#it might make my life easier lol

[pinkysberg]

u know that adhd experience of never being proud of anything u accomplish ever bc it's mostly just covered in that constant shroud of embarrassment and shame?

[itspileofgoodthings]

my romantic self-esteem is just absolutely rock-solid. for whatever reason!

[zymstarz]

yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out

[maddiemuu]

another drawing of ruth!! (ft. some practice w/ gradient maps)

[orcelito]

Also I realized that orchestra is only 2 credit hours, which means I'd be short 1 to be at full time status. So I was looking into what 1 credit hour courses are available earlier today. And there are... not many lol.

Ultimately came down to PE classes lol for 1 credit hour courses that aren't major-dependant. Which the catalog listed things like general athletics, swimming, even horseback riding. And I was like Wow! What wonderful options!

Went into the course request form tho & the options were army shit, golf, tennis, or bowling. Definitely don't care about army training, & I don't care about golf either. Tennis is... eh. Don't care that much. Which just leaves bowling, which I already knew about and was not That into the idea. But it's the only one that actually sounds like it'd be fun for me.

So I may take bowling class next semester lol. Just for funsies.

[drygrasses]

Went to a therapist today for the first time in a few years! They’re nonbinary and a year younger than I am (💀) but they took me seriously when I described my Issues (I’m mostly there for ADHD reasons…family things will have to wait) and seemed on board with pursuing a diagnosis so I’m really hopeful, genuinely

[the-wandering-blob]

I tried digital art for the first time today! What do ya think? Did I do good? I did it all with my finger! 😌☝️✨ The legs look a LITTLEE weird, but hey, it’s only my first, time don’t bully me! 😂

I often draw myself with a tiny little top hat. I LOVE top hats so much!! I dunno, something about them just makes me really happy! I’m probs gonna draw myself with one all the time now, mwahaha! 😈

This is based off of the cover for the song P3T by Femtanyl. I love that song…and that artist….😍

[comfycozycrossfox]

brand new level of slipping back more into Girl gender: suddenly im like, really interested in bath bombs / shower bombs and lotion

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya most definitely made at least one joke about how bc Addie and Elzer helped keep him alive during Luc’s Adventurous 4yrs Adventures Abroad, he was gonna make himself their problem.

Addie will never forget to bring up he has yet to make good on his threat every time he visits.

[arolesbianism]

I'm starting to see ppl talk abt updating their artfight pages and at first I was like what why it's still months away and then it hit me that by months it was two months and now I'm just silently sweating as my anual side project to remake the eternal gales refs and give them all icons comes back to haunt me

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[ibyul]

No but you really do see what you’re looking for. If you’re looking for red cars you’ll keep noticing them. If you keep looking for proof that your life is lonely and miserable you’ll find it

But if you keep looking for proof your life is filled with tiny little happinesses you’ll find them too

[merge-conflict]

it's just eternally like: i want to commission art, but the instant i think about articulating what i want i instantly ragdoll

[youaremysunshine-court]

Highkey gonna cry I looked up this uni I have to go to on Insta and literally it looks like the worst fit for me

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 5

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Not much, I had to run errands most of the day and also felt incredibly tired, probably because the cats woke me up like 4 times last night begging for food and things. Overly warm and headachey a lot.

I planted a few new flowers, and pressed more flowers and clovers in my Large Sturdy Flower Pressing Book as well.

Actually worked on translating the text for the previously mentioned tapestry/painting thing. I think I've decided that it doesn't really matter very much, because nobody else even knows anything about this conlang except for me, so they won't know if it's wrong lol.. It is not entirely completed after all (complete enough to translate most simple sentences into consistently, but also there are a few spots here and there where I haven't fully worked out the way some part of speech actually functions or etc., or I wrote down one thing that later contradicts something else, so occasionally I reach a sentence that I'm not sure exactly which rule to follow to translate, and I need to do a larger comprehensive organization of the document to work out all the kinks and declare officially like 'THIS is the ONE way this is done' etc. etc.) - so because of that, I think I'll just kind of 'do my best' and if the rules now end up changing in the future as I further work on the language, then, that's fine, because nobody can read it anyway lol. Kind of like that song on my side music youtube that's sung in genuine Avirrekava lyrics but also I wrote them years ago and some of the sentences have now become outdated/invalid.

Washed and cleaned some kale so it will be dry for me to maybe make silly kale chips tomorrow.

Final proofreading + posting of the poll adventure thing.

eughh,, literally nothing else.. I hate running errands because it always makes me feel drained and sick after, plus I get nothing else done all day except for just going places. I know checking my p.o. box and picking up cat food and stuff is technically still a productive action, but it just feels like.. i should be getting all of my long term projects done instead lol.. what about the videos?? or worldbuilding?? what does grocery shopping have to do with elves??!?! >:V (aside from pretending to be a group of fantasy creatures evaluating produce having an imaginary conversation with yourself at the store ghghj,, but that is not productive either lol)

Notable sights: Found 13 four leaf clovers, and 2 five leaf clovers, though one of them is almost a 6 leaf (like one of the leaves is nearly split all the way into a sort of heart shape, just not entirely). Also two of the clovers are HUGE, probably the biggest 4 leaf clovers I've ever collected, like 2 inches across maybe. The sky was very pretty a lot with big fluffy white clouds. Not a 'sight' really, but I got to sit in air conditioning for a little while today and it was very nice. I love the cold crisp kind of stale air smell, like walking into a freezer or something (which I used to do when I was a kid, I would sneak into a walk-in freezer at a school cafeteria and just sit there for a while lol), it's comforting to me.

Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Had a bit of smoked gouda and green onions in my Mandated Completely Plain Flavorless Grits For Breakfast this morning, as a littol treat lol.. Tried a 'biscoff' ice cream bar, which is generally a flavor profile I like, but I think I would usually rather be eating a cookie than having ice cream. Also an Ensure nutritional drink, which I know most people consider gross but I genuinely like them.. maybe it's like a source of comfort when my stomach is too sick to eat, like 'oh well at least I can have this cold smooth textured chalky chocolate thing' lol.

Sort of like how I have positive conditioning to feel safe/comfortable in bathrooms (due to it usually being one of the only places you can safely retreat from a social situation or get out of crowds in public areas, etc.), even though rationally I have no particular reason to like bathrooms much, and most people dislike public bathrooms especially. Fellow public bathroom and ensure nutritional shake lovers unite! (3 of us in the entire world)