#it just hits SO differently now
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令嫒就像那片山水。虽然我从未亲眼看见过,但是我知道她会有多美。... 我有多羡慕将来可以亲眼看见她的那个人。
#鹤唳华亭#royal nirvana#cdrama#drama#my posts#hlht#rewatched the 屏风定情 scenes i think for the first time...#it just hits SO differently now#the first time was more about seeing two innocent kids falling in love while knowing it's gonna turn out so tragic#the second is inevitably about how lonely and sad xdq is. and lwx being completely altered eventually#xdq talking about missing someone even when they're right before you. lwx talking about reuniting with huating!!!!!!!!#them talking about freedom and liberation!!!!!!!! among the rivers and mountains!!!#'you don't have to become a deity to experience that'. you can experience it in this lifetime as a person#but to xdq (and to many other people) it's really just THAT hard#lwx has experienced it. experienced nirvana. but from here on it's gonna be her fall and demise#i'm just so fucking sad#she's the symbol of the world outside to him. unreachable. and something he can only hope and yearn for#even though it's just right before him#like she's literally an abstraction to him for the longest time bc he has never SEEN her before#it's insane all he wanted is to lay eyes on someone's face and looks AND HE COULDN'T#AND WHEN HE WAS GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY. HE LOOKED WAY PAST IT.#HELLO I'M GOING INSANE
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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I had a caption for this but I lost it oops
#dragon age 4#dragon age#datv#dragon age veilguard#art#fanart#emmrich volkarin#emmrich/rook#OC: Artemis#suggestive#kinda#I legit dont know since this is meant to be just fluff#anyway im gonna go cry now#Drawing Artemis with her LI behind her hits different#She doesnt trust anyone at her back since she considers it her most vulnerable spot#so this takes a lot of trust#Im ok#artys work#I hate how this looks really nice on my drawing screen but the colors are TOO vibrant on my main monitor...
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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ok but no for real that episode was actually a masterpiece like jac schaeffer you did not have to go that hard but i am on my hands and knees thanking you for your work
#this whole show has been TOP TIER storytelling but this one just hit different#awards. right now. i'm being so serious hand them over#a season 2 pls right now i would sell my firstborn fr#agatha all along#aaa spoilers#ish but tagging to be safe#I JUST LOVE TELEVISION AS A STORYTELLING MEDIUM
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One of the things I realized when I watched Fury Road directly after Furiosa:
Furiosa doesn't treat Max like she treated Jack. She treats Max like Jack treated her.
There are so many parallels - the way they meet, their conflict with each other that quickly turns to partnership, their journey to The Green Place (and how it fails)...
But where before it was Jack reaching out to her, now it's Furiosa who is asking Max his name, teaching him the kill sequence for the rig, trusting him to have her back in a fight, giving him everything he needs to leave (even when she wants him to stay).
Furiosa doesn't see Jack in Max, she sees herself. Everything from the muzzle to the nightmares to the fact that he barely speaks is a direct parallel to what she was like when she met Jack, and Furiosa knows it. And so as someone reached out to her, she reaches out to him, this feral, half-mad Wastelander. She reaches out and offers him hope, just like Jack did to her when he came back for her on the Fury Road.
And together, they find some kind of redemption
#mad max#mad max fury road#furiosa#furiosa a mad max saga#furiosa movie#maxiosa#furyjack#yes i ship them both#this parallel hit me HARD when i was rewatching fury road#cuz the furiosa we see there is so different than the feral praetorian we so adore#and obviously she's older and more settled in herself now#and it's truly beautiful character growth that is wonderfully realistic#but it struck me when she asked max his name that there must have been a conversation like that between her and jack#and then the parallels just kept popping up more and more#but now it's furiosa that is the one reaching out#and i really think it's beautiful#and maybe in a small way a way she's honoring jack#keeping his memory alive if only within herself
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Cardinal in red ♡
#dunno if i ever uploaded these but they were in my gif folder so i am going to share them now#cardinal just hits different#his eye is sooo mesmerizing#copia#myedit#ghost band#papa emeritus#ghost#tobias forge#ghesties#the band ghost#ghost sweden#papa emeritus iv#cardi c
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Hi, Howdy! Hey! I really love your novel!! I got a little confused by the 4 day, may maybe you help me please? who is it? why we got the bad end staying the night in Ren’s apartment and he disappear of the home screen? I can’t understand “unset memory” game, sorry if I wrote smth wrong or smth sounds rude, I swear that I didn’t mean it if happened, I��m really a fan of the novel, I’ve been playing the game since day 1 or 2 I guess, probably day 1, english isn’t my first language, but I tried lol
⌞♥⌝ I hope you don't mind me answering these as bullet points!! ^^
"It" will be revealed later in the game! So I won't reveal too much right now.
You can only get the Dead End in Day 4 by staying at Ren's apartment — the rest of your choices before that don't matter. I'd also pay closer attention to the black smoke and Ren's reaction towards it!
Ren disappears from the home screen because he promised to help the player out (and stop them from getting the Dead End again). Try replaying the game again from the beginning for a surprise!
"Unsent Memories" was another visual novel (initially being written by @10chimes / @unsentmemory, though the project has since been dropped and handed back to me /pos) and is set in the same universe as 14 Days With You. Its storyline and characters are completely separate from 14DWY, so you don't have to worry about them while playing 14DWY.
#I don't think a lot of people know this but River was originally my OC lmao#Obviously BEFORE Jesse picked him up and turned him into an entirely different character /pos#We originally planned for Riv and Ren to have a Billy and Stu dynamic; except River would pretend to be a himbo—#— The same way Ren would pretend to be some Normal Empathetic Guy™️ kjgskg#River was also going to be a lovesick serial killer who incapacitated Bunny so that they'd stay with & depend on him forever#Also because Jesse and I wanted to have a ''same production factory; different yandere'' kind of vibe with Riv and Ren (and their dynamic)#Like... Ren puts Angel above himself and craves THEIR satisfaction whereas River cares about himself and prioritises HIS own satisfaction#Ren would hit his best friend (River) with a car if it meant keeping Angel happy & by his side forever#River would hit Bunny with a car if it meant keeping them by his side forever (thus making him happy)#But!! After everything that's happened in the yandere community; Jesse (understandably) wanted to get away from that kind of environment#So he's since dropped Unsent Memories and hasn't really got any plans to work on it again or return to da yan vn circle#I'm also continuing to write 14DWY the way it was originally planned (with 2017!River only getting a brief cameo to serve up some lore </3)#—But I'm lowkey holding out just in case Jesse ever considers returning hehe :3 I like their version of River and I wanna do him justice#Until then though?? I'll yearnfully clutch my locket and wait for my lover to return from war.... (she has a literal 9-5 job now) /hj /p#GKJSDG I scrolled up and??? NOT ME RANTING IN THE TAGS AGAIN?????????? WHY DO I UNINTENTIONALLY YAP SO MUCH#I will 🤫🤐 now#💌 — answered.#💖 — 14 days with queue.#🖤 — shut up sai.#to be tagged later#weird0nerd
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ok but would trenchcoat deku end up having aayoma-like insecurities, where he feels he's not worth anything unless he's fused with bakugou or whoever? Or would he have met All Might by then and given OFA or something so he has something to also bring to the table
he's like eight and has powers that can turn his limbs into rocks and metal and stuff, everyone in elementary school probably thought it was cool as hell, I don't think he feels inadequate at all
#his quirk is very flexible! think about all the different quirks he could probably emulate with his power#like he fuses his arm with a gun and bam he's lady nagant#he fuses with a tree and now kamui woods is unemployed#he's just fine on his own plus fusing with someone else is mutually beneficial it makes the other person's quirk stronger too#and in the other fusion au where bkdk get hit with a quirk before the entrance exam he does have ofa so all around he's good#fusion au#two 8 year olds in a trench coat
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Oh to be a digital Siffrin keychain spinning endlessly in space for my amusement
#notes on this one: changed the lighting and reflectiveness of the actual cut out images#Also the plastic/epoxy material for the edges was not true glass/I have no fucking idea how to change it to be see through#yes I set the roughness to 0#so I just shrugged my shoulders turned down the alpha#now there's a new appearance of a mysterious black ball in the reflection#which is weird because there should be no objects in the way of the light(?)#it's a mystery#what would've been cool if I put a loop silhouette#but alas I have work and do not have time(tm)#also had a similar idea for like the stars blinking out#but that means I'd have to change it to an object not world and fiddle with like 5 sets of stars so they go out at different times#it was 2 am and I said fuck it put void sphere and turn the black alpha up and back down#after a certain point you just have to make peace with what you have and hit render so you can sleep#thanks for reading my ramblingsss#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers
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doodles
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#ryoumen sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#yuuji#megumi#sukuna#not gonna tag gumi vocaloid but thats who that is . fr the uninitiated. the yowamushi mont blanc herself <3#tbh re: megu>gumi at this point i feel like i am screaming into the void . yelling at a wall etc etc#i know i will never change fandom opinion on the go-to nicknames#but just know that when yall call megumi 'gumi' . gumi vocaloid is all i think of . she doesnt go here >:(#using gumi fr megumi just leaves a weird taste in my mouth . n i know most of it is likely bc of the context i... normally see it used in.#but i digress. if i can convince even a single soul to adopt the megu agenda into their life i will count that a victory#anyway midway through the megu/gumi drawing i got hit with a wave of I Hate My Art Style#so i did a doodley sketch sheet and im cured now#sometimes just doing a bunch of drawings to convince yourself u can draw Works !! who knew !!!#also has been a while since i drew sukuna i think !! hes so silly#i also just realized he and fushiguro mewgumi r making the same face FHGSDFHSDK Unintentional!!!!!!!!!#i tried going fr a slightly Different Style(tm) with the sheet but i think i ended up sticking to old habits fGHFGHSH#maybe its a smiiidge more realistic??? who can say#either way it felt good to keep things rough n sketchy like i was doing a while back#and now it is . 3am .
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They are taking over
#localgardenweed#the weed is rambling#mr osomatsu#osomatsu san#osomatsu matsuno#karamatsu#karamatsu matsuno#choromatsu#choromatsu matsuno#ichimatsu#ichimatsu matsuno#jyushimatsu#jyushimatsu matsuno#todomatsu#todomatsu matsuno#i did these yesterday but i only posted now cause this road trip is making me reqtahc my entire life to push through#i wanted to screw around with artstyles cause art block hit like a truck and you know how to fix that?#ART STYLE FRANKENSTIEN!!!!!!#yeah that is how my style evolves and its okay yall do a little mad sciences#these little shits hold a space in my heart#dni blmatsu#GET THAT SHIT OUTTA HERE OUT OUT GET OUT#also i wanted to find out how to draw them in my own way so like they aren’t totally exact#like i know they are sextuplets but they got different swaggers#favorite one i made is Karamatsu like YASSS QUEEN SLAAAYYYYY#Jyushi is a work in progress cause idk how i should do his hair cause its kinda just a mix of Todomatsu and Osomatsu#he needs his swagger
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"Malaysia… Yeah… Kuantan would be nice. I'll build a home on a secluded beach. I already have a mountain of books that I've bought and never touched. I'll read through them page by page, like I'm taking back all the time I've lost. No. Right now, I'm going to save Fushiguro-kun… And Maki-san? What about Naobito-san? What happened to those two? I'm tired. Exhausted, even. Yeah, I'm exhausted. I've already done enough."
#jjkedit#jujutsu kaisen#nanami kento#itadori yuuji#jjk spoilers#mygifs#myedit#SOMEBODY SEDATE ME#they made the scene so beautifully#nanami was so refreshing as a character#i should be used to seeing my faves die by now#but nanamin just hits different *sobs*#YOU DID WELL NANAMIN
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i'm kissing every production i.g employee and furudate-sensei for giving us the haikyuu dumpster battle movie. lives were changed. i cried real tears. there's no doubt that i'll be back for the next movie.
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#kozume kenma#hinata shouyou#haikyuu#fanart#myart#doodle#brainrotted so hard i had to draw smth to get the emotions and thoughts out of my head#shoutout to a certain someone for actually screaming with me after i finished the movie-#and waiting for me as i looked up these references for the Iconic scenes#something just hits different seeing this match in animated form#the progression the emotions the nostalgia-#not gonna spoil in case anyone plans on watching but. just know it was Good.#and i had a hard time picking which scene to redraw#it was this one. the birdcage one (which i've seen so many others redraw wonderfully). or the 'shouyou. stay interesting' scene#went w/ this one bc the dynamics#i can finally listen to the ost now hahaha#spyair came back with another banger for us thank you kings#cw knives#haikyuu the dumpster battle#forgot to tag that oops
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Wizard and Sorcerer's shenanigans.
#I am so normal about them#I really don't like gale in EA but...#Gale full release hits different#and now I'm down bad for him#guess I just love pathetic men#bg3#bg3 gale#bg3 oc#baldur's gate 3#tav#gale of waterdeep#gale dekarios#oc: cassiella#baldur's gate oc#gale x tav#dnd#tiefling#my art
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Honestly, I can't even imagine The Mandalorian without Greef Karga in it. I mean, he was always there even from the first episode. He played such a huge part in Din and Grogu's story in so many ways and his redemption/character development is one of my favourite parts of the entire show.
Of course, Greef was so much more than just comic relief but this was such a hilarious moment:
One that I probably won't be able to watch without crying for a while.
Not to mention this equally hilarious moment, Greef being one of the few people Din trusted with Grogu like this. Safe hands indeed 🤍
The Mandalorian will miss his presence, he was an enormous part of the show and meant a lot to all fans, but it is obviously an even greater loss for his family, friends and everyone lucky enough to know him. I'm so sad we won't get more Greef Karga on our screens, but it's even sadder that Carl Weathers is no longer with us. Devastating news... I am in utter disbelief 💔
#i just cannot believe it#carl weathers#greef karga#the mandalorian#these moments will hit so differently now :(((
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