#it's so perverse to meet new people and be like you seem great but i'm not interested in forcing it
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it's SO much to know people who genuinely love and understand you and find you delightful and for whom you feel all of that back like okay i guess i'm just ruined for other connections! thanks!
#it's so perverse to meet new people and be like you seem great but i'm not interested in forcing it#like i know i'm spoiled but it just makes me feel weirdly like a jackass to not be desperate for the#love and approval of every single person i meet ever#i know it's a sign of greater security and self-worth or whatever but i'm just like oh you think you're too good for this?????#like girly what the fuck why is my instinct to judge myself for making progress#i feel like i'm explaining this badly but it's just been so weird to realize i'm not desperate to be loved anymore#personal nonsense
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Boss’s Orders
Last night Bea had met a pretty girl named Corina at the bar who had said she was very interested in hypnosis. They went to Corina’s home and had a great night, both hypnotizing each other and taking turns doing the most sexually perverse things to the other when they were hypnotized. After their combined 9th orgasm, Corina passed out. Bea snuggled up next to her, falling asleep next to her.
When Bea awoke, Corina had already left her bed, only a note left behind. It read: ‘Hey sexy. I have a meeting and then I want round two. There's a bagel for you in the kitchen, stick around while I'm in my meeting.’ Bea threw on an oversized t-shirt from her hookup’s closet along with her shorts that she wore to the bar and went down for her bagel.
After her little meal (that made her feel fantastic), she figured Corina would only have a little more time before the meeting was over. She creaked open the door and peeked into Corina’s meeting. She seemed to be with about 10 other people, so Bea didn’t want to disturb her…
But…
…She could help her get through the meeting a little quicker. Bea opened the door and walked quietly until she was almost close enough to the screen where she could be seen. Then she got on the floor and started crawling toward the desk, when she noticed Corina dart her eyes toward and away from her screen and then right back. Bea made her way under the desk and settled between her hookup’s legs.
Bea stared at her prey with lustful eyes, and Corina had no ability to stop her. She went under her skirt, moved her panties to the side, and started teasing the already-moist slit in front of her. Looking up, she saw Corina biting her lip, still trying to focus on her meeting. As soon as a couple fingers slipped into the hole, the girl above started to lose her cool and muffle her strong moans.
Bea was enjoying the final minutes of Corina's meeting, watching the cute girl be unable to control herself on camera. Corina said to her microphone “Thank you guys, great meeting. Mister Johnson, I’ll be back in about 5 minutes for our one on one.” A few seconds passed and she took off her headphones, grabbed a handful of Bea’s hair, and forced her feelings into the pussy in front of her.
“Damn Bea, you’re a naughty slut. I think you should face a little punishment”
Bea pulled her face from the dripping slit that was her world a moment ago. “Oh yeah, how do you think I should be punished, Cor?”
Corina just smirked. “Like this. To Bea or not to Bea!” She snapped in Bea’s ear and watched the sexy young girl’s eyes go glassy and her mouth hang open.
“Just eat me out again I was so close baby. I just have to talk to my boss for a second and then we can fool around in the bedroom.” Corina addressed the dumbfounded girl who was now drooling all over her right thigh, who responded with a “Yes Mommy” and got right to work.
Bea didn’t have much going on in her head besides obeying, but was hypnotized to be the best slave she could be. Even though she had no ability to stop licking, she listened to her Mommy’s meeting to see if she was doing a good job.
“Hi Mr. Johnson… Yes I thought the meeting today went well… Yes sir My project with Merrill and Ly…”
“Yes Master, I’m your hypnotized Slave…”
“Yes Master, the girl I was with last night is here…”
“Yes Master, she is with me and in trance now...”
“Yes Master, I will unplug my headphones…”
Bea heard this and was a bit confused, but was completely unable to react to what was occurring. Then, she heard a new voice coming through the monitor.
“Get the girl on screen, now slut.”
“Bea, come up here” Corina’s robotic voice echoed, and she couldn’t stop her body from standing up next to her.
“Drop her deeper, slave”
“Drop, Bea.”
“Drop, Bea.”
“Drop, Bea.”
“Drop, Bea”
“And now, tell your girl who her new Master is, dumb slut.”
“Bea, I no longer control you. Treat Mr. Johnson as your Master. He completely controls you. You’re his slave”
“Yes, Master controls me. I’m his slave.” Bea’s hypnotized mind was being completely rewritten under the control of her new Master, a drastic change in the last 24 hours.
“Very good girls. Now, I’ll tell you where you’re both going to go for the rest of your ‘work days’”
The two girls stared blankly at the screen in front of them and, in unison, replied “Yes Master.”
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story written by me, with credit to @laurentidal <3
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|You will always be mine ~ Lee Minho series|
PART 12
Paring: Minho x Y/N
Genre: smut, angst, university au
Word count: 3302
Warnings: sex, 18+, Minho is a psycho, dom!Minho, sub!reader, abuse, slight BDSM, kidnapping, violence, age gap, Minho is an university professor, Y/N can be hurt physically (and mentally too I guess).
Synopsis: Who knew that accidental fuck in the club bathroom with a handsome man will bring you to a lot of unexpected events.
Author's note: I kept this series for a really long time not sure if I want to post it or not, but I decided to do it anyway, so I hope you'll like it.
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Several days have passed since the Minho incident. You have almost forgotten about his behavior, or at least pushed thoughts about it to the farthest corner of your mind. After a week's absence, you returned to the university, and your life seemed to go on.
Admittedly, you were still dating Lee Minho, a lecturer who had “returned” to being THE Minho you had met in the beginning. You felt somewhat happy, but at the same time internally you felt fear. You feared that if you once again defied the man, you might face punishment. You didn't want to make him angry, because you knew what this could entail. Therefore, you did everything he told you to do - and his requests got weirder and weirder each time.
“...I think it's high time I met your parents Y/N...” The man spoke up, breaking the silence in the car. You looked at him puzzled.
“'Why? My parents are busy, Minho.”
“Don't you think that as your boyfriend I should get to know them? Besides... You know, we could then test your stamina with the new toy I bought you.” He smiled in a perverse way.
“You've got to be kidding me!” You exclaimed in surprise. “There's no option Minho, I'm not going to agree to something like that. You're crossing the line.”
“Don't exaggerate Y/N... just kidding.” He muttered, but was inconsolable. “But your parents I would actually like to meet.”
“What is the point? My parents won't accept that I'm with a guy who's fifteen years older than me anyway.”
“You don't want me to meet them because you're ashamed, right?” He started with a pouty face.
“What? No Minho, I'm not ashamed of you.” You denied.
“Great, then invite them to dinner on the weekend.” He suggested, smiling at you.
“No... I won't invite them.”
“No? What did I tell you about disobedience?” He glanced at you, clearly displeased.
“Minho, it's non-negotiable, I apologize to you, but this time I'm not going to comply with your request.” You said with seriousness.
“We will return to this conversation.” The man replied coolly. There was silence in the car. Why did he want to meet your parents? Wasn't what was between the two of you enough for him? Your parents, although they approved of your every choice, would not have been happy with their child dating a man fifteen years older than her. And you knew it perfectly well.
Minho stopped the car in the parking lot in front of his apartment. Since the last time you overheard his conversation, he demanded that you move in with him permanently. You had no choice but to agree to move. You were afraid that if you didn't agree to the man's terms, he would treat you the same way he treated Rheena and Lisa. After the last situation, you were sure that he was behind their deaths.
You began to form a “formal” relationship. You went on dates to the movies, restaurants, the park. Of course, you were careful, you didn't want anyone to notice you, because it could end unpleasantly, first of all for this person.
And you knew it. That's why you started to be even more careful. You moved a little away from your friends. You only saw Jeno at the university, as well as Jungwoo. Your other friends started going out without you. You watched on social media how people around you, your age, were having a great time without you. How they go to parties and spend their time the way you should spend it too - having fun.
More than once you have wondered about the life you have begun to lead. Why did you let yourself get sucked into this “sick” arrangement with a lecturer and let the best years of your youth slip away? You became addicted to a man you weren't even sure you loved. But he was already sure - he loved you. You knew you couldn't walk away from him like that, especially after his confession. That's why you continued to play the game, to pull what was between you.
“Hello, Earth to Y/N!” Minho waved his hand in front of your eyes. “Everything ok?”
“Hm? Yes, yes... I was just thinking.” You replied after a while, sending him a gentle smile. “Did you say something?”
“Yes Y/N, I was... I asked if you were hungry, I will be making dinner.”
“Dinner? I'd love to eat something... what are you going to prepare?”
“I'm going to make chicken.” He winked at you. “I know you love it.”
“Okay, I'll get my stuff together...” You replied and went to the living room, where your notes and laptop were waiting for you.
The midterm was approaching. You spent more and more time studying. You neglected Minho in the process, but this is, after all, normal and the man was aware of this, right? In the end, he let you study as much as you needed, even though he knew that you would get only A's in his subject anyway. You didn't even have to try too hard. You might as well not even have come in for a final exam.
While making dinner in the kitchen, he watched you carefully. Every move you made made him smile. He saw you bending over the task, wrinkling your nose gently, trying to understand what it was about. To Minho, you looked adorable. He loved to watch you. It was a form of entertainment for him, and he appreciated every such moment.
The apartment was relatively quiet. You were engrossed in your notes and repetitions, and Minho was making dinner. Would your lives always be like this again? Neither of you could answer that question. The man began to imagine your life together in the future, when suddenly his phone rang. He answered immediately.
“Hi Han, what's up?...Mhm, well...I'll drop by in about an hour. No, I can't go any faster. OK, I'll try.”
The man hung up. You looked at him with a questioning gaze. You were curious what it was about.
“Han called.” He informed you. “He asked me to go and help him with something... Can you manage on your own in my absence?”
“Will you be gone for a long time? Friday is today and there may be traffic jams...”
“Don't worry, kitten. I don't know how long it will take me to help Han, but I'm sure you'll be asleep when I get back.” He said and walked over to you. “I'll be back soon.” He placed a kiss on your forehead and went to change his clothes, then left the apartment.
You sighed quietly. Minho left more and more often as Han called him. You hadn't met his friend yet, but you knew that this whole Han thing was just as weird as your lecturer. You just hoped they didn't kill anyone else. The realization that another woman might have lost her life, in a very immoral way, just because she ran into Minho, did not give you peace of mind.
You took several deep breaths. You couldn't concentrate on your notes anymore. Moreover, you were terribly bored, and you knew that waiting for Minho didn't make any sense at all. You knew the man wouldn't be back before five in the morning. His outings with Han always took that long. You glanced at your phone. Your friends were once again having a great time at the club. You decided it was high time to finally go out to people. So you texted Jeno.
[You]
Hi Jeno! Where are you guys? Can I join you?
You didn't expect the boy to text you back. After all, you haven't spoken to each other much lately. You felt that Jeno might continue to be offended at you, but he texted back nonetheless. You smiled broadly at the phone.
THE MANIAC Club. I will be waiting for you in front of the entrance, you have 30 min.
You smiled broadly. It had been a long time since you had been to a club, and THE MANIAC was your favorite place. You were glad that Jeno hadn't cancelled your relationship yet and you could join him and his cousin.
You showered and put on makeup at an express pace. You felt exquisite, getting ready for the party. You left your hair loose and slipped a short blue strapless dress over your body. On your feet you put silver stiletto sandals. You accessorized with a silver handbag, into which you packed your phone and keys, and left Minho's apartment.
You were in the mood for the party. All the way to the club you were smiling broadly. You missed the dancing and the craziness, but you also missed your friends, and you knew that such an outing would do you good. You couldn't wait for the madness on the dance floor. It had been so long since you had been to a party....
“Y/N!” You heard your friend's familiar voice when you appeared in front of the club. Jeno immediately greeted you with a smile and hugged you. “It's been so long since we had fun together... What happened?”
“Nothing happened Jeno... I just didn't have time...” You returned the hug.
“You didn't have time, or did the professor not allow you?” The boy asked with a wince, but inwardly he was very worried.
“What, no, no... I was really busy.” You got a little mixed up. “ Anyway, it doesn't matter now, let's go inside, I want to dance!”
“Sure... But if something happens, speak up... Ladies ahead, Woo is probably already at the bar.”
You entered the club, and immediately smelled the distinctive aroma that wafted through THE MANIAC - cinnamon and vanilla. You smiled broadly, you loved the place. For the first time in a long time you were happy.
You started to party. Jeno was watching over you, while you seemed to release all the brakes. You let yourself be carried away by the fun, the music, the dancing and the drinks that the bartender and Woo's new boyfriend Lucas prepared for you every now and then.
You lost track of the time. The party with the guys lasted until the early hours of the morning. You had fun until the very end. You didn't care about the hour, as well as the fact that your boyfriend, Lee Minho, left you a mass of missed calls and messages. In a craze of fun, you completely forgot about the whole world and all the problems that had surrounded you up to that point.
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While you were partying at the club Minho quickly dealt with the task Han had assigned him and returned home. When he did not find you in the apartment, panic began to overtake him. He checked every room in the apartment, even the smallest, but you were nowhere to be found. He decided to call you, but as luck would have it, you probably had your phone turned off. Panic began to grow in him more and more. Had you left him? Did you decide to run away from him? Fears began to overwhelm him, he could not let you leave him. He knew he would do anything for you.
He quickly remembered the tracking app he had installed for you some time ago. You didn't even know about it because the app was very well hidden on your phone. He quickly checked your location on his device. Gotcha, kitten, He thought.
Now that he knew you were at the club and had broken his ban he was overwhelmed with anger. He didn't like the fact that HIS girlfriend was partying in the company of other men. Of course, he was aware that you could break the ban. Ha! He even deep down desired it. He wanted you to show disobedience so that he could punish you. He loved to punish you... And he did it more and more often.
But now, the realization that you did not comply with his requests was unbearable. In quick succession, he found himself in his car and headed out in front of the club. He didn't have a long way to go, especially by car. He parked the car on the opposite street and watched the entrance to the club. He noticed you walking out smiling inside accompanied by your friend, Jeno.
Minho was overcome with jealousy. From the very beginning, he had not tolerated Jeno. He felt some competition in him, even though he knew that you were not interested in him. Or at least you hid it very well. However, he decided not to act too hastily. I'll give her time, I’ll let her play... As he thought, so he did. He waited outside the club until you left. He didn't expect you to spend so much time there. Once again you surprised him.
He smiled slightly to himself, all the while watching the exit. The party had already ended, and drunk people began to roll out of the club. Some were still in a club mood, while others seemed fed up with all the hustle and bustle.
Minho watched closely. Finally, he spotted YOU. You were dressed in a blue strapless dress that, in Minho's eyes, was far too short and too defiant. Your stilettos dangled from your hand - they must have hurt your feet a lot. Minho wasn't even surprised.
He knew you liked to party, and your moves on the dance floor could be envied by many dancers. Your hair was gently tousled, and a wide smile was painted on your lips, highlighted with red lipstick, showing rows of white teeth. At the same time, the whole posture of your body indicated that you must have drunk a considerable amount of alcohol. He didn't like it.
He sighed heavily. Even though he was angry at you, he had to admit that you looked very happy. Your whole appearance, the way you presented yourself, excited him to the limit. Oh kitten, what are you doing to me, He thought, for a moment imagining you writhing with pleasure under him, only to deny you an orgasm a moment later.
But life is not about imagination. He knew that if he allowed you to go with Jeno now, which you were obviously counting on, he could lose you. He got out of the car and walked through the deserted street. He stopped a few meters behind you. You burst out laughing. Jeno apparently cracked a joke.
Minho quickly looked at the boy before he spoke. Jeno definitely didn't have as much alcohol in him as you did. And he definitely didn't look at you JUST as a friend. And Minho didn't like that very much.
"Ahem!" He cleared his throat, drawing your and the boy's attention to himself.
"Minho!" You exclaimed with a smile and threw yourself around his neck. You hung on him, and the strong smell of alcohol could be felt from your lips. "What are you doing here?"
"I came for you, kitten. And what are you doing here?" The man spoke, pushing you away slightly. Minho hated the smell of alcohol.
"I'm having fun!" You smiled. You looked quite cute and innocent when you were drunk. "Do you want to join?"
"I guess I'll say no." He spoke to you and glanced at Jeno, who was watching you closely. "Come on Y/N, time to go home."
"What? But I don't want to!" You stamped your foot and made a dissatisfied face. "I want to go dancing!"
“The party's over long ago, and so is my patience, kitten... You broke our agreement, you know how this ends.”
“B-but…” Your mood changed a hundred and eighty degrees. “I don't want a punishment…” You looked at him with a pouty face.
“I don't give a damn what you want.” Minho growled, a bit harsher than he planned. He shouldn't be taking it out on you when you're drunk. It didn't make any sense, and he knew it perfectly well. You wouldn't understand anyway until you were fully sober.
“Wait, what punishment?” Jeno butted in, clearly concerned about your entire exchange.
“He'll punish me for disobedience.” You complained, moving closer to Jeno. “Jeno… I don't want punishment.” You groaned. The boy clenched his jaw and looked at Minho with a menacing expression on his face.
“What kind of punishment is she talking about? What do you want to do to her?” He began to ask, clearly nervous.
“None of your business, brat.” Minho growled. “Y/N, come on, let's go home.”
“No, she's not going anywhere with you.” Jeno hissed, hiding you behind his back. “I have no idea what you want to do to her, psycho, but I won't let you.”
“I won't do anything to her, she's drunk and probably made something up.” Minho tried to brush him off.
“Why don't I believe you? If Y/N says she doesn't want something and is clearly afraid of you, then that's how it has to be.” Jeno didn't give up.
“You don't know anything. Stop interfering!” Minho started to raise his voice, clearly irritated.
“I know enough!” Jeno raised his voice as well.
“Y/N we’re going home.” Minho walked up to you and grabbed your wrist tightly, too tightly, pulling you along. You winced a bit. Minho’s grip was really strong. Seeing your reaction, Jeno didn’t think twice and threw himself at Minho with his fists.
The men started to fight. Their fight didn’t last long, because the club’s security guards, seeing the whole situation, stepped in to separate them. Minho had a cut lip and would definitely have bruises on his stomach, where he got hit the hardest.
Jeno, on the other hand, didn’t come out of the fight in any better shape. His right eye was already starting to swell, and his ribs on the left side were throbbing. He knew that when he woke up the next day, he wouldn’t be in the best shape.
The men looked at each other with hostility. You, on the other hand, stood to the side, watching the whole thing. You were scared, but you knew that if you didn't want their conflict to end in a fight again, you had to agree to go back to the apartment with Minho. You sighed quietly. The whole situation had practically sobered you up on the spot.
"Minho..." You spoke quietly. "Let's go home, please."
“Wise decision, kitten.” Minho praised you and offered you his hand. Hesitantly, slightly reluctantly, you took it and walked with him to the car. You turned back to Jeno with an apologetic expression on your face.
You got into the car and drove away with your boyfriend a moment later. You felt bad. You knew that the fight between Jeno and Minho had happened because of you. You felt stupid. You felt that in a way you had let your friend down. You just didn't know if the boy would ever be able to forgive you. You didn't look at Minho the whole way, nor did you say a word. You knew that now you were safe, but the next day wouldn't be pleasant.
Jeno, on the other hand, watched after the fight, shocked, as you decided to leave with Minho, whom you were clearly afraid of. He knew that you didn't feel safe in the company of a man, but he was aware that you wouldn't tell him the truth. He was worried about you. He wanted to help you at all costs. He made it his goal to do everything to make you feel safe. And that meant that he had to defeat Lee Minho in some way. He just didn't know how yet.
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I'm a 24 y/o who has loved ST since I was 13 & recently got a new boss: a man in his 60s who has loved ST his whole life. I made the mistake of assuming our shared love would mean he might share my opinions on social issues. After all, isn't ST about progress and tolerance? Unfortunately he recently praised a lot of behaviors from certain politicians that I find abhorrent and cruel, and I'm so disappointed. How do you deal w/ people who are huge ST fans but seem to miss that central point? 💔
Thank you for your ask, dear heart. I love getting all these thought-provoking questions! And yours made me really reflect.
Over the years I’ve come to believe that those who are passionate fans of something – and here let’s use Star Trek for an example – draw their passion from the feeling that it reflects back to them some truest part of themselves. Gives it shape and lets you imagine the possibilities. What it would feel like to be part of that world that in many ways you’d prefer to the one in which you actually live.
So if you believe in and yearn for social justice, Star Trek’s message of optimism for our future is what you love about Star Trek. If you believe - or wish to believe - that two souls can be so perfect for each other as Kirk and Spock are, and you yearn to experience that soul-shaking connection with someone yourself, then the K/S love story draws you to Star Trek. (It can be both these things at once, of course!)
But that also means, unfortunately, that those who want to see themselves as some hero playboy whom men envy and women swoon for, with an Orion dancing girl just waiting to drop her panties for you on every planet – then that’s what you project onto Jim Kirk and he becomes your wish-fulfillment fantasy.
If you are a homophobe or xenophobe or racist or misogynist or all around jerk in some way or other, you too can watch Star Trek and project your belief system into what you see reflected back at you.
The “fans” like your boss have always been around, sadly. And while it hurts me to see something I love so much twisted into something nefarious – it feels like a perversion of something sacred! – I’ve come to accept that I’m not going to change anyone’s mind about what they see when they watch it. Because what they are seeing is a reflection of themselves. And to ask them to see it differently would take more than logic – it would take that person changing their core beliefs and values.
For that reason, I have stopped arguing with the people who love Star Trek for reasons that I abhor. I concentrate on what I love, what I believe in, and I take joy and strength from sharing that love with others who see the good that I see. When I meet someone like your boss, I avoid the topic of Star Trek altogether, because I’m not willing to let them steal my emotional energy or my time.
Thanks again for your great question! Love and LLAP, Grandma
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