#it's gonna be so sad seeing these asks leave my askbox 😭

[simisaint]

I apologise and I hope you'll forgive me for using your simblr askbox for this but i just read your rants on your writing blog and I had to drop by. You can ignore this ask if it oversteps boundaries. I hope people can see n understand that writing fics is not your source of income and respect the fact that your office job is what gets your bills paid. I dont think they've got any right to say "leave the company" type-thing to you when they dont know the whole story, it's just unecessary advice-

I really hope people, instead of screaming at you to update SY with their pitchforks in the air, wait patiently for the update (WHENEVER u decide to do so) and at least empathise with your situation as working people/corporate slaves themselves. Im sure most of us are the same so I dont understand why some have the nerve to act entitled on the internet? I mean i get it that the story might be something they were looking forward to but god, its not just them who have lives separate of tumblr. (2)

I'm now ranting, I'm sorry but seeing you apologise for not updating SY when you already said you've put the series on hiatus till 19th May didnt sit well with me. I didnt think you needed to apologise when you've said time and time again that your promotion has left you with very little free time on your hands. Doesn't that clearly mean that you wont be able to update your fics as quick and frequent as SN got updated cause you literally don't have free time? Shouldn't people respect that? (3)

And shouldn't they respect the fact that free time doesn't always mean that you're gonna spend it all on writing SY?? Like, fuck i'm so fucking mad rn. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with entitled readers too who think that all your free time should be devoted to writing fics only. You genuinely sound so fucking stressed, frustrated and thoroughly overworked in your posts, Saint and I hope people fucking open their eyes to see it instead of being Seras and seeing only their woes. (4)

I do hope and pray you get your break and rest first cause i know you've got your personal reasons for putting yourself through this whole overworking ordeal and i'm no one to tell you what to do or not. I can just hope for your good mental and physical health and for your boss to not ask you to cover full shifts last minute when you've already worked full time for yours the entire week. Again, before I forget, PLEASE, update SY at YOUR pace. (5)

I've been locked in ever since u posted SN1 so im not leavin til' I get SY15 (OH WAIT, ill have to get off the roller coaster if u ever discontinue it, which is totally fine too! pls dont take that as me pushing u to finish sy T-T im sorry) Take your time with it. You're already risking your health over your job rn and u dont need to do that with writing- something that's your escape. ANYWAY, ive talked bs for way too long and i apologise if this all isn't coherent and for repetitive ask-ings. 6

it’s okkk and thank u, i appreciate u sm :’( i’m sorry you had to see me freaking out earlier. i’m truly just fed up and exhausted with my life outside of this web space. i only apologized for not being able to post frequent updates bc i want readers to understand that i’m not abandoning sy by choice. in fact, i get very veryyy sad that i can’t find the time to write it. i feel bad that i can’t even have proper conversations with my moots here and they prob think i’m ignoring them 😭 i also just came across this post where two of my readers are having an exchange abt how sy has slow updates and it’s making them lose interest and i was kinda hurt but i understand tbh sddjfjsjs but YOU, ILY AND I HOPE YOU’RE HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY. tysm for dropping by and for understanding my situation (ik i sound dramatic but aaaaaaa)

i’ll open anon on main so u can reach out there too <33

[backhurtyy]

I sent another ask maybe a week ago but you were in Europe and I think tumblr ate it anyways lmao. The job I got was DOOKIE it stunk, my coworkers were a toss up between older and hypocritical like getting people in trouble for every little thing and then showing up hours late to being younger than me and opening talking about hentai with customers around like it’s nothing, but it’s okay cause I have to leave it anyways. My dad has to leave for his job for 3 months give or take so it’ll just be me and my brother and neither of us can drive lol. He was my ride to work so I’ll just be vibing until he comes back unless I can find something super close to work at. BUT my hamster did escape because he chewed through his roof the other day and my brother found him, he was out less than two hours but now I’m watching him like a hawk. Overall though I am doing pretty well, I keep looking at all my drafts and feeling them judge me as I start something new or ignore them for a video game. I have however been rotating one of my ocs in my brain like a music box ballerina, I love him too much. I started a game I played when I was like 12 and I can see a lot of similarities between that and my ocs stories even though I didn’t remember the game at all and I’m like. This game required my brain, didn’t it? But I’m doing good I’m hanging out, how have you been it seems like things have been eventful - 🤍

no it’s still sitting in my askbox i’m just the worst and never found a good time to answer it 😭😭😭 but that sucks SO MUCH i’m so sorry it was so awful!!! your coworkers all sound so shitty, jesus. like okay y’all are just really gonna be like that??? at WORK??? HENTAI??? AT WORK??? and hello hypocrisy… i don’t blame you at all for hating it or leaving, they sound like nightmares. and i guess at least you didn’t love it and then have to be sad when you have to leave while your dads gone??? a tiny silver lining i suppose lol.

NOT HAMSTER HOUDINI 😭😭😭 i’m so glad you guys found the little menace hehe. i’m also glad you’re doing well!!! i feel that on the drafts and stuff, i have so many wips but i keep starting new wips like in the past week i’ve started three more steddie fics and now i’m like. i need to actually finish them. please. and yesssss the good old viddy game revisit!!! that’s kinda cool to me that you notice similarities, like it tells you just how important that was to you when you were younger and just. idk i love seeing imprints of your childhood later on in life???

anyways i’m good, i’ve been moving in to my house on campus which has been hard. i’m living halfway between my house and my parents house which is weird. but that’s mostly cause i don’t have my bed frame yet, but it should be here on monday. i think after that i’ll be able to move fully into my house and settle in before the semester starts. and otherwise i’m just chilling at home watching movies and stuff, nothing much is happening since i got back from europe!!!