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Blue Lotus - SxC Fic - Chapter 2

♡ Summary: Carmy & Syd go horseback riding!!! Carmy's therapy friends push him to go for what he wants, his 'light at the end of the tunnel'

♡ W/C: 6,534

♡ Posted Date: 04/07/2024

♡ A/N: Hayoooo!!! I am too inspired... this has become a multi-chap fic hahaha I am havin' so much fun here!! Thank you @gingergofastboatsmojito for inspiring me to keep going!!! ILY! As per usual please know - this fic was inspired by THIS FIC here - Tucson by the GLORIOUS GINGER!!!! Go read that before you even THINK about reading this fic ok?! I love how I hate storer for the same reasons but im a sucker for writing a slowburn - I find myself screaming at MYSELF internally "make them kiss already!!!!" but they will KISSSS SHORTLY SO SHORTLY MY DEARSSSS !!! It will be a JUICY TAYLOR SWIFT DAYLIGHT ASS KISS OK!!!! THEY WILL ONLY SEE EACHOTHER FROM THEN ON!!!! Its gonna be a 'and I can still see it all in my mind all of you all of me intertwined I USED TO THINK LOVE WOULD BE BLACK AND WHITE BUT ITS GOLDENNNNNNN. We need Carmy to realize a few more things but then - he will be hozier level devoted to this woman even more then he already is, I hope you enjoy!!

♡ Warnings for BTC: Not really any? Like? LOL - Swearing?! Smoking cigarettes?! They just went horseback riding & carmy went to therapy- oh Ig talks of carmy getting hard LMAO but thats as crazy as we get this chapter. ➵ 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 ♡ ➵ 𝐂𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐮𝐩 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 ♡

Stardust nudges his shoulder so hard he almost falls over, and he turns to look at her. His heart jumped into his throat, his mouth suddenly feeling dry. She was there, she was really there.

“Uh-” he blinked a few times, to be sure that she wouldn’t disappear. “Syd? Hey..uh-” he felt his entire body buzzing with excitement. He couldn’t help the smile that took over his features. She looked… gorgeous. Carmen wasn’t sure there actually was a word in any human language ever to exist that could describe just how wonderful she looked.

Her hair was in its natural state, she was wearing an adorable corduroy jacket, black jeans, and white sneakers. “You came to a farm…in those?” he motions to her shoes.

She laughs a bit “Wow- it’s great to see you too, Carm. Didn’t realize you were…actually like living on a farm” she approached him carefully.

“Shit- yes- fuck- It’s its so good to see you, Syd, C’mere” he pulls her into a tight, long hug. The smell of her lavender vanilla perfume nearly made him melt.

“You’re like…tan- and…muscley now” She laughs a bit, squeezing his arm lightly.

“Uh..” he pulled away, cheeks bright red. “Yeah uh.. It's like- fuckin hard t’ride a horse. And the um…” he rubbed his neck nervously “The uh cows.. They eat hay? Most the time, and so we need to move the bales during the morning for em, they’re like…. 75? 80 pounds? So moving like 10 back and forth every day helps. And I dont really.. Go inside? Here? Its like… uh.. Thats the therapy mostly, the animals- at least f’me” he said sheepishly.

She nodded, looking around the stable. “That one behind you is yours? Shes been side-eying me creepily since I started talking” she pointed to Stardust.

“Oh! Fuck sorry yea, well- no…not- not mine- I got ‘er t’trust me. But uh, yeah this is Stardust. She’s a super sweet girl” He explained. Stardust leaned in, sniffing Syds hair carefully.

“Cute- All you’re missing is a hat” She teased.

He chuckled a bit, “Ok, c’mon - why are you here, Syd” He said with a small smile, crossing his arms over his chest.

She shrugged, looking at the ground and kicking a rock out of the way with her shoe. “Cause…I was worried- I dunno…” She definitely wasn't going to get bold and tell him that she’d missed him, terribly.

“Ok…well now that y’here, and y’see i’m okay…wanna have some fun?” He asked, a small smile on his lips.

Syd looked back up at him, as if he had 3 heads. “Okay- Where is Carmen Berzatto- Not his… Weird alien clone- Camren Brazota” she said, laughing a bit “what do you mean fun?” She asked, and Carmy laughed, real, and genuine.

“Well- If I didn’t change my view a little I’d never leave. So, yes, Syd, ‘a little fun never hurt noone’ - per my therapist. Shes fuckin annoying. I much prefer the horses.” He pet Star’s mane and she leaned into his touch.

“Holy shit” Syd laughed a bit. “Wow- alright. I feel like you’re a whole new man already, what kind of fun?” she mused.

“Ever ridden a horse?” he walked over to the saddle rack, pulling off a double seated one and hanging it over the back of the stall door.

“No- Actually, Don’t I need um…like - stuff for it?” she asked.

“Oh don’t think I wont give you the full experience” he opened the riding closet, “Whats your shoe size?” he asked, crouching down and looking through the pairs of extras.

“8? Er- 9 probably 9” she said. He dug through them until he found a matching pair.

“These should do, y’stuff is cool here we can just leave it in her stall” he told her, holding out his arm for her to hold while she switched her shoes.

“You seem like…” she said as she slipped off her sneaker and put on the boot. “I dunno…chill- well- i wont go that far- but chill-er then before.” Carm snorted a laugh, holding on to her arm to steady her.

“Thanks? I guess..that’s good right?” He asked.

“Yeah! Yeah of course…I mean, it’s nice. To see you not so…anxious.” She said, slipping the other boot on.

“Yeah I um…” he cleared his throat, opening the stall door. “I uh..I’m takin meds- Now? Uh..all this shit. Y’know they have me like tranquilized more then these guys” he said and she laughs, Carmen smiled proudly at the fact, relishing in the wonderful sound.

“But yeah like Like 3 er..er 4. they say I had all this uh..mental shit. Goin’ on w’me and that’s why I was all…wound up I guess” he explained, calling Star out and getting her harness situated.

Syd caught herself staring at his arms as he worked, how the toned muscle moved beneath the fabric of the shirt.

“Aren’t you freezing?” She asked, noticing he wasn’t wearing a jacket like she was.

“Used to it now, well- I mean the moving around. It gets hot this shit is heavy. Wanna try to hold the saddle?” He asked, unhooking the saddle from the stall door where he’d left it momentarily.

“It can’t be that bad” she countered.

“I think this thing weighs probably as much as you do.” He said “hold out your arms” he smiled a bit.

She lifted her arms out in front of her and he plops the saddle down, she had to plant one of her feet forward so she didn’t fall face first due to the sudden weight and he laughed, catching the saddle quickly and baring most the weight.

“Told you” he teased.

She rolled her eyes “yeah whatever. Saddle up the horse, cowboy” she dropped the saddle back in his arms. He hurled the saddle over Stars back with a grunt.

“Fuckin hell” he huffed, realizing since the saddle was nearly double the weight as his usual, and being on the shorter end- he couldn’t just get it on her when she was standing straight. “Bow” he told the horse and she just stared at Sydney.

“Don’t embarrass me, Star. Bow” he told her and she looked the other way.

“So uhhh…this one’s trained, huh?” Sydney teased.

Carmen looked back at her “mmhmm maybe she doesn’t like strangers” he said, walking over to the other side.

“Since she’s bein difficult y’gonna have T’help. C’mere” he waved her over and she followed. “So when I push it up, just grab the saddle pad and make sure it doesn’t move, yea?” He asked.

“The fuck is a saddle pad, dude- I know my way around a kitchen not a fuckin horse stable.” She looked at the many different layers the horse was already wearing.

“Alright. So this,” he lifted the cloth, “is her blanket. Keeps her core warm. And beneath it” he pats the pad “this is her saddle pad, it makes it more comfortable. So our bones aren’t like..diggin in her back and shit. Also shock, when she jumps the foam of it helps our weight disperse. The saddle is so big and heavy I can’t keep the pad still at the same time, so just hold it f’me,” he took her hand, guiding it to where he wanted her to hold.

She felt her heartbeat quicken, his hands were so large and calloused on top of her own. She nodded wordlessly, keeping her eyes trained on where she was meant to be holding and focusing on keeping it steady as he went back around and carefully lifted up the heavy saddle with a grunt, laying it over the horses back.

“Jesus- how much can this thing carry” Syd asked.

“Well she is a mare, she weighs about…mmm- 1900? She can comfortably hold about 400 pounds for a decent distance but she can’t do that for hours and hours at a time. We together can’t be more then 300, and her gear is less then 100 pounds. Were just goin f’r a quick ride, I gotta get to therapy at 3” he explained as he buckled on her saddle.

“Ah. So you’ve been memorizing horse information instead of creating recipes? I figured when I got here you’d have gone nuts by now without being in a kitchen so long” she gently touched the horses mane as she spoke.

“Maybe. Well…I am kinda goin crazy? But I can’t…let it out?” He chuckled a bit “does that make sense? Nights are a little hard before my sleep meds kick in but that just says I haven’t done enough that day” he got up. “So y’gettin up first since I’m sittin in back” he explained.

“Oh…uh- ok how do I?” She asked looking up at the at least 7 foot tall animal.

“Y’not gonna be able to do it alone. C’mere” he told her. She comes over and looks at him.

“How the fuck do you do this?” She looked up at the saddle that was at the top of her head before looking back at him.

“So-“ he snorts a laugh at her wide confused expression. “She’s not gonna like you trying to roll up on her back, and I don’t want you t’get thrown off, she can be moody with new people. I almost broke my shoulder my first time trying to ride her” he said and she crossed her arms slightly.

“So how. How do I get up there?” She asked. He pulled out a step stool, setting it next to the horse and getting up on the third step.

“I’m giving you a lift. Arms up” he said with a playful smirk.

“No- no way- Carmen that’s too high. You’ll drop me!!” She took a step back, feeling slightly nervous.

“I won’t because I’ll bribe her Syd. C’mere” he pulled a pack of peep marshmallows out of his pocket and the horse nearly starts dancing.

“Carm- what the fuck is happening?” She asked and Carmy chuckled.

“Bow. Cmon Syd wants t’ride. Bow and you’ll get y’treat star.” He told the horse.

It obediently bowed down and before Syd could process what was happening, Carm was scooping her up beneath her arms Syd squealed in surprise. “Oh my GOD WHY ARE YOU PICKING ME UP!” She shrieked, wiggling in his arms.

“open y’legs! Cmon! she’s gonna get up!!!” Carmen laughed holding her up higher. Syd finally obeyed and he gently plopped her on the first saddle. “Good girl” he told the horse, feeding her the marshmallow and putting the packet in his pocket again before swiftly getting on behind Syd.

“Alright. Hard part done.” He reached around her waist, and she lifted her arms slightly.

“What- can you tell me what’s going on? I’m a horse virgin!” She said, and they both went quiet for a moment, before cracking up laughing. Syd leaned to her left slightly as she tried catching her breath, grabbing the rein for stability and tugging.

Star took off sprinting, Syd screamed in surprise, her body going tight with fear. Carmen quickly wrapped his arms around Syds waist protectively, tugging on the reigns “WOOOOAH!” He called to Star and she quickly came to a stop.

“Stand.” He told the horse firmly.

“What the fuck Carm I thought she was trained!” Syd exclaimed, gripping onto his forearms for dear life.

“I gotchu, you think I’d let her kick you off?” He tightened his arms around her. Carmen swore his heart was thumping so hard that she felt it on her shoulder blade.

“Also when she moves it’s hard to keep still.” She said nervously.

“Don’t worry, I gotchu, Syd. Lean into me, if our weight is centered then it’ll be easier for all 3 of us” he gently pushed at her stomach.

She leaned back into his broad chest, “see” he said softly. He was lucky the angle didn’t allow for her to see him, because his face was bright red, And having her body pressed against his…was making him flush somewhere else too.

He clicked his tongue and Stardust started walking again, at an easy comfortable trot. “This…is ok.” She said, much more comfortable now.

“I’m gonna take you t’one of my favorite spots.” He said, pulling on the reins to the left lightly so she would follow the left trail.

“Wow, already sharing secret spots huh? I think this therapist may just be Doctor of the year I don’t even think I’ve seen your favorite Chicago spots” she teased.

Carm laughed a bit, he felt so much lighter with Syd around. And life had been lighter ever since he got here.

“How is…uh- how is it back home?” He cleared his throat lightly. It was something that had being weighing on him. Yes, he was here, he was doing the thing. He was making Sugar happy. He was making Syd happy…but he would go back, at some point.

And his biggest fear was things will just go right back. He won’t have this outlet, he won’t have sunset rides with Stardust to ease his mind. He won’t have the cows happily running up to him and greeting him when he was the first one to bring out a bale of hay. He felt like if he was here, he may have the confidence to tell Syd how he feels. But back home? It was another life.

“Fine..things are..y’know. The usual shit. But nothing bad, no one’s getting locked in any freezers if that’s what you mean” she said playfully.

Carm rolled his eyes with a light smile. “Mmhmm. So the restaurant is-“

“Is fine.” She said. “I’d have told you. You know that.” She said and he nodded a bit.

“I know she scared you back there…but it’s pretty fun to go fast. You wanna try?” He asked.

She shifted a bit uncomfortably, her hands tightening around his arms that were holding the reins around her waist. “Uhh…maybe? Are you sure we won’t fall off?” She questioned.

“I’m sure. Here you can be the one to control it. Start light ok? With your legs.” He gently ran his hands down her thighs to right below her knees “here” he said softly, squeezing the flesh gently so she wouldn’t have to lean and look. “With that part of your legs, give her a little squeeze. But really light, or we’ll take out of here like a bat out of hell” he held around her waist again, securely holding the reins.

“Mmhmm” she said, she was beginning to feel hot- and not because she’d done any hard work in regards to getting the horse ready.

“Alright. Whenever you’re ready, you’re the boss” he said the last part softly in her ear. If it wasn’t for her jacket, he would see the goosebumps that had risen on her arms. She nodded quickly, staring straight ahead and trying to maintain her composure.

“So I just?” She squeezed gently and the horse picks up her speed slightly. “Oh…ok” she said.

“Told y’she was trained” Carmy teased and she rolls her eyes.

“Mmm you’ve done a very good job, bribing this horse with peeps. The staff know you do this?” She asked. Carmy snorted a laugh

“No. But she’s healthy. Made sure. She only gets one or 2 if she doesn’t listen.” He admitted.

She shook her head with a smile. “And how’d you find this out, Carm?” She leaned into him once more.

“I…” he laughed a bit, his chest vibrating with the movement and it made her heart warm.

“I uh…spent a few days in the library here. Reading up. After she threw me off. It’s all about trust with em. So I never lied to ‘er and I’ve never done something she didn’t expect because I always try to warn her.” He said, pulling her reigns a bit tighter.

“This is like a joyride Syd cmon, I said fast not an evening stroll.” He teased.

“Fine. Mister horse master- show me what Miss Stardust can do.” She said.

With 2 kisses and a quick tap of his heel, they were off like a rocket. He held Syd steady, being sure she wouldn’t have to do most the work of holding herself center as he gripped each reign with the opposite hand, holding them taught so Star knew to keep going.

Syd laughed, the wind flicking her dark curls all around. He wished she could see her amused expression. “Holy shit this is the best!” She shouted over the loud thuds of Stars hoofbeats.

“I know right! Can you believe she can go faster?” He said, holding his knees taut around her hips to keep her from sliding.

“Okay we are not! This is fine!” She said and sat up a bit “are we going into the-” She asks as Star begins to barrel through a creek, the freezing water spraying up and around them getting them slightly wet, the freezing water splashing from their calves up to their cheeks.. “CARMY!” She screams through laughter.

He could barely catch his breath as he laughed so hard his stomach and ribs ached. “I’m sorry!! Syd! Oh god-“ he chuckled “woah girl- woah” he called to the course and she slowed down once again to a stop.

“Fuck-“ Carmen chuckled “you okay?” He asked, picking a wet leaf from her jacket and throwing it to the forest floor.

“Yeah- I’m.. I’m fine. That was really fun actually. C’mon I wanna see the spot” she said and took it upon herself to tug the reins so Star would take off again

“Shi-it!” He quickly finds his balance, “warn me!! Oh god I almost flew off!!” He told her.

“You think I’d let her throw you off?” She mimics him from earlier and he takes the chance to playfully pinch her waist

“Yes because who’s in back and who’s in front?” He wrapped his arms around her again, taking the reins from her grasp. “Your reign privileges have been revoked for this riding lesson, Ms.Adamu”

She laughed a bit “I’ll earn them back. Don’t worry” she mused.

“Mmm we need to talk about more shit before I just literally hand the reins over. Coulda spooked her and we’d be fuckin dead.” he angled the outside reigns so she’d slow down as they came to the clearing.

“Here we are” he hopped off, raising his arms to help her down.

She carefully reached out for him and he lifted her off, gently setting her down. “Holy fuck Carmy” she turned around, watching the waterfall cascade down over the rocks.

“Right! Told you. It’s a fire spot” he went over to one of the rocks he usually sat at, plopping down and taking out a cigarette. “Oh- shit- can’t have y’running off” he told Stardust and chuckled, leaving the cigarette between his lips as he walked over to her, guiding her over to the tree, and hooking her right rein around a branch before sitting back down.

“Yeah…I can’t remember the last time I went somewhere so…” she trailed off, looking at all the trees and running water.

“Green?” Carmy lit his cigarette, taking a drag. “Not packed with smog? Somewhere that doesn’t smell like shit.” He said as he exhaled.

“…yeah” she said and laughed a bit. “Yeah. Guess that’s it.” She came and sat next to him. “What did you mean about her getting scared?” She asked curiously.

“Oh- a scared horse will fucking kill you. Not on purpose, but they’re big and pure muscle, and will do anything to get away from danger. I scared the shit out of her one time, that was it. Dislocated my shoulder 8th day here. Doing that hurts like a bitch by the way.” He rolled his shoulder gently.

“How’d you manage that? God I knew you were shit at chatting up girls but she dislocated your shoulder?” She teased.

He rolled his eyes with a playful smile, taking another drag. “Yes, I was fuckin around on the trail, dunno why- but there was this branch sticking out so I grabbed it, it snapped, she fuckin reeeared dude. I flew back so hard. My back might still be bruised I’m not sure. Still hurts a little to laugh” he said.

“You better have seen a doctor” she said.

“Ohhh silly Syd.” He sighed, a puff of smoke filling the air in front of him. “We aren’t allowed to refuse treatment here. If you get hurt, and you refuse to get help, it’s considered self harm, which leads to them believing you have suicidal ideation, which leads to you being locked in the actual nuthouse. So yes. I willingly went to the doctor daily for a week. And now, I’m being checked on once a week. So yeah. Oh and therapy daily. And every day I’m given my meds and someone checks over ‘pre-existing injuries’ which that is now considered. So yeah. I’m good. I’m fuckin fine as fine can be.” He said.

“Awww poor little chef, being taken care of so well that’s so hard isn’t it?” She teased and he gives her a playful glare, but couldn’t help but crack a smile when he realized she was smiling too.

“I was being taken care of fine at home by myself but you and my sister just had to ship me off after one tiny accident” he leaned back on his hand, taking another drag of his cigarette.

“It stops becoming an accident when you didn’t care, Carm. You didn’t care. It didn’t phase you. You weren’t even…you weren’t even scared. Just because you didn’t do it on purpose doesn’t mean you did the sane thing which would have been doing everything you could to not let something like that happen.” She said, her tone suddenly serious.

He looked down at his lap, swallowing thickly. He suddenly felt all of the armor he’d spent the last 31 days chipping at, slowly start to meld back together and shell him back in at the shame the whole situation was making him feel.

“I have nightmares…you know. About it. What happened” she said quietly, and he could physically feel his heart ripping open.

The only sound between them was the bubbling stream, and the sounds of their even breaths.

“I’m sorry.” He said quietly, gaze fixed on his lap knowing he would burst into tears at the admission she’d been so deeply plagued by something he’d done, if he had looked at her.

“I know” was all she said, gently resting her hand on top of his. He felt the same fireworks exploding in his chest that he only ever felt when she was around.

“Do you um…” he clears his throat and shook his head, embarrassed by the question plaguing his mind. “Never mind it’s..it’s stupid.” He removed his hand, putting his cigarette in it and resting the hand opposite of her on the rock.

“That usually means it’s not stupid. What?” She coaxed, bumping his knee with hers gently.

“It’s stupid” he said again, shrugging his shoulders.

“It can’t be stupider then asking me what UPS means” She said playfully. He rolled his eyes, smiling and looking over at her.

“And what if it is?” He questioned.

“I would be..worried they’re giving you a bad concoction of meds that’s turning your glorious chef brain in to Swiss cheese” she teased

He snorts a laugh. “I was gonna ask..if you wanted to cook..t’night. My cabin…it uh- has a kitchen? I haven’t cooked in a month. They give us food so I haven’t really bothered but…seeing you makes me miss it more, I guess” he blushed, looking back down at his lap.

“Well obviously. Not gonna let you eat whatever bullshit they’ve been giving you while I’m around.” She said and he shook his head, meeting her gaze once more with a playful smirk.

“Maybe you should check in. My therapist says it’s bad apparently to feel ‘responsible for others’ - says it’s a ‘subconscious self harming behavior’ “ he teased.

She smiled a bit. “Okay- say I do. How about, I check in now, we shoot the shit for what- eleven more days- then, you go back home- and see how stressful it is in that restaurant when one of your hands is basically missing” she plucked the cigarette bud he’d forgotten about from between his fingers before it burnt him, flicking it into the creek.

“You know that’s the first time I’ve seen you smoke- other then…me like checking on you when you were about to explode at work. But you’ve never…pulled one out and smoked it I guess” she said, pulling her knees to her chest and resting her cheek on her forearm as she looked at him.

“Oh…” he said, pulling one of his legs up and resting his arm on it. “Didn’t realize you noticed” he said, brushing some dirt off his jeans.

“I notice a lot of stupid shit about you, it’s kinda annoying honestly.” She said without thinking, her eyes widening when she realized and she looked the other way, resting her other cheek on her knee and squeezing her eyes shut.

Why would you ever say that?! She asked herself internally.

“Oh?” He said again, smiling a bit. “You do?” He questions, but that was as far as he’d push.

“Mhm” was all she responded. Carmys phone started buzzing in his pocket and he pulled it out in case it was one of the ‘base keepers’ they called them. Carmy rather call them babysitters. He knew what they were for, being sure if they were out of sight too long they were making sure they could still get ahold of them.

He sighed in relief when he saw it was just his 2:40 alarm. “Gotta go” he stood up, offering his hand to Syd. “Like- now. Or my ass is getting chewed out.”

The ride back to the cabins was mostly silent. He had no stool this time, so he had to pick up Syd essentially by the ass and gently place her on Stars back so she didn’t get spooked.

He was embarassed as fuck that the tiny action had the crotch region of his jeans tightening more then was casually explainable. Thank god no one was around to see him awkwardly hop in the way of his semi hard third leg down his left pant leg, grunting but covering it with a dry cough when she settled her ass back into him to ‘center their gravity’

Syd absolutely felt the firmness pressing into her ass. She thought it was a bit funny, but also brushed it off to the strange friction that came with riding a horse. She couldn’t allow herself to fully believe his teenage like excitement was due to her, or she’d go insane.

Carmy dropped Syd off at his cabin, giving her the key and telling her he’d put up Stardust and be back by 5, she would be blushing if it weren’t for her mahogany complexion at the domesticity of it all - er what she could imagine domesticity with Carmy would feel like.

Her panties were also soaked through from the feeling of his enormous length pressed into the curve of her ass - the entire way back - but she just chalked that up to not getting laid for a few months, and misreading his natural arousal for him being horny- she quickly pushed the thought down and just chalked it up to the horse. Because guys get hard when they ride horses…right? Right?!

Carmen arrived to therapy extremely frustrated, and extremely ready to talk. He sat down in his regular spot in the back, tapping his knee nervously and covering his crotch with his hands. Luckily, thinking about his mother was enough to make him soft nearly instantly so he had that to thank her for at least.

“Alright guys!” Julienne, the usual Friday therapist came in, sitting in her spot in the circle. “Who is up today! We are-“ she looks at her iPad “oh! Yes this is another OP class, so- no pressure but, I wanna hear what’s goin on!” She crossed her legs.

Julie was far from his favorite therapist, at Blue Lotus. But he wasn’t his least favorite. So he would still talk. He cleared his throat, raising his hand slightly.

“Carmy?! What a treat! Okay what’s up” she grabbed her little stylus pencil. He bit the inside of his lip nervously. He despised how casual she tried to make this all feel.

“Uh…so- my um…business partner, she came to see me. I guess I haven’t been…keeping touch? Enough? She just said she was worried…” he cleared his throat again, gaze fixed on his lap. “And uh…I’m startin’ t’-t’realize stuff?” He sniffled nervously, rubbing his mouth with slightly clammy, nervous hands.

“She uh..” he chuckled a bit. “She…she just…showed up. Didn’t hear shit from ‘er. She probably knew that I’d uh…I’d tell ‘er no?” He finally meets the gaze of Julie.

“Okay. You know guests are allowed right? Like- during the visiting hours, 6am to 11pm, no fraternizing between patients but-“ Carmen cuts her off

“We aren’t - no. Not fraternizing” He shook his head. “But uh…today? We were- we were sitting. This spot, near uh, Jupiter point? On the north side. And I had this- this urge T-to tell her…everything.” He shook his head, looking at the floor again.

“So…you wanted to tell her you love her?” Jesse, one of the guys he’d had lunch with a few times piped up.

“T’be honest, I don’t know.” Carmen said honestly, looking at him.

“Well what does it feel like?” Jesse asked, sitting up a bit.

“What? Like- what does what feel like?” Carmen asked curiously.

“Her. Being with her. Talking to her? Inside. Like. Your chest. Your skin?” He questioned.

“Uh…” Carmen sat back, swallowing thickly and crossing his arms over his chest. He thought for a moment.

“Hot. I get hot. All over. My chest feels tight but - but good? Like- a hug almost. And then…when she…” he blushed, looking down with a shy smile. “When she touches me” he shook his head slightly. “When she touches me it’s like um.. fireworks? Like fireworks beneath my skin.” He chuckled a bit at how cheesy it sounded.

“And you haven’t fucking nailed her?” Jessie asked plainly.

Carmen furrowed his brows, glaring at him. “No” he clenched his jaw “I haven’t.” He snips.

“Dude- you are- pussy whipped with no pussy?! You- you love her, Carmen. You love this chick. I feel like I’m looking in a weird straight mirror - the first time-“ he laughed a bit “the first time I kissed a guy- god. He was so hot. But I had no idea! I had no idea. I really thought that I was just-“ he shook his head “that I was just wanting to befriend him? Or something? But like- I wanted to fuck him. And when I did kiss him? Something unlocked in my brain dude. It was like…like a whole new world. I felt like I knew - I knew what love could feel like? Just ‘cause of that one kiss “ he shrugged.

Carmen looked at him, arms crossed, trying to absorb everything he was saying even though every fiber of his former self was screaming to take it with nothing more than a grain of salt.

“Kiss her dude. Kiss her.” Jesse said and sat back in his chair.

“Well. Although, consensual sexual instances are against the code of conduct to discuss - I am very proud to see you two coming out of your shells. Has anyone else felt… confused in their romantic endeavors and would like to share?” Julie asked.

Carmen crossed his arms tighter, looking down at his lap. This was quite unusual for him, he was one of the patients to only add what he had to to be credited during inpatient, and during outpatient - only spoke when he really and honestly had to.

“Uh-“ the super tall girl, Shayna sits up. Carmen was never really sure why she was here. She looked…perfect by all means. Perfect skin, perfect nails, pretty face, long blonde hair, a perfect body by girl standards. Or at least what Carmen had understood of them.

“Not really the same.. but before I came out? I like…I would uh buy…girl clothes. That I liked. For my girlfriends at the time…” she blushed “and um.. I realized after a while that I liked them. And I wasn’t just..wanting to see my girlfriend in them. And like- it’s not the exact same, but when he said… about how Jesse realized he wanted the guy. That’s how I felt when I finally tried the clothes on” she shrugged.

Carmen was…aghast. He just simply stared at her. He’d never met- or thought- he’d ever met a trans person before today. But…Shayna?

Well- he was wrong because he had met her, they actually knew each other fairly well as far as patients go, she joined the program when he did. When they first met, she’d made a joke about how they were the tallest girl and shortest guy in the class, so that meant they were bound to be friends, since opposites attract - and that earned a chuckle out of him before his meds had even fully evened out.

“I love the cis-and-confused look- it’s cute” she said and laughed a bit. Carmen blushed, smiling a bit.

“Not confused- well, maybe. Maybe a little. Y’Just so…dainty? I dunno..” he shrugged.

“In case you haven’t noticed- mr.little man syndrome- you’re only one out with the cows doing the hay on time in the morning. Ninty percent of the group is your version of dainty ” Jesse teased.

“Jesse” Julie gives him the look. “I’d assume that means- the rest of you that aren’t out helping with the bales- are scraping out the cow pens? Since Carmen is doing all the hard work according to you.”

“I’m not girl- fuck no! The second I got out of inpatient house arrest? I walked my happy ass down to Walmart and bought me some blackout curtains. I recommend those to all of you! Oh my god and some ear plugs!! The stupid fucking roosters! Worst 15 days of my lifeee! I’m never coming back here peace and love to you all though. Truly. Can’t stand this cow shit stank ass place.” Shayna said dramatically, causing Carmen to chuckle a bit.

He had loved her boldness since they’d met. If Shayna didn’t want to do something- she wasn’t doing it. He learned that the day the staff tried to force her on anti-depressants. One of the main therapists got a Wellbutrin straight to the eye, they never attempted that battle the same way again.

“We know Shayna you aren’t shoveling scat, princesses don’t do that” Jesse mocked her valley girl tone.

“Okay! Okay. Alriiiight! Back on track- done with the bickering!” Julie said. “Now that open call is over let’s move on to breakthroughs. This issss-“ she looks at her iPad “ah- yes! D group. So. That makes it-“ he checks her watch “ah- right. 11 days! How are your light tunnel projects going?” She questioned.

Carmen’s chest tightened, but not in the Syd is smiling or he made Syd laugh way- in the - I haven't done something I was meant to do way.

The Light Tunnel project wasn’t hard. It was simply one thing you have done that you had wanted to do when you came into the program. And Carmy knew what his answer was,

Admit how he felt to Sydney.

Or, as his Therapist- Mandy told him ‘become more truthful with yourself and those you know about how you feel’ because “counting on someone to like him back would put him at square one” he had pretended to understand, but knew that he had to tell her and soon - or he was going to really go insane.

“ my light tunnel was to talk to my asshole father- but lucky for me I just caught wind the motherfucker finally died thank god. So by default I win and don’t have to be here anymore cause his abandonment was what fucked me up anyhow“ Shayna said jokingly, causing Carm to snort a laugh. He knew she was only joking about the leaving early part, not the father part. Her father was an even bigger piece of shit then Carmen’s was, he had come to learn.

“Mmm that isn’t how it works we know that Shayna. We’ll talk more about this in one to one “ Julie told her and Shayna crossed her long legs, looking out the window.

The last 20 minutes of the session Carmen sat silently, looking out the opposite window to Shayna, watching the horses running around in the field before they got called in for dinner and just spacing out, thinking about what he may say to Syd.

“Yo - Carm space cadet” Shayna said before kicking his boot he jumped a bit, looking up at them both and had realized the room since had cleared and Julie was preparing for her next session.

“Shit.” He said “how long have I been like…like that?” He asked, his cheeks feeling hot.

“It’s the OCD meds. They get you stuck in a happy thought loop sometimes. Are you just gonna sit here? You wanna do another hour of this with sniveling group a? They got here three days ago.” Jesse said. Carm shook his head, getting up.

“No- no sorry” he said starting with them outside. Shayna laughed a bit

“You were thinking of screwing that business partner aren’t you. “ she said, causing Carmys cheeks to go pinker.

“Shayna shut up!” Jesse scolded, pushing her shoulder lightly.

“Awwww carmyyy are your feelings hurt little buddy? Do you need a hug? Jesus men are such pussys” she pushed open the doors of the therapy cabin for them.

“Let me see pictures of this hot chick. If you don’t fuck her I will and I bet I’d do a better job” Shayna teased as they started heading back towards the cabins.

Carmen couldn’t even process what she said as he felt his breath get caught in his chest, he saw her. She was sitting on the porch of his cabin, criss-cross in one of the rocking chairs as she writes in her notebook. He couldn’t help but stop and stare at the way the setting sun hit her bronze skin, her curls casting intricate patterned shadows on the wood. He felt his heart pick up, his chest squeezing in that way, the way that only happened when he saw her.

Shayna and Jesse stopped after a few moments when they realized Carm had gotten stuck behind. They both follow his gaze carefully to see what he was so fixed on, like a trance.

“Holy fuuuck!!! Holy fuck how did I get this lucky!! She’s here? She’s here still?!” Shana asked excitedly, “oh my god- you’re getting laid- tonight” she excitedly skips up to the cabin and Syd looks up, locking eyes with her before seeing Carmen just a few paces behind. “I’m Shayna! Do you and Carm wanna hang out with us tonight?”

➵ 𝐍𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 ♡♡♡

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mutant-munchies · 5 months

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god I'm honestly starting to wonder what it would be like if Mintee visited your turts (;￢＿￢)

whaddyu think?? I went to 2 nearby McDonalds spots and none of the frozen machines (for frozen fanta drinks and stuff) were working and i was on the verge of losing my shit and destroying my dad's Toyota car because I was craving a drink and then THAT happened and now all I'll ever have is homemade green tea

Sorry I'm you sent this a while ago. I wanted to draw out the interactions but I couldn't get my mental images out if that makes sense smh

Hopefully me drawing her as like an in universe character makes up for that, she's Pastel Goth tho I doubt there's any other bright colored main character or just characters in general I chose that for her to keep her recognizable. I tried to change her colors as least as possible hope this makes up for lack of art :33(maybe I'll try again later)

Each of the turtles have their own igs "capabilities" with socializing with other or new people in general

Leo- She would try to be friendly but a bit awkward. Leo feels most comfortable talking to girls, makes her feel included if that makes sense. But she's also cautious for past problems of trusting too much, shed probably ask her what she's into and try to convert her into watching her favorite show or an anime (nobody else really watches what she does except for Donnie on occasions). If Mintee turned her down Leo would be a little upset but understand, then ask what she'd want to do and take it from there

Raph- Raphs not a "people person" he has a small click of people he talks to(excluding his siblings and boyfriend..)it's about like 2 others. If she tried to talk to him he'd probably just give dry and snappy responses, wouldn't be anything against her that's just how he is. If she got him to talk about animals tho he'd put more effort(he's into them just hates admitting it)

Donnnie- they're not the best at like "physical"/face to face socializing but(i think i saw that you mentioned that Mintees a mutant)they'd be really interested into that and ask a bunch of questions about that. Other then that they'd be awkward and have short responses(maybe text them instead lol/hj)

Mikey- Mikey's the most social out of all the turtles, he has a super fascination with hair. He like braiding Angel taught him how)combing/brushing it, playing with it, running his fingers through it, and just likes looking at it. He's show her all his toys and stuffed animals, ask to color with him and talk about his siblings and Leatherhead(his bff)he'd ask her stuff about herself and what she likes and what her favorite character from a show he watches is and if she doesn't watch the show hell just go "Oh well you remind me of___" . He'd probably talk her ear off to the point she just prays his ass falls asleep

If I think of more I'll add it^^sorry for the late answer

#tmnt fandom #mutant munchies tmnt

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cyrsed · 23 days

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how do you get your colors in your art to look so good?

gonna resist the urge to say my colors aren't that great, and i'm gonna try and think about how i do color seriously.... also thank you for the compliment! i've always felt like i struggle with color but maybe i can still be helpful :B if this stuff is all super basic, apologies in advance

ig i already love bright colors, especially warm colors, but i feel like a lot of making visual art is bringing out the contrasts between colors, light and dark, textures, movement, saturation, curves and straight lines, etc., so that just means i usually try to think about the relationships between the colors a little more than the colors individually.

i also don't usually start with a solid color palette defined beforehand. i usually know the basic colors i want, but i don't typically choose them before i start bc that's too rigid for me, and i want to be able to adjust things or throw things out without worrying that i'm messing up the balance of a palette i already committed to.

so for this one

i used a lot of warm colors bc i loove earthy yellows and oranges, but i think it can make colors feel more vibrant if they're next to colors that contrast w/ it (warm and cool, or complementary colors).

the "gray" metal parts of the picture like the shelf stile coming down vertically, and the jar lids behind it, are green to contrast w the oranges and reds in particular, and there's some blue popping up in the zombie head and the shadows on the bottom shelf for the same reason, altho the blue is a touch on the greener, cooler side of blue (as opposed to the purpler, warmer side).

usually if i use a color in one place, i try to pull it into the rest of the picture for better balance unless maybe if it's the focal point. so i'm doing that with the blue, and the orange stickers to spread the bright orange from that big jar around more.

also i don't usually use straight gray/white/black, 99.9% of the time i'll use something tinted like that green metal stile, or the pinkish gray in the jar on the far right.

same here: it's mostly green and red bc i like that combo & they're complementary, but i did try to pull a little blue in as well through the shadows on the right ribcage and that one mystery organ under the green intestine, nd in the back of the leg.

that being said tho, it's not really "blue", it's more like nearly gray-purple that looks blue bc it's next to such bright warm colors. that's the magic of gray lol, it's very useful bc it's easy to make it look as if it's warm/cool depending on what colors it's surrounded with.

ig color for me is mostly about color relationships and saturation... the gray can look like blue if it needs to, and it can make the colors next to it look even more vibrant so the skin of this necromorph dude looks sickly and dead but the organs look pretty lively.

when i shade something i always try to use a color that's at least a little bit different from whatever the base color is. so in this case the base color was that kind of pale orange and the orange-ish gray, but the shadows are both super saturated & one is leaning more toward a sienna/orange (on the left side of the pic on the arm and ribs) and the other one is leaning a lil more toward a berry purple/red & i think that usually adds some nice depth to the color. also don't be afraid to add reeeally dark darks and really light lights, but imo the darks give colors the most life by contrast.

since this was a limited palette & not that detailed, i didn't worry about pulling that aquamarine anywhere else.

other than that, i just try to be bold with colors, and go for something exciting & not worry too much about whether it looks naturalistic. plus there's tons of colors you can pull out from regular objects/lighting/whatever else. this isn't specific to color, but the other thing i try to do is practice seeing what colors/forms are really there, not what i expect to be there.

a super basic example would be if i want to draw a banana, i don't want to just automatically reach for yellow bc bananas are yellow, i want to either look closely at the real banana i want to draw, and really try to see what colors are really there (which can be surprising tbqh), or if i'm not actually looking at a real one, then just try to pull in more color for the fun of it, like shading it with purple or blue maybe idk go nutso!

tl;dr i think i usually try to keep in mind

warm/cool color balance

complementary colors (altho tbh you can make any color combo look good, esp if you mess with warm/cool balance)

saturation (i keep a lot of things saturated, but also the contrast between saturation/desaturation can make the colors look more intense)

light and dark contrast

using tinted grays to imply a warmer/cooler color that contrasts with the main palette

color depth (shading with cooler and/or warmer variations of similar colors)

go nutso

#ask #anonymous #cyrsed art #i hope this wasn't completely unhelpful lol i don't know how much of this is just super common sense stuff #but ty for asking it was interesting to try and actually put the process to words

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zephsthings · 8 months

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ill tell u about one of my ocs if u tell me about urs *eyes emoji*

YIPPEE!!! Okay okay so the wip I've got (six chapters so far) has a rag tag group of mentally ill teens just tryna get thru life and work thru trauma - it's a cute lil coming of age story ig !!!

There's four of them:

Jonah, Aliya, Benji and Olivia!

Jonah is a redhead and is covered in cute lil freckles and has the sweetest honey coloured eyes :))) he's also Jewish :))) he has adhd and a plethora of childhood trauma (long story short cus it would spoil the plot otherwise hehe his dad was a piece of shit)

Aliya is total sweetheart - she loves taking care of people ! She's OCD (recently diagnosed in the book timeline) and is working through ED recovery :))) she has hazel eyes and raven black hair and has three brothers: one older, two younger (they're twins)

Benji is a tol boy (6ft), beanstalk baby !!! He's autistic and gay and adorable :))) his younger sister is autistic too and they vibe together a lot it's cute af :))) Ben's got super blonde hair and bright blue eyes and lots of freckles :)))

Olivia is a sassy little bitch who aggressively loves her friends and takes care of them by telling them off for not looking after themselves!!! Sometimes she forgets to take her own advice lol she has Turners syndrome too :)))

Anyways that's a whistle stop tour of my OCs hope u enjoyed !!! If you wanna know more just ask !!! :DDD

#zeph just stfu #zeph answers #zeph writes

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i-promise-i-am-not-on-drugs · 27 days

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I just rewatched 09×02 and I didn't do my rewatch-ramble because I knew it was going to be chaotic as hell and way too long to do lol--

So he's a resume of my thoughts:

– The first reunion scene

"I never gave up on you." Mike, you're a filthy little liar. 🤨🤨

Anyway, the hugs where TuT💕💕

Loved how El went to Joyce almost immediately!! :)

Poor Max tho. That was mean El, you got this? Don't be mean to your future bff. >:(

– Hopper and Mike

I have looottsss of thoughts about this scene, but I'm just going to say this: I don't think Mike was talking about Hopper. Or not only about him at least.

Yep, take that and do what you want with it.

– Hopper and El

Their relationship during this episode made me really happy. I love that they explained each other (well, especially Hopper, but yk what I mean) and that they both apologized for being stupid. :)

– Will, Joyce, Jonathan, and Nancy

All of their scenes were so :((

Will strangling Joyce... I kinda forgot about that tbh, but yeaaahhhh... Must have been traumatic for all the Byers. :(

Also, Nancy burning Will to stop him... She could've done that somewhere else... Because like, I know it was a fast reaction, and a pretty decent one at that, but burning Will with a heated metal bar through his clothes was not her best idea. I bet that left a pretty bad scar, and that the hospital dress probably melted on in, at least a bit. Also, that thing was full of microbes, and even if it was heated enough to kill all of them, the fact that they didn't take care of the burn correctly and immediately most likely wasn't the best for Will's health. I bet it got infected in no time.

And, kinda unrelated ig, but the look one Will's face when the lights went super bright (because of El's powers probably) was empty as fuck oh my gosh--

Boy was tired as hell and didn't give a shit about anything at this point.

– Steve and the kids (+Billy)

Honestly Steve didn't do too bad against Billy, I'm actually kinda impressed. I don't think he had much of fighting experience at this point, and Billy clearly love to fight, so it was already unfair since the start. But Steve still got some good hits!! :)

And Max sedating Billy was so cool to see, you go girl!! ✨

Love how panicked Steve was when he realized who was driving, it was hilarious XD

(also, fun fact! Steve called Mike "Nancy" in that scene. Guess what calling a boy Nancy means?

I'm calling: queer coding!!!)

( here's the source if you're interested)

And they all did really good underground!! Mike's idea was amazing (even if extremely unsafe), and they executed it perfectly. 😌

Also can we talk about how Mike literally almost died there?? My boy could have been burnt to death because of that stupid vine!!! :(((

Also, Dustin and Dart!! Love that scene. :)

– Nancy and Steve

They broke up there right? It was kinda weird, but I think they did.

Fucking finally!

That scene where Steve looks at Nancy thought the window at the snow ball made me a bit sad for him tho. :(

– Steve and Dustin

THEY'RE SO SIBLINGS KWOSSKSBZJSKK 🥹🥹💕

– Dustin and Nancy

Nancy was being really nice in there, I absolutely love that scene. Poor Dustin thought, girls are so mean. :((

– Lucas and Max

THEY!!!!! SO CUTE!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGJHHLJDTLUTDDRULLXUULHFLUTDOYRSOGYOGOYGIYLUXTIDYFDIYDYI!!!! TOT💕

– Mike and El

Honestly their scenes were pretty cute ig... I don't know, they kinda look forced to me. But whatever.

The snow ball scene was actually pretty wholesome tho.

Also one of the last times Mike compliments El, and that kiss was...TV-like? It was like they were trying to copy what they saw in movies. But hey, nobody's perfect!

– Hopper and Joyce

And with this, my ST2 rewatch is done!! :D

Ty for reading my rambling lol, hope you're doing great. :)

#stranger things 2 rewatch #stranger things rewatch #st rewatch #st2 rewatch #st2 #st #09×02 #the gate #stranger things analysis #mike wheeler i know what you are

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grokebaby · 1 year

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Hiiii Me again <3 Could we have crumbs of Grandefel maybe 🥺👉👈 would love to know more about herrrrr. Angle of all time. Id like to know anything tbh but just as a prompt to get you started, how did you come up with her design ?? Its super interesting and I really love the colorssz

Hiiiii<3 (twirls my halo) she is so THE. My poor.. Intended protagonist girlboss..

Oh boy her design? Let's say she really grew into it. Like the earliest art of her I have is sso ugly I'm sorry Grande but I did not have a handle on that thang. She had such Pug vibes. I think this'll be an interesting post?

This is the beginning of it all. Unfortunately I don't have a super insightful answer to how I came up wi her, bc the Og* angels were literally me going HeeHoo with a pencil. (*Certain specific angels I designed in relative succession to each other before I had a handle on how I want to design angels. The so called Ogs are Lamera, ZZZ, J'aimekiel, Grandefel, Kxxxtr, Ngah and Combfa. Everyone after this was designed a notable amount of time later and with much more "process" to them)

I have some thoughts but it's fuzzy and vague? Okay. So I thought I should definitely do one lion (esque?) at least bc *points at old religious art of angels* and they just have those Vibes to me, ykno? I associate angels with certain things that I try to employ in the story's characters (to an extent). Grandefels vibes were.. Guardian, maybe a tad like a sphynx, just ykno, a huge feline statue like entity who guards something and is like a scary immovable force ig? I wanted some ethereal aspects to it, and lots of teeth (hers aren't visible here but the whole underside of her body opens up to a huge ass mouth with teeth everywhere). Now, initially I was gonna have her hair be lilac but turn bright blue in some situations but I WAAAY preferred the blue on her. She's supposed to have Blue flames mixed with galaxy vibes. Like if blue flames were a puddle and that puddle was a lion's mane. And it was all. Cool and semi-physical

Onto how her design adjusted overtime.

I think most firstly I stopped drawing the grooves on her body that would open up to reveal the Teeth, I mean I do still allude to them vaguely but I figured the way I was doing it at first looked kinda.. Eugh? Another thing I quickly started changing was her hair texture. Originally I wanted it to be completely straight and smooth and flowing but it looked way more interesting and more galaxy esque with it being bubbly and cloudy. I guess my initial thought was that I wanted it to look like it was flowing out of her head? Like some water?

^water vibes

Getting there

Galaxy vibes^

(This anthro drawing also demonstrates the way I nowadays moreso "allude" to her hidden mouth but the anthro version here isn't too close to Canon otherwise since I gave her face an actual normal mouth too lol)

Oh yes, and the crown is another major change!

I think my first notable adjustment was made here (note also the flowy hair). If gotten an amino commission (No money, just amino coins lol) of her and really liked the way the artist drew her crown so I took after that and started slowly changing it. It took me a while to be satisfied with, though. In the very beta version, it was supposed to be like a ring/circle. If you look at the older drawings up there, you can see that one horn is meant to be drawn on the "front" and the other behind. It's like if you looked at her from straight up, you'd see the three dimensionality of it, being more like an actual halo instead of one solid headgarment. I do still really like this idea, however I just think it looks better as it is now. I also had a fair bit of finagling with the side horns, frankly I always found them ugly so I'm finally happy with how they look (just realising I haven't drawn her in a bit, so, the anthro pic is the most accurate to her current design if we ignore the uh.. Anthro-ness lol)

One more thing! You don't see her halo too often in these, but it's intended to be drawn tilted. It's not straight (just like her), and tilts a bit down on one side. In universe this is kinda viewed as an imperfection and she used to be ashamed of it. The irl explanation for it was that it couldn't fit straight between the horns, with the way I'd formed the crown, and so I kept it that her halo just is that way! It fits oddly between her crown and I think that's neat!

Apparently on that last picture I decided to draw the halo straight, though? Cringe... :/

Now if you'll excuse me this post made me want to make more art of her

#Ask #Grandefel #Character design #character development #Angel oc #Design breakdown #(sorta?)#I too love her colors! She's so funky to draw!

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khaire-traveler · 2 years

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Returning the favor- I’d like to know how you see the gods, too :3 Same guidelines or whatever ig lmao

Hey, Noah, thanks for the ask! @opatofazquack asked the same question, so I'm tagging them here.

I'll also answer will all...however many of my gods. This will include gods I don't actively worship if I have visualized them (23 in total). I'll just name them in a list and add a cut, for those who'd like to read. Warning: I may get poetic about it. 😂

Disclaimer: How I visualize the gods does not and should not invalidate how others visualize them. I'm just sharing my personal experiences, and if someone happens to have a different experience, that is more than ok. ☺️🧡

Greek Gods

Selene - Like the moon, her appearance varies quite a bit for me. Even now, I can't quite get a clear image of her. The only consistent thing I can pin down for her is an aura of bright, white light that surrounds her.

Helios - I see him as a black man with shoulder-length hair done back in dreads. His eyes are a deep brown but get light as honey towards the pupil. He has super cute freckles, too, and his face is kind and strong. His features are a bit sharper, and his nose is more of a hooked nose. He is VERY tall and toned - more of a slim muscular build. He usually has no shirt but has an ancient-looking cloth around his waist that goes down to his mid-thigh like a skirt, kind of. He does have a necklace, but doesn't wear much jewelry. He does have A LOT of cool ass tattoos, though! The shapes of the tats are hard to describe, but I believe one of them - on his shoulder or hand, can't remember which - is in the shape of a sun.

Leto - I can't get the clearest picture of Leto, but usually she has wavy medium brown hair, light tan skin, and beautiful white/silver eyes. She's usually a little chubby and gives off strong mom vibes. She has crows feet and smile lines, and it's clear she has lived a good life. Her smile is very sweet. Her features are more rounded, but her nose is more hooked. She typically wears a long white chiton dress with a purple patterned shawl draped over her shoulders. Can't see her shoes under her dress.

Hestia - She's definitely very tall for me lol. She has a plumper frame with rosy cheeks and a calm smile always on her face. Her skin is a deep olive color. She has a sharper face, though the rest of her features are rounded. Her eyes are a bright, glowing orange, like the flames of a fire, and they become more yellow as the color gets closer to the pupil. Her hair is long and wavy - a crisp dark brown - and she usually wears a long, off-white chiton dress of sorts with a bright orange shawl that has gold accents. She always has on pretty earrings and usually wears at least one gold bracelet. You can see the tips of her sandals poke out from underneath her dress, and they're usually gold colored.

Hera - For me, Hera is a tall, slender woman with a very regal air to her. She is usually paler than the other gods with wavy, dark brown hair and a hooked nose. Her features are sharp and angular. High cheek bones. She's usually standing in a very elegant position, although she does this comfortably, not out of formality. She wears a white chiton that has a top half that's been dyed purple. She has a gold shawl around her - looks to be fleece? Her dress is long and flows out behind her; you can barely see her feet underneath. She usually wears a lot of gold and crystal jewelry. The most common crystal I think I know the name of is an amethyst-like one - something that is a very vibrant purple. It matches her top! She also has her hair always done in an up-do of some kind and is wearing a very dainty, beautiful crown on her head.

Demeter - Honestly, Demeter changes a lot for me, but she usually has hair the color of golden wheat. Her features are a mix of sharp and round, and she has a kind face but definitely the energy of someone who knows her worth and power. She is a bit shorter and usually wears a light yellow and green chiton of sorts with either sandals or no shoes. She's got sun-kissed skin and light-colored eyes, though what that color is is up for debate lol.

Zeus - A very large man with the most epic beard you've ever seen in your life. All of his hair is white with a streak of grey the runs from his long, curly hair into his long, curly beard. He is very broad-shouldered and a bit heavier set but still very muscular. Kind of reminds me of a teddy bear, if that helps. He has smile lines and more of a rounded face with wrinkles placed here and there. His hands are very big, which I just think is cool lol. He's also very tall but shorter than a couple of the gods (to me, he's shorter than Hades). He has a big nose that's a little more hooked and piercing blue eyes that sometimes appear to have clouds of grey passing through them, as if the sky is contained in his eyes. He wears a purple and white chiton that has accents of gold as well as a pair of golden sandals woven with braids.

Poseidon - A taller slim man with a muscular build. He's shorter than Hades but taller than Zeus by, like, an inch lol. Dark olive skin with some wrinkles on his face. He always has a confident smile on his face. I swear his hair is always wet. It's long, jet black, and ends up looking straight, but idk if it's actually straight since it's often soaking wet. He wears this badass blue and silver armor with fish scales embedded into it; it's extremely difficult to describe. Sometimes he has a blue or gold cape. He also sometimes wears a silver crown with a few jewels on it. He usually has his trident with him, and my god is it cool. Idk, Poseidon definitely goes out of his way to look like a badass, and it works splendidly for him. Also, he sometimes has a beard and sometimes doesn't.

Hades - VERY tall (he may be the tallest), slender, and a bit lanky. His skin is almost grey in complexion and his hair is long, straight, and black. He has long and slender features with a hooked nose. His eyes have dark circles around them and are a very kind dark brown color, almost appearing black. His outfits change too often for me to mention any specific one, but he wears a mix of both modern and ancient clothing, which he's the only one of my deities who does that, besides Aphrodite. Sometimes he wears a dark suits, sometimes he's chilling in a bath robe, other times he's in a grey chiton - it varies greatly on his mood. No beard.

Persephone - Her appearance changes, but the one I am most familiar with is a medium height woman with wavy dark brown hair and a fair complexion. She has rounded features and a kind face with beautiful dark brown eyes. She usually has her hair done in some pretty way and typically has little flowers placed throughout her hair. It adds a lot of pretty color! Her outfits change a lot, too, but I typically see her in a shorter pale yellow chiton with flowers sewn into the rims. It's almost like a cute sun-dress type of thing. She is almost always barefoot in the outfit. She does also have a flower crown and sometimes a flower necklace, but other than that, she doesn't usually wear a lot of jewelry for me.

Apollon - Interestingly, he changes, but the changes are usually very small and difficult to describes - changes that you'd only notice if you were looking at him very closely, so I won't mention them. Mostly, he is an olive-skinned man with a fairly built body - muscular but not overly so. He has chiseled features, sharp and pointed, with a straight nose. He has this beautiful, shiny, long blond hair (golden as the rays of the sun) that's usually pretty wavy. And his eyes, damn... They're baby blue - blue as the sky - with speckles of gold sprinkled throughout them. There is a rim of gold around his pupil, too; it looks super cool. Clothing-wise, he usually wears what looks to be fashioned around the ancient Greeks...it's a cloth around his waist that's usually either blue or purple and is kept up using a golden pin. There are pretty beads and golden chains that accompany this cloth, also around his waste. He also wears a lot of golden jewelry (anklets, bracelets, piercings, etc.), and his hair is almost always in some sort of style, be it a hair bow, a braid, or even a man bun. He doesn't usually wear shoes.

Artemis - She's a little shorter than Apollo but just as cool lol. She has curly dark brown hair which she usually keeps in a bun, most likely for convenience. She has a pair of antlers attached to a fitness band sort of thing. She's got a rather toned, muscular build and is still pretty slim. Usually, she has this mud-colored paint on her face, specifically in a block around her eyes and stripes down her cheeks and arms. She also has a dark green paint that accents the mud-colored one, using it with stripes down her cheeks and arms. Her eyes are a very dark brown with specks of vibrant green in them, and her darker tanned skin matches them very beautifully. She's always wearing a short sleeve of some kind and wears what I'd call a short chiton, but I think it's a different type of clothing entirely; I just don't know the name for it. Something ancient. Whatever it is, it's usually colored green and brown, like the forest I assume she hunts in. She doesn't usually wear shoes, but when she does, they're very dark brown sandals. No jewelry for her. She also always carries her bow and arrow with her.

Aphrodite - I literally cannot pin down one specific appearance for her, but the best I can do is chubby woman with pale skin and rosy cheeks and very curly, strawberry blonde hair. Very pink lips. She usually shows up naked for me, but sometimes she was a light pink chiton with gold accents on it. She always wears pretty jewelry, usually pearl earrings with a pretty pearl necklace and anklet. No shoes. She does look super majestic to me, though, like seeing a unicorn in an enchanted forest.

Ares - Ares is very hard to describe. He is usually very tall and very muscular. A large man who still gives off heavy dad vibes. He has dark olive skin with curly black hair, though the color sometimes changes. His hair goes to his shoulders. He has blocky features with a chiseled jawline and a prominent hooked nose. His eyes are a vibrant red mixed with a cool crimson - difficult to describe. He usually has some stubble on his face, though no beard. He has a very stoic expression mostly, but it's not intentionally intimidating. Very thick eyebrows, btw. He usually wears gold or bronze colored ancient armor with his helmet resting atop his head. He used to not wear the helmet, but after certain events occurred...he started to. His armor is dyed the same red as his eyes on his chest plate, as well as other places that I can't remember right now. Sometimes he has a spear with him, sometimes he doesn't. Sometimes he has a shield with him, sometimes he doesn't. It really depends. Overall, though, that's how he looks.

Eros - Honestly, his image is pretty blurry to me, and I haven't had enough interactions to give a concrete appearance for him. From what I've seen, he has very curly, shaggy, strawberry blond hair and tends to be on the paler side. His face is more rounded and child-like, although he isn't a child. His eyes are a brilliant blue with pink accents and long eyelashes. He wears golden sandals that go up to his knees and that's about all I've got on him. I can't make out his other clothes, though he always has his bow and arrow with him.

Dionysus - His appearance changes but only his body type. Sometimes he's kind of scrawny, and others he's overweight - it typically shifts between these two. Otherwise, though, he stays the same. His eyes are his most striking feature, being wild and green like a jungle vine. Very vibrant green, too - unnatural by human standards. His hair is black, very curly, and long, typically going past his shoulders. His skin is a darker tan, and he always has cool ear piercings. It somewhat varies in terms of what he wears, but he ALWAYS has a leopard pelt sash across his chest. Usually, he wears more ancient-looking clothing, but it's hard to tell what he specifically wears underneath the pelt. Shoes are non-existent, most of the time, but when he wears them, they're ancient sandals. Also, he's big on gold jewelry - lots of bangle bracelets, amongst other things.

Athena - Athena has looked the same pretty much since the first time I "saw" her. She has long, dark brown hair that's straight and has a half-ponytail in the back. She has dark olive skin and kind grey eyes with specks of violin-brown in them. Her features are more rounded, but her eyes are very sharp and attentive. She always has a helmet resting atop her head and is wearing some sort of epic ancient Greek armor. It's usually either gold or bronze armor, but there are always bit of colorful fabric placed here and there. She sometimes carries a spear with her, but usually, she's without it.

Hermes - Ah, yes, the man of the hour lol. Hermes has an appearance that feels like it changes often, but in reality, he always looks the same for me. It's a weird feeling; idk how to describe it. Anyway, he has short, ultra curly hair. The color always changes but is usually either dirty blond or medium brown. His eyes are fucking cool, being blue and green mixed together. Very difficult to describe; they're almost multi-colored. He has freckles and is almost always smirking. His build is thin, toned, and shorter than all of the gods, but definitely still taller than me lol. He wears ancient clothing - helmet (more of a big, floppy, winged hat), sandals, even carries his caduceus with him or in a brown satchel he carries on his hip. He's usually wearing a hip-length, off-white chlamys with a gold and black rim on it. I can't usually make out details of his clothes under the chlamys. He ALWAYS has these golden wrist braces on, too, and sometimes wears golden earrings!

Thanatos - Like Selene, I don't get much when it comes to looks for Thanatos. He expressed himself much more through presence. Unfortunately, I have nothing to really say about his appearance. 😕

Hypnos - Very little has been given to me about Hypnos as well, but he does consistently have short, very curly hair and a big, sleepy smile. That's about all I've got for now.

Norse Gods

Sigyn - Golden blonde hair with a very fair complexion and rounded features. Gives off protective mom vibes. Typically, she's in an old dress - viking era - that has light pink fabric with white and gold accents. Sometimes she wears a dress that's darker in color, but I don't know what color it is exactly. It's hard to describe. Her eyes are light, but I can never pin any one color to them. She has a soft smile and very pretty figure. Very short, especially in comparison to Loki, who is a literal giant lol. I haven't seen her wear jewelry, but it's been a while since I've envisioned her, so idk.

Loki - BIG, POOFY, WILD red hair! Like Ida from The Owl House. Cool single braid with some beads tying it off. Very angular and sharp features with a long nose and point ears. Vibrant green eyes that sometimes have cat slits in them. He usually wears an old-timey dark green shirt with an old-timey leather braided vest over it. There are tufts of fur on the shoulders of the vests. He wears old-timey brown pants and these really weird but cool looking boots that I don't know how to describe lol. He has earrings on usually but otherwise isn't big on jewelry. Oh, also, he's probably the tallest god I worship; he is very tall! And lanky, too.

Odin - I've only ever really seen his face. Older man with a cool black eye path over one eye and thin, long white hair. Long but thin white beard. His features are more rounded, and he tends to have a lot of wrinkles. His eye is a dark blue color, reminding me of the deepest depths of the ocean - as limitless as the depths of his knowledge, I'd imagine. I also remember him being muscular and wearing armor, but that's about all I can recall.

Hope you liked this answer! Enjoy! Sorry in advance for typos lol.

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justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms · 1 year

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Wah this is a little embarrassing to write down but could I get an obey me match up? I’m super obsessed w Nightbringer atm haha

I go by they/them, I’m 5’10 and I tend to dress mostly feminine but I’m also super hairy LMAO (shaving is too much work), I’m not too confident about my appearance but yknow it’s whateves as long as I get to wear bright and sparkly stuff looool

I’m a capricorn? Dunno much about zodiac stuff, but I would describe myself as a cheery optimistic person!! I like joking around and being silly and I’m described as childish quite a bit 🤷 I can be a bit shy and nervous though so it’s not like I’m SUPER extroverted, I actually tend to be a bit of a hermit sometimes since I don’t like to go out much (ya boy also can’t DRIVE LMAOO) parties and stuff are super overwhelming and I kinda have a hard time making friends ☠️ but I do like talking to people!!! Especially about my interests, I’m super into games and cosplaying rn (currently on my 5th morrowind playthrough, playing all the mainline persona games, working on climbing in ranked league of legends, etc) but I also love to read comics and books as well as write occasionally!! Poetry mostly but I also roleplay online if that counts, plus I do DnD,, I love my character creation 🤧 Tangentially related but psychology is also one of my main interests I absolutely love learning about it!!!

Oh I’m also currently studying art, my skills are mostly in traditional drawing and painting but lately I’ve tried pottery+ceramics and I’m slowly cracking away at digital art too!! My goal is to one day be able to write and illustrate my own stories someday ✨🌈 My favorite genres are fantasy, mystery, romance, and horror!!!

I rlly love spooky stuff teehee, I tend to be a lil thrill seeking, mostly just for stuff like roller coasters, horror movies and games, haunted houses, escape rooms, etc, I find it SO fun I love Halloween sooo much

I guess my love language would be words of affirmation? Sometimes I’m not too big on physical touch but I do like being told stuff lmao

As for things I don’t like, I’m a super picky eater ig? Oh and bugs they give me the icks lmao (I’m so sorry Beel it’s not personal) I also don’t like when things are super chaotic, messy, or out of my control, I function best with at least some semblance of structure in my life 😭

Anyway uhhh I hope this is enough? I’m not rlly sure how these things work lol but I’d love to hear who you think would suit me best!! God knows I’m terrible at picking my men ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Hello Anon! You put a great amount of information! I'm trying to finish the original Obey Me game before I get too into Nightbringer, but with me only being up to Lesson 18, it could take a while. Hope you like your matchup!

In Obey Me, I match you with...

Okay, I know what your thinking! You're a picky eater and I pair you with the one character that canonically can't cook? But hear me out!

If you can cook, you'd be able to make things you know you'll like, and you won't have to worry about dying from Solomon's attempts at cooking.

If you can't cook, either the brothers or Barbatos would be more than happy to help you out, making dishes for you while also teaching you how to make them yourself.

Solomon loves spooky stuff so he's right there with you in haunted houses, cinemas to watch the latest horror movie, on rollercoasters...you name it, Solomon's up to the challenge!

He also loves sitting down with you and trying to copy whatever you're drawing or painting. He's probably not as good as you but he tries his best. He can always just use a bit of magic while you're not watching to make his scribbles look a bit better.

Solomon loves that you have the desire to write and illustrate your own books. He'd feel honoured if you would share your progress with him. But he's also happy to wait until the final product is finished. It just means more anticipation and surprise when he finally gets to see your work.

Solomon playing D&D would be an experience. He's got so many stories from his years of life that all of his characters are probably just him from different eras. I really want to write a fanfic about the Obey Me character playing D&D now...

Because Solomon's been around so long, he's also a ready reference for a lot of psychology questions you have. He's seen so many people and how they think so there are very few questions you could ask that he wouldn't be able to answer.

#writing #fanfic #matchup #matchup request #request #obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me nightbringer

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lovethelifeyoulive123 · 2 years

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Look the Stanton stuff is so over, this year is three years for Sam & Kristie which is wild. Everyone is so moved on including Bright bringing the love to Sam ig post. Nikki liking ig posts means nothing to me as she likes everyone's including Sam's Perth friends with Kristie in them lol

I don’t buy any of the bullshit about the Nikki stuff. I brought up their answers to that question proactively because I knew what was coming to my inbox. And I was right. There was already questions about it when I posted the question. Let’s be honest guys these are all adults and Lesbians move on super quick. Nobody was cheating. Everybody is happy and moved on🤷‍♀️ you all waned answers about when and how their relationship started. Well they gave you the answer. If you don’t like it then that sucks for you.

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castle-dominion · 1 year

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c2x24 the last episode

THIS IS THE SENSUAL VIDEO THAT WAS PLAYING IN THE WASHROOM AT THE FANCY RESTAURANT I’M GETTING A JOB

My mom. “You got in I’m so proud of you! ... What did you get in TO though?”

That’s how I got into college lol but it was harder Illegal fireworks? Don’t you work with the police? Don’t they have a poster saying there’s a reward for bringing in illegal fireworks? Oh yeah this is the usa... I guess it really is convenient to have a 21y/o on each floor...

Esposito why do you look like a normal cop today? Ryan, you too!

Ryan did u get a haircut?

How much information are you allowed to ask from Agent Gray?

How is there an address in the middle of a river?

Captions were wrong, “wallet” should have been in quotes

Unless he doesn’t have a car bestie.

Funny how Gina hasn’t called him since he got to work. It would be funny if they were on a case & he had to be quiet but then Gina called him.

Ryan was so cute when he showed them the 5k euros & then “AND” he says all bright-eyed, then he brings out a gun lol *gives the gun to esposito immediately* This spy stuff is honestly p cool, & they must have had a good bomb tech making the pens.

Oh there, they do contact the spy places.

He flirts with her all the time, she probably assumed this was “another” joke... another try to get into her pants... I’d assumed that he genuinely was inviting her from the start

Poor gal, still looking for a new place to live.

I mean, you already know this is my liveblog of my rewatch... So obviously there are going to be spoilers...

The thing is, Hans Brauer seems like the kind of guy to be hosting the game, not playing it, judging by his character. & then he shoves castle into the wall very realistically. Caldwell also seemed very genuine when running away from the assassin. He has no idea the gun is real! He’s a great roleplayer tbh But is it really how the game works that he’s going to get a phone call telling him to leave? Is it like “You lost the game & this is basically taking you back to your last checkpoint” or smth? Castle is enamoured. I’m assuming you called Jordan Shaw? (& Agent Gray?)

What was that camera whip? With the sound? “Yo Beckett” *fwoosh*

I like how she can clear the rooms while she gets Castle (a non-cop) to open up the drawers

KR: Hey, that gun-- RC: *blasts right past Ryan* KR: ... *paper he was holding just waves vigorously in the airstream*

I love the way his demeanor just Turned Around real quick there. Confidence in roleplay is not the same as IRL. Super useful actually.

Interesting, the book cover says “murder” in mirror image...

Alexis really is a teenaged girl. I love her. Poor castle. He really is like my mom.

MR: “James Patterson called, he’s going to be a bit late for the poker game.” RC: “He’s probably going to use the time to write another book” XD imagine being able to write an entire book in the 30 minutes you’re going to be late. Then again, Castle hasn’t written much so that’s where it’s coming from

HOLY CRAP THAT IS NOT WORK APPROPRIATE OMG Y’ALL R GOING TO THE BRIG

I feel bad for her, she’s a female cop & when she gets a book written inspired by her she’s written for sex appeal. For someone who boasted the praise of the depth of his female characters, Rick kinda sucks.

It’s really neat to have the offshore account. I think it really would make things more fun

“mais oui” is NOT THAT HARD TO TRANSLATE. Come On. Captions are super important. I hate it when they do this.

True. My father had not the first clue about selling cars, but his first business was based on relationships so Dad got the job anyways. Of course, then covid happened & eventually he got fired but still.

Hey... demming Hey... castle

SAD, going beach-housing & just lying to castle? I mean you’re right he probably WOULD take it better than “yeah I’m beach housing just with another man, the one I’m actually with” Altho ig she didn’t have it set in stone. She said she would check into it. He said take a break like it was a relationship,, the showwriters did that on purpose. She really is his work wife Poor Ryan & Esposito, they just walk in on this heavy conversation & Beckett looks like she got her heart broken

Xenophobia...?

On nice, Lanie said the death was 23.00-1.00 but we know he was alive at 23.30 & midnight now. Cool

wow acab. That must be a good impression on the ukrainians for the usa /s.

Castle was SO afraid that there would be ukrainian kids with fake IDs who are used to drinking at alexis’ summer program

hhhh Esposito layin down the FEELS. (castle’s tho, not his own.) Going away party <3 (I love his little faces) How many episodes have there been? about 50? 25 last season 25 this one? Yep that’s 50 books’ worth.

Patterson is so right. “Personally I’d spend more time writing & less time hanging out with your cop friend.”

I love beckett’s jelly beans but it’s also so sad

DX she thought he was going to confess his feelings. & not in the “let me in your pants” kind of way but the “I genuinely enjoy your company & want to take you out on a date” kind of way. Then he talks about murder & you can see her face fall

Oh my goodness. RC & me: So-- so, let me get this straight. Your alibi for your friend’s murder... id you were do--,, doing his wife.??? Lmao “Are you serious? My house is too nice.” & I mean they weren’t having sex anyways,, but like wow Aww esposito gives beckett a coffee

JE: Except it was warm enough to leave the windows open. KB: Oh no KR: *eyebrows furl but eyes go wide & mouth opens* JE: Oh Yes. The next-door neighbours distinctly remember the sounds of (in floaty voice) “loud passionate love-makinig” coming from the open window. RC & KB: *disbelieving faces* JE, taking a sip of his coffee: Kept em up till well past midnight.

Oh. I remember the end now. At least she doesn’t need to be a wife anymore. Just a mom. ...And a dad too now I guess. Nevermind, it is NOT any better. (it was a joke in the first place) That’s actually,,, really, really sweet. Hmm, all the hallmarks of a pro hit, but it was just an american gun owner... I’m surprised he didn’t own more. I would have expected beckett to say “You are a registered gun owner, among your many many guns, is a glock 45.”

Roy Montgomery ftw. “Too bad they had to die because people were scared to say how they really felt.” *eyes emoji eyes emoji eyes emoji* beckett

fdskahkljdsfhk RC: I need to run but I will be back in time for that little surprise party the boys are throwing me Not much of a surprise XD but he must have learned a thing or two about how to be a detective in his time here. You know what, he should get a license to carry. (Actually no he shouldn’t but for the sake of the show.)

She really does like him. This episode bro.

TD: It’s Like A Real Restaurant Grade Cappacino Machine You know, I was in the special needs class in high school & the teachers in that class had a coffee machine right in the room. Of course there was another one in the teacher room but shush. Actually that reminds me, it was a GCL program & we all had to see our TAs before first block. Mine was in my special needs classroom, other students had classrooms, one group had the teacher’s break room. I had a friend who told me that some of the students would steal the teachers’ lunches sometimes. That was nasty bro.

I’m alexis fr. I would love to bring my mom along. Would she really be ok alone for that long? I’m always with her, sometimes we are mother & kid, sometimes we are roommates, sometimes I parent her. ALEXIS WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT.

At least kate & tom are being adults about it.

RC: It was very emotional. Yeah there were a lot of tears. Um... Alexis was fine btw. (KR, JE, RM, LP all laughing) (There are a Lot of open beer bottles btw. So many.) JE: I’ve got to say castle, we’re going to miss you around here. RC: Yeah, I’m going to miss you too KR: You’re still leaving the coffee machine though, right? RC: I can’t have you suffer in my absence! RM: that’s good LP: We could really use one of those down in the morgue. (Does he still owe her? Spa certificates, cash, & jewelry?) RM: With castle gone, I just hope our clearance rate doesn’t drop. (All laugh again, including Beckett who is walking in) RC: Oh look who’s off duty! KB: Yeah well castle I’m not all work. LP: Don’t get into a drinking contest with her; she can take you. RC: Thank you. KB: Oh I don’t need a drink to take him. (In a fight she means. Not in a sexy way.) LP: Ooh! What’s gotten into you? KB: Castle do you have a second? RC: Of course (KR & JE are watching & probably hoping they’re going to confess, actually lanie is too) KB: Look... I know that I’m not the easiest person to get to know &... I don’t always let on what’s on my mind... But this past year, working with you... I’ve had a really good time. RC: Yeah, me too. KB: So I’m just going to say this &... & then fuckin gina comes in & I’m not going to transcribe the rest bc it is sad But I’ll let you know that as soon as another woman is on the scene everyone who has been watching from the party room stands up & looks shicked, concerned, or angry Castle, at least hug her, man, at least HUG HER Oh yay hug-- no, wait. Handshake. Atamiskaw. Screw you bud. & then he raises his drink to everyone in the party room & doesn’t hug them or shake their hands? Why??? At least it ends with “see you in the fall” from both of them But still, everyone in the glass looks like they’re going to cry

#castle 2x24 #castle 2x24 spoilers #castle s2 spoilers #castle 2x24 quote

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plan-d-to-i · 3 years

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Apparently in the official English translation of MDZS an entire sentence was completely mistranslated. I don't know which chapter it was exactly, but its the one where JC takes WWX hostage and terrorizes him with Fairy.

It was the sentence where JC asks WWX who's name he just called out and they translated it as "What's your name?" instead of "Who's name did you just call?" like that's a pretty big mistake to make in the official English translation. Seven seas did say that they will fix it for the e-book and if they do reprints, but what about the people who already bought it with this mistake in it.

I don't want to sound petty and I am extremely grateful for official translations, but this translation just doesn't meet expectations and some of the wording is super clunky and hard to digest and there are several grammar/ translation mistakes. I have other gripes with this official translation, but I think the blatant translation mistakes and changing dare I say "iconic" lines that run deep in fandom have to be the worst.

Yeah I know... it's this part:

The only things he still remembered was the terror he felt as he was chased by dogs and the slicing pain of teeth and claws digging into his flesh. The fear that had been planted deep within his heart couldn’t be overcome or eased no how he tried.

Suddenly, Jiang Cheng glanced sideways at him, “Whose name did you call?”

Wei WuXian was in such a state of distress that he couldn’t remember whether or not he called someone’s name at all. He only managed to pull himself together after Jiang Cheng commanded the dog to back away. After a moment of

I was blessed w that knowledge really early on bc I wanted to see how they'd tackled the jc scenes... which -hilarious that this is a concern in this fandom- the fear someone might soften jc in an official translation lol

Then there were creative choices ig w some other lines where jc asks about what someone's not saying about about MXY- (the fact that he's a cut sleeve) :

江澄道：“那个？哪个？”

“那个……就是那个嘛……”

有人忍不住道：“断袖之癖！

江澄的眉毛抽了抽，看向魏无羡的眼神更加嫌恶了。还有几句，旁人也没敢当着江澄的面说。

more faithful translation :

Jiang Cheng asked, “‘That’? What’s ‘that”?”

“That … It’s that thing…”

Someone couldn’t hold back any longer and said, “The cut-sleeve penchant!”

Jiang Cheng’s brows twitched, and the disgust in his eyes towards Wei Wuxian grew. There were a few more things the others did not dare say in front of Jiang Cheng.

ig putting more emphasis on "harassment" by just adding the word itself into the lines repeatedly is an interesting choice🌝. Naturally there are also lots of parts that are fine.

Anyway, the stuff no one dared mention to jiang cheng is how WWX was a hottie, womanizer and jc ranked lower than him lmao!!! :

"Even if the Yiling Laozu’s reputation was bad, people had to admit that prior to Wei Wuxian’s defection from the Yunmeng Jiang Clan, he had been famous far and wide for being a gorgeous man, cultured, sophisticated, and proficient in all the arts of a gentleman. Among the young masters of all the clans of cultivation, his appearance and personality were considered the fourth best, and he was described as “bright, clever, and full of life”—the irascible Jiang Cheng was fifth and had to endure being beaten by him, a fact that no one dared mention." (ch 24)

lol

Side note, the last time I posted about the TL someone also messaged me these ... so what can I say about the next volumes... I'm really looking forward to the art !... jk 😅!!... I hope lol xx (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

(I don't mind someone liking jc I just hope they will keep it out of translating choices. and I'm not saying suika factored it in. Most of the unofficial translators liked jc and at times arguably made choices in his favor)

Obviously no one go to the translators/book/book editors sm or something and start arguing about this

#personal opinons

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THE WAY IT JUST FALLS OUT OF HER MOUTH I'M WHEEZING PLS-

I'm not sure how long I'd been out when I finally wake up to the feeling of someone's hand gripping mine tightly. Light slowly begins to filter through my eyelids and the world starts to register in my head as I awaken, and I take a deep breath to try and fill my lungs with the still air that fills the room. I don't know which soldier is holding my hand, since none of us do that, and it makes me try to open my eyes. It's also bright, I finally realize, something that is certainly uncommon in the barracks. Did I fall asleep outside again watching the stars? I've been doing that a lot recently, I think. But that still doesn't explain the hand, nor the lack of the sound of my general screaming my name. It's certainly late enough, if the position of the sun is anything to go by.

I finally force my eyes open with a quiet groan, and vaguely feel the hand tighten around mine as my head turns towards the owner. Vision blurry, I don't recognize who it is, but it's definitely not a solider. And that's when I remember; I'm home. I came back home. And by the dark color that the blob of a person is wearing, it's either Enoch, which is very unlikely, or the headmistress. Blinking a few times to try and clear the sleep in my vision, I groan again as a pounding headache finally hits me like a freight train. The person quickly leans in, and their free hand gently presses my chest back down as they whisper "Don't try to get up just yet, darling." Oh yes, that's Miss Peregrine. I whine in response, but do as I'm asked and relax back onto the pillows again.

After a moment of silence, I ask quietly "What happened?" Miss Peregrine replies with "You fainted during the reset. You've been out for..." she trails off and I hear the clicking of metal on metal along with the soft sound of a ticking clock as she checks her pocket watch and finishes "six hours and seven minutes," a second later. I hum in response and sigh heavily; my hand remains in hers through the entire ordeal, and it's a welcome weight to help ground me in the moment while I attempt to remember the previous night. I can't recall much other than flashes, but I do remember the planes and the bomb and the panic attack. I finally realize that the person who carried me inside just before I blacked out must have been Miss Peregrine, and for some reason it makes me blush lightly thinking about being in her arms like that.

When I finally have enough of that, I sigh again and, my vision fully having returned to me, turn my head to face the headmistress, who looks to be staring at me, only turning her head away quickly when I make eye contact. I smile teasingly and mumble "It's rude to stare, Miss P," and the woman rolls her eyes, something I notice she only does around me. Otherwise she's much too proper to do something so childish, so it feels like a sort of privilege being able to experience it, even if it's happening because she's annoyed at me. "Are you feeling well enough to stand? I'm afraid dinner is in....ten minutes, and I've yet to prepare the table." I smile and nod, already beginning to push myself up with her quick assistance, and soon I'm on my feet. Miss Peregrine keeps one of her delicate hands on the small of my back as we finally leave my room, and I subconsciously arch into the touch.

When we arrive at the kitchen, the woman leaves my side, effectively removing her hand from my skin and, to my embarrassment, I actually whimper a little at the loss. The sound makes her chuckle quietly and give me a little smirk, one which I return with a pout as I try to deny it. Miss P then turns, still looking smug, and begins to gather plates, calling out "Could you help me set the table, please?" over her shoulder. I shake myself out and grumble an agreement before doing so, taking the china dishes from her hands and moving back and forth between the dining room and kitchen, setting each one in it's place, until there are thirteen perfectly arranged table settings, one for each of us plus Miss Peregrine. Once done, I brush my hands clean from invisible dust and look over my work proudly, returning to the kitchen and announcing "Done!" to the headmistress, who seems to just be finishing something.

The ravenette turns her face to me with a small smile and thanks, before saying "Wonderful. Now, go get ready to eat, you look as if you've just been raised from the dead." I scoff in mock offense, jaw dropping and hand going to my chest. "How dare thou!" I exclaim, acting hurt, but Miss Peregrine just gives me A Look and I wither, reducing down to a pout and a murmured "I'll be right back." She nods curtly and I hear a tiny, satisfied noise leave her throat as I exit the kitchen, heading to my room to get changed and cleaned up.

Questions come rapid fire for the first few minutes of dinner, but I luckily don't have to answer most of them once Miss Peregrine calms the children down. I answer the basic ones, if I'm feeling better and such, but I tend to shy away from the reason that I passed out, not comfortable talking about such things with literal kids present. Miss P seems to understand as she gives me a nod when I glance at her, mouthing "Thank you" from beside her. Halfway through, everything calms back down, and the rest of the meal goes smoothly, talks of our upcoming walk, what the others were doing outside before being called in, all that. I stay silent, just observing and listening, but a smile remains on my lips the entire time. Now that I'm older, no longer a child like I used to be, I feel less like their sister and more mature; maybe this is how Miss Peregrine feels.

It's not like I feel like their keeper or protector, I could never do what she does, but it kinda feels as though I've upgraded from sibling to parental figure. I am the oldest one here besides Miss P, after all, so it would make sense why I feel like this. And while it's a loss to not connect with them like I used to, it's already rewarding in and of it's own being someone that they look up to. Miss Peregrine is really lucky to have these kids, I think as I eat, and glance over at said woman. Her eyes shine with contained happiness as she watches over her charges, a barely visible smile ghosting over her features all the while. She loves them, I know that, and faintly remember the few times she gave me that look. It wasn't often, seeing as I was almost always the troublemaker, but when it did happen it felt like fireworks exploding in my chest.

Through my time in the army, I had a lot of time to think. And think I did, about anything and everything under the sun. But my thoughts still fell back to the old headmistress quite often, and I've come to terms with the fact that I definitely had (and probably still do) a crush on the woman. But who wouldn't? She's strong, powerful, confident. She's what every woman wants to be and she doesn't even have to try. Of course someone like me would have a natural pull to her, but it's not like anything could ever come of it anyway, so I just try to keep it down to a minimum. If I can turn the schoolyard infatuation into simple friendly admiration, then everything will be alright. So I focus on my food, finishing it up a few minutes later and returning my attention to the rest of the table once I realize I've been staring.

"Y/n!" I skid to a halt in the grass, just out of reach of a running Claire, and spin to face the person who called my name. I can hear Claire laughing happily when she realizes that she's going to get away from my tickle wrath, and I glare playfully at her. I then call back "Yeah Miss P?" The headmistress skips over the nickname and says "Could I speak to you please?" I nod, mumbling an "Be right back" to Claire, who pouts before going to find someone else to play with. With that, I follow the headmistress back inside, where she leads me into the study, closing the doors behind her. Gesturing to a seat, the woman sits across from it, quite close to me. When I'm settled, she finally asks "I hope you don't mind, but...I'm curious." I cock an eyebrow in confusion, waiting for her to continue. "Why did you pass out last night? Did something happen?"

My breath catches in my throat for a moment and I realize that there's no getting out of this. There's no way I'm going to deny Miss Peregrine an answer, so I nod stiffly. With a deep breath, I begin answering; "Well, as you know, I've been in the war this whole time while I was gone. And I've had to go through a lot of stuff, but I think that the hardest was definitely the bombings. I've seen homes demolished, families torn apart, parents taken from their children and vice versa." I pause, swallowing roughly to clear my throat. "And last night, even though I knew it wasn't going to hit, I think that seeing the bomb just brought me back to all of that. Remembering all the people that I couldn't save, all the lives that were lost. I just....I feel like I could have done so much more.

"I know that it isn't my fault that I couldn't help everyone, but seeing that thing just coming at you, at the people I love....reminded me of that. I don't know what I would have done if I had actually lost you, or--or anyone that night. So even when I logically knew you would stop it, I couldn't stop my head from throwing me back to the day it happened." I stop, unable to continue as my voice cracks and tears blur my vision. I don't like revisiting my past, especially now that I'm finally out of the army, and doing it in front of someone makes me feel weak, useless. But I'm quickly engulfed in a pair of warm arms that I instinctively fold into, and Miss P mumbles "Alright, alright. It's okay, I'll never let that happen. I will never let any of you get hurt." I nod as best as I can and curl further into the woman's embrace, trying to get as close as I can to her body in the process.

"I still regret leaving, you know," I eventually whisper into Miss Peregrine's neck where I had buried my face, hands holding her blazer. Faintly, her breath hitches and her posture stiffens, but still she hums and murmurs "I know you do. I regret letting you go. But you're a stubborn girl and even then I knew I couldn't stop you." The comment makes me chuckle wetly, knowing that she's totally right. "Still am," I mumble against her and she nods. We stay like that for a while, just mumbling quiet stories to each other, and even once we've separated she still tells me of the things that she and the children have been up to these last eleven years. It's comforting in a way, knowing that life still went on even though I wasn't here, while I was out there helping people. Or...trying to help people, at least.

When it's finally time to part ways, Miss Peregrine leaves me with "I'll always be right here if you want to talk about it, y/n. You have that, right?" before telling me to go back outside for a while. And as I walk away from her, words still ringing in my head, I realize that I'm failing miserably at keeping this little crush down to a minimum.

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