#it hurts! i'm crying again!

[noxtivagus]

OH NO

[demigods-posts]

whatever you do. don't think about how percy and annabeth held the sky. and both of them earned grey streaks. that likely lasted for a couple of years. so during the year before the prophecy. when percy and annabeth weren't on speaking terms. one look in the mirror was enough to remind them what could be if they had time.

[witchinatree]

who up thinking about they "why is it so easy for you to imagine losing me?" vs "i deserve to lose you, the pain caused by losing you will never outweigh all the bad i have done. it will hurt me forever but it is what i have earned." jonmartin dynamics

[izzy-prizzy]

"In another life, i would really like just doing laundry and taxes with you."

[cerise-on-top]

Cried on the train today, then thought of this! This is just me coping to the highest degree again, but I thought other people might like this as well!

Nikolai as a Father

First off, he’d likely be absent rather often. He was a soldier, he runs a PMC, he’s a busy man through and through. That’s why he won’t be able to see you as often as he’d like. He’d have loved to see all your accomplishments, meeting your first partner and intimidating them, your graduation, the first time you performed on stage, but it wasn’t possible due to work. He does feel bad about it, but he can’t help it. He will try to make it up to you somehow, though he’d understand if you couldn’t forgive him. He does try to be there for you whenever he can, visiting you whenever possible, but you will be apart from each other more often than not. However, if you ever have any suggestions regarding what you’d like to do together, he’s all ears. He has enough money to grant you any wish like that. You wanna go to Japan? You want a boat trip? You wanna go karaoke? It’s all possible, as long as he gets to experience those things with you. He really does wanna make up for the lost time.

He’s a pretty relaxed kind of father. The kind that would allow you a sip of beer when you were young. He’d have no problems with you drinking, as long as it doesn’t get out of hand. You should be responsible about that sort of thing. But if you ever wanted to invite a friend over to drink a bit, then he’d have no problem with getting the booze for you. Nothing too strong while you’re still young, of course, but he gets it. You’re young, you want to be stupid and do foolish things. He was like that too when he was younger, so he won’t stop you. In fact, he’ll even drive to the nearest fast food restaurant and get you and your friend something to eat. Sometimes he might cook himself, though. Nikolai’s food is downright godly, he can cook just about anything and cook it well too. As long as you don’t invite a friend over to get blackout drunk every weekend, all is good.

I think he’d probably lie to you about his job when you’re younger. You don’t need to know that he kills people for a living. You can know that he does paperwork, though. So he’d likely tell you he works an office job that has him traveling a lot. Speaking of traveling, he’ll always bring you a souvenir. That could range from a small snow globe to a nice T-shirt he found that you might like. He may be busy, but he does think about you very often. This continues into adulthood as well. If he can’t see you and give it to you in person then he’ll just mail it to you. Won’t ever allow you to work in the same field he does, though. You’re too sweet to work as a mercenary. You can become anything you want to be, but he’ll do what he can to not have you work in the military or in a PMC. He wants you to live and live well. There are no exceptions to this. He knows you might not listen to him, but he’ll tell you over and over again that those kinds of jobs are not what you might think they are. He doesn’t tell you what to do very often, but you should listen to him when he does. He’s an older man, who actually knows what he’s talking about. Besides, he only means well when it comes to you.

A very accepting father, in all honesty. You’re gay? You’re trans? He’s very supportive of you. Besides, it doesn’t matter who you bring home, he’s gonna try to intimidate them either way. Only the best of the best for you. If you ever find yourself some sleazebag, who won’t spoil you rotten like you deserve, then he’ll make sure that person will learn their lesson. He can be a very scary man when he wants to be. If you’re transmasc, then he’d delight in going clothes shopping with you and finding something that you look good in and that fits. He might even buy you a bomber jacket like he has so you can match. He’ll get you the fanciest suits too. Whatever you need, he’ll give it to you. If you’re transfem then he might not be the best suited candidate to go shopping with you. He can tell you what you look good in, but he might call someone like Laswell to help you find nice clothes that suit you well. However, he won’t save any money on anything. You know what you want? You can gladly have it. Nikolai will even pay for your surgeries as well. As long as you’re happy, he’s happy. No price is too high when it comes to your happiness. In fact, he probably has the means to get you a prescription for hormones as well. It might not be entirely legal, but it’s better than nothing if you have shitty doctors.

Likewise, if you come out to him as aromantic or asexual, he won’t mind. Sure, you might have to explain what that means, but once he understands he won’t make you feel bad for that sort of thing. Gives you a side hug and tells you that he’s glad he doesn’t have to worry about your heart being broken by some asshole who can’t appreciate you for who you are. Unfortunately, if you do come out to him as ace, he might make some puns about it. Nothing offensive, but he’s your father, he can’t help the urge to make awful dad jokes from time to time.

If you don’t know Russian then he’ll teach you. He’s a proud Russian, so he does want you to know the language. He can hire a teacher for you too, if you’d prefer that, but you won’t be spared. He’ll talk to you in Russian and compliment you on your progress. Besides, it’s never a mistake to know another language. If you do know Russian then he’ll speak it with you whenever he can. Yes, even when the likes of Price are around. Doesn’t matter if it comes off as rude, it just feels homey to him. It makes him feel at ease.

[agentark]

whatever you do, don't imagine a young J Corvin waiting every day at the end of their drive, hoping today is the day the mail carrier finally brings a letter from their very best friend

[escapedaudios]

Someone mentioned in the comments of Chronus Seven about a year ago that characters of mine with theme songs have a tendency to die and I have adapted by giving every character a theme song so you'll never know who's in danger and who isn't.

[jacks-wack-attack]

Heh, what do you mean I'm crying over Lucifer singing about how he wants to protect his daughter so much and loves her wholeheartedly, and also how she was inspired by him and his stories since she was a kid, and how they both want to have a relationship with each other and are grateful for one another? Why would I be crying over that? I definitely don't have tears running down my face right now. It's fine.

*sobs quietly*

[acidheaddd]

My sweet baby girl had to go to the vet. I've been battling with her over scratching her ears to the point of scarring and bleeding for about a week or so now. Finally got to take her to the vet to get it checked out as I was running out of ways to try and make her comfortable.

Turns out, ear infection in both ears. She's home now, with ear drops I gotta give her every 12 hours. I'm just glad I can finally treat the cause and hopefully she'll be comfortable and back to herself again soon.

[miyamoratsumuu]

non chalantly accidently drops this in ur inbox

I'm absolutely not nonchalant about this ahahahshjajakzbajaba

OH MY GODDJWBDJBAHABAJSBQ???!?@[×&>-^×> SAKU WHAT THE FUCJCDBSKA I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE BC I DIDN'T NOTICE THAT WAS MY NAME IN THERE AND I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A RANDOM FANART BUT OHHHH MYYYYDHWHXJWNKZ

AND IS THAT AN F ON THE LEFT OF HIS JORTS??? AAAAAAAGHHH SAKUUUU ☹️ I LOVE YOUUU SO MUCHHHH

I'M CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP /pos STOPPPSJSJWN SAKU I LOVE THIS SM AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH:( HOW COULD I EVER REPAY YOU FOR THIS????

I CAN'T SHUT UP I'M LITERALLY BEING SO NOISY RIGHT NOWWJSBQNANKA HE LOOKS SO GOODDFJSBDJA YOUR ART STYLE'S SO CUTEEEUDHEJS I'M TEARING UP RN NO JOKE AAAAAAGH 😞😞 I WANNA GIVE YOU THE BIGGEST MOST INTENTIONAL SMOOCH RN

SHITDJHS I JUST NOTICED THE F ON HIS NECKLACE TOOOOO ☹️ AND THAT ACTUALLY IS AN F ON HIS SHORTS RIGHT??? or am I starting to hallucinate omg I feel lightheaded

HOW COULD YOU JUST RANDOMLY DROP THIS BOMB ON ME AT 5 IN THE AFTERNOON????? THANK YOUUUU SM FOR THISSSS<3 :( I genuinely hope, pray, and wish that you live the best life ever oh my gosh ilysm you deserve it

[oxbowreality]

I wish I could stop being lonely without having to interact with people. People are scary.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e1 pilot (w. eric kripke) part 1 (part 2)

I can't do this alone. Yes, you can. Yeah. Well, I don't want to.

will he stay or will he go part 6 of ?

[blue-banditt]

someone on the internet said I was abusive and ruining my cat bc I was talking ab how I forcefully give my cat cuddles and hold her to my chest when she doesnt want to be held as a form of (last resort) soft discipline if she's doing something that's potentially dangerous and could injure herself. They were so mean about it... Maybe they're right. Idk how to take care of myself let alone raise a cat. I should put her up for adoption or smth I don't want to be unintentionally hurting her anymore...

[izzy-prizzy]

"would you peel an orange for me?"

"peel an orange? i'd die for you.."

[byfulcrums]

Teenage superhero groups are so good. Not only because they're always really fucking relatable, but also because their relationships are so special. They're like:

“I met you, and I was weary of you at first. We've become closer and closer to the point we trust eachother with our lives, but still not with our identities — it's sad, but it's how it is.

You've cried to me about how your mentor didn't listen to you, about how they yelled at you and didn't seem to care enough. I've cried to you about how my life is so lonely, about how being a hero is taking away my life, about how I can't be a teenager anymore because I can't rest without feeling like someone will die because of me not being there.

We've fought together, and we've fought eachother. We've cried together, laughed together and yelled together. We've saved the world together. We were never meant to be apart.

The other day, you were brainwashed and turned evil. You were tortured, striped away of your own being. We tried to help you anyway, even if our mentors told us not to. We still spent hours shopping for a birthday gift you'd like a few months later.

We're slowly growing up, and we're leaving the safety of our mentors's cloaks. We're going through different paths; always down, always falling, but not as together as we were before.

Some of us have found our own proteges. I'd like to say I'm better with mine than my own mentor was with me, and I hope you are the same.

Our proteges have found eachother the same way we did. The happiness from seeing me in your face was everything I needed to be convinced to stay with you.

We've been getting the others to come back, too. We're also recruiting new people, new young heroes who will get themselves killed if they're not guided properly. We're not the same young kids anymore, but we're together once again, and that's all that matters.

We grew up very quickly. I can see it from the way we don't laugh as much anymore, from the way we're the one attempting to stop the younger ones from pulling pranks on us, from the way we train instead of being trained.

We're all adults now. There was a time where we lost ourselves, and we wouldn't find us anymore. A time where I went to our old lair and saw it empty, devoid of life. A time where I tried to call you and you didn't answer. A time where I saw you on TV, with a kid by your side, looking at you like you're their entire world.

We're adults now. We've lost ourselves many times. But we've found eachother again. And I think that's what matters. Because we're not only teammates anymore; we're family.”

Or something like that idk, I suck at writing

[yet-another-heathen]

Well. It's now 3am and I'm still so heartbroken that I can't sleep, so I guess Tumblr might as well be the place for this.

Today a complete stranger came by while I was at work and mowed my front and back lawn for me. I'm sure it was something he was trying to do out of neighborly kindness, but he ran over and killed four of our young trees and shrubs. One of these was a very, very rare native plant. I'm talking so rare that I have never found one before or since, and can't give its name without doxxing myself. It was, by the simplest definition of the word, irreplaceable.

It was the first thing I ever planted in this garden. It took it two years to get to the height it was, and was going to get so much bigger. It will not survive being cut off to the ground like it was. It is going to die, and there is nothing I will ever be able to do to fix or replace it.

I am so completely and utterly crushed.

I never had a chance to stop him. He went around most of our saplings, but every single plant that was under 12" tall is gone. The only one that might survive is a lilac bush that we planted just last week. I can't even find what's left of the others.

I'm sure he expected me to come home and be overjoyed. Instead I'm here with a knot of grief in my chest that's been stuck there for hours. So I'm going to tell you what I might not be able to tell him:

Please remember that the single kindest thing you can do for another person is ASK.