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xhatake · 2 years ago

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also this will be my last dnd post [ for now! if i pursue the online game itch, I'll probably seek players out through this blog bcs i love most of the community here. i might also look via my dragon age blog but that fandom just be hitting different sometimes its scary ] but i just want to say that any time i roll well & kill an opponent [as a monk] i often opt to put vaeron's hand through people's chests to end their lives <3

#ooc.#tbd.#it's a nod to kakashi bcs i was going to play as a kakashi character but bro #bro building kakashi's skills in dnd would have made me go absolutely insane #sure i could have homebrewed the fuck out of it but it would have been so stinky to balance #itachi's skillset also drives me insane to try & replicate but my dm came up with a very cool sharingan thing to go along w vaeron's monk #class #[ it's called moongleam eye ]#that makes it easier to use itachi abilities in short bursts tho it takes a bunch of ki points to do it #and the only reason i was able to figure his character sheet out was because of all the [drugs] i did when i made it #it could not drive me insane bcs i already was insane #he has a sword but i love just having him punch people 2 death <3 #he's just silly like that

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silentsockfeet · 14 days ago

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with the obvious addendum that act 3 isn’t out yet and we can’t form true opinions until the show’s officially done, i’m still really feeling like it could have maybe benefited from a third season. they’re hitting all the right plot points and those moments are full of really intense emotion, but everything in the middle feels so underwhelming in comparison and so much of it still feels rushed to me. idk

#arcane #arcane spoilers #i could kinda deal with it act 1 bc there was a lot to cover through the fallout after s1. but act 2 i'm reallyyyyyy feeling it #like dont get me wrong it's still so so so good #and i guess that's what makes it so much more frustrating #like you can see all the ways it can be just that littlest bit even better #but i guess if the biggest complaint viewers have about your show is that they want more then that already says a lot you know #anyway #it's the warwick / isha plot that bugs me specifically bc isha (love her to death) feels lowkey like a cop out #introduce a kid just to heavy push the 'cycle of violence' 'find your humanity again' character arcs only to kill her six episodes later #like EVERYONE was saying 'ive never seen a character so obviously created to die'#the subversive thing would be to have her live and show the cycle of violence is ending or something #but here's another broken kid killed by the system here's more proof that jinx is. well. a jinx.#idk idk idk #and warwick. i wanted so much MORE #heavily build up warwick all through act 1 just to have him die end of act 2 #we barely got to see him at full power.#we barely got to see him with vi and jinx.#we barely got to see him reckon with the man he was and the monster he is now.#we got next to nothing before he's just dead. again #and again those scenes hit SO GODDAMN HARD. THEY ARE GOOD. but they couldve hit even harder if they just had more time to flesh it out !!!!#but again again no act 3 yet so who goddamn knows at this point #they aint dead til we see the bodies and even then they might not be dead bc thats just how arcane works #but fuck i just wish we sometimes had time to sit and FEEL things before the next new thing starts #ok im done rambling i just had to say something somehwere because its driving me insane #my posts

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starheirxero · 1 year ago

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HAVE YOU SEEN THE NEW TSAMS EPISODE YET?!!!

Bloodmoon might be coming back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LITERALLY JUST WOKE UP AND THIS ASK SENT ME FLYING ACROSS THE ROOM OMG. WATCHED IT AND HOLY SHIT. I’M LIKE ?!?!!!!! IM GENUINELY SURPRISED HE’S COMING BACK ???? I WAS SO SURE BLOODMOON WAS GUNNA STAY DEAD THIS IS FASCINATING. ESPECIALLY RUIN’S IMPLICATION OF ALTERING THEM ???? WHAT IS HE GUNNA DO 2 THE BOYS……. IM VERY INTRIGUED

#asks #crack-a-lackin-max #honestly tho i rlly can’t stress how much i thought bloodmoon was going to Stay Dead?????#Like don’t get me wrong i am honestly terribly excited because i miss bloodmoon a LOAHT and if they return that means I can pick apart-#-their character more!!!#however to Me this is so out of left field that i’m also just like HUH AHDISNKDLC #i wonder if ruin is going 2 put bloodmoon thru the horrors tho……#modify them 2 make them obedient is what ruin said. that is smth they have Never wanted to be and I can imagine that will be Maddening if-#-it works. but also like. this isn’t exactly a revival like it is with Lunar. Bloodmoon /died/ died. No nanobots left #A second version of being built. A new version is being built. It’s likely that the new Bloodmoon won’t have any memories #So can you imagine waking up with an insatiable urge to maim and kill and the one person you want to do it to has a failsafe to make sure-#-that you can’t do that and everyone around you seems to know you already and has a deep fear of hatred towards you?#wouldn’t that be more frustrating and confusing than the ever-present hunger? Wouldn’t that drive them a little insane?#sorry this probably won’t happen but could u imagine AHAHBSJABS #sun and moon show spoilers #tsams #bloodmoon #xero thoughts and rambles #bc of my tags LMAO

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jendoe · 2 years ago

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❥ wip day

tagged by @natesofrellis and @gwynbleidd to post a wip! thank you both sososo much lovelys 💖

tagging @phillipsgraves, @risingsh0t, @chuckhansen, @queennymeria, @denerims, @echo3-1, @jackiesarch, @shellibisshe, @loriane-elmuerto, @indorilnerevarine, @unholymilf, @marivenah, @sstewyhosseini, @leviiackrman, and whoever else has a wip because i'm not sure who does! no pressure ofc mwah

There was only one way to shut this bastard up.

Claire gave Gideon a sneer. "Fine. You win."

"That's what I like to hear." Gideon delivered a swift kick to the back of the leg she was already struggling to stand on, sending her stumbling. "Hop to it."

Cunt, Claire bit back the urge to scream, as she dropped to her knees beside the water. All she had to do was reach in. Nothing would happen. She already knew that, and that... well, honestly it worried her a bit. She'd dealt with Trinity long enough now to know how they operated when they didn't get their way.

A deep breath to calm herself. She'd be fine. She'd been through worse. And she was more than capable of handling one old, very delusional man. He'd made a mistake when he decided to tell his men to stay behind. If she played her cards right…

"What are you stalling for?" The cold metal of the barrel of a gun was suddenly pressed to the back of her head. "Go on. I've been waiting decades for this."

"Then a few more seconds won't kill you," Claire spit out with as much venom as she could muster. "I'm doing it, alright? You can put the damn gun away."

Gideon scoffed, but to her relief, the pressure was now gone from her scalp. "I don't think you're in a position to get cross with me. Now. Go. On."

Cross? She was more than cross. Another deep breath. Do what he asked, and figure out how to go from there. That was all she needed to do. She reached out towards the water, fingers grazing the icy surface. Already, they're tingling. She braced herself for the numbing pain of the cold and plunged her arm in with her eyes squeezed shut.

At first, just as she suspected, nothing. Gideon had dragged her all over the United Kingdom to do what— lose an arm to frostbite?

And then she felt something that really made her want to scream.

Weight, as if somebody had taken her hand in theirs to gently place something in her grasp.

#tag games #oc: claire morgan #me waiting for a wip tag specifically for this bc its too rough/unfinished but yay claire time <3 #deep lore...#this storyline drives me highkey insane and i would like to do it all of it but AGAIN #THE AMOUNT OF RESEARCH #anyway best believe if claire thought she could she would've already murdered this man. she would not hesitate.#and i mean.. she won't hesitate. but we'll get to that part

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moomoomooing · 1 year ago

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someone needs to bail me out of class for the next too days and lock me in solitary so i can finally have some alone time and properly cry

#mmmmmmm my roommate has many habits that drive me insane #and im too scared to tell her off despite knowing holding it in will absolutely make me feel worse and worse #also i spilt ramen sauce all over my shit and on a white shirt i love so #one more thing to add to the cry abt list #also weird rant now #my moms given me such a bad fucking relationship with money food and gifts #and suddenly shes been so nice to me now that if feels suspicious #which is a really bad fucking thing to feel about your own mom #she got me cupcakes???? theyre being sent/for pickup via my college dining program which i didnt even know you could do #but idk why she did it in the first place nor why she didnt do it for my birthday if she did it at all?#anyways times like this makes me wish i was way more emotionally avaliable and less emotionally constipated #but i vent enough abt shit already that i feel like im whining and complaining more than anything so #a genuine hug from one of my friends or smth that doesnt immediantly give me the ick #bc i genuinely hate that it can happen to me for literally any of my friends #anyways a genuine hug would make me break down crying immediantly #this has been my rant of the day and my horror upon realizing i think one of my irl college friends actually follow me #hi if youre reading this #no you didnt

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themyscirah · 1 year ago

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This is such a "nobody else has read this comic" moment but like. It kills me every day that we never see Simon's conversation with Amanda Waller in JLA (2013) #5. Like I NEED to know what she said to him in that room. He goes in fully intending to detach himself from all the drama of his origin arc and get the government off his back yet when he leaves he joins Waller's JLA (which is a different, rival entity of the JL at this time). And THEN in JLA comic he's not just on the team, he's one of the more pro-Waller/pro-authority members!!! Which doesn't sound like Simon!!! Like at all! But again this is the Wall we are talking about. And they had a private conversation together! For an unspecified amount of time! That we know nothing about! Like this is Amanda freaking Waller if anyone could say something to make this make sense it would be her. SO I NEED TO KNOW WHAT SHE SAID. but also also also we see ANOTHER change of heart from Simon towards Waller (and the government) in Green Lanterns #1! (I think.) Here he's shown being fed up as the government tries to manipulate him for information and to gain power and such and is like keeping tabs on him and his family etc. So obviously he's become disillusioned with this and is not happy about it, which is the kind of reaction you would expect from him! Like that actually makes sense!!!

So its like logically you figure that his characterization in JLA is bad (it is new 52) and doesn't make sense and stems from an ignorance of his character (who had been in literally 16 comics before this. Including cameos. Like bruh just read them) and that's why this doesn't make sense. BUT THERE'S STILL THAT CONVERSATION WITH WALLER. Like I want this to my sense so bad. And my brain knows what Amanda Waller is like like it KNOWS that something could have plausibly happened in that room to make this line up! Like it's Amanda freaking Waller anything could have happened there. I need to know what happened there. I will NEVER know what happened there.

#like its a new 52 comic it makes sense that it wouldnt make sense!!!!!!! but there is this GAP and it is driving me nuts #because if anyone could have said something to make this make sense it would be waller!!!! NEVER underestimate waller!!!! that is how she #gets you. also shadow government plots shes very good at those at well #especially when they explode in everyone's faces including her own #she still comes out swinging #grrrrrr no but this drives me SO bonkers because like AGGGHHHHH and its some random new 52 comic like no one cares but then #I am all like guys lets talk abt the Simon and Amanda Waller dynamic lets talk abt Simon and Waller like NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I AM TALKING ABT #like they met??????? yeah in a nu52 comic that i read in my quest to read every simon baz appearance #im 9999.999% sure dc has totally forgotten this comic existed. the writer probably has too. the only thing its notable for is causing drama #to lead up to forever evil.#anyways just oh my god. the simon and waller missing conversation is insane to me. what the fuck did they say?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!#maybe i go crazy bc of this bc theyre both in my top 10 on locg. like ive read a bunch of simon but ive also read ostrander + yale suicide #squad. which is the waller holy grail. and so i am vertifiably insane #only way for this to get more swishy self indulgent is to merge GL and SS even more and bring ben into it #i love ben he just dropped out of my top 10 and im devastated. i should read more ben comics. ive read a good chunk already hes not in that #many. also jess should be there. that would be even more self indulgent and make me crazier #suicide squad comic but you just stuff all swishy's faves in a room and expose them to the wall #wait shit this is giving me ideas now i dont have time for this LOG OFF LOG OFF #what was i saying again????? oh.#blah #simon baz #amanda waller

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liinos · 1 year ago

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saw a reel of some kids at an orchestra camp that looked suspiciously like the one i was forced to go to one year... worst experience of my life!!!

#when i tell you i think there are things stemming from that experience! my parents were actually so wrong for making me go...#my mom CRIED bc i kept insisting that i didn't want to do it bc i a) was never That into music especially not CHAMBER music #b) knew that i would not know anyone and would be stuck in the middle of nowhere with people who were already friends from previous years #c) was only even given an audition bc my teacher knew the staff and their other oboist wasn't able to go that year and they needed one #d) WAS THIRTEEN AND WANTED TO SPEND THE SUMMER WITH MY FRIENDS #i do actually think it caused me real psychic damage attending that like the fact that Everyone was already friends with everyone else...#i came with no friends and i left with no friends! and when i tried to talk to the other girls in my cabin i could tell they were like...#why are you trying to be in our friend group. there was a girl who was nice to me but i was not her friend very clearly #also i was soooo out of my depth there it was Rough for me fr and like i Knew i was out of my depth i had no illusions about that #i knew i would be which is why i was like yeah this is Not for me #i still cannot get over my mom crying about this like this wasn't some great life changing opportunity...#my parents really have and always have had these Ideals they place on me bc They think xyz would be nice #or they wish they could have done it like ??? okay why does that have anything to do with me #my dad keeps being like well *I* want you to go to grad school in mtl bc i like mtl and i want to visit 😁#like haha you're not funny actually 😁 first of all not a single damn thing is stopping you from going you can drive there whenever you want #secondly one of us does NOT want to be in mtl again 😁 and that one of us actually lived there before #also the way my parents constantly visiting me pissed me off to no fucking end... I'M NOT THE PROBLEM CHILD #worried that i just stay in my room like ???? okay??? but if i went out you'd flip bc what if it's unsafe. i LIKE staying home #and i HATED mtl so no way in hell was i going to go do shit especially not at night in the WINTER are you insane #like yeah i was super depressed. that was unrelated to me staying in my room like my room was my Space #anyway all this to say i'm setting the fuck boundary this time around like i actually dgaf i'm an adult and again #not your problem child so if you could stop projecting that onto me just bc HE fucked up when he was in school....#parents will be like why can't you be independent and then literally not let you be i 🫶🏻 it #i do also hold it against the boy child and my dad for this 'you can only go to schools within a 6 hour drive'#which is only a rule my sisters and i had and maybe if the boy child wasn't a fuck up i couldve not had it but you know #he ruined any chance of that but my dad when i was applying for college was like oh it can be anywhere :) and then was like lol no #and then was like well for grad school you can go anywhere and then when it was brought up last time went lol no :)#so i'm going to have to bring lol yes :) energy cuz...

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florida3exclamationpoints · 2 years ago

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#Taylor's playing philly may 12th right 👀👀#in an open air stadium right 👀👀👀#now what if i said 👀👀 that's a 4hr drive (one way) and 1.5 tanks of gas (round trip) which would be max $70 👀👀👀👀👀#but uh oh :( im seeing Sabrina on the 14th and we're leaving on the 13th for that :(#BUT WAIT THERES MORE.#hear me out #we could leave home between 12-3 and get there in time for the opening acts #shows over a little after 11.... add time for traffic..... maybe food...... we would be home 5am AT THE LATEST #i could crash at mh friends house #we dont have to be at the hotel for sabrina early!!! i can sleep on the way bc my mom's driving there!!!!#go to bed early. get up earlyish. get in line for Sabrina. stay in line for Sabrina all day.#i already took the 15th off work!!!!!#and best part!!!!! even if we cant get tickets to philly its open air so we could just stand outside!!!!!!#SKDJSKSJS #lowkey im being funny idk if we could actually pull it off #but also i really really want too and it doesn't sound completely insane

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red-dyed-sarumane · 1 year ago

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i have a new theory for aru sekai fans & by new i mean someone else might have caught on already but i havent seen it said SO. the rute furutewoa melody is in kyuuyaku, touhikou, & now kannagi (maybe elsewhere bc i havent been looking for this motif before i only realized it today really & i havent had time to go thru all the songs again yet) & we have kyuu (past), something in touhikou im too tired to remember currently but i remember calling something similar a while ago when someone asked if there was a timeline to this, and now kannagi that uses the older language so im willing to bet this motif is a way of saying the events in the song happened in the "past". whether thats actually Long Ago or just to say its not the current situation or just happened before the songs without it i cant say for sure but i think it makes sense given what we have now.

just like we have the nami no ne no motif that signals which characters still have their "self" if its in the song or lost it if its not.

i have to do some more digging of course but with what i know right now this makes the most sense to me

#aru sekai series #u know those old people who say they do crosswords to keep their brain sharp. thats what this series feels like to me.#incredibly complex puzzle to put together in which i need to be constantly learning new things & concepts #anyway for some reason i feel like theres a link to ashura that im not touching on too but idk for sure yet #there is. something about ashura that drives me insane bc it FEELS familiar there IS. SOME sort of motif or theme or SOMETHING there #i KNOW it but i can never place WHAT it makes me rabid.#tell me your secrets puppet girl #also btw kannagi i think also ties into touhikou. given the art & that line thats like prayer will come to sustain us or whatever it is #its 2am ive had a long day i dont remember the exact thing rn. usually i check before posting but please excuse me just this once #i wish i could make friends with the jpn magu fans who also go wild over the lore but idk how to find them. its always like one off comments #sorry i didnt really go wild over yamete kudasai. it just felt rather straight forward & didnt give any big reveals that i know of #so i just kind of went ah neat & looped it for a while #but kannagi. kannagi's got the puzzle aspect back & a WHOLE BUNCH of links to other songs. & thats without knowing the lyrics #but also u know kyuuyaku's my fave so having this be closely related is a big 👀👀👀 for me #i saw someone try to say kannagis the ka in the amakakeru arc of songs (if that is a real arc. it Is a fan theory idk how accurate tho)#but that wouldnt be right bc we already have kanon for the ka.#if there are arcs like that i think itd be in with whatever ashura's in. even tho ashura is a 5 kanji song and kannagis only 1

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crunchycrystals · 2 years ago

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while im procrastinating on my homework im just gonna say im gonna be kind of very mad if that mv she's filming is actually for a midnights track lol i like the theory that its for long live though i think that would really fit if the vid is actually about taking back her work

#crunchyposts #ts #genuinely idk why im getting worked up over the idea that its not for a tv #if im wrong and its not a tv ill genuinely be mad #idk how mad but ill be mad a little bit lol #maybe bc im not super into karma and vigilante shit which are peoples main ideas for what it could be??????#but yeah. i also really like the idea its a way to reframe better than revenge with the revenge being the rerecordings themselves #HONESTLY NOW THAT IVE THOUGHT ABOUT IT A BIT MORE. I THINK IT MIGHT BE BC IF ITS JUST MORE FUCKING SPEAK NOW TV EASTER EGGS IM GONNA GO INS #INSANE #I RAN OUT OF TAG SPACE #LIKE WE ALREADY GOT THE GODDAMN. BEJEWELED MV WE ALL KNOW WHATS COMING NEXT (EXCEPT FOR ONE PERSON I SAW WHO SAID THERE WERE A TON OF 1989 #EASTER EGGS IN THAT VID???????? DID WE WATCH THE SAME VID) AND IF ITS JUST MORE “OOOOH HINTS” IM GONNA FLIP A TABLE #SORRY i just want speak now tv #like we've known for months its the next one coming based on bejeweled. also i think the copyright stuff is being cleared up rn #we dont need more easter eggs!!!!!!! please dear lord just give us a date like red tv i dont care how far away it is its fine #ok. ive calmed down. idk what happened to me there. the worst part is really knowing that somethings coming but not knowing when #i think i am More Fine with speak now easter eggs but. still id really prefer more callbacks rather than hints its driving me up the wall #bejeweled was so clear!!!!!!! enchanted and long live in the background and the koi and the elevator and the dragons #and then nothing happened for months and we were just left in the dark!!!!!!!!

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puppmeo · 3 months ago

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Have you ever been assumed to be romantically attracted to someone and even just the thought of that makes you want to throw up . Anybody

#had someone's husband in my dms going on about how i want this bitch romantically and frankly if i hadn't been so busy crying i would've #actually thrown up . absolutely disgusting idea . vile even . horrid concept #anyway tldr im down a best friend because he didn't tell me anything i was doing was wrong after telling me that everything was okay and #then sent his husband after me to call me a creep that was obsessed with him that also apparently tried to make out w him #the same trip that my best friend of five years told me he hated having me in his hometown to see him graduate.#this was after i found out my cat had been murdered and mutilated and thrown in my granma's garden . that day happened to be my birthday #because my ma was kind enough to drive me and my lil brother down there to go see him graduate bc he was also supposed to move in w us the #month after . and he told me right after i got home that he 'didn't think it would be good for our relationship' and apparently #just didn't know how to tell me until a month before it was supposed to happen . bonkers times over here #anyway i didn't want to make out with him . he cried after i wouldn't have sex w him just last december . which i specifically got high as #shit to avoid . and i dont even have like. actual examples of what i was doing wrong to go off of so now i just get to live in mystery #forever ig. like shocker that the person that's been my best friend for five years would tell his husband to say that to me and not say that #shit to me himself . this is a wild to me . i feel like im going insane . can anybody even hear me what's going on #you know its bad when your mama gets so sick of you crying over a friend that she hugs you for the first time in years #also i cant sleep my head hurts . crying is evil . devils liquid . might watch rpdr or something . still nauseous over the idea of being #into him romantically btw . like still nauseous over that . like what a fucking insult to our entire friendship #does saying that we may as well have been made of the same atoms mean like . nothing . does nothing ive said to or about him not mean anythi #ng if its not romantic in nature . what did i do that wasnt enough for him. i fucking told him he outgrew me and that was fine i just #wanted to know if we were still friends or not and he said we were and i believed him. if he told me the sky was green i would make it so #ripping my hair out . am i being dramatic . am i the only person that wasn't expecting this . am i the only one that didn't know #when i had to tell people who knew about the moving plans that he changed his mind the first fucking thing i was told was “i thought it migh #t happen.“ WELL I FUCKINH DIDN'T . AND NOBODY TOLD ME #this is like . the second most humiliating moment of my life . aside from movinggate because at least nobody irl has to know about this #anyway . this boy could've taken my blood and i'd sit there and smile while he did it because he was my best friend .#i was so glad we got to grow up together. i miss him already. im taking my little brother to school my myself for the first time and all im #gonna wanna do is tell him about it . im tired . i want to sleep . im still so nauseous . did none of it mean anything just because ive #never and will never like him romantically. does that make everything less worthy somehow #i hope he never talks to me again. i dont think i could handle this again. he let is fucking husband say that shit to me. not him.#puppmeo misery

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Went to take my exam bc the syllabus says it'd be available at 9 am today. No sign of the exam tho. Under the quizzes tab it's listed as being available on July 31st at 9 am... in 2023 though.

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So I went and emailed the professor. I still wanna take the exam today bc it's the best day for it, but it's a little late so he might not see it in time for that. Wweh.