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The Sopranos is ass but I canât stop watching it like I feel possessed rn
#its not the content its the dialogue lol#some great performances despite the material theyre working with but 40% of the time my brain is hemorrhaging
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suuuper quick lil self indulgent comic etc etc . this one goes out to ace+repulsed mine amen
#yakuza#rgg#yoshitaka mine#daigo dojima#minedai#mostly wanted to get a hc point across so im not focused on dialogue/if their communication skills are Actually that good lol#as one of the few ppl w/ an aspec mine hc its my duty to make content for it etc. be the change you want to see in the tag and all that
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Hi! If I were to experiment with VTM, what would be good places to start?
i cannot describe the sound that came out of me upon reading this ask. the answer to this today is the same as 20 years ago, funny enough. vtmb is to vtm as bg3 is to d&d. it has a deep devotion to and love for the lore and Vibesâąïž of the ttrpg, and if youre wanting to learn more about the game, or figure out what exactly people love about vtm, or discover whether or not its for you, vtm bloodlines is the best place to start! its my 2nd fav game of all time and if i start singing its praises we'll be here all night lmao
heads up: this game is utterly unplayable without the unofficial patch by wesp5. i cannot stress enough how much you need the patch. one non-bug example is that in the base game they forgot to implement the healing ability they made. this game is an rpg first and a video game second and you can see where the priorities were. also i dont wanna explain too much but clans nosferatu and malkavian change the game so very much and are therefore not recommended for first time playthroughs
lemme know if theres anything i can do to help! im always wanting to see more people loving vtm!!!!
#to clarify. malks are oracles who both spoil the game and speak in ways that can be hard to decipher#which is kinda difficult when YOURE the malk and have no fucking clue what your own dialogue options mean#while nossies are so obviously inhuman that most human npcs wont talk to you..... so theres that.#theyre both very fun for later playthroughs but if you wanna understand what the fuck is going on on your first run...#maybe hold off for now lol#the amount of effort the devs put into the roleplaying aspect is really something special#malks are a total reskin of the game and just about everyone has special dialogue for it and treats you differently#while they had to design the whole gameworld and all the main quests (with bonus nos content) around being able to#go everywhere and beat the game when playing as a character who gets the cops called on their ass if spotted by humans#for a small studio in 2004 its bafflingly thorough and reactive and lively and frankly a fucking miracle it managed to be made
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Simplicity Template v1.0.0
Hi. Itâs me again, emerging from the depths of ukagaka hell to bring you new and strange things.
So hereâs the thing about ghosts, I helped make this one called Needle for ghost jam 2022, and itâs kinda sorta maybe the best thing Iâve ever participated in. And it maybe kinda triggered a big shift in how I think about ghosts. And I think maybe, the process doesnât need to be nearly as complicated as it is.Â
Right now, the existing ghost templates are very, very big. Everything everywhere will tell you that making a ghost is a long project that requires a lot of dedication. And that can be true! There are some wonderful and detailed ghosts out there that take a long time to produce. But as weâve seen in ghost jams, thatâs not necessarily true! Ghosts donât HAVE to be big! Ghosts donât HAVE to be complicated! And even ghosts with a lot of content donât have to be a huge project that eats up months of your life! Just about everything in the existing templates is optional, but I always feel like Iâm cheating or doing a bad job if I skip things.
The more I think about it, and with a lot of the work Iâve done lately, I think it is easy to get burned out by the amount of tedious work you have to do filling in side functions that many users wonât ever see. New devs may find those functions uninteresting, or confusing, or just simply overwhelming from the sheer amount of them. And I think a lot of folks may not realize they can be omitted entirely without causing any harm to the ghost! SSP has default dialogues for the stuff that there need to be dialogues for!
Additionally, Iâve started to see more possibilities for ghosts lately, and the existing templates are making me feel very boxed in. Many ghosts right now have the same premise of âX character but on your computerâ, and I donât have anything against that, but thereâs lots of other interesting ideas out there that we havenât explored hardly at all! What if itâs not that a character has appeared on your desktop, what if youâve appeared in their world! What if youâre not actually human? What if they know you already! There are so many things I would love to see happen, and some ideas that Iâm hoping to start exploring myself.
Anyways! That was a whole lot of words for me to introduce my new template. Iâve made a new template called the Simplicity Template, and these are the things I hope it accomplishes:
Makes ghost making less intimidating for new developers by having less to fill in
Helps more ghosts reach completion by getting straight to content first, with very few side features to fill in
Gives developers more freedom to experiment and try new ideas, and to break away from the current formula
If any of that sounds interesting to you, give it a try! You can always add in more features later and build upon the simple base that is here!
#Ukagaka#English Ukagaka#Template#ZiUkagaka#ZiChrono#//Sorry I have so many feelings about this#//I still haven't?? made a post for needle?? but i probably should#//I just!! genuinely love and adore needle so much ok!!!#//Needle is literally 99% just dialogue!!!#//But it's so DIFFERENT and I get to play with so many concepts!!#//I wanna make SO MANY COOL THINGS and X. Template just isn't suited for my purposes anymore#//As it is if I wanted to start a new ghost with X. Template I would have to spend a few hours carefully removing stuff i DONT want...#//Which was the reason I made X. Template in the first place... So it's kind of outlived its usefulness to me#//Anyways I feel much more confident in this template and I hope that other folks will find this approach as freeing as I do#//Make cool things!! Sit down and plan out what you'd like your ghost to be and then start making content!!#//I'd show a picture of the ghost itself but it's literally just some gray rectangles lol#//You can... you can pet the rectangles#//Oh god I never replaced the placeholder petting dialogues GUESS THAT'S JUST WHAT WE'RE GOING WITH BOIS
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playing with wander and feeding him and loving him and bathing him so that he will get a happines explosion yay
party time
and link to him
#rambles#video#testing out some neocities stuff and i found gifypet :)))) very fun and i liked it alot#i can do this with like other characters too but i lke wander the most#also i feel like the dialogue fits him alot and its lots of fun to just mess with :))))))#will probably do this with ocs in the future lol#OH RIGHT FANDOM TAGS#uhm#wander over yonder#wander woy#woy wander#wander#u can never have enough useless wander content#i swear ill post art again one day
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The evil slow creep of it being like "haha these will just be quick little side quests, not much effort at all!" and then noticing each one is getting progressively longer than the last, thus no longer being minimal effort.. auGh....
#The jump of 76 for the first one to 275 for the most recent ghghjb#what can I say.. I am.. The Elaborator.. The Detail Giver..#number six will HAVE to be shorter....!!!!!! !!!!#I fear it's going to look this way but opposite with some of the main character quests. The first character I ever worked on. like their#first quest I added wayy to much information and detail and side options and etc.#Once I got done with all their stuff I was like.... if they're all like this I will NEVER finish.. So then I tried to be very short about#it all. EVERY single interaction cannot have 10 branching dialogue and 5 different endings and blah blah blah.. as much as I wish it could.#Hiring a butler to stand over me all day shouting ''NARROW the scope!!!! REDUCE the options!!! CUT the dialogue!!!'' whilst I sob#and hit backspace on everything once every five minutes#But that means probably the first character I worked on will be very obvious because their quests might have a different#feel than the others and be longer.. I just CAN'T make ALL of them that long. but maybe I could choose one..#Like out of the four characters that will have full quests for them upon release.. maybe I can add another one thats long so at least#TWO of them have weirdly long quests and the one first character doesnt seem so singled out lol#I hear this happens in real life professional games as well (like people complaining that X character doesnt have as much#content in an RPG as some other one does. etc.) so.. perhaps my fears about everyting not being exactlyliterally equal#are not even that worrisome or something that's a major factor. Still lol#It's not really that concerning to me anyways from a 'how will people react to it' perspective (very niche game. hardly anyone#will play it i'd assume. its not like thousands of people shall desscend upon me to criticize even if something was weird like that.#it'd be like. out of the 25 people who ever play it. maybe one of them is like 'yeah it was kinda weird that thosequests were so much#longer than the others. but idk' and that's the extent lol). My concern is more like.. Writing time..#the more I add. the longer it takes for me to finish. So if I keep ednlessly making things forever longer and longer. then it becomes The#Forever Project. which it kind of already is. considering I started it in 2018 and then forgot about it for the most part of 5 years and am#only resuming it now LOL.. I cannot bear to add MORE forever onto that which already is quite Forever-ish#If I wrote everything the ideal way I wish it were then I would either need a full team of writers. or I would finish the game in 2085#so.. alas.. cut cut snip snip..#ANYWAY lol
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so this is a high-approval dialogue you get with Sera if you're playing as an elf, and it's one example where I wish there were a few more options to like... say other stuff to her rather than just 'ur opinions suck' or 'ok never mind'.
She says "how about we dig into what you are? Or what you're supposed to be? do you know all about elfiness?" and I'm like yes! go ahead! let's dig into it. My Inquisitor often feels like he's torn between what he's supposed to be and what he is, not just as the Inquisitor but he also felt that way as First. He feels guilty that in many ways he feels more fulfilled now than he did with his clan and feels like he let them down. sometimes he doesn't feel particularly 'elfy' either so it would be nice to have the opportunity to share that with her!
I wish there was a dialogue choice that was: "hey, you're not the only one who feels that way sometimes." Or what I really want is some kind of option to tell Sera that it doesn't matter to you how elfy or not elfy she is and that you like her for who she is with no expectations! At this point she's Fin's best friend, a little sister to him, and I'm kind of left wanting some sort of resolution here in that sense. or to give her a hug. like babygirl ur fine. :(
#'we all represent our kind' is....... something lol. idk what the actual dialogue is#but it sounds very condescending lmao#its ok. ill write fanfiction. ill give her the comfort and emotional support she deserves.#sera#like not that finian is ashamed of being dalish its just that he used to feel like he wanted more. to adventure. to learn.#and felt guilty about wanting that instead of being content with his role. then he got it in a BIG way lol.#jana plays dragon age
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guys i have a secret... i expanded upon the idol x manager heta au thing that i drew for wiener bc i like that shit ngl and im so on the fence wether i should keep it as heta or just make them ocs lol
#bc i want the freedom and like#well maybe its also just that im a purist lol#as in i dont really like aus unless they also keep the same feeling and humor of the source contebt#and i want the freedom to do humor that alligns more with what i like and japanese gintama like humor yknow?#like you know what i mean every piece of media has their own style of dialogue#humor. story structure. etc etc#and with aus especially i usually am not into them because they lose all that shit from the source#and it makes sense its an au not the source obviously but... LIKE IM A PURIST OKAY#I LOVE CANON#WHEN I MAKE FAN CONTENT I TRY TO MAKE IT AKIN TO CANON BC THATS WHY IM HERE AND NOT MAKING OCS#i think ive been failing recently bc i let my robooty humor and dialogue style in too much bc idgaf.....#but still yeah ive been on the fence...... idk what to doooo wahhhahhahaha
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How long do you think it should take between chapter uploads on Ao3?
As long as the author needs
#if i have a whole long fic written out i like to have something come out ~once a week#people don't have to wait too long between chapters and i get a steady drip of Validation lol#but thats not always the case - life happens. things have to be written and sometimes they dont cooperate#so that week is sometimes two sometimes a month sometimes three#and sometimes its a year or more for people#it's nice when fast chapters happen but fanfic writers are doing this for free and sometimes things just get in the way#pro tip? if youre missing a fic and it hasnt updated in a while and youre craving new content?#comment on it.#not a ''loved this when's the next chapter comin?'' comment#but write something you liked from the chapter - a moment some dialogue the feelings some part made you feel#if an author is struggling to finish something that little reminder that people like it and *why* can be *huge*#as time stretches on and interactions slow to a trickle it's really easy to get disheartened about finishing#''no one is reading it anyway its been so long I'm not good at writing anymore i dont remember what i was doing with this''#so give your favorite authors some specific love and that might just kick things into gear#idc if its been a month or three years - i almost guarantee the author will still get your love even if its been years#and you don't know what their life is like - maybe that comment is just what they need to sit down and finish it up#sharkneto speaks#ask response#ficblogging
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I voted for stoncy having a chat but please tag me in any and everything!
sorry this took so long, i totally forgot i worked all weekend lol. so far yours was the only ask for the wip game but im considering giving little snippets for each and tagging the people who said they voted for that (and if i do ill absolutely tag you!! <3) for stoncys little chat ive got my staright-from-brain, 0 editing word mush down in a play by play of events. ive taken out bits that are too revealing or just basic reminders of character motivations to present to you the most basic version in my process (wahoo!)
Nancy takes a deep breath and is like "we need to talk about.. A lot." And Steve nods. Both have a sec to try and think of how they want to bring their different confrontations up. Steve opens his mouth to talk but fails but Nancy notices and switches to encouraging him to say what he wants.
he doesn't really know where to start and doesn't want to start with an accusation or big vulnerability so hes like ".. I want to talk about what happened in the bathroom at tinaâs party, our fight." And shes like. "Okay lets start there then (thinking it'll reveal if it was a breakup or not). I know i said things while i was drunk and i promise i actually don't remember." And hes like "no no i didn't think you were lying about that." And shes like "okay..." and doing a face thing to prompt what he did think. And he struggles a bit before saying "well you uh you were trying to get punch off your shirt and was getting frustrated because it wasn't working. And then you started say bullshit a lot, just like âits bullshitâ over and over. And then uh.. You said it was me, that was bullshit. And that whole.. Thing, where i don't care that we.. with barb. and weâre just pretending like weâre in love, which (shakes his head no). And then i asked if you loved me and.. (vauge-ass hand gesture) âits bullshitâ so.. So i left. and im pretty sure Jonathan took you home."
#devon's steve henderson au#steve henderson au rambles#sorry for very little jonathan content here hes definitely out of the loop on half this shit. rip#also welcome to be barest bones writing when word dont word well and we pull out the just-describe-it-like-your-telling-a-friend method#i love the 'and hes like _' method because it keeps me from getting focused on specific word choice and just lets me lay out the scene#without worrying about describing things efficiently or clearly#can you tell i prefer screenwriting lol#also sorry for no paragraph breaks between dialogue its more broken into areas for me to expand later like dividing chores into sections
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wait, dude, wait. aini was supposed to be cosmic horror??
girl, seriously? i dunnooooo iâm not really feeling it fellas
#i'm some i've read some cosmic horror(/weird fic prob more fitting here) in my time and i do not get those vibes from it at aaaaall#i can believe that cosmic horror is what aini *thought* it was doing. but no.#game doesn't commit nearly enough and its so like. self conscious in terms of 'we gotta make this appeal to more people' to commit#and like in this economy it's just not weird enough tbh#simulation theory as plot point in and of itself does not a cosmic horror/weird fiction make. or like. an interesting one#and when the writing ultimately chickens out with the 'but its okay because even if it's a simulation we all matter and should be content'#which it will#i should be feeling existentially uneasy and instead i'm like 'my god i totally know exactly where this is going'#and it's so needless! you have a scifi concept ripe with fic psychological weird horror potential that went untapped!#why let that just shrivel up in the corner cause sim theory's more big brain?? make a different game then!#i simply do not care about the ''frayer'' or whomstever the player avatar is called today. cause the game don't care either lol#its heart somehow aint in it. which is weird considering how much other good shit was tossed in favour of the new Thing#its pure mechanics. which could work if the game goes all in on mechanical narrative. but the mechanics dont even work#it's not even interested in the interesting meaty bit of the concept it's so completely linear it misses its own point entirely#the mechanics arent integrated with the thematics at all its so clunky which is a shame cause clearly a lot of nitpicking went in#from like the dialogue writers#proofing this thing was a nightmare i would imagine#and like. you can't have a pandemic rocket and stormtrooper horde as the climax of your story and expect me to seriously inspect it#as a proper serious work of cosmic horror i'm too busy rolling my eyes and laughing at it#not saying that something can't have both weird horror and comedy elements to it reasonably speaking#but the horror elements aren't beefy and deeply thought out enough nor is the comedy integrated in such a way to hit that sweet spot#uuuugh theres something in here somewhere but not like. as one game. take one or two elements split them off and develop them#like properly. fully with care and gusto and focus on what the writing actually feels. then you could have a couple of good games#and maybe even a decent cosmic horror product#but this Aint It. weird fiction/cosmic horror is more than a base concept or aesthetic flairs you gotta gets the guts underneath#it will not tag this properly but i will make the walls of tag attached#of increasing and therefore increasingly absurd length. for the bit
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In other news Odile crashed my game during her friend quest. Smiles in pain.
#rat rambles#stars posting#I just want to get to act 4 alreadyyyyyy#I have. plans.#and while I know theres more stuff I can do rn in act 3 I would rather save most of it for later#anyways. time to hope I saved before starting the family quests#odile saw I was trying to speedrun everyone's dialogue and said nuh uh try again#also Im glad I got the coin scene like the absolute millisecond act 3 started I was worried Id have to sit around for forever#speaking of the coin I got a fun glitch with it earlier#I was near the favor tree and got the coin dialogue where a glitch rewind effect happens#and the tree jumpscared the hell out of me by suddenly getting stretched out and huge covering most of the screen#I had to walk out and back into the are to fix it it covered like half the area#it genuinely slightly scared me for the split second that it wasnt obviously a glitch lol#gotta love the universe breaking itself to try to keep itself together#one thing that did surprise me is just how much optional content I've never seen before there is#I knew there was stuff that most ppl who play the game dont ever see but I guess I forgot most ppl dont obsessively shove their faces into#walls until smth happens#love making my sif grapple with his lost past the absolute millisecond I am allowed to every time a new scene is opened up to me#the lost contry scenes are all easily my favorite scenes in the game and its honestly not even close#theyre both very important to me and also just incredibly well written and interesting#its low key what boosted sif from being a character I have a complicated relationship with to character I adore#to be clear the complicated stuff is all in the rest of the self recognition I face when I see him spiral#you see jackie is recognition through the other (derogatory) but like in a god damnit you have adhd dont you sorta way#while sif is more like. hoo boy. uh oh.#which is ironic because jackie is the one of the two whos actually a terrible person lol#you see I like picking her apart while with sif it feels like theyre picking me apart which is significantly more uncomfortable#I forgives them I just need to not think abt them for too long at any given time or I start feeling depressed lol
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Sweet Temptations â p.seonghwa
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âź florist!Seonghwa Ă fem!Reader wc: 22.1k (sorry lmao) summary: Y/N favorite part of working at the Sweet Temptations Cafe is the view of the gorgeous flower shop across the street and the handsome and kind florist who comes in every morning at 7 am on the dot. genres/themes/au: smut; flower love language, strangers to lovers; non idol au, florist au, barista au warnings: adult dialogue, female reader, alcohol consumption, flirty Seonghwa, also Seonghwa being a menace, sexual content (18+ mdni), see smut warnings under the cut!
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a/n: this is my submission for the @cultofdionysus Spring event, The Language of Flowers. I have no excuse for the word count lmao just enjoy it. Iâm probably going to stick to posting longer oneshots because I enjoy world building. Thank you so much @cheolism for beta-reading this for me ê°ïœĄâąâĄâąïœĄê± thank you to everyone who reads this and if you reblog it, just know Iâm tucking you into bed and kissing ur forehead đ as always, this is a work of fiction and all characters are not reflective of their respective irl counterparts. for entertainment purposes only.
smut warnings: male masturbation, corruption kink, unprotected sex (wrap that shit), oral (m receiving, f receiving), mild facefucking (f receiving), dirty talk, praise (f receiving), finger sucking, spitting, choking (f receiving), marking/biting (f receiving), semi public sex, rough sex, hair pulling (m receiving), mild breeding kink, use of pet names (baeknari/lily, petal, blossom, sweetheart, kitten, etc.), dom!Seonghwa, sub!Reader, and I think thatâs it but I could have missed some lol
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Park Seonghwa was a simple man, known for three things: his love for coffee, his punctuality, and his affinity for flowers.Â
It had never been his intention to open a flower shop but somehow it had happened. When he was a child, his father had loved gardening, as had his mother. From a young age Seonghwa had learned the language of flowers, particularly of those in his parentsâ garden. Along with his exceedingly good looks, his knowledge of flowers ended up helping him score points with the girls in his class.
As a teenager, Seonghwa wanted to be an athlete, particularly in volleyball, having lost his love for flowers and their secret language. He'd intended to make that his career but after the untimely death of his grandmother, Seonghwa rediscovered a passion and love for flowers. He changed his major from sports to business administration and upon graduating with a degree, he set out to start a business.
Four years had passed since he opened his flower shop, The Flower Guy, and he was surprised by the overwhelmingly positive response from the town. Business had been booming ever since he opened his shop and it didnât die down. Heâd built up a steady clientele, from other businesses to wedding planners.Â
Heâd been able to turn it into his livelihood and couldnât be happier with the decisions that led him to where he was now, even as he swept the floor of the shop, pushing the dirt into the waiting dustpan.
The sun was setting over the town square, basking the buildings in its dying golden glow. With a stretch and a sigh, Seonghwa checked the time on his watch before walking over, turning the lock on the door, and flipping off the switch for the open sign. He went back to his sweeping, brushing all the dirt and debris from the stone tile into the dustpan before picking it up and making his way to the back of his shop to deposit the dirt.
He checked the door leading to the narrow alley behind his shop, making sure the lock was secure â although if anyone did manage to break in, the most they would find were some flowers and maybe some gardening tools. Seonghwa was a smart man and always made sure to empty the register and do his accounting at the end of each day, taking everything home to put in his safe there. The safe in the shop was for show and only kept papers inside.
After putting away the broom and dustpan, he set to work mopping the tiles from the door to the back before putting the microfiber mop away. He then set to work, misting all the flowers in the back room. After he grabbed the till from the register, moving back to the office to start the process of closing up and counting the profits of the day.
You flipped the sign from opened to closed and let out a yawn. The square outside was almost deserted, only a few people still outside, enjoying the nice weather of the day.Â
âY/N, could you wipe down the tables and counter for me?â you heard from behind you and turned to find your manager, Addie, already starting to mop.Â
Without a word, you headed through the shop, ducking behind the counter to grab a clean rag and the bucket of soapy disinfectant water. You grabbed a pair of gloves, pulling them on before heading out to start wiping the tables down and cleaning them up. You worked in silence, the soft piano tones of the overhead speakers playing on low volume.
The cafe wasnât very big, and the tables werenât exceptionally dirty, so it didnât take you any longer than usual to wipe all of them down. You were wiping down the counter, scrubbing at a particularly stubborn spot of spilled coffee you must have missed earlier in the day when Addie returned, opening the drawer of the first register and starting to read the card slips, inputting any of the tips that hadnât been put into the computer.
Once done, she pulled out the money and added it to the jar you kept on the counter by the register for tips before moving to the other register and repeating the process. It had just been the two of you working the front end and one person, Lin, in the kitchen.Â
Wednesdays werenât a particularly busy day for the cafe and the amount of work you had closing reflected that. Addie went to the back to do the daily accounting while you checked on Lin in the kitchen, offering them your help. Once you were both done, you announced your departure to Addie who wished you both a good night.
Outside, you said goodbye to your coworker and noticed the door of the flower shop opening. The florist was exiting, shutting the door behind him and locking it with his key which he returned to his pocket. He turned and froze, noticing you watching him.
âGood evening,â you said as he started forward again, closing the distance between you.Â
âEvening, baeknari,â he said, a smile on his face as he reached you, matching your pace as you started to walk alongside him.
âThat nickname again,â you thought to yourself, a smile threatening to spread across your lips.
You remembered when youâd asked him what it meant and he told you that in Korean it meant white lily. For some reason, him calling you âwhite lilyâ made you giddy.
âBusy today?â you asked, keeping your hands tucked in your pockets.
âNot terribly,â he replied, his own hands tucked in his coat pockets. âMainly just people coming to buy flowers for their partners. Got a couple events booked next week,â he added.Â
âDo you book a lot of events?â you asked as the two of you walked towards the main street.Â
âA fair few.Mostly birthdays and the odd anniversary,â he explained. âThe floral arrangements for those are always easy.â
You smiled as you glanced up at him.
Ever since youâd first met Seonghwa, there was something about him that drew you to him. Maybe it was his passion for his craft, his sense of humor, or maybe his incredibly good looks. Regardless, you had been intrigued immediately and were interested in getting to know him on a more personal level.
You knew almost next to nothing about the man other than he liked banana nut muffins, caramel macchiatos with white chocolate sauce, and flowers. You could pick out other little facts based on your short interactions with him. He dressed like a model, wearing clothes that probably cost more than you were willing to spend. Then again, he could probably make anything he wore look expensive.
He also smelled amazing, like warm vanilla and cinnamon.
Not that you took to smelling him often. The scent just permeated the air around him; not in a way that had you coughing or gagging, though. He reeked of expensive taste and oozed a confidence and charisma that you could only dream of possessing.
âWhat are the hardest events?â you asked, looking up at him. The two of you stopped at the main thoroughfare and Seonghwa turned to look at you, fixing you with his dark brown eyes. He hesitated a moment before answering your question.
âWeddings,â he said honestly. âI love booking weddings because I can make a lot of money doing floral arrangements for an entire venue but thereâs theâŠâ he trailed off, glancing away and across the street. You took a step forward, not realizing it until he looked back down at you and was considerably closer.
That was the thing about Seonghwa, he had this innate ability to draw people into him, figuratively and literally. He was alluring and magnanimous. He always managed to invade your thoughts and made you want more of him, whether that be through conversation or something more intimate â
âGet it together, Y/N. Youâre in public!â
âThe what?â you asked softly. Seonghwa chuckled lightly before answering.
âThe brides,â he replied. Your brows knitted together, confusion taking over your features.Â
âThe brides?â you asked. âWhatâs wrong with the brides?âÂ
Seonghwa shook his head. âNothing, inherently. Itâs just some of them.â
You nodded, understanding instantly.
âAh,â you replied, fighting the urge to smirk. âBridezillas.â
He nodded, eyes scanning your face as you glanced at a passing couple with a dog, a smile crossing your face. One of your favorite things about this town was all the dog owners. You loved dogs.
âDistracted much?â
You turned back to Seonghwa. âYeah,â he finally said. âThe bridezillas.â
You opened your mouth to respond but was cut short by the shrill sound of a ringing phone. Seonghwa sighed heavily and rolled his eyes, holding up a finger. âHold that thought,â he said, fishing his phone from his pocket, and checked the screen.
Whoever was on the other end he must not have wanted to talk to, because he groaned and rolled his eyes yet again. âIâm so sorry,â he said softly, looking up at you. âI have to take this and if I know this person, theyâre going to talk and talk and talk. Iâll see you tomorrow, yeah?â
You nodded as he started to back away, his phone still ringing. âHave a good night!â you called as he answered the phone.Â
âYou, too!â he said before turning away and starting to walk in the direction of his home, leaving you to turn and walk the opposite direction.
âThis had better be good, Joong,â Seonghwa snapped. âI was in the middle of a conversation with ââ
âWith Cafe Girl?â
Seonghwa sighed, coming to a halt and pinching the bridge of his nose with his fingers.
âYes. And for the last time, her name is Y/N.â
Hongjoong chuckled on the other end. âYeah, her. Have you asked her out yet?â
Seonghwa continued walking, switching his phone to the other side. âNo,â he answered. âNot yet.â
Hongjoong booed him and Seonghwa clenched his jaw as he walked through the few pedestrians on the sidewalk, making his way to his apartment. âYouâre never gonna get in her bed if you donât ask her out.âÂ
Seonghwa could have strangled his friend.
âIs there a point to your call?â Seonghwa asked as he approached the door to his building.
âOh, right! I have this thing,â Hongjoong started. âAn event.âÂ
Seonghwa snorted as he typed the code in to get into his building. âYou have an event?â he asked incredulously as he walked across the lobby, nodding at one of his neighbors picking up their mail as he stopped by his mailbox to retrieve his.
âYes,â Hongjoong said, sounding indignant. âI have an event and I was wonderââ
âLet me guess,â Seonghwa said as he pressed the button for the elevator. âYou want me to do floral arrangements?âÂ
He heard Hongjoong scoff over the phone. âNo, I was gonna ask you to attend, smartass.âÂ
Seonghwa got off at his floor and made his way to his door, bowing politely to his neighbor as he passed.
âWhen is it?â Seonghwa asked as he reached his door, fishing out his keys and unlocking the door.
Once inside, he kicked his shoes off and walked over to deposit his mail on the kitchen counter.
âNext month, the 30th.âÂ
Seonghwa told him to hold, pulling his phone away from his ear to check his calendar.
âI should be free,â he said. âSend me the details,â he added as he started to go through his mail.
âAwesome. And actually, on second thought, could you perhaps make me something pretty to display?â
Seonghwa chuckled, shaking his head. âGoodbye Joong,â he said, hanging up before his best friend could say anything else.
âThe nerve of that guy,â he whispered as he set his phone down. âTo expect me to make him shit for free.â
Of course, Seonghwa would make something nice for Hongjoong and he would definitely be doing it for free.
Free food and alcohol that is.
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âWell, shit.â
Seonghwa stared at the long line from outside the cafe and sighed, reluctantly pulling open the door and stepping, holding the door for two people who were leaving. He glanced over the heads of the patrons before him to find you working diligently to take orders with another cashier and even hopping on to help fulfill orders, making lattes and wrapping up scones, muffins, and other pastries all with a smile on your face.
One of his favorite things about you. You never complained, at least not in front of the customers. You never let them see how overwhelmed or stressed you were. You always had a smile on your face, working fast to make sure everyoneâs orders came out in a timely manner.Â
You handed over a bag full of pastries, giving the customer in front of you another radiant smile before they stepped aside to wait for their coffee and you were able to take the next order. Seonghwa couldnât help but watch you work. He always had a habit of watching you when he came in.
He hated how creepy that made him sound but he was just so fascinated with how well you seemed to work under pressure and how well you kept it together when a customer was screaming in your face. You were always so polite and so sweet and Seonghwa knew he wasnât the only one who noticed you.
There were always a plethora of men who flirted with you, asking for your number, asking what time you got off work. And always you turned them down gently and sent them on their way; every single guy got the same treatment.
Well, every guy except for Seonghwa. He noticed that when the other guys flirted, you smiled and steered the conversation back to their order, yet when Seonghwa did the exact same thing, flirting with you as if you hadnât heard every pick up line in the book, you never once turned him down.Â
In fact, if Seonghwa was remembering correctly, you often flirted back with him, smile widening into a genuine one before you looked down at the counter and either busied yourself with a marker or your apron, something you often did when you were flustered.
He wasnât sure what it was, but with him, you always flirted back and it drove Seonghwa increasingly mad. Especially when your smiles turned shy, you shifted nervously, or pretended to be busy, all tell tale signs you were shy or flustered.Â
Seonghwa remembered the first day you started working here, having been a regular customer for several years. Heâd seen several guys flirt with you before he approached the counter and made a joke about them, which made you genuinely laugh. That was the exact moment he knew you were going to plague his every thought.Â
That laugh, the way you threw your head back, the genuine joy and amusement on your face and the cute stickers you added to his cup sent the signal that you just might be interested in him and so every day for the last two years, heâs been coming to this cafe.
Not for the coffee, not for the pastries, but to see your beautiful face. Hopefully make you smile or laugh, and when he did, it gave him enough fuel to get through the day, more than the coffee or the muffins you sold him every morning.
Seonghwa was only a few paces from the counter when you noticed him. You had been making a latte when you glanced over and noticed him, a shy smile gracing your lips before you went back to work so as to not spill any of the boiling hot coffee on your hands.
The next customer went, ordering what seemed to be the entire left side of the menu; thankfully the person before Seonghwa ordered a simple black coffee and a sugar-free blueberry muffin; then it was his turn. You wiped down the counter and smiled at him which soon turned apologetic.
âIâm so sorry,â you started softly. Seonghwaâs stomach sank and he wondered what you could possibly need to apologize to him for. âWe ran out of your usual muffin,â you explained and Seonghwa smiled, his stomach settling back where it was supposed to be. No banana nut muffins? No problem.
âOh thatâs alright,â he said, glancing at the menu quickly. âJust the usual coffee and Iâll try a lemon poppyseed muffin instead,â he ordered, pulling his wallet out as you punched his order in and pressing the card reader option on the terminal.
âSorry itâs so busy,â you added in an undertone. Seonghwa tapped his card against the reader until it beeped and put his card away in his wallet, placing it back in his pocket.Â
âAnd take your time,â he added. âIâm not in any rush.â You smiled and mouthed âthank youâ before turning to start making his coffee.
It wasnât like anyone else couldnât make his coffee, but he preferred it when you did and knew you preferred it, too. You often drew little doodles or added stickers and left encouraging messages on his cup sleeve â which he totally didnât keep when he needed a mood pick up during the long hours at the shop.
He waited patiently off to the side, checking his phone. He wished he could get your number one of these days but he really had no way of asking, considering he knew youâd never be able to give your number to a customer while you were working. That had to be against a bunch of rules.
But he could leave his number with you, right? God, he was stupid. Why hadnât he thought of that before?
Seonghwa approached the counter to speak to your co-worker. âHi,â he said softly. âDo you have a post-it note and a pen I could borrow?â he asked. The college-aged student nodded, grabbing a stack of yellow post-its and a pen, handing them off to Seonghwa. He took them with a thanks, scribbling down his number and name.
You moved from the coffee maker and slid open the cold case to grab his muffin with a deli paper. You placed it into a paper sack and grabbed the coffee cup, moving to the pick up area where Seonghwa was waiting. âOne caramel macchiato with white chocolate sauce and a lemon poppyseed muffin,â you said with a smile as you placed his order on the counter and pushed it towards him.
Seonghwa leaned forward, thanking you and pressing the folded yellow post-it into your hand before grabbing his coffee and muffin, giving you a wink, and making his way to the door. He didnât stop to see if you opened the note. He would find out later if you took him up on his offer.
As he reached the door to his shop, fishing his keys out to unlock the door and let himself in, he felt his pocket vibrate in his pocket and chuckled to himself. âThat was fast,â he whispered as he shut the door and turned the lock, moving through the front room and into the office.
He set his coffee and muffin down, reached into his coat pocket and pulled his phone out, expecting to see an unknown number but instead saw a text from Hongjoong.
Joongie: what was that shit we got when we were in the city last month? The wine. The red one Seonghwa rolled his eyes before typing in a quick response. Seonghwa: the red wine we got at dinner from that one restaurant? It was Roscato â Rosso Dolce. Joongie: ur a life saver! (: thank u! Seonghwa: is this to impress a girl? Joongie: Iâll never tell ;)
Seonghwa rolled his eyes and locked the screen of his phone, setting it down on the desk and removing his coat to hang up. He sat down and opened his bag to pull out the muffin and took a nibble. It wasnât bad. The banana nut ones were his favorite but this would do.
He grabbed the coffee cup and smiled at the words and doodles on the page as well as a couple stickers. âShe must have done this when I wasnât looking,â he told himself, smiling at the little notes you left on his coffee sleeve. Another one for his collection.
The rush had finally ended and you could take your break. You grabbed a simple iced coffee and a muffin, moving to the back to sit at the break table and pulled the yellow note from your apron. You unfolded it and read on the note.
You smiled, gently nibbling on your bottom lip as you slipped your phone out of your pocket and opened your texting app, entering his digits into your phone and sending a quick text.
Y/N: hey. itâs Y/N (: Iâd love to get dinner with you. Just say the time and place
You continued to pick and nibble on your muffin, scrolling on your phone as you ticked away the minutes of your break. You decided to send one more text to let Seonghwa know you were heading back to work and would be unavailable until after your shift was over.
Once it sent, you pocketed the device and went back to work, trying desperately not to think about the phone in your apron pocket that vibrated every so often and what that notification might be.Â
The rest of your shift was uneventful as you took orders from the few stragglers that came in, others coming in to take up residence at a table and work on either work or school work while sipping on their coffee and taking advantage of the free Wi-Fi.
âCould you take these back to the kitchen to be washed,â Addie asked softly, pulling you out of your stupor as you stood doodling mindlessly on a notepad you kept at the register. You set the pen down and stood up, taking the carafes from her and heading for the doorway into the kitchen where Lin was currently washing dishes.Â
âNeed any help back here?â you asked, hopefully but they shook their head.Â
âNah,â Lin answered. âI got it. But thank you,â they added.
You turned away and headed back up front, sighing heavily as you returned to your spot. You glanced up at the clock. Time seemed to be ticking slowly, minute by minute. Inching by like a snail on a garden wall. Slow and steady wins the race but what race? Race of being bored to death?
âOkay, Y/N, stop being dramatic.â
âAddie,â you murmured, chin resting in your hand as you looked around at the mostly empty cafe. âIâm dying of boredom here,â you announced before turning to face her. âPlease tell me you have something for me to do,â you said, almost pleadingly. Addie chuckled and nodded towards the dining area.Â
âIf youâre desperate for something to do, you can wipe down the empty tables,â she answered and you smiled, ducking down to grab the small bucket of soapy sanitizer water and a clean rag, before standing up and making your way out from behind the counter.
Cleaning the tables was something to keep your body occupied but unfortunately it didnât do much for keeping your mind occupied. Every once in a while, you threw glances towards the windows that looked out into the town square where you could see the front of the flower shop.Â
You pulled your phone out and snuck a glance at the screen but there were no notifications beyond your discord group chats with friends. âHe must be really busy,â you thought to yourself as you tucked your phone away and went back to wiping down the tables.
Every time a table cleared, you were quick to wipe it down, brushing any debris onto the floor to sweep up later with the broom.
When the last of the customers cleared out and Addie shut the door, locking it and flipping the open sign over to the side that read âclosed,â you were beyond excited to get out of the cafe and go home.Â
Grabbing the broom, you started from the back, sweeping around the cafe, making little piles of dirt, trash, and other debris to come by and pick up with the dustpan later. Lin finished the dishes in the back and was restocking the small fridges under the counter while Addie was preparing things for the following day.
Once your small mounds of dust and trash had been swept up, you made your way to the back to fill the mop bucket and grab the mop. Taking it back to the front, you worked from the far side of the shop towards the counter while Lin returned to the kitchen to clean the back.
By the time both you and Lin had finished mopping and drying key areas of the floor, Addie had finished counting the tills and was in the office, doing the final accounting duties of the day.
âWeâre finished, Addie,â Lin said as you both peered into the office.Â
âAll right,â she replied. âIâll see you two tomorrow?âÂ
You nodded, waving and then made your way to the front door, Lin not far behind.
âDo you want to grab an early dinner?â Lin asked as they pulled their beanie on, the ends of their hair multicolored flipping up. You smiled and shook your head.Â
âNo, but thank you,â you replied. âIâll see you tomorrow!â you announced as you turned to walk in the direction of your home, Lin heading the opposite way.
As you passed, you glanced over at the floral shop to see the lights inside were still on from what you could see; the open sign had also been flipped to show it was now closed. You hadnât seen anyone go in or out of the shop since Seonghwa entered it this morning and you wondered if it was normally closed on certain weekdays and you just hadnât noticed before.
You were half tempted to stop by, knock on the door and tell Seonghwa in person that you were interested in going on that date, but youâd have to just trust he would get your texts. You didnât want to come off as desperate but something inside you told you Seonghwa wouldnât mind even if you did.
Still, you would wait for his response.
Seonghwa looked up from sweeping to notice the cafe had already flipped its open sign. He could see your figure in the distance walking away from the shop and he watched as you walked away, resisting the urge to exit his own shop and stop you. Heâd just wait until he got home to check his messages.Â
He hadnât been able to look at his phone since that morning when Hongjoong texted him. He had orders to fill for school dances and other events. It was also pruning day so he really couldnât have his phone on him with how much work he had to do.
He turned away as your form disappeared from his line of sight and continued sweeping. His hands tightened around the broomstick, the frequency of his sweeping motion increasing as he remembered the way your eyes looked up at him in curiosity when he handed you the note and it made his mind run wild.
âNo. Stop it.â
He shook his head and tried to go back to the task at hand but it wasnât long until his mind wandered, imagining how youâd look bending over to sweep the cafe and again he had to take a deep breath and force his mind elsewhere. It was getting ridiculous, the way his thoughts ran wild when you were on the forefront of his mind.
He was no stranger to fantasies but this was beyond fantasizing at this point. He couldnât help but think about you doing the most mundane tasks before his imagination got away from him and he was imagining bending you over his kitchen counter, or laying you back on the counter of the cafe as he buried his head between your thighs â
âStop it!â he shouted, throwing the broom to the floor with a clatter as he ran his fingers through his hair, eyes screwed shut as he regulated his breathing, shoulders rising and falling as he failed to gain control of his own thoughts and emotions.
His constant fantasizing made him feel like some sort of crazed sexual deviant and he often wondered if maybe he just needed to get laid and the thoughts might go away. Unfortunately for him, the only person he wanted was the source of his anguish, the subject of all his fantasies and thoughts.
Seonghwa grumbled to himself, bending over to pick up the broom and resume sweeping. He needed to get it done fast so he could go home to find some relief.
Once the shop was clean and locked up tightly, Seonghwa left out the front door, the bell ringing as he opened the door and shut it. Once he locked it, he began making his way across the square in the same direction you had initially gone, only to eventually turn right and head for his own apartment.
It wasnât much, an old brick building that was once a high school before the new one was built and the old one turned into apartments. It was the first place Seonghwa looked when he was moving to this town and found a one bedroom apartment with a den. Heâd lived there ever since, turning the clean slate into a home.
The bedroom Seonghwa had turned into an office and opted to sleep in the den where there were no windows. He had this thing about light; he couldnât sleep if any lights were on, even if they came from outside. The den had no window, and so he didnât need to buy blackout curtains. The doors to the den were double sliding doors that met in the middle and with the twist of a knob, locked together. It wasnât as sturdy as a bedroom door, but it did the job.
Seonghwa unlocked the door, letting himself into the apartment where he shut and locked the door. He then leaned against it, letting out a sigh that morphed into a groan. He took off his shoes, setting them by the shoe rack, and removed his coat, hanging it up in the closet by the front door.
He set his mail on the counter and started going through it, sorting the important stuff from the junk.
Once that was done, he checked the time and sighed before picking up his phone and scrolling through the options for delivery. Once he settled on something, he placed his order and went about his business until there was a buzz at the intercom.
The restaurant must not have been busy because his food arrived promptly and he buzzed the driver up, paying him and giving a generous tip before closing the door and settling down with his meal and a show for background noise.
His thoughts shifted to you and what you might be having for dinner. Were you eating alone? Were you watching TV? Had you gone on a date? That last thought almost soured his mood but he forced the thought from his mind and dug his phone out of his pocket.
He had a handful of texts from an unknown number and opened the messages.Â
xxx-xxxx-xxxx: hey. itâs Y/N (: Iâd love to get dinner with you. Just say the time and place xxx-xxxx-xxxx: i was on my break but i have to go back now and wonât be able to check my phone xxx-xxxx-xxxx: just let me know! xxx-xxxx-xxxx: hey i just got off and iâm heading home. xxx-xxxx-xxxx: iâm still interested in getting dinner with you sometime
Seonghwa smiled to himself reading your texts before he promptly saved your number to his phone and shot you a few texts back.
Seonghwa: hey sorry I didnât get back to you sooner. I just sat down to eat dinner. It was a busy day at the shop Seonghwa: if youâre still interested, iâd love to get dinner some time this week Seonghwa: does this Saturday work for you?
He set his phone aside and resumed eating only for his screen to light up with a new text from you. âShe responded so fast?â he thought. âIs she eager?â Or perhaps, like him, she was desperate. Not that he would judge. He would never think of you in a bad way. He knew he was desperate, maybe even pathetic at times, but you? Not you. You were nothing like him.
Y/N: saturday sounds perfect (: what time?
He typed a quick response, trying not to get overly excited by the fact that you wanted to see him too. âItâs not that serious,â he told himself. âDown boy.â
Seonghwa: how about 7? I know this Italian place not far from my apartment
He held his phone in his hand, food all but forgotten as he waited for your response which came just as quickly as it had before.
Y/N: sounds perfect! Send me the address and Iâll meet you there
Seonghwa smiled to himself as he typed in the restaurant name and address for you to save before he set his phone down and looked at his forgotten meal, cursing silently as he picked up his utensil and continued eating.
He had a date with you on Saturday at seven pm and he was going to need to be on his best behavior.
After eating, he cleaned up and headed to the bathroom to take a shower. Since the sweeping incident, he hadnât been able to calm down and decided it would be best if he just relieved himself in the shower.
It had come down to this plenty of times before, fantasizing about you while he was at work only to have to come home and jerk off so he could settle down and go to sleep. It was like second nature at this point. He had a few fantasies he could relive in moments like these, letting out a sigh as the hot water beat down on him, running down his body as he stood under the stream.
He pushed his hair out of his face, keeping his eyes shut as he let his hands rest on the back of his neck. Taking a deep breath, he let one of his hands wander, sliding down his chest, moving slowly further and further down until the tips of his fingers brushed over his pubic region, stopping to take a deep breath.
Behind his eyelids, he imagined your face, your sweet smile when he would flirt with you, the way you looked away clearly flustered by his attention. The images in his mind shifted to you standing in his kitchen; it wasnât entirely uncommon for his fantasies to start off with doing something domestic like cooking.
He let out a sigh as his fingers wrapped around the base of his cock. In his mind, he had you bent over the counter, panties around your ankles as he guided the tip of his cock to your soaking entrance.Â
Slowly Seonghwaâs hand moved, stroking himself as he imagined it was your cunt instead that was cripping him tightly. He could almost hear your whimpers as he imagined he was thrusting into your warm, velvety walls instead of into his fist.
âFuck,â he hissed, chest rising and falling with labored breaths as he continued to stroke himself, squeezing the base of his cock like he imagined your cunt would as you started to spasm around him. A few more strokes and he let out a stifled moan as he came, ropes of white hitting the shower tile.Â
He took a few moments to regain his composure before spraying down the tiles, washing away the shame of fantasizing about you. He always felt guilty following this sessions in the shower or in his bed as he imagined fucking you or your mouth but the shame would ebb away and the desire to have you, to corrupt you, would return in full force.
As he continued with the routine of his shower, he wondered what you looked like when you came. Did your eyes roll back as your lips parted in a silent moan?
Did you cry out, tears in the corner of your eyes as you came? He wanted nothing more than to find out, but he had to remind himself to take it slow. He didnât want to scare you.
âBaby steps.â
Once he was cleaned, dried, and dressed in his pajamas, Seonghwa entered the den, shutting the doors behind him and moving to set his phone on the wireless charger. He noticed he had another text from you.
Y/N: goodnight Seonghwa (:
He smiled as he sent a text back before putting his phone on Do Not Disturb and set it on the charger. He turned off the light and got into bed, thankfully drifting off to sleep quickly.
As quickly as sleep came, the dreams followed and the next morning, Seonghwa woke up with a raging hard-on and a new fantasy involving the cute barista from his favorite cafe.
After taking a quick shower to relieve himself, Seonghwa got dressed and headed out of the apartment, making his way down the stairs when he checked his pocket to find he was missing his phone. âDamn it,â he cursed softly and headed back up, letting himself into his apartment and grabbing his phone from where he left it in his room.
He checked the screen to see if it was charged and found a few message notifications. He opened the device and smiled as he read the texts from you.
Y/N: good morning Seonghwa Y/N: i hope you slept well! (: Y/N: i canât wait to see you in the cafe this morning
Seonghwa chuckled, pocketing the phone and headed back out to start making his way to the town square. The whole walk there, he contemplated going to another cafe but felt that might be a little mean. Maybe he just wanted you to long for his presence the way he longed for yours.
The scene in the cafe was the opposite of the previous morning and you were currently camped out by the register, ringing up an order for a small elderly woman. When she paid and stepped aside it was Seonghwaâs turn and he was instantly glad he decided not to visit another cafe.
The smile that spread across your lips and reached to your eyes was even more radiant than any smile heâd seen before. âGood morning,â you said breathlessly and Seonghwa knew it the way you said it was more than a standard employee greeting a customer.
There was a sparkle in your eyes heâd never seen before. Almost a yearning, like you were excited to see him. âCute,â he told himself as he glanced up at the menu. As if he even needed to.Â
âThe usual?â you asked before he could start order and he smiled at your eagerness to serve him.
Before he could stop it, his mind wandered and he wondered if you were this eager to please in other areas. âDonât do this. Not right now,â he told himself. He swallowed thickly and nodded. âYes please,â he replied, feeling relieved when you looked down to punch in his order.
You told him his total, pressing the button for the card reader yet again, same routine as the day before and he paid by tapping his card against the reader. Once it beeped, you printed off the receipt and set it on a stack after he refused it. You opened the case to get his muffin, a banana nut one, from the second shelf, put it in a paper bag, and handed it to him before getting started on his coffee.
Seonghwa normally busied himself with his phone while you worked but this time, he didnât look away. Instead he allowed his eyes to wander, taking in your backside. He was eternally grateful the cafe didnât force you to wear some ugly uniform.Â
You wore a knee length cream colored dress with a white lace trim peeking out from under the hem. The dress was fitted at the waist, showing off your curves as you worked. The sleeves were short and there was a collared v-neck. The dark brown apron you wore complimented the dress, offering some contrast.
Seonghwa didnât often take in what you were wearing, but the dress was really pretty on you. He wondered if you always wore clothes like this to work or if you had dressed up for him.
You finished his coffee, placing a lid on it and then sliding the cup into a sleeve before picking up a marker and starting to write on it. He saw you sneak a couple of stickers onto the sleeve before walking over to the pick up counter and set his coffee down.Â
âOne caramel macchiato with white chocolate sauce,â you said softly, almost shyly as he stepped forward to take it.Â
âThank you,â he said softly and smiled as you adjusted the ties of your apron that most certainly didnât need adjusting. âSee you later,â Seonghwa said softly, sending you a wink and making his way towards the door, pushing it open with his back and stepping out into the square.
You sighed and watched Seonghwa walk out of the door, crossing the square to the floral shop and watched as he opened the door. âWhat are you looking at?â Lin asked in your ear and you flinched, turning your gaze away from the windows, grabbing a towel and starting to wipe the counters.
âN-nothing,â you stammered but Lin already saw everything.Â
âIsnât that the florist?â they asked. You shrugged, falling silent as you scrubbed at a stubborn spot on the counter.Â
âHeâs pretty handsome,â Lin added as you pretended to be busy.
âWhoâs pretty handsome?â a voice asked and you both turned to see Addie standing by the espresso machine, arms crossed as she leaned against the counter. âThe florist,â Lin answered before you could stop them. Addie raised an eyebrow, glancing out the cafe windows over at the flower shop before looking back at you.
âWhat about him?â
âY/N was sighing and watching him walk away,â Lin said, smirking at you as your cheeks burned and you looked away.Â
âSighing?â Addie asked, glancing at you. âOh no, is Y/N in love?â she asked, a slight teasing tone in her voice.Â
You rolled your eyes, setting the rag under the counter and started to walk away.
âI hate you guys,â you muttered, but you in fact did not hate them. A fact they were well aware of.
Throughout your shift, you sent texts to Seonghwa and he replied when he could. You could see people going in and out of the shop all day, some leaving with large bouquets and others with small ones or single flowers. Business was clearly booming, or was it blooming?
While you were waiting for your shift to end, you decided to pull up the restaurant Seonghwa had suggested, something you should have done yesterday when he first brought it up but it slipped your mind. He had mentioned it was an Italian place and the menu looked good.
As the day wore on, you were getting more and more excited for your date with the handsome florist.
Saturday, for you, could not come fast enough.
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For Seonghwa, Saturday came much too fast and he wasnât sure if he could handle it. The fantasies starring you had increased in frequency and he was finding it harder (no pun intended) to not pop a boner at the mere thought of you. He needed to learn to control himself.Â
He stood in front of his mirror, adjusting the cuff of his black shirt as he looked over his appearance, seeing if anything was out of place. He took a deep breath and gave his reflection a nod before moving to grab his coat, sliding it on. From the counter, he retrieved his keys, wallet, and phone, pocketing the items as he walked over to the door, slipping on his shoes, and let himself out into the hall.
The ride in the small old elevator down to the main floor took a few minutes from his apartment on the top floor and soon he was walking through the empty lobby, footsteps echoing against the walls as he crossed the tile floor to the front door.
The walk to the restaurant wasnât a long one and he hoped it wasnât too far for you either. He didnât know exactly where you lived, he just knew you always turned left at the main road when walking home and he always went right.
The restaurant had opened up recently in a newly renovated building of connected shops. Seonghwa had seen it in passing a couple times and now that the opportunity to go on a date had presented itself, he figured it would be the perfect time to check it out, and who better to experience it with than the person who occupied almost all his thoughts.
Seonghwa arrived after a brisk walk, pulling the door open and then holding it for two people exiting. He stepped inside, approaching the host stand where a young woman with shoulder length brown hair wearing a plain black tee, black slacks stood.
She smiled up at him as he approached.
âHi, just one?â she asked, grabbing a menu.Â
âUh, two actually. I have a reservation,â Seonghwa answered.Â
She smiled, setting the menu down and opening the book. âName?â she asked, picking up a black pen and scanning the sheet.
âPark,â he answered, waiting for her to find his name.Â
âYouâre a little early,â she noted, checking the time. âI can mark you down and when your table opens up, I can send you a text,â she offered, looking up.Â
âI think Iâll just sit at the bar,â he said, watching as he scribbled something down on the page.Â
âAlright,â she said, smiling as she clicked the pen. âIâll let you know when a table opens up.â
Seonghwa thanked her and made his way over to the bar, catching the bartenderâs attention as he took a seat. The bartender, a man who seemed to be around his age, set a napkin in front of him. âWhat can I get you?â he asked. Seonghwa glanced at the glass bottles that lined a shelf behind him.
âCould I get a whiskey, neat?â he asked, looking back at the bartender who nodded and turned to open the case with the chilled glasses. Seonghwa took the opportunity to shrug out of his coat and look around as he unbuttoned his sleeve cuffs.
He had expected the restaurant to have a more modern feel but instead of a clean and sterile environment, the textured wallpaper was a cream colored, contrasting with the dark warm wood floors and accents. The tables were all round, covered in white tablecloth. The larger tables were in the middle with white cushioned chairs to accommodate 6 people. Along the windowed walls were smaller tables for two to three people.
Seonghwa turned back as the bartender returned, setting his drink in front of him. Seonghwa thanked him and pulled his wallet out to pay but the bartender declined. âFirst oneâs on the house,â he said with a smile and walked away to go about his duties.
Seonghwa picked up the glass, swirling the amber-colored liquid before raising the glass to his lips and tilting his head back. The burn of the alcohol brought him out of his own swirling thoughts and he let out a small sigh as he set the glass down and waited, hoping you were on your way.
You glanced at your reflection for what felt like the millionth time since putting on your dress.
Youâd opted for a white fitted one, which was a bold choice given that you were going to an Italian restaurant. You had gone back and forth on what to wear, trying to decide between a black dress and the white one you were currently sporting.
You checked the time and cursed. If you wanted to get to the restaurant on time, you needed to leave now. Rushing through your apartment, you grabbed your small clutch, putting your wallet, phone, and lip gloss into it and heading for the door where you slipped into your heels, a simple black heel with red bottoms. They had been a gift from your parents upon finishing school and you saved them for special occasions.
Once your coat was on, you headed out of your apartment, locking the door and heading down the stairs and out the front door.
You made the short walk to the bus station, opting to take the bus since you were wearing heels. The restaurant was only down the road from your building but youâd rather not kill your feet and thankfully, the bus showed up only moments later.
You boarded, pulling out your transport card and scanning it before picking a seat behind the driver and keeping your eyes down. You didnât often take the bus but when you did, you always felt like a million eyes were on you. Of course this wasnât true, no one was even paying any attention to you.
You really needed to stop reading and listening to r/no sleep and r/lets not meet stories.
The ride to the restaurant was uneventful and as the bus pulled up to the nearest stop, you stood up, briefly adjusting the hem of your dress and thanking the driver before heading for the steps, descending them carefully until your feet met the pavement.
The stop wasnât too far from the restaurant but you still needed to walk to make it there. You felt mildly subconscious about the people you passed, but you knew that was your anxiety speaking, assuming people were looking at you like you were some kind of main character in a story.
âThis isnât wattpad, Y/N,â you told yourself. âNo one is even looking at you. Wait, no, thatâs not true. That guy just looked.â
You offered a polite smile at the man you passed as he looked you up and down and you instantly regretted everything youâd ever done in your life. âGreat, he probably thinks youâre some kind of streetwalker. Not that thereâs anything wrong with prostitutionââ
âOh shut up,â another voice told you in the back of your mind.
You looked up as you approached the restaurant and opened the door, stepping into the warm, cozy setting, a low hum as people chatted at low volume over their meals, sharing wine, appetizers, and no doubt gossip. You looked around briefly, taking in the cream-colored wallpaper, dark warm wood floors, and round white cloth covered tables.
The hostess looked up at you, smiling. She was cute and short, her chocolate brown hair cut into a shoulder-length bob. She wore a black tee shirt with cap sleeves and black slacks. She smiled up at you as you pulled your phone out to check to see if Seonghwa had texted you.
âCan I help you?â the hostess asked, drawing your attention away from your screen that had no missed notifications.Â
âIâm supposed to be meeting someone,â you explained as you moved closer to the host stand to allow people to pass you.
âDid you have a reservation?â the hostess asked. You noticed a black rectangular name tag with gold lettering that read her name was Jess.Â
âUh, Iâm not sure, actually,â you said. âI have a date and he didnât tell me if he made a reservation. Could I look around and see if heâs here already?âÂ
Jess smiled and nodded, returning her attention to the guest book in front of her as your eyes swept the room. It wasnât large but it was certainly cozy. Three clear glass vases of different heights sat in the middle of each table with floating tealights. The overhead lighting was recessed into the ceiling and dimmed to create a more warm and inviting atmosphere.
Your eyes swept over the patrons until you reached the bar and your heart skipped a beat.
âHeâs here. Heâs actually here.â
You noticed Seonghwa sitting at the bar, his jacket slung over the back of his stool as he nursed a class of what you could assume was whiskey based on the color. You turned to Jess. âI found him,â you announced softly. âHeâs at the bar.â
Jess looked up and followed your line of sight before smiling. âAhh, him,â she said, glancing at the guest book. âYour table should be ready in a few minutes,â she added, looking back up at you.Â
âThank you,â you said before making your way over to the bar, heart hammering in your chest with each stride.
Seonghwa had certainly dressed up, making you glad you had as well. Most of the patrons in the restaurant had dressed up and you felt like you didnât stand out too much. You cleared your throat as you stopped beside Seonghwa and he looked up.
His face lit up as he took in your form. âYou made it,â he said as you set your bag on the bar and climbed up into the stool next to him. âWhatâre you drinking?â he asked. You glanced at the bar and took notice of all the alcohol bottles.Â
âOh itâs fine,â you finally said. âI donât really drink,â you added.
Seonghwa smiled and nodded. âWell, if youâd like a non-alcoholic cocktail, order whatever youâd like,â he said as he lifted his glass, downing the rest of his drink. As he set the glass down and nodded to the bartender, you decided maybe one drink wouldnât be so bad.Â
If anything, it might help you loosen up. Your shoulders felt tense and you knew it was because you were nervous. You were here, at this upscale Italian restaurant, with quite possibly the most attractive man youâd ever laid your eyes on. For some reason, heâd asked you out.Â
âActually,â you started as the bartender set a new drink in front of your date. Seonghwa looked up to meet your gaze.
âMaybe a glass of wine,â you suggested. Seonghwa looked up at the bartender.Â
âWhat options do you have?â he asked.Â
âSomething red and semi-sweet,â you added. The bartender nodded and moved to get your glass.Â
âYou like semi-sweet reds?â Seonghwa asked, his lips pulled into an uneven smirk.
You nodded. âYeah, I like a lot of dolce wines,â you admitted. âI donât drink often, but when I do, itâs usually something like Roscato â rosso dolce,â you added. Seonghwa chuckled under his breath as he picked up his drink and took a sip. The bartender returned with your glass of wine and set it in front of you.
âDid I say something funny?â you asked, pulling the glass of wine closer. Seonghwa shook his head.
âNo, not funny,â he explained. âItâs just a coincidence. A friend of mine asked me for the name of a wine we tried at a restaurant on my last trip to visit him and it was Roscato,â he continued, looking up to meet your gaze. âRosso dolce,â he added.
Your lips parted and you let out a short, soft laugh. âOh,â you replied as you raised your glass.
âThat is a coincidence.â
An hour later, you were sitting at a small table in the corner by the last window, having shared some appetizer whose name you couldnât pronounce and an empty bowl of spaghetti aglio e olio sitting before you as Seonghwa looked at the dessert menu. âDo you want to try the tiramisu?â Seonghwa asked as you took a sip of your third glass of wine.
âDo you want to share it?â you offered.Â
Seonghwa glanced up at you, an amused look in his eye, like some unspoken joke that only he seemed to be privy to. âSure,â he finally answered, looking back down at the menu and allowing you to breathe easier.
The server finally returned and Seonghwa asked for a tiramisu to split as you finished your glass.
âWould you like more wine, miss?â the server asked and you contemplated for a moment and then nodded.Â
Before the server could walk away, Seonghwa stopped him. âCould you bring another glass and the rest of the bottle, please?â he asked. The server nodded and walked away to put in your order.
You stared at him as he took a sip of his water. âThe whole bottle?â you asked, biting back the urge to laugh.Â
Seonghwa shrugged. âIâm sure thereâs only a couple more glasses left in that bottle anyway,â he said, the tone of his voice teasing.
âSo,â you started, catching Seonghwaâs attention. âFlowers?â you asked.
He smiled, chuckling light as he shook his head.
âDonât tell me you think itâs weird,â he said softly and your smile faded.
âWhat?â you asked softly. âNo. I think itâs great actually.â
Seonghwa looked up to meet your gaze. âItâs refreshing to meet a guy whoâs into flowers. Not a lot of guys know the difference between the meaning of a red rose and a yellow one,â you added, smiling when Seonghwa stifled a laugh.
âHave you had a guy buy you yellow roses?â he asked incredulously. You nodded and he went into another fit of giggles. âYellow roses⊠my god.â
When his laughter had subsided, he cleared his throat. âIâve always loved flowers,â he explained.
âMy parents loved gardening,â he continued. âIt was a normal part of my childhood. I learned about caring for and growing flowers and the language of flowers at a young age. Iâve always been surrounded by gardening.â
You leaned forward, resting your chin in your palm as he spoke, a smile on your lips.
âWhen I was a teenager, I actually wanted to be an athlete,â he added, absentmindedly playing with the rim of his empty whiskey glass. âI fell in love with volleyball and wanted to pursue it in college. I actually even started pursuing volleyball at the collegiate level,â he continued.
A smile crossed his face as he reminisced. âI met some of my best friends playing volleyball,â he added.
His smile fell slightly, no doubt a painful memory coming to the forefront of his mind.
âAnd then my grandmother died.â
Your smile fell and you felt your heart tug. You reached across the table with your free hand, placing it over his. âIâm sorry,â you said softly. Seonghwa smiled, moving his hand under yours to take your hand in his.Â
âItâs been a long time,â he started. âBut thank you.â
He held your hand as he continued his story.
âHer death made me rediscover a passion and appreciation for flowers,â he continued. âWe had the most beautiful arrangements at her funeral. It made me think âI could do that. I could make floral arrangements.â So, I did.â
âI went back to school, changed my major, and started taking flower arranging classes. I got my degree in business administration and started arranging flowers in my parentsâ house until I had saved enough to purchase a store front.â
You watched him speak, a certain fondness in your heart as he talked so earnestly. âI also chose to move from the city and I found this place while looking, falling in love with the small town atmosphere. I love being able to walk to everything like I did in the city but there arenât as many people here,â he added.
âIâve been here and had my shop for four years now and I wouldnât change a single thing about my life,â he finished, looking up at you with a smile on his face.Â
You opened your mouth to respond but the server returned at that moment, setting a single slice of tiramisu down before he set down another wine glass and the opened bottle of wine. âAnything else I can get you?â he asked, looking between the two of you as Seonghwa lifted the bottle.Â
âNo, thank you,â Seonghwa answered, glancing at you as he started to pour some wine into the new glass with a wink.
The server took that as his cue to leave, allowing Seonghwa to sit up straight and pour wine into your glass. You thanked him and looked down at the dessert. âHave you ever had tiramisu?â Seonghwa asked as he picked up his fork. You shook your head.
âWell, Iâve had those store made ones, nothing like this though,â you replied, picking up your own dessert fork.Â
âLadies first,â Seonghwa said, gesturing to the cake.Â
You glanced at it and back to him. âNo, itâs okay, you can have the first bite,â you offered. Seonghwa chuckled lightly, taking his fork and slicing off a corner of the cake.
He brought it up and moved the fork towards you. âI insist,â he said softly. Your cheeks grew warm at the show of affection. Youâd never been on a date where someone fed you and it felt exceedingly intimate.
And you liked it.
You parted your lips, allowing Seonghwa to guide the fork into your mouth. Youâd had tiramisu before but this was unlike anything youâd had. It tasted like heaven. You swallowed, acutely aware of Seonghwaâs gaze on your face.
âItâs good,â you said softly.Â
Seonghwaâs eyes darted down to your lips before he reached up with his free hand, thumb brushing over your bottom lip. âYou had some cream,â he muttered, bringing his hand to his mouth and licking off the cream. The cream that had been on your lip.
You were suddenly overcome with the urge to smear cream all over your lips if it meant he would clean it off with his tongue.
âWhoa,â you thought to yourself as you took another bite of cake with your own fork. âWhere did that come from?âÂ
âCan I ask you something?â you said suddenly, looking up to meet Seonghwaâs curious gaze.
âOf course,â he said, licking his lips and taking a sip of his wine.
âDo you have a favorite flower?â you asked.
Seonghwa hesitated as he contemplated his answer before smiling, a soft chuckle escaping him.
âWhite lilies,â he answered. You felt your lips pull into a smile.
âWhite lilies?â you asked as you took another bite of the tiramisu. Seonghwa nodded, watching as you licked your lips. âWhy?â
He set his fork down and leaned forward, resting his hand on his knuckles, fixing you with a knowing smirk only he seemed to be the only one in the know.
âI think white lilies are pretty. Lilies in general are very beautiful flowers. The splayed open petals, the way they curl back and the various colors. Tiger lilies are also very beautiful but thereâs just something about the white ones,â he explained.
You took another bite. âWhat do white lilies mean,â you asked suddenly, looking up at him, âin the language of flowers?âÂ
Seonghwa fixed you with a peculiar look. His expression hardened slightly and you feared for a moment that youâd upset him but as quickly as his expression changed, it shifted again.
âPurity and chastity,â Seonghwa answered. Your cheeks grew warm under the gaze he was giving you. Something had snapped in him and the look he was giving you now was sending chills up your spine, a surge of arousal pulsing through your body and you had to physically force yourself to look away.
âPurity and chastity, huh?â
Between the two of you, the cake vanished in no time and you polished off the bottle of wine not long after with small talk about the food, the setting, and work.
âSo,â you said as you stepped out onto the sidewalk, Seonghwa following. You tied your coat closed and looked down the street towards the bus stop. âWait,â you said, checking the time. âOh. Oh no.â
âShit,â you hissed, feeling your heart sink.Â
âWhat?â Seonghwa asked.Â
âI missed the last bus,â you said, mentally facepalming yourself for being so absentminded.Â
âI could walk you,â Seonghwa offered.Â
You smiled up at him. âItâs not that,â you explained, glancing down at your feet.
Seonghwa followed your line of sight and noticed the shoes. âOh,â he said softly before looking around.
âWell, we could walk,â he suggested as he slipped his hands into his coat pocket. âAnd if your feet start to hurt, I could always carry you,â he added with a smile. You let out a laugh and looked down the street towards your place.
âOkay,â you said softly. Seonghwa offered his arm, keeping his hand in his pocket and you took the offer, slipping your hand between his arm and side and started to walk with him.
âI didnât say it sooner,â he started as you walked, the sounds behind you starting to die down as you walked away from the line of shops. âBut you look gorgeous.âÂ
Your cheeks started to heat up at his compliment and you nibbled on your bottom lip. âThank you,â you said softly.
Silence fell over the two of you as you walked down the street, but it was a comfortable silence. You wondered what he was thinking and where things would go from here. Would he walk you to your door, kiss you goodnight? Would he want to come in? Did you want him to come in?
Your thoughts were interrupted by Seonghwaâs voice.
âHowâre your feet doing?â he asked, his tone light.
You smiled, glancing up at him. âTheyâre okay,â you replied.Â
âAre you sure?â he asked, slowing to a stop.
âI could still carry you.â
You laughed softly, lightly hitting his arm and continued walking. âActually,â you said, stopping and letting go of his arm to lean down and carefully remove your shoes. âIâll just go barefoot.â
Seonghwa chuckled as you collected your shoes and stood upright. Seonghwa held out his hand and your heart skipped a beat. âLet me carry them for you,â he said. You were about to protest but he took them anyway before offering his arm again.
You thanked him softly and the two of you continued walking. âBetter?â he asked, looking down at you. You nodded, the cool pavement felt good against your feet that were starting to ache and burn from wearing the pumps.Â
âMuch,â you replied.
The walk didnât take too long and soon, you were climbing the steps to your apartment building.
You turned to Seonghwa and smiled, taking back your shoes. âThank you,â you said, carefully putting your shoes back on. Seonghwa smiled at you, hands tucked into his pockets. Silence filled the space between you before you spoke, apparently at the same time as Seonghwa.
âDo you want to come up?â
âI should probably get going.â
You felt your heart sink slightly. âOh.â
âIâd love to,â Seonghwa started. âBut I have a lot of stuff to get done tomorrow.â
You nodded, watching as his eyes dipped to look at your lips and back up. âYes. Please just kiss me.â
You started to lean in only for Seonghwa to clear his throat. âIâll wait for you to go in.â
â...what?â
âO-okay,â you said softly, turning to put the code to your building in. Once the door was opened, you turned to Seonghwa. âAre you sure you donât want to come up?â you asked softly.Â
Seonghwa smiled. âAnother time,â he said, and it sounded like a promise.
That seemed to calm your nerves, but you were still put off that he didnât even want to kiss you goodnight. This was the first time a man hadnât tried to get himself invited to your apartment.
âWell,â you hesitated. âGoodnight?â
Seonghwa nodded, a smile still on his lips. âGoodnight, Y/N.â
You made your way inside and up the steps to your door, unlocking and letting yourself in. As you removed your coat and shoes, you felt as if in a daze. You walked over to the kitchen to get a glass of water, chugging half of it as you stared at the wall before turning to face the rest of your apartment, holding the half empty glass to your chest as the realization dawned on you.
âWhat the fuck?â
Seonghwa arrived home and immediately hopped into the shower to relieve the erection heâd been sporting for the last two hours since you walked into the restaurant. He wondered if you knew the effect you had on him. Had you worn the white, form fitting dress on purpose?
If so, why? It was like you were unknowingly torturing him.
The way the dress hugged your curves, the hem reaching to the middle of your thighs. The sweetheart neckline accentuating your bust, showing off your collar. Multiple times Seonghwa had fought the urge to drag you to the bathroom and bend you over the sink, eager to stuff you full of his painfully hard cock.
He let out a hiss, dropping his head as his hand moved over his cock quickly, imagining you kneeling in front of him in that white dress. âFuck,â he cursed, his orgasm washing over him under the hot stream of water as he imagined releasing on your chest instead of on the shower wall.
He was growing tired of this. Coming home almost every day after interacting with you to relieve himself in the shower just so he could go about the rest of his evening. He was going to have to do something about it eventually. Whether that be finally sleeping with you or finding release elsewhere, he couldnât fully satisfy his urges with masturbation alone anymore.
He quickly cleaned off the shower wall and himself before drying off and getting ready for bed.
As he lay in the sheets, he cursed himself for not taking your offer to go up to your place but he knew if he had, it might have been too much for you and he refused to do anything that would frighten you. No, if he was going to sleep with you, he was going to need to take it slowly.
You deserved much more than that.
Sleep didnât come easily to him that night and he continued to toss and turn throughout the night until he finally settled into restless slumber.
The next morning, he had a plethora of chores to get done, trying to keep himself occupied as he got through them one at a time.
Each time your face invaded his thoughts, he cursed himself for saying no but ultimately he knew it was the right thing to do. Regardless of how much he wanted you, he wouldnât give that easily into his primal desires. No, he had to do this the right way.
And he would.
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Work for Seonghwa had gotten hectic over the next few days, booking events and preparing for a large wedding heâd booked a few months prior. Heâd spent a lot of free time in the shop, cultivating the white flowers he had in stock and had been growing specifically for the wedding.
It was tedious work that kept his hands busy but his mind still wandered.
He hadnât been in the cafe as often as before and he felt bad about that, hoping you werenât taking it as a sign he wasnât interested. He always made sure to let you know his interest was still there when he did visit and he couldnât help but enjoy the way your face lit up every time you found him standing at your counter.
The innocence in your expression was the reason he was distancing himself but at the same time, it was what drew him in. The need to corrupt you and mold you to his fantasies. He knew it was wrong. You werenât some art medium to bend and shape. You were a person with your own feelings and interests. He knew that and thatâs why he had to be good.
He had to behave.Â
For the fifth time that morning since visiting the cafe, he shoved thoughts of you aside as he worked, pruning and clipping. He couldnât afford to be distracted with thoughts of you right now. He needed to fucking focus and he couldnât do that when all he could think about was you on your back â
âEnough already!â he snapped, slamming down the shears in his hand against the work table. He stepped back, running his fingers through his hair and taking a few deep breaths.
Oh, you were going to be the death of him for sure.
It had been almost two weeks since your date with Seonghwa and the aftermath was nothing short of strange. Through text he seemed perfectly normal and when he came into the cafe, he was the same as heâd ever been, flirting with you every time.
At least up until a few days leading up to where you were now.
The last couple days, his texts fell off or were short and you feared the worst.
Heâd taken you on a date and hated it.
You kept replaying the date in your mind and couldnât exactly pinpoint any moment that might have put him off. Had you done something? Said something?
As you mulled over everything, it dawned on you that whatever it was, it had to have happened after you left the restaurant. He wouldnât have fed you like that if he wasnât into you, right? Like, not everyone did shit like that.Â
You thought maybe you taking your shoes off was what turned him off but then he offered to carry your shoes like some lead actor in a Korean drama. He wouldnât have done that if he didnât like you still? So from that to reaching your door, what could have happened?
You scribbled on a blank notepad as you thought over it again and again until your brain hurt and you slammed the pen on your desk. You covered your face with your hands, pressing your palms into your eyes until stars appeared behind your eyelids.
You groaned loudly and let out a frustrated growl.
âIt just doesnât make any sense!â you hissed, dropping your hands into your lap and looked down at your desk, blinking away the stars. You glanced at the clock beside you that read 12:01 am and decided to call it a night and pushed your chair back. âFuck this,â you grumbled as you turned off the desk light and made your way to your bedroom.
You had work in the morning and you couldnât spend any more time on this tonight.
Letting out a sigh, you looked across the small square at the flower shop. The open sign was off, indicating that the show wasnât open which was unusual for Seonghwa. He rarely ever closed the shop and you feared that maybe he might be sick or even worse. Unfortunately, you were currently on the clock and couldnât leave the shop. Not to mention it was busier than one person could handle so you really couldnât leave, even for a short break to check the shop and see how Seonghwa was doing.
âY/N?â a voice pulled you out of your thoughts.Â
You turned to your co-worker, an apologetic smile on your face. âSorry, Addie, Iâm really out of it today.â Addie gave you a small smile, knowing you werenât normally like this and for you to be distracted, something really had to be wrong.
âYou know,â she said softly, approaching you as she stopped sweeping. âIf something is bothering you, you know you can talk to me.âÂ
You offered as sincere a smile as you could muster. âThanks, Addie,â you replied. âIâm okay though. Just lost in thought is all.â
Youâd die before you told her what those thoughts were.
Sure, you were partially worried about Seonghwa but part of you was lingering on what could have happened the other day. The night after your date. The night you had expected him to come into your place but instead he left you standing on your front step with not even a kiss goodbye. You had spent part of the night wondering if youâd done something wrong. The other part of the night you had spent wondering what might have happened had Seonghwa kissed you and came in like you planned on inviting him to do.
To say you wanted him was a downright understatement. You needed him. There was just something so incredibly sexy about him. Something romantic as well, and as demonstrated by the date you shared. But under all of the sweetness, the sex appeal, there was something more dangerous and yet you couldnât put your finger on it exactly. You just knew Seonghwa was everything and more you wanted in a man and you needed him in the worst way possible.
To distract yourself, you chose to take orders while Addie fulfilled them. Talking to the customers and ringing up their orders didnât take much brain power but it still kept your mind from wandering, especially at work which was a dangerous combination when the object of your current fantasies was across the square in his closed shop, working diligently on a large order.
Seonghwa had been working tirelessly on this order for a wedding. It was coming up, heâd booked the order months ago as was common practice for weddings. He had centerpieces, bouquets, and other floral decorations and arrangements to make and it had been taking up most of his time since the date which allowed him the time to focus on something other than his intense primal desire to bend you over the counter of his shop and rail you into next week.
Ever since leaving you on the doorstep to your place without even a goodnight kiss, heâd been beating himself up but he knew that if he had kissed you, it would have led to more and while he did want that, god did he want that, he didnât want to scare you away. He wanted â no â he needed you in the worst ways possible but he couldnât scare you off like that. Not when he wanted to do things to you he only ever dreamt of and dream he did.
That night and almost every night since, heâs dreamt up different ways to take you. In his shop, in the cafe when all others have gone home for the night, in his bed, in his kitchen, on the counter, everywhere. All he could think of was you, you, you. In every position possible. On your back, on your knees, on your stomach. He wanted to corrupt you so badly that youâd never want to be with another person but him.
It invaded his every waking moment and sometimes even work couldnât stop the fantasies.
He was a man obsessed and his obsession could scare you away and he didnât want that. You deserved more. You deserved to be courted, properly, but goddamnit all if he didnât want to say fuck the rules, and just do what he wanted but you were far too precious. Too pure. His white lily.
He couldnât do that. He wouldnât do that. Not to you.
He would do this the right way. He had to.
Seonghwa cursed as he poked his finger with yet another boutonniere pin, dropping the small bundle of flowers onto the work table and moving to clean the prick which started bleeding. These damn things would be the end of him. Why couldnât he just use clips instead of fucking straight pins? âOutrageous.âÂ
Once he cleaned the tip of his finger and it had stopped bleeding, he put a bandaid on it. He had twelve of these damn things to make. Who the hell has twelve groomsmen? At least the corsages were easy. Seonghwa picked up the boutonniere and started working again, cursing yet again when he stabbed himself. He groaned loudly, grateful heâd closed the shop for a few days to work on this order.
It was going to be a long night.
You called out a goodbye to your coworker as you headed out the front door. As you entered the mainly empty courtyard, you chanced a glance over at the floral shop. A single light from the back was flooding into the shop but the open sign remained flipped, as it had been all day.
âSo he is in there,â you thought as you hiked the strap of your bag higher on your shoulder, trying not to wallow in the doubt and self-pity swirling in the pit of your stomach. Why hasn't he answered your texts? You were certain heâd seen them or at least you hoped he had. His read receipts were off so you couldnât be exactly sure if he had seen them.
The walk home took longer than usual due to your preoccupied state. Youâd almost run into someone at least three times, muttering an apology before hurrying on your way. Thankfully you made it home without further incident. Upon looking at the stoop to your front door, memories of that night came flooding back, when Seonghwa took you on what was probably the nicest date youâd ever been on only to leave you hanging at your front door.
As you climbed the steps, you fished out your keys and unlocked the door, letting yourself in. Stepping over the mail sitting on your welcome rug, you shut the door, locked it, and removed your shoes before bending down and grabbing the pile of envelopes.
You shuffled through them as you stood by the door before removing your coat, hanging it up and heading into the kitchen where you set your bag and keys on the counter and continued to look through your mail. Most of it was bills, advertisements, and a few card companies offering their services that you immediately tossed in the trash bin until a plain white envelope with a noticeable handwritten script caught your attention.
You set the rest of the mail down and looked over the one in your hands. Your name was written on the front but nothing else. No address and more importantly no return sender was listed. You hesitated, briefly remembering about mail bombs but snorted, amused at yourself for even considering a notion.
Why would someone send you a bomb?
You grabbed a knife from the nearby block and slit open the envelope, setting the knife on the counter and pulling out a few folded sheets of paper from inside. There weren't many pages, maybe just a few, but you opened them, reading the first line of the first page and felt your heart skip a beat.
Your breaths came out in ragged pants as you read through the letter, rereading a couple parts. Even though it was just words on paper, you could imagine the depth of his longing as he wrote the words. You let out a sigh of relief. He was just busy with work but he also didnât want to scare you off, whatever that meant.Â
It made you wonder just what he could possibly mean.Â
âI can be kind of intense at times.â Intense how?
You carefully folded up the letter and placed the pages back into the envelope and set it down on the counter. âSaturday,â you whispered, checking the calendar hanging on the wall above your trash bin. That was only a few days away. Should you tell him you got his letter? Should you just show up?
You contemplated with yourself, the soft ticking of the clock on your wall punctuating the silence. You grabbed your bag, dug for your phone and pulled the device out, unlocking the screen and pulling up your message thread with Seonghwa.
You nibbled at your bottom lip, pulling it between your teeth and mulling over what to say before settling with a simple text.
You: I got your letter. I agree, I think we should talk face to face.
You pressed send before sending another one immediately after.
You: Iâll see you Saturday
You pressed send and set your phone down, breathing heavily as you stared at the screen.
The typing indicator appeared quickly and a reply came through just as fast. You peered down at the phone, reading the message Seonghwa had sent back.
Seonghwa: Saturday then đź
When Seonghwa had dropped the unmarked letter through your mail slot the other morning, he never expected you to text him though he wasnât complaining. At least he knew he hadnât scared you off with the letter or with his words. He now only had to face you. Heâd finished the last of the floral arrangements for the wedding last night and was currently in the van, making his way to the venue across town.
This wedding was a huge event. It was being held at an old rustic farm turned into an event venue. The roads were paved up until the turn onto the dirt road. Thankfully Seonghwa was only providing the flowers and not the containers. The venue had all of that.
Turning off the dirty farm road and onto the paved winding driveway made him breathe a little easier as he checked the time 11:41 am. He was well on time and would have from now until three to help set up and get all the arrangements in their designated vases and places.
Afterwards, he could focus on what he wanted to say to you on the drive back.Â
The farmhouse came into view and Seonghwa let out a small huff. It was much prettier in person than it had been on the website. The house itself was an off white color with dark midnight blue shutters. The front door was the same dark blue with a porch wrapping around the bottom level.
The entire house was three levels. All the windows looked like the original ones and it was clear to him that someone had spent a lot of time and money to renovate this place, putting a lot of care into it. He continued up the winding driveway, noticing the white barn standing some yards from the main house. There were white and silver balloons lining the last 20 or so feet of the drive.
Seonghwa carefully pulled up beside the house and parked the van before opening the door and getting out. He saw a lot of people working, carrying tables, chairs, bundles of fabric with silk bows. Some were dressed in uniforms and some in dresses and button downs with slacks. Seonghwa looked around for someone in charge before he saw a woman carrying a clipboard and directing three people carrying a large round table.
He approached her, calling out and catching her attention. She was a shorter woman, maybe around his motherâs age. She wore a nice light pink dress suit and wore black thin framed glasses. She eyed him up and down, lifting her glasses to get a better look.
âCan I help you?â she asked, polite but clearly in a hurry.Â
âIâm the florist,â Seonghwa announced. âI have the arrangements and just need to know where to go.Â
The look on her face shifted from annoyed to beaming in a split second and it took all of Seonghwaâs willpower not to burst into laughter.
âOh perfect, youâre right on time!â she exclaimed. âWeâre setting the ceremony up in the house.â
Seonghwa nodded and moved to follow her so she could show him exactly where everything went. She pointed at the planters marking the end of the aisle where the bride would enter.Â
âAnd then we have a fridge to keep the pieces for the reception fresh,â she added pointing to the kitchen area. âDo you need assistance?â she asked, turning to look up at him.Â
Seonghwa nodded. âItâs just me, so any help would be greatly appreciated.â The woman, who Seonghwa assumed to be the planner, called over to two people, beckoning them over.Â
âWould you please help this young man with the flowers,â she asked. The two nodded and followed Seonghwa out to the van.Â
âI have everything labeled,â Seonghwa explained as he fished his keys out. âCenterpieces, boutonnieres, corsages, bouquets, and the large pieces are for the planters inside,â he continued as they reached the back of the van and he unlocked the doors.
Unloading the flowers wasnât an arduous task especially since Seonghwa took it upon himself to label everything. It was just a matter of moving them inside and then separating the floral arrangements. âHere is the brideâs bouquet,â he said, unwrapping the plastic from the stems and turning to the planner.Â
âI have twelve more,â he added, nodding towards the counter where twelve smaller bouquets lay alongside the corsages.Â
âAnd the boutonnieres?â the planner asked as she scribbled on her clipboard.Â
âAll here,â Seonghwa said, gesturing to the counter. âTwelve boutonnieres with pins. Stabbed myself a fair bit making those,â he added with a chuckle. The woman did not laugh.
âTough crowd.â
Once everything was accounted for, Seonghwa helped set up the arrangements for the ceremony, placing the large bouquets in the planters, delivering the bouquets and corsages to the bridal suite, accepting the compliments from the bridesmaids and bride herself who was in stark contrast from the planner, extremely sweet and thankful. The last duty he had was to deliver the boutonnieres to the groomsmen and groom which was a far more lackluster affair than delivering to the bridal suite.
Once he was done, he started down the steps and over to the planner to secure the final payment. Heâd agreed to take the payment in installments. First was the deposit followed by the first payment and now he needed the final payment. He cleared his throat as she finished speaking with one of the venue owners and she turned to him. âAll flowers accounted for and delivered,â he said softly. The wedding planner stared at him blankly before he sighed.
âThe final payment?â he said in a hushed voice. The plannerâs eyes widened before she nodded.Â
âRight,â she said quietly. âOf course.âÂ
She beckoned him to follow her and led him through the house and out one of the many side doors. Seonghwa followed her down the steps and over towards the barn where a man in a suit stood, talking to a few others.
The planner waved him over and discussed the topic of payment and the man nodded, pulling out his wallet. Seonghwa thanked him as the last installment was made and thanked the planner as they walked back towards the house. With his job done, Seonghwa got back in the van, taking a quick look behind to make sure nothing got left before backing up and making his way back to the dirt road.
He had about an hour until he got back to town and another 20 before he got to the shop. He checked the clock on the dash to see the time was now 2:30 pm. Time sure does fly.Â
Now it was just him and his thoughts until then.
You glanced at your watch. It was 4:07 pm and Seonghwa was nowhere to be found. It was only seven minutes past four so you werenât going to just turn around and go home. Youâd give him another few minutes before you called it.
He had said any time after four and it was after four. You pulled out your phone to see if heâd called and you maybe missed it but there was nothing. No calls, no texts except the one from the other day. The day youâd gotten the letter.
Seonghwa: Saturday then đź
You sighed as a breeze blew through the square, pulling your coat tighter around your body. âCome on, Seonghwa,â you thought as you looked around. You glanced down, inspecting your outfit as a leaf landed on your knee, clinging to the material of your stocking.
It had been unseasonably cold for spring and all leaves and flowers that have been trying to grow have had a hard time braving the elements as winter tried to hold on. New green leaves quickly withered and died, the temperatures not staying warm long enough to nurture the growth.
Cherry blossoms hadnât even sprouted due to the cooler temperatures and rainy weather. Spring was always among your favorite times of the year but sometimes, it just didnât feel like spring and felt more like autumn or even winter at times.
You were startled out of your thoughts by the sound of the door next to where you were sitting opened, the bell ringing and making you jump and turn to find Seonghwa looking at you with as much surprise as you felt. You had expected him to come to the front door, not from inside the store.Â
âSorry,â he said immediately as you stood up, smoothing down your skirt. âGot held up by a sheep jam of all things,â he added with a smirk before noticing your cold-tinged face, his smile immediately falling. âOh, have you been waiting long?âÂ
You shook your head. âNo,â you said breathlessly.Â
âLiar. Itâs been almost 30 minutes.âÂ
Seonghwa checked his watch and then looked up and smiled at you.Â
âHere,â he said softly, gesturing for you to enter.
You crossed the threshold, the warmth of the shop offering you sanctuary from the plummeting temperatures. Seonghwa shut the door, turning the lock in place before turning to look at you. âSo you, uh, got my letter?â he asked as he led the way through the shop.Â
âYeah,â you murmured, following him into the backroom of the shop. Youâd never seen this part of his shop before and it was like something out of a romance movie.
The room was rectangular with a short wall against the shop. The walls were lined with tiered planter boxes, built into the wooden wall, an array of flowers growing in each box, various colors and species. The back wall faced the forested area behind the shops. Glass windows dominated the wall allowing in as much natural light as possible.
In the middle of the room stood a butcher block work table with various tools for cutting, pruning, gardening, and what you assumed was flower arranging. The wall that the room shared with the main shop room had built-in-storage drawers under another flat wooden surface with various fertilizers, soil bags, and gardening solutions.
Hanging up next to the work table by the doorway was a garden hose, coiled and hanging neatly on its hanger, one end connected to a spigot and the other with a hose attachment. Seonghwa walked over to the work table in the center of the room and started cleaning up.
âI had some last minute adjustments to make before I delivered the order for the wedding,â he explained as he used a small hand brush to sweep any dirt, petals, and other debris off the table and onto the floor.Â
âI didnât have a chance to clean up before I left, so I just want to get this swept up and then we can talk, if thatâs okay?â he asked, glancing up at you as you removed your coat and hung it along with your bag up by the door next to his.
âI donât mind,â you said as you grabbed a broom and walked over. âAs long as you let me help you.â
Seonghwa gave you a soft smile and nodded, silently thanking you as you started to sweep up, collecting all the dirt, petals, leaves, and other debris from around the room while he gathered his tools, cleaned them and put them away. You opened the back door and brushed all the debris out the back. It was all dirt, petals, leaves, and twigs, so it should go back to nature, right?
When you shut the door, Seonghwa was wiping down the wooden work table surface. You returned the broom back to its spot by the door and turned to Seonghwa, your hand lingering on the mop. âDo you need to mop as well?â Seonghwa looked up at you and shook his head.
âNo,â he answered. âI do all my deep cleaning on Mondays,â he explained as he carried the rag over to a small hamper and dropped it in.Â
âSo,â he said, turning to you. âI guess we should talk.âÂ
You nodded, watching as he washed his hands at the small sink next to the built-in work table.
âYou said in your letter,â you started, reaching into your bag and pulling out the envelope, not noticing the look of surprise on Seonghwaâs face.Â
âYou brought it with you?â he asked and you looked up as you pulled the pages out.Â
âI wanted to reference it directly instead of relying on my memory,â you answered as you opened the letter and cleared your throat.
âThat you wanted to clear up your emotions,â you started, glancing at the first page and then back up at Seonghwa as he turned to lean against the work table, crossing his arms over his chest. âYet, it doesnât really feel like itâs cleared up at all,â you said, looking back down.
âIsnât it?â Seonghwa asked, drawing your attention back to him. âI think I made them perfectly clear, baeknari,â he said softly, using the nickname heâd taken to calling you. Glancing down quickly, you re-read through part of the first page.
âI said that I had a great time with you,â Seonghwa started when you didnât speak again. âI also recall stating that I like you far more than you seem to think,â he added with a smirk. You swallowed thickly. âAnd Iâm pretty sure I also said that I think you underestimate my attraction to you,â he continued.
You glanced up at him. âWhat do you mean by that?â you asked softly, your voice barely above a whisper. Seonghwa merely smiled.Â
âJust that. Itâs more than a simple attraction, my dear,â he answered. âIâm not just attracted to you.â Your heart skipped a beat in your chest. âMore than attraction?â
âYou also said you think about me more than any man would normally admit,â you said, trying to avoid the look Seonghwa was giving you. It made the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end, goosebumps erupting over your skin under your sweater despite the warmth of the greenhouse.
âI do,â Seonghwa admitted. You glanced up at him.Â
âHow so?â you asked, your curiosity piqued.Â
Seonghwa let out a chuckle, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. âI think about you almost all the time,â he admitted, shocking you. âI think about you when I wake up. I think about you when I come to work and I see the cafe. Every time I look out the shop window and see that cafe, I think about you,â he continued.
âI think about you when I go home. I think about you when I go to bed. You occupy every thought.â
Your heart had started to race, beating erratically in your chest as he spoke.
âI think about you when I eat breakfast. And lunch. And dinner,â he continued, looking up to meet your eyes. His heated gaze sent a surge of arousal through your body. It was such a dark look. Like prey caught in the gaze of a predator. It was almost primal.
âI think about you when Iâm driving; when Iâm workingâŠâ he trailed off, keeping your gaze locked in his.
âWhen I shower.â
That seemed to do it, a fresh wave of heat coursing through your veins, arousal pooling in your panties.
âWh-when you shower?â you asked, voice cracking slightly. Seonghwa nodded wordlessly.
âI told you,â he started. âI think about you all the time. More than could be considered normal. You shouldnât occupy my every waking thought and yet you do. Maybe Iâm obsessed, but itâs not normal to think about someone as much as I think about you.â
âObsessed?â you whispered, drawing his attention.Â
âDonât worry,â he said, shifting his weight again, moving his hands to rest against the edge of the counter. âI know whatâs acceptable and whatâs not. And I would never do anything to purposely make you feel uncomfortable or unsafe.â
You glanced down at the letter in your hand, scanning the words on the sheet before looking back up.Â
âYou said you canât write about the things you think about,â you started. Seonghwa clicked his tongue, standing up and walking over to take the sheet.Â
âNo,â he said softly. âI corrected myself and said I shouldnât write them,â he explained.Â
âI can definitely write them down,â he continued, handing the sheet back to you. He moved back over to the work table, putting space between the two of you.
âBut youâd prefer to say them in person?â you added, looking back up at him. Seonghwa nodded.
âI do want to say them. I want to tell you everything I think of and everything I want to do to you.â
Your breath caught in your throat, making a small sound which Seonghwa noticed. You busied yourself with his letter, changing the page to scan the next sheet. âYou said you didnât kiss me because if you had, then you âwouldnât have been able to stopâ,â you read.Â
âWouldnât have been able to stop what?â
Seonghwa tilted his head, fixing you with a peculiar look. âMyself, angel. I wouldnât have been able to stop myself,â he answered.Â
âFrom what?â you whispered, feeling heat rising to your cheeks. You werenât dumb. You had an idea of what Seonghwa meant but you wanted to hear him say it.
âFrom following you into your house and doing everything Iâve imagined doing,â he replied, that dark look in his eyes back as he spoke.Â
âAnd what do you imagine doing to me?â you asked softly. Seonghwaâs lips twitched, fighting a smirk before he cleared his throat.
âWould you like me to tell you,â he asked, looking down at the table and back. âOr would you like me to show you?â
You were at a crossroads. If you accepted his offer, it would probably lead to sex which you werenât opposed to. If you declined, where would that lead? Would you leave and never speak to him again?Â
You knew you wanted Seonghwa. He was kind, passionate, ambitious, generous, intelligent, witty, and insanely attractive. You wanted him so bad. So who were you to deny yourself?
Your eyes scanned the letter one last time before folding it, placing the sheets back in the envelope and sliding the letter back into your purse before crossing the room, sliding between Seonghwa and the work table before looking up to meet his gaze.
âYou said youâre afraid of scaring me off,â you started. âIs that right?â
Seonghwa nodded, you noticed how he swallowed. âWhy would I be scared?â you asked softly, reaching up to cup his cheek. Seonghwa leaned into your touch, lips parting as a soft sigh escaped him. Your thumb moved, brushing over his bottom lip.
âBecause,â he started, his breath hot against your skin. âI can be kind ofââ
âIntense?â you asked, smiling when he nodded. âWhat makes you think that would scare me?â
Without warning, Seonghwaâs hands found purchase on your hips, pushing you against the edge of the work table. âIâm not a very sweet or soft lover,â he murmured against your hand. âIâm rough, hard,â he continued, one hand grabbing your hand and pressing a kiss to your palm. âUnforgiving.â
You brought your free hand up to run your fingers through his hair before grabbing a fistful of his hair and tugging sharply. âAnd who said I am?â you asked softly, enjoying the way he moaned against your hand. He let go of your wrist, fingers skimming your neck lightly.
âYouâre playing a dangerous game, Kitten,â he murmured, eyes scanning up to meet your gaze. âKeep this up and Iâll take you right here.â
You wrapped your fingers around his wrist, forcing his hand against your throat. âDo it, then,â you whispered. Seonghwa hesitated, eyes searching your face. âWhat did you say?â he asked, his voice quiet but clear.
âI said do it,â you repeated. âTake me, Seonghwa. Iâm yours. I always was.â
The next moment, Seonghwaâs lips crashed against yours, one hand firmly on your hip, the other moving to the back of your neck, pulling you closer as his lips parted, tongue quickly slipping into your mouth, moving against yours. You whimpered against his lips, his mouth swallowing it eagerly.
âGod I would love to take you home,â Seonghwa murmured against your lips, hand still on the back of your neck, holding you in place. âLay you down in my bed and take my time with you like you deserve.âÂ
You felt his other hand slide down your hip to your thigh. âSo why donât you?â you asked, hands moving up his chest to hold onto his shoulders.
âBecause,â he started, gripping your thigh and hiking your knee up to his waist. He guided you to lay back on the work table.Â
âIâm an impatient man,â he continued, his hand sliding down the outside of your thigh to your ass. âAnd I told you Iâm a rough, unforgiving lover.â
You felt him roll his hips into yours grinding his erection into your soaked panties, giving you some slight friction against your aching clit. âAnd you told me to take you right here,â he added, slowly lowering your head to the work table, his hand moving around to ghost over your throat before sliding down your chest, not giving it much attention as he continued to move it lower until he reached the hem of your sweater.Â
âAs cute as this is,â he murmured, pulling at your top. âIt needs to come off.â
You sat up, grabbing the hem of your sweater and pulling it up over your head and dropping it on the table. Underneath you wore a simple ribbed white turtleneck top with short sleeves tucked into your skirt. Seonghwa grabbed at your shirt, leaning over to capture your lips in a heated kiss.
He pushed it up past your chest, hands cupping your breasts firmly but gently. âTake it off,â he ordered. You raised yourself up from the surface of the table to pull the shirt off, letting it fall wherever you dropped it. You were left in your skirt and a lacy lavender bralette with straps crossing over your chest.Â
Seonghwa let out a sigh as he took in your form, eyes shining with lust and another emotion you couldnât exactly place. You suddenly felt self conscious under his gaze and moved your hands to cover yourself but he stopped you, grabbing your wrists and pinning your hands down against the wood.
âDonât you dare,â he growled. âDonât you cover yourself. Iâve wondered for so long what kind of lingerie you wear and to see it now? Donât you dare hide it from me.â He leaned in, pressing a tender kiss against your lips. You sighed out as he left a trail of kisses from your lips across your cheek and down the side of your neck, stopping to nip at the skin above your pulse point.
You let out a moan as his teeth grazed your skin. Even if a mark did or didnât form, youâd still know he was there. Seonghwa continued down your neck, leaving love bites in his wake until he reached your chest. âIâd love to sit here and admire you all night in this,â he said softly, fingers skimming the delicate lace of your bralette. âBut I really want to take it off,â he continued.
You ran your fingers through his hair as he nuzzled your sternum, hands sliding down to your waist. âTake it off,â you whispered. Seonghwa lifted his head to meet your gaze. Heâd barely done anything to you but he looked like he was intoxicated. Drunk off touching you.
âYou want me to do that, blossom?â he asked softly. âYou want me to undress you?âÂ
You nodded shyly, heat rising to your cheeks as he reached up to stroke your cheek. His thumb brushed over your lips like yours had earlier and without prompting, you parted your lips, taking his thumb into your mouth and sucking. Seonghwa let out a groan, his free hand fumbling with the clasp on the front of your bralette and managing to undo it.
Keeping his thumb in your mouth, he pulled you to sit up, pushing the bralette off you and letting it fall onto the wooden surface of the table. You swirled your tongue around his thumb and Seonghwa pulled his hand back before cupping your jaw. âWanna show me what else you can do with that mouth, sweetheart?â You nodded wordlessly as he helped you down from the table.
âOn your knees then, Kitten.â
You slowly lowered yourself down, keeping your eyes on his face. Seonghwa ran his fingers through his hair before cupping your chin. âHave you ever done this before?âÂ
You nodded slowly. âOnce,â you answered. âIâll do my best though.â Seonghwa let out a groan before squeezing your chin gently.
âOpen your mouth, blossom,â he ordered, moving his hands to undo his belt and pants as you kneeled there, sitting on your heels. âTongue out,â he ordered as he moved slowly, sliding his hand into his underwear where your eyes couldnât see. His hand moved inside his boxers at the sight of you on your knees for him.
âCome here,â he said breathlessly. You raised yourself up off your heels, moving your hands up his thighs. Seonghwa pushed his pants and underwear down just enough to pull his cock free, allowing you to see it. It was larger than you expected but it didnât look like it would hurt to take.
The head was bulbous, tip slightly red with a bead of precum.
âOpen your mouth, baby,â Seonghwa said, drawing your attention away from his cock. You opened your mouth again. âTongue,â he added and you obliged, letting your tongue fall from your mouth to make space. âTap my thigh once for yes and twice if itâs too much or you want to stop, okay?â he asked softly. You nodded and waited as he guided the head to your mouth, letting it rest against your tongue.Â
It was salty, no doubt from the precum, as he rubbed the head against your tongue before pushing further into your mouth, inhaling sharply as his cock entered your mouth, your tongue brushing against the underside. âBreathe through your nose,â he instructed. You did as he said and once youâd taken a deep breath, Seonghwa pushed the rest of his cock in until it reached the back of your mouth, stopping just before it entered your throat.
âIâm gonna guide your head, okay?â Seonghwa asked. You tapped his thigh to let him know you were fine. Seonghwa guided your head, making you pull back before pulling you forward. He set a steady pace, making sure to stop before you gagged.
After a couple moments, you didnât need his guidance and started moving on your own, keeping your hands on his thighs, nails raking over the material of his pants. âThatâs it, kitten. Keep going,â he muttered, gently stroking your hair. âJust like that.â
You moaned, taking him as far into your mouth as you could. You noticed how his hips started to follow your mouth, shallowly thrusting. âHold still,â he instructed, placing his hand on the back of your head. He gave you a tentative thrust, gauging your gag reflex. He gave you another, and then another, setting a steady pace of shallow thrusts.
The tip of his cock hit the back of your mouth with a lewd wet sound almost like a gag but you didnât gag. He was testing your limits and it seemed he could hit the back of your mouth without a reaction. You closed your eyes, breathing through your nose as best as you could with each thrust into your mouth. Seonghwa let out a strained grunt and thrust, hard, forcing his cock into your throat briefly making you gag and your body react violently.
He pulled back, as you gasped, coughing. Your cheeks were stained with tears, drool running down your chin and onto your chest. In every sense of the word, you were a mess but to Seonghwa you were a vision. He carefully pulled you to your feet, guiding you back onto the table before flipping your skirt up, exposing your soiled underwear. He tsked softly, looking up at you.
âHow long have you been this wet, sweetheart?â he asked, meeting your gaze.
âA while,â you whispered. Seonghwa sighed and quickly removed your panties, stuffing them into his pocket as he pulled his underwear up to cover his cock.Â
âYou were so good for me,â he murmured, parting your thighs to look down at your sex, arousal smeared all over your lips.
âNow Iâll be good for you,â he added. You propped yourself up to watch as he lowered his head, pressing wet, open mouth kisses along the inside of your thigh, stopping to sink his teeth into your soft skin. You let out a breathy whine as he skipped over your core, kissing up the inside of your other thigh and biting into your skin, leaving small imprints that would eventually fade.
âGive me your hand, blossom,â he said, holding his hand out, palm up. You placed your hand in his and watched curiously as he guided your hand to his head. âYou might want to hold on,â he said with a smirk before dipping his head, spreading your thighs and licking slowly up your slit, pressing his tongue past your folds and finding your clit with relative ease.
Your fingers immediately curled into his hair as you felt some mild relief but as soon as Seonghwa got a taste, it was like a switch was flipped. His fingers dug into your thighs, keeping them parted as he lapped at your cunt greedily, like it was the last meal heâd ever have.
The tip of his tongue slipped into your entrance briefly before gliding back up to tease your clit. You raised your head, propping yourself up on one elbow, keeping a firm grip on his hair and let out a moan when you met his gaze. He flattened his tongue, moving his head from side to side slowly, keeping his eyes on you as he did.Â
Your thighs tried to close but he held them open with a vice like grip. You could feel your orgasm building, bubbling up like carbonation in a bottle of soda that had been shaken up. But before it could explode, Seonghwa pulled back, wiping his lips and chin with the back of his hand.
âSorry, Kitten,â he breathed, leaning over your body, leaving wet kisses up your stomach, stopping at your chest to brush his lips over one of your nipples before parting his lips and swirling his tongue around it. He sucked lightly, letting it fall from his mouth before continuing, kissing up your chest and your neck. âWhen you cum for me for the first time, itâs going to be around my cock,â he whispered in your ear, his hot breath making your shiver.
You heard him messing with his pants, pushing them back down and pulling his cock free.
âI donât have any condoms here,â he muttered, lips brushing against the shell of your ear. âI donât normally fuck pretty little baristas in the backroom of my shop,â he added, a smirk in his tone.Â
âSo Iâm special?â you whispered, breathlessly as he pressed the head of his cock against your leaking entrance.Â
âOh baby, youâre so much more than just special,â he murmured as he rutted against you.
âSuch a pretty little thing. So sweet, and not nearly as innocent as I thought,â he added as the underside of his cock rubbed against your clit. âWill you let me fuck you raw, sweetheart? Or are you too innocent for that? Have you ever been fucked raw?â
You shook your head. âNo, never,â you answered. âNever been fucked raw.â
Seonghwa chuckled, his hot breath tickling your neck. âSo Iâm the first? You have no idea how happy that makes me. Youâll let me be the first, right? Youâll let me fuck you raw, wonât you?â
You nodded fervently, the tip of his cock bumping your clit and making you gasp. âYes, Seonghwa, please. Take me, please. Fuck me please, please,â you pleaded. Seonghwa let out a groan as he slowed his pace, guiding the head of his cock to your hole and pushing it in slowly.
âOh you really want this,â he commented, watching his cock disappear inside you. âSucked my cock in so hungrily. What a greedy little cunt you have,â he murmured, sheathing himself in one fluid motion and rocking your body against the wooden table.Â
âOh fuck, Hwa!â you gasped, one hand gripping the table edge above your head, the other grabbing his shoulder. You were half naked under him and other than his pants being undone and pushed halfway down his thighs, Seonghwa was still fully dressed.
Seonghwa cupped your jaw, squishing your cheeks slightly. âWhat a dirty fucking mouth you have,â he growled, his hips moving, pulling back and snapping forward, thrusting into you harshly. âOpen your mouth, Kitten,â you parted your lips, obeying him. Seonghwa stilled his hips for just a moment, spitting into your mouth before resuming his punishing pace.
The table creaked under you with each thrust, the sound of his skin hitting yours filling the room with the sounds of his cock plunging in and out of your wet hole. Heat spread from your cheeks to your neck and chest as your orgasm approached rapidly.Â
âAre you gonna cum already, Blossom? Iâve barely even fucked you properly,â he chuckled, his tone mocking instead of sweet which you should have expected. He said he was an unforgiving lover.
You whimpered, hand moving up into his hair and gripping it tightly. âPull my hair again baby and Iâll teach you what happens when you canât behave,â he growled, one hand moving to your throat and pinning you down against the table.Â
âWhat will you do?â you challenged.
Seonghwa narrowed his eyes, hips snapping against you and rocking the whole table. âTurn you over and pin you down, fuck you until you full of nothing but my cum. Would you like that, petal? You want to be fucked full of my cum until it drips down your legs like a dirty little cumslut?â
You moaned, walls fluttering around his cock as your orgasm drew nearer. âOh, that does it for you, does it? Sweet little Y/N, my own little lily, likes being called a cumslut?â Seonghwa teased, making you moan again as his grip on your throat tightened, restricting the flow of your blood but not your oxygen.
âLikes being choked, likes it when I spit into her mouth, likes being fucked like a bitch in heat in the backroom of my flower shop, you really arenât as innocent as you seem,â he muttered, his hips stuttering momentarily.
âAre you like this with all the guys?â he asked, tightening his grip on your throat. You whimpered, thighs trying to close as his free hand moved, thumb brushing over your clit to send you hurtling towards the edge. âDo you let all the guys have you like this?â
You shook your head, gripping his wrist as the corners of your eyes burned with unshed tears. It felt so fucking good but you were teetering on the edge, unable to full cum as his thumb stopped rubbing your clit and he alternated to giving you shallow thrusts that had you standing on the precipice.
âNo!â you gasped. âNo one else,â you added. âOnly you. No one else has ever filled me up. Youâre the first. No one else can. Iâm yours!â Your words had the intended effect of Seonghwa and he resumed ramming into you, resting his forehead against yours as he muttered he was close.
âWhere do you want it?â he asked quickly, hips faltering slightly. âInside me, Seonghwa, please. Cum inside me,â you gasped. Seonghwa growled, letting go of your throat in favor of cradling your head as his thrusts grew more erratic, sloppier, his moans coming out in pitched whines until he gave you one final thrust, tipping you over the edge, your thighs shaking as your walls clenched around his cock. You clawed at his shirt, whimpering as he fucked his cum into you weakly until his hips stilled, face buried in the crook of your neck as you both basked in the aftermath of your highs.
You werenât sure how long it took but as you came down, the realization that you were half naked on Seonghwaâs work table in the backroom of his floral shop dawned on you and you cleared your throat, licking your dry lips, and tried to get his attention.
âSeonghwa,â you whispered, your voice hoarse. He hummed in response, pressing a few short kisses to your neck. âIâm feeling kind of exposed here,â you added.Â
Seonghwa lifted his head and let out a huff of air before pushing himself up. His hair was a mess, lips red and swollen from your kisses, his cheeks were pink from exertion. âShit, let me uhâŠâ he trailed off as he looked around. âStay right there.â
He carefully pulled his cock free, wincing slightly as he tucked himself back in his pants and rushed over to the drawers on the inside wall. He looked through them quickly and returned with a clean cloth and carefully wiped your skin, the insides of your thighs, your sex and the edge of the table under you.
He dashed around, collecting your clothing and shook them before helping you back into your bralette, top and sweater. âWhere are my panties?â you asked, looking around as Seonghwa zipped and buttoned his pants. âOh,â he said softly, reaching into his pocket and pulling your panties out, unwading them and helping you into them.
âJust until we get you home,â he added as he redid his belt and looked up at you. He reached up, brushing your bottom lip. âOr we can go back to mine,â he offered. You smiled as he leaned in, taking your face in his hands and kissing you sweetly, in high contrast from the pounding he just gave you.
âWe can also just go back to mine. Itâs closer, isnât it?â you muttered against his lips, grabbing him by the sweater.Â
Seonghwa smiled into the kiss before pulling back. âIs this your way of getting me into your bed, miss?â he asked softly, thumbs grazing over your cheeks.
âMmm,â you hummed. âMaybe.â
Seonghwa chuckled, kissing your cheeky grin. âDare I say, itâs working,â he commented, giving you another kiss before pulling away, taking your hand and leading you away from the table and towards the door into the shop. You stopped to grab your things and followed Seonghwa to the front door where he helped you with your coat before unlocking the door and opening it.Â
âAfter you, maâam,â he said and you gently pushed his chest.Â
âUgh, donât call me maâam,â you groaned as you stepped out into the night air.
Seonghwa followed behind, shutting the door and locking it. âOh?â he asked, pocketing his keys and leaning in to press a kiss to your cheek and then your lips. âWhat would you like me to call you, then?â he asked, voice muffled by your lips.Â
âI like Blossom,â you said softly after a moment of contemplation.
âOr Petal,â you added. Seonghwa smiled, cupping your cheek and pulling you into yet another kiss.
âBlossom it is,â he replied before pulling away and offering his arm for you to take. You did so and followed his lead. âSo your place?â he asked, looking at you as you walked.Â
You nodded, smiling up at him. âI can get clean underwear,â you said with a nod.
âOr you can just not wear clothes,â Seonghwa said as you walked, making you giggle.
âWell thereâs another reason Iâd like to go back to my place,â you added.
âOh?â Seonghwa asked, looking at you as you pulled him to a stop and leaned in to whisper in his ear.
âI have spreader bars at my place.â
You giggled at the surprised look on his face before letting go of his arm and continuing forward. Seonghwa quickly caught up to you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders.
âSpreader bars? As in multiple?â he hissed. âSeriously? Next youâll tell me you have an assortment of fantasy dildos.â
You giggled again, harder and Seonghwa looked at you incredulously.Â
âGuess Iâm not as innocent as you thought,â you whispered.
âNo,â he replied, a smirk forming on his face. âNo, I guess not.â
You checked the label on the cup and read the name out loud, smiling as the customer came to get their order. The rush had just ended, the last of your customers trickling out of the door or finding empty seats to sit down and do their work or study.
âIâm gonna take my break, Y/N,â Addie said as you wiped down your counter.Â
âOkay,â you called back.Â
âLin can fill in for me.â You smiled as Lin turned to look at you before they looked past you with a look of mild surprise and nodded. You turned around expecting to see a customer but were instead greeted with a singular white lily.
A smile spread across your face as you looked past the petals and saw the face of your boyfriend, the sweet, albeit kinky and sex-crazed, florist who worked across the square. âTo what occasion do I owe this beautiful gift?â you asked, taking the flower from him and bringing it to your face to smell the scent.
âOccasion?â Seonghwa asked, leaning against the counter. âDo I need an occasion to bring my beautiful girlfriend a flower?â he asked, reaching across the counter to gently take your chin in his hand and caress your cheek with his thumb.Â
âGirlfriend?â a voice asked, making you both turn to find Addie looking from the back room in shock.
Seonghwa chuckled softly and looked back at you. âWhat time do you get off?â he asked as you admired the flower.Â
âIn about an hour,â you hummed, looking up at him.Â
âPerfect, cause see I know this really great place. The wine is amazing and the food is to die for,â he mused, taking one of your hands.
âNo flirting with the employees!â Addie said though you could tell by the tone in her voice she wasnât serious.Â
âSo how about it?â Seonghwa asked. âIâll pick you up here when you get off, we can stop by your place and you can change and then weâll go?â
You eyed him suspiciously. âWhere is this place? Is it new?â you asked. Youâd been to most of the restaurants in town and if something new had popped up, you were sure word would have spread. Seonghwa fought the urge to smile, cupping your cheek again.
âYou could say that,â he answered. âIâll see you in an hour,â he added, standing up straight.Â
âWait,â you called, making him stop by the door but also making a few of the patrons look up. Seonghwa calmly walked back over. âWhere is this place?â you asked softly, leaning in, ignoring the looks of both your coworkers and the customers alike.
âYouâll like it,â Seonghwa said playfully. âI know the owner.â
You raised an eyebrow at this. âWhy wonât you just tell me where it is?â
Seonghwa chuckled, leaning across the counter and catching you in a surprise kiss. âItâs my place,â he finally said with a laugh and stood up straight, drumming quickly on the counter before walking towards the door. âOne hour,â he called and stepped out the door, letting it shut behind him.
âSince when are you seeing the florist?â Lin whispered, coming over to get a look at the lily in your hands. âSince last week,â you murmured, remembering the intense sex you had with said florist in his shop and then again the next morning and night at your place.
âYouâre hiding something,â Addie said suddenly, startling you with her close proximity.
âWhat are you hiding?â You shook your head. âNothing,â you said, turning away and looking out the cafe window to the floral shop across the square where Seonghwa was unlocking the door and entering the shop, shutting the door behind him.
âNothing at all.â
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on a night like tonight
wrote this for @thatdammchickennugget's hogmarch challenge using the dialogue prompt!! just a fluffy (debatable) one shot for my favourite slytherin boyđ« đ« đ«
prompt 2: "are you speaking parceltongue or am i really drunk?"
pairing: mattheo riddle x fem!slytherin reader (although its not that important to the one shot, honestly)
warning(s): slightly suggestive (towards the end), alcohol consumption
~â~ i love writing for mattheođ« idk how i feel about this one but i enjoyed writing either way lol. and yes i titled this after a niall song (im still not over the fact that i saw him in the flesh like a whole week ago!??!?!) also happy international women's day to all of you sexy, beautiful women xxxx
The Slytherin common room was ripe with activity. The Quidditch team had beaten Gryffindor by an utter landslide (250-110), so it was only appropriate for them to throw a huge party to celebrate. The team were in the middle of the room, surrounded by their most loyal band of lovestruck followers, as they drowned in all sorts of alcoholic beverages.
Spheres of magical light littered the high ceiling, glittering like stars and creating an eerily green glow as they reflected off of the murky waters of the Black Lake. The seating areas had been cleared, and in place was a makeshift dancefloor of sorts, filled to the brim with students dancing, singing and laughing to whatever music was playing on a stereo that Blaise had brought in from his Ravenclaw friends.
You were stood against a wall beside Pansy, who was busy glaring at the girl who had draped herself against Theo's arm as he laughed heartily at something Enzo had said. Your best friend was seething with jealousy, but she was far too stubborn to do anything about her feelings for your Italian friend.
The two of them had been dancing around their feelings for months; it was downright infuriating.
"I don't understand why you won't do something about it, Pans!" You say to her loudly, so that your voice could be heard over the earshattering bass music. "I'm getting sick of the back and forth between the two of you!"
Pansy finally takes her eyes off of the floppy haired brunette, who is now whispering in the ear of the girl, with a suggestive smirk on his face. "I'd say the same for you." She scoffs and you turn to her with furrowed brows.
"Oh don't act dumb." Pansy says with a laugh as she turns towards you fully, the drink in her hand sloshing over the rim of the cup as she does. "I see the way you look at Matt. You're very obvious. Both of you are."
"I don't know what you're talking about." You say reluctantly, taking a lengthy sip of your firewhiskey to avoid her knowing look.
Had your affections for your friend really been so blatant?
And did he really return them?
You turn towards the middle of the room and the liquid in your cup is suddenly drained to empty as you watch Mattheo dance closely behind a pretty Hufflepuff girl.
You and Pansy return to your mutual solitude, letting your friends revel in their win against their greatest rival, while simultaneously becoming more and more drunk, the more you watch as Theo and Mattheo obliviously break your hearts some more.
~â~
It's much later into the night, and the party has not died down. In fact, it only seems to have gotten busier as more and more people from the other houses joined in on the debauchery.
You are so drunk. Practically stumbling along behind Pansy as she drags you to and from the dance floor to get more drinks. The two of you are dancing on each other, her hips grinding against your's to the beat of the music as you both giggle tipsily. You're unaware of your surroundings and have surely pissed off many other partiers with your drunken moves. But it doesn't bother either of you, content to enjoy each other's company, until there is a presence behind you that has Pansy smirking cheekily at you.
You narrow your eyes at her, vision hazy as you feel hands cradle your waist, almost possessively. Looking up, you come face to face with the underside of Mattheo's sharp jaw as he says something to Pansy that you don't comprehend. Whatever he says has her disappearing into the crowd, leaving you to his mercy.
"Hello, Princess." He mumbles lowly, mouth brushing against the soft shell of your ear, causing a shiver to run down the length of your spine.
"Matty! Hi." You say, voice slightly slurred and you grimace at how drunk you sound. He only smirks before he's gently spinning you to face him.
"Haven't seen you since the start of the match. 'S been ages." He replies, voice raspy from how much he'd shouted and cheered during and after the match.
"It's not been that long." You say with a teasing smile as you take in his appearance. In place of the emerald quidditch robes he'd been sporting that afternoon, he's wearing a dark, black t-shirt which stretches tightly across his torso, emphasising his Beater physique and a pair of dark trousers drapes over strong legs. Your observation is slow and purposeful and the smirk on his face widens even further as you admire him more openly then you ever have before.
He's chuckling to himself and then says something that you can barely hear over the loud music that reverberates through the room. But the cadence of his voice and the way they almost seem to have been hissed out in a way you do not understand, makes you tilt your head to the side as he smiles.
"What did you just say?" You ask him, or rather shout so that he can hear you. He copies you with a tilt of his head as he looks down at you with his captivating onyx eyes.
He repeats it again, his hands tightening against your waist when you stumble slightly as someone jostles you in an attempt to get past, smirking when your face scrunches in confusion.
"Are you speaking parceltongue or am i really drunk?" You ask, your hands coming to rest against his firm chest when you were pushed into him.
"Gods, Princess. How much have you had to drink?" He asks with gleaming eyes. It's the mischief in them that has you opening your mouth in feined outrage.
"You were speaking parceltongue!" You accuse and he lets out a laugh as you lightly whack his chest. "What did you say!?"
"Now why would I tell you that?" He replies, his face leaning closer to your's. You can smell the alcohol on his hot breath, mingling with your own and you can feel every breath he takes as it fans across your face.
"Because I'm your best friend?" You say with a smirk as you unconsciously wrap your arms around his neck, leaning on your tip toes slightly so that you can be at eye level with him. The move has your hips brushing against his. You swear his eyes darken as you do.
"Theo's my best friend." He says in a tone of faux obviousness, mischief laced in his rough voice.
"But I'm your favourite, right? If you admit it, I promise that Teddy will never know. It can be our little secret, Matty." You tease and he's laughing again, before he says something else in that strange, reptilian voice, eyes flicking from you eyes to your lips.
You've always been my favourite, darling.
The ways his eyes sparkle, despite the harshness of the sounds against his tongue have you acting upon instinct as you surge forward and press your lips to his. It's as magical as you've always imagined, despite it being tainted by your twin inebriation. But you'll take what you can get.
Because Mattheo Riddle is finally kissing you and you reckon you could fall into a abyss of happiness as his pillowly lips caress your's with loving grace.
~â~
The next morning, you wake up in an unfamiliar, yet familiar dorm room and Enzo is smirking at you with glee. A tanned, muscular arm is draped across your middle and you're using the other as a makeshift pillow. Your face warms as you recognise the large, veiny hand that stretches across your stomach.
"Fun night?" Your friend asks with a snicker and you flip him off in response. He leaves the room after he's done teasing you, his loud laughter echoing in the corridor. You move to stand but an arm tightens around the skin of your waist.
"Where do you think you're going, Princess?" Mattheo mumbles, his voice low and raspy from sleep.
"Well good morning, sunshine." You reply, a smile spreading across your face as you turn to face him, to find that he is already staring at you, with adoration in his onyx eyes.
"Am I still dreaming, or are you really in my bed right now?" He asks as you trace a finger lightly over his naked chest.
"Oh it's very real. And I'm sure Enzo has already told the others what he just discovered." You reply with a giddy laugh.
"About bloody time, don't you think?" Mattheo's question is muffled against the skin of your neck as he nuzzles his face there. You smile in response, giggling as pieces of his curly hair brush against your soft skin.
"I'd still like to know what you said last night." You say but he doesn't give you the answer. Instead, he rolls the two of you so that you lie beneath his toned body, strong arms caging you in.
"That's my little secret, Princess." He mumbles as he presses languid kisses down your neck and chest, travelling lower until your rendered a moaning mess beneath him.
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illicit affairs â s. reid x reader
in which you want more than spencer reid can give you.Â
pairing: spencer reid x fem!reader genre: angst (18+ for suggestive content) tags: relation(situation)ship. s7 spencer. mentions of past intimacy. unrequited feelings. spencer's not the best person ever. kinda fade to black & unhappy ending (welcome back june parfaitblogs). reader has kinda bad self-worth. word count: 2.5k a/n: soooo fucking cliche man chases the girl after she leaves. im sorry. except im not. so sorry for whatever ooc thing spencer reid does in this. except it isnt ooc. tell me he didnt have a whore phase in s7. u cant. im sorry this is soooo dialogue heavy LOL.
Fractured shards of your soul scatter this apartment.Â
This Godforsaken green-walled, quaint apartment, that you had spent so much of your time in. Nights, not days, because his days were spent yearning for an engaged woman. His nights, however, were reserved for you. Most of them, at least. Some of them. A few of them. Not many of them at all, actually.
It was a little embarrassing; how much of yourself you were willing to disrespect for some attention from a man who probably didn't think much about you outside of your presence inside his walls. But then he would touch you, and he would kiss you, and all self-deprecation will go out the window. For he is so gentle, and he knows every single crevice and button to press on your body like he speaks its language.Â
Embarrassing.
It started innocently. A night spent with him after you had been broken up with, resulting in one awful decision that led to the other. Crying in his arms, to kissing him, to having sex, which he was rebutting all up until it actually happened. Rambling about transference while still leaving open-mouthed kisses down your neck, shaking his head because you two should not be doing this.Â
A week later you went back to him. You were sad, in your defence, and Spencer Reid was your friend first. He was good at distracting you, you learned. You would cry, and thus, he would make you come to forget about it. Like clockwork.Â
At some point it changed from a coping mechanism, to an emotional necessity. You stopped thinking about your broken heart, and instead about how good Spencer was to you. Which might've been your biggest mistake.
You were not to him what he was to you anymore.Â
And maybe he knew that. A laughable idea, because Spencer Reid, who could be slapped in the face with a poster that said I am in love with you in big bold letters, would still be oblivious to it all. But maybe he knew.
You had to ask this time to come over. Maybe pathetic, how much of your self-worth you relied on whether or not a man you weren't even dating wanted to see you. How much of your world had crumbled around you because it had been two weeks and he hadn't spoken to you outside of discussing a case.Â
It was definitely pathetic how small you felt as you sat in the corner of his couch, a glass of water you didn't really want to drink encased in your palms, condensation seeping into your skin. In your defence, it didn't usually go like this. Usually, it took you all of three seconds to get insidehis apartment before he started kissing you. Why wasn't he kissing you?
You could hear the faint sound of shuffling behind you, glasses clinking together and ceramics settling on the marble countertop. The only other indicator Spencer was even there was his irregular breathing. Irregular from what, you didn't know.Â
Another beat of silence passed, and with it, your patience. You set the glass down on the coffee table â something he wouldâve scolded you over if not for the thick layer of tension between you two.
"Did you not want me to come over?" You regret the words the second they're out of your mouth, and they uncomfortably pierce the air, only to be followed by another thick blanket of fucking silence. You had already said it â you might as well commit. "Spencer?"Â
You lifted your gaze from its fixated position on your lap to find him standing still in the kitchen, a bowl in his hands, still damp from its time in the dishwasher.Â
"You know you're always welcome here," he replied when you had locked gazes.Â
"That's not what I asked," you said, readjusting your body, chest pressed up against the back of the couch, chin resting atop its ledge. You watched as he dried the bowl and put it away, his shoulders deflating, before he turned back to face you.Â
"I do want you here," he said, but even with the finality in his voice, you were sceptical.Â
"Are you sure?" you despised the insecurity that seeped into your tone.
He stilled again, and even with the distance between you two, you could see gears turning behind his eyes, coming up with a response that wouldn't break your heart, probably. Because he knew.
He could lie. Say that yes, he is sure, and he does want you in his apartment right now, and he wasn't simply entertaining your own desires. Desires that he seemingly had grown tired of. But you would figure him out immediately, and maybe he knew that as well. Stupidly smart Spencer Reid thinking ahead, frustratingly so.Â
Instead, he said your name, in an awfully cautious tone. Maybe lying would've hurt less. He took a step around the kitchen counter, ever so slowly closing the distance between you two.Â
"It's okay if you don't want me here," you tell him, forcing a reassuring smile and stopping him in his tracks. "You're not forced to amuse me."
"Do you think that's what I'm doing?"
"Yes. You've hardly said a word to me, and I've been here twenty minutes," you rebutted.Â
"I told you on the phone that I had some maintenance chores to do."Â Okay, true. "Once they're done, I'm all yours."
You shouldn't say anything. You knew that. The words on the tip of your tongue would cause an argument, and he had just technically promised to do what you both knew you had come to do, and after two weeks of hearing nothing, any attention from him was good attention. You shouldn't.
But you did. "Are you really?"
His eyes closed and a harsher breath of air expelled through his nose, his hands flexing by his side as he took a moment to respond. "What does that mean?"
"Are you really all mine?" you cringed even as you asked the question. And, you already knew the answer.Â
"What do you want my answer to be?"
You could scream. "That isn't fair, Spencer."
"Do you want it to be yes?"
You didn't want to answer that honestly, too afraid of the rejection that was sure to follow. "Does it matter?"
"Yes, this is a relationship, and relationships need communicationâ"
"âAÂ relationship?" you repeated back to him, incredulously. "You think this is a relationship?"Â
Fingers dug into his eyes, and his shoulders sagged further. "What is it, then?"
"Convenient." The word stung even you, despite being the one to have said it.Â
Or maybe it didn't hurt him. For he responded, in an achingly calm tone, "Explain that to me."
"Don't use profiling techniques on me," you countered, and he watched as your walls shot up around you.Â
"Asking you to explain something to me isn't a profiling technique," he said, taking another step towards your residence on the couch.
"No, but the tone of voice you're using is."
"Would you rather I yell at you?"
"NoâSpencer," you stammered so frustratingly in an attempt to come up with a response, emotions taking authority of your brain functions. "I come here when I'm sad, we fuck, I go home. That's all this is. That isn't a relationship."
"I could argue what a relationship legitimately is."
"Please don't."
"Okay," he agreed with a short nod. "Do you want more out of this arrangement, then?"
"Can you give me more if I do?"
His silence was answer enough, and so slowly but surely, you were untangling your limbs from themselves on the couch, and planting your feet on the floor.
"Where are you going?" he asked as you stood up.
"Home," you replied, curtly, and he watched in a still silence as you left.Â
The slam of his apartment door was loud, and it echoed throughout the hall. Feet pattered against the stairs as you descended them, quickly, because your tears were forming fast and you were attempting to beat exposure to the outside world before they started to fall down your face.Â
But the universe had other plans for you, and your named reverberated throughout the final staircase you had to descend. Your lips pulled into a line in an attempt to neutralise your expression, and you turned at the base of the stairs.
"You want more with me," he said, admittedly a little breathless from chasing you the way he did.Â
"Glad you could deduce that one, Doctor."
A frustrated huff left his lips. "Stop shutting me out."
"I'm not doing this here," you replied, taking another step back â that he matched, stepping down a step. "Spencer."
"No, we are. If you are going to walk out of my apartment, then we're having this conversation here."
"I don't even want to have this conversation," you argued.Â
"Yes you do."
"You don't know me."
"Yes I do." When you opened your mouth to argue again, he was quick to cut you off. "You want more with me, but you're too scared of me rejecting you, so you're brushing it off as something unimportant, in hopes that I'll forget about it so things can go back to what they were before."
"God forbid."
His lips pursed. "Can you be an adult about this?"Â
Your heart stuttered uncomfortably in your chest, and he stared expectingly at you for minutes. Minutes that you let pass, your breaths shallow as you stared up at him, boring holes into his own eyes. Then, "Are you going to reject me?"Â
"Yes, butâ"
Oh.
Somewhere your name was said once, then twice, but it all sounded far too distant, submerged underwater, maybe. Your brain muddling with every single thought it had ever conjured up in all your years of living, to the point where you couldn't even figure out if the tears burning your eyes were actually there, communications in your brain on lockdown.Â
You were detached from your own body as a hand was placed on your shoulder, your eyes flickering over to Spencer's face, which was an alarming amount closer than before. It was his hand, you figured, which meant he was watching you have this breakdown, and suddenly the thought of being like this in front of him was far worse than anything he could've said to you.Â
"Okay," you said, almost breathlessly, stumbling back a few steps, nodding your head, and blinking away the tears all at once. "Which is fine, by the way. Because this isn't a relationship. And we agreed on casual sex, so really, you're not doing anything surprising, and I should've expected this. Yeah."
"Can you please look at me?" You hadn't even realised your gaze was flitting around the place until he said it, and you forced your eyes to rest on his face again. "Yeah, there you go. Hi. Deep breath."
You took in the gulp of air, despite it still being shallow from your onslaught of emotions, matching your rhythm with his own. He repeated the act a few more times, until you had settled into less violent gasps, and he was sure you were grounded with him again.Â
"You back with me?" he asked just in case, his voice horrifically gentle, and you wordlessly nodded your head. "Can we talk about this, now?"
"In your stairwell?"
"I don't think you want to walk all the way up to my apartment again," he said, and he was correct; you didn't. "I would reject you. That's true."
"Which you're allowed to do," you answered, quietly.Â
"I am," he agreed with a nod. "If that isn't okay with you, then tell me. We can call this off right now."
"And what?" you asked, ugly emotions clawing their way up your throat again. "Go back to how things were before?"
"Well, yesâ"
"âNo, Spencer!" you snapped, and he seemingly hadn't expected it. At all. "I can't go back to normal with you, not after this. Sex is fucking intimate, and it is scary, and you have seen me at my absolute worst and still slept with me these last few months. You have seen parts of me I refuse to share with anyone, because I trusted you."
"I didn't force you to do that," he countered. "You showed me every single side of you on your own accord. So do not paint me to be a villain."
"I'm not trying to," your voice was desperate, and if you weren't so busy using your hands to talk animatedly, you might be tearing out your hair by now. "I justâI don't get it. How was it so casual for you? How can you go back to what we had before all of this like it's nothing?"Â
"All of this was never anything serious. We agreed on that."
"No. No, don't explain what this was to me. I know what it was. Answer the question."
How was he so calm? His eyes searching your own now tear-filled ones, but the crease in his brows was the only indicator of any emotion, for his body was alarmingly relaxed.Â
He exhaled, "I don't know what to tell you. What do you want to hear?"
"The truth."
"I don't have feelings for you," he said, voice so curt you wondered if it was the way he said it, or what he said, that shattered your barely mended heart. Again.Â
"Which is fine," you repeated the phrase, because maybe if you said it enough, you'll start to believe it.Â
"So, do you want to call this off?"Â
"We should."
He only nodded in agreement; a violent reminder that you weren't imagining the things he was saying to you. This wasn't a bad dream, and he was actually telling you the relationship you had built up in your head wasn't real.Â
"I don't want to," you murmured, voice pathetically small, shrinking in your shoes beneath him. "I really like you, Spencer."
"Which is why we should call this off," he reasoned, and you wanted to scream.
"Are you going to be even a little sad if we do?" He parted his lips, and a beat of silence passed. And then you were stepping back, puffing out a strained breath of air, nodding your head in understanding. "I should go."
"You won't talk to me if we call it off," he said before you could get too far from him. When you turned to look at him again, he added, "Will you?"
"No."
"Then yes. I'll be sad."
"Because I won't talk to you?"
"Yes."
You stared at him for a beat longer. "Not because you won't have a fuck buddy anymore?"
"You were never just a fuck buddy," he said, exasperated, the phrase sounding foreign on his tongue. Sorry for exasperating you.
"No. But I'm not enough to like, right?"Â
He said your name, and stepped off the staircase he had been residing on, lowering the height difference between you two. "You are enough to like."
"Not to you!" "I am not the only man in the world."
The bottomless pit in your stomach grew larger, only because to you he was. To you, he was everything. And you felt things far too big, and the realisation that he had never and will never see you that way was a world-shattering discovery.Â
You sighed, lowering your gaze to the floor. "We never should have started this."
"I agree."Â
"I'm gonna go."
He opened his mouth, then closed it, seemingly deciding against arguing with you any more. He merely nodded his head, and forced a smile. "Yeah."
"Bye, Spencer."
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this is a personal vent post so please let me just get it all out without trying to come at me lol:
so many ppl saying they respect larian's decision to peace out and not deal with hasbro/wotc, but i have to be honest, i don't respect them at all.
they are leaving a game behind that is unfinished and a narrative mess.
they leave a game behind where everyone paid the same amount of money for it, yet depending on which character you prefer, you get less content.
the disparity between everyone else and their writer's pet ast*rion is insane. he has a half to a third more content depending on which character you compare him to.
they leave behind a sparse act 2, which is already so barren compared to act 1 and all it had to offer. act 3 is a narrative mess and lacks structure.
they leave a game behind where they made promises a handful of weeks before release where they ought to have known that they, in fact, will not be delivering said promises: access to the upper city, consequences for playing certain races across the acts (playing a drow is going to be different in act 1 and gives you advantages vs act 3 where it would give you understandable disadvantages), etc etc etc.
they leave behind a game where content was cut from the companions to make it seem like the origins have something to offer when that system is barely able to compare what origin playthroughs offered in dos2 and it hurts the game and the experience (like tara being cut for companion gale).
they leave behind a game where they promised to much variety and proclaimed in panels from hell how they struggled to show the width and depth of the game, but really? it's about as deep as a puddle. a lot of the choices do not matter. kill ethel? nah, she's alive and well in the city. no sister hags to be angry here. give karlach no infernal iron and never talk to her at all? doesn't matter, she'll survive until the end of act 3 and will still call you her bff. dissuade gale to use the orb? we'll make sure he'll still offer 3 more times just in case. send yenna away from camp bc you don't want her there? doesn't matter, she'll stay. and yes, i'm aware these are all small things, but they are part of a larger problem. almost nothing you do truly matters to the point of where i just skip most things in act 1 and 2 now.
they leave behind a game that they promise to still patch, but some things have been broken since early access / release to the point of where i'm like i'm sorry, but your word that you will continue to patch things means about as much to me as all the other empty promises. the dialogue about morena dekarios is still broken and it's been over half a year now. the astral sea scene has low-res body textures for months. i know from mutuals who love minthara that her romance is still broken. and i could go on and on.
and what gets me the most about this is all is that they have learned nothing at all from dos2: act 3 of that game was so bugged and all over the place that i couldn't muster up the motivation to finish it the first time i played. they neglected a character to the point of where he could have been removed from the game or made a general hireling (beast).
those issues were at least attempted to be fixed in the definitive edition.
with swen saying that there will be no new content anymore and stating that both bg3 and its characters are now property of wotc/hasbro, it seems unlikely we'll even get an attempt of a fix.
so what this boils down to to me is just another game company not delivering on their promises after overselling their product and more or less abandoning it after a year to move onto the next big thing.
i don't think i can respect that ngl.
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