#it's not suicidal ideation if I don't want to die but i don't want to exist right

[brinnanza]

"oh they both support genocide I'm not voting idc what happens to my rights" cool but it's not just your rights it's my fucking life. it's the lives of every disabled person, every queer person, every person of color, every poor person, every jew, every muslim, every single person who does not fit the white nationalist capitalist ideal. trying to survive as a disabled trans person is hard enough and I'm white!!! there are axies of oppression that do not apply to me and let me tell you I only barely survived the first trump term. I'd probably survive a second one, but a lot of people won't. A lot of people didn't survive the first one.

I don't know how to tell you that you should care about other people

[galaxywhump]

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[cartoonghosts]

genuinely people need to tag triggers. Love all the 'not my responsibility to tag stuff the way you want it' shit but that is for fandom and weird kinks and whatever not LITERAL PICTURES OF SELF HARM AND BLOOD EVERYWHERE like I'd be fine if it was tagged 'tw blood' (which I don't have blocked!! I'd still be triggered as fuck but hey you tried idc) but when you don't tag it at all I have to assume you are actually trying to hurt someone. Yeah I block immediately but thst doesn't change the fact that I'm triggered and the sh urges are back. This is true for text posts too, although I try to block words (I genuinely hate it so deeply when people sidestep other people's word blocks with 'sewerslide' or button mash numbers in the word like. I am going to fucking kill you. 'Oh noo it's triggering to me uwu' bitch you made me actively suicidal for the first time in months. Fucking die. Don't post that shit if using the actual words triggers you). You ABSOLUTELY ARE responsible for what you put out into the words. People saying 'oh ur not responsible for other peoples triggers and emotions' are genuinely heartless and have never felt human empathy. You ain't responsible for how I react to your content, but you NEED to try your best to give people the bare minimum of warnings when you post triggering shit. Look at ur vent post and be like 'hey I'm gonna tag this as tw vent/ tw si' and you genuinely might save someone's life. Probably not but the chance should be enough for you to care and if it isn't, block me. Don't argue, just block me now.

[schrodingers-catgirl]

ummmm.

[rejoiceandcomplain]

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[odile-odile]

When you find out you had a mini barred out black out and have to delete the nonsense posts left behind. Thankfully, they looked like butt typing.

[trash-and-trash-accessories]

tw: suicide, suicidal ideation

not being able to talk to anyone when I feel suicidal - because I could be literally swatted (police wellness check) or involuntarily hospitalized which would ruin my life - is actually a nightmare. Like I would love to just talk to a professional and be able to tell them "I would like very much to die and I could absolutely make that happen" would help my mental health so much but I literally can't do that. Because of the carceral mental health system. And I can't talk to my friends about it because just saying that to your friend who you love can be deeply traumatic for that friend.

Of course I would want my friends to tell me and I would never ever call in a wellness check but I can't trust other people not to do that. Being mentally ill in the US is an absolute nightmare.

[fooltofancy]

could everything just, like. fucking chill.

[ranger-kellyn]

this whole "getting better" thing fucking BLOWS. what do you MEAN i have to stick to this whole thing of exercising basically daily, spending at least an hour across the day doing stretches and yoga, eating at minimum three meals, stay away from social media, and dedicating at minimum 20 minutes to journaling every single fucking day. what do you MEAN if i start slacking on EVEN ONE of them, it dominoes until i'm right back in "i'd rather be dead" headspace.............................

[musical-chick-13]

*sigh* I wish I didn't have so much weird baggage around my birthday.

[thebreakfastgenie]

Not to talk about my The Late Captain Pierce suicidal ideation theory but "Trapper went home and they're still coming" I could leave and they'd still come "Henry got killed and they're still coming" I could die and they'd still come.

[cartoonghosts]

not vibing i feel like my depression has been sneaking up on me like I thought I was good for so long and this isn't even sudden and I'm genuinely considering death I don't know what's going in, I'm enjoying life and things are good but fuck I don't want to do this anymore. The trees aren't as beautiful as they used to be. I think it's ending.

[fungisteri]

Having another one of those nights

[becomedog]

moral ocd mice theater 💙

mouse in my brain #27: well after years of therapy and great personal effort we are finally at the point where we don't think we are inherently evil. finally done with all that forgiving ourself stuff. truly we have healed mouse in my brain #28: um it seems like we made a mistake just now ? mouse #27: mouse #28: so time to forgive ourself and move on right? mouse #27: no we should absolutely perish for this. mouse #28: :( we don't say that anymore remember mouse #27: we are the worst and can't do anything right. at the bare minimum we need to berate ourselves about this for the rest of the day and NOT have fun and live tightly and penitently and tinily enough that we NEVER make this mistake again or- mouse #28: i cannot emphasize enough that the person we "sinned against" on this one is ok and does not want us to- mouse #27: so we're just going to keep making mistakes and then living with them for the rest of our life? forever. and ""move on""". and enjoy ourselves. and judge ""proportionate reactions"" to each individual crime. all in the moment. we're both the entire legal system and the criminal. does all that sound sustainable or morally acceptable to you????

[real-life-cloud]

:(

[asiancatboy]

i wish we lived in a world where talking about suicide and suicidal ideation wasn't so taboo, treated with the sensitivity it deserves but not overcautious to the point everyone affected feels like they can't reach out or talk for fear of being institutionalised against their will