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oops-ibrokereality · 6 months ago

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Why does almost every piece of media contain a murder? Like most of the time im cool with it, i understand that its just an interesting hook for a story. But sometimes im not quite in the right mind space. Why do i feel like every time i sit down to watch something with my friends im always on edge waiting to see if *this one* is going to be one that goes a little too far or hits a little too close to home and ill have to leave or deal with my brain afterwards? Why can i sometomes watch through shit super death and murder heavy and leave the other side as if i watched nothing unusual but i watch something mkre casual and get gut punched it knocks me out for a week?

#i just feel bad man #i want to enjoy the stuff my friends ask me to watch #but sometimes my brain freezes and im stuck thinking in circles that i cant break out of #just because a character saod a line that was so so correct or even so wildly wrong for the situation #sometimes the violence potrayed on screen too closely mimics realty and all i can think about is him #the aftermath is usually worse for me #court scenes and all the language #and i just sit here waiting for it to stop but it wont stop because once the screen is off im in my head 2 years ago #circling the same thiughts over and over and over #im sitting under a hawthorn tree in the middle of nowhere on the phone to my mum who is crying on her way to work #im listening to the raidio just to hear his name and then im holding on for dear life at the center of a storm i could have never expected #b's ramblings

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