#it was initially gonna be part of a series that was gonna be jess's journal

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SPN moments but abstract [10/?] - Stanford era Sam

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Rory Gilmore

Ah this character, thank you!! XD I wish I knew who was asking me… but yes. :D

This is in response to this ask: http://luvtheheaven.tumblr.com/post/158297453337/send-me-a-character-ill-answer-the-following

general opinion: “actual love of my life” is the highest category but really, it’s not that I’m “in love” with her, in a romantic or platonic kind of way, it’s… Ah how do I even phrase this?? She’s everything to me, she’s one of my favorite characters of all time if not my #1 favorite, the character I’ve most felt like I’ve identified with on a deep personality level actually… she’s not me exactly, but at the same time she is me. Huge parts of her are me and vice versa.

hotness level: “gorgeous” I suppose, but in a totally different way than when I said it about Naya Rivera & Santana Lopez from Glee here: http://luvtheheaven.tumblr.com/post/158321955692/santana-lopez because idk, Alexis Bledel is certainly pretty, and some people find her “hot”, but…

…it’s a totally different type of hotness, and also Rory in particular is unique in this way. This takes me back to this conversation: http://asexandthecity.tumblr.com/post/142010956526/ace-rant-on-feeling-attractive-vs-feeling and when I wrote about a year and a half ago a blog post Exploration of Not Wanting to Be Sexy, and of never Feeling Sexy. Talking about Rory Gilmore’s “hotness” level makes me fairly uncomfortable for a number of reasons. A quick Google search or two will find you a dozen articles and YouTube videos on her “natural” makeup looks, her simple brown hair color and generally conservative hairstyles making her “not stand out”, her modest yet fashionable sense of style. She doesn’t choose to show off cleavage even when she could, instead wearing camisoles under those types of shirts, that kind of thing. She is attractive but doesn’t wish to flaunt it at all and just wants to look good, not look sexy, in most contexts. Even when she’s dressing up for dates she has an innocent, trying to impress, not trying to “seduce”, look to her? So idk if this is at all the point of the question… since the ultimate answer choice is that you have sexual desire for her I’m pretty sure I’ve skirted off topic a bit, but my aro-spec 100% asexual self is not going to be going there with any character of any gender or any hotness level, so…. But this is what I am currently thinking.

hogwarts house: This is probably my own biases because I’m a Hufflepuff showing through, but I’m leaning right now toward hufflepuff. Like many characters, she has aspects of a lot of houses in her. “Hufflepuff is the most inclusive among the four houses; valuing hard work, dedication, patience, loyalty, and fair play rather than a particular aptitude in its members.” Rory is so dedicated and hardworking in her life, so loyal to so many people, so much a stickler to the rules and fairness. Her chosen career path of journalism… ultimately she wanted to get information out there to everyone, she wanted to help the world, it wasn’t about her personal learning more or knowledge. Even in her decisions at the end of A Year in the Life, whenever she talks about Odette or when she asks Christopher how he felt at 16 when Lorelai made her choices… she prioritizes everyone else’s feelings so much. She lacks a lot of ambition at times, and despite her reaching a lot of the same goals that the most ambitious people around her like Paris might have, she doesn’t care in that kind of way. She seems to lack bravery in a lot of aspects of her life too, especially in romantic relationships.

best quality: I think… it’s the way she cares about others despite herself, such a hufflepuff thing too but like… the way she cares about Paris even when Paris is driving her crazy, or how after all of her breakups she still is wishing the guy well (like on the phone call where Jess says nothing in the s3 finale she says “I hope you’re good, I want you to be good” despite her heartbreak, but she does it with everyone.)

worst quality: Probably her lack of ability to adapt to new situations life throws at her, her lack of a back-up plan to failing, how she “puts all her eggs in one basket”… it cripples her so strongly throughout the series, her entire identity starts to crack too easily? XD I don’t know…

ship them with: Jess. Lately I’ve been feeling Paris/Rory a lot more too. But I’m Literati for life. Not necessarily shipping Rory/Jess in a post-revival kind of “everything can be canon and I still want them to end up together after it all” kind of way though, the way it was written… I probably  would prefer Rory end up with someone new over Jess at that point.

brotp them with: Well… can I just say Lorelai? Lol I don’t know. I hate the term brotp. But my favorite non-romantic pairing for Rory is probably Rory/Lorelai. I think Rory/Lane are a nice friendship to watch, I just said I have been feeling Paris/Rory as a ship a lot more lately but also as friends I can adore that, or after that one Boston Marriage fic turned podfic I listened to I love thinking of them as potential queerplatonic partners, etc etc. I like the nuance of the Luke/Rory dynamic and how much Luke and Rory have in common personality wise… but yeah Lorelai/Rory are the relationship I’ll go with as my answer here.

needs to stay away from: I was gonna say Shane, because Rory was horrible to her? Lol but I think Rory could do with a nice heart-to-heart with such a different girl than herself. Maybe Lindsay’s mother and Mitchum. There’s no real good that could come from Rory being around those folks from what I can imagine right this moment…

misc. thoughts: I’ve been really wanting to make a depressing post-AYITL Rory vid or write a depressing post-AYITL Rory fanfic lately, a long one not the recent 100 word drabble I wrote for her. :P But maybe one day soon I can write or vid happier things too… Idk I like the idea right now of embracing her mindset in AYITL and rather than being betrayed and angry at the writers, just… trying to understand how Rory got to where she was and why she was acting the way she was, and thaat leads me to some darkish fannish ideas, just sad and gloomy ideas… I lose some of my initial Anger I had at the end of November and beginning of December and feel mainly just… pity? for her.