#just because I put up a tough front doesn't mean this wasn't also traumatic for me fyi
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Lmaoo when I was a teenager my spawnpoint sentenced me to clean the bathroom once. Once.
Except I was an intensely spiteful brat who sat on the edge of the tub for over an hour, doing absolutely nothing. This was before smartphones and we didn't have bathroom readers, so I literally sat there and did Nothing.
She was so mad.
When I went to the group home I was asked to clean the bathroom attached to my room, which was fair enough, except I didn't know how to do it because I'd never actually been taught. I had to ask for help in knowing what products to use where and stuff. That time I put some effort into it because while I may be a brat I'm not an asshole. They were nice enough and it was basically a month-long vacation from my shitty home life, so I wanted to do my part.
Not knowing how to clean a bathroom had no bearing on my strike when my spawnpoint had asked me to months earlier, though. That was pure spite.
She always treated me horribly, like I was a curse inflicted on her with my birth and blamed me for everything from her gaining weight after I was born and being unable to diet it away to my grandmother dying eight hours away (no, really), so I conspired to make that woman's life as miserable as I deemed deserved. Self-fulfilling prophecy much?
for the love of god, do not use chores to punish your kids!!!! it's just going to make them struggle deeply to keep their houses tidy as adults since you made them associate necessary chores with punishment and suffering, and it's going to take years of therapy to undo. don't use chores as punishments!!!
#tw: child abuse#tw: childhood trauma#just because I put up a tough front doesn't mean this wasn't also traumatic for me fyi#anyways it still feels like a win even today#we're just going to ignore for a moment how much my executive dysfunction actually impairs me when it comes to cleaning#I'd argue that's less a result of abuse and more a result of lifelong depression and undiagnosed neurodivergency x2#both of which were caused by the abuse#I'm a miserable pile of defense mechanisms false bravado trust issues and raw spite#and you know? that's okay#I love myself way more now than I used to#and I may be marked by my struggles and the love that was withheld from me in childhood#but I'm doing good nowadays emotionally and in life#I can't ask for much better#💜
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