#it’s the terrible self esteem
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when i said i wanted to understand whatever’s going on in ivan’s head, i didn’t mean like this 😭😭
#alnst ivan#alnst till#ivantill#alien stage#ooooh boy turns out ivan’s self esteem is pretty low in terms of love#makes total sense but it’s not what i expected from someone who looked so in control of what he wanted and was willing to pursue from till#he loves humbly which was my first intepretation of him before we even got round 3#it’s changed since then with more (mis)information leaked by vivinos to misdirect our understanding of him#so to get this clear dialogue of his final thoughts is really… clarifying#and terribly sad in a way#ivan loves till so much and is entirely aware that he hasn’t been the most gentle of suitors#god i have many thoughts about this#ahhh ivan baby your feelings aren’t shallow at all
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I love how people are only ever interested in defending Arya's right to be weird-looking. It's never defending her intelligence from people who claim she's incapable of thinking for herself, highlighting her importance to the plot and refusing to see her as just a prop, acknowledging how much of her story gets stolen and given to other characters, talking about her trauma or how often it gets erased and overlooked, seeing her as more than just an attack dog/bodyguard, etc. Nope. It's just a "why can't people let Arya be ugly/unconventional looking? :(" post every other week because people are, for whatever reason, obsessed with how Arya is visually perceived. One of the most misinterpreted characters yet the issue is only ever with her being portrayed as "too pretty" or the wrong "type" of pretty. This fandom will entirely rewrite a character's motivations, values, and role in the story to the point that they consider references to canon "hate" but! The true injustice to canon is we acknowledge that she is described as pretty several times. Arya simply existing as her pretty, important, and non-conforming self is too complex and confusing for people to comprehend 😔.
#arya stark#asoiaf#fandom nonsense#how can Arya be considered pretty?! she's literally non-conforming?? being pretty belongs to /feminine/ female characters...right? 😱#I feel like these people tell on themselves with how much they value beauty because they make it /such/ a big deal#when her self-esteem issues regarding being a lady are infinitely more relevant to her story (and more interesting to discuss)#her being mocked for having the Stark look is a supporting story element that also reinforces her being an outcast considering#her mother + all of her trueborn siblings have a southern look and she was raised with southern standards#not to mention her non-conformity and often messy appearance heavily impacted how her looks were perceived#George writes Arya's non-conformity as parallel to traditional femininity so it makes sense that beauty is one of those aspects he subverts#(also why it makes sense that her future includes accepting her identity as a Lady while redefining the role but that's off topic)#this is why you need to look at the writing instead of judging based on the /type/ of character you think Arya is#and! it's truly not that serious 😭 I'm sure it will be a plot point eventually but it's not 98% of her story like these people pretend#Arya is such an interesting + well-written character but we constantly get people rewriting her and nonsense discourse around her looks#such rich material and all you can say is that she's an /odd-looking feral gremlin/ and I'm supposed to take your opinion seriously#at this point the obsession with Arya being /weird/ looking has to be some projection of personal self-esteem issues#there's no way /this/ is the hill you're willing to die on with all the terrible takes about Arya from this fandom#wish people who didn't care about her would just stop bringing her up so we could have our discussions about her in peace
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I feel so bad whenever someone mentions that their favourite autistic rep is like. Sam from atypical or sheldon from the Big Bang theory. we need to get you some autistic characters who aren’t treated like shit by their friends STAT
#the truest repairman posts#I used to love tbbt and sheldon so much when I was younger#It did so much irreparable damage to my self esteem because I grew to think that the way his friends treated him was how#I deserved to be treated#And honestly I could write paragraphs about how atypical is terrible as autistic rep#Again comma the representation itself isn’t really that bad it’s more the way they portray acceptable relationships#No autistic person should ever have their partner reward them for not talking about their special interest..#That’s not someone who actually likes you as a person behaviour#Autism
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Did Brambleclaw actually disown the Three when the secret is revealed? I don't remember this happening (then again, it's been a while) but it does bug me how all three go "Poor brambleclaw :(( He was such a good dad to us and he has to learn we're not even his biokits :(((( poor guy" while simultaneously shitting on Leafpool and Squirrelflight despite them showing them more care and affection before AND after the reveal. If he does disown them, then.... WOW is the double standard real here.
In-canon? It's something you have to approximate. They don't seem to have a concept of ""disowning"" because blood relation is taken as such an insurmountable, FUNDAMENTAL fact of life. He doesn't write them out of his little kitty will and testament, but his actions ARE disowning.
It's as if the fact he is not their biological father is an automatic disowning. From the reveal onwards, he is immediately cold, distant, and the "betrayal" is mentioned often. The Three also explicitly don't blame him for his behavior, like it's just to be expected that he's Not Their Dad anymore.
Lionblaze in particular stares longingly at him several times, really missing him. And like... that's kinda what gets my goat so much
I do believe Brambleclaw is entitled to his feelings of betrayal. I believe Squilf was ultimately in the right to lie, actually, but he's still allowed to be upset and angry that she didn't trust him enough to tell him something so important. THAT SAID, YOU ARE NEVER ENTITLED TO TREAT OTHERS POORLY.
And that's what GETS me. He isn't upset that it was all revealed in such a painful and embarassing way when this could have been avoided, or that his lover struggled with this lie for so long without him, or that he feels he's lost his children. Squilf points it out in The Last Hope-- He's so ANGRY at Squilf that he will THROW HIS FAMILY AWAY
Lionblaze seems desperate to be his son again. Hollyleaf is gone for months, and Brambleclaw is still huffing about the secret when she comes back from the dead. Squilf is fawning in the hopes it makes him talk to her again. Doesn't matter. Brambleclaw Is Upsetti Spaghetti so the narrative will never examine his role in hurting this family he apparently loved so much.
(Narrative seems to understand full well that when Squilf lies for a good reason, that doesn't invalidate the hurt Brambleclaw felt... but when Brambleclaw is upset for a good reason, it actually DOES validate what he put her and his kids through)
In BB it is explicitly a disowning. He cuts them off as his children, and they reciprocate. BB!Lionblaze does so in a ball of fury, vowing that he has ONLY a mother.
#It does start getting.... ''better'' after oots. On the disowning front#Lion seems to be fixing his relationship with him#Which... actually is something I dislike tbh#Can we pls get canon acknowledgement of the Little Pogchamp scene where he lets Ash beat his son#And downplays this to holly#Pls#Idk i just feel lion makes a better mama's boy#Really close to squilf and then like... tries to get close to Leafp too but it just. Cant click.#In this very sad but also kind of validating way#Leafp isnt his mom... she didn't raise him. But shes still his aunt. She still loves him as ferociously as she always did#The reveal changed nothing about his family. In the end.#It truly was just a reveal.#(And then he stares angrily and also forlornly at bramble)#Bramblestar is honestly a very interesting character if you choose to take him at face value#And wade through the writer favoritism#I keep coming back to him man.#Such an incredibly mundane and honest type of terrible#Always consumed by his pride and terrible lack of self esteem. Everyone wants you to be better. But you keep messing up#Your honor. I hate him. I have a picture of him in my heart shaped locket.#I am putting him in an exhibit. I am blasting him with a hose.
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Hey, can we talk about Prospero complimenting Pluto in episode 102? Like he really thinks about rooming with Montresor and immediately goes "Pluto wouldn't fucking do this to me"
#does pluto know that even his enemies think highly of him to some degree#like#prospero doesnt seem to like anyone too much outside of annabel but he takes to time to explain what a good roommate pluto was#(i get it was mostly to diss montresor but still)#hell#monty even mentions that he respects pluto for actually trying to shoot him#just#this little guy who went through both life and the beginning of his death with terrible self esteem and he so universally liked#pluto nevermore#prospero nevermore#nevermore#nevermore webtoon
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In 'vis a vis' Janeway doesn't mention B'Elanna in the list of people who're worried about Tom which implies that B'Elanna didn't report the fact that "Tom" grabbed her arm, called her a disappointment and broke up with her (as Janeway definitely would have mentioned it as evidence of him acting strange if she knew about it) which makes sense on several different fronts but also makes me scream and cry loud enough to break glass.
#it reminds me of that time in 'Alice' (NOT related as vis a vis takes place seasons BEFORE 'Alice') but when B'Elanna says Tom:#'practically assaulted me' Janeway's not taking it seriously at all she says 'that doesn't sound like Tom' and I was like CAPTAIN??? DEATH?#but again that has no bearing on this in-universe bc that hasn't happened yet. REALLY I'm screaming and crying about B'Elanna's self esteem#issues which Steth literally manifested the worst case scenario of#Tom's little gesture when he gets back also goes over so well bc of this in MY mind.#Tom wanting her and Tom being with her is something B'Elanna wants regardless of how he actually acts in their relationship#(as long as it isn't abusive). He rarely puts her first without prompting or complaining BUT...he's a handsome human guy who wants her to b#his girlfriend. Ostensibly. And that's a prize you wanna hold onto.#God I love B'Elanna............#did she tell ANYONE or did she just sit with that interaction alone???#her not telling anyone implies that she DIDN'T go 'hey that's not like Tom! I should inform the captain of this incident!'#and that KILLS me dude...she's not like 'Something's terribly wrong with Tom or maybe that's an imposter!' she's like 'Tom said/did that to#me.' SCREAMING. SCREAMING. TOM. YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS /BAD/ WITH B'ELANNA.
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Whenever an episode has Lwaxana guest-starring I start filled with dread, for she is the most second-hand-embarrassment-generating person I’ve ever seen. By the end of the episode, I am filled with glee and soft fluffy feelings because Lwaxana is also the coolest lady I ever met.
This happens every time. Every. Single. Time.
#ds9#Star Trek#lwaxana troi#how does she do it#she’s got everything#she’s a terrible mother#but she’s a Mother nonetheless you know#she’s the most annoying diplomat on the ship#but dang can she get Deplomacy rolling#she has zero respect for people’s personal business staying personal#but she’ll NEVER tell about Odo#she treats peoples feelings like a joke#but also she has some startling insights about how to deal with guilt and grief and self-esteem#I feel like she’s a very interesting female character is all#you’re not really supposed to like her#she doesn’t care about what others think about her or what she’s doing#she’s pretty abrupt and straight-forward#and I think a lot of female characters with those characteristic get a lot of hate#but ALSO#she cares a lot about the people she loves and she’s trying her best#she’s kind of treated like this joke of an abhorrent admirer#but she’s got FEELINGS and GOALS beyond that#anyway all this to say I think Odo and her have a very cute friendship#French trek
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hades’ clone concepts!! it/they, no name as of yet
inspired by @bulldog-geckorahhhhh and @mayisgoingnuts. hiii!!! :3
okay! so for this, weird little fella (/pos) i think it would’ve been made after one of hades’ outbursts. the cultists were growing wary about him and wanted to find a more stable replacement, but, because it’s not possible for them to just turn a fully grown person (they tried with cannoli and he only got extremely sick and they didn’t want to wait 23 years for another failure, they decided to try cloning. they mixed hades and eyes together to create this! hades’ clone isn’t human in the slightest, it only resembles a person because of hades’ DNA.
i think at first hades was wary of it until he saw the cult mistreating it the same way they’d mistreated him and went to comfort it. he hugged it , trying to redo everything cannoli did to calm him down in the past. i think the clone was made after cannoli escaped so he doesn’t meet it until hades and it escape.
anyway i love this guy now. ask me about it please 🙏 (also, name ideas? :o)
tagging @facelessthefreak and @cursedthing
#ethan’s art#spooky month#spooky month oc#hades spooky month#this creature has terrible self esteem it thinks of itself as a failure because it never replaced hadrs. it’s actually Really weak
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I have feelings about the way Wade lowkey panics when men touch him gently.
In the teamup comics he gets all awkward when Spidey hugs him and then makes a lewd joke that "ruins it" as Spidey says. In the second movie he goes "haha what are you doing?" In this very airy, confused tone when Cable pats him on the chest to place the skee-ball token over his heart.
He doesn't even joke about copping a feel or anything, he just doesn't know how to react to touch from men that isn't threatening and it makes me sad.
Spidey's hug is an obviously conciliatory gesture, he's apologizing and thanking Wade. Cable's gesture seems to be brazing and supportive, when you don't know what he's doing, but both gestures are so inconceivable to Wade, because they're nice to him, that he's just left baffled.
#deadpool#wade wilson#deadpool meta#Wade has so many terribly sad layers okay#and I'm fascinated that this reaction is consistent across media#I think he generally expects and accepts abuse in his relationships with everyone but I think he expects less overt violence from women#his self-esteem is so bad that it doesn't occur to him that he can have nice things#and then if you're the one actively needling people at least you control the violence#goddamn he's tragic
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2 I with Sorahiko, All for One and Machia
big guys
#afohikomachia#shih’s drafts#asks#anon#tfw the secretary AND bodyguard can be in your bed#just terrible power dynamics all over the place#‘i know his schedule. his routine. i would die for him without a second thought’#‘i MAKE his schedule and routine. and to be totally clear#he’s never actually in a situation where he WOULD die so. what use are you’#and so; homewrecker sorahiko gave machia self esteem issues#and was the reason why machia kept taking on new quirks
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Realizing I am full of so much pent up rage
#not in a i want to hit something way but in a i can’t scream so all my anger shows up as tears way#i think i need to scream for hours#i need to scream every terrible thought i have about myself and my life#just to fucking say it#just to get it out#my self-esteem is so catastrophically low i can’t take a compliment without bursting into tears#i can’t even hear ‘are you okay’ without crying#i have been crying on and off all day today at work. i just want to go home
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#don’t take ‘Lanius knows he’s a terrible person’ to mean I think he has like#low self esteem or remorse or some ish#his notion of how to exist is messed up he thinks his way is the only way#joshua graham#vulpes inculta#edward sallow#legate lanius#Siri fnv#Karl fnv#Antony fnv#ulysses fnv#Dead Sea fnv#silus fnv#ulysses
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what Was ii-critical anyways. all i know is that they apparently said bfb should be like ddlc or something along the lines of that.
ii-critical was a blog that me and my old friend mira (alongside a few others at one point) used to run. it was around the time that su critical was a popular tag and mira had shit to say about inanimate insanity, so they made the blog to share their criticisms of the show. i joined as a mod shortly after. keep in mind that i was 14, and mira was 13.
ii-critical also had an accompanying discord server which i think played a big part in the blogs infamy, mostly because it was HORRIBLY moderated (again, we were children.) we had nsfw channels that were open to everyone INCLUDING minors. i dont even think we were listing our ages in our bios for a while. it was a nightmare.
there was a lot of behind the scenes nonsense and infighting that resulted in me being kicked as a moderator and eventually the death of the blog. mira and i made amends about a year afterwards, so even if we don't talk anymore, we arent on bad terms. while we were both at fault for a lot of things, i feel like it's important to mention that skatercheese was an active user in the server and had a lot of involvement in it. them sticking their hands in drama between people who were just barely teenagers feels really disturbing in hindsight.
btw i was the guy who said that bfb should be like doki doki literature club. i'm really autistic about the concept of metafiction (welcome home is one of my current interests so that is very much still a thing) and my dumb ass decided to share that idea as a "this is what the show should be like" and not a "lol wouldnt it be cool if this happened". anyways given how hated post-split is i think my idea was still better and i was unappreciated in my time (/j)
tldr i helped run the most infamous object show blog on tumblr along with an even worse discord server. a lot of people got hurt because of how irresponsible i was, and i'm gonna have to live with that forever. i really hope everyone who got hurt because of my negligence is doing okay now, or at least better than they were back then. me and the other mods and server members can laugh about how awful it was now, but i always have to keep in mind that there was a lot of very real damage done to real people and it wasn't just a haha funny bad blog.
one more thing is that kint (yes that kint yes they were also in the server) drew this for the server, and i'm still holding onto it all these years later. i don't even know who most of the people pictured are anymore, but i'm never deleting it.
(that's me in the middle, i was mod gamzee. i had that 14 year old homestuck kinnie stink about me, just to add to the miserable vibes.)
the moral of the story is that you should never let young teens who watch way too much lily orchard run a discorse blog of any kind.
#for context i was tied to a pole because bullying me was one of the servers favorite pass times#i was in on it and thought it was funny but looking back it probably contributed to why my self esteem is so terrible as an adult. womp wom
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Gift giving AU. Oh god, what if Izuku tries to give Aizawa a gift and it either
A: teleports Kurogiri straight there
or
B: straight up Makes a second Oboro
I give you option C: it teleports Kurogiri over and fixes him.
Now, not the normal way to pass your combat exam with your teachers, but Oboro insisted the kid get full marks. Aizawa, Nemuri and Yamada were crying too hard to offer any other idea, Nezu was soft but also enjoying the chaos and All Might was so biased he would have given Izuku 100/100 for every exam ever.
Izuku's having a break down, Shigaraki, in the distance, is also having a breakdown, AfO is perplexed and the league of villains is far less intimidating.
Izuku is a little scared that if he uses his quirk on All Might it'll just manifest a pile of new organs.
#izuku was vs aizawa with yaomomo for the final exam#they are buddies here because their quirks are similar - in a way!#but both have terrible self esteem and have been praised for what their quirks can give other people#and have trouble seeing themselves as useful without them#this was. supposed to help that#it did not.#i did give them both a fun new trauma to unpack though!#asks#bnha au#gift giving au
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Okay I promise I'll do a more serious piece tomorrow but I had to get the memes out of my system first
Anywho if you haven't read Other Worlds Than These yet by @lesbian-honey-lemon get over there I am forever a sucker for Obake fics and this month I have been Spoiled. <3
Anyway in the fic Hiro is thrilled to death because Beck is like him but Taller in his eyes and according to Beck Hiro must be Protected At All Costs. Granted in the fic he didn't take a crowbar to Yokai's head but the vibe was still there. XD
Big Hero 6 © 2014 Disney
Done in Adobe Photoshop.
#bh6#big hero 6#big hero six#big hero 6 the series#big hero six the series#fanart of fanfiction#that fanfic being Other Worlds Than These#hiro#young obake AKA beck aken#adobe photoshop#beck has absolutely terrible self-esteem but get him going on hiro WOO#reading their opinions of each other has been a trip#hiro: beck is so cool he's just like me it's so nice having someone with the same vibes and likes and smarts and stuff#beck: hiro is my better in every way I must make sure he survives at all cost because if anything happens to him I WILL destroy this city
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You ever think about how Joronia's corruption started? Sure, the mirror was there, but what influenced her?
... I think it was the image of her best friend, her advisor and confidant. After all, who else should she trust to guide her towards her best self?
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Imagine your best friend, who you've spent centuries with, gets you a mirror because of your self-esteem issues. As he's giving it to you, he explains that the mirror is meant to show you how he sees you: an absolutely beautiful person, flaws and all.
And then he leaves you alone with the mirror.
As you're staring at yourself, it warps to look like your best friend but... Wrong. Your best friend is a klutz, a coward, but this man looks too refined for either of those things.
And then he starts talking.
He's judging you, telling you what you should be wearing. Telling you how to style your hair, your make-up, everything to emphasize your best features.
You follow his directions, of course. Your best friend surely knows what's best.
And you're right– he is right.
You're beautiful.
Your best friend—your normal, clumsy and nervous, best friend—agrees! He's always said you looked beautiful, but you feel more confident in him this time.
So you trust the reflection of your best friend more, wanting to make yourself even more beautiful. No, not just beautiful, absolutely divine!
So, with a grin, he does.
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Time flashes by, and your reflection changes. You're further from your mortal self, turning yourself into a goddess.
Your best friends begin to blur together, but that's alright. They both think you're beautiful, they want you to become your best self.
You're not there yet, you need more resources.
Looking between the clouds, you know how to get it.
#queen sectonia#sectonia#joronia#kirby sectonia#kirby joronia#sectonia kirby#joronia kirby#taranza and dark taranza are implied to be there. but this is about sectonia/joronia#kirby#kirby series#kirby games#kirby franchise#kirby fandom#kirby fanfic#more like a ramble/theory#maxxie talks#pages in the tags#it's nearly 3am. i am Thinking#i think her loss of sanity made her more likely to mistake dark taranza and taranza#which led to her treating them weirdly#in the end. her worsening ego made her treat them the same way#i do blame dart for her corruption#was he trying to help her self esteem? yes. was leading her to body snatching a terrible way of doing that? YES
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