#in terms of learning curve and overall gameplay hes the hardest due to the fact that hes also the weakest class in the game

[xycuro-illuminati]

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[medicgf-blog]

i want to get into competitive gaming again

like back during seasons 3 and 4 of ovw comp i had a blast playing mercy like sure a lot of bullshit happened and pissbabies were on my teams but the few times we did have good games people would commend me as a phenomenal mercy and it was cool i like being validated as a competent healer due to my own self-degradation and the fact that i think too harshly of myself.

but like. now mercy’s kit is completely different. sure i can go relearn her or smth but im just not comfortable with the way she plays anymore nor am i too into overwatch at all.

medic, however. medic is the closest to pre-buff mercy/a healer i can comfortably play minus the ults and abilities. like he’s just a simpler version of mercy. hold down the heal beam and try not to die which translates pretty seamlessly when leaving overwatch and going back to tf2 because that game owns my fucking ass now.

sure i had a slight learning curve when trying to pin down the medic Meta™ by having to learn the crusader’s crossbow and when to use uber or when’s the best time to switch off of stock medi and go to kritz or quick-fix but after a couple months i think i’m pretty okay at it. im not the best but if i focus hard enough i can get the job done.

i’ve had numerous people in casual say that im a good medic or that my crossbow skill is actually pretty good, i had a game on uhh hoodoo i think where the entire team was talking to each other like i can bet my entire ass that at least half of them were playing the comp mode in tf2 because i can just tell by how they called out picks/spies and overall tried to coordinate with the team

anyways they kept giving me praise both in voice chat and in text saying that my crossbow shots basically ensured our win cause i kept our remaining heavy who was pushing alive and how i was just overall a super good healer. it was actually really cool but whenever i go into competitive games for the first time it’s still nerve wracking because i may be phenomenal in terms of casual gameplay but how does that really stack with competitive game play.

i used to do track in middle school and my team always said i was the best runner on JV. i outran the other JV kids and would always get first. but the one time i was put on varsity i got 2nd place which- granted is still really good but compared the first place runner i was trailing really far behind. luckily the other varsity kids were a lot slower than i but for stuff like high school track probably the varity kids would blaze right past me

what i’m saying is i was too good for JV but i wasn’t good enough for varsity, which im afraid is what’s happening here. i’m good as fuck in casual but i’ll just be subpar in competitive. i’ve watched competitive videos before, the people playing there are WILD and i’m afraid of the stuff that happened to me in ovw comp will happen to me in tf2 comp. me getting angry to the brink of tears, people yelling and berating me for entire matches, people insulting me or using slurs. i left ovw comp because of my own mental health but i enjoy competitive gameplay a lot. i just. i dunno. a bunch of stuff i hear is if you wanna enhance your game experience try competitive but you gotta understand my hesitance to do so, playing healer in a comp setting is quite possibly the hardest thing especially if the game only has one healer class. at least in ovw we had a choice of like 5 healers but here you can only use medic. like if i couldn’t heal somebody in time our lucio can just yoink over, but if we have 2 medics both of which can’t get to the target in time then who’s at fault?

idk maybe i’m over reacting because i just got bad vibes about comp because of ovw. i dunno. if i had friends willing to try competitive tf2 with me then i could try because my intro to ovw comp was joining my friends in a comp game