#im so done with the WHERE IS _____ REACTION!!?

[hecksupremechips]

God every day I think about Akane’s breakdown in door 3 because there really is no correct way to interpret that and every possibility makes me crazy. Like she sees this fucked up corpse whom Junpei (and the player, depending on how they play) believes is their friend Snake, but she knows that it’s Guy X. It’s a man she very intentionally put in the game for this very purpose, so that he could die horrifically and be displayed for everyone to see. And she has a full mental breakdown over being trapped in this room with the corpse, being trapped by Junpei, to the point where she rips out her hair and starts bleeding from how much she bangs on the door screaming to get out. And fuck, there’s so many possibilities like

Akane could be feeling genuine terror over the sight of the body, and with that remorse. She made this happen, she wanted this to happen, and now she’s forced to quite literally watch the damage she’s caused unfold. She can detach herself from his murder easily in other timelines where she doesn’t have to look at it, and she can sleep easy knowing that her hands are technically clean because she didn’t do the literal killing. But she can’t do that here, and she has to face the fact that not only did she happily cause this death, she failed her mission. She isn’t going to survive, and now this man is dead for nothing and everything is her fault

On the other hand, her entire breakdown could be completely fabricated in order to keep playing the role of the damsel in distress who is so innocent that the very sight of blood drives her to insanity. The interesting part about this is that if she could fake such a horrific breakdown, just how much of her personality a facade? We know she wants revenge, for everyone from Cradle to feel even an ounce of the pain she and so many others went through, but we don’t get to see the extent of how much she feels this way. We never hear directly from Akane about her feelings on any of the original organizers, just her note about her desire to punish them. She hates them, but does she see their deaths as a necessary evil, or does she feel joy and satisfaction at watching them go? It’s absolutely horrifying not knowing, not being able to see her true feelings, not knowing just how real or fake she is, the extent of her madness. Perhaps she doesn’t even know that herself

IN OTHER WORDS, it’s fucked

[the-eclectic-wonderer]

@\hecatesbroom (not tagging so I don't annoy you lmao) has been teaching me how to make gifs, and I'm happy to report I've been using this power for the greater good (to make gifs of beautiful women)

Bonus under the cut:

Three little Elizabeths because I couldn't resist her charm 💙

[sybbi]

Jewish people in the diaspora: Hey I believe Palestinians should have self-determination and rights that have for too long been denied to them and I believe the architects of Israel's response have gone too far and slaughtered and displaced innocents and the human cost of this "self defense" is too great and something needs to be done to stop this before it's too late, Palestinians deserve their place in the Levant and the ability to self-govern, but hey it's also kind of concerning that some of you will ignore when actual dangerous antisemitism is being displayed and spread and I'd just really appreciate if you also would watch out for people like that in the pro-Palestine movement and call people like that out, thank you

You freaks:

[ithinkimauggie]

Deleted tiktok, i am finally free lets go gamers

[sonknuxadow]

I'm not too big a Sonknux shipper (I don't really ship anyone with Sonic full stop) but for the sheer amount of Sonadow and rabid Sonadow shippers that popped up, I'm half tempted to create a 2:30 hour long Sonknux cinematic animation out of spite. It would be a quirky romcom with musical scenes which starts with Knuckles first meeting Sonic and ending with them kissing in front of the Master Emerald at their wedding.

i dont really have a problem with sonadow necessarily or people making jokes about them being gay in the new episode, i also went "🏳️‍🌈?" a few times while watching it. im mostly just annoyed that its everywhere at all times and so many people seem to have sonadow as their number one priority always and dont care about anything else.. like if you search sonic prime on here its just sonadow sonadow sonadow with not nearly as many posts about what actually happens in the episode or theorizing about what might happen next or even discussing sonic and shadows interactions beyond just going "omg sonadow!"... like is that really all you guys took from it? you dont care about anything else? just shipping? ok...

[ozlices]

my mom has repeatedly dismissed the idea that she has favorites between us, and yet earlier this year she literally admitted to my face that she's prioritized my abuser over me bc she's 'going through worse stuff'.

and constantly. fucking CONSTANTLY i have to hear abt my abuser, how much she's 'changed' and 'loves me' and 'wants a relationship with me' etc etc etc

and the most draining part of all of this is that i busted my ass for multiple fucking years to finally break the shackles off and get the fuck out of here, only for a selfish, heartless, absolutely piece of utter and complete shit to damn me back here.

and now, im stuck in this cycle again. where spending EIGHT HOURS on the phone trying to get my phone shit settled, and being at my absolute fucking limit bc on top of dealing w that crap, i had to listen to my abuser and her kids screaming at the top of their goddamn lungs for the past two days, and snapping to shut the fuck up,, gets me dealing w my mother holding a grudge w me.

bc 'oh let me have kids and then maybe ill understand' IT'S LIKE THIS EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME SHE'S OVER HERE. AND SHE WAS LIKE THIS BEFORE SHE FUCKING HAD KIDS. THE BRUNT OF MY ABUSER WAS LITERALLY BEING SCREAMED AT AND BERATED BY HER OVER STUPID SHIT.

/IM/ THE ASSHOLE FOR BEING INSISTENT THAT SHE HASNT CHANGED ?!?!? WHEN SHE LITERALLY HASNT FUCKING CHANGED!!!?!?!?!? SHE'S /WORSE/ NOW /BECAUSE/ SHE STILL HAD KIDS ANYWAY WHEN LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN HER LIFE WARNED HER NOT TO BC WE ALL KNEW SHE'D BE A SHITTY PARENT. AND WOW, HUGE SHOCKER, SHE IS!!!

i made the decision when i was VERY young, but also old enough to realize just how deep rooted my trauma runs & how much it affects my responses to stress & other shit, to not have human children bc i fucking KNEW. no matter how much i try to be a nice person, no matter how good my intentions try to be, i can be very nasty. i can be harsh. i can be snappy. i can be violent. i can be completely apathetic to how my actions affect other people when i'm angry enough.

i ACKNOWLEDGE that shit. i will be the first to admit when i probably went overboard, but i am so fucking sick of being put in a position where if i dont apologize for being fucking straight up verbally, emotionally, mentally, or even physically abused, & responding to that abuse like any fucking body would, ESPECIALLY a person who has existing trauma, im an asshole.

im so. fucking sick. of being alive. this year has broken me. it really, truly fucking has. i lost EVERYTHING. i dont even have a fucking doctor. i am back in the house all my trauma happened in, damned by someone i thought was my best friend who looked me dead in my eyes a month after my daughter died in my arms & told me damning me back to the house every traumatic thing ive ever gone to 'wasnt her problem'. & having to be put right back in the cycles i brutalized myself to get out of.

and the worst fucking part is that this year has left me in such shambles from stress, i physically cannot pick myself up anymore. my alters can't pick themselves up anymore. we are all so fucking burnt out, and it is so fucking draining to lie to ourselves that hope is worth it when we had it all stripped away from us repeatedly in such brutal ways. nonstop. i swear to the moon herself, i mean it when i say not one single day this entire year has been peaceful. has been free from some degree of pain, or straight up agony.

i am tired of beating myself up for being angry. i am tired of being berated by other people for being angry. FUCK all of that shit. this year, and the shitty people who refuse to fucking offer me the same empathy they DEMAND from me, have fucking destroyed me. and i DESERVE TO BE FUCKING PISSED OVER THAT SO I FUCKING WILL BE IM FUCKING PISSED FUCK THIS YEAR FUCK MY ABUSER FUCK HER GODDAMN DEFENDERS FUCK THE BITCH WHO DAMNED ME HERE FUCK MY ENTIRE LIFE IT'S NEVERENDING BULLSHIT AND IM TIRED OF ACTING LIKE ANYTHING THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME WAS OKAY OR THAT I HAVE TO BE OKAY WITH IT!! NONE OF IT WAS OKAY!! IM NOT FUCKING OKAY WITH IT!! NOBODY FUCKING WOULD BE!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[bunnyboy-juice]

me (not joking, very stressed): i think im going to have a mental breakdown if something else goes wrong here.

everyone irl: hahahhahaa ur so funny(:

[mnonep]

Hopefully I'm not too late but I did the dialogue meme as well o3o)7 such a fun and cool template by cereovo!!

[doewoe]

'oh Punchlines fear is just stupid internet hate!' NO!

Her fear is losing control! This concept of control can be seen in SO many of her solo runs!

(Spoilers for The Trial of Alexis Kaye, Punchline: The Gotham Game, and Knight Terrors: Punchline)

In The Trial of Alexis Kaye: She literally sets up control of Blackgate. She disposes of Kelly Ness and Orca; The explanation for her disposal of Orca is that Orca helps Kelly get away, Punchline is unable to control Orca; Kelly gets disposed of, again, because she can't be controlled. Both are able to (or have) betrayed Alexis, she lost control of them so they both had to go. She controls the narrative of herself on the internet as well, and weaponizes it to gain even more, giving her masses of young people that she can throw around and control for her own personal gain.

In Punchline: The Gotham Game: Again she sets up control of the Royal Flush Gang and control of the current drug trends in Gotham. One of the main goals Punchline has is taking control of an Ace Processing Centre. She says that she wants Jokers clout and shes trying to take it for herself; Joker (unfortunately) has a layer of control over Gotham, hes literally the Joker, people fear him and he uses it to control. She passively threatens Bluff with a knife when she finds out he hasn't told her where Cullen lives, Punchline threatens Bluff because she currently doesn't have control over him. She uses her control of the current drug trends to have hoards of people under control willing to do what she wants them to; One of these people literally says "I don't want to do this! But I have to!" she literally has control of these people. She gets upset at The Queen and King of Hearts, who she sees a betrayers, because she sees that she doesn't have complete control of them. They literally kill Bluff, because hes a bitch because he can't be controlled by Alexis.

Finally in Knight Terrors: Punchline: Punchline uses an analogy of wearing noise isolation/noise cancelling headphones; the way I connect this is: (using the analogy) you wear the headphones everything is muffled but its in your control, you are wearing the headphones. When you take them off and realize that its quiet you realize that what is around you is not muffled, its not in your control. The headphones are a method of control. Also, throughout Knight Terrors Punchline repeatedly says that what is happening cant be real, she tries to control her dream. Now the 'internet hate' which is shown is internet hate, but it means something more. Remember when I said Punchline controlled the media and internet in The Trial of Alexis Kaye? These hate comments are literal examples and a manifest of Alexis's fear of losing control, in this case losing her control of the internet and the control of her 'fans'. This fear is also seen when she shuts up gets muted, she loses control and the "infinite-scrolling comments" gain control. Getting stuck just endlessly on the internet is a common lack of control, when you get stuck you are not the one doing the sticking, the internet is the one who has control at that point. This fear is also shown when Punchline talks about how when she wakes up she doesn't let her dreams or nightmares control her, she shakes them off, she needs this control.

So its not just a fear of 'internet hate,' its losing her grip on what has given her power, what has given her the opportunities that she has made for herself; its Punchline losing her control.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[oflgtfol]

ok so i hate writing intelligent posts abt malevolent bc im scared of posting theories that are stupid and wrong but like. im feeling that the eponymous fallen star of the order of the fallen star. is john. like this is a cult not about the king in yellow like that in season 1, but instead about the “fallen star” that fragmented off the king. Augh

[lith-myathar]

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[sarcophagid]

“nooooo why are kokonoi and inui separated” believe it or not a person is an individual creature and you can live just fine and content without constantly being around someone else. the people you are close to will inevitably change over time, sometimes you are close to someone and you drift apart and maybe you never drift back and thats fine that’s a part of life etc. etc.

[omegasmileyface]

dreams are so awesome. had a totk dream last night where i did side quests and shit it was awesome. it was also very explicit about the fact that the botw games are, canonically and explicitly and deliberately, set in the fallout universe

[paint-music-with-me]

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[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Somehow ended up relistening to TAZ Balance and its forcing me to acknowledge the fact that I am. Almost certainly going to rewatch the entirety of Crit Role campaign 1, despite the fact I'm literally on the final Vecna fight, both before I actually finish it and before watching the other new seasons hhshsjfjf