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icewindandboringhorror · 7 years ago

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that sort of video essay format on youtube where people spend 20 - 100 minutes analyzing random things is my true weakness because i am a fool and for some reason my nonsense brain is just always up to listen to people discuss literally any concept despite it usually being stuff I couldn’t care less about like a movie I’ve never seen (or even wanted to see) in my life or a sport I’ve never heard of

#i know so much background lore for like.. shows I've never watched and games I've never played and movies I've never seen #some video in my reccomendations : 'the nature of masculinity within the naruto universe (and symbolism behind use of color #throughout the series' me..who completely and utterly has no interest in anything to do with naruto whatsoever: *clicks #video extremely fast and settles in to listen to some dude ramble on for 2 hours and 45 minutes about whatever the hell*#'an exploration of the origins and cultural significance of the sport of golf throughout history' me...who has never in my life even seen #game of golf being played: *excitedly adds video to watch list*#i mean some are legitimately good and worthwhile and more relevant to my interests especially ones that look at harmful tropes in media and #etc. like stuff that pop culture detective agency does in criticizing how masculinity is portrayed and etc. etc.#but a lot of it is just like... legit not... relevant to anything #like *15 videos deep in obscure asoiaf book lore and theory videos despite legit never reading the books nor having any desire to and also #only ever watching like a few episodes of the show* *has no idea what they're ever referencing but is engaged and excited for the full #hour hearing about how the cat that breifly appears in the background of book 2 is actually Gumpos Bumpus the legendary magic dude or smthn*#i think thats just my major trap in life like i just like... learning about.. anything.. for no reason... i've always been that way and i th #ink thats part of why my interests have been so scattered and difficult to hone in because most people base like 'what do you like to do'#off of like 'well what excites you? what do you like to learn about?' and for me thats like... everything?? even the most absolutely #irrelevant stuff i just like.. hearing about things.. anything.. any new information no matter how useless to me it is and especially #when people are passionate about what they're saying or are attempting to present an argument even if I don't even understand what theyre #talking it about it makes it more engaging. and like even when i meet a new person the first thing i want to do is collect detailed info abo #ut them and talk about their entire backstory and how they liked school as a young child and what phases they went through in middle #school and what their relationship with their parents is and how they feel about their childhood home and what they spend most of their time #doing and their life plans and etc. Even the way i communicate with others can often accidentally turn into more of an interview format sinc #e i start asking them a ton of questions about things like i just want to ... hear information constantly apparently which is true in every #aspect of my life from the type of videos i enjoy to how I make friends to conflicts i had as a child and etc. etc. a useless over-curiousit #y that doesn't lead to anything except me just accumulating a lot of ideas on things that i will never use lol. though i enjoy creating info #rmation just as much as hearing it like thats why i like worldbuilding so much but idk.. i just wish... my brain could be a bit more discrim #inating. obviously i dont just let myself watch videos all day but... would I ? absolutely lmao.. the impulse is strongly there #also probably why i can pass as somewhat okay despite my social difficulties and lack of deep attachments or emotion since at the very least #i tend to be a good listener since like.. yes i do want to hear your entire life story the day that i meet you i dont care lmao #if someone called me at like 3am wanting to talk about common themes in dreams they've had since childhood i'd be entirely #engaged with that lol.. low energy/functioning issues aside im generally just.. excited to listen to just about anything apparently lol

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