#it still makes my heart sad
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Sometimes I wonder: why can't brothers be brothers? Some of the deepest connections you can have aren't romantic you know. I want to celebrate that. <3 *sigh* I'll get off my soapbox.
#by now i know fandom does this by a mile#it still makes my heart sad#jack and daniel#frodo and sam#and of course#sora and riku#they are brothers your honor#if the story doesn't do it#I don't do it#nyssa's ramblings
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"You ever wonder what would have happened if we had died for real?"
#thinking about these two#its been 8 years and the thought of these two still makes me sad#i think its mostly that they never really got to move on. No matter what. you cant save them completely. it breaks my heart#utmonth2023#sad :(#undertale#chara#flowey#art#undertale art#my art
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fellas is it gay to kiss your narrative foil..... 🤔😳
#[narrator voice] it Was in fact exactly what they thought#i heart posting joyness right before i leave for class and then making myself run late. apparently. second time im doing this LOL#i kiiiinda. gave up on polishing the painting BUT i'm still happy with it😊wanted to test my new brushes....with yuri of course what else#also sadness can. surprise kissie joy. as a treat :)#inside out 2#inside out#inside out joy#inside out sadness#joyness#joy x sadness#stardrop#inside out fandom#sketchbook
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“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft.
— Tender Curiosities, Baby! @otrtbs
#tender curiosities baby#art heist baby#james potter fanart#james potter#jegulus#rosekiller#rosekiller fanart#marauders#marauders fanart#evan rosier#barty crouch jr#jegulus fanart#jegulus fanfiction#fic: ahb#art heist baby!#mine#my art#hp#ahb#ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence#like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller#but alas cars wont allow it#ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it#i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta...#(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them)#(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...)#(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset)#((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops)#(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad))#((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))
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Kingdom Hearts 3 - San Fransokyo
#kingdom hearts 3#kh3#san fransokyo#scenery#my gif#made sure to put equal parts night and day versions of the city#because i think they both look stunning#i love the verticality of this world. it's fun to climb up to the highest point and fly over all the buildings#if i played this game as a kid i feel like i would 100% pretend sora lived in this city and would find a house for him haha#something that always piqued my curiosity was sora's initial response to first setting foot in this world#he's immediately amazed by what he sees and remarks in awe of the city that he hasn't even fully entered yet (he's still on the bridge)#then he quickly pulls out is phone and wants to tell riku all about it even though he just got there#(i'm sad they didn't make a kingstagram post about it that we could see!)#being islanders from a small town i can imagine it'd be an exciting idea to visit a big bustling city and i wondered if that's-#something they've ever talked about together whenever the topic of exploring new worlds came up as children#it could be some sneaky foreshadowing since the secret ending has sora and riku in quadratum which is also a big city with tall buildings#and i'm sure it's no coincidence that a version of riku shows up in san fransokyo
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"Listen. That wasn’t tactical. I lost it." LOKI S02E02 “Breaking Brad”
#mobius#mobius m mobius#owen wilson#lokitvsource#lokitvedit#marveledit#mine#not feeling normal about this at all actually#the subtlety of owen's acting here is everything to me#the way that mobius is so obviously torn up about hitting brad#his body language is closed off and uncomfortable#he's really beating himself up for his behaviour#but he powers through it because he wants to explain himself#but to do so he has to be vulnerable and that's hard for him#he's so used to making others talk but he doesn't do it himself#he's a yapper at heart but emotionally he's closed off to his own emotions#i love how in the 6th gif he listens to loki relate to his struggle (with an extreme example) with a soft smile#it's still sad yet it holds understanding that his friend is trying to make him feel better#he allows himself to be consoled by loki#and because of that support from someone he trusts he's able to open up#mobius my beloved#i love him with all my heart#i loved Owen's performance so much i think he's so underrated
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Young Royals 2.03 - In some way, I wish that it had never happened. It was kind of better not knowing how it can feel.. 💔
#young royals#wilhelm#prince wilhelm#wille#wilmon#was i crying and my heart on the floor with its guts spiiled all over when i first saw this scene? absolutely#it's still so hard for me to watch him say all this.. lonely.. want to forget 😭 just as bad as lake scene dare I say..#also look how prettyyyyyy he is 🥺#sickly days make for sad gifs I guess..#but have a happy Friday dears! 💜#userbarrow#my gifs yr#youngroyalsedit
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the loneliness and sadness that creeps into you in a way that only growing up queer can cause. your parents can accept you and still make you feel like an outsider. your parents can love you and still reject parts of you. that old-fashioned kind of love where they think trying to mold you, make you tough, is better for you. or that quiet status quo where you just don't talk. and where everyone is accepted, though some are more than others. generations and generations it's just been easier to let it slide. to let it be. not cause a fuss. but then we sit there with a knot in our chests all our lives wondering how it got there
#this is about#all of us strangers#ofc your experience of a piece of media is molded by your own perspective#and i have been thinking a lot about growing up queer and how it still fucking sucked#for me. ten. twenty years ago. fuck it even five years ago#it still sometimes sucks#because i was raised without any queer representation around me#i was trained to be straight and to desire straightness#and anything remotely queer was mocked and bullied and judged#i saw it done by others and done to others so much that it's hardly surprising i did everything i could to Not be that#and the fact that i had to grow up that way#and that i still wouldn't feel at ease bringing a partner to a family event#makes my heart ache so much#i am often on my own and going home doesn't bring me comfort#it's like harry describes#it's just how it went#my parents didn't mean to make it like that#my mom even thinks it's sad#but she doesn't understand how it came to be#and i don't know if i can turn it around#adam's imaginings of how his parents envelop him with love and acceptance in the end#was a dream#but a painful one#a dream where your parents suddenly say all the right things#and for him they only did so bc they're dead and he could imagine whatever he wanted#/and still/ he imagined his mom rejecting his sexuality at first#literally so disgusted she can't drink her tea#oooooofofffffff.......#i need to think some more#my posts
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"You'll triumph someday, as long as you never yield. I'll take you on any time." "You never fail to piss me off, Geats."
#kamen rider geats#ukiyo ace#ace ukiyo#kamen rider buffa#michinaga azuma#azuma michinaga#kamen rider#userdramas#umbrella.gifs#tokuedit#please do not repost#umbrella.edits#umbrella.posts#they make me so ill (positive)#truly my favorite dynamic in geats and holds so much value#ace really helped michinaga and while they still butt heads it's nowhere near as aggressive nor hatred fueled#they've softened mainly on michinaga's side as he held a lot of misplaced anger but i talked more about that in my liveblog of the series#generally i think that their bond is something unshakable and fated but at the same time riddled with sadness and anger#there's still a rivalry and it's still important but there's also an understanding and care that flourishes under their shared goal of#wanting to protect people's happiness and maintain a world in which anyone can be happy#there's a lot of subtle and soft moments between their battles and i find both sides to be vital to the formation of their relationship in#the end and post-series it's just something very special and i treasure it#i chose the lines for the caption bc they're so important to michinaga's understanding of the heart that makes ace who he is#and it's also a moment in which ace acknowledges michinaga's efforts and cheers for him in a small way though he may always see himself#as being the winner in their feuds ultimately it's a moment of understanding and compassion that stuck not only with michinaga#but also with me and so it is the caption#anyways them <3
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"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi the suckening#arthur bennett#HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT?#LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT#this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page.#but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT#ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH#WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW?#ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME#DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER#HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW#AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE#I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much....#AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game#but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping#DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds#I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors#what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012.#almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS.#only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE#while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs#THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN#WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS#the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess.#i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band#EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION
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happy 8 years
i will transform so i don't die
#my art#undertale#chara dreemurr#am a bit bereft of things to say lol sorry. usually this is where i have a whole diatribe to go off on#i didn't feel like celebrating very much this year so the artwork i made isnt very celebratory#but it was always the sad and futile parts of the story that made me feel the most when i was a kid . so#it's maybe truer to the spirit of my love for this game than any of the cutesy celebration drawings ive done over the years#um . as it was and still is. my heart lives where this story is#if i hadn't played it when i was a kid i don't know if i would have made it this far. im actually almost certain i wouldnt have#sometimes its hard to be thankful for that but i make myself be thankful lol.#so dramatic rofl. well it's just what i was thinking#thanks for being here everyone. i kind of like how this drawing turned out and i hope you will too
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Did Brambleclaw actually disown the Three when the secret is revealed? I don't remember this happening (then again, it's been a while) but it does bug me how all three go "Poor brambleclaw :(( He was such a good dad to us and he has to learn we're not even his biokits :(((( poor guy" while simultaneously shitting on Leafpool and Squirrelflight despite them showing them more care and affection before AND after the reveal. If he does disown them, then.... WOW is the double standard real here.
In-canon? It's something you have to approximate. They don't seem to have a concept of ""disowning"" because blood relation is taken as such an insurmountable, FUNDAMENTAL fact of life. He doesn't write them out of his little kitty will and testament, but his actions ARE disowning.
It's as if the fact he is not their biological father is an automatic disowning. From the reveal onwards, he is immediately cold, distant, and the "betrayal" is mentioned often. The Three also explicitly don't blame him for his behavior, like it's just to be expected that he's Not Their Dad anymore.
Lionblaze in particular stares longingly at him several times, really missing him. And like... that's kinda what gets my goat so much
I do believe Brambleclaw is entitled to his feelings of betrayal. I believe Squilf was ultimately in the right to lie, actually, but he's still allowed to be upset and angry that she didn't trust him enough to tell him something so important. THAT SAID, YOU ARE NEVER ENTITLED TO TREAT OTHERS POORLY.
And that's what GETS me. He isn't upset that it was all revealed in such a painful and embarassing way when this could have been avoided, or that his lover struggled with this lie for so long without him, or that he feels he's lost his children. Squilf points it out in The Last Hope-- He's so ANGRY at Squilf that he will THROW HIS FAMILY AWAY
Lionblaze seems desperate to be his son again. Hollyleaf is gone for months, and Brambleclaw is still huffing about the secret when she comes back from the dead. Squilf is fawning in the hopes it makes him talk to her again. Doesn't matter. Brambleclaw Is Upsetti Spaghetti so the narrative will never examine his role in hurting this family he apparently loved so much.
(Narrative seems to understand full well that when Squilf lies for a good reason, that doesn't invalidate the hurt Brambleclaw felt... but when Brambleclaw is upset for a good reason, it actually DOES validate what he put her and his kids through)
In BB it is explicitly a disowning. He cuts them off as his children, and they reciprocate. BB!Lionblaze does so in a ball of fury, vowing that he has ONLY a mother.
#It does start getting.... ''better'' after oots. On the disowning front#Lion seems to be fixing his relationship with him#Which... actually is something I dislike tbh#Can we pls get canon acknowledgement of the Little Pogchamp scene where he lets Ash beat his son#And downplays this to holly#Pls#Idk i just feel lion makes a better mama's boy#Really close to squilf and then like... tries to get close to Leafp too but it just. Cant click.#In this very sad but also kind of validating way#Leafp isnt his mom... she didn't raise him. But shes still his aunt. She still loves him as ferociously as she always did#The reveal changed nothing about his family. In the end.#It truly was just a reveal.#(And then he stares angrily and also forlornly at bramble)#Bramblestar is honestly a very interesting character if you choose to take him at face value#And wade through the writer favoritism#I keep coming back to him man.#Such an incredibly mundane and honest type of terrible#Always consumed by his pride and terrible lack of self esteem. Everyone wants you to be better. But you keep messing up#Your honor. I hate him. I have a picture of him in my heart shaped locket.#I am putting him in an exhibit. I am blasting him with a hose.
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happy birthday to the nerd ❤️💛
#mcu tony makes me sad now but my heart is still full of love 4 him <3#mine#tony in a party hat with sparkles 4 his bday is tradition (fast 2 draw the night before his bday when u suddenly remember its here)#TUMBLR DONT DESATURATE ART CHALLENGE
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As a Gévaudan Lycan, June’s design is supposed to give off an unknowable and melancholy energy.
Gévaudan Lycans are mimics, and their emotions alter their form, especially if they have little to no control of themselves when they shift.
The way June was changed into a lycan and her experience during first shift were extremely traumatic, and over time, her lycan form reflected her feelings of loss and self-loathing. She fronts as this charming and confident woman, while holding back her deeper emotions that eventually leached into the form that reflects her true self.
Fear, sadness, loss, and rage all mixed into this one entity she cannot control. Once a month, she's forced into facing all of those emotions, reliving that trauma again and again for nearly 30 years.
#so when people say they like her design#it makes me so so happy#I put lot of thought into it#as I really wanted to reflect a top very near and dear to my heart#which is the lack of access and resources for black women (especially queer black women) for mental health#there's this kind of cultural thing#where your hairstylist is also your therapist#and June’s design and lore is a reference to that culture#all these hardworking women in the community who will just be TALKING about their experiences at hair salons#it's cathartic but also like#it happens because of how little professional help is available and accessible for the community#anyway June is a big sad cryptid werewolf and needs to not be sad :[#she can still be a big cryptid werewolf but she needs lycantherapy#june kingston#strawberry moon
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a purely self indulgent comic of me visiting the 141 and gifting them present
Gaz - Camera
Ghost - Baymax
Price - Christmas baked goods
angst and mcd ahead :3
Soap - candy cane dagger and bluebells
good night and happy holidays folks
#i really chose violence this Christmas#im not having a very merry Christmas and im making it EVERYONE'S problem /j#jk I had a great time#was gonna make fluff but the sadness took over oops#:3c#I truly do miss Johnny tho#the initial gift for him was suppose to be a bouquet of blue flowers#and I was gonna burn it and send it off to him as a tribute#but i decided to keep it simple for the sake of my heart#still hurts tho#but ayeeee at least we're hurting together /j#gummmyart#doodle#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#captain john price#kyle gaz garrick#task force 141#tf141#artist insert
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‘the children yearn for the mines’ is a little too real to me bc when i was a kid and my older siblings were trying to get me into pokémon i really never cared to try playing. BUT. i was obsessed with the underground mining minigame in dppt. i used to beg my sister to let me take a turn playing and set it up for me bc i didn’t know how to so i could go mine for gems nonstop until i cleared that entire cave section of glittering wall spots which always made me so sad bc i was having such a great time. i didn’t even understand the significance of what i was doing but 7 year old me was high off of it
#years and years later when i actually played platinum myself and it hit me like OH this is the game with the mining thing!!!#you have no idea how happy i was#…and also sad. it made me kinda heartsick bc in my childhood nostalgia dreams#my brother and sister used to play online together and do capture the flag#and their little minigame battles in the underground with their cool secret bases were so fun to watch#like that was back when the wifi connection was working and the games were alive and relevant#but i came back to it far far too late. when it was a mere relic and i was alone with no other players#still. hearing the music again brought a smile to my face#pokémon#dppt#i am once again rambling about my very special relationship to sinnoh#i didn’t play pokémon as a kid but also yes i did it was part of my childhood. like without really knowing much about it#the lil character sprites. hearthome city theme#the contests#the crunchy sound of the map opening#and the incomprehensible map itself#the bike and surf music#empoleon and staravia’s cries as they went to use surf and fly#truly. being a younger sibling watching your older sibling play has such an impact on you#it’s all nostalgic to me too i just didn’t know the full context of it myself back then#couple all this with the weird feeling of having played pokémon legends arceus as my first own game#and THEN going and finally checking out dppt#it was like double nostalgia. two different half-nostakgia experiences#just. agh i make fun of gen 4 for a lot of things but it is fundamentally my heart isn’t it#i also literally am incapable of talking about it for more than 5 minutes without bringing pla into it lol#pokeposting
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