager introduces, "Joanne this js Hoseok or J-Hope, the BTS member you're assigned to"

"Hi", she says, not smiling

"Hi", I answer, rolling my eyes

"I'll leave you two to get to know each other"

I watch the manager walk away

I don't want to talk to her

"Listen, I know you don't like me and you don't want me as your body guard. I heard you before", she starts

"Oh uh sor-", I start to apologize

"I don't care. I don't need you to like me. I just need you to listen to me. My job is to protect you and part of that is listening to my instructions. Other than that you don't need to speak to me."

"I...uh...", I stammer

I never had someone talk like this to me

Never have someone not care if they're liked

But she's making everything easier, since I don't have to talk to her

"Fine", I answer

"Good. Since you're just practicing I'm not needed now. But I'll here to escort you to the performance you have tomorrow."

"Uh great"

She nods, then turns and walks away from me

What the hell?

I don't know what to think about her

I just still don't see how someone so little can be a bodyguard

I just sigh, preparing myself to be made fun of, then walk to practice

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"So I saw your bodyguard", Jungkook teases

"Yeah"

"She s so little. So cute", he continues

I roll my eyes, "Yeah ok she's small and she's a girl. I get it"

"Who'd you piss off to get such a shitty bodyguard?", Namjoon laughs

I glare at him

"Well look at it this way. It's practice for you. A way for you to learn to fight and stop being scared shitless of everything", Jimin comments

I'm not scared of everything

I hate that I have that reputation

"Fuck you. At least I'm not afraid of fucking butterflies"

He glares at me

"C'mon Hobi. Now you can learn to fight when you have to save your bodyguard from a twelve year old", Jimin growls

"Shut the fuck up"

"As don't be mad Hobi. She's not completely useless. She's good to look at", Yoongi chimes in

"What?"

What the fuck is he talking about?

"She's hot. So even if she can't protect you at least you can oogle her", Jin teases

"Yeah and maybe if you get to know her, you can bang her. Just not too hard or you'll break your only source of "protection"", Tae adds

They're fucking unbelieveable

"Just fucking lay off ok. I didn't ask for her"

"Aww can't take it Hobi?", Jungkook laughs

My blood is fucking boiling

I shouldn't let them get to me, but I am

I'm just angry at the whole situation

"Shut up. Get up so we can practice"

They stand up

"C'mon Hobi don't be upset.", Jin says

I ignore him and turn on the music

"Just fucking dance", I snap, getting into my position for the choreography

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6 weeks later

Hobi POV

Joanne is walking next to me at the airport

I try not to roll my eyes

So far she hasn't had to "protect" me

As if she could

There's screaming for us and I hear my name being called

ARMYS follow us everywhere

I love them but sometimes I want to be a normal person

"Move back!", I hear someone yell

I look as some ARMYS push against the ropes that are set up

Suddenly I see a person running towards me

"Stop him!", a cop yells

He's almost in front of me when Joanne steps in front of me

"Stop", she says to the guy

The guy stops in front of her, sneering at Joanne

"Move", he snaps

"Yeah not going to happen", she snaps

Shit

She's gonna get hit

And I'm going to have to protect her

"Who the fuck are you?"

"His bodyguard"

The guy bursts out laughing

"You, yeah ok. Move"

He grabs her arm roughly and just as I'm about to stop him, she grabs his hand with her other hand, ripping it off her, bending it backwards

"Shit fuck lets go", the guys screams in pain

I stare at the situation in disbelief

She's....hurting him?

"Leave and I'll let go", she says calmly

"Fuck you", he yells, swinging his arm to punch her

She ducks just as he swings, punching him in the stomach

Holy shit!

My mouth drops in pure surprise

She stands while he doubles over

She grabs my arm, leading me away from the guy

Jesus she's strong

She's holding my arm tightly

"Keep walking", she says

"Uh, yeah ok", I mutter

She's ripped away from me

When I turn around I see her take a hit to her face

Her head snaps to the side

And all she does is turn her head back

"Keep walking Hoseok"

No scream, no yell

He goes to hit her again

Just as his fist comes flying, she catches his hand, twisting it back

Then she quickly punches his face, hard, letting go of his hand as soon as he starts falling

He falls down, screaming, holding his face

"Don't make me kick your ass. Get lost", she says

When she turns around, she glares at me

"I told you to keep walking. I got it", she snaps

"I...uh...I"

"Move, now", she orders and shit I'm scared, so I go

She walks next to me, looking around for more threats

Holy crap I was so wrong about her

She didn't even do much and she knocked that guy down

And she took a hard hit and didn't cry out

When I glance at her, I see her jaw turning purple

"Uh Joanne, there's a bruise on your jaw"

"Don't worry about it"

"Doesn't it hurt?"

She snorts, "No, I've been hit harder"

She's been what?

Jesus

I know absolutely nothing at her

I mostly ignore her

But damn, now I want to know all about her

"Get in the car", she says when we get to the car

She opens the door and I climb in next to Yoongi

She gets in next to me, closing the door

"We good?", the driver asks

"Yeah", she says, then she's silent

"Where were you?", Yoongi asks

"Uh there was a problem", I answer

"What?", Namjoom asks

"Uh fan got through and came running at me"

"Holy shit, are you ok?", Namjoom questions

"Uh yeah. Joanne handled it"

"She did?", Yoongi asks shocked

"Uh yeah"

"Holy shit!", Jungkook yells

"What?", I jump

"Is this what happened?", Jungkook asks showing me his phone

He's on Twitter

And there's videos of what just happened

Christ it just happened and its already on the internet?

I see captions for the tweets that say things like, "Don't mess with J-Hope's bodyguard", "J-Hope's body guard takes down crazy fan", "J-Hope is well protected"

Jungkook clicks on one and we watch the video

The person caught the entire thing

"Oh my god!", Namjoon shouts during the part where Joanne gets punched in the face

"She didn't even flinch!", Yoongi gasps

They all look up at her

"Oh my god, she has a bruise", Yoongi points

Joanne rolls her eyes

"Oh hell yeah!", Jungkook shouts in glee when Joanne punches the guy in the face

"Oh shit he went down", Namjoon exclaims

When the video ends, they all look at her

"I'll take her as my bodyguard", Namjoon says

"Hell no, she can be mine. She's awesome!", Jungkook argues

Yeah ok

They all made fun of me for having a girl bodyguard but now that they see her kick ass, they want her

No

"She's my bodyguard. Not yours", I snap

"Do you wanna be mine Joanne?", Jungkook asks

I narrow my eyes at him

"I go to whoever I'm assigned to. Right now that's J-Hope", she answers, "You can request me to my boss and he may assign me to you"

"No! Fuck no. Don't you fucking dare Jungkook", I protest

"What you want her now?", he demands

"Me? What about you? After all the things you've been saying to me about her, now you want her to be your bodyguard. Because she what, proved something to you? No fuck off", I snap

"Can we stop arguing? I'm assigned to Hoseok for now. There's no getting me. I'm not an object. So cut it out", she interrupts

Jungkook just nods and turn back around in his seat.

"Uh Joanne-", I start

"Not now Hoseok. I'm still acting as your bodyguard. You can speak to me later", she informs me

"Oh uh ok", I answer, then sit waiting until we get to BigHit

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"Joanne wait", I call

We just got to BigHit and shes walking towards the security department

"Yes?", she answers, turning to me

"Uh thanks for uh, taking out that guy"

"You don't have to thank me Hoseok. It's my job"

"I know but I just want to."

"Alright"

Silence rises between us

"So if there's nothing else-"

"No uh there is, I mean. Um I want to apologize for the way I behaved and the things I said when I first met you."

"Oh", she tilts her head to the side, "It's fine. Don't worry about it"

I nod, "Ok. So uh where did you learn to fight like that?"

"I used to work for the government. The U.S. government", she answers, "I left that job and came here"

"Oh yeah? Cool. Uh what did you do?"

"I can't tell you that. It's confidential and I signed a non- disclosure agreement in exchange for leaving the job"

Holy shit

Was she like a spy?

Or an assassin?

What else can she do for the government that requires her to fight?

And how old is she?

"Oh uh ok. It's ok. Uh, how old are you? I mean you had basically a career before you left right? You seem really young for that"

She raises an eyebrow

Shit did I say something wrong?

Am I being too nosey?

"I'm 28", she answers

Ok, she's older than me but not by much

But she already had a career and then left?

Thats strange

"What is it that you want from me Hoseok?"

"I uh"

What do I want?

I want to know about her

I want to talk to her

I want her to like me

"I want to be friends", I finally answer

"Friends?", she repeats

"Uh yeah. You're going to be around me a lot and I want to be friends"

"Look Hoseok, that's not how this works ok. I need to be paying attention when I'm acting as your bodyguard. I can't talk to you during that time."

"I know but we can be friends after the job is over right? Like right now? We can talk and be friends", I ask

Why am I doing this?

I don't know

"I uh I guess?", she questions, "Look I don't have friends ok. I've always been alone. I don't know how to do this"

"It's ok. I can help you"

"I uh...fine. We can be friends.", she agrees

"Ok"

We just stand there in silence

"Ok I have to go. I have some things to do. I'll see you another time", she says

"Uh can I have your phone number?"

Her head snaps back to me

"Why?", she asks suspiciously

"Uh so we can text each other", I answer

Why is she being so weird about her phone number

"Oh uh ok fine"

"You can have mine too", I offer

"Yes ok"

We exchange numbers and then she says bye, walking away

This is going to be harder than I thought

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6 months later

Hobi POV

"You ok Jo?", I ask Joanne

We just got back to BigHit from another performance

Joanne has been acting weird today

Something is off

I know her well enough now to know when something is wrong

"I uh I need to talk to you Hobi", she answers

I start getting nervous

What does she want to talk about?

Is it bad?

Is she leaving?

She can't leave

I love her

Yeah I'm an idiot

I've fallen in love with my bodyguard

Its just after you get past her hard exterior, Joanne is the sweetest, most caring and loving person I've ever met

She's also so funny

That I didn't expect

How could I not fall in love with her?

"Uh sure Jo", I answer

She leads me to an empty conference room and closes the door

"Look Hobi, uh my boss gave me a choice to make"

Now I'm worried

"Uh ok?"

"Kookie requested me to be his bodyguard."

WHAT?

That fucking little shit

"He did?", I ask, upset

"Yeah. And usually my boss would decide whether to keep me with you or assign me to him. But he likes me, says I'm one of his best guards so he told me I can choose"

'Me, choose me', I want to yell

"Oh uh. Why did you want to talk to me about?"

"I don't know what to do. I like Kookie but him and I aren't as close as you and me are. But then that could be a problem, that we're this close. I could lose focus and you could get hurt. That would happen with Kookie"

No no

Our friendship is not a problem

It hasn't been

She's been able to do her job

"Say something Hobi! What do you want? Do you even care?", she shouts

"Yes I care! Of course I care!", I yell

How can I not?

I love her

"Then say something. Give me a reason to stay! And don't just say because you want me too. That's not good enough"

What am I supposed to say?

That I love her, that's why I want her to stay?

We stand there in silence

"Ok. I guess I'll tell my boss I'll be assigned to Kookie. It's the best. You'll be safer"

No

I'm panicking and I don't know what to do

This isn't what I want

She walks past me

I have to stop her

I grab her arm and turn her to me

She looks up at me and I can't stop myself

I pull her to me, my lips crashing on hers

I'm surprised and happy when she throws her arms around me, kissing me back

God her kiss is fucking everything

"Don't leave me", I ask when we pull away, "I love you. You're the best bodyguard I ever had. I feel completely safe with you. I trust you to protect me. I trust you with my life. And I'm so in love with you. You are all I want"

I don't know what to expect from her

She never gave any indication she feels anything but friendship for me.

I feel a spark of hope when she smiles

"I love you too Hobi"

I can't hold back the smile that bursts on my face

"Yeah?", I ask

"Yeah. I never expected to fall in love, ever but I did with you. You're perfect", she answers

I can't believe she's saying this about me

"You're perfect Jo. My perfect everything. You're everything I could every want. And you're such a bad ass"

She giggles- I fucking love that sound

"I want you to be mine. Be with me. And stay as my bodyguard.", I tell her

She nods, "Ok yes Hobi. I'll be with you. I'll stay as your bodyguard. I promise I'll never let anything happen to you. You're safety is the most important thing to me."

"I know Jo. I know."

"Ok", she whispers

"I love you", I tell her

She smiles hugely at me and it takes my breath away

She's so beautiful

"I love you", she answers

God I love hearing her say that

Leaning down, I press my lips to hers in another kiss

🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️🐿️

2 years later

Hobi POV

"Stay close to me baby", Joanne orders

"Aegiya-", I start

"No Hobi. There are death threats against you. I'm not letting anything happen to you"

"But what if you get hurt aegi?"

"My job is to protect you. If I get hurt then fine as long as you're ok. Plus I just so happen to love you so I'm definitely not going to let anything happen to you"

"Joanne-"

"Just do it Hobi. Or I won't let you have me when we get home"

Shit

"Ok fine", I will

"Aww my baby", she laughs, then kisses me, "C'mon, we gotta get out of the plane Hobi"

"One more", I ask

She smiles and kisses me again, wrapping her arms around my neck

I hold her to me tightly

No one but BigHit knows about us, so once we leave the plane, it's back to our bodyguard and celebrity roles

No touching, unless necessary

No kissing

No looking

Well I look, but she doesn't because she's keeping an eye out for everything

"Ready?", she asks

"Yeah", I nod

"I love you Hobi", she smiles

"I love you Joanne", I smile back

She gets up, walking, while I fall into step behind her

We get into the airport, screams shattering the silence of the plane

God it's so loud

"No nothing", Joanne says into her head set

I keep staring at her while we walk not paying attention

I see someone farther down, walk into the center of the walkway

"J-Hope", someone yells

I glance up to see the person pull out a gun

Shit

"Gun", Joanne shouts

I can't move, I'm fucking terrified

I'm going to die

My body hits the floor just seconds before I hear a loud bang

People start screaming

I look up just in time to see the shooter get shot in the head, falling down

Holy shit

I'm gonna puke

I sit up, looking around and immediately freeze in complete fear

Joanne is a few feet to my side

Face down and she's not moving

"Joanne!" I shriek

She still doesn't move

No no no no

"Joanne", I yell, crawling to her, "Aegi, answer me"

When I get to her, I grab her turning her over, holding her in my arms

"FUCK", I scream, tears pouring from my eyes

The entire front of her shirt is covered in blood

There's a pool of blood under her

I press my hand to her chest, trying to stop the bleeding

Her eyes are closed and her body is limp

No she can't be

She's not

No

Please no

"Joanne", I shake her, "Wake up. Joanne wake up now!"

She still not moving

Why is she not moving?

I don't hear her breathing

"HELP!", I scream

I'm so scared

Another bodyguard comes over to me

"Hoseok, get up. You have to leave"

Is he crazy?

I'm not fucking leaving her

"No"

"You have to"

"Joanne....she's not waking up"

He looks down at me

"Shit", he gasps, kneeling down

He puts his fingers to her neck

"Fuck. I...I'm sorry Hoseok, she's gone"

WHAT?

WHAT?

No

No, she can't be

No

"What?"

"Hoseok from what it looks like she was shot in the chest. She was most likely gone before she hit the ground"

No

My baby, no

I can't breathe

She can't be dead

I love her

I need her

"Hoseok, we need to get you out of here"

"I'm not leaving her", I sob

"I'll carry her ok? But you need to get up"

"No, I'm going to carry her. No one touches her", I cry

"Ok, lets go. Now"

I stand, picking her up

Her head rolls to the side hanging down

"Jo", I cry

I move her head, so it's against my chest

I follow the body guard as best I can but everything is blurry from tears

"In the car now", he barks, opening the door

"Hoseok!", Yoongi calls from inside

I can't get in with her

"Give me her. Once you get in I'll give her back ok?", the bodyguard says

I nod

He takes Joanne and I climb in

"Oh my god Hoseok what happened?", Namjoon shouts in fright

I look down

My clothes are covered in blood

Her blood

I start to sob even harder

"Here Hoseok", the bodyguard says

I take her back in my arms, clutching her to me

I hold her, having to move her head to my neck because she's not moving it herself

Because she's dead

"Holy shit!", Jungkook yells

"Hoseok what happened?", Namjoon shouts

"Please wake up", I ask her, ignoring them, "Please baby don't leave me. Please"

She doesn't answer

She...

She pushed me out of the way

She got hit instead of me

I was supposed to get shot, not her

She saved my life

I'm never going to see her again

Never going to kiss her

She's never going to smile at me again, never going to tell me she loves me

The pain I feel is immense and I start crying hysterically

"HOSEOK!", Yoongi yells

"I can't wake her up, Yoongi. She's not waking up. I keep calling her and she's not opening her eyes. She's not answering me. I CAN'T WAKE HER UP!", I scream in pure agony

Yoongi's looking at me with horror in his face

"She's dead", I whisper

"What? I can't hear you?"

"She's dead!", I shout

"Wwww...what do you mean?", Jungkook stammers

"She's dead. She pushed me out of the way. She got shot in the chest instead of me. I was supposed to die, not her. She saved me and she died doing it", I sob

"But she's...you have her", Yoongi says dumbfounded

"She's not breathing. She doesn't have a pulse. The body guard who brought me here said she probably died before she fell to the floor. I..I couldn't leave her there."

"Hoseok, I'm....I'm so sorry", Namjoon whispers

"What am I going to do? I can't live without her. Namjoon, what am I going to do?", I cry, looking at him

"I...I....I don't know Hobi. I really don't know."

I just sit holding her tightly to me while the car drives us to BigHit

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The car stops

The door opens and an EMT is standing there

"I'm here for the body"

The body?

Is she seriously fucking calling her that?

"Her name is Joanne. She's the love of my life, my everything. She's not a body", I growl

"I apologize. I'm here for Joanne"

"No", I snap, gripping her tighter

"Sir, I'm sorry but I need to take her"

She reaches for Joanne

"No, don't touch her!", I shriek

"Hobi, you have to let her take Joanne.", Yoongi says gently

"No, no she can't. I can't. I can't be without her. I need her. If she takes her, I'll never see her again. If she takes Joanne, then it means she's really dead. She's really not coming back. I...I....can't handle that", I sob hysterically again

"Hobi you have to. We're here with you. You can't keep her with you. She's all bloody. They'll clean her and change her clothes ok? They'll help as much as they can", Namjoon says soothingly

I don't want them to

I want her

I want to be with her

Wherever she went, I want to be there, not here

"Please Hobi", Jungkook asks

I know I have to

I feel like I'm dying inside

I look down at her, moving some hair from her face

"I love you Joanne. So much aegi. Forever", I whisper

Then I kiss her forehead, her cheek, her lips, my tears falling on her skin

Then I hand her over to the EMT, my heart shattering into a million pieces

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Three days later

Hobi POV

I look down at Joanne laying in her casket

She looks like she's sleeping

Today is her funeral

The wake was yesterday

A lot of people came

None of her family

She didn't have any

I'm alone with her right now

They're giving me time to say goodbye

Before the casket is closed, before she's taken to cemetery and buried in the fucking ground

Where I'll never see her again

"I miss you so much", I sob, "Why did you die aegiya? Why did you throw yourself in front of me? I can't live without you. How can you make me live without you?"

They told me that she died instantly

Shot right in her heart

The security guard was right

She was dead before she fell

She saved my life by giving hers

I never wanted that

I wanted her with me for the rest of my life

I pull an engagement ring from my pocket

"I was gonna ask you to marry me Jo. After we got back to the dorm. I was gonna take you to the park and ask you under the stars aegi. I love you so much and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. I hate that I can't. I hate that you're gone. I hate that I'm here. So far away from you"

How am I going to do this?

How am I going to watch her be buried?

And after?

How am I supposed to live?

I can't

I won't

How can I be the happy, smiling, cheerful J-Hope when my world, my sunshine, my reason for living is gone?

I can't be

She was the love of my life

They'll never be another

Just her

I can't deal with this

I'm not strong like some other people

Not for this

I take her hand and put the ring on her finger

I know she would of said yes

She always said she'd marry me one day

I thought she was right

I didn't know she'd be taken from me

I can't say goodbye

How can I do that?

I can't

"Hobi. We uh, we gotta go", Jin whispers from the doorway

"Just one minute"

He nods then disappears

"I love you more than anything Joanne. I know your gone but you're still my everything, my world. I swore I'd love you forever and I will"

My tears fall from my eyes, some landing on her

I lean down and kiss her forehead

"I love you aegiya. I'll see you soon ok? I'm coming", I whisper

I kiss her again, then walk out of the room

"Hobi", Jin says

"Don't Jin"

I just keep walking

I just have to get through the next few hours

Just through her funeral

Then after, I'm going to her

[bangtanhoneys]

Magic Shop - Grace

[BTS WEVERSE] GRACE started their LIVE: How are you feeling?

ARMY got their notification as it came through to their phones in the middle of the afternoon in Seoul. It had been awhile since Grace had been seen, heard or even mentioned since all members of BTS had enlisted with the military, Jungkook & Jimin the last two to go. Fans had taken to messaging or commenting on Instagram posts or on LIVE videos of TXT, CL, Seventeen and IU to see where Korea’s noona was. 

The background didn’t belong to any studio or a modern apartment like ARMY were used to seeing from BTS. It looked homely, warm, unique and with a hint of British to it. She was sitting in a brown leather office chair, dressed in a jumper but with a cardigan wrapped around her and a blanket thrown over her legs. 

As always, she was cradling a cup of tea.

The video was muted as she turned to her left, said something then nodded before turning her attention to the screen in front of her which was then when the video was unmuted. 

“Good afternoon, ARMY. How are we doing?” she asked, shifting so she brought a knee up to rest her mug on as she leaned forward to see the screen.

“You’re feeling sad? Hungry. You’ve got homework to do, ooh someone is about to go on a date. Well have a lovely time. Sad, sad, sad,” Grace read through the fast incoming comments. 

“I’m feeling sad,” she admitted as she smiled slightly. “As you know, the boys have gone to do their duty for the military. I’ve seen them all off now so I don’t know quite what to do with myself. I’ve come to stay with my parents for a little bit, Min-ji is enjoying himself with his grandparents. But I just wanted to come here and show my face, to say I’m here, I’ve not disappeared. I just needed a little while to reorganise my mind, if that makes sense?”

Grace took a sip of tea and watched the comments go up the screen, ignoring the ones that were plain stupid or the ones that only cared about one member in particular.

“Will I have contact with them? I will. Don’t worry, the group chat is alive and well. Namjoon sent a message which translated, means I’m freezing my ass off,” Grace explained as she switched to English when she saw the English comment come in. “So they're doing well. Seokjin is getting promoted left right and centre, Yoongi is having fun being a civil servant, Hobi is kicking ass and obviously our boys are adjusting. I’ve been keeping an eye on them in the best way I can. But it won’t be long till they are home. You just have to deal with me for a while.”

She laughed as the comments came in, some saying: ‘Grace noona is going to be the best ARMY leader ever’ ‘when is your solo stuff coming?’ ‘when is Seokjin coming home?’

“My solo stuff. Ah well, it’s coming. I promise. I have a lot planned but I can’t reveal everything yet. I’m under tight instructions not to say anything until it’s ready and we’re nearly there, you just need to wait a couple of months or so and then it will be here and you won’t know what to do with yourselves.”

“Am I okay?” Grace read one comment, pausing as she looked at the screen then the mug then back to the screen again. 

“No is the honest answer. I’ve been with all of them for 13 years now? Roughly. I met Namjoon first, then Yoongi & Hobi and then all of them trickled in. I’ve been at Big Hit since I was 18 or 19 and I’m nearly 34. That’s a long time. So my world since the day I signed my BTS contract has been them and now I don’t have that. They're doing their duty and I’m very proud of them but it’s hard not having one of them here, every moment of every day. So I’m adjusting to the fact that I don’t have access to all of them now. It was alright when it was just one or two but now it’s all of them.”

Grace paused and took a sip of her drink, smiling slightly. “But don’t worry about me, I’m getting there. Like all of you, we were all here and now there’s only one but I know the boys have plenty of things to entertain you with while they enlist and you’ve got my things coming as well, so you won’t be bored. In fact, you’re going to be complaining.”

It was obviously a tease and she knew exactly what she was hinting at with Yoongi’s Suchwita episode with her still to come where the announcement would be that she was coming on her birthday and then it was going to be a whirlwind from her birthday onwards and then her tour. 

So much to do, so little time but for now, she was content to sit with ARMY and just chat. 

“Sing Magic Shop,” one comment caught her eye. 

“I don’t have Jungkook’s karaoke set up but one moment, let me see what I can do.”

She untangled herself from her cocoon and went to the door, left the room and then came back with another phone. “I’ve stolen my mother’s phone so one second everyone.”

Grace closed the door behind her, just as Min-Ji slipped through the door. “Ah I guess he wants to say hello.” 

She sat back down in her chair and sorted her blankets, tapping at her lap so Min-Ji could jump up. He gracefully did so and put his front paws on the desk, sniffing at the phone that was filming her live. 

“You done? It’s only ARMY. Say hello.”

He gave a soft meow as he turned and made biscuits in her lap while she searched on her mother’s phone for the Magic Shop karaoke version. 

“Okay, here we go. So everyone, I’m fine, sad as you are but I’m here if you need me. Just shout my name on WeVerse and I’ll come running - no matter what you need, what you want to ask, what you want to see, don’t hesitate to contact me, okay? After all, I’m in charge of the Magic Shop now,” Grace smiled as she lifted her hand to show her heart fingers. “I love you all.”

ARMY were left with Grace singing her version of Magic Shop to them, which the clip would be later uploaded to Twitter with many asking for Grace to release it for ARMY as a present. 

[beautifulpersonpeach]

You know what I love so much about BTS's music is when you've not listened to a song or album for a while and when you do not only are you reminded of how good it is, but also sometimes songs you already like and have heard countless times before you suddenly latch onto unexpectedly. It happens to me often with their music, the latest song for me being Let me know. It just got it's claws into me on my Dark and Wild revisit and I've had it on repeatedly the past few days. I don't know what it is about them or their music that manages to just keep grabbing at you the way it does, maybe it's because their discography is so large and varied, but whatever it is I'm very grateful.

***

That’s the thing about excellent quality: it’s timeless. It doesn’t matter how old their songs are, how much you replay them, or whatever. When you listen to BTS’s music, you know it’s good because it feels incredible.

Your experience with Let Me Know is one I relate to so hard. That song was released in 2014 you know. BTS were really dropping bangers right out the gate. Like, it’s no surprise they blew up the way they did because they just had the best music point blank period.

They still do.

The songs I’ve revisited recently that made me feel similarly to you are:

- Mikrokosmos: Not a bad song at all, but one I usually skip and don’t add to my playlists because it’s not exactly my taste and it often reminds me of BTS concerts and that’s a sore topic for me recently. But I was traveling this past weekend and browsing music on the plane, and saw it then played it on a whim. And man, it hit me again just how good that song is. BTS knows how to make good music and execute it perfectly every time.

- I NEED U (Remix): There’s this view in the fandom that BTS only recently started putting out several remixes, but while they’ve certainly put out more in recent years to match pace with Western practices, they’ve also always kinda been into remixes. And back in my day, the fandom actually made it a point to enjoy the remixes. I Need U remix is one such remix I used to jam out to back then, and while playing some of my older lists recently to prepare for Hobi’s birthday, this song played and the nostalgia hit me like a truck.

- Lost: This is the most underrated song in BTS’s discography. It’s one of the songs where you just have to watch the live performance and see the choreography. It’s just too good. In fact, Lost > The Truth Untold. By a mile. Jungkook’s voice and insane runs in that song are something you just have to experience for yourself.

They dropped that banger 3 years after their debut.

- Go Go: This song is what solidified BTS’s success in 2017. Not DNA imo. Just listen to their voices in this song. Listen to how they sing, how unrefined and passionate it is. They sound like they’re having fun. I forgot about Go Go until a few weeks ago and it’s in my rotation again.

- Fly to my Room: Songs like this is why BTS is on top of the k-pop food chain. Nobody in the entire industry can arrange and pull off a song like this: choir/gospel with a fuckass organ + gutter trap + Hoseok’s verse… like, god. Those whispered harmonies in the final chorus before the crescendo outro. Jimin’s high notes…. It’s just such a serve of a song. They killed it.

- Spinebreaker: Someone asked me recently how the rapline became my bias, if I started with one rapline member then the rest followed, or if it was all at once. I didn’t answer that ask but anon if you’re reading this, the answer is all at once. I’d liked the rapline since debut but I think it was this song that did it for me. All of them on this track are insane. From the moment I heard Joon’s voice at the start I just accepted my fate.

Anyway, thanks for this ask Anon. BTS are so loved because they put their heart and soul into the music they make and it shows. It’s why streaming their stuff has never felt like a chore for me. I look forward to listening to their music every day I wake up. It makes my life better. I’m happy it seems to be at least a bit similar for you too.

[peachjagiya]

So I have a question but please don’t take this as an attack and go ham on me, just asking because I am genuinely curious.

Why is it that everytime or almost everytime someone asks a question about somethings which could possibly debunk the idea that taekook are a couple, some tkkrs either answer sarcastically or come up with excuses about how people do not understand subtleties but I see you take every other interaction with every other pairs very literally even though you refuse to do that with taekook. Why? Don’t get me wrong, I understand that some interactions and words do have subtleties that people could easily miss and take very literally but my issue is that I don’t see you treat interactions of other pairs like this. The previous anon who asked about Tae not knowing Jk’s room is what I am talking about. There has been more than one instance of Tae directly stating that he didn’t know Jk’s room and i’m sure that if it was Jimin who ever made a statement like that about Jk, you wouldn’t have tried to find the subtleties but would have taken it quite literally and argued that he did say that so we cannot go arguing with him or calling him a liar. Another good example is how Jk made it quiet clear who he saw during a particularly break and who he didn’t but I have seen some tkkrs make arguments about that trying to say that he obviously couldn’t say everything, which could be true but would you have used that same reasoning if Jk had mentioned not seeing Jimin? Like now, you make arguments against Jikook by saying that Jimin made it clear who he saw and who he didn’t and you see no reason why he would lie but why don’t you make this same argument when taekook also make certain things clear? Like in this case, Tae clearly said he went to Jimin’s room and thought it was Jk’s because Jk was the one who answered the door and greeted him and what this means is that he didn’t know Jk’s room because if he did, he wouldn’t have been confused if it was Jimin’s room or Jk’s room and most especially if Jk is his boyfriend and he visits Jk’s room quiet often.

I just feel like everytime someone brings up some questions about a few things which don’t make sense if taekook are a couple, they are met with sarcastic responses or excuses about how we don’t know everything (which we don’t) but I don’t see you apply this logic to other ships when you argue against them. See the way in the AYS trailer yesterday after Jk said he missed the members, some taekookers already started getting shady with it claiming that he wasn’t satisfied being with Jimin even though during the solo era where everyone knows that Jk was seen hanging out with Tae the most, we still had him on vlives talking about how much he missed his members. Would it have been fair then to say that he said that because he wasn’t satisfied with hanging out only with Tae? What does him missing the rest of his members have to do with the one he is with at that moment? And then your statements about “knowing those who are close irl” always amazes me because there is no way you really believe that Jk is not close to any of his members irl and especially not Jimin whom he is currently enlisted with right now and you could say anything you want to say about enlistment and how he didn’t have a choice or this and that but I think deep down you know that Jk will not enlist with someone he isn’t close to irl and all this subtle jabs you constantly take at Jk’s relationship with Jimin just to prove how “real” taekook is just makes you seem a little insecure because if you really didn’t think anything of jikook you wouldn’t feel the need to try to make statements like “we know who is close irl”

And then your statements about “knowing those who are close irl” always amazes me because there is no way you really believe that Jk is not close to any of his members irl and especially not Jimin

I don't see this as an attack but I do see this for what it is: A jikooker who has simply not read my blog or the blogs of any other tumblr tkkr and is projecting HARD.

No I think you'll find every Taekooker - on tumblr at least - has zero doubt about JK and Jimin's closeness. In fact, I think most army would say they were close. Certainly there have been times when jikookers will say "See? He always chooses Jimin!" and some of us might reply, "Uh does he?"

If you see someone pointing out times JK prioritised others as "jabs" at Jikook, that's a problem I simply can't help you with.

The only doubts about closeness that the TKKRs share is how close jkkrs think they are. Jimin is an exception for JK. Jimin is his priority. Jimin is the one he's closest too. We fundamentally disagree on that.

Jikook have only ever had their closeness celebrated. The same can't be said for Taekook. They have a proven history of company mistruths that never stand up to scrutiny and usually get proven to be lies by JK or Tae themselves. So yeah. I do believe there is lies and truth-twisting when it comes to TKK and not when it comes to JKK. Because what have JKK ever had to hide?

While Taehyung cannot move in JK's direction or breathe a syllable of his name without people saying he's a clout chaser and a liar, and while some groups just point blank refuse to acknowledge any time JK confirms closeness with Tae, I'll continue to believe a company narrative has you fooled.

Insecurity is coming to taekook blogs to extol the virtues of Jikook. Jimin and JK are close and valuable to each other. That fact doesn't threaten me in the slightest. End of story.

(It was anon who said "it's very obvious which people are close irl" not me.)

[jihyoszuki]

그건 흔한 왜가리야 : That's A Common Heron

Strawberry Milk

a winrina highschool au, wherein karina and winter found love with a sip of strawberry milk

Jimin and I first met in the middle of summer

"Be careful! You might hit someone!"

It felt like time stoped when I first met Jimin. I still remember the blurry image of her behind the ball.

"HEY! WATCH OUT!"

My vision became blurry. It was loud. The students talking. Some were shouting. The breeze was strong. It was all so loud. But when our eyes met, it all just became white noise. It was just me and Jimin in the world as time slowed down. Just two students, letting time take control of their fates. Letting the sounds of the world become their music.

"Oh my gosh! I'm so sorry" A girl said as I stay helplessly on the ground. My glasses right beside me, broken in half. As I slowly looked up to see who had kicked the ball at me. I was surprised by the soccer teams newest member, Yoo Jimin.

Jimin went with me to the Optical. She bought me a new pair of glasses. Even though it will take time for me to get used to the glasses, I was thankful that Jimin still had went out of the way to buy me a new pair.

Jimin and I started walking back. We crossed a bridge as Jimin started a conversation

"What class are you in? Are you in class nine?"

"I'm in class two." I answered her as I looked at her. "Where do you live?" I asked Jimin.

"In Godeok-myeon. You?" She asked back "I'm from Inheung-myeon." I looked away from her and shifted my gaze towards the river.

"Do you know that birds name, Jimin-ssi?" Our gaze following the bird that's flying over the river

"That gray bird?" "Mhm."

"그건 흔한 왜가리야" It was a common Heron.

Minjeong was doing her assignment at her desk at home.

"그건 흔한 왜가리야"

Minjeong remembers the way Jimin's lips moved as she said those words earlier. The way Jimin's eyes shined under the sun that was setting down. The way Jimin's hair flowed in the wind with the mixed color of the sky of orange and yellow behind her. The memory of the conversation they had was still fresh in Minjeong's mind.

"Can I meet her again?" Minjeong sighed out frustratedly as she dropped her head down to her desk. Minjeong's answers to her assignment were forgotten as she got more and more distracted. The answers being replaced with the thought of the soccer player in her mind.

"KIM MINJEONG!" I turned my head to my classmate as she called out my name. "Someone's looking for you" I looked to the door and spotted Jimin. She sent me a small wave with a smile that I found really beautiful

"How are you feeling? Are you still hurt?" Jimin looked so worried. "No, I'm okay now" I replied to Jimin with a smile. Jimin suddenly held her hand infront of me. She was holding a carton of strawberry milk.

Since then, the whole week Jimin kept on visiting me at lunch with a box of strawberry milk.

Minjeong had place the empty box of strawberry milk infront of her window, just above her table. The strawberry milk was replaced by soil and a few little flowers in the box.

When I came to school this morning. I was wondering if Jimin would visit me again at class.

I was about to reach the gates of the school when I saw Jimin. "Jimin-ah!" just as I were going to reach out for her. A girl from the soccer team came over to Jimin and entered the school doors with Jimin laughing beside her.

I didn't knew or heard what the girl said. It made me wonder how can she make Jimin smile and laugh like that. Jimin looked like she was an angel that was sent from heaven to stop time with her beauty. Her smile was like her power that can make the world go slow and bring the humans heart rates up. She made my heart skipped a beat as I watched her giggled to whatever her team-mate said.

When will she smile at me like how she does with her?

I kept looking at the doors while I wiped the window. I was waiting for Jimin to stop by but the sound outside the window caught my attention.

"Jimin!" It was that girl again. They were wearing their soccer jerseys. Jimin looked so cute. They walked to the middle of the field as they talked to one another. The girl looks familiar. I don't know her name but I've seen her play last year for tryouts. Maybe she got on the team now.

"Minjeong-ah" Jimin whispered as I got closer to her. I looked up from the river as I walked towards Jimin. I was on my way home. I was disappointed that Jimin didn't visit me today but I was surprised to see her on the bridge.

"You're out late" Jimin softly told me. "I was on cleaning duty." Jimin shifted her gaze towards the river and placed her hands on the bridges railings. "Did you eat yet?" She kept her gaze on the river as she asked. "No, I havent."

"Are you hungry?" Jimin finally looked towards me

"What would you like to eat, Jimin-ah?"

TAGLIST: OPEN

[ @yukianism ]

[joyswonderland1108]

“You guys have changed”

Hi hello, i’m back again with my “this fandom is shitty” rant.

On today’s live (or yesterday depending on where you live) Joon said this very sentence after reading some comments and what can i say? Surprised? Not the slightest, if anything y’all already know where i stand when it comes to this fandom. 

“Yoongi marry me” “I’m X member’s wife” “Touch your nose if *ship* is real” “Speak English”, etc etc.. 

Let’s talk about each “category” separately. 

“Marry me” “I’m X’s wife” 

It’s okay to joke once or twice about one thing but when it gets too repetitive.. Why the fuck do these boys even bother coming live if every other comment is “marry me” or “I’m X member’s wife” at least be original? Make it funny? Stop maybe assuming that they even want to get married or even intend on marrying the opposite gender? 

I’m going to set the point on my last sentence here. At some point it starts to get a bit too offensive when the boys keep on trying to share things that are personal to them, whether it’s in a direct way or indirect way, just for this fandom to completely misunderstand them or not even bother trying to understand in the first place. It’s bad enough that the boys can’t really say things literally as they are but they still try to get the message out there just for this fandom to completely dismiss it and not give them a chance to be understood, but the fact that they also have to remind them through direct comments that they don’t give one flying fuck about what the boys are trying to share with us, trying to let us understand. 

Yoongi didn’t say that "i focus on personality and atmosphere, i don’t have an ideal type and it’s not limited to a girl”  Just for your asses to be commenting “I’m Yoongi’s wife”, i bet if one of y’all sickos could’ve thought about switching the heteronormativity in this “joke” at least once despite being a woman yourself and go for a “I’m Yoongi’s husband” that would’ve made him smile for the sole reason that it’s not the same bullshit he sees every single time. 

I remember a few days ago i came across a snippet from an SKZ live on tiktok, well it was originally Bangchan’s live and Han decided to join

The way they had fun with that question, the way they just answered it like it was just another monday, the way it didn’t feel annoying, the way it was an open door for them too to crack jokes with stays.. Lemme just tell you beforehand that stays are original and so far from what i noticed their comments are mostly fun they also like to mention memes in the comments to which, i believe usually it’s Bangchan, who actually let’s them know that he DID see this and that, that he did see some edits, etc.. It’s basically a whole conversation in the comments not the same lame ass jokes every single time. 

Mentioning other idols in the comments.. 

And for what? If said idol has NOTHING to do with the members, why even bring up their name? If it wasn’t part of some type of collab, some type of acknowledged outing, or something similar why are we even talking about someone else in the boys lives what are they? A directory service? Mentioning the collab with Charlie Puth to JK is OK, mentioning the collab with Psy to Yoongi is OK, mentioning the collab with Taeyang to Jimin is OK, mentioning the collab with So Yoon to Joon is OK, etc.. but randomly mentioning some idol unprovoked? 

I’m going back to a Bangchan live, the very recent one when he was asked if he saw how Jimin mentioned Felix in Pixid 

The question didn’t come out of nowhere, they didn’t just ask him about Jimin and called it a day, they precisely mentioned the part where Jimin mentioned Felix who is Chris’s (Bangchan) fellow bandmate and friend, also can you just see how genuine Chris’s reaction is? The way he was so happy to talk about that, the way he was so excited, the way he was just like you and i. And we did end up getting Felix doing the “Like Crazy” challenge after all

“Speak English” 

Well no bitch how about YOU speak Korean for a change? YOU decided to stan a South Korean boy group and for all we know the official language in South Korea isn’t English, they don’t have to speak YOUR language or the language YOU best understand just to soothe your entitlement, if they do speak it from time to time it’s just out of generosity from them that they don’t even have to give to this shitty fandom.

It’s also the fact that they repeatedly keep on telling you that they don’t speak English or their English isn’t really good, that they don’t feel comfortable enough to speak English, but the comments keep on repeating the same bullshit order not even request, not only on every live but on the same live right after they say that they can’t speak English other comments pop up asking the same shit.

YOU go learn Korean, YOU go make the effort, they already make enough effort to give you high quality content, to stay in touch with a much undeserving fandom, to keep this fandom satisfied, you name it, so why on earth are we trying to burden them even more? 

“Do this and that if *ship* is real”

No comment really.. It’s like the whole “blink if you’re being held hostage”, why the fuck would anyone with a sane mind think it’s okay to ask any member to do some type of sign to hint at a non-existent romantic relationship and to make it worse it’s sometimes about some very unrealistic pairings too, people they barely even interact with if not at all. Y’all go read some aus or something if that’s all you ever want from the boys. 

Members could be talking about something serious, something touching, and the comments are basically just not caring about any of that more focused on getting their fantasy fulfilled. You should know that if the boys want to hint at something they don’t need a comment asking them to do it, if they’re trying to be cryptic or hint at anything it’ll spontaneously come from them, the same way JK decided HIMSELF to hint at “Letter”, it was his own decision, what HE wanted and if they want to hint at a relationship believe me you won’t even need to bother asking, they’ll be dropping the hints themselves and it’s up to attentive Army to notice. 

~

I love how through years Jin, Joon, Yoongi and Tae have set some boundaries with Army, it’s like.. They’re already so fed up with all the toxicity and the entitlement, on the other hand our 3J are just way too fucking kind for this damn fandom, despite all the crappy things this fandom does they still manage to make time for us, manage to interact with us, manage to play a bit with us, jokingly flirt with us, heck Hobi gave us a whole boyfriend pov during his live and i don’t know if Army are actually dense or.. But do they really think it’s meant in a serious way? That JK being flirtatious some times means he wants to hook up with Army? That Jimin being kind enough to reply to silly questions makes him easy enough? Do they seriously not notice how they just genuinely want to make those interactions more fun but Army make everything regrettable.

Gosh i feel like i had much more shit to say about this but i’m already exhausted enough with long posts and my brain isn’t braining. Can this fandom get any shittier? 

[namjoonscoffeeshop]

Dear Namjoon | 05

✧ Pairing: Kim namjoon x reader ✧ warning(s): explicit language, suggestive content, mature content ✧ genre: angst,fluff,smut,slow burn ✧ synopsis; You're sent to live with your father and older brother. only that your older brother is in a band called BTS. you meet jimin's friends and automatically get tangled with one of his band members. you're relationship has to be kept a secret but for how long can you keep it that way?

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once you woke up, you found that not just your lips were swollen due to how much namjoon sucked on them but your eyes were puffy due to you crying.

you go wash up, and come out with at towel wrapped around your body. you kept looking at the marks that decorated your skin in the mirror. and you felt dumb because deep inside you want him to touch you and kiss you. maybe friends with benefits is fine.

picking an outfit good enough to cover the marks , you then begin to pick up the clothes from the floor. only to find that he left his tie in your room. picking it up you get angry again and toss it into your closet inside your suitcase before shutting it

"asshole"

jimin and dad came home earlier, since jimin rushed him. not liking the idea of you being alone a whole night.

he walks into your room, you were laying in bed. "hey sis" he jumps on the bed hugging you

"hey mochi"

"did namjoon leave after dropping you off?" he lays his head on your lap, your fingers begin to brush his hair

"yeah, he said he had plans"

"nice, i owe him one for bringing you home" he closes his eyes and relaxes as you comb his hair

"i think he took it really serious when you said i was off limit"

"he better"

you chuckle at his words "why you bring it up?, don't tell me you like him" he asks

"no" you answer quickly

"i was just wondering why you said that" you bite your lip, hoping he'd tell you, he sighs

"he a fuck boy, he uses girls for his own pleasure and later on leaves them. i just don't want him to pull that shit on you. i saw how he looked at you"

"everyone was looking at me"

"nope, his eyes were undressing you"

"your so extra" you laugh

his arms wrap around your waist "let me sleep here, you don't know how much i've missed you" he pouts

"ok" he rolls over and gets under the blanket, you turn off the light, he hugs you.

"goodnight"

"night"

jimin fell asleep first that night, for the first time in a while i stayed up all night thinking about everything that happened today.

-----

when jimin woke up he looked at you for a while, at some point he hated his parents for separating the two of you. and thats why he tried so hard to keep a good relationship so he wouldn't become a stranger to you.

but right now it was time for revenge, for what you did to him. he snickered at how you always looked angry as you slept, and thought it would be funnier to just take a photo of you. grabbing his phone he opens the group chat with the other guys

BANGTAN CHAT - Jimin POV

y/n kicked me out of the bed yesterday

tae: that's the most random shit you have ever said

you don't understand it hurt like a bitch, but i can't do that to her. so i got other plans

hobi: and why are you telling us this

namjoon: cause he has no other friends

fuck you, and its cause of this

jimin sits up and takes a photo of you sleeping, sending it to the group chat

i might not be able to kick her off the bed but this is good enough for revenge. now i'ma wake this kid up so see y'all at school.

tae: did he just send us a photo of his sister sleeping

jungkook: she's gonna kill you, you know that right?

yoongi: someone show her the photo and if she kills him, no one help him. he deserves it

----

what jimin didn't know is that he just gave namjoon a photo of y/n. namjoon smiles at the photo

"shit maybe if it's her...it wouldn't be so bad" he saves the photo

i woke up to jimin sticking his finger into my ear and it was wet

"what the fuck, why is your finger wet" i clean my ear

"oh cuz i licked it" he laughs, jumping off the bed "get ready for school" he says with a smile ear to ear

once again you went with jimin to school, cause you were too tired to drive. today was weird because the guys just kept looking at you and jimin was acting cocky all morning

"do i look funny today or what" you were getting irritated at their stares, especially namjoon's

hoseok then walks up to you and jimin yells his name "hey you wouldn't" jimin points at him, and hoseok takes his phone out showing you the group chat. taehyung is holding back his laugh at the view of a very stressed out jimin. who is slowly getting off the desk.

you grab the phone and read the conversation until you scroll and see your photo. you look up at jimin with dagger eyes "you asshole!" you hand hoseok his phone back, as you walk to jimin, who's hiding behind taehyung

"you kicked me off the fucking bed" he yells

"bitch you stuck you nasty finger in my ear" taehyung is being pushed around. as you try to get a hold of jimin

your face was beet red at the thought they all saw the photo, but what made you blush even harder was that namjoon saw the photo. only making you wanna strangle your brother even more.

he pushes taehyung towards you as he runs for the door, you turn, trying to grab him but trip over your bag you had carelessly tossed on the floor.

namjoon quickly gets up and his arm wraps around your waist as he catches you. you tense up at his touch, but you stand straight and look at him. before you pick up your bag, sticking your middle finger at jimin. you leave the rooftop. leaving everyone but namjoon confused.

"shit, is she that mad?" jimin asks concerned

taehyung being his own curious self he was more into why there was a awkward tension between the two you.

----

once it was lunch time, jimin said he had to go to a class for some help. and said to go make friends instead.

i was planning to just go to the rooftop before i got a message from namjoon. telling me to meet him in the same class from yesterday. hesitant at first. i decided i should go and hear what he has to say.

you walk the same hall as yesterday. making sure no one was looking at you as you enter the last classroom. you find namjoon sitting on the desk just like yesterday

"hey" he smiles

"what do you want?" he raises his brow at my tone.

"come here" he motions you to come closer to him. and you do, you stand in front of him. his hands reach for your waist pulling you towards him, as he leans on the desk. "i'm sorry alright"

you look away from him, with your arms crossed

"look i'm not really good at relationships. but if it's you it's worth giving a try" he gives your waist a little squeeze "what do you think?"

"i don't know you said i should listen to my brother more, and well my brother said your a fuck boy" you stare at him, trying to hurt him with your words like he hurt you but it didn't work

he just chuckles at your words "didn't i just say i'm not good at relationships, plus there were more reasons to why those relationships failed. but i don't gotta tell your brother everything" you just stared at him, angrily.

"come on babe don't be mad" he pouts

"don't call me babe" you frown

"why"

"because we aren't dating"

"but you like it when i call you babe or actually" he presses your body against his "or how you body reacts when i tell you your a good girl" he whispers by your ear making you tense up

putting your hands on his chest, you put distance between you both "you are saying everything except what you should be saying"

"oh yeah?, and what's that?" he tilts his head, making you more frustrated

"i'm just kidding, geez" he laughs

"wanna be my girlfriend"he presses his forehead against yours

"i don't know, let me think about it" you peck his lips, as you push him away. ready to walk away but he holds onto you tighter "i don't think so" he grabs your chin as he kisses your roughly

changing positions he sits you down on the desk, your arms wrapped around his neck. his hands propping himself up on the desk . enjoying the kiss, he smirks against your lips.

"you aren't gonna answer"

"hmm answer what"

he sighs "i gotta repeat myself?" you just stare at him in silence

"go out with me"

"alright" he smiles and leans in to kiss you but you pull on his hair making him groan

"make me cry again and i will tell my brother"

"did i make you cry" he pulls your hand away from his hair, giving it a kiss.

you don't respond at all

"sorry alright" he kisses you again and again. making you melt at his touch.

"you know it's gotta be a secret right" he presses his forehead against yours, "hmmm, does it?" he smirks

"yes! i'm serious namjoon"

"i like people knowing what's mine though"

"it's my brother, i don't think you need to be territorial with him"

"he said you were off limits, i promise i won't ever say it. i just hope you don't make us get caught" his dumb brushes against your bottom lip.

" we can meet here every time. no one uses this room" he smiles

"how do you know? fucked one of your other bitches here?" you bite his finger, making him grin

"don't be a jealous girlfriend, you gotta trust me. and you're not one of my bitches, so no i wouldn't take you to does places" "Plus I wouldn't be fucking you, I'lol be making love to you "

"it's just you from now on"

------

after making out for a while longer, he says you guys should go already. and you followed him to the court yard where he read his book. and you scrolled through your phone

" i heard you guys will be getting fan mail"

"yeah, they said something about that" his eyes don't leave his book

"y/n, thats where you were" jimin enters the court yard

"i thought i told you to make friends, not to go hang out with namjoon"

"ouch, for your information i found your lonely sister sitting here alone. no need to thank me for giving her company" he shrugs, giving you a wink without jimin noticing

"you're a lost cause y/n" he sighs, sitting next to you. "namjoon you ready for later?" jimin says excited

"yeah sure why not" he response was rather dry, he didn't look interested

"don't mind him, when he's reading he doesn't pay attention to anyone" jimin sighs

"you wanna come along?" he looks at you

"yeah, i'll go" jimin nods.

you guys stay there until the bell rang.

-----

after getting to the club, you realize a bunch of kids from school were also there. jimin explained that were was some sort of concert. they left you alone once more as they went to go get ready for this performance.

jin sits next you, giving you a glass of orange juice. "how did you like our performance the other day" he asks

"i think your guys are awesome, what jimin would tell me over the phone doesn't give justice to how hard you guys work" you take a sip of the juice.

"thanks" he smiles, satisfied with your answer

your phone rings, and you take it out to find a message of namjoon, telling you to go through red doors near the bathroom.

"uh ima go to the bathroom" you put the cup on the table, jin smiles at you as you walk away. going through the crowd

you walk pass the bathroom, seeing a lot of red doors everywhere. taking out your phone your about to call namjoon, but someone grabs your arm and pulls you into one of the room making your scream.

they cover your mouth with their hand and you hit their chest

"it's me, calm down"

"namjoon!" you whack him again "what are you doing" he laughs

"i wasn't sure if anyone was out there, sorry" he gives you a hug

"i wanted to see you before we went up, jimin said he's taking you home after"

"oh.." you look around, seeing a lot of instruments everywhere, your eyes stopping at the violin

"you play?" he walks up to the violin, handing it to you

"a long time ago, i don't think i can even play a child song at this point" you chuckle

"who knows"

"lets hang out tomorrow?"

"when??" you place the violin where namjoon had picked it up from

"after school, the guys are all planning to hang out, jimin will be there. i'll tell them i got some plans, you just tell jimin that he should spend some time without you" his eyes crinkled as he laughed

"ok, but i think my dad is gonna be home tomorrow so.."

"don't worry you can come to my place" nodding, you guys hear the announcements, and you hear an angry jimin calling out namjoon to get his ass to the stage

namjoon quickly puts his hand behind your neck, as he leans in for a kiss "i need to recharge" he mumbles, he takes your bottom lip into his mouth and sucks lightly.

"fuck, i gotta go but. tomorrow alright!" he points at you as he walks out the door

waiting for a bit, you hear the music start. taking it as your cue you walk out and head to where the stage is.

you see multiple people in suits, they have clipboards and are looking up to them, two guys catch your attention. their heads bopped to the music. looking at the clip board you catch a glimpse to the name 'Bighit Entertainment'

-----

once they got off stage, many people went up to them with business cards. namjoons steps up and takes all of them as the other guys head to the back. jimin signals you to head to the back as well. you walk slowly as you also keep your attention at namjoon who was talking to all the men in suits

"y/n hurry" jimin calls out to you

"he's getting a lot of cards" you tell jimin

"i know, isn't it exciting" jimin smiles making his eyes disappears as he smiles, you nod. happy to see him so bright

"let me change and we can head home"

namjoon was good at not glancing at you or talking to you that it made you sort of uncomfortable. cause all you wanted to do was look and talk to him. instead you talk to jungkook seeing how his eyes twinkled as he told you about the song they were singing.

"your very passionate huh" my mouth curved into a smile, his happiness being contagious.

he nods "i just wanna be good enough, so i can go with them" and he looks up to the guys, your eyes follow where he was looking. "i think your great?"

"yeah but what if i'm not good enough"

"thats bullshit on a stick, if they don't want you then you go to another one. anyways they won't leave you behind" your brows knitted

"yeah, your right. that's why i'm afraid to be the one to hold them back" his eyes gleamed with sadness and you did the one thing you could think of

i karate chopped the back of his neck

"y/n what the fuck? that hurt" he gets up, massaging his neck.

"thats for thinking the way you are, you can't be negative about things." everyone was looking at you guys since jungkook raised his voice

"fuck but did you have to hit me" jungkook whines, only to get pinched by jimin "don't talk to my little sister like that"

"she's not wrong, if they want one of us they gotta take all of us"

-----

the next day you drove to school, instead of going with jimin. since you were gonna head to namjoon's place after school.

and just as planned you made sure to tell your dad you were gonna hang out with some friends, yes you hadn't made new friends. but you knew some people from before you moved.

and just like namjoon said, jimin asked if you wanted to go with him. but you told him to hang out with his friends without you. ever since you came to live here he takes you everywhere with him.

you told him you were gonna hang out with old friends and he didn't suspect you at all. namjoon texted you his address, and you head over to his place.

ringing the door bell, a smiling face greets you as he opens the door

"your here" he reaches his hand out, you grab it and he pulls you inside. your back is leaning against him as he takes off your jacket. only to hang it up.

"what did jimin say"

"nothing, he was fine with it" he nods, walking into the living room. he sits down.

he was wearing his glasses again, and you loved how he looked with them "do you use your glasses to just read?" you ask as you see the book on the table

"yeah"

you sit down next to him, a little distance between the both of you

"are you hungry? we can order something" he asks, taking out his phone. right now you weren't thinking about food, for the first time ever you were feeling horny over namjoon. you wanted him to touch you.

you glance at his lips "uh sure, what do you wanna get"

scrolling through his phone he isn't aware of your stares

"namjoon"

"yeah?" he answers without looking at you

I felt flustered at the thought that he suddenly didn't wanna have sex. i thought he invited me over for that reason.

you felt like he was trying to respect you but right now you didn't want him to respect you. gathering your courage, you grab his phone. putting it down. he looks up at you, as you get up and straddle him, placing his hands on your waist

"do you really wanna order food right now" he's shocked at your sudden acts but doesn't let it phase him

"well, i don't know...do you have something else in mind"

"i want you to touch me.."

"yeah?" he smirks

pushing him to lean back agains the couch you leave kisses on his neck, he doesn't react to your touch making you irritated. you begin to suck on his skin just like he did to you. his hands already groping your ass, as he rolls your hips against him.you feel at how he right away started hardening.

"you sure you want this"

"yes" you were greedy for his touch already. he presses your ass against his hardened length, making you bury your face at the crook of his neck. trying to hide your beet red face.

as he kissed you he kept tilting his face to try and kiss you but his glasses were getting in the way. frustrated he pulls away, taking off his glasses. tossing them tot he other side of the sofa. "they were getting in the way" you giggle

your body started moving on it's own at this point, this man makes you loose all your common sense.

"good girl, keep grinding on me" his voice sounds raspy, you fasten your pace, and he finally had enough.

he picks you up, tossing you over his shoulder as he walks upstairs to his room. locking the door behind him.

laying you on the bed, he pulls his shirt over his head, you feel a lump in your throat as you feel the butterflies in your stomach again.

it's gonna happen for real this time.

he wastes no time to undress you, he stares at your body. especially all the marks he left on your body "it was dark yesterday in your room i didn't get a good look at you, but now i can see you properly"

"don't say that" you cover your face

"why not?" he kisses your stomach, as you squeeze your thighs together

"cause it's embarrassing" smirking at your words, he grabs your thighs. spreading them "i didn't mark here" he begins to kiss you inner thighs, sucking on the skin.

"wa-wait not there" you whimper as he nibbles on your skin.

my mind is empty, i can't think straight.

you feel him blow at your heat, making you moan "na-namjoon not there" his grip on your thighs tighten, not letting you close your legs

your core is aching for him. he's making you feel a way you've never felt before. "your dripping" his fingers rubbing against your clit

"your sure you want this? once i start, i won't be able to stop myself" uncovering your face you see his fingers in his mouth again, as he licks his fingers off.

you nod

"use your words"

"yes namjoon, just fuck me already please" you stare at him as he undresses completely, reaching into his drawer to get a string of condoms out. he rips one open, pumping himself a few times before putting the condom on

"alright, i'll be gentle" he positions himself between your legs, your feel the tip of his cock rubbing against your clit smearing the wetness at your entrance

"look at me" he says with his raspy voice. his hand is on your waist holding you in place, you feel the tip of his cock enter you and you whimper at the sudden stretch

"hold on babe, it'll feel better soon" he grunts, laying his head on your shoulder. trying to control himself from fucking you senseless. the rest of him sinks into you slowly, making you moan as your walls stretch around him. "fuck your so fucking tight" he groans, brows pinched together. his mouth agape. your pull him into a kiss, and he moans.

a completely new feeling appears inside your stomach, your walls clench around this thick length. you feel a sense of pleasure and the knot releases making you moan

"fuck" namjoon looks at you "did you just cum from me just entering you" his forehead has drops of sweat

"cum?" you whimper, your mind completely gone

"fuck you're so innocent" sitting up he grabs your hips lifting them up, he grabs a pillow placing it underneath your hips

"i can't control myself no more" you look at his abs, your eyes look down and you see him inside you. making you wonder how he even fit. your walls clench around him even more as you think about it.

"fuck do you want my cock that badly" he pulls out enough to just leave his tip inside you, just to thrust into you, your whole body shivering with pleasure

he increases his pace and your a mess under neath him. unconsciously you spread your legs even more. making him smirk

"its sexy that you're spreading your legs for me, do you want it deeper" he grunts, as he thrusts into you once more "don't worry i'll hit all your good spots"

you thug your nails in his back, as he fastens his pace. "y/n you feel so fucking good" the pleasure was immense, every time he touched you his body screamed with pleasure, everything about you made him delirious. like every other time he had sex was meant to be with you.

you feel the feeling in your stomach again "namjoon i-"

"cum for me babe" his lips meet yours as he kisses you eagerly, after a few more thrust you cum for a second time, i cry out as he continues to pounce into me, reaching his own orgasm. his thrust get sloppy, he growls at the last few thrust before he releases into the condom. letting out little breaths as he tries to calm down

he brings his lips to yours kissing you roughly, his hand makes his way to your clit, entering two of his digits into you. you whine at the overstimulation

"wait namjoon" you whimper

"what" he growls

"i can't anymore" you grip his shoulders. he takes his fingers out of you, sitting up. you see his cock hardened again.

he takes off the used condom, tying it up he tosses it to he bin next to the bed

"babe i didn't take out just one" he picks up the string of condoms, a smug look appears on his face

"i'm tired"

"please" he kisses your inner thighs

"one more time" you stare at his dick, seeing how it twitches and it makes you feel good that you could make him hard so quickly

"fine one more time"

"get on all fours"

"what?"

"just be a good girl and listen" he slaps your thigh, you get up. getting on all fours as he lifts your ass up more.

"fuck your so fucking beautiful" you blush at his compliments

opening another condom he puts it on, wasting no time he thrusts into you. his grip on your waist tightens as he thrusts into you again.

"where the fuck have you been all my life" his heart tightens every time he rolls his hips into you

you whimper at his words, your hands griping onto the bed sheets

"namjoon" you moan his name

"yes" he grunts

"harder" you say weakly

"what ever you want" and he does exactly as you asked pulling out, he thrust harder into you making you gasp for air.

"fuck this feels so good" you manage to say, eyes shut close as the pleasure rushes through your entire body

namjoon focuses at how he disappears inside you, he bites his bottom lip. fastening his pace

"wa-wait i feel like i'm gonna pee" you whine

"just do it" namjoon groans

"wh-what"

"don't worry baby just squirt" not being able to argue with him, you feel yourself cumming again

not long after namjoon shoots into the condom again, he pulls out and you fall flat on the bed once he lets your waist go

"fuck..i can't get enough of you" he kisses your back, sucking on the skin

"namjoon i can't no more" you whine

"once more please" he continues to suck on your skin

you look at the string of condoms seeing there are three more left

"i really can't move"

"don't worry you won't have to get up"

"fine"

changing his condom once more he lays behind you, spooning you "alright" he lifts your thigh giving him space so he can slip inside of you, hands cupping your breast. as his other hand rubs your clit

"n-namjoon" you moan, he continues to thrust into you, bitting onto your shoulder making you whimper. "fuck i wanna know how it feels to fuck you raw" he moans

and the idea of him inside of you without any barrier made your walls clench around him

"shit, does that idea excite you" you couldn't last long this time, cumming shortly after. he followed you too

"y/n.." he groans

"no namjoon, i won't be able to walk" you lay on your back, hand on your stomach, as you still feel as if he was inside you. looking at namjoon he's covering his face with his forearm. you look down and see his dick, hard and up against his stomach

"what the hell are you" you laugh

your phone rings, making you reach for your skirt that was on the floor, you see it's jimin's number

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

I finally had the time to reread Jimin's interview for W Korea, as well as the on-set Q&A taken during the photoshoot.

I think that when it comes to an artist, such as Jimin or any other one in a similar position, it can be difficult to end up with a truly valuable interview, especially when it doesn't have a very specific purpose based on some recent work or release. For example, if one would release a solo album like J-Hope, then the interview would have a clear direction, focused on his music and the entire process of creation. Which is what his interview with W Korea actually turned up to be.

But then, what do you do with someone who is in between? Leaving behind and pressing pause on group activities and getting ready to release his own music, but he's not quite there yet. I found that most of the questions were concentrated on his wellbeing, mental state, as well as his work ethic and his obvious perfectionism. I also saw that Jimin is perhaps ready to let go of his obsession with his youth, by closing his 20s and getting ready for his 30s. I think that only now that process begins and it shows how much he has matured.

But apart from that, I think there were some missed opportunities here, not only on behalf of the interviewer, but also in Jimin's responses. And given than it was made through email exchange, it wouldn't have been that difficult. I noticed that Jimin has a particular way of creating his answers, a product of media training and perhaps a need to reveal enough to make the reader think they found out something new, when in fact it's not really the case. His answers are short, right to the point, without any free flow and letting his mind just take him in a natural progression. And all this is made through some vague, general statements, avoiding any details. He talks about the process of making his own album and how it's more difficult because he's on his own, but he doesn't elaborate on the specifics. At this point, it's a pattern.

But I also believe that the way questions are formulated has a direct impact on the type of answers received. For example, when Jimin mentioned he felt lost, the next question was perhaps too leading, offering immediately 3 options as reasons. It was too leading, instead of being open and letting Jimin reveal on his own thoughts on that topic. It was almost like he was given the easy way out on a topic which could be too revealing. Not that he wouldn't be able to avoid it all together, this was not live, but to me, it looked a bit constrictive.

I also noticed that the interview was taken from the perspective of having a conversation with idol/BTS member Jimin and regular person Jimin, and not as much with dancer Jimin (there was intention there, but cut off too soon, including with Jimin's answer about his childhood). If this was an opportunity to present Jimin on his own, talking more about his craft would have been a really great way of diving deeper into the actual specificity of his work, of his skills. He's a dancer who is barely asked questions, despite the fact that his performances are now considered memorable.

Ultimately, I appreciate that he's open about his vulnerabilities, although he is distancing himself from it, talking from his present about his past and how things are better. Which I hope it is. But then again, it's like a clinical response. And I don't blame him for it. Each of us has the right to talk about it depending on our boundaries. And given Jimin's position, what we know about him and how guarded he is, it makes sense. It was nice and comforting to see that he is surrounded by people who are there for him. That part of the interview really stuck with me.

As a last observation, related to regular and not superstar Jimin, I think this interview and the Q&A reflect how unglamorous he is and no hint of vanity in sight. That's something that I never sensed with him and the interview falls in that category as well. I think he's confident enough, without bragging at all. Jimin mastered the art of how to present and create and ideal image of a humble and loved idol and up until now, there's hasn't been anything in 10 years to contradict that. And choosing to end the interview by saying he's nothing but a guy in a tracksuit was the perfect closing line.

[struggle-but-its-all-ocean-floor]

I remember a while ago you answered a ask ranking bts friendships and you basically said you don't think Tae and jk are that close. After this seeing & hearing how much they have hung out this year, do you still feel that way?

I was once a believer that they weren't that close and pretty awkward with each other, but this year really changed my outlook. Especially the last day leading up to enlistment with Tae posting bam and posting the picture wishing JK a safe enlistment. He didn't post anything for jimin or any of the other members, so it makes me feel like Tae and JK are genuinely super close compared to the others. I know this is a super controversial topic in jikook spaces, but I don't understand why... because romantic relationships and friendships are totally different, so saying Tae and jk have one of the closest friendships doesn't really affect jikook in any way since they have a different type of relationship. When it comes to jin and jk I also see it differently than Tae and jk. I feel like jin and jk have more of a sibling relationship.

I actually don't agree with that post anymore, for many reasons. I find it increasingly hard to "rank" BTS friendships. They're all very close in different ways, and by "friendship" I was always meant spending time together more so than anything else, It was never about love, since they all love each other pretty equally imo.

I think V and Jungkook had a few years in which they weren't that close and they flat out said that in ITS1. There's no way you can watch Jungkook and V in ITS1 and not realize they both needed to work on their relationship - again, they said that. But it was equally obvious that they grew much closer from that point onward. They hung out a lot this year. I think V, like all the members, has a very soft spot for Jungkook. He's kind of his baby. I see a lot of tenderness in how V treats Jungkook. They're besties. But I don't see Jungkook being closer to V than, say, Hobi, despite spending a lot of time together.

If I were to rank Jungkook's friendships again - not BTS's, that's too much work - there are 2 I wouldn't change from my original ranking: Jikook at number 1 and Namkook at number 6. Jikook will always be number 1 to me, and I maintain that while Jungkook and RM are very soft for each other, and admire each other greatly, they're last in closeness or relying on each other - but being last doesn't mean they wouldn't jump in front of a bullet for each other, lmao. This is BTS we're talking about... I think RM sees Jungkook as his adorable baby brother, who is also kind of a role model, and RM is JK's idol.

Jinkook are my favorite BTS duo - I mean, I love Jinkook more than Jikook even - but I'm also a bit confused about their closeness. My perception of Jungkook is that he's not necessarily the person that asks to hang out with others - he's the kind of person that can go ages without reaching out to someone (he's the member who never replies to texts, for example). Imo it's most likely for Jungkook to accept invites to hang out than to go out of his way and reach out to someone. I think that's one of the reasons why he hung out with V so much - not to downplay their friendship, but V's definitely the type of friend to push you out of your comfort zone.

So, yeah, all of this to say I'm not sure where Jinkook and Hopekook are in this "ranking". Common sense tells me Jinkook aren't as close as I wish, but they were never the type to hang out outside of work given that they're both introverts. Like you said, Jinkook are the most sibling like of all the members imo, and Jin might love Jungkook the most. Jungkook mentioned talking with Jin on the phone though... And I still remember the way his eyes just lit up when he saw Jin during Hobi's enlistment ceremony - that was so cute. Hopekook surprised me because they used to hang out a lot with Jimin and V, but now Jungkook doesn't talk about Hobi unless someone asks. But, again, I think that's just his personality. Yoonkook are also a question mark, because Yoongi literally can't shut up about Jungkook, but I'm not sure they hang out like Yoonmin. I think "hanging out" is a bad metric when it comes to Jungkook. So I don't know... I hesitate to rank Jungkook's friendships based on 2023 alone. This wasn't a normal year... Also, "ranking" friendships isn't really possible, I'm not Jungkook. I just like to rank things...

Anyway, Vminkook are a bit of a mess in the fandom because of Jikook vs. Taekook vs. Vmin. Sadly, there are a lot of stereotypes and tropes around BTS. Armys literally live in fanfic land when it comes to BTS's relationship, it's so annoying. Jikook is never acknowledged unless by Jikookers... This might be wrong - there's a lot we don't know about BTS this year, we don't have that many footage of them together - but I'd say, based on hanging out: Jikook > Vkook > Vmin. But Vmin are always so soft on each other, I just think V and JK hung out more.

I don't even think I managed to say anything in so many words lmao. Thanks for the ask!

[always-is-always]

To merch or not to merch?

Yah. It is a question to ask.

Honestly, I'd told myself no more merch, after FESTA this year. The exception would have been Jungkook's merch, had it been something really exciting, AND products that ship in a timely manner.

When I saw the approximate shipment dates of March 20-April 4, that answered the question for me. Why would I order something and happily wait 4 freaking months for it? Just sayin'.

Back during FESTA I was in the depths of feelings about the 10th anniversary, and all that I've felt about their MS. I was a sappy mess, and I ordered two items to "celebrate" the milestone of 10 years. Problem was, that the merch wasn't showing up for 3+ months. Yeah. But, I ordered it anyway. When it showed up in September, it was a bit anti-climatic. I still haven't actually worn the tee-shirt, as it just hangs in the closet with the tag still attached, along side my BTS hoodies.

I've got some theories about why HYBE has this system of pre-ordering, for all of the merch. With pre-ordering they know exactly how much of each item to produce, AND it is pre-paid. We basically pay for the manufacturing of the merchandise, months before we even lay a hand on it ourselves. It is a system that words for them, obviously. ARMYs just go along with it as most think it is a way to support the members. I'm not so sure it works that way.

Why would someone want to order something that won't arrive for months, long after the actual promotion that it's been designed to promote?? I wonder why ARMYs haven't raised a bit of a fuss over this. It obviously bothers me enough to warrant this post...

I had hoped that some of Jungkook's merch would be immediately available. Hope has been dashed, as they say. I won't be ordering anything, as I've given up hope that they would change their system around the sales of merchandise.

When Jimin drops his new music in the coming weeks, I'll purchase that. Anything else? Nope.

If there were actually a way to send a message to HYBE to share my opinion, I'd do so. Since there isn't, it's going to live here in these words... I'm letting it go, and I'll be keeping my cash.

Maybe after they return from the Military and they regroup with a tour and new music things will change regarding merch. Miracles do happen. In the meantime, we shall wait and see. 💜

[missywritesfor7]

🌙Moon’s Light | JJK🌙

Synopsis: Luna is a young paralegal trying to maintain her new found independence and enjoy life. Too bad her job sucks and her boss is the worst. As if that wasn’t bad enough, she encounters a vampire named Jungkook who changes her life in more ways than one.

Jungkook is a shield and protector of the vampire kingdom of Korealis. He’s trained his entire life to block out any and all distractions and focus solely on becoming the strongest. While investigating a potential threat to the kingdom, he encounters Luna who turns out to be more than he could have ever imagined. It becomes his job to protect her, but he can’t tell if what he’s feeling is his devotion to the job or perhaps something deeper.

Secrets are uncovered. Lives are on the line. Hearts are tested.

Pairing: Vampire!Jungkook x Fem!OC

Warnings: Violence, character death, eventual smut, tragedy, some angst, strong language, MINORS DNI

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|| Ch. 16: The Park Family ||

Everyone is in the sparring room and appear to be relieved to see that Luna is awake and aside from minor weakness, she’s doing ok. For now at least. She doesn’t know if that vision she saw was real or some sort of dream, but it scares her. Two weeks isn’t a lot of time at all.

Everyone begins discussing the prisoner they caught the night Luna passed out. They have him locked up on the crime of using an unauthorized portal, and have been pressuring him to give information about Saakhan Venom. So far all he’s said is that Luna’s boss, Choi Yeonjun, is in charge of scouting recruits on earth. When he finds someone he thinks would be a good addition to the crime syndicate he orders the people under him to make their move. They get taken to headquarters and sent through training in preparation for what they call “Judgement Day”. Though Yeonjun isn’t the head of SV, he’s still a high ranking member with a lot of power.

As the guys continue discussing, Luna begins to zone out. She knows she should probably pay attention to what they’re saying, but she can’t get over the image that flashed in her mind. She only has 2 weeks. What kind of time frame is that to decide whether to live in a whole new world or die?

“How much time do I have left?” Luna asks interrupting their conversation.

“Luna,” Jimin says softly.

“I need to know how much time I have before I die.”

Everyone looks at each other except Jungkook. He looks to the ground wishing he didn’t have to deal with this. Deal with her learning that she doesn’t have much time. Deal with him accepting that she doesn’t have much time.

“It’s hard to say for sure,” Yoongi says taking on the task of explaining it to her. “That guy did a good amount of damage. Along with your ability being too much for you, you dont have long before your human side gives in. My guess is…you have about 2 weeks. But, if anyone else goes through you there’s no telling how much time it will take off your life.”

“Is there nothing else I can do?” She asks not bothering to hide the fear in her voice.

“If there is,” Yoongi answers. “It would likely take us more than 2 weeks to figure it out. There’s never been anyone like you before, we just don’t have the knowledge on how to fix this while saving your life. You simply can’t be human any longer. Wouldn’t converting be better than death?”

Of course converting would be better than death. Anything would be better than death. However, Luna can’t seem to convince herself to make that move. Sure everything she had back home is gone, but it’s still home. What could she do here in Korealis? This unfamiliar place that she’s barely even seen outside of the palace and the lab.

“But there has to be another way, right?” She asks desperately seeking a solution. “What if you can figure it out before then?”

“Are you really willing to risk it?” Namjoon asks. “I mean we don’t even know how you got this way. Your parents are long gone and whoever went after your mom to try converting her is who knows where. We wouldn’t even know where to begin to find that needle in a haystack.”

“Park Hyungwon,” Luna says. The name of her birth mom’s agent who she’s convinced is either the one who killed her parents or at least orchestrated the whole attack. Either way, she can’t forget that name. He’s involved somehow and maybe finding him could give her some answers.

Everyone looks around at each other, then at Jimin who looks both shocked and confused.

“How do you know about Hyungwon?” Jimin asks.

“I was reading my mom’s diary,” Luna says. “She mentioned him up until the very end. I think he may be the one who killed her, or at least he has something to do with her being killed.”

“It can’t be,” Hoseok says looking at Jimin. “Can it?”

“No,” Jimin says looking at the floor in thought. “Hyungwon died from the plague that killed the rest of the family.”

“You’re related to him?” Luna asks.

“Not by choice, of course,” Jimin sighs. “His story is similar to mine. His father was closer in line to the throne than my father, but Hyungwon was also born to a woman who wasn’t married to his father. Because of that he was not allowed to hold his place in line for the throne. The way he was treated his whole life is why my father chose to keep me a secret. I may have only gotten to meet him as he was nearing the end of his life, but I’m grateful he gave me the chance to grow up normal. I never resented him for it, but Hyungwon resented everyone in the family. He wanted revenge and he wanted the throne. But then he died with everyone else. Sure, he was the very last one to die and by then the Kim’s had already taken over, but he’s still dead. So that was the end of that.”

“Jimin,” Luna says in disbelief. “There’s no way he’s dead. At least he wasn’t 25 years ago. It doesn’t make sense.”

“The plague,” Jimin says. “I know it took him. He’s been gone. The whole family has been gone.”

“Jimin, you’re still here though!” Luna says grabbing his shoulders. “Why would everyone else in the family die from the plague and not you?”

“Well there was that rumor,” Jin says.

“What rumor?”

“When the family started to all get sick people thought it was Hyungwon trying to get revenge. But then he was gone too and that was it. However, the rumors kept getting spread over the years. It’s like a fable that kids tell, but no one knows if there’s truth behind it.”

“He could be hiding!” Luna shouts as the lightbulb in her head flashes. “What if he’s hiding amongst the humans at home and that’s how he met my mom! He has to be out there still!”

“Luna,” Jimin says. “I know you want to find some other solution, but-“

“Think about it, Jiminie!” She shouts still clutching his shoulders and catching a glare from Jungkook. “Why would you still be the only one alive if everyone else in your family got sick? He’s not trying to kill you, you’re just like him so he doesn’t resent you!”

It happens again. She sees an image flash in her mind. Jimin talking to a man who’s laying in bed.

“I wish I had more time to tell you everything,” the man says. “I had envisioned one day getting to tell you everything. One day when it would no longer be an issue for me to speak with you. I’m sorry that it has to be like this.”

“But why?” Jimin asks.

“Hyungwon,” the man whispers. “Your mother can tell you all about him. Just…don’t let him know who you are if you ever cross paths with him.”

The vision fades and Luna is looking deeply into Jimin’s eyes. She can see his pupils shaking. Was that real? Did he see the same thing she just saw?

“You know something, don’t you?” Luna asks.

“N-no,” Jimin stutters. “I thought he was dead so I never thought much about anything I’ve been told about him.”

“But you knew he was possibly responsible?” She says seeing right through him. “You knew that he couldn’t know who you are, right?”

“How?” Jimin whispers.

“I think…I can see things.”

“What?” Jungkook asks as everyone looks on confused.

“You can see?” Jimin asks.

Luna nods. Everyone else is still confused, but Jimin can see that she definitely saw what he saw. She saw his memory and he knows she’s right.

“How can we find him?” Luna asks.

“I don’t really know,” Jimin says. “He could be anywhere.”

“But he can’t be too far, right? If the portal and Yeonjun are in the same area he can’t be far.”

“Where would we even start? Searching that area alone could take a while.”

“He’s an agent. At least he was when my mom met him. Maybe he still is! If I could go back-“

“No!” Jungkook quickly interjects. “If anything needs to be done we’ll do it, but you’re not going back there.”

“It wouldn’t be long,” she pleads. “I’m sure I could find him online or something.”

“We’ll take care of that,” Namjoon says. “We can plan something out and check it out ourselves, but for now you don’t need to be out of Jungkook, or any one of our sights.”

“Fine,” she reluctantly agrees. “Is there a way I can communicate with you guys while you’re there?”

“No,” Jungkook says. “If we have to make multiple trips then that’s fine, but I still think this is all a big risk. If we spend however much time on this and run out of time, what will you do? Just drop dead and that’s it?”

“I have faith in you guys!”

“I appreciate the vote of confidence,” Namjoon chuckles. “But Jungkookie is right. What happens if time runs out? You still have to make a choice.”

“I will. I’ll make a choice if I have no more time left. But right now I think you guys could find him and find another solution.” Luna is desperate. It’s almost unreasonable, definitely unreasonable, but she doesn’t care, she’s just trying to save the “normal” life she’d been used to living for 25 years.

“LuLu,” Jungkook says.

“Luna,” Luna mumbles.

“Can you stop being stubborn for one second and realize that you’re playing with life and death.”

“I’m not the stubborn one, bunny boy!” She hisses. “I’m just trying to come up with a solution. Isn’t that what we’re all trying to do?”

“We already had a solution, you’re just being a pain in the ass and won’t accept it.”

“The only pain in the ass is the demon who left me alone all night after I woke up from a 3 day coma!”

“I’m not a demon, you one eyed freak!”

“I’ll show you a freak!” She shouts weakly hitting his arm.

“Yeah, a weak freak,” he giggles.

“It never ends with you two!” Jin shouts bringing them out of yet another bout of bickering. “Give us everything you have on Hyungwon and we’ll start searching for him. In the meantime, you two stay out of trouble.”

“I’m going too, right?” Jungkook asks.

“Your main task is keeping an eye on her.”

“Hyung please. Let me go with you guys. I need to do…something.”

“Show her around town then,” Jin says waving him off.

“That’s not what I meant,” Jungkook pouts.

“But that’s what I ordered you to do.” Jin doesn’t often pull rank when he’s talking to them, but when he does there’s no arguing. His word is law.

In reality, everyone has been able to sense the change in Jungkook. They know his focus has been off lately and only gets worse the longer Luna fights trying to prolong the inevitable. He takes everything too hard, so everyone thought it’d be best to keep him away from potential combat for now. Hoseok tried pleading on Jungkook’s behalf knowing how much it would kill him to not be involved with any of the action. But even he couldn’t deny that Jungkook needs time to sort himself out.

Jungkook hates the idea of staying behind while everyone else goes out. He hates feeling like a failure. And he hates feeling like he’s being punished. He’s tried with everything in him to be better but now it’s like progress is going backwards.

What’s worse is he can’t help but feel a bit of resentment towards Luna. He wasn’t this mixed up until she came along. He isn’t sure what he actually feels for her, but he knows it’s getting in the way of everything. He’s a shield first and foremost and he can’t get himself caught up in such trivial bullshit.

But still, one “Jungkookie” from her and he’s frozen in place. His heart flutters and his mind rages. Fuck her. Fuck her “Jungkookie”. And especially fuck her “Jiminie”. Because what the fuck kind of game is she trying to play by calling Jimin that?

“Jungkookie?” Luna repeats from his bed.

They had returned to his room and he’s been stuck in his mind on the couch ever since. The guys took Luna’s mom’s diary and headed off to look for Park Hyungwon.

“That’s demon bunny to you,” he says. Though even that nickname makes his chest swell. The fuck is wrong with him?

“Ok then, demon bunny,” she chuckles. “Are we just going to stay here all day everyday?”

“You don’t like my room?”

“It’s not that, I’m just a little tired of looking at it.”

“You’re free to go exploring if you’d like.”

“I can’t go out alone, and you don’t seem to be in the mood to do much of anything.”

“What gives you that impression?”

“The constant look of displeasure on your face,” she says walking over to him.

“Fine,” he sighs. “Where do you want to go?”

“I don’t know, I’m not from here remember.”

“I have to do everything for you,” he says half joking. “Let’s go.”

He gets up and guides her out the door. He’s trying his hardest to keep his tough exterior up. Maybe if he’s a douchebag enough she’ll hate him entirely and make things easier for him. But it’s not easy. His cheeky smirk betrays him when he tries to tell her he’s tired of babysitting her. His fond smile when she talks about how she used to go for walks with her mom and have a picnic makes his hard demeanor turn soft.

Luna is in awe at all the things around the city. It almost reminds her of home. The streets lined with various shops, and gorgeous parks where kids play and others simply go to hang out. The constant darkness does nothing to diminish the beauty of the kingdom. If anything it somehow enhances it. It’s like nothing she’s ever seen before.

Jungkook sees this as an opportunity to convince her to convert. If she sees that being here isn’t so bad she may change her mind, and hopefully soon.

“We should get something to eat,” he says as Luna is still in awe at everything around her.

“What do you guys eat?” She asks.

“Blood.”

“Oh…”

“I’m kidding,” he laughs. “Our stuff may be a bit different than you’re used to because we use blood the way humans use water. But it’s all the same to me.”

“Do you think I’ll like it?”

“Maybe,” he shrugs. “I’ll take you to one of my favorite places. How do you feel about fried chicken?”

“Spicy?” She asks in excitement.

“If that’s what you want,” he smiles endeared by her enthusiasm.

“Yes! I haven’t had fried chicken in forever! Take me now!”

“Geez, you don’t know how to say please? You humans are so rude.”

“I’ll show you rude!” She says hitting his arm.

“Hit me again and you won’t get anything except expired blood.”

“Sorry, Jungkookie,” she teases making him cringe from the conflict his mind goes through every time she does that.

“Shut up and come on,” he says grabbing her arm and practically dragging her down the street.

They arrive at a small chicken restaurant and order an assortment of flavors. Luna decides to try a blood infused soda. If she’s going to have to be here a while she would like to at least find a blood drink that tastes better than just plain blood.

“How is it?” Jungkook asks as she takes a sip.

“It’s different, but not bad,” she says. “This looks like the restaurants back home. I didn’t know you guys had all of this in the city.”

“I told you it wouldn’t be much different. Everything is pretty much the same.”

The waiter brings their food and Luna’s jaw drops. It all looks and smells amazing. Jungkook smiles at the way she looks at the food. She’s cute, although he’s having a hard time accepting that he feels that way.

“Try it,” he says.

She grabs a piece of chicken taking a moment to inspect it before taking a bite. She’s delighted at the taste. It tastes great, almost better than anything she’s ever had at home.

“Kookie this is amazing!” She says taking another mouthful.

“I umm…yeah. I’m glad you like it,” he sputters shoving chicken into his own mouth. He hates when she does that.

“I’m sorry,” she says noticing the shift in his pupils. “I forgot you don’t like me calling you that.”

“That’s not really what I said.” That’s what he meant, however a small but strong part of him doesn’t want her to stop calling him any of the nicknames she calls him, especially Kookie.

“You seem bothered by it though.”

“No, it’s just…no one really calls me that. It just catches me off guard.”

“Oh,” she pauses looking down at her plate. “But…it still bothers you, doesn’t it?”

How would she know that? Did he give himself away somehow?

“No,” he lies. “It just catches me off guard like I said.”

“Do I bother you at all? I mean, I know you’re a shield and all, but sometimes I feel like I’m in the way of things or like, a distraction or something.”

What she really wants to say is she knows he tries to hide his feelings. She knows he’s been training his whole life to keep his emotions from getting the best of him. And she heard him talking before she woke up.

“What makes you think that?” He asks raising a brow.

“Just a feeling, I guess,” she shrugs.

He can tell she’s lying. Did she hear him talking to someone? She couldn’t have, he’s only talked to his mom about her.

“Can I ask you something, LuLu?” He asks.

“Only if you learn my name,” she says rolling her eyes.

“Earlier you told Jimin you could see things. What did you see?”

“Oh…nothing,” she lies. “I guess I just kind of felt a vibe from him.”

“A vibe that told you he knows to stay away from Hyungwon?” Jungkook asks quickly breaking her lie.

“Something like that,” she doubles down shoving a piece of chicken in her mouth.

“What are you hiding?” He asks suspiciously.

“Nothing.”

“You’re a terrible liar.”

“Can’t I just eat in peace?”

“Who’s paying for this meal??”

“Ugh!” She huffs. “Look, I don’t know what it was, I just saw a flash of something when I was talking to Jiminie.”

“Jiminie?” He asked more irritated by the nickname than he is about her hiding things from him. “Since when do you call him that?”

“I don’t know,” she shrugs. “It just rolls off the tongue nicely I guess.”

“What does that even mean?”

“Does it matter? He didn’t seem to have a problem with me calling him that. Unlike someone who lets everyone else call him by a cute nickname but he has a problem when I do it.”

“That’s not what I said,” he huffs. “That’s besides the point. What did you see?”

“I don’t know,” she sighs. “I just saw a flash of his dad telling him to stay away from Hyungwon.”

“How?”

“I don’t know! It just happened.”

“Has it happened before?”

“No,” she answers too quickly. The last thing she wants is for him to know that she’s seen his memories too. He has such a tough wall built up that his memories seem to be the only way she can truly understand where he’s coming from.

“This was the first time?” He raises his brow.

“Yeah,” she says finishing off her last piece of chicken.

Jungkook isn’t convinced that she’s telling him the whole truth. He can tell she’s still hiding something. He wants to press her further, but for some reason the question that comes out of his mouth isn’t the one he meant to ask out loud.

“Do you have a thing for Jimin?”

“What?” Luna asks confused.

Jungkook is stunned by his own words. He sits frozen a moment trying to find a way to dig himself out of this. He meant to ask her more about her vision. Now he’s internally kicking himself.

“I mean, you seem like you have a soft spot for him,” he says rubbing the back of his neck.

“Oh,” she says still confused. “He’s been really nice and sweet since I met him. I guess I do have a soft spot for him. He’s an angel.”

“An angel,” Jungkook says fighting the rising saltiness in his tone. “How is he an angel, but I’m a demon even though I’ve done so much more for you than he has?”

“You stalked me!”

“It was surveillance!”

“And you broke into my apartment! Twice!”

“I saved your raggedy ass toaster from setting the whole place on fire! I still haven’t gotten a thank you for that you ungrateful mutt!”

“I’ll show you a mutt, you deer bunny devil spawn!”

“What are you going to do? Hit me with your weak little hands?” He teases.

“Ugh! You’re such a fucking pain!”

“I know,” he smirks throwing some money on the table. “Now let’s go, my little one eyed freak.”

“You asshole!” She shouts while constantly hitting him all the way out the door.

He stops on the sidewalk and glances at her as she continues focusing what little energy she has on hitting his arm over and over. Why is this endearing to him? Why does he think she looks so cute when he pushes her buttons to the point of her trying to hurt him? She’s adorable to him. And he hates that. He can’t feel the way he feels about her. It’s only going to continue to make things hard for him.

“I fucking hate you!” Luna shouts still hitting him.

“Good.”

[fromtenthousandfeet]

You don't need to publish this or anything, but I read your last post and agree with everything you're talking about, but one thing made me think of something, so I went and looked and saw that Closer than This actually also had 8 writers and 3 producers. And whether you like that song or not, didn't it still feel like Jimin behind the words and sentiment? Maybe I'm naive, but even with all those other voices, it still felt like Jimin's voice. Never Let Go, on the other hand, felt like Golden, like someone else wrote the song and JK picked it from a list. I know he wrote on it, so maybe he added his own words here and there, or maybe he started it and then all those others changed it to English and flattened it out. Either way, it's strange how if you just look at those numbers, it's basically the same, but in reality, the songs are so completely different.

Publishing asks is fun so I'm going to answer this :)

I checked out the writing credits for Closer Than This after I read your message. It's worth noting that half of the writers are members of the Smeraldo Garden Marching Band, i.e. Jimin and his team from FACE. I suspect that's why the song feels infinitely more sincere than NLG, although it's hard to know just how much involvement JK had in writing process. Consider all the the BTS content we've seen over the years. Jimin is naturally articulate and excellent at conveying heartfelt emotions. Jungkook is a man of few words.

Now for a true confession. I like the first half of Closer Than This, but I cringe when Jimin's super high-pitched background vocals come in in the latter half of the song. Ayo the Producer, what were you thinking? Meanwhile, Jimin, I'm available to be your Rick Rubin. I'll even do the job for free.

[chevelleneech]

Made the mistake of checking the comments of his video and it's all a mess. I'm also confused by him cause he likes a bunch of contradicting comments so I'm not sure what his opinions even are. He'll like a comment from a taekooker saying Taehyung and Jungkook are the closest and Jungkook and Jimin never spend time together and that Jungkook was very angry because he was forced to do this show. Then he'll also like a comment from a jikooker saying the exact opposite. So like, which version does he even believe in? Also I don't really agree with his decision to just let anyone say anything because 'everybody is allowed to have their own opinion' when those opinions are clearly heavily biased and straight up lies that portray the members and their relationships very negatively. I don't think he should just let those people spew their nonsense cause it just makes his comment section look completely unhinged and everyone is just fighting each other. And while I understand he doesn't really know the members very well I feel like you don't even really need to know anything when a lot of the comments are obviously complete nonsense and clearly biased. Like, imagine I get into a new group I know nothing about and I see a fan say guy #1 has a very special romantic and sexual relationship with guy #2 that's more important than anything else in the world. That these two guys don't even care about the other members of the group and only love each other. That they're dating but being forced by their company to hide and that a third evil member is part of this cruel plan. That this big capitalist company in a homophobic country for some unknown reason decided to have guy #1 and evil guy be in a fake gay relationship and every single interaction they've ever had is scripted fanservice. If I read all of this, regardless of how much I know these three guys, I'm just gonna assume this is all nonsense and this fan is cleary a crazy shipper that I should immediately block. Like, I swear is not that difficult to realize this stuff.

I get where you’re coming from, but you can’t say you’d do that without knowing anything, because something sounding like nonsense doesn’t mean it actually is.

Frankie has no idea what goes on and has been going on in this fandom, and is trying to tread water to not come across as judgmental or rude. It sucks that he’s shoving toxic fans and regular shippers into the same category, but what else is he supposed to do? Especially since a toxic fan can just as easily leave a “sane” sounding comment.

So my assumption is that he’s liking things to read later on, and is commenting on stuff to try and make it clear he’s not picking sides. At least from what I saw. We know there’s more to it than that, but trying to figure out his opinion when he has zero unbiased information to go off, is like asking a baby to solve a math equation. You know he doesn’t have any answers, so why expect one?

As I said before, the only thing we can hope for is he continues to do his own research. All he has to do is watch official content and not just what people recommend to him, and stop looking at his comments altogether for a bit. Or pre-record. That’s what I would do in this specific situation.

If I know I want to keep reacting, I’d go look stuff up myself concerning this issue, and try to read up at least a little bit. He’s old enough to know how to Google answers he wants, but at the same time I can see how that’d be intimidating, since he doesn’t know exactly what to look for.

Again though, I don’t think expecting better reactions out of him regarding the comments he’s getting is realistic. For all he knows right now, Tkk are closer and they are being mistreated. We know that’s not true, but how do you explain that to someone who was just harassed by a bunch of fans for saying the show he has no context on, is scripted and made Tae seem worse than he is? Particularly now that he’s just watched an introduction guide that both sides have been wanting him to watch, that shows Tae in a totally different light?

He doesn’t know the difference between Jikookers and Tkkrs, and fans who supposedly don’t ship don’t give enough of a fuck to take a stance against how toxic Tkkrs actually are. No one wants to be associated with shipping Jikook, because Tkkrs are a much more vocal and popular portion of the fandom. So many who do believe in defending Jikook just as friends, stay hush, because Tkkrs will attack them. It’s a no win situation that Frankie has to figure out on his own.

And once again, I am not optimistic it will get that far. He’s in his comment section begging people to relax and just block others and enjoy his videos, but we know that’s not going to squash the drama. shippers who fight back and forth like this do so for as long as they have the space to, and that space is Frankie’s comment section. He’s going to get tired of blocking people and deleting comments sooner than later, and I can’t say I’d blame him. He’s also going to get continue having his channel reported by Tkkrs so long as he stays neutral or even mildly favorable toward Jimin and Jimin’s bond with Jungkook. So I don’t see him risking his channel for BTS, when all he’s getting is annoying fans who can’t stand people having their own opinions, even if it was a slightly misjudged one.