#it feels like a mystery too as im trying to piece together what the heck happened

[brine-in-my-eyes]

ok so ive been reading whathappensnext and uh oh my god oh my... goodness gracious. what in the flimmerjammer dilly jar did i pull myself into

im bookmarking at victim impact statement cuz i think this is near the end but i gotta go to sleep

all ive got to say now is oh my god gage you need to calm tf down oh my god oh my godddddd. everyone is so messed up in the head. this comic goves off so much millenial aged american neurodivergent toxic sludge of relationship messed up kind of story one that probably would have broken me as a teen but now i can just read with the sidenote that it's all fiction n stuff

i might reblog with some final thoughts just cuz i have like ALOT to say abt what i think of it

now heres the tricky part. actually putting my phone down and going to sleep.

[all-hail-the-witcher]

I have literally no clue how to do this, but director’s commentary on your ‘One expensive can of easy cheese’ fic?

hell yeah!!

all comments will be in bold

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Race was sat on top of the counter in his and Albert’s apartment, race only knows how to sit on counters lets be real, he can't sit in a chair to save his life a piece of duct tape over his mouth and his hands tied together with kitchen twine KINKYY. He sighed against his restraints, resigned to watch his boyfriend make their contribution to this year’s Thanksgiving gathering: mac and cheese. okay so its mac and cheese cause if you read spies mac and cheese is Literally the Only thing albert knows how to cook, other than coffee, and he's Really Fuckin Good At It (he's the mikey of mac and cheese okay this is my hc)

Now, of course everyone and their mother knew that mac and cheese was not a Traditional Thanksgiving Food is it though, r a c e r?. But, Albert had won (best out of three) mario kart yesterday so he had gotten to decide what they would bring to Jack’s house i was gonna make it rock paper scissors, i do not know hot to play mariokart, but it sounds more heated than rock paper scissors. Had Race known that he had been planning to make mac and fucking cheese, maybe he would have tried a little harder race be quiet you literally love alberts mac and cheese its a known fact.

Apparently, Albert was not pleased with Race’s reaction to his decision to make mac and cheese, and thought that Race might try to get in the way somehow (which he may or may not have fully intended to do) he did. So he did what any loving boyfriend would: sat him on the counter, put duct tape over his mouth and tied his hands together so he wouldn’t interfere albert sounds real kinky in this, why did i make this so kinky, wait when did i even write this.

Race was beginning to wonder why he had agreed to move in with Albert in the first place. CAUSE YOU LOVE HIM THATS WHY

With a violent shake of his head and one final spat who the fuck uses the word spat huh saph??, he was able to dislodge the duct tape d i s l o d g e thats some karen bs right there.

“Albieeeeee,” he whined, laying down on the counter. “Can you pleaaaaaaaseee let me helllllllllp?” yeah albert let him help jeez he's the one who actually knows how to cook

Albert barely glanced up as he pulled the big wooden spoon out of the pot and gave it a thoughtful lick note to self, all licks should always be thoughtful. “Hmmmmmmm. No.” dumbass. if only you knew what was coming.

“But-!” He wriggled w r i g g l e d around to give Albert his best puppy dog eyes. “Can I make something else then? Ple-OW!” He glared at the spatula that had been hurled at his arm. “You apologize for that!” damn albie why so mean? o wait i wrote this wait...

“Nah.” He smirked and went back to stirring his wretched pasta okay but i did a good job making race salty i gotta give myself that. Well, actually Albert’s mac and cheese was quite good hELL YEAH IT IS. Race was just salty that he was making it for Thanksgiving when it was very well known that he was the chef of the two and Jack was expecting something good not the mac and cheese Albert famously made at 2am in college when they were all high as hell. okay real talk tho, no one eats good mac and cheese in college, its the instant microwave shit cause were all broke so thats a lie race

“Can you at least untie me then?” ;)

“No.” Albert even bother considering this time. albert this is gettin Real Kinky..

“Well.” If logic wasn't going to work on Albert he would have to try another method. “I know you know how to make a guy feel good Albie HAH YES I KNEW I PULLED SOMETHING WEIRD, but I never expected ropes to be a part of it. What’s next? Handcuffs? Whips? Chains?” i gotta tell ya life without ya has been hard. hard? has been bad. bad? has been r o u g h. k i N kY

In two seconds flat Race was out of his kitchen twine bonds and flexing his sore wrists. LIKE HECK HE WAS CAUSE ALBERTS ACE AND HE DONT WANT THAT REPUTATION!!!

“Man Albie, who knew you had a twine kink.” hehe u go race

“You know,” Albert began loudly, as if thinking that his loudness would cover up his totally obvious twine kink yeah albie has a twine kink, he licks it, no this is a joke, “if you want to do something that's actually useful, you could go to Walgreens and buy me another can of Easy Cheese.” W A L G R E E NS. this whole fit was an excuse to write another part of the walgreens au

“Is that what you put in your fuckin mac and cheese?” Race swore he actually felt bile rise in the back of his throat when Albert nodded. “That’s it. I’m never eating your mac and cheese again.” BUT YOU LIKE IT

“But-!”

“I’ll eat you though,” Race winked, taking a moment to enjoy the startled, yet somehow pleased look on his boyfriend’s face. okay maybe albert wasn't ace in this particular fic...

“Not until after we’re done at Jack’s.” yeah definitely not scratch that. i write a lot of fics. Albert said only half jokingly as he dug around in his pocket for a second before throwing a crumpled five at Race. “In the meantime though, be gone thot!” GO AWAYYYY. IM A MAN OF GOD. mikey and my sister have subjected me to too many tik toks im sorry

Race barely managed to catch the bill without falling on the floor, but still blew a kiss to Albert before walking out of the apartment.

Who the fuck puts easy cheese in mac and cheese? albert does. but its actually a plot point just to get you to walgreens and if anyone puts easy cheese in mac and cheese i will fite you. He wondered for the millionth time as he stomped the three blocks to Walgreens. Albert claimed that he had chosen his apartment for its proximity to the store he did, actually, but up until today Race had always assumed that he had been joking he was not. The man did make a lot of mac and cheese and if Easy Cheese was an ingredient well….maybe there was some truth to that story after all. you can buy easy cheese at a lot of places tho...i don't actually know if you can buy easy cheese at a walgreens

Race pulled open the door to the Walgreens, pausing briefly to wonder why the absolute fuck it was open on literal Thanksgiving before remembering that it was a fucking Walgreens and why wouldn’t it be open to sell his dumbass boyfriend a can of fucking Easy Cheese. walgreens remains a mystery indeed. my only experience was the one that my best friend and i would go to at lunch during senior year. also have you ever noticed that most walgreenses are on corners? cause their slogan is at the corner of happy and healthy??

In order to get to the Easy Cheese, or at least he assumed so because he had never bought a can of Easy Cheese in his whole glorious 25 years of life a true chef, Race had to walk past the Pharmacy section of the store. And, it just so happened that there was a guy sitting behind the counter at the Pharmacy. A very attractive guy. With a beard. In scrubs. oh my god the most questionable villain I've ever written.

Now, of course Race loved Albert and nothing would ever change that, but he could appreciate an attractive man when he saw one indeed he could. He thanked whatever deity was out there for the bit of man candy M AN C AN D Y that he had been granted and went in search of his Easy Cheese. oh just you wait racetrack 

“Mac and cheese, velveta cheese, microwaveable mac and cheese, where the fuck is the- oh thank fuck there we go.” my best friend and i spent much time looking at the mac and cheese in walgreens He pulled a can of Easy Cheese off of the shelf, tossing it once and catching it athletics before turning to go pay for the horrendous product, happy to finally be done with the whole ordeal when- B R E T T 

“Easy cheese? Really?”

Race whirled whirled? saph please get a better vocabulary around to see Mr. Man Candy hA himself leaning against the opposite shelf. “Wh- who?”

“Oh,” he dusted his hand off on his scrubbs oh my god Wait i wrote this cause one time when i was in a walgreens i Did see a hot dude working the pharmacy and decided to write a fic about it!! i remember texting mikey about this hjfhgjhg, “allow me to introduce myself. My name is Brett O’Hare. and mikey came up with that name And you, sir, are a disgrace to society. The very reason why so many Americans are in poor health in this day and age.” brett is an obnoxious millennial in case you can't tell

“I’m sorry, what?”

“The Easy Cheese!” Brett gestured wildly toward the can in Race’s hand. “Gosh do you even know how many preservatives are in that stuff? And all the cancers that it can cause? It’s terrible. We wouldn’t need free healthcare if people just stopped eating Easy Cheese!” apparently he's a millennial who's also a republican...?

Race had lived in New York City his whole life, and he had seen some pretty strange things subway pizza rat, but never had he seen a pharmacist in a Walgreens lecture anyone about the health benefits of Easy Cheese. easy cheese has no health benefits. and if you'd stopped annoying your boyfriend maybe you wouldn't be there

“So let me get this straight,” Race rubbed his head, trying to make sense of the situation. “You go around yelling at people about the ingredients in the things that they are purchasing?” yeah its nyc people love to have Opinions. and so do millennials

“Yeah.”

“You do realize that this is a Walgreens, right? Everything in here probably contains some kind of chemical.” man brett has his work cut out for him. New Yorkers never ceased to amaze him.

“All the more reason for me to inform them of their poor eating habits!” Brett pointed a finger at him. “And stop distracting me! You’re the one buying the freaking easy cheese here!” this is so weird why did i come up with this idea. what possessed me. 

“It’s not even for me!” Race shouted back. “It’s for my boyfriend’s fucking mac and cheese that he insisted on making for Thanksgiving even though everyone knows that mac and cheese is not a fucking Thanksgiving food and he’s only making it cause he knocked me off the goddamn rainbow road right before the fucking finish line!” someones salty Race was fuming but the time that he was done.

“Oh, man I’m so sorry, that's lousy.” but it won't stop brett...

Race looked surprised. Of all the things that he thought he would get out of this Walgreens experience, a therapy session was indeed not on the list. But neither had been hearing a lecture about the preservatives in Easy Cheese from a pharmacist. i have literally no explanation for this train wreck of a fic

“But that doesn’t change the fact that you’re still buying Easy Cheese!” Between one second and the next, Brett had grabbed the can of Easy Cheese out of Race’s hand, wielding it like a brick ha percy jackson heroes of olympus anyone??. “Buy some fucking vegetables!” you can't buy vegetables in a walgreens brett

And with that, he struck Race over the head with the can of Easy Cheese.

Now, Race had definitely done some questionable things during his life Thats for sure. Once he had slept on the roof of his dorm building in January for a week because he lost his dorm key god why you can't even get on the roof of dorm buildings i know, I've tried, and another time he had been tricked into making an entire wedding cake using salt by Who??. However, being smacked over the head with a can of Easy Cheese by a health nut in scrubs on Thanksgiving put any and all other situations he had been in to shame in a walgreens don't forget. how did you forget that saph.  

He opened his eyes, suddenly blinded by the lights, and reached for his phone, muttering curses about man candy and vegetables as he should be. Squinting so he didn’t have to look at the screen, he somehow managed to dial Albert. no one d i a l s anyone saph. its the 21st century. i have like maybe 8 phone numbers memorized, half of them belong to my family the other half to people i knew in middle school.

“Racetrack Higgins, where is my Easy Cheese?”

Race pulled the phone away from his ear and winced at the sound of his boyfriend’s voice. “Um, it may have been used to give me a concussion by a health nut in scrubs?” for Once al isn't the one who gets injured in a walgreens. bet you didnt see That coming

Albert let out a loud sigh. “Ah man, did you run into Brett? That guy’s the worst.” hehe bet al used to date him

“Wait, you know him?”

“Race, I know every Walgreens employee in Manhattan, of course I know Brett.” There was the jangling of keys in the background. “I thought I told you to go to the one on 4th for this reason, ah, well. I’m on my way. I’ll take you to urgent care. Hang tight.” ofc al goes to urgent care. and everyone there knows him by a first name basis

Race’s head hurt too much to process what Albert had said except for the words ‘I’m on my way.’ “Okay,” he sighed. this was definitely one of the times i asked mikey about oddly specific concussion symptoms and then proceeded to forget everything he told me and do my own stuff

“Love you.”

“Love you too.” Race’s eyes focused on the dented can of Easy Cheese rolling on the floor he should still buy it. “And Al?”

“Yeah?”

“This is going to be one expensive can of Easy Cheese.” get it? cause race has to pay urgent care for his consultation? and they're also Very Very late to thanksgiving. cause al insists on finishing his mac. jack is not impressed. he eats all races pie.

anyway thats that hope you enjoyed

[firstmatey]

► — now announcing their royal highness, [ THOMAS DOHERTY ]  ! oh , wait . that’s just [ HARRY HOOK ] , the [ BAD ] child of [ CAPTAIN JAMES HOOK ] they are currently a [ 25 ] year old [ PROFESSIONAL SAILOR ] of [ AURADON ] , but were originally from [ THE ISLE ] . people say they remind them of [ MANIACAL GRINS & CHAOTIC FILLED LAUGHTER, A GLEAMING, SHARP POINTED SILVER HOOK, CHARMING ACCENT AND WORDS TO FOLLOW ] & that they are [ + LOYAL , + CHARMING ] but also [ - IMPUSLVE , - VIOLENT ]. welcome , to the beginning of the new united world

trigger warnings: violence, child abuse, mental illness

to begin off here is a link to harry’s wiki since he is a canon character to give more of a brief overview of himhis personality has not changed at all. he’s still very snarky, prideful, wild, and pretty darn unpredictable with what he’ll do or say. he has very little love for the ak kids and will, more often that not, give them a hard time and just be as difficult as he can

i do headcanon that while harry is unaware of who is mom is, she is a siren which makes him half-siren. however, he has no knowledge of this whatsoever so it’s a complete mystery for him.

harry is a flirt. a really, really big flirt. comes with his charismatic personality, and a lot of the time he uses it as a tool to get what he wants. harry knows he’s attractive. he knows people find him attractive. he’ll flirt with vks and aks, doesn’t matter to him. he has no preference whatsoever. he’s not at all ashamed of being bisexual and he’ll sure as heck flaunt it around to mess with people, just to flirt, or whatever. it’s a fun time for him

he is extremely attached to uma and gil, though. super attached. he is very loyal and would never leave their sides. ever.literally would die for uma. he would do anything she asked, very rarely questions it

at the same time, he’s so attached and willing to do whatever for uma and the crew because he’s afraid that if he doesn’t, then they won’t need him anymore and toss him away.

harry has a bit of a thing with living up to his dad and aspiring to be like him. he carries a hook on his hand so he can resemble his dad more, and that hasn’t remotely changed one bit. he did try to get tic-tock to bite his hand off before so he could have a real hook like his dad, but the crocodile just looked at him and went back to sleep

harry isn’t completely mentally stable. he has more than a few issues that he refuses to acknowledge. uma and gil are the ones that keep him together rather than falling apart

he had a pretty big reputation on the isle. one, very cruel and someone not to be messed with. two, he sorta was a man whore. got around a bit and has absolutely no shame of it whatsoever.

at a younger age he used to be a lot different. more carefree, open. friendly. but his dad saw too much of peter pan in him, and that was quickly snuffed out. harry has dealt with abuse most of his life, physical, mental, and emotional.

plays the piano and is actually really good at it. but only uma and gil and his sisters are aware of this particular habit

do not touch his hook. or his left hand. just.... don’t.

harry is an extremely violent person who will resort to violence as his first instinct. he is incredibly prideful of who he is and what he can do, and tends to have more of a wild and unpredictable nature to his actions. despite this, he is charismatic and is known to draw people close. harry has no concept of personal space boundaries, and uses touch as a form of intimidation.

Current Life

he definitely has no love for auradon and most likely never will. especially after the sea 3 were willing to help until they learned that opening the barrier had been a complete lie. harry wasn’t going to do a damn thing with that knowledge.

remaining on the isle for the years that he has definitely has.... put him into an even worse mental state than before. though he’s unaware of it, he does suffer from complex post-traumatic stress disorder ( c-PTSD ) and body integrity identity disorder ( BIID ) specifically with his left hand. he’s definitely gotten worse over the years without getting the help he needs or having that freedom.

so he’s not happy. he’s angry at auradon for keeping them trapped while they got to live their happily ever after. and he’s for damned sure ready to tear it all to pieces. 

does work in auradon as a professional sailor mainly to keep an eye on things and to spy. 

in an open relationship with uma. the dynamic works very well for them and has since they decided to be honest about their feelings for one another. sure, harry might flirt with other people and sleep around still but his heart belongs to uma and he never fails to return to her every day. 

definitely has quite a few tattoos. honestly too many to list right now but eventually.

Wanted Plots and connections

friends from the isle that he’s known for most of his life

flirtationships

i’d love his sisters, cj and harriet around honestly.

rivals, both  vks and aks

aks that are trying to be friendly with him but harry is difficult and not making it easy at all for them

friends with benefits kinda thing cause he would not be opposed to that at all

vks that have a bad history with him on the isle

past relationships, exes, past flings

maybe someone who has feelings for him that he’s never going to return. an unrequited situation 

i am up for a lot of things honestly so if you wanna do something definitely come to my ims and we can discuss things and plot and make some connections !!

[zombiequincy]

THE MEGA RP PLOTTING SHEET / MEME.

First and foremost, recall that no one is perfect, we all had witnessed some plotting once which did not went too well, be it because of us or our partner. So here have this, which may help for future plotting. It’s a lot! Yes, but perhaps give your partners some insight? Anyway BOLD what fully applies, italicize if only somewhat.

MUN NAME: Hela     AGE: 21       CONTACT: IM

CHARACTER(S): Giselle Gewelle, Yumichika Ayasegawa (inactive)

CURRENT FANDOM(S): Bleach

BLEACH FANDOM(S) YOU HAVE AN AU FOR:  I have gory Bloodborne au but that one just exists in my head on my lonesome.

MY LANGUAGE(S): English and one very specific Middle Eastern dialect.

THEMES I’M INTERESTED IN FOR RP: FANTASY / Science fiction / Horror / WESTERN / ROMANCE / Thriller / MYSTERY / DYSTOPIA / ADVENTURE / MODERN / Erotic / Crime / MYTHOLOGY / Classic / HISTORY / RENAISSANCE / MEDIEVAL / Ancient / WAR / FAMILY / POLITICS / RELIGION / SCHOOL / ADULTHOOD / CHILDHOOD / APOCALYPTIC / GODS / Sport / MUSIC / Science / FIGHTS / ANGST / Smut / DRAMA / etc. 

PREFERRED THREAD LENGTH: one-liner / 1 para / 2 PARA / 3+ / NOVELLA.

ASKS CAN BE SEND BY: MUTUALS / NON-MUTUALS / PERSONALS / ANONS.

CAN ASKS BE CONTINUED?:   YES / NO    only by Mutuals?:  YES / NO.

PREFERRED THREAD TYPE: CRACK / casual nothing too deep / SERIOUS / DEEP AS HECK. (i love it all sorry I am quite the mixed bag lmao)

IS REALISM / RESEARCH IMPORTANT FOR YOU IN CERTAIN THEMES?:   YES / NO. i gotta know what certain human body parts taste like u know

ARE YOU ATM OPEN FOR NEW PLOTS?:  YES / NO / DEPENDS.

DO YOU HANDLE YOUR DRAFT / ASK - COUNT WELL?:  YES / NO / SOMEWHAT. it’s SO BAD FOR ME RN ASGLDKJDJKA i’m very inconsistent i’m so sorry.

HOW LONG DO YOU USUALLY TAKE TO REPLY?: 24H / 1 WEEK / 2 WEEKS / 3+ / months / years. / a lot of it has more to do w my general writing mood and if the thread im writing catches my interest, and rn im writing a TON of really wonderful and fascinating threads so they’re all super captivating for me and i try to reply asap

I’M OKAY WITH INTERACTING: ORIGINAL CHARACTERS / a relative of my character (an oc) / duplicates / MY FANDOM / CROSSOVERS / MULTI-MUSES / self-inserts / people with no AU verse for my fandom / CANON-DIVERGENT PORTRAYALS / AU-VERSIONS.

DO YOU POST MORE IC OR OOC?: IC / OOC. (i have a lot of stupid shit sorry) 

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WITH FOLLOWING OTHERS?: YES / NO / DEPENDS.  

BEST WAYS TO APPROACH YOU FOR RP/PLOTTING: just send me a tumblr instant message, i know it sucks shit but im not comfy releasing my discord w everyone just yet cause i use it for personal use as well. i check tumblr on the daily so if you send me a message chances are i’ll see it and respond!

WHAT EXPECTATIONS DO YOU HOLD TOWARDS YOUR PLOTTING PARTNER:  i guess just be able to put up with my rambling and stopping and starting, a lot of characterisation choices i do go through various stages and its pretty messy so when i communicate that with others it usually ends up equally messy. just be patient with me please.

WHEN YOU NOTICE THE PLOTTING IS RATHER ONE-SIDED, WHAT DO YOU DO?:  i don’t mind! sometimes ppl have more ideas that they want to share first and i’m always super happy to listen to those ideas !! sometimes its nice to have someone with a clear guide or structure and be able to work around that rather than trying to fumble through a plot together.

HOW DO YOU USUALLY PLOT WITH OTHERS, DO YOU GIVE INPUT OR LEAVE MOST WORK TOWARDS YOUR PARTNER?:  i try to map out some basic info abt their characters that i otherwise don’t know from their bio or verses and try to pick out points of confrontation or similarities to expand on with giselle that can be used as points for like a starter to happen. its either that or sometimes i have really stupid ideas i just toss out there like ‘LMAO THEYRE BREAKING SHIT AT DISNEYLAND’ and go buck wild from there if the other person is down. i also always try to warn people or get a gauge for what subjects to avoid and steer clear of considering that giselle is a bit of a Freak(tm) and will say and do bad things.

WHEN A PARTNER DROPS THE THREAD, DO YOU WISH TO KNOW?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS. - And why?: if there’s something giselle did or said that upset you, i would love to know not to repeat it again (since i do still feel pretty new to the rp game, theres still plenty of time for me to make stupid mistakes). if its just a general lack of interest or uncertainty of where the plot should go, then you dont have to tell me i wont take it personally i promise ! 

WHAT COULD POSSIBLY LEAD YOU TO DROP A THREAD?: sometimes i can be made uncomfortable by certain things mentioned... it happens but its rare 

- WILL YOU TELL YOUR PARTNER?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS. i don’t want to upset anyone personally and sometimes explaining the ins and outs of my discomfort make things ten times worse so i just. would rather not.

IS COMMUNICATION IN THE RPC IMPORTANT TO YOU? YES / NO.

- AND WHY?: i am the most nervous person you can meet and my brain is always giving me misinfo abt paranoia and random shit so i having clear concrete communication between two parties abt if something is going wrong or is being received poorly means the world to me.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH ABSOLUTE HONESTY, EVEN IF IT MAY MEANS HEARING SOMETHING NEGA1TIVE ABOUT YOU AND/OR PORTRAYAL?: i need it !! i still feel relatively new to all this and i need to know whats going wrong to improve !! 

DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HANDLE SUCH SITUATION IN A MATURE WAY? YES / NO.

WHY DO YOU RP AGAIN, IS THERE A GOAL?: to help with my confidence in writing! i have v bad anxiety when it comes to sharing my works and i write a lot of other pieces alongside this blog on ao3 and i want to develop my writing skills just in general. when it comes to like the nuts and bolts of why i rp giselle specifically, its mainly to just have fun and have a laugh w my friends who are really awesome quincy writers

WISHLIST, BE IT PLOTS OR SCENARIOS:  OH SO MANY! ive managed to fulfil a lot of my wishlist threads with like, giselle talking to characters she’s already zombified and i love all that angst but i want to do more stupid shit. i want to make it my personal goal to bully every quincy man and woman on sight. although a REAL dream would be if i got to write a thread zombifying a character who managed to escape giselle’s clutches. and more fighting! i want to get better at describing action and fights and i love to write giselle getting beat up and beating people up! more more more!! 

THEMES I WON’T EVER RP / EXPLORE:   hohoho theres a LOT... uh r*pe/dubcon threads for one, even if yeah i know writing it doesnt condone it, it makes me intensely uncomfortable to put my muse in that scenario, i feel like i have an obligation to like, protect her from that shit you know? racism is one i don’t want to transgress, even though i’m a poc, its not really cathartic or groundbreaking to write abt racism in threads its just... really fucking upsetting. also i know the quincy’s have this very close parallel to the whole n*zi imagery and ideology thing going on and i am not about to start even daring to thread that into my writing or bring those allusions and references of real life tragedies into giselle’s threads. i’ve already talked at length abt exploring giselles trans identity in rp and why im not comfortable doing so, so.... yeah! all those i guess.

WHAT TYPE OF STARTERS DO YOU PREFER / DISLIKE, CAN’T WORK WITH?: i like starters where giselle can just immediately get right into being a piece of shit. mise en scene and all that! cut out the build up and just get to the intense horror !! i don’t like starters where its not immediately clear where the characters are standing and what they’re doing and what’s happening around them. those really disorientate me and leave me kinda floundering because i always need some allusion or mention of a setting to ground giselle in a time and place other wise i cant tell what her response should be

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE MOST?:  EVIL WOMEN EVIL WOMEN EVIL WOMEN. also just characters i can wholeheartedly clown on, or also characters who have hidden depths to them and have a single panel of screentime. honestly it’s just all over the place!

WHAT TYPE OF CHARACTERS CATCH YOUR INTEREST THE LEAST?:  angry old men GSADJDKSJA i could never rp yhwach for example or yamamoto because idk. theyre just so crummy and boring to me. i also couldnt rp characters who always have an upper hand in battle like aizen. i like my dumbasses and i like them stupid and adaptive not just, ‘yes i know this because i Know this.’

WHAT ARE YOUR STRONG ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: i think im nice...? FKSJDKDJSA idk i hate trying to toot my own horn. sometimes i also think i make funny jokes and im pretty chill and laid back

WHAT ARE YOUR WEAK ASPECTS AS RP PARTNER?: my writing style is inconsistent and adapts to whatever i’m reading so sometimes it’ll be really good and i love it and other times it reads like really bad fanfic and i get carried away far too easily and write novella lengths for threads which should be much shorter. i also get shy a lot and dont think i communicate very effectively but HEYO we’re working on it!

DO YOU RP SMUT?:  YES / NO/ DEPENDS. haven’t had anybody brave enough to try yet lol

DO YOU PREFER TO GO INTO DETAIL?: YES / NO / DEPENDS.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH BLACK CURTAIN?: YES / NO.

- WHEN DO YOU RP SMUT? MORE OUT OF FUN OR CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT?: more for fun i’d imagine because that’s just giselles own attitude to sex and relationships where she doesnt want anything deep. it might show character development in one way of just showing how she regards others in a romantic sense to be used rather than actually appreciated as their own person and show how selfish she is but yeah, more out of fun

- ANYTHING YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO RP THERE?:  theres a few kinks and such but i dont think they’d ever really come up. again, just mainly no r*pe/dubcon.

ARE SHIPS IMPORTANT TO YOU?:   YES / NO lets hope this doesn’t make me sound like an asshole, but its more like a fun little side thing than anything important to giselle’s actual development and characterisation. 

WOULD YOU SAY YOUR BLOG IS SHIP-FOCUSED?: YES / NO. again, hardly anyone is brave enough to try to romance this evil cannibal.

DO YOU USE READ MORE?:  YES / NO / SOMETIMES WHEN I WRITE LONG STUFF.

ARE YOU:  MULTI-SHIP / Single-Ship / Dual-Ship  —  MULTIVERSE / Singleverse.

- WHAT DO YOU LOVE TO EXPLORE THE MOST IN YOUR SHIPS?: more how giselle likes to give over her power or dominate in different circumstances depending on who she’s with and what’s being done. BUT AGAIN, not a whole lot to explore yet.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS?: YES / NO. - i mean im down for p much anything if it vibes w giselle.

► SECTION ABOUT YOUR MUSE.

- WHAT COULD POSSIBLY MAKE YOUR MUSE INTERESTING TOWARDS OTHERS, WHY SHOULD THEY RP WITH THIS PARTICULAR CHARACTER OF YOURS NOW, WHAT POSSIBLE PLOTS DO THEY OFFER?: if you want an evil woman to taunt and mock and hurt your muse, she’s your gal. you want her to zombify and ruin your muse, shes also your gal. you want her to insult and maim and injure, she’s also YOUR GAL. basically, if you want to do anything fucked up or sad or scary, she can help with that.

- WITH WHAT TYPE OF MUSES DO YOU USUALLY STRUGGLE TO RP WITH?:  uh muses who get really angry quickly or don’t rise or respond to her jabs and are just kinda like a flatline. theres only so much pestering and annoying she can do until realises its not working and just wanders off

- WHAT DO THEY DESIRE, IS THEIR GOAL?:  to find a goal worth living for.

- WHAT CATCHES THEIR INTEREST FIRST WHEN MEETING SOMEONE NEW?:  appearance she always takes an interest in girls almost right away. age as well because she judges old people. 

- WHAT DO THEY VALUE IN A PERSON?:  a good set of guts to ruin and strong muscles.

- WHAT THEMES DO THEY LIKE TALKING ABOUT?:  women, gore, murder, herself, music, stupid memes, gossip.

- WHICH THEMES BORE THEM?:  politics, history, quincy ideology, soul reaper ideology, hollow physiology.

- DID THEY EVER WENT THROUGH SOMETHING TRAUMATIC?:  her family tried to force the burden of upholding the quincy lineage onto her shoulders, she was thrown into the wrong prison and held in isolation, then pressured to become an undying monster in service of a god and then was nearly killed by that same man and left wandering without guidance or purpose. so, yeah?

- WHAT COULD LEAD TO AN INSTANT KILL?:  transphobia. even a whiff of it in her direction and she’ll gut you like a fish.

- IS THERE SOMEONE /-THING THEY HATE?:  the twink soul reaper who outted her.

IS YOUR MUSE EASY TO APPROACH?: YES / NO. - Best ways to approach them?:  if you’re smart, you’ll bring a big bone for her to chew on and distract her while you ask whatever you want.

SOMETHING YOU MAY STILL WANT TO POINT OUT ABOUT YOUR MUSE?: i love my evil queen!

CONGRATS!!! You managed it, now tag your mutuals! ♥

Tagged by:  @bazzardburner​ cheers chicken boy !!

Tagging: @hyouketsu​ @blooming5th​ @viciousvizard​ @glacies-tempestatem​ and whoever else wishes to do this!!

[tikitm]

tiki being a music nerd for 13 minutes straight

uhhHh so oscar and ozpin’s theme are mixing more ?? i hear little bits and pieces of ozpin’s theme , then oscar’s in ‘trouble on the argus limited’

in the same track , ‘trouble on the argus limited’ , ozpin’s theme begins to play , but then takes a ,,, darker, more sinister sounding note instead of that higher , more hopeful note in his theme that he usually has

the main theme , rising can be heard when ruby is telling the plan in ‘trouble on the argus limited’ and it’s soft , but it’s there , which carries on the theme that they’re trusting ‘in the light’ and ‘rising like the moon’

the playful theme in ‘mistral central station’ that captures the character’s excitements ?? amazing

then it goes into dee and dudley’s theme that sound Annoying as Heck , and then it blends into qrow’s theme ?? beautiful stunning amazing bird dad

then you hear ozpin’s theme again , which slowly gets taken over by oscar’s theme again , and they they seem to blend together again , like they have been doing

the piano part of smile in ‘mistral central station’ gave me goosebumps !! ilia has come such a long way as a character and it makes me happy that she funny has a straight path she Wants to go on

and there it is - ‘like morning follows night’ - a perfect , slow , version of it that really enraptures sun’s ,,, softness for blake and how he came to support her and after all , he did support her and help her and that makes me soo happy

but then it trails off into a lighter tune when the camera pans to yang and her friends and hhhHhh im soft

wow then it takes a dramatic tone shift to a dark and sinister theme for ‘spider’s web’ because cinder is starting to get into some Shady Shit™️ because she’s desperate for any kind of information on anyone

and then it pans right into that cue music that neo is Right There™️ , ready to attack , and then it goes into softer , more sinister and mischievous music that shows that wow they’re actually up to something , and it’s going to be big and bad and it’s going to put someone to shame

AND THEN THE THEME OF ALL THINGS MUST DIE PLAYING SOFTLY AND SLOWLY ??? amazing. im so excited akdhsks

all things must die slowly transitions into one thing and that makes me happy because it’s their two themes blending into one another , showing that they’re working together - but the sinister undertones show that they don’t fully trust each other and there Are secrets and undertones being kept

‘say her name’ starts out soft and slow and relaxing , but then gets more mysterious and faster as it goes , showing the severity of the situation

ozpin is being really shady and not that trustful right now , and oscar’s trying to Fight It to give them the information they need and stuff , which shows through the undertones of his theme playing throughout the track , then his theme slowly taking over , showing that he is fighting against ozpin’s control - he wants to be his own person , which is way it’s even more upsetting when qrow says that he isn’t

and then the music picks up and up and up faster and faster and louder and louder , showing ruby’s decision to say jinn’s name -

and then it goes silent. it stops

and whOOsh jinn !! genie in a bottle !! genie in a lamp !! her upcoming theme has a few familiar notes that form a familiar melody , but they’re hard to place

and then the music picks up , showing ozpin’s desperation to keep things ‘close to the chest’ and BOOM the music stops

im literally going to do an entirely different thing for ‘a delicate balance’ because there’s so much to say about this track - and it’s e i g h t m i n u t e s

‘our creation’ - im guessing it’s for the god of light’s moment with ozma

it’s soft , slow , and with the choir in the background , it makes the music seem ,,, important and urgent - like something Needs to be done and that something needs to be done quickly

and oof ozma’s theme soft in the background , showing that after all , he is still human and he wants a normal life and all that and hhhh i feel so bad

im skipping around im sorry

‘brunswick farms’ has that sinister , dangerous vibe , but we’re not sure what it is yet - dangerous , mysterious - we don’t know.

and it’s slow - it slows down at certain points to really emphasize on the scariness

the slow piano at a certain point gives it a certain softness that it shouldn’t have - a false sense of security , if you will . but then it turns into more mysterious , with hints of qrow’s theme (which im guessing is for the part of his drinking™️) that is slow

AND OH SHIT THERES THE PART WITH THE DROPPING OF THE BOTTLE

and ruby YANKS herself up and woAh that’s kinda scary

‘the apathy’ is probably the scariest track in the ost. it’s slow , sinister , and it’s literally telling you something is about to happen

AND THEN THE MUSIC PICKS UP !! ITS THE SLEEP PARALYSIS DEMON BAY BEE

they’re running they’re running they’re running they’re running uh oh sisters

every time the music slows down it stops the melody slightly , that’s the part where the apathy SCREAMS , slowly zapping the motivation out of them

and each time it gets louder and louder and bigger because their influence is getting more and more overwhelming

and then the music slows down slightly because they’re giving up , and the sinister , scary theme is getting louder and louder - and then the silver eyes stops the music for a split second

and maria is over there , trying to coach ruby into using her eyes and then - BAM

and now they’re running out of the house , yelling for oscar to GET THE DAMN TIRE

and weiss sets the HOUSE ON FIRE and wow she’s committed arson

and they have to get the HECK out of there as quick as they possibly can

im doing something completely different for the grimm reaper skjsk

‘welcome to argus’ gave me goosebumps. the soft ,, piano of ‘rising’ gives them hope - gives us hope - because they made it. after all that shit , they made it. finally.

and then it gets into a more cheerful , nice theme of argus , with little notes of oscar’s theme in the beginning because ‘CUTE BOY OZ’ and then they’re touring around argus , looking at all the sights and stuff

ruby’s surprise in jaune’s sister is shown through the ‘ooh !!’ moment in the music that interrupts the melody of the entire track

‘cashews’ is amazing. it’s shows the literal stupidity of the entire interaction - from maria and cordoven’s banter , to a more serious match music , then slower , sadder music because ‘oop racism’ , but then it picks up again lmao

there isn’t much to say about the track ‘silver eyes’ but it shows the softness - the emotion - that goes into using silver eyes

‘jaune’s arc’ gives me whiplash. because it’s slow in the beginning - then it picks up speed to show jaune’s anger as he shoves oscar against the wall and Yells because his love died for ‘nothing’ , and he lets oscar go with sadness and regret , but he doesn’t say anything. and then as they’re looking for him , jaune has time to think things over. you hear the melody of ‘forever fall’ towards the middle , then the melody - the song itself - takes over as something to signify that jaune really Misses her , but gets closure

AND THEN OSCAR’S THEME !! HAPPY , HAPPY BOY !! its so happy !! he feels good about his new clothes - and despite what he says , he gave himself closure for now , but im sure itll be touched upon later because of the cut off of his theme , interrupted by qrow’s theme to show qrow’s grumpiness and all that

and then ruby’s speech !! she had a little bit too many speeches , but the theme ‘rising’ plays again , to show her - their - determination to get to atlas and figure it out because they WILL rise like the moon - like the sun - no matter what. they won’t give up.

‘the heist’ !! a theme that gives everyone Anxiety because no one thought it would work , and the moment it did work , it didn’t . weiss and maria sneak onto the airship and take them out , with the others standing around waiting , and yang and blake off on their own

a small version of oscar’s theme plays as he comforts ruby , showing how much he’s grown into his own character

and then the music picks up and oof it turns suspenseful because oh Shit where’s blake

‘into the canon’ is not only scary on screen , but also scary music wise. it’s suspenseful , it mixes both blake and yang’s fights and the other fight together. the music is fast and urgent , showing that they have to get away and fast and if it doesn’t work , bad things will happen. bad things are going to happen.

but first !! the battle music for cordoven’s fight. fast , playful , serious at the same time. it shows both perspectives of the fight - absolute absurdity , which cordoven feels , and the urgency that the team feels. cordoven thinks this is childish - disgraceful. the team thinks this is important - something that Has to happen or else they can’t complete their mission.

and ruby goes DOWN THE CANON

i have to do an entirely different thing for ‘protecting each other’ too

OH NO HERE COMES THE GRIMM

the music gets dangerous , crazy , fast - they have to do something quick or bad things will happen and that won’t be okay. huntsman and huntresses are supposed to protect - if they can’t do that , then what are they good for ?

jinn’s theme , then the hopeful theme of indomitable is just 👌👌

-‘flight to atlas’ gives closure - peace that they couldn’t find for a while. it’s slow , soft , showing that they made it - it was a long , stressful process , but they made it. with a lighter version of qrow’s theme , small undertones of ozpin’s and oscar’s theme , and then how the music SWELLS when they see atlas because it’s beautiful - it’s grand , it’s amazing - and they made it. there’s a sense of triumph in there , a sense of urgency and a sense of pride. they rose , and they’re going to try and stay there

uhhHHh thanks for sticking around to hear my literal Ramblings about the ost and me being a music nerd - this ost is just so good ?? and if you haven’t listened to it go give it a listen ! the vocal tracks are Amazing , and so are the instrumental ones.

[lyricalt]

2017 fic round up + annual fic meme

It’s that time again, folks. Let’s see the damage.

THE LIST

*drabble/stuff under 1k words +wip

Boku No Hero Academia

Tell - inatodo

Destiny

hardcase* - implied andal brask/cayde-6

a code of you - original character: sol-6

Gamble* - andal brask/Cayde-6

Integrate

got a feel for you* - post-canon seep - pre-canon

Overwatch

R76

feel something*

21

Fourth Date Stuff

Prompt: cut*

punchline

GEN / MISC.

a priori - time travel, Reaper&Gabriel Reyes

gift for gift - gen - Reaper, Widowmaker, Ana Amari, Jack Morrison (mentioned)

all his cards you want to touch - Jesse McCree (Vigilante)/Jesse McCree (Riverboat)

cross your heart and hope - Destiny AU: has mcgenji, implied r76. Too lazy to link to individual pieces on ao3, so I only linked the ones only on tumblr.

Showteam+

Trigger happy

of all just fools - Destiny 2 AU

MCGENJI

not far from home vantage make you sway Prompt: rainy day* Prompt: surprise* must be love cut* devil gave me a crooked start down and doubt - (background implied r76) on your mark+ - AU where genji is a motorcycle and mccree is a mechanic. serial never had much faith (in love or miracles)* Carry case of six wake up calls: 1, 2, 3 Beach drabbles: 1, 2, 3 like you would to a point, to your knees damned if you do - incubus mccree/oni genji sun steel / soul intersect count to three triple threat+ Prompt: kiss on the back of the hand* 

Total number of completed stories: 33, excluding drabbles and some prompts. 

Total word count: AO3 stats say around 56,500. I’ll ballpark it 60,000.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted? 

 I wrote more words and more fic this year, but a bunch of it were very short stories! Shorter than my usual, I think. I am also very in love with the Destiny AU so I think that had a lot to do with my high word count. I also wrote a lot on the side I never posted, ahaha. I think I was very distracted this year by too many fandoms/ideas. Ah well.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? 

Nah. I’m predictable. I’m still side-eyeing the genji-as-a-motorcycle AU though. I did that?

What’s your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest? 

 CARRY. It was Carry. I loved writing that stupid fic. It was so dumb but I feel so vindictive and about it because I wrote it to have fun and also to express some exasperation about a couple of mcgnj tropes I felt were kinda not-my-thing. BUT!! it makes me happy that a lot of other people enjoyed it too and also @vfordii drew THIS.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? 

 I don’t feel like I took any huge risks. I am pretty comfortable with the subject matter I write (--though I think it’s more of a matter of motivation and sticking to it). I, uh, did write some bottom/sub mccree which is somehow not all that popular within the mcgenji fandom and let me tell you this was hugely a case of “if no one will write it then I will but I will complain about it for the entire time”. I wouldn’t consider it a risk though, but I did learn a bit about how to comfortably write dirty talk without needing it to be explicitly written. I don’t think it shows up a lot in my current fics but I’ve been taking note of what sounds right to me vs how much I want to write, if that makes sense.

Also for the record all my mcgnj fic is implied sexual dynamic sub/bottom mccree, like, in the case it ever happens. (I’m kidding. Or am I. I am. (Not really.) No, I’m dead serious.)

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year? 

 Finish the damn fics I start, why don’t I!!!!! (This is a constant goal.)

I do want to write some fandom stories for original characters. I also want to write more explicit fic without shaming myself out of it. What are the nastywords all the hip young adults are using nowadays? I don’t know and I get conflicting reports, but by god I will try to learn.

My best story of this year 

Hardcase, which is admittedly a small drabble but I think.. it holds very well under Destiny 2, despite my frustration with how Cayde is portrayed in comparison to the Destiny 1. I’ve always had this specific opinion about Cayde and his mysterious (and not so mysterious) agendas. Dude definitely has a hero complex and this fic sorta toes into it. Plus, I like any Cayde angst related to Andal.

I feel like, out of all my fics this felt the most complete, and one that I was most satisfied with what I wanted to convey with a limited amount of words. I’m aware that I’m not… really made for longer stories, so I guess… I like to play to my strengths? And this was it.

My most popular story 

 According to AO3 hits and kudos, it was make you sway, another mcgenji fic that started with the same motivation as carry. I think.. it’s obvious… that I, uh, like writing a specific brand of Horny McCree, in that he’s not so much embarrassed by his attraction to Genji but just slightly exasperated by it (and his timing). And, haha, also Genji not being 100% on top of his libido is a nice change of pace too. I remember having fun with this!!

Story of mine most under-appreciated, in my opinion

feel something is one I’m super fond of. It’s very short, but I feel like it’s my best r76 fic in terms of the relationship I want to portray, especially post-Overwatch. I like the way I wrote it; in my opinion it was very to-the-point, and doesn’t have the happy ending they don’t quite deserve (yet) but in my mind it’s still a very positive fic without being too idealistic? Not that either way is bad, it was just something different for me, personally.

Most fun story to write

devil gave me a crooked start was a fic I pulled right outta my ass but wrote it all in one sitting after I came up with a couple of lines of dialogue; “So I’m stuck in the future,” “Would you like to know the future you?”, etc etc. It helped that Blizzard had just released McCree’s Blackwatch skin (WITH THE BLACK LEATHER CHAPS!!!!) and while I wasn’t comfortable about Blackwatch Genji having any sort of romantic relationship with Blackwatch McCree, I was sure as heck willing for Present-Day!Genji having some good nasty fun with a younger McCree.

Also I had a stupid amount of fun writing triple threat: genji/genji/genji, and I’m now just seeing a pattern that I enjoy writing characters being humorously turned on and having fun getting their rocks off, so there’s that. What a revelation.

Most Sexy Story 

God im sorry but I wrote a mcgenji week drabble about blackwatch genji and mccree beating the shit out of each other and it’s the opposite of romantic and definitely not meant to BE romantic, but fighting can be sexy without being horny, right?? RIGHT???

Story with the single sexiest moment 

to a point, to your knees.  

It takes a huge effort for McCree to sit still after that, spine tingling and heat crawling over his body. The switchblade knife in Genji’s hand spins once in a little flourish, drawing McCree’s gaze to it. 

 His attention caught, Genji places the blade at his thumb and forefinger. He slides the knife between them once to no effect, then another time. McCree can hear the grating metal against each other and then the hiss of steam, knife edge still wet with spit from when McCree had held it on his tongue. 

 “Shall we see how sharp your mouth is now?” Genji asks, running the knife through his fingers once last time.

Genji sharpening McCree’s knife with his fingers and McCree getting hot (literally, metaphorically) and bothered by it is a personal achievement. For me or McCree, that’s up for debate.

Though I have to admit I’m absolutely still pissed about not titling the fic “cut to the feeling” instead because that’s a far better name for a knife kink fic an also my third favorite carly rae jepsen song.

Most “holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story 

 I don’t think anyone was surprised about even my most wildest fic. I think a friend of mine was initially disappointed that the knife kink fic was tagged for “mild blood” instead of straight up bloodplay. I’m sorry.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters

I never quite like this question because I always have a good idea of how I want to portray a character in fic since most of my fics tend to lean on the introspective side of things. down and doubt is a very McCree-centered fic that deals with Gabriel, as well as Genji in relation to Gabriel. I wanted to show a lot of things about how McCree and Genji fight together, and what each of them thinks about the whole Gabriel Reyes = Reaper thing. I didn’t hit all the points, and I unfortunately had to scrub a scene off that I definitely want to rework in another fic, but I think I had the basics… present in the fic. I guess what did surprise me was touching on Soldier: 76, though the dynamics between him and McCree is another thing I want to write about for a later fic.

Hardest story to write 

  Intersect , mostly because the later half was such a visual story I had wanted to tell in a form that wasn’t all writing. I think It would have done better as a comic but what can u do? I still very much like the first half, which I had rattling in my head for the last year and a half, really.

I was aiming to write about McCree having hang-ups about Genji, and how he views himself—a washed out mercenary with no clear goals, in comparison to Genji, who’s off in a better headspace than him but still interested in McCree anyway. And it’s not so much a reunion fic I wanted to show but a story where it’s just ok to try and reacquaint yourselves with someone who might be a new person to you. I think. I very much did not want it to be a reunion fic.

Most disappointing 

 Intersect!!!!!!!! It was so jumpy!!!! I had a lot of expectations for it!!!! I wanted it to be so much!!!! In the end I just gave up trying to make the words all fit and banged out the rest of the story and let it go. I’m still upset it didn’t come out the way I wanted it but I think it was better to just post the damn thing rather than let it rot in my drive forever. I felt better for posting it but I don’t think I can reread it anytime soon.

Easiest story to write 

 I lot of fics that fall into this category were the drabbles like Wake Up Calls. I really like writing about mundane moments and little glimpses of a developing relationship, especially for mcgenji, because my headcanon of them consists of a bunch of little moments that somehow build up into a rolling romance that sneaks up on both of them. I think it’s why I have such a hard time writing one long cohesive fic about them. There just isn’t a Big Ah-Ha Moment for them to me? I guess? I guess. I’m rambling!!

Biggest surprise 

 That I continued the mcgenji motorcycle AU, honestly. I love it to pieces and it’s fun but god do I think it’s such a chore writing the build up leading to the parts I WANT to write in the first place!!!!!

Most unintentionally telling story 

  gift for gift started out as a very Gabriel Reyes-centric story but somehow I got passionate about Widowmaker and so it’s also very much about her as well and how she functions within her lack of autonomy. I wanted to explore Gabriel’s motivations/drive to push forward without mentioning just what, exactly, he was going for, which was surprisingly very easy.

Story I’d like to revise

Intersect, not so much revising it but revisiting some of the themes and concepts, especially about McCree. I’ve talked enough about this fic. Anyway.

Story I didn’t write but will at some point, I swear 

 Well. It’s more of a WIP at this stage but I want to write my epic 100k, 50 chaptered Guardian/Fallen romance fic for Destiny but we’ll see how that goes? Mostly I’m waiting on Bungie because I’m so dry on Bungie lore and I have no idea what the House of Dusk is up to and that’s kinda important to my story—which is, not really at all, but I would LIKE to make sure.

Anyway, that’s a wrap for my 2017 fics. Thanks for reading and all the encouragement! I hope to write more entertaining stories for 2018!! :’)

[ladyhawk-s]

��My Missing Midoriya”

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku/Todoroki Shoto ; Midoriya Izuku and Todoroki Shouto Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Todoroki Shouto

Rating: T

Word Count: 7167

Summary: [Missing Halloween AU] When Shouto's sister doesn't show up to their hidden spot for Halloween, he meets a ghostly new friend that shows him the true meaning of Halloween.

A/N: WOW IM SO LATE TO THIS PARTY HOLY HECK IM SO SORRY!!! That did not mean to happen and I have so many excuses why it took me this long but that doesn’t mean anything and IM SORRY. Either way, this is a fic for @rivendell101 for the @fic-writer-appreciation Halloween gift exchange they hosted! Thank you so much for hosting this wonderful event and once again I apologize for turning my part in so late! I hope it still counts! This piece is also based off Missing Halloween which you can watch here. Note, if you haven’t seen it before, it makes it so much better to watch it after the fic but I still added my own twists in there so I hope it’s still good! 

I hope you all enjoy it! 

Read at Ao3 ; Read at FF.net

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Screams of enjoyment and laughter surrounding the darkened town with lightened torched swishing in the motion of children. Lamps overhung them, bringing a soft light to the intricate velvets and tull that detailed the costumes that were garnishing children’s bodies. Little pumpkins with black straps were seen on top of the little fingers as their weight filled in candy pulled their arms down, causing a swift motion against the win.

It was Halloween and everyone was in the spirit of the occasion. Even including little Shouto Todoroki.

Upon his sister’s request and squeals, Fuyumi took the time stored in her vacation hours to sew him his own vampire costume, even making longer teeth to go over his own canines to give the look that he was about to suck other children’s blood. His cravat was ruffled with a beautiful white fabric that had a black tie to bring it together and the rest of his body hid under a velvet cloak as he felt his ribs being constrained with the red corset that came along with costume. Fuyumi even took the extra steps with him to apply ghoulish makeup that made him have bags the size of a college student and some extra blood by the tips of his mouth to pretend he just devoured a victim of his choice. Plus, she used some of her gel to push the white in his hair back to leave the red sticking down, allowing his glowing blue eye to pop out through the strands seen in between his scar.

Due to the living situation at home where the boy was an invisible captive to his father, Fuyumi came up with a plan for young Shouto, making sure he could enjoy Halloween with her and the rest of his peers dressed in other intricate costumes as they collected candy from the local neighbors. Kneeling to meet his eyes to make sure he understood, she gave him a plan, one that she believed to be foul proof. Her instructions were for him to sneak out in his vampiric gear and meet her at the the park at around 6:30pm, when she would be free. Their father would take his daily rest between 4 or 5pm so he had just leg room to escape from his ghostly chains and meet her at the bench she specifically pointed out.

Yet, even though he followed the plan to its bare bones, making sure not even a peep escaped from his shoes, he still couldn’t find his sister. Shouto had a mini digital All Might watch that hung around his wrist that he kept only when his father wasn’t around and hope began to suddenly seep down as the minutes passing down only showed the ghost of his sister appearing. Sometimes he would hear noises or figures that would look like her but then it would turn into a false reality that would only made him sink further into his seat. It didn’t even make him smile to hear compliments of his costume or offerings of gatherings.

It was just another disappointment to plague his life and he felt his hurt in a special kind of turmoil that should never be experienced by children his size.

When his digital watched laughed out 7:30, Shouto decided that the cold wasn’t worth waiting under his cloak and decided to swiftly drop from his spot when he heard a small voice calling from behind him.

“Hey, you’re costume is really cool!” the voice said with excitement, a treat really ringing as it grew closer to him. Shouto slightly turned around to see who it belonged to and it came from this other kid, possibly his own age, in a ghost costume that had patches of different colors to cover the holes marked in it. The boy had frilly green hair that had a special ombre under the shades of the street lamps and his hands were filled with scars as he pulled them out of his sleeve to touch the velvet from Shouto’s cape. “Wow this is nicely made! Did you make this yourself?” he curiously asked, his voice already making mental notes of what kind of material and processes were used in the makings of this costume.

Shocked from this sudden appearance, Shouto remained silent for a few moments before he looked down as the crunched fabric that was tightly wound between his fingertips. “No, I didn’t make it. My sister did. She’s really good at this kind of thing.” He softly responded, his fake teeth leaving a small lisp behind as he answered back to the mysterious boy.

“Wow, that's so cool your sister can do that! I wish I had a sibling so they could make me cool costumes like yours can!” The boy exclaimed as he bounced on each foot, showing his hyper nature that contrasted with the more stern face Shouto exhibited. Suddenly, his steps stopped as a thought crossed his mind and the boy's back shot right back up as he pushed his delicate hand towards Shouto, a grin to back his gesture. “Ah, I'm Midoriya Izuku! Though all my friends are kind of mean and they call me Deku but I’m sure they mean well by it…” He drifted off in thought before he slightly shook his, making his green and black ombre curly hair bounce with each movement. Izuku then turned back to Shouto and gave a look that requested his name back.

With a bit of hesitation licking on the tips of his tongue, Shouto looked at the outstretched hand, wondering if his father's warnings of strangers would apply in this situation. However, the same image made him grow to have an acidic taste on his tongue and Shouto decided to give himself a small triumph of defiance by introducing himself. “...My name is Todoroki Shouto.” He answered back with a voice of softness, clearly wanting to say more but not sure what else to add to his statement of introduction. Given the metaphorical cage his father placed him in, if he was granted any type of social interaction, it was either greeted with a sense of professionalism or screams into his ear that only called him useless as he was kicked right back up. Other than that, he didn’t understand the rules of talking with others so all that could come out of his mouth was his name and he felt an internal urge to punch himself to try to say more.

However, that seemed enough for the boy in the ghost costume as he overstepped boundaries Shouto had never experienced and grabbed onto his vampiric hands, squeezing them with the same delight that was seen on Izuku’s face. “It’s so nice to meet you Todoroki!!! I hope we can be amazing friends!” he said with glitter shining against his beamed expression, companionship already lined in Izuku’s mind. Suddenly, a little thought popped into his mind and it only widened his grin further as he clutched onto Shouto’s hands more. “Hey, I’m not sure what your plans are but do you want to go trick or treating with me!?” Izuku yelped as he bounced on the balls of his feet, though their movements slowed as a counter thought appeared and his shining emerald eyes turned dull as they looked up at Shouto with a crystallized core. “Unless you don’t want to…” he said with a sad ring attached to it, the corners of his mouth turning downwards as his grip loosened on Shouto’s gloved fingers as anticipation of a rejection crept up next to him.

It took a couple of moments for Shouto to respond as he encountered an internal debate. There was a section of him was pulled at the prospect of his sister coming up to him with a similar intricate costume that would match the ruffles on his own wear. However, one quick glance at All Might’s smiling face with a time flickering on and off screamed out the reality that his sister wasn’t going to come rescue him and he’d had to return to metallic bars that he knew as home. With his face scrunching in defiance, Shouto gave Izuku a hard nod while reciprocating the same squeeze his own hands endured. “N-no, I don’t have any p-plans! Let’s go t-together!” Shouto stuttered, using phrases that never reached into his social vocabulary as his voice contained a small strain on vocal cords that had never been used before during his time growing up. He could feel his heart fluttering in rebellion against the pounding of his oppressor’s words swirling in his ear but he continued to nod towards Izuku, as if to beg him to take him away onto an adventure he never once had before.

Suddenly, after hearing Shouto’s stammered agreement, Izuku looked back up at him with shimmering jade eyes as smile soon began to form on his round face once more, making his freckles illuminate under his rosy cheeks. “Really!? Yes yes yes!!” he shouted as his jumps began to resurface, picking up Shouto’s feet too as they bounced in unification. “Let’s go then! We have to hurry or else we’ll miss out on all the candy!” Izuku exclaimed as he repositioned his hands so only one hand was clamped on Shouto’s opposite as he pulled him towards the orange glowing houses that were illuminated with invitations to receive candy.

“Hmmmm let’s go there!” Izuku commanded with his high pitch voice as he made the two of them join an amass of other children that were crowded around the cement steps that led to the opulent door. Within the confounds of the door frame stood a hearty woman with a curved body frame that nestled the bowl of candy on her hip as she gave a comforting smile to all the children that were filled with exaggerated animations of euphoria. Drool could be seen escaping the tips of their lips as their eyes shifted back and forth from the bowl to the owner.

“My my! What adorable costumes you all have!” the woman said with a cheery laugh as her eyes scanned at all the intricacies that were stitched into the variety of ensembles of fabric that were outlining their bodies. Seeing the energy spilling onto her porch steps, she used that anticipation as her eyes enlarged with suspense to get their adrenaline even pumping further as she noticed the small twitches in their muscles with each slight bounce they gave. Suddenly, her hand reached into the candy bowl and gasps erupted from the crowd, creating a symphony of excitement. “So who wants some candy!?” She called to them, giving the command to have the children all squeeze each other as they pushed to front with their bags shoved towards the lady’s hand. “Now now, settle down! One at a time!” The woman tried to appease, though it only seemed to make the children more anxious about getting candy in their grasp. Even Izuku shoved himself within the crowd, joining everyone in their cheerful chants and having parts of his body elbowed in as Shouto looked on with worry from behind. He wasn’t one to shove himself in situations like this and patience was a key part of his personality as he looked onwards in waiting to see if the crowd would dissipate soon.

After hymns of thank yous and have a great halloween, the horde that surrounded the woman’s feet soon dispersed and the only ones left were Shouto and Izuku. Given how Izuku had shoved himself in there, small questions appeared in Shouto’s mind as to why he didn’t manage to get any but his thoughts were immediately interrupted by the slight tapping of the woman’s foot as she stirred her hand in the pot. Shouto looked back at her with curious eyes, wondering what his next move should be. “Pssst…” Izuku whispered over to him, causing Shouto to turn his head towards his ghostly friend. “Follow me!” He beckoned as Izuku got closer to the door and separated his feet so they could have a firm grip on the ground to keep him stable as he pushed his pillow sack towards the candy dealer as he hollered at the top of his lungs “Trick or Treat!!!”

Shouto looked at the way Izuku had done it and he stared back at his plastic hollow pumpkin that only contained flickers of dust inside. Gulping his fear, he gave one last glance at Izuku before copying the same motion, though with slightly more quiver than confidence. “T-trick or t-treat!” Shouto repeated with a wavering voice as he held up his own bucket, his face wincing away in fear as he wasn’t sure the reaction the lady was going to have towards him and his weak posture.

However, unlike how his father would kick his back straight up and force his eyes to be wide open, this woman carried a much more sweet demeanor, chuckling at his actions instead of chastising him. “I thought for a second there you were just going to stare at me and not say anything but you did! I’m guessing this is your first time going out and getting some candy?” she asked him in a motherly tone, blanketing him in an aura of warmth and kindness that had a small tinge of recollection from his own mother before the scar appeared on his face. Shouto slowly nodded his head to her question, revealing the true nature of the situation he found himself in. “Why that’s just adorable! I hope you have fun out there tonight. Here-” she stated as the hand within the bowl blended itself deeper, really making sure that even the candy on the bottom resurfaced to the top. Soon, her hand appeared out, however Shouto quickly realized that there was an overflow than what the other kids received. “Here, have some extra for your first time!” The woman said with tenderness as her now free hand grabbed onto the wooden door, preparing to close it as she slowly moved it towards the latch. “Well have a great Halloween! I hope you have a great night tonight!” and the door slammed with her exclamation, creating a hard knock that masked the boys’ voices for her to stop.

Staring at the entrance with one bucket filled and a pillowcase, they tried to find their voices that had been knocked away from the wind the door closing gave. After a couple of seconds of shock, Izuku’s head bobbed forward as his nimble fingers opened up the bag a bit to really face the reality he had been ignored despite his sure fire attitude and callings as she closed the door. It made him feel numbness inside as he questioned why on Earth that would happen. Was it his costume? Maybe he was too straightforward? Questions curled around his mind as he continued to give a glazed look towards the emptiness befell his bag, making Shouto begin to be filled with woe. However, as soon as he was about to place a hand on Izuku’s shoulder to shake him out of that deadened state, Izuku sprinted back up, looking like nothing happened. Staring back at Shouto’s concerned look, he gave an imitation laugh of All Might that made Shouto lean his head towards the side as his colored eyebrows furrowed themselves upwards in perplexity. “There's no fear, for I am here!” Izuku screamed out, botching All Might’s signature line as his fists rolled into the crevices of his hips. His grin matched the designer one All Might had almost copyrighted as sparkles shined through his polished, white teeth.

Shouto’s blinked in confusion, wondering what in the world got into his new found friend. Even though he wasn't most aware of common reactions, judging glimpses he noticed from his brothers and sister, they would have had a sour face with tears budding in their eyes if they didn’t get what they asked for. Yet, Izuku was completely different than his siblings. Though his bag was empty and not as filled as Shouto’s, Izuku was still able to smile and project a type of hopeful attitude that left Shouto to be in a befuddled state. “Ummm Midoriy-”

“Don’t about it Todoroki! I’m sure she just didn’t see me!” He interrupted Shouto’s beginning remarks as he grabbed his hand and pulled the dazed vampire behind him as he lead the way to another destination. “C’mon let’s get to other houses! We wouldn’t want to miss out on all the candy!” He said cheerily as he tilted his back to look at Shouto with a grin that made his cheeks turn apple in color and his freckles glow under the lamps of the street. With that look, Shouto just followed along, slightly nodding his head in apprehension and trailed after the little boy in front of him, making sure he didn’t lose sight of the patched ghost costume as they traveled in a pack.

However, the expectations Izuku and Shouto soon turned the tables on them as repeats of the first kept reoccurring. No matter how much Izuku shoved himself to the front and begged for candy to make his bag heavier, he would be treated like his costume and instead Shouto received the share, sometimes even more than the other kids from the group due to awe adults had for his costume. As the night continued on and they rang more doorbells to receive candy, Shouto’s bucket began to grow heavier while Izuku’s bag still was reduced to the weight of simple fabric. And as they exited each house, the spirit Izuku had in the beginning soon withered away into the grey sky that was beginning to fill itself with darkening clouds that overhang the dimming stars. The upwards head of Izuku soon declined itself further with each passing second and his pillowcase that was held with tenacity soon dragged itself on the cement, creating small holes by the tips. Shouto looked onto his friend with downturned eyes, not aware of what he should say. At each house, he would try to garner attention towards Izuku but he was met with either laughter and door slams that equaled another rejected attempt. All of this made the atmosphere around them awkward and tense as words were taken from their lungs and stomped on as they continued on with their journey.    

“Why….aren’t I getting any candy….?” Izuku quietly whispered, shattering the constricting vibe that occurred from their lack of speech. His head hung low as his eyes looked blankly at the cracks within the cement of the street, the sparkling semblance he had earlier turning dull and dismal as if colors were beginning to drain from his corpse.  

Eyeing his friend like that, Shouto began to reminisce about the times at his own house where happiness seeped out from under their fingertips and the only comforting color was grey as everything seemed to drain out. He knew that feeling all too well and hearing Izuku’s new found cracked voice with that same sadness Shouto had to use all too much made him feel a sharp pain in his chest. Shifting his heterochromatic eyes back and forth, he tried to come up with a positive solution for his friend until one sprouted into his head. He wasn’t sure how receptive Izuku would be towards it but he figured it was worth a shot, especially since the outcome couldn’t be worse than what they had been receiving for hour or two.

Slowly, not sure how to introduce his action, he grabbed onto the dragged pillow case and yanked it out of Izuku’s grasp, causing a small yelp to occur from that. Ignoring Izuku’s protests and arm jerks to get it back, Shouto set his bucket down on a step nearby and began to use his hands to shovel some candy from his carry on to Izuku’s. Even though Izuku did everything possible to prevent him from doing so, trying to even scream at his friend as hands grabbed onto his forearms, Shouto managed to tune him out as he continued to work his magic with an inexpressive face. After his eyes analyzed the quantities that each bag had, he pulled out two silver wrapped tear dropped candies that had little wisps of knowledge sticking out. “Here you go….” Shouto softly muttered out as he presented not only the now filled pillowcase but the other matching piece of candy he pulled out.

For a while, his arms were outstretched as Izuku looked at him with widened eyes and stiffened muscles, not sure what his reaction should be. A couple of long seconds passed and Shouto grumbled in uncomfortableness as he still kept his posture in hopes Izuku would act soon. Just as he was lowering everything, Izuku’s face began to warp into one with tears spilling down his cheeks as he gave loud hiccups with his hands mashing into his face. “Th-tha-nk y-yo-ou T-t-dor-ro-oki!” He wobbled out as he slammed into Shouto’s body, rubbing his face into the satin vest that hid underneath his luxurious cape. Shouto stood frozen, complete shook at what was going on or why he was receiving this hug that filled itself with waterworks. The mixing emotions Izuku displayed made Shouto have question after question appear in his mind and all he could do in response was just rigidly stand there, holding all the objects that were still in his hand. After leaving a wet stain on the expensive material, Izuku pulled himself back and wiped away any remaining evidence left on the splotches of his face as he gave Shouto a wavy smile. “Y-you’re th-he b-best f-friend any-yone c-can ask-k f-for T-Tod-or-roki!” Izuku exclaimed as he grabbed his items back from Shouto, treating them now like treasures that had been bestowed by the Halloween gods.

Shouto wasn’t much aware of how to acknowledge Izuku’s words, after all, he didn’t do much to be treated like he saved planet Earth. In his mind, he merely gave the boy some of his own candy so they could enjoy the spirit together. To him, it didn’t have much significance but to his companion it did and Shouto felt a weird feeling fluttering in his stomach as his lips slightly curved upwards at his words. Shouto didn’t have any friends so to not only have that said to him but for it to be said in an inflection that was weaved in with honor made him feel special, as if he did something good for someone else instead of being told vomiting beside a treadmill will help the community. However, no words could be formed from his diaphragm so he just gave a simple nod in hope that Izuku would be able to read the thoughts that were crossing through his mind.

“Hey, Todoroki!” Izuku called out, bring back Shouto’s focus as Izuku held his fingers out with the candy he got from him twirling in his fingers, the silver wrapping shining under the brilliance of the glowing lights. “I’m not sure if you had these before but these are called Hershey Kisses! They’re just a piece of chocolate you can put in your mouth but what makes them special is that they have wise words written on this little flap of paper!” He explained to Shouto as he glanced down at Shouto’s own piece that he still had in his hand. Pulling on his wrist to bring it upwards, Izuku placed their respective pieces close together so they could see the glimmering wrapper together. “We should eat ours and show each other what the words say!” Izuku said as he let go of Shouto’s wrist and began to unpeel it, revealing the dark colors that were swirled into a tiny teardrop. Holding onto the piece of paper it came with, he popped it into his mouth and moved it to the side of his mouth, chewing it with conviction as he savoured the sweetness of coco that burst into his mouth. Izuku could taste the hardness of the outer shell slowly melting within the walls of his mouth and soon the softer side appeared as it churned in between his teeth, causing a flavorful bliss to explode within the confounds of his mouth. Soon enough, he swallowed it down his chalked throat as he pulled out the small strip of paper that contained the mystery words he anticipated to read. “Soon, you will have an companion to follow you on your journey.” Izuku read out loud as he inserted his own childhood mysterious voice in there to make it seem more ominous and creepy. However, that effect withered away as he gave a small laugh and looked at Shouto with expectancy. “C’mon Todoroki! Go ahead and try it!”

Still twirling the piece of candy in his hand, soon Shouto felt a pressure to repeat Izuku’s actions as he gave another slow nod in acknowledgment. With adroit fingertips that undid the wrapper with more care than his friend, he slowly placed the piece of chocolate in his mouth and gained the same sensation that flared in Izuku’s mouth. However, Shouto’s cheeks turned red as he began to be overcome with the sugar, something that was withheld from him his entire life. Recollecting the flavors of sugar in his mouth, he relished in the little crackles the sugar sparked on his tongue and he could feel his mouth still continue to linger that taste as he swallowed it down his own throat, really keeping the acid away from this moment. Remembering the flap of paper, he pulled it out and gave a quick glance to Izuku for approval before clearing his voice box to be prepared to speak words that were withheld in there for the past few hours. “You’re going to embark on a new journey that will give you a different perspective on life.” Shouto read softly and with a more serious tone than Izuku did. Rereading the words, he only felt himself getting more confused by what they were supposed to mean past the literal sense of them. The metaphorical description left him curious and with crinkles in between his eyes as he tried to decipher the hidden message underneath the written words.

Though, once again, his exquisite train of thought was obstructed once more by the hyperactivity coming from Izuku. “Wow, that sounds cool. Hey, maybe we’re supposed to go on this mystery journey together!” He added on as he moved closer to Shouto to reread the same words that were reread by the other boy’s eyes. Shouto bobbed his head towards that idea and soon the questions that swirled in his mind shoved themselves into the back as that resolution seemed plausible. “Maybe…” Shouto whispered out as he shoved that slip of paper within his pocket and found a trashcan mere steps away to the shining wrapper. When he retraced them back to Izuku, who had placed his own within his bag, he gave a fast glimpse at his hidden All Might watch to see the time that flashed in between the lines of his grandiose smile. “It’s 10:30…” Shouto muttered out to himself as he was caught in surprise by how much time passed between the two of them. For him, it only felt a mere hour or two withered away but it was more and it made Shouto soon become aware of his surroundings. Now noting the time, he began to see the change in scenery and noticed that the mass of children that had been walking around earlier dwindled down to only a few and the bright lights that blanketed them earlier were off as people turned themselves in for the night. Only wisps in the wind carried remnants of laughter and gossip from earlier conversations against the bareness of the street and the clear air made Shouto’s gelled back hair soon stick out as he curled more into his cape.

“Really!? It’s 10:30!?” Izuku exclaimed as he also looked at the empty streets, though his face carried more bafflement and expression that Shouto as his body twisted back and forth to see the same empty road the other boy saw. “I can’t believe it! But I guess….gosh, how does the saying go? ‘Time passes by when you’re having fun’, there that’s it!” he chuckled out with his freckles lining themselves up against the bobs of his cheeks. “I’ve had a lot of fun with you Todoroki today! Though….if you’re able to stay out for a little longer, there’s somewhere special I want to show you. Would that be ok or do you have to be back right away?” he asked bashfully, his foot rubbing against the hard ground with his chin lowering itself into a submissive state. His hands began to fiddle behind him, a nervous tick he gained from hanging around his “friends” long enough.

Shouto knew the correct answer to that question and “yes” or “of course” wasn’t a part of that language. He knew that his father would have noticed his disappearance by now and would soon scout around for him and pull him back by the ear, causing him to fall and create damage to the costume his sister made. He knew that he needed to return home for the early training that was going to occur the next day where the savory taste that still left itself in his mouth would be replaced with the bitter taste of bile and leftovers. That was the path he needed to take and the scar on his eye proved all of that.

Yet….

“Sure….why not.” Shouto said in agreement, the outer tips of his lips curving upwards as his hand clutched onto his bucket tighter, ready to go on this small trip with Izuku to this new found location. No matter what, everything Shouto participated in tonight all could lead him into trouble so why not continue the trend and seize the moment while it was handed to him.

The affirmation Shouto gave made Izuku’s emerald eyes light up in happiness as he tossed the bashful look away and grabbed onto Shouto’s free hand, leading him to the destination he wanted to show him. “Alright let’s go then! The sooner we go over there, the sooner we can come back so our parents won’t be worried about us!” and with that comment, Izuku began to pick up his pace into a light run as Shouto dragged behind him, making sure his feet didn’t trip over cracks or unrelated bumps.

After what seemed like minutes of heavy panting and near falls, the boys made it on the other side of town where it was patched with dirt and forestry that had an elongated fence casing them out. Shouto looked at the nature behind the hidden fence, wondering where this had been placed this entire time and how Izuku managed to find it. Given the darkness that loomed over here with only the city lamps beaming in the foggy background, it seemed like this placed was deserted, with only the sounds of a river to keep them company. Signs were posted onto the fence but Shouto couldn’t make them out in the lack of luminosity. However, he soon heard a “Pssst” coming from the side of him and he saw Izuku pulling up a side of the fence that looked like it had been broken in before. In silence, he motioned Shouto to follow him once more as he ducked under the metal and crawled onto the other side. Once he made it and dusted off the dirt that patched itself onto his glowing white costume, his hand signaled Shouto to repeat the same steps he took. Gulping in apprehension, Shouto removed the fear that lodged itself in the pit of his stomach and, leaving his pumpkin bucket by the side of the fence, he grabbed onto his cape and held it close to him as he snaked his way through, trying not to get snagged by snapped wires. Successfully and with only a bit of dirt on his knees, Shouto made it through and the boys began to walk through the valley of trees and fog that made them clutch onto their costumes for any remaining warmth.

As concentration loomed over them with Izuku finding where his path would be, Shouto decided to be the one this time around to break the silence between them as he was pinched with curiosity. “So...where are we going?” he asked quietly, hoping it was loud enough for Izuku to hear but not loud enough to disrupt any animals that could have possible been roaming around the area.

“Ah! There’s this tree up ahead! Kacchan, one of my best friends, takes us here all the time and it’s by that tree that we all decided to stay together in our friendship. It’s a really beautiful tree and I know you’re going to like it just like we did!” Izuku said with enthusiasm as his head went down, trying to retrace his steps from that fated day.

With that explanation to soothe over Shouto, the boys continued to walk together in quiet, only occasionally giving silent whispers to watch their steps or to not get lost behind. The path they continued on was windy and filled with obstacles that neither of their costumes could have endured under this light. They crossed over the the deafening river Shouto heard in the beginning and even side stepped on some rocks that were built with the claim that it would be a short cut to their destination. Time didn’t make itself aware in their current venue and no matter how many times Shouto looked down on his watch, the darkness suspending around them made it hard for even his eyes to see what time it could have been. Soon enough though, a resounding gasp came from Izuku as his eyes twinkled at the sight. “There it is!” He pointed into the fog. Squinting through it, a silhouette of it appeared with its height and branches intermingled each other as the wind moved its leaves around, creating almost what looked like an oil painting. “C’mon Todoroki, we have to hurry!” Izuku shouted as he began to bolt from his friend, his steps moving faster than anything Shouto had ever seen coming from him. His figure began to wade in the colored smoke and fear entrapped Shouto as he quickly followed after him.

“Midoriya! Wait for me!” Shouto called out frantically, his voice cracking in panic as he burned through his leg muscles to keep up the fogged image of Izuku. Yet, no matter how hard he pushed and tore through the inner cores of his body, it was as if Izuku quickened his pace twice as fast as what Shouto could handle. Spit began to drool out of the corners of his mouth as he continuously called for Izuku to only have whispers of giggles being returned back to him. His heart pounded against the inner walls of his chest that fought with the heavy pants his lungs emitted. “Midoriya! Midoriya, wait for me!” Shouto’s voice box yelled out, adding scratches to his speech as he pushed the limits and went beyond anything he had spoken out in the recent years. “Don’t worry Todoroki! You’re almost there!” Shouto could hear Izuku calling back, though his voice felt more angelic as his figure only became fragments under the steam.

“Midoriya, please wait for-!”

Snap!

Immediately, Shouto’s calls became distant memories as he felt clamps of fangs chomped on his ankle, causing him to crash into the dirt and have his body be broken under the small rocks that protruded underneath. Wind escaped from his lungs and he felt a loss of breathe for a solid minute before an enlarged gasp erupted from his mouth, following by quickened wheezes with the whites of his eyes sticking out from his skull. He could feel a warm, wet feeling trickling down parts of his body, even through the wrinkles on his forehead as it trickled down into his eyes, making his vision hazy.

Even though his arms received damaged, when he finally got control, he twisted his body to see his entrapment and hysteria returned to him seeing his ankle severed and entrapped by a bear trap that dug deep enough into his muscle mass to feel bones. No matter how much he tried to wriggle out of it, it would only sink in further into the muscle tissue and shrieks exploded out from within him that were marked with echoes in the air. Tears began to spill down Shouto’s cheeks and it mixed with the blood that poured down his face and left a residue in his mouth that tasted like rusted copper.

“MIDORIYA! MIDORIYA, HELP ME!” Shouto screamed out one last time before laying his body down. His heterochromatic eyes stared at the sky in agony for a small while and the leaves from the trees above swirled and twirled around him, causing a painful array of colors to be splattered against his visual field. “Midoriya, please….” He said one last time with raspiness as he allowed his formal look to be disheveled under the loss of blood.

“C’mon Todoroki, you’re almost here! Just need to come up a little more!” Shouto heard in response, feeling a ghastly aura reach into his system and string his heart up that lifted his torso up from the jagged ground. Eyeing his ankle again caused a revolt of bile to uprise from his stomach as he vomited on the side, creating a little pool of acidic contents. Swallowing the pain back down, he analyzed the bear trap that devoured his ankle in, eating his flesh as if it was a type of desert. After a few breaths, he removed his scarred gloves and shoved them into his mouth to conceal anymore screams as he worked around the trap. Never seeing an instrument like this before, he tried to pry it open his nimble fingers but it would only compress into his leg further, making the job harder. Looking around the contraption, he fiddled around with it enough until it slowly decompressed from his ankle, causing a hissing sound to occur. Freedom was found to his bruised and bloody ankle and he located a small item on the side to get him on his feet.

With wobbly steps and blood receded out of most orifices on Shouto’s body, he limped towards the voice of Izuku, trying to find his friend from between the fog. He could still see the silhouette of the tree in the distance and his eyes focused in on that, trying to make out lines between the blur. However, colors mashed into each other and Shouto could feel himself teetering from side to side as he tried to reach his destination. His head kept plunging downwards as he raised it back up, creating whiplashes against his drenched face and it kept going until Shouto’s damaged foot caught onto rock and knocked him back onto the ground, though this time the rubble on the ground was more jagged than previously and a series of cuts and unwanted syringes of pain leaped into his body.

With only an ounce of strength left in his core, Shouto whimpered into the ground as he cracked his arm ligaments to stretch forward and pull his body forward, scraping against the natural Earth as his fingernails dug more into it. He could his soul shutting down with each arm movement but with each thought to give up, he could hear Izuku’s voice eagerly encouraging him to keep moving. In Shouto’s mind, they would be soon reunited and he could get help from his dear friend. Shouto noticed the scratches on Izuku’s arm, he must have had a solution to this blood bath he was enduring.

Soon enough, Shouto reached to the magical tree that was filled with mystical sparkles as it shimmered under the moonlight. Even though his face was mangled, Shouto still managed to release a relieved smile that only made tears stream harder down his cheeks. “Midoriya!” he weakly called as he continued to crawl over despite the screams of death his body his body was giving. Horror screeched throughout his limbs as more blood poured but that didn’t matter to Shouto. What mattered was that he got to finally reach his friend and his fingernails kept shattering under the strain of depth he placed into the dirt to continue crawling over.

With each pulse towards Izuku, Shouto felt his clothes dissipating under the rugged ground with each movement he made towards his friend. His eyesight kept blurring and the loss of blood made his mind spin like a deathly carousel, something that would signal anyone towards the reaper of death but Shouto pushed that out of his mind as he continuously drove himself to not give up in his tracks. Coughs spewed out from his decaying lungs as he spat out blood but that still didn’t make him stop. All he wanted was to spend his last night of freedom with his friend and he wasn’t going to let impairments on his vital systems get the best of him. Not tonight.

“Midoriya….” Shouto called out to him, his eyelids beginning to droop in darkness as he saw an obscured image of his friend. When he got no response, Shouto kept calling his name, desperation lining the words of his cries. “Midoriya….please answer….I’m sorry it took me so long….but I finally found you.” Shouto wailed out in the softest voice his frame would allow him to speak out.

However, when Shouto got close enough to Izuku to reach out and touch him, his blood ran cold as he felt a decayed corpse under the skin of his palm. Reeling it back, he took a closer look at Izuku as his rumpled eyes bulged out once more as he saw the true form of Izuku as the questions he had earlier in the night were all answered at once.

Izuku wasn’t a living boy that was filled with visibility, he was a dead corpse that had maggots running through the sockets were his emerald eyes should have been placed. His ghost costume was ripped into shreds that had patches of his ombre jade hair scattered around. Shouto’s eyes took a swipe at his arms and he could see infected scars that ran through his arm that caused little warts and decomposed skin that revealed bones underneath the corroded composition.

“Midoriya….” Shouto called out once more as he felt his heartbeats coming to a slower pace and his eyes suspending further down. With last bit of strength, he moved his arm to grab onto Izuku’s boney hand, joining him on an everlasting journey with spirit and laughter as his view on life drastically changed with the last beat of his heart.

[toastybutstupid]

Bangtan Boys Fanfiction Recommendation Post

This is very long overdue.

So this is a post of some fanfictions i have read in this fandom that are one: Really fucking good and you should read them. (Literally all of them) And two: Aren’t nearly recognized enough. 

i will be adding to this list!! I read alot of fanfiction like that’s all i read because the creativity is used so well!

NOTE: THESE ARE ALL SHIP FICS. AND ALOT ARE YOONSEOK!!

perhaps an X reader will come along down the line! You never know!

PLEASE TELL ME IF ANY LINKS DON’T WORK!!

Okay let’s get started!

Beta Tau Sigma by Bazooka (Mature; 123k; Namjin and Yoonmin; COMPLETE)- HIGHLY RECOMMEND!! This was one of the first works i have read from this fandom and its by far a TOP fanfiction that i love, this actually sprang my love for college AU’s! Great read!

On Patrol Season 1 & 2 by Ragi (Not rated; 246k; Jikook, Yoonseok, and Namjin; COMPLETE)- REALLY GOOD!!!!Has to be one of my favorites produced from this fandom. Definitely something that i’m currently rereading! Really fucking good okay like im sad its ending.

And one musn’t tell lies by Tteokie (Mature; 36k; Yoonseok; COMPLETE)- DUDE THIS WAS THE FIRST HARRY POTTER AU I READ FROM THIS FANDOM AND HOLY SHITTTT!!!! This is really good!!! Literally so fucking happy i found this fic okay. 

IMMA BEAT THAT PUSSY by Sotaekook (Teen; 44k; Taekook, Namjin Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)-  THIS. IS. THE. BEST. CHAT FIC OUT THERE. THIS BEATS IT ALL FOR ME OKAY LIKE THE AUTHOR CAN TAKE MY MONEY. Okay but in all seriousness, this fic is one of the best chat fics out there, even the angst is very good (It’s not heavy by any means though!)

Pick Me Up by Priska (Mature; 93k; Jikook and lowkey Taegi; COMPLETE)- Mk, im not into omegaverse much, but this one is really good. i still need to catch up im like 4 chaps behind. But this is really good and i recommend this one HARDCORE.

Pretty In Pink by Profound_Felicity (Explicit; 67k; Namjin; COMPLETE)- !!!!!!!!Dude this is some pretty fucking nice shit. Its a crossdresser!Jin and i fell in love with this fic in the first chapter. Recommend!!!!

My Lovely Lilac By Profound_ Felicity (Explicit; 74k; Taekook; COMPLETE)-  This is part two-ish? To Pretty In Pink but its from Taehyung’s point of view and holy shit it’s so cute?? Its a crossdresser! Taehyung and i love this so much.

The Bet by Jonghyunslisterine (Teen; 46k; Jikook; COMPLETE)- 

OKAY 

O K A Y

THIS IS WHAT GOT ME HARDCORE SHIPPING JIKOOK.

this is basically jk making a bet with tae to try to get chim to go out with him. AND IM SO SHOOK WITH THIS HOLY SHIT. REALLY GOOD.

Let’s Not Fall in Love by Jungkoojk (Mature; 142k; Jikook, Yoonseok, and Namjin; INCOMPLETE)-  this also got me hardcore shipping jikook. mk so like basically, Jk and the rap line are like his posse (Excluding Hoseok and Jin’s in the posse too) were hosting a party and like they play spin the bottle and you can sorta see what goes on there jk wants to get to know jimin more oh and homophobia is an issue

I Don’t Know What To Call This Yet by  Anaamikaa (Mature; 44k; Yoonseok, Namjin, Taekook, Vmin; INCOMPLETE)-  Min Yoongi meets Jung Hoseok. That’s literally what is and it b u i l d s. Fantastic chemistry between these assholes i cri.

Been Tryin’ Hard Not To Get Into Trouble But I Got War On My Mind by Teenuviel1227 (Explicit; 56k; Yoonseok and Taekook; COMPLETE)- Okay this made me cry at the end lemme tell ya. Its really good god. Like Yoongi is an undercover agent for the police department at Hoseok’s race crew and Yoongs gets attached and adfhasofn its so good!!!!

trying to behave (but you know that we never learned how) by Christmasyoongi (Explicit; 311k; Yoonmin, Namjin, Yoonseok, and Vhope; INCOMPLETE)- This fic.

okay it’s really fucking good okay. The angst is p heavy though. Yoongi and Jimin grow up together and shit. Okay but i want to say this: I understand that some people will not like this one because certain things happen, but it is warned. Do not read if you are going to be bashing the author who worked so fucking hard on this. This really is a work of art, no matter how harsh the situation is okay. The author does not need hateful comments on something they worked really hard on. and you can tell too. I will defend this author because how much i respect them. SAD BUT VERY FUCKING GOOD OKAY ITLL BE WORTH IT. 

Wait by YannaB (Mature; 18k; Jikook, Namjin, Vmin, And Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)- Dude this one is so… o fucking good? its one of those fics that i comment on every single update okay. Jungkook and Jimin grow up and Jk’s dad is a dipshit. I really love it okay like im waiting for the next update!!

the gravity that pulls me (i can’t look away) by Sirradel (Mature; 37k; Namjin and Yoonseok; COMPLETE)- if you love the apocalypse feel, namjin, yoonseok and more namjin and space? REad this holy shit. i love Bazooka and this writer reminded me so much of thier work and goalfns this made me so happy okay its v cute and i want to die of f l u f f

i have five senses (and they’re all for you to use) by Taberune (General Audiences; 10k; Yoonseok; COMPLETE)- THIS IS FUCKING GREAT OKAY. This was a 3 in the morning read and fuck it was so good and i think im gonna reread this shit tonight lmao. Basically, overtime your mind bonds with those you’ve grown close to and Yoongi has to hide his thoughts of Hoseok so much and finsoifnaqo THIS IS SO GOOD PLEASE GIVE IT LOVE.

Confessions by Miskeen (Mature; 5k; Namseok; COMPLETE)- THIS IS WHY I STARTED SHIPPING NAMSEOK. THIS IS WHY. andthatwholethingwiththemarriageinjapan. BUT. Hoseok gets a note in his locker asking for a date and Namjoon is his closest friend but hey Hoseok dont know how to kiss

late calls (with the lovers that’ll hate you) by Throne (Explicit; 14k; Yoonmin, Taekook, Namjin, Vhope; INCOMPLETE)- ireallylovehpausokay OKAY. SO THIS MOFO JIMIN IS A VEELA. AND LIKE ONE TIME HE TRIES TO USE HIS POWERS ON SOMEONE HE DIDN’T KNOW TO GO TO HOGSMEADE  AND YOU FIND OUT LATER THAT ITS YOONGI WHO IS CAPTAIN OF THE SLYTHERIN TEAM. ITS REALLY G O O D 

a litany in which certain things are crossed out by Gaslight (Explicit; 31k; Yoonseok and Namjin; COMPLETE) (MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH)- i dont know how to feel about this one. Its really fucking good shIt the angst is heavy. I was reading it and i cried in class because holy fuck. Yoongi loses his memory. sad but good okay.

Look Who’s In Trouble by Sybuology (Mature; 12k; Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)- this fic is so soft and cute oh my christ. the author hasnt updated in a while though:/ but this is some domestic fluff for yoonseok and doing the parent thing and its so cute i actually want to die holy shit.

Life Is Sweet (When You’re Growing Up So Fast) by Feminist_Killjoy (Teen; 14k; Yoonseok, Taekook, and Namjin; COMPLETE)- all these little losers work at the mall and fall in love with one another and it s so cute and like it gets lowkey angsty. Like holy shit?? Jimin gets fucked over alot though lmao but its funny and he finds someone in the end ;)

You Should Let Me Love You by Infinitizeit (Teen; 7k; Yoonseok; COMPLETE)-  thIS IS SO CUTE OH MY GOD. Like Hoseok and namjoon work for yoongo and like hoseok doesnt want to go to his hs reunion right? w ro n g. Yoongi is like you gots to go ill be your date or whatever. this is v cut okay im mad i put it off for so long

Dead Leaves and Spring Flowers by Infinitizeit (Mature; 10k; Yoonseok, Vmin, Namjin; COMPLETE)- I FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS. iread this just the other day and holy shit it made me shook as heck. so like. Your soulmates name is etched on your chest on your heart and there is this rare thing where youre heart can break if your soulmate loves someone else. well. Jung Hoseok has a soulmate, Yoongi and Taehyung do not.

The Two Billion Songs On Love by Lexwrites (Mature; 11k; Yoonseok, Namjin, and Taekook; COMPLETE)- T H I S. I LOVE COLLEGE AU’S. This is so sweet and soft and yoongi is so in love but he doesnt know that. really fucking good okay like ughhhhhhh

Pieces by StopTheDams (Teen; 59k; Yoonseok and Namjin; INCOMPLETE)(MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH)- 

FUCK OKAY.

YALL REMEMBER WHEN I WAS INTO SPN AND SHIPPED DESTIEL? tHIS GAVE ME THAT VIBE AND ITS SO GOOD AND SAD BUT FLUFFY AND HOLY SHIT I JUST CAUGHT UP WITH IT ANDITS SO GOODLIKE I WAS SOBBING

You’re A Fineapple by Infinitizeit (Teen; 2k; Yoonseok; COMPLETE)- yoonseok and pickup lines. what else is there to say?

It’s Just Kissing, Not Rocket Science by Ragi (Not rated; 14k; Minjoon and Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)- This is really fucking cute alright. i dont ship minjoon much but this made it rlly cute okay trust me. Namjoon runs one of the biggest gay bars in Korea when Park Jimin comes into his bar crying about heartbreak and then asks for advice on how to keep a man. R E C.

September by TheHalesNyx (Explicit; 26k; Yoonmin and Junghope; COMPLETE)- Another omegaverse and its v sweet holy fuckkkk

i love omegaverse that arent all dom sub and this is the one okay. its sweet and cute. basically yoongi meets jimin in a shop right when his cycle starts.

You Have 1 New Message by Bazooka (Teen; 30k; Namjin; COMPLETE)- I LOVE BAZOOKA’’S WORK OKAY I HAVE HIGH RESPECTS FOR THEM.

BASICALLY, NJ USES SJ SELFIES FOR HIS SUGAR DADDY AND NAMJIN ARE BEFRIENDED!!

The Mark of an Educated Mind By Bazooka (General Audiences; 6k; Namjin; COMPLETE)- Namjoon looks up bts fanfiction and is surprised but what he finds and questions what his relationship with Kim Seokjin really is

v cute okay

Celebrity Crush by Bazooka (Teen; 16k; Namjin; COMPLETE)- THIS IS A FOLLOW UP TO THE MARK OF AN EDUCATED MIND OKAY. dude this

this made me feel shit. Basically after nj finds out sj’s celeb crush is himself, he questions the relationship further.

Comfort In Lies by UsagiFelton (Mature; 107k; Jikook and Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)- this was so cute then it got sad then it got really cute??

its in the canonverse and shit its cute and jk cant do emotions holy shit

Bubblegum, Neat Freaks, and The Mystery of Love by Cliffolly(Not rated; 53k; Namjin and Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE)- this is so soft holy shit. the humor is there, the fluff is there god it really cute and regret putting it off for so long. So basically, neat freak Kim Seokjin meets Kim Namjoon and when he does, well, let’s just say the two got into a bit of a sticky situation, causing Namjoon to have to treat Jin to dinner for the whole week. this is really fucking cute okay like its really cute fluff!!!

The Petty Criminal Discount by Kingkiwi (General Audiences; 6k; Jikook; COMPLETE) this is really cute and soft. i was like in the mood for some coffee shop au’s and holy shit this is a beauty?? Jungkook is a criminal of sorts and well, whenever he’s on the run he goes to a coffee shop where he meets the owner of Dark & Wild.

baby, baby, you’re a caramel macchiato by sweetmxchi (General audiences; 1k; Jikook; COMPLETE) sdafgh this is v cute and i wanted to die because im a slut for flirty Jimin and shy Jungkook like ughhhh its just so cute. After living in the us for three years, no one has ever spelt Jungkook’s name right until one day where it was spelled right.

Constraint by Harlot (Explicit; 40k; Jikook; COMPLETE) this is really funny to me and but it gets lowkey angsty. anyhow, Jungkook doesn’t like Jimin and well he’s straight.Or so he thinks. I LOVE DRINKING GAME FICS

I Bloomed For You… by Meanie_Beanie_nim (Mature; 200k; Taekook, Yoonmin, Namjin; COMPLETE) IM ONLY 6 CHAPTERS IN AND IM IN LOVE. Yo but like this is a soulmate au it includes the disease hanahaki so its a lowkey gore type of fic? like in the sense that its gonna be graphic in some parts. i dunno i like my angst hardcore so like im chill with this. Shy, socially awkward Jeon Jungkook meets Jung Hoseok who extends him to his group of frineds and well, he meets Kim Taehyung. Oh and his aunt had died of Hanahaki disease,which is a rare occurrence. OKAY IT’LL GET ANGSTY BUT IM LIVING FOR THESE CUTE FUNNY MOMENTS

Nanny by Nochucomethru (Mature; 13k; Jikook; COMPLETE) THIS WAS SO CUTE LIKE IM WRITING A TAEHYUNG SINGLE DAD FIC CURRENTLY MK THIS STARTED THAT. Anyways, Tattoo artist Jungkook needs a job and Park Jimin, single daddo, needs a nanny. ;)

You’re My Genie, Lamborghini (You’re My Teeny Weeny Meenie) by mindheist (Explicit; 7k; Jikook; COMPLETE) YOOOOOOOOOOOO IM LIVING FOR THIS ONE MAN UGH I FINISHED IT LAST WEEK AND UGHHHHH. Park Jimin, training vlogger and dancing cover guy Jeon Jungkook meet through twitter and then Jungkook bruised his tailbone. WeLL. READ TO FIND OUT MORE.

The Room of Unrequited Love by dyegu (Teen; 15k, Jikook and Yoonseok; INCOMPLETE) did i ever mention how much i hp aus bc i do. seriously tho i want to see where this goes, the author hasnt updated in two months but its really good and worth the await. JIMIN IS A PREFECT AND CATCHES jUNGKOOK AND YOONGI AT NIGHT LOOKING FOR THE ROOM OF REQUIREMENT. AND LIKE JIMIN SEEMINGLY WANTS TO BEFRIEND JK BUT LIKE HES NOT COOPERATING?? ITS CUTE I SWEAR.

the art of the plug by themelonlord (Explicit; 16k, Yoonmin; COMPLETE) This is pracitcally porn with feelings man. its really good smut though?? Y’all…. this is good. Jimin plugs himself and Yoongi finds out and oh sweet jesus its a ride (Pun intended.)

your body is a place to stay by jonghyunslisterine (Teen; 8k; Jikook; COMPLETE) I FUCKING FOUND IT. JESUS I DIDNT BOOKMARK IT AND LIKE OMFG THIS IS REALLY GOOD AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Jk isn’t liked by many of the mom’s bc his tattoos and they dont believe he can raise his daughter. He also meets Park Jimin in a bookstore and well, his daughter loves him too

somethin’ fishy by sweetlyblue (Explicit; 48k; Yoonseok, Taekook; COMPLETE) so i got into a merman thing early this school year and like i found this diamond in the rough and holy shit its so cute?? basically Hoseok lives at a beach and finds a visitor when he almost drowns. super cute i wanted to die reading it.

Undressed by superrunnaturall (Explicit; 21k; Yoonseok, Vmin; COMPLETE) Dude this is so cute too like?? jesus i really liked the end because like…. guess you’ll have to read to find out ;))). but so like Jin sets Yoongi up with a date on a dating show i guess?? and well, they talk in their underwear and get to know eachother and wow. r e a d.

yoonseok au #1 by chinatea (Teen; 3k; Yoonseok; COMPLETE) This was just really beautifully written?  i dont understand how it so cry worthy good but it is?? well so, i read this a while ago so here’s the summary from the author

:  in which nomadic witch!hoseok and town witch!yoongi get married happily ever after. help. r e a d it  pl e a se

In the Twilight Air by Trilluvium (Explicit; 39k; Yoonmin; COMPLETE)

okay so this is just smut. but its cute smut. Basically jimin and yoongi fuck bc they both virgins. and well. it goes on and tbfh it’s cute.

Riptide by peppermint_wind (Mature; 62k; Jikook, Yoonseok, Namjin; COMPLETE) SOFT s o f  t. it does have homophobia though because it is canon divergence. well jk think he got feelos for jimin but so does jimin but things can get a bit out of hand…

[chimericarchitect]

((Terrible and Saness discuss the recent trouble she’s been having with her guardian and possible solutions to those problems. There are a few trigger warnings for this chat, including head stuff, manipulation, mind control, amnesia, suicide (sorta), and death in general.))

flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 11:23 AM FO: chirp? Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 11:24 AM SP: Sorry, I was distracted by a musical interlude. SP: I was gonna ask "what do you want to know" but you'd probably have a hard time forming specific questions without something to base it on. SP: So, uh, you wanted to know why that strategy was the strategy I've got going. I'm not actually set on it because I don't like it as a plan, but I will probe my options before taking action y'know? Even the ones that suck. SP: Anyway, Anista is a golem or something. SP: And it sucks. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 11:30 AM FO: totally, checking out your options is the smart thing even if some of the options are horrible bullshit.  you wont know exactly how bad an idea they are if you dont check FO: i usually bring up the worst idea first when im tryin to solve my own problems, just so i can cross it off the list... FO: that does suck.  i could tell there was something going on in her, but ive got no idea whats in there. FO: was she always a golem? Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 11:34 AM SP: I think so. I'm guessing a little bit on that part. Context says probably, because I did a thing and almost got wiped so she got replaced with a Brand New Anista Golem that functioned like she used to, meaning that she's acting like a full person again instead of a zombie. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 11:53 AM FO: uh, yikes FO: you okay there? FO: and who or what replaced her? Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 11:55 AM SP: I'm... uh, yeah. SP: It's just a thing. SP: As for the who/what in charge of replacing her, I'm not quite sure. They're a lot bigger than me, but I'm not willing to say "horrorterror" without evidence. I'm not experienced enough to tell. So, for now, it remains a mystery. SP: If you meant "what is she now" then the answer is "a seemingly normal troll who is constantly keeping tabs on me and probably ready to dropkick my pan at the slightest provocation." flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:01 PM FO: misc eldritch thing #1 it is FO: yikes, thats p shitty FO: if i ever catch you acting different, do you want to give preemptive permission for me to sneak over and try to return you to this state? FO: or like, to come check and make sure any changes are Legit Things You Wanted And Are Fine With Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 12:03 PM SP: That would be pretty great, if you don't mind. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:04 PM FO: fuckin anytime, dude, ill set myself a timer to peek at your blog once a week.  make sure to delete the logs of this convo in case she peeks at your computer FO: okay so, something happened, and she wound down enough that she stopped working.  but then something else happened, and now shes back. FO: is she winding down again, or is she going to stay at full capacity? FO: did the thing that put her together like this get distracted and wander off forever, or did it wander off and then come back? Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 12:10 PM SP: There is no evidence suggesting that she is in a state of decline, presently. She was fine and seemingly normal for the entirety of three sweeps before she turned into the zombie fake-o person. My current hypothesis is that she... wears out? Like a timer, or an old battery or something. SP: The thing that did this obviously isn't hanging out 24/7 or I probably wouldn't be me already. I think Anista-Golem is like a watchdog or something for whatever-the-fuck eldritch doodad the first. SP: A lot of that is gonna be speculation; I don't know much about the big guy. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:14 PM FO: yeeahh...(edited) FO: yeah you need out of there dude FO: and you need out of there in a way that they wont notice FO: so i can see why the death thing is a thing FO: i wish id known about this while you were still seery, then i coulda asked some questions an gotten pokey about a lotta fuckin FO: theres a lotta unknowns here and a lotta things that Could branch how this goes If they are true FO: ... shit is p whack, friend.  anythin i can do to help i will Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 12:18 PM SP: Thanks, Terrible. I really do appreciate it. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:22 PM FO: this one time my life sucked total ass, and someone was nice to me at exactly the right time.  and i decided that maybe being nice to people wasnt stupid, and that it was nice that there were people like that around.  so i decided to be someone like that. FO: this shit is exactly why. Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 12:23 PM SP: It's a good attitude, in my opinion. I prefer to help people when I can. SP: Before I go on about my plan to get out of here, there's a bit more to this yet, of the things I know. SP: One of the reasons I trust my death-note-suggestion from the future-past is because, like I said, I almost got wiped. SP: If I hadn't been all godly when it happened, it might've worked. Probably would have. SP: Anyway SP: I was getting erased, or blocked, or something (gross and weird) because I was messing with a mind wall (maybe?) and I got caught. SP: So maybe I need to disconnect from whatever I'm tethered to. SP: It's what I'm guessing, anyway. I'd prefer not to do the dying thing, obviously. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:24 PM FO: B( FO: yeah, obvs. FO: im guessin you respawned once, but also dont remember parts of the anon? FO: is there other stuff that feels not solid? FO: the healer chick would need a small piece a you but hair or blood would probably do it, and she could rez you from a distance on command after that.  shed just need to know when Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 12:41 PM SP: Most of the not-solid is from my memories. I don't remember a lot of stuff, it seems. Other stuff has to do with Anista and the generator. SP: Oh wait. SP: The generator. That's an okay idea. In tandem, not separately. SP: I'd need to put Anista out of commission for a bit though. Hm. SP: Can you tell me a little about the healer lady? I trust you, but I've never spoken to her I don't think. Is she a God Tier as well? flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 12:43 PM FO: yeah.  shes a meenah, Meenah Peixes FO: long story short she lives in sparks's universe, and she's kinda low key and staying out of the spotlight.  does a lotta bakin, some healin for pay. FO: shes kinda mercenary but i think she cares about dudes once they catch her interest, which most dont FO: the universe shes in has legal limes, crimsons, and wings, and no caste system, so theres no problems on the mutant front FO: i could vouch to be there and supervise 100% of the rez process if you trust me enough for that an itd help any Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 1:00 PM SP: I don't know if that will help any, but I appreciate the offer and I'll keep it in mind. SP: I considered whether or not, as a Prince of Mind, you'd be able to bust shit up so I could skip the not-being-alive part, but that seems less likely to work and more likely to get you smooshed by the eldritch fucko. SP: Besides this stuff, I'm trying to convince a pal of mine to go off-world with me before they fuck up and start a sgrub session. SP: None of my timeframes are defined, so it all feels kinda like it has to be done immediately. Am I gonna get wiped? Is my friend gonna blow up this Alternia? I don't know what's happening first. SP: I think I'm rambling now, sorry. SP: More useful thing, practical type. Do you know the charging rates on resurrection? SP: Which is a funny sentence, by the way. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 1:04 PM FO: fightin an eldritch fucko would be a heck of a fight, but its one id give a go.  ive done it before, ive pulled that kinda shit outta dudes heads.  theres a big variance on how big an individual eldritch fucko happens to be though, so its a thing to take super fuckin seriously before blunderin straight into FO: if anybody could cut a mind connection, id probably be able to though FO: ramblin makes sense, and bein in a hurry makes sense too.  why is your friend on the verge of startin a sgrub session?  do they like, know not to? -- flippinOptimist began sending file : meenahsfliersarefuckinweird.pdf --  (( a 2-page document, where the first is a classy menu for baked goods with a catering section at the bottom, and the second is a matching menu for healing by injury type with a 'special requests on case by case basis' section at the bottom.  It lists reviving as a special request. )) FO: i think she bases it partly on what a dude can scrape together, but idk FO: theres a chance sparks might be willin to help (or meddle) for free, but hes got an M!A rn thats fuckin up his ability to do things Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 1:17 PM [ sanessPsuede downloaded meenahsfliersarefuckinweird.pdf ] SP: Oh hey, great, thanks. SP: I don't know how close she is to starting one, because she's not answering any of my messages. SP: I'll probably have to hunt her down in person. I figure she can't start a game if I get her out of the zone for a bit. SP: Maybe delay the inevitable. SP: Fex is a cool dude. You and he have some stuff in common there. SP: I haven't been able to tell my friend not to yet, obviously. I don't think she took it seriously when I told her about it before. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 1:23 PM FO: good luck delayin it, an talkin your friend outta it FO: sgrub is somethin you can make the best outta, f you get stuck in it, but uh FO: a lot of it sucks real bad Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 1:27 PM SP: It's probably more efficient SP: to see if dying works SP: rather than engaging in a risky conflict unprepared SP: Side note! SP: Thoughts on how to break a mental connection to a thing that is not a person? SP: Like the Anista puppet or a wall. SP: If there's not a mind, can there even be a link? flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 1:41 PM FO: efficient isnt really a good word when somebodys life is on the line, and id still risk it.  its more about whats most likely to work i think. FO: i think worrying about whether or not something is a person is more of a soul / heart thing FO: if it has a mind, thats close enough FO: theres plenty of bugs that are too simple for me to be able to get a read on FO: and a couple a computer programs that are almost something enough, that i cant quite reach FO: but i peeked at her and saw that she existed and that there was stuff, if i was careful enough i might be able to unplug somethin FO: i think info processing and the ability to choose between outcomes is the big thing.  ideally in some kind of.. complex..ish way, naut just a simple if statement Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 2:07 PM SP: What about a literal wall? Something completely mindless. Could something eldritch-y make a connection to it? flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 2:11 PM FO: never seen one!  one way to find out though B) Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 2:22 PM SP: :D SP: Okay, I'm gonna see about getting in touch with Meenah. No point waiting around. SP: It's efficient, and probably more effective. SP: I'm not inclined to gamble with more than my own neck if I can avoid it. SP: Risk to result ratio says dying is the way to live SP: while causing the least amount of harm, probably flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 2:25 PM FO: if youre sure dude FO: for what its worth, if you go into a death knowin its comin and bein okay w knowin youre (probably) comin out the other side, its naut as aaaaaaaaAAAAa as it is when its a surprise and also a big upsetting disruption FO: its still kinda A Fuckin Thing, but FO: its possible to get over it, more n most ways of death comin by Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 2:29 PM SP: Okay, I'm not really sure, but the alternative worries me a lot and putting other people at risk jangles my moral compass pretty hard flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 2:30 PM FO: man, if you ever godtier, you're definitely gonna run into problems w the heroic thing Saness (sanesspsuede) - Today at 2:35 PM SP: Just means I'd be a normal dude with super powers. One life, one death. Seems fair. SP: And sucky. SP: No thank you, Sgrub. flippinOptimist[WIR] - Today at 2:43 PM FO: yeah, p much.

[auideas]

Ask the Admins 13.0

anon asked: For any of the admins! I’m not sure if this was asked previously, so I apologize in advance. But what's everyone’s favorite au / prompt? (Also thank you guys for starting this blog, im forever grateful this exists)

Chamomile: awww! I’m grateful that this blog exists too (lol). My current favorite type of au’s are murder mystery au’s because of the Rabbit Doubt writing group I’m in so like, expect so many of those coming up soon. I’m also really digging superhero au’s.

M: I’m a fan of the whole “kidnapping / assassin / mob / killer” sort of a trope for some reason - it’s loads of fun to try and mess with original tropes and make them ridiculous, funny, modern, etc.!

Jynn: My fave AUs are ones that incorporate real life twists on typical AUs, like including people with disabilities.

@tomorraw​ asked: How many of you guys are there? Do certain people answer in certain genre? Or does everyone write what they are given? How did you guys meet? (Btw, this is one of my favorite idea blogs. They are so many different views on different ideas and so many genres.)

Chamomile: Currently there’s four of us! I know admin m and admin jynn from a loooong while back -- like two years back. Admin jynn and I go back to our homestuck roots (love her for that) and we’ve stuck together ever since. We all just kind of write whatever floats our boats! M: I met both Jynn and Chamomile through working on the Night Unvaled, which is a Night Vale Fancast that we wrote and produced. We’ve been friends ever since!! As for the certain genre thing, I can’t really say that we all write solely one genre, but we all certainly have our specialties!! Jynn: We have a posting schedule for who posts what when, but when it comes lists we all just take what interests us. Chamomile and I met more than two years back… in a Homestuck role play. Shortly after, we met M in a podcast project we were all working on and we've all be friends since!

Anon asked: what are some of your favorite tropes?

Chamomile: does “I love the way that you understand me and make me feel like I’m the only person in the world when you pay attention to me” count as a troupe? Like an OTP troupe? Bc that’s my ultimate favorite.

M: My favorite trope is messing with tropes. Best thing.

Jynn: “Flaws” turning out to work to someone's advantage!

Anon asked: What is pastel/punk or pastel and punk? I don't get it and google isn't explaining it to me because it's a meany

Chamomile: I remember this AU! It was an AU Friday list that I did and loved doing it! Basically, there’s  ‘pastel’ aesthetic which is very like, cutesy baby pink and pastel blues and other ‘soft’ colors being worn with other ‘soft’ aesthetic items like, glitter or hair clips or oversized sweaters ands stuff like that. Then there’s punk aesthetic, which very like, ‘heck all of you, I want to be comfortable and show that I’m rebelling against the social/political norms’. It can vary from person to person, so it might be better just to google ‘punk fashion’. The whole tag is supposed to be sort of an ‘opposite attract’ type deal.

Anon asked: So in regards to the color au in which you only see color once you touch your soulmate: what if you were born blind? Or when you touch your soulmate, it turns out that you are colorblind?

Chamomile: mmmmmm I’m not a fan of this AU bc of reasons I’m too longwinded about. Skipping this question for me.

M: I guess it’s possible and would make for quite the interesting change in AUs from the usual soulmate trope, but make sure you’re careful when it comes to writing AUs about topics you’re not personally familiar with (such as being blind), but go for it!

Jynn: Idk about it. Lmao I'm picky as heck when it comes to soulmate AUs, and this one has the potential to be interesting but never “stuck out” to me.

Anon asked: hi there! i'm new {ish}, and i've been looking thru ur old posts. i think it's really cool how u help ur followers, school related or not. out of curiosity tho, who is the person who according to that school survey watched so much anime? if u have time, would u mind asking?

Chamomile: Anon I want to know too like, please, show yourself.

M: We support you. Maybe. For the most part.

Jynn: Show ya self ur among friends. I too have consumed too much anime.

Anon asked: Just wanted to say I love your blog. It gives me inspiration! :)

Chamomile: Aaaaa! Thank you <3

M: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jynn: Awwwww!

Anon asked: just poppin in to ask if its okay for us writers to adopt these aus? and claim the whole plot as ours but still credit the bunnies (ie linking it to this acc)? thanks for clarifying!

Chamomile: Totally! We completely encourage it because it brings more people to the blog and also, we get a lot of satisfaction from seeing people enjoy our prompts! Here’s a link on how to cite our au’s: link

Anon asked: omfg, i still think the admins are gorgeous. like f***, you are cute.

Chamomile: Bless your heart, thank you! We really should update what we look like...

M: OKAY YEAH WE SHOULD PUT OUT UPDATE PICS!!!!!! BUT THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Jynn: :o ! Thx!

@genosha-meiuqer asked: Weird question. If you woke up one morning and realized you could grow a beard made out of cotton candy, how happy would you be on a scale of 1-10; one being not happy, and ten being extremely happy.

Chamomile: Genosha, I would be so hype, you wouldn’t understand. Like a 10/10. Even if I did get tired of my new cool cotton candy beard like?? I can just wash it off?? Because cotton candy is water soluble?? I see no problems here?? 

M: maybe a 2. Too sticky.

Jynn: 7/10. Might get sticky and tedious (and I work in and pool so it'd probably get in the water) but endless free cotton candy? Yes.

Anon asked: Deadpool 2 boyfriend? yes or no?

Chamomile: consider this….boyfriend….and girlfriend…..dating both at the same time….

M: yus

Jynn: Yes on boyfriend but NOT at the expense of a lady characters story ending badly.

Anon asked: what's your dream job?

Chamomile: whatever makes me happy? Right now I’m happy serving coffee and doing odd writer jobs in exchange for gift cards (#hit me up y’all), but in the future I might want something different so like, it depends as I grow!

M: Creative Producer in Hollywood!!

Jynn: Aaaa I wanna work in entertainment. Running tech, performing, whatever. Gotta be near that world.

Anon asked: Are you a part of any fandoms? Which ones?

Chamomile: oh jeeze well uhhhhh -- I still hold homestuck dear to my heart, but I’ve mostly moved into podcasts (SAYER, The Adventure Zone, WTNV, Carpe DM) and a lot of like, writing niche groups with my friends? If I can count those as ‘small fandoms’.

M: soooooo many: Nightvale, Merlin, Doctor Who, Supernatural, Harry Potter, Game of Thrones, etc. Too many.

Jynn: Still Homestuck like Chamomile. Various Nexflix series: Voltron, Stranger Things. Miraculous Ladybug too. Lots of Max Fun and Night Vale Presents podcasts, McElroy products. I work about 60 hours and week so I like things I can listen to while doing other things.

Anon asked: If you were a dragon, what would you hoard?

Chamomile:....scraps of paper. I have so many. I write down AU ideas and story lines on them and then just like, shove them into my bags and pockets and forget about them.

M: pens. so many pens.

Jynn: Useless cute stuff/LUSH products/stim toys probably.

Anon asked: M, did you draw the illustrations in your piece "The Beacon"?

M: I made it in photoshop, yeah! If anyone is curious, here’s the link to the fic (https://drive.google.com/file/d/0BxP7qW60hE6fUmdSWDJMNHBhRGs/view?usp=sharing). The first draft was written by Admin Chamomile for a speed write but adapted and extended by Admin M just for fun. Go for it and read it if you’d like!!

(Chamomile: just gonna….slide this first draft right here….shhhhhh)

Anon asked: How long would you survive in a zombie apocalypse?

Chamomile: hopefully until humanity can find the cure, lmao

M: maybe a month. maybe.

Jynn: Mmmmm no.

Anon asked: Which Never Book quote is your favorite?

Chamomile: “What were you thinking in that last moment between life and oblivion?” Jynn: “So you take another hit, and sick into a whiskey flavored kiss because he’s not there to tell you no.”

Anon asked: Unicorn or Pegasus?

Chamomile: Unicorn! No real reason why. M: Pegasus. Fly bitches. Jynn: Pegasus is more utilitarian.

Anon asked: this is probably too late for ata, but have you ever wanted to write a piece where the characters are southern but you don't know how to write their drawl or accent or dialect? (currently going thru this for the walking dead)

Chamomile: This sounds like a really interesting “How Do I Write” segment soooooo check back on Thursday ;D 

M: ^^^^^^^^^^

Jynn: Not this specific situation. I live in Missouri so I know well how they talk lmao. I have run into something similar with an Irish character though, lots of research!!

[citrussam]

describe your oc: all the questions. literally all the questions for jude thanx

JESUS CHIRST

here we go (will put some under the cut)

1: their voice

Ashly Burch (but a bit deeper)

2: their smile

i’m bad at describing things but all i can say is that half smirk a pretty girl gives off and it makes u really gay

3: their greatest achievement

Stole a fuckin car from a salesdude and using that car to steal 3 cartons of Alcohol or nearly died but managed to parkour around campus roofs 

4: their insecurities

as in big ones it’s probably hmmmm her appearance? she would feel bad bc she thinks she feels sloppy 24/7

being too open to people

her own personality sometimes that she gives off like “am i being too nice”

5: their shortcomings

never being the person she wanted to be in the first place

she’s a mess first off lmao but she tries to keep things organized bc she feels bad about it

Lack of control over her own nerves often

Lack of better understanding with her own conflicting emotions (like idk “she’s right. i’m dead wrong 100%”) and combating this with 40% of her self oriented nature 

6: how they deal with grief

me: BO i

you’ll notice p quick bc she’ll isolate herself from everyone and linger a lot around town (won’t even talk to Allen tbh) skipping class 

legitimately beat herself up 

i would’ve said alcohol but i feel like she already knows it wouldnt help not even an inch (but maybe would try again anyways)

7: how they like to dress

some days ripped jeans, some days leggings or just ...denim shorts (or sports shorts)

you’d always see her with some weird ass tank top or graphic shirt that says smth funny on it like “i woke up like this” 

draped over you’d see her wearing those denim or bomber jackets with pins on em’ or just a rugged flannel 

at home it’s just a sports bra and regular underwear bc “It’s like prison” - Jude

[more under the cut]

8: what they like to eat

probably those fuckin chinese seaweed thingys u see on CNY also probs a really good bowl of fish noodles 

do not bring rambutans near this woman

9: their theme

high key punk rock goddamn alternative aesthetic

10: their fashion sense

she literally just grabs what can be seen first in her wardrobe pls help her

but she keeps a decent fashion sense, esp if she’s going somewhere where she knows pretty ppl would go to

11: their family life

Jude: what the fuck is a family

no father figure, no mother figure (i mean, if u include Alice), the closest thing to a family life is during her early teen years when she crashed with Alice in her apartment bc apparently she had to travel alone to where Jude lived in so Alice just took her in and i guess that’s the first time Jude felt useful and had purpose

also like she looks up to Michael and Raymond as brotherly figures  

12: their romantic life

from bad ends in the past she thought the feeling of romantic relationships were 2 dimensional and really just dated for the heck of it or just thinks would numb what was kinda left for her to actually experience a good moral value (idk how to type or form words at this point)

she did at one point tried to take it seriously but ended up getting shit on and never really found interest again until Allen came along

so now she’s doing her best to keep this one afloat and staying honest and making sure everything is okay even when they occasionally fight 

13: their embarrassing memory from years ago

accidentally flashed her tiddies in front of a teacher she had a slight crush on (it;s a female substitute)

accidentally mistaken a twin brother as her date during prom and kinda made out a bit till ppl started pointing it out it wasnt actually him

Jude: i’ll never recover from it. my tits are cursed.

14: how they react to burning their tongue on food

she’ll stay frozen like a goddamn cat that has something on their head

either that or just keep pushing on like “but it tastes...so good...”

15: how they react to a brainfreeze

Pain(tm) 

screams if she’s not in public but she’d try to do those goddamn life hack methods on pushing ur tongue on the roof of your mouth

16: their dreams

man she just wants to be like those ppl on bandcamp that writes songs for a living also probably start journalism and make muns off weird articles she’s been hired to do online or smth

she’d love to have a munchkin cat (wait that’s not a dream)

nothing very big atm, though she would love to marry Allen sometime in the future if they can still work things out and maybe settle in somewhere nice

17: their ambitions

Music Artist/ hosts on travelling networks / cafe owner (is tht an ambition) / like i said she doesn’t aim for anything big or huge just managable things 

18: how they sleep

sprawled while laying on her back, if someone is sleeping over tho on the same bed she’d keep it to one side, and with Allen it’s like being chained to the bed when u really want 2 piss but ur gf is holding u down

also doing that thing where u tuck ur arms under the pillow while also sleeping on your back

19: their reaction to betrayal

wide spectrum depending on the person

immediately try to physically harm them

would be frozen in place like trying to piece together what the fuck just happened

saying it’s fine, and then going home just to lock herself in the room for idk how many days

would question a lot (is that how some ppl react) 

doubt herself 

20: their reaction to a mystery love letter

flattered but anxious bc like “i don’t know you but im flattered????” she would still appreciate it tho but if she recognize it she’d be flustered

21: how they react to pain

if u meant by heartbroken broken depressed broken into pieces kind of pain she’d try a lot of ways to beat it the hell out of herself

if u meant by physical pain then hm “it’s ok it doesn’t hurt” 

internally : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

22: what they're like on two hours of sleep

still could have enough energy to jog tbh depending on the day before

or

accidentally spreading toothpaste on toast

23: how they act when they're sick

a tad bit moody and would complain “if i havn’t done _______ i’d still be ok” and kinda half blame herself but also blame whatever caused it

24: what motivates them

The fact that Allen would be happy with her and that they’re still alive

also bc music and all that jazz 

25: why you enjoy them

i have....a type...for characters that are like her idk how to properly explain it but i guess although they seem p oblivious to the risks they know their limit and are very understanding ???? taking caution of someone else entirely before theirs (is not healthy but) i find their determination very inspiring?? in a way??? idk im like running on watered down latte and only had 2 hours of sleep atm i might re edit a lot of things here