#im really nice to my blorbos what can i say :3

[silly-lil-scribbles]

dumb idea, but felt necessary

so heres my moots (some of them atleast) and what tmagp character i associate them with.

@styrofoamdoor colin. youre like an absent father. i refuse to elaborate.

@ngalu celia. generally pretty chill, kind, and every now and then youll just say something insane like it’s absolutely nothing.

@chouthechaoticraccoon gwen (post bonzo). on your own unrelated sideplot, overthinking everything, and most likely on the verge of a mental breakdown. put the coffee down. please.

@chaoticbuggybitchboy alice. really cool, definitely struggling in some way at all times, and you probably handle that with humor (me too friend). generally just fun to be around. on a side note, put the fanfic down. please. also, you have correct opinions on everything, i dont make the rules.

@jetstar2828 sam. idk why. vibes.

@sunflowerqueen333 i dont know that much about you but youre really nice, so im choosing celia :3

@princessofthesapphics sam. again, dont know you that well yet (unfortunate), but you remind me of sam. welcome to magpod posts btw, you can never leave. you should be expecting wayyyy too much talk about tma(gp) from me in the future :)

@fruityfroggyfelon lena. stressed. congratulations, you get the #1 blorbo and shes a complete mess. you either consume way too much caffeine, or youre just like that. nobody knows. you tend to appear from the void to yell about something, before disappearing yet again. silly <3

@raccoons-under-a-trenchcoat “chester”. i feel beheld. u seem like the kind of person to email me a random mans address completely unprompted and i love that for you.

@alley-brigade-productions colin. eye coded while simultaneously holding a grudge against the eye. no further explanation.

@humanteethmarksonhumanbone celia. if you said you wake up on train tracks next to an interdimensional hellportal, i would probably believe you. good friend, even if we dont talk much :>

@encryptidarchivist lena. question, how much sleep do you get, perchance? go drink some water. do it. like, right now.

sorry if these aren’t accurate, this was just for fun and if anything was insult adjacent just know i mean it lightheartedly, love you ^^

[wishhalcyon]

Do you want to read HALCYON?

do you like...FREE BOOK NO STRINGS ATTACHED?!!?!?!?

if so im posting it online! but its not going to be as cleanly edited as my other works.

i only have like, a few things id like to request, and its kind of on an honor system i'm not going to really get mad or upset if you don't do it, but its something really sweet you can do to help me as an author!

but first a description of the book!

book is: about a not nessisarily romantic but definitely bizzarely close feel free to read it however you want im not making anyone kiss project whatever you want onto them, story of a bunny girl superhero with a murder problem , and her wholesome supervillain bestie who wants nothing more than to save her, with fun themes such as found family , memory loss, and of course, miserable children, also the supervillain is a theater kid with a heart of gold and a cup of tea <3

a mix of silly and serious, I put a lot of my heart into it! And it would have been done sooner, but well i kind of got kidnapped so that kind of slowed down most of my writing and other projects for a bit there, it was only for an afternoon, no one got hurt, but it was kind of weird. it was a sort of well intentioned kidnapping though and the lady who did it is getting professional help now which is great, so im just happy she and everyone else is okay :)

I made this book wanting to make a fun world and characters and setting and stuff anyone could enjoy and find interesting, and I think the magic system in place in this lil superhero book (based somewhat on magical girl anime-) will be a fun setting for fanfics and fanart and stuff, and im SUPER excited to see if anyone makes ocs or anything for it because that'd be super cool and I love seeing other people be creative-

anyways onto the rules.

if you read it, please reblog where you found it and that i'm the author, and tell me what you thought!

im posting this online *because i want to interact with people and share what i made with others*, and celebrate other peoples craeativity too in line with that, I dont want to sue you for writing ANY fanfiction or fanart you write about my story, as long as none of you don't try to sue ME if i get inspired by them and or make fanart of them or things like that myself. I want to be an active participant in whatever fandom may or may not form around this, I want to have fun with you guys and enjoy my story WITH you guys. this means you also MAY have more control over how any future things with halcyon goes, and you may be able to help guide some decision making! But I still own halcyon it's not public domain- like i dont nessisarily expect or think i 'deserve' (though it would be so cool) a fandom like that over my book, but i think itd be neat and as someone who really heavily participates in fandom, I really want to be a part of it if i have my own. A lot of times I and other readers are VERY bothered that companies and authors dont litsen to their fans...but oftentimes they legally CANT or theyll get sued.

(Though I still get the final say in any decisions since...my book)

3. If you make anything related to it or post about it at all pretty please @ me, i WANNA SEE ALL OF IT please dont be shy, please ask questions, please say hi to me, Im posting this online because i wanna talk about my blorbos with you, @ing me is like, the reader tax- gimme your headcannons and weird cursed creations, idc if youre photoshopping Acianne into the backrooms ominously or posting about like, alternate universe where Ciero's a rabbit who's wildly daydreaming all of this up, or if youve decided to make thirst traps of hearts, go ahead, @ me, I wanna see it, if i suffer the cost so be it. Carve a watermelon to look like Cieros dad and throw it at the concrete, go splat. just go wild, have fun, just like, no hateful stuff and everyone be nice to each other.

4. im doing this partially with the thought that i could mostly make money off this via selling my own art of it and possibly a game based on halcyon...if so, then i may just post any future books online too, any thoughts guys? are these fair rules? any additions youd add? things like that? thoughts? I also have other books that I plan to publish more traditionally, This is kind of a test to see what works best really. I guess! If this takes off i might stick to free books only, if not, well publishing traditionally it is, whatever I need to do to get by you know? gotta make a living.

the biggest rule is just dont sue me please or pursue me legally im just trying to be a silly lil author who actually engages with their fandom and can get away with it i dont want to steal your stuff, i want to share headcannons with you guys and confirm or deny stuff and give you sneak peaks and PLEASE I JUST WANT TO READ FANFICTIONS WITHOUT BEING SUED IT WOULD MAKE ME SO HAPPY I LOVE FANFICTIONS LET ME FANDOM WITH YOU GUYS I DONT WANT TO BE SHADY PLEASE BY READING MY BOOK LETS JUST HAVE FUN PLEASE- CAN WE PRETTY PLEASE ???? FANFICTIONS ARE SUCH A VALUABLE AND EXCITING FORM OF LITERATURE- AND THEY MAKE ME SO HAPPY SO PRETTY PLEASE BE NICE THANKS

remember DONT RUIN IT FOR EVERYONE ELSE BY SUING ME FOR GIVING YOU SOMETHING TO ENJOY, if you want nice things, don't misuse the nice things!!!! okay? okay so everyone agrees to be nice?...okay then! enjoy!

Ciero/Darling says "Please enjoy chapter 1~"

PLEASE ENJOY CHAPTER ONE I PLAN TO POST THE OTHER CHAPTERS DONT WORRY IM NOT JUST DANGLING A WORM IM JUST TRYING TO EDIT IT AND THERES A LOT OF WORDS SO IT MAY TAKE A BIT OKAY- SO YOURE GETTING IT ONE CHAPTER AT A TIME

: ) enjoy! and tell me your thoughts please <3 all i ask in return for letting you have a free book is some validation and maybe sharing it iwth others if you want-

full book is about 49 almost 50k words :) so look forward to it! it's all written i'm just trying to clean them up with a rough edit through before posting them-

also sorry for emphasising dont sue me so much but im trying to cover myself as much as I can safely I REALLY love writing and my favorite part of it is engaging with my readers, but ive been scared of doing this for a while out of fear thanks to a lot of horror stories ive read online. so please dont be mean : (

[jaecantwrite]

fic writer interview!

tagged by @strawberriesinmoominvalley and @lottie1824 (thank you <33) im a little late now BUT we power through :D

How many works do you have on AO3?

14! which feels like a lot for me when i think about it but then i remember i write drabbles a lot and just post them without thinking. so. thatll do it lmao

What's your total AO3 word count?

33,177 :) the unfinished fics are screaming at me to let them make this bigger but here we are

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

The Big (Or Rather Little) Matter of Spoons (with @lottie1824) - 551

bring it home - 336

the more that you say, the less i know - 284

Can I love you? - 261

Fuck The School Run - 222

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i do! i love leaving comments on other writers' works and i love hearing what people have to say in response so i can only return the favour really. comments give me life :)

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

fate, belated - purely because its. major character death and i got told a couple times that it made people cry HAHA - a lot of the time i struggle to not end my fics happily because the blorbos just NEED to be happy okay i dont make the rules

i've written an ambiguous ending too but its more hopeful than anything so... yeah. see? still cant make it that sad HAHA gotta rely on mcd

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

come one, come all, his blender's whirring again - maybe im biased and am just happy with my metaphor work in this fic but. its pretty happy at the end. if not this then bring it home tbh

Do you write crossovers?

im only active in one fandom right now, so no i havent/dont 😅

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not that im aware of and i hope it stays that way <3

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i tried. once. and ive avoided it ever since HAHA

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i dont believe so! i hope not anyway

Have you ever had a fic translated?

again, not that im aware of

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i have! i wrote The Big (Or Rather Little) Matter of Spoons with @lottie1824 🧡 just one long string of discord messages lmaoo

What's your all-time favourite ship?

Lando Norris/Oscar Piastri

shocker really isnt it

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

say hello to my published friends the more that you say, the less i know and You Belong With Me - i WILL finish them one day because i think it would be a disservice to myself if i didnt but. yeah. theyre not going too hot

then theres the countless other wips i have stashed away in my notes but thats for another day

What are your writing strengths?

i have been informed on multiple occasions that i write descriptions well, so like setting, character features, that sorta jazz. honestly writing a setting description is probably one of my favourite parts of writing because its so easy to stick little metaphors in everywhere

What are your writing weaknesses?

dialogue. dont think i need to say more. i hate it, it hates me. we have a working relationship

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i think its nice, ive done it a couple times with the odd word or two. i understand the frustration of needing to go look up a full sentence maybe if theres no easy translation but overall i defintely think it makes the fica feel more authentic

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

formula 1 😭 im just a baby

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

see THIS is a tough question because i basically only write landoscar. ummmm

aside from the pairings that are going to be in Roots (my main wip) i think writing Ollie/Kimi would be fun. theyre very cute. maybe Piarles too. idk

What's your favourite fic you've written?

it was come one, come all, his blender's whirring again for a long time but now i think it's bring it home - but also a special shoutout to stepping on the last train

(it'll probably be Roots when i finally release it anyway so. looking forward to that day in a century's time)

this was very enjoyable to do 💖

no pressure tag to @pumpkennpie and anyone else who wants to have a go ! <3

[recentadultburnout]

bad buddy fandom getting-to-know-you-meme!

Got tagged by @telomeke at this post here. Thanks!!

name and whatever you want to share about yourself

You can call me Radish if you want. My @ of this blog is something I randomly put in without much thought, and now I have too many links to change it (I hear that if I change the @, all the links would be gone. I never tested it, but the risk is there, and I don't hate my @ yet so ¯_(ツ)_/¯) Reading is my soul-consuming hobby since I can read. Recently, I have gotten into writing fanfic, and while it is not the best and I would still prefer someone else to write it, there is a weird satisfaction in reading a story that goes exactly as you think.

when did you watch bad buddy/join the fandom?

I have been very excited since it was announced. I'm Nanon's fan from The Gifted, and to see him suddenly accept a BL role is a big, pleasant surprise. Bad Buddy is probably the first thing I've watched live in years, and it's also the first thing I've rewatched even before it ended. The first (and only) thing that got me to watch the reaction clip too. I've been hooked since the first episode. Each small expression Pran makes has me in chokehold.

Favourite ship/s

PatPran

Favourite character/s

Pran. I love all the characters, but Pran is my baby. My cute little blorbo💕💕💕💕

Favourite episode/s

I feel like my answer changes each day. Let's say Ep. 3 for today. PatPran sneaking around is cute, the comedy is exactly to my test, and Pran's face that shows in this episode is doing something to my heart.

Favourite scene/s

The scene that I feel is most memorable is the one after the music contest. Yes, the "ma ni di" scene—I don't think I have to tell you why.

The first time I see the rooftop scene, I don't know what I feel. After that scene, I felt like crying. It's an impactful scene for sure.

The scene where Pat and Pran go to market together is definitely one of my fav.

I love Pran's face in the scene where he gets ขนมจีบ(Dumplings?) and a note from his mystery admirer. I keep rewatching that.

Every lighthearted moment between Pran and Wai. I do think Pran shouldn't let Wai get away from being a bad friend, but other than that, I love them together.

The ending scene felt extremely nice.

basically every scenes

One thing you would change about the show if you could

I would like to know more about Pran and Wai's relationship. Nanon said that for him, it makes sense that Pran would be that pushover (?) when it's Wai, and I really want that piece of information.

what are your some of your favorite fanworks made by other people?

I'm grateful for anyone who makes any type of fanwork, but my favorite type of fanwork is definitely fanfic. I think "When did all my friends become so loud?" by fangurks is my fav bbs fic.

Do we count the reaction from ศูนย์วิจารณ์(Soon Vijan) as fanwork or official?

What are your favourite fanworks you've made?

The only piece that is specifically for bbs fandom is my name's meaning(with some extra info) post here. It's the only one, so it's automatically my favorite.

A song that makes you think of BBS (not in the show)

คู่กัด(rival) by Bird Thongchai

It's about two people who keep fighting about everything, and while they know that both parties care about each other and that the thing they fight over is just a small matter, they still want to win.

Very PatPran

เขียวกับแดง(Green and Red) by TaitosmitH

Red and green are OhmNanon fandom colors, and they did sing this song at an event or smt. I've now associated it with bbs fandom.

อย่าทำอย่างนี้ไม่ว่ากับใคร(Don't do this to anyone.) by Bird Thongchai (im Bird's fan, sue me)

a song about one-sided love that the one who has the feeling knows (thinks?) the other doesn't reciprocate but feels like if other people get treated like this they will probably misunderstand that the feeling is mutual and so they tell their crush not to treat someone who they don't like like that.

It's not that in line with PatPran's story, but I feel like Pran probably vibed with it before Pat cleared things up between them.

B Team by Marianas Trench

solely because of this edit below. Before this, I exclusively listened to the Nightcore ver lol. I discovered this song in my Nightcore and Vocaloid era, and I left it there until now.

Onward tagging:

I don't know who to tag lol. Anyone passes by and feels up to it, I guess.

[ihatedean]

If you still want to do that ask game - 5, 9, 16

im always down for ask games :D

5. what made you start your blog?

dadrockenjoyer's influence frfr....

though really i was watching s12 and the show had gotten SO bad i needed an outlet to complain about it<3 the friend that got me into the show was stuck in S10(i think?) and i didn't want to spoil her. also i knew jack was coming and really wanted to document the progress of me falling in love w him

i was (and still am, a little bit) intimidated by the history of the wincest fandom and how talented everyone was. I'm used to small ships and that "built this from nothing" feeling that comes with making stuff for blorbos only 5 other people care about, so i didn't think whatever i could contribute with would be relevant in any way. as in. i didn't create this blog with a "oh i'll share all the stuff i've been working on with like-minded people! :D" mindset it was more an "i hate this so much but im obsessed with it so I can't let it rot inside"

(also my f1 blog has a completely different vibe compared to this one. this blog is kind of like my main where i dump everything + the 2014 "grunge" aesthetic blog i always dreamed of)

9. tell a story about your childhood

i don't really remember a lot of my childhood:3 mostly bad stuff.

also afaik i was a boringgg kid. i lived in a second floor in a neighborhood full of old people!! no backyard!! and i was too anxious to go out on the street to play and have something interesting happen to me lmao. most of my childhood consists of eating chalk and playing on the ps2

16. if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

physically? the shape of my face<3 round face + double chin is like my one and only insecurity i wish i could do something about. many parts of my face are so small that compared with these huge cheeks i've got i think i look a lil funny.

and like personality or whatever i wish i could keep the yapping to regular levels. im either oversharing like crazy or disappearing for three days:/ which is not a nice way to treat people. i try to avoid my phone when im manic because i can say SO much shit I'll regret. im also uhhh a bit of a bitch. i can get really really mean for absolutely no reason other than like a mild disagreement.

fun questions!!

[gaymars97]

least and most favorite vh to play

Ooo nice one!

Borderlands 1: I mean. I cant really tell cause so far i’ve only played as Lilith (and havent even finished the game-). She’s really fun to play as though. Phasewalk is really fun wether it’s to get outta messy situations or just go fast asf boi. Also i love all the elemental she’s dealing. Burn baby burn!! <- /ref

Borderlands 2:

Least: I swear to god i love him but I have a hard time playing as Axton. It’s not that i purely hate playing as him I just… don’t really understand HOW to play as him. Which is really a bummer cause i love his voicelines he’s such a fucking dork 💜

Most: Been a Maya main for 9 years now. Because the fact that im bad at vidya games is masked by all the elemental I’m dealing I suppose. Cause who needs strategy when I can have cloud kill? Of course the fact that she’s THE blorbo also really helps. Krieg is also really fun to play as, he allows me to go apeshit as I play. I sincerely do not wish you to have to deal with me while I’m playing as Krieg cause I WILL be shouting the whole time.

Borderlands: TPS

Least: I don’t know honestly? I guess Nisha and Wilhelm since they’re the characters i played as the least so I haven’t really had the time yet to have a fully based opinion on them. I apologize I don’t really have much else to say-

Most: I’d say Claptrap honestly. The pure chaos of playing as him makes the game even more entertaining. VH.EXE is really fun. I haven’t learned to predict it yet and I frankly don’t intend to, it’s more fun that way.

Borderlands 3

Least: Huhhhh maybe Zane but kinda like TPS it’s only cause I haven’t played as him in a WHILE so I lowk forgot how to play him. Point. Though both my dad and my sister love to play as him and he seems real nice to play as. Also his dialogue is hilarious!

Most: Amara, without a doubt. I mean, she’s basically the combination of everything I love in a playable character: melee fighting, tanky, elementalist and I love her arm/hand puns so much! The orb (phaseflare) is also really fun to use. I have a lvl 72 Amara save and she does WONDERS with a hellwalker. Honestly? In ALL the playable characters in the ENTIRE franchise, she’s probably my fave to play as. She’s also really lovable as a character <3

So in conclusion? I tend to be a sucker for playing as sirens. I mean what’s the point of playing if i can’t inflict multiple elemental types upon an enemy at once? It’s also why i love the boomacorn so much <3

Thanks for the ask op!

[yandereshingeki]

omggg so i was in the middle of making a pizza and i realized that im now able to come and say hi :> hiii forest ! thank u sm for all of ur compliments on my drawings on aleks' prev blog <3 ive just checked ur art tag and omgggg ure amazing at drawing im speechless ! for how long have u been drawing ? and which are ur fav and least fav things to draw? im v curious but u can answer those questions only if u feel like it <3 just wanted to thank u for being nice overall !

HI CANNIBAL ANON!! I am so sorry this took so long to respond to, you sent it just as I was heading out for work and I wanted to wait to answer it so here i am!!

You’re absolutely welcome, all of your drawings are absolutely adorable!! You’re so talented, I love seeing all the little doodles you do!! And you and lunita are so cute 😭😭 I could cry

And thank YOU for enjoying my art!! :,) I’m comfy with answering anything so dw!!!

I’ve been drawing for as long as I can remember, but if we’re being specific I’m pretty sure I started taking art more “seriously” around the age of 5 (that was when I looked at tutorials and started drawing a lot more! I actually still have the first notebook I started to draw in, and i have almost every sketchbook I’ve drawn in saved so I could probably go back and watch myself progress if i wanted to ejdhwkehka)

personally I also really love to draw bodies!! I love drawing all the lines and details in the skin & figuring out the way that the body looks when it bends and twists certain ways! I love studying muscles & bones to try and improve too, its my favorite part about drawing agahsjshea (if we’re taking about a favorite thing to draw tho, I absolutely love drawing my blorbos… especially eren, hes so easy for me to draw)

i’d say my least favorite thing would be clothes, because even though i enjoy it sometimes, clothing is sooo hard for me to figure out ;; not just for drawing, but also figuring out what to make a character wear?? I’d rather just keep them naked tbh but thats not always possible 😭😭

And let me say thank you to you again!! I was honestly so surprised seeing you follow me sjegajveksje im honored 😭😭 🫶 Appreciate you sm cannibal!!

[uriekukistan]

I can’t believe u gave me a 2 😦 but real I’d say 2 too, I think that might be my baseline tbh, I’m scared of everyone 😭

But no yea I was also so intimidated of you at first and when we became mutuals I was like????¿¿¿ bc when I read Dancing With a Stranger it was just like everything to me u don’t understand. It’s like someone entered into my brain and looked at my memories and like created a fic of my blorbos made just for me. And like it renewed my feelings about dancing bc before reading it I just didn’t do it much anymore bc I had so many negative feelings attached to it (I think if you’re basing the fic off personal experience you might get what I mean :P). But bc of the fic I kinda associate it with more positive thoughts now (like getting itafushi together >:( ) (I am probably a little too obsessed over some 2D characters but oh well we are both on tumblr so)

But anyway it just started there but I love all your writing (even though it causes me literal pain sometimes but yknow 😓).

This got kinda long eh….. Pls don’t feel pressured to answer this ask if you don’t want to, I just wanna say how much I appreciate your work!

LIZ <33333

UR SO KIND TO ME I DONT DESERVE U FR

pls i was so intimidated when u started following me & interacting w my fics bc a) cool good artist and b) i had like just started writing and publishing fics again after like 5 years so i really wasnt expecting so much positive feedback, so i was all :&@/$:@2@/$/0:&/@@:@9$!???!&/@/“ when you showed up. genuinely i never expected such nice things to be said abt my work, and definitely with so much attention to everything 😭😭 i was kinda overwhelmed (in a good way!!) and a bit worried the rest of the fic (or any of my other fics) wouldn’t live up to all the praise you left in your first comment 😭😭😭😭😭😭 so yeah i was a bit intimidated bc of that skjskd but im glad i can feel comfortable talking with you now, i hope you can feel the same

anyway im so glad you’ve been enjoying my writing, i’ll keep doing my best to write decent things 🫡 your support really means so much to me, you’ll never know <3

(and yeah a lot of dancing with a stranger is from my experience, sksjks i ended up switching into hip hop because ballet left me with so many negative thoughts. but that fic is kinda one big rin lore drop if u read into it enough…)

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

I vibe with hyperfixating w/ characters. To varying degrees I’ve fixated on: Armin from AOT for a while, 1D had a DEATH GRIP on me for a few years, (SEVEAL book characters through my teen years)I had an Alucard from castlevania fixation for maybe 3 ish years (‘ending’ only recently) and now Hobes lives in my head rent free ngl.

I get the “being sad cuz you can’t meet them” part, I’ve felt it. I try to not daydream TOO much cuz otherwise it takes over my life and I’m doing a considerable effort to live OUT of my own head, but BOI do I LOVE just daydreaming about my blorbos of choice.

I don’t speak too much about it (mostly the daydreaming) cuz to an extent it feels like a “me thing” (like something I don’t wanna share with anyone cuz it’s special to me), but if given the chance I DO info dump on my fixations.

I don’t think it’s cringe, not at all. These things are stuff that helps us process the world and our experiences with it. I believe everyone has sensitive weird shit that they don’t talk about, but if there’s something Ive learned is that we hardly ever have completely unique experiences. Most people just hide their oddness. Fandom being a prime example of how much our blorbos can mean to us. I think it’s okay and normal. (Until it goes overboard and people send idk violent messages to others because they headcanon something differently idk, the unreasonable stuff imo)

Can’t believe our of everything people would dare to make JOY and INTEREST the things with negative connotations. Being mean should be cringe, being a bully should be embarrassing. But unashamedly enjoying stuff?? That’s wonderful.

Anyone too embarrassed of their own vulnerability that they deal with it by making others feel bad about their interests are the most immature out if all of us.

Joy is everything that’s good with the world.

Even just seeing the letter 1D makes me wanna scream (in a good way!!) cause it takes me back to high school lol 1D was a bit older than me so my grade had Mindless Behaviour (does anyone remember them, where they even popular) but I remember the days where 1D was like the definition of summer songs

And I can totally understand the 'me thing'. Like I never really spoke about it but I felt like I knew my daydreams were more substantial or vivid than the 'average person' so to say.

Or when I spoke about characters to other people, I understood that neurotypicals likes characters, but they often didn't see them as fully formed 'persons' in the way I do - as to say, they didn't speculate or see emotional backstory, connections, or their behavior the way I did.

I never really shared any of my daydreams because like - I can't even get into it that's like asking someone to explain Star Wars to someone who doesn't even know space travel exists.

I grew up in a time on the internet where self-inserts and OC were seen as cringe, and someone would be very quick to call out 'Mary-Sue's (or flawless OCs) whenever they could.

It's not like that now - but in juxtaposition to canon x canon shipping, that bias is still there I feel like. Like it, as a work of fandom art has less 'value' that art or fics of canon only characters

It kinda bums me out still.

I think OC and daydreams and self-indulgent inserts are all the best part of fandom because it's the purest way of fans connecting with content on a personal level.

I'm happy that I see more people pushing back on that lately. Like after years of seeing people viciously hate furries when most of them seem like very nice, fun people, it's refreshing for people to be like 'nah, actually this thing is cool. and im gonna spend of time and/or money on this thing cause i makes me happy;

like you remember when the new Star Wars movie trailers came out and that dude reacted to it and he was moved to tears and people made fun of him??

yeah fuck everyone else that dude knows whats up.

Like yes, openly cry to your faves. Fantasize deep meaningful daydreams that help you process your feelings. Draw your OC with them, or learn every single thing their is to know about them.

That's why I wanted to talk about this. Because I've never heard it spoken about before. Maladaptive daydreaming, yes - and that can be harmful. But I hardly ever hear people talk about the basic mundane experience of it - or even how it can enrich our lives and help us emotionally develop of neurodivergent people.

When I think of it that way, it's something that makes me happy. I don't think I'll ever be able to describe it fully, and that's the point. Our stories are private to us, not because theyre embarrassing, but because they're so us that to even describe it would like describing a new world top to bottom

I love it. It's what makes humans humans.

[trickstarbrave]

20 Questions for Writers

i got tagged by @throughtrialbyfire !!! idk who wants to be tagged though so if you see it. you can do it too :]

ill also answer under a read more

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

24!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

572,669. i have a disease that makes me incapable of shutting up

3. What fandoms do you write for?

i write for TES right now tbh but i've also written for yugioh and fire emblem three houses

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Consequences (fe3h) 1,483 Our Den (fe3h) 1,244 The Secrets We Share to Those We Love (MHA) 946 The World Eater's Eyrie (skyrim) 666 (LMAOOOOO nice) Alduin's Bane (skyrim) 569 (also nice)

5. Do you respond to comments?

god i try to. i love getting comments i just sometimes dont know what to say. i try to stay on top of reading them and responding if i can. if i havent replied to ur comment. i am stupid.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

most of my fics dont have endings tbh. i have either never finished them or they are just nice little one shots. however Siblings (fe3h) with twin byleths where one kills the other was pretty angsty ngl

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

uhhhhhh this is a problem yet again where most of mine are just happy little one shots or are unfinished. but i think To Walk the World with You Again (morrowind) is very happy. it hurts a lot in the beginning but ends with a happy loving reunion :>

8. Do you get hate on fics?

the closest i got was someone saying on Consequences (fe3h) that it shouldnt be tagged as M/M and instead M/F bc byleth was trans but other ppl ripped into them. i havent gotten rly terrible hate since fanfiction.net

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

all the time. i think i am primarily a smut author if im being honest. i just wanna watch my blorbos bone. as for what kind uhhhhh theres multiple kinds????

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i dont think i have. i am just boring tbh

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

again not that i know of but if anyone wants to i wouldnt be against it

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

YES the cannibal au for 5ds with my lil bro. i still think abt that au all the time tbh. it was angsty. it was dramatic. it was complicated. it was filled with hard moral dilemmas and gods with non-human morality and a lot of mythology shit. sad we never finished it tbh but life was getting hectic.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

i dont know. rn i think its nerevoryn but trickstarshipping (where i got my url namesake from) still holds a special place in my heart <3)

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Ghosts of the Past (svsss). i really do like the story and had a bunch of it planned out mentally. qinghua's father was going to disown him when qinghua was going to tell him he was dating mobei and refused to hear qinghua out, there was gonna be drama with qinghua's family too where his dad says he firmly believes qinghua is actually the son of his identical twin brother who had an affair with qinghua's mother (his father was already cheating on his mom and she was wrong to do that, but no he is in fact the child of his bio-dad even being disowned). they then spend a summer vacation living together getting an apartment, go visit his uncle, and qinghua learns to enjoy his creative passions while finishing his degree with mobei and shen yuan's help, etc etc

the ending was going to be at a christmas party where qinghua's father catches a glimpse of qinghua at a company party. his wife (qinghua's former step-mother and the revealed mother of qinghua's half siblings rather than step siblings like qinghua grew up believing) thinks hes here to crash the party only for them to see he's there as mobei's boyfriend. his dad then tries to get in good with mobei who just brushes him off with "ah right, i know you. you're qinghua's uncle (since he refused to believe he is actually qinghua's father and it must be his twin brother he resented for being artistic and sensitive). i didnt think you were that close, why are you bothering me?"

qinghua goes on to be an accountant at the company, pretty high up too, and his father ends up quitting out of embarrassment and mobei being especially hard on him once he takes over for the company. he also continues to write his trashy novel while he and mobei plan to get married.

but tbh. i have morrowind brainworms. idk if i will ever finish it. sucks that one of the few stories i had all planned out with cdrama levels of bullshit i was really looking forward to going ham on i lost my motivation for when my hyperfixation changed.

i also wanna finish alduin's bane. i have a lot planned for that i could also spend an insane amount of time explaining. im hoping that the motivation for that one comes back though rather than me simply saying i probably wont finish it

16. What are your writing strengths?

i dont know 🧍‍♂️ if anyone wants to tell me i would appreciate it. i think it is like. i am primarily a romance author so i like working on dialogue, character interaction, stuff like that. ive also gotten compliments on my world building but idk if thats just my ideas or how i write them into the world.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i feel like i struggle with pacing and motivation. as well as stuff like war tactics and full on battles. again i write mostly romance i dont know why i torture myself with stories about war

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

its very hard. ive seen ppl do it well but i find it difficult to read bc i am stupid. even with notes and flicking back and forth i feel like its a struggle to understand even if the goal was to obfuscate the meaning from the audience as well. usually i just do another language in bold font and make it clear the characters are speaking another language. but honestly do whatever you want forever

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i think it was in fact yugioh. i had ocs and daydreamed up storylines but i dont think i really sat down to write a fic until i was 12-13 and was writing a tendershipping fic in one of my notebooks at school lol

20. Favorite fic you've written?

tie between Alduin's Bane and Moon and Star. i love my long ass TES fics where i just go ham and play around with the world building and mythology. its a lot of fun and i feel like ive gotten to be very creative in the setting and make something unique and fun with the storylines given in both skyrim and morrowind

thanks for the tag <3 this was a lot of fun and thank u for reading if you did

[actuallyitsstar]

Top Gun for the fandom ask game?

✨ send me a fandom and i'll answer with the following!

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

↣ maverick! this is kind of a given i suppose. but he's my blorbo alright. i have 193748458 thoughts abt him Every Single Day Unfortunately and every other fic and gifset/edit idea i have typically winds up including him somehow lol

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

↣ this one was really stumping me for a while bc idk tbh but if i am very real it's probably also maverick 😭 when will i stop being predictable lmao aaaaa. my second choice for this spot is bradley and this is why i struggled so much to pick an answer lol

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

↣ phoenix !!!! phoenix is my girl !!! my beloved !!! i want her to have everything nice. i want her to smack everyone else upside the head with a bat for being stupid. but she shouldnt have to bc theyre all adults and she is their peer and not their mom and i do actually rly respect how tgm treats her as the same as the others and doesn't dress her in weird skimpy outfits on the beach or have her lifting hella emotional baggage for the men or etc. she is so smart and capable and straightforward and determined and i love her <3 the near-tie for this spot is slider. i love slider. he has such a Vibe . takes no shit but he won't let YOU take shit either. we stan a man.

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

↣ tbh? viper. idk what it is about him. He is So Yes. I want to Know More About Him. i want to know how well he knew duke mitchell. i want to know if he stayed up nights feeling responsible for that because duke died saving him, among others. i want to know how long it took for him to move past it or if he ever did. i want him to talk to maverick about this commonality they have and not say stupid shit like 'there will be others' bc shut the fuck up akdhjdjkfhfgj but yeah idk. need to write abt him sometime for sure <3 my second choice for this is carole because she has like maybe an aggregated minute of time on screen and owns my wholeass heart somehow anyway. i want her to have only nice things and happiness and she doesn't get a lot of credit but she's so kind and capable and determined and i stan her tbh

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

↣ unpopular no, problematic yes: hangman. he's controversial. he's pathetic. he's an asshole. he's incorrigible. he's everyone's favorite bitch. what can i say. i want to undo him like a clock and take out all the gears and find out how he works. i cant fix him but i CAN make him worse. and one of these days i will. (ok ok AND ill try to fix him too i guess. if i must).

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

↣ this is hangman again unfortunately. and also mav. and also bradley. alkdhjfkfhfkjgh i am a goblin

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)

↣ sorry cyclone im sure ur secretly a big softy but u are going to have to go down the superhell pipe this time <3

[tervaneula]

honestly i was thinking abt the differences between nqk and hey darling and some of them are just. so funny. your big leo is a wet towel of a man, mine just bottles shit up like hes gonna die if he doesnt do it properly. or like...a grocery store worker whos been bagging groceries for ten years. and yours is so Tightly Focused on leo but mine is like...its kinda funny bc mine is still focused on cerulean (for the moment ;) dw blue and the others will get their moment REAL soon cerul is just about to make his way to recovery which means we can shift focus hehe) but i show how hes feeling and whats going on through his interactions i guess? because its his environment thats affecting him, for me. and also yours is just continually downhill mine is like its fine im fine hahahaahaha :))))) until he finally breaks tf down lmao. what they DO have in common is that when they break they seal with gold; both of them heal only after they fall apart. also your little leo is SO much more well adjusted than mine i think. after 8 blue is gonna have a Time Of It that really highlights how age and experience can allow you to stand and keep walking a lot more easily and how teenagers kind of cling onto things in ways they dont need to (<says the teenager. BUT ive been TOLD that. overall blues everything is gonna be sooo much fun bc finally! the one thats my age!!! hehehe)

EYYY HOW ARE YOU SO GLAD TO SEE YOU IN MY ASKBOX AGAIN <3

Although I'm really very sorry because my English reading comprehension has sucked for a while now and I can't digest this as well as it deserves (sobs)

One thing I can give my input for is that YES my little Leo is pretty well-adjusted. I don't know if the movie happened in Hey darling (giving Blue the nice trip to the prison dimension and all the associated trauma?) but my Leo only has the collective trauma of Karai's death and Shredder destroying their old lair etc. so while he's grown thanks to those things, he's still more of a little shit than what the canon Leo would be lmao. Very happy to hear that Blue will get the spotlight in your fic >:)))

I will give you a little spoiler for the next chapter of NQK: Leonardo and Leo have a little talk and it might involve some tears. I've been sitting on the draft for that interaction for WEEKS and oh boyyyy I'll be so happy once I get it structured and properly written out, it's a conversation that's been a long time coming!!

Oh oh oh also I want Leonardo and Cerulean to hug can they hug please (no one could've guessed this but I love blorbo hugs. especially if they're middle-aged sad turtle men)

[monstershowdowns]

What kind of monster OCs do you have? How many? Are they based on anything specific? And which would be most susceptible to a treat and bellyrubs?

A LOOOOT of my OCs actually either have monstrous features or are monsters/supernatural creatures themselves! Which means there's a LOT of monster blorbos around!

Im going to give some honor mentions to Locutor, Desfigura, Raveras and little Anima here. Locutor is a narrator of stories, based around old radio hosts, the fear of the dark and eldritch horrors. He's the oldest brother of his adoptive family, and altho he often finds trouble with other creatures behind our comprehesion (read: he seduces them. And then steal something from them), he really cares about his little siblings and adoptive father. He's my special guy, my little guy, and I love writing him because he LOVES to scare the reader.

Desfigura is based around horror videogame bosses/that one horror character that always follows the player and appears at the worst possible moments, the color red, and the fear of never being able to rest. She's the leader of a place called EntreCaminhos, an eldritch abomination, a mother of seven kids she found on a trashcan, the woman who turns people into monsters (literally) and also a painter. She's very intimidating to everyone outside, tho.

Raveras is from a romcom I'm writing! He's a 3 meter tall demon who has been locked away in a prison for +-30 years. He has no eyes. He still can see. There's a hole in his chest. Literally. He has no idea how the internet works. He was the leader of a cult. He protects other monsters from humans. He's on a reluctant allies to lovers arc with a parasite made of strings. He's a himbo. He's the worst thing to ever happen. He's based on the fear of not having a home to return to. He could bite my head off.

Little Anima is a 13 year old kid found in the trashcan by the Boogeyman. She lives in a society of monsters called Aprestos and has literally no idea what she's supposed to be, except that she may be a cosmic anomaly – which is a fancy way of saying "we have no idea what you are sorry". People who don't know her think she's a villain in training. Anima has the mannerisms of a villain, yes, but she's just a weird kid who says "I hope the next 24 hours of your life are nice" and ACTUALLY means it without realising it sounds like a threat. Also, she has a really bad and scary aura – good thing she can suppress it! She's based on fish, birds, and being a weird 13 year old human girl.

Out of all of them, Anima is the one who would say "NO!!!" to bellyrubs, but if you scratch her head she will fall asleep and purr. She would make you promise to never talk about it again, tho! She also would always accept a treat.

.... Raveras would immediately collapse if given a bellyrub. Guy needs the rest! He doesn't trust treats, tho.

The only one who can make Desfigura accept a treat or a bellyrub is Sofia, unfortunately. And you would NOT want to gige either of that to Locutor!

[throwaway-yandere]

Otome anon again ❤️ thanks for the reply! I'm quite happy about it. And yeah I'm a little late to your works bc of school so there's a bunch of works that I need to catch up on 😭 Really hoping we get a small break soon. From the looks of it, your newer works are gonna be WILD 😳 I mostly got introduced to your blog bc of your Alhaitham and Tighnari fics: Vision Qualifications and Creative Differences. I was particularly very interested in how you portrayed Tighnari in CD and adored the way reader being a writer was portrayed.

And yes! It's a game that will be downloadable and I've been learning a bit of renpy to achieve this. It's surprisingly simpler than I imagined. All the tutorials are helpful and the folks in the renpy server are very nice 👌 So far routes aren't 100% finalised but I will say that there ARE secret routes that you can unlock if you choose the right options 🤭

I'm thinking of trying to make a survey to decide some routes but I'm not overly sure what to put on it.

Thanks for all the support!!

"your newer works are gonna be WILD 😳"

??? wdym, after the last 4 fics ive written im being incredibly merciful rn in the secret pen pal event lol.

I mostly got introduced to your blog bc of your Alhaitham and Tighnari fics: Vision Qualifications and Creative Differences. I was particularly very interested in how you portrayed Tighnari in CD and adored the way reader being a writer was portrayed.

you guys are free to hate me for this: but those two fics are my least liked fics i've written hAHAHAHAH. not enough spice for me. not enough violence or dubious "food". i still question why people wanted part 2 on that tighnari fic when for me it was the blandest story i've written i am SORRY it just IS for me ya know what I mean it's just BLAND NO SPICES NO FLAVOR- i wrote about cannibalism, a dragon diety!reader, and a bunch of weird things, my small brain does not calculate why these two has more attention than the ones I actually use my brain for hAHHAHAHAHA- (like seriously, both those fics had little research whatsoever while I'm pulling out sht like Japanese & Filipino mythology, KPop culture, and fricking Abraham Lincoln's biography (no joke.) on other fics hjdasjas)

All the tutorials are helpful

my dumbass who spent hours tryna figure out how to remove the dialogue box for a CG scene: haha yeah g-good for you...

I'm thinking of trying to make a survey to decide some routes but I'm not overly sure what to put on it.

as a dain simp you know who i'd vote for so if you don't want a biased poll don't let me find that survey hAHAHAHAH

considering that you like otome games, I'm recommending this one: "I Got Reincarnated As A Server NPC In An Otome Game But A Capture Target Won’t Leave Me Alone". Don't be discouraged by that title, it's not a comedy LN at all. It contains violence and a mentally deranged cold duke of the south diluc lol. my fave blorbo.

O Capo! My Capo! can be a pretty grim series considering how I was inspired to write it because of a bad ending in an otome game fandisc. There are major character deaths (and it's 100% the readers' fault when an LI dies because of votes), mentions of drug abuse, etc. But if you like Piofiore perhaps you'd appreciate it too. Capo!reader is basically "what if Lilia had Dante's occupation and Gilbert's charisma-- oh and I guess your Nicola is Alhaitham for some reason" lmao.

ps: i think i saw you posting a question on r/otome_games about how to make the MC's personality. i agree with the majority that, honestly, you should just go wild lmao. make MC have some fighting spirit. the bar is low--

in any case, I wish you luck!!! have fun coding the game <3

[enochianghost]

@dragonwithafez tagged me in a self-rec tag game, so i guess i gotta show off my own art here now

Rules: Share five of your own fanworks (fic, art, etc.). Then, tag five more people to share the things they've made.

we might be stretching the definition of "fanworks" here just a heads up

Something you absolutely adore

i still absolutely love how this picture of my two ocs turned out. i just think it looks nice. my boys look so happy <3 (they're from Turning to Savagery which I'm about to rec later on this post lol)

Something that was challenging to create

can my entire pokemon blog count? I drew literally every single pokemon, using the pokedex as a guide. this was honestly so tiring and i hated it a lot the time, but also im so happy i did it. it really forced me to practice drawing a lot of things i otherwise never would've even tried, and it also just got me into the habit of making art all the time, so during hiatuses i end up working on my own stuff a lot more. plus i really love getting the occasional note from someone excited to see that someone finally draw fanart of their favorite niche pokemon :)

i can't believe i've really drawn over a thousand pokemon at this point. what a weird accomplishment lol

Something that makes you laugh (or smile, if that fits more comfortably)

this picture of chip the beanie baby. it makes me smile because i love my irl chip beanie baby so much <3 also i've gotten some comments on it saying how much they love chip too and it makes me so happy! my precious boy deserves all the love in the world

Something that surprised you (in how it turned out, how much other people liked it, etc.)

uh...idk...the fact that out of all the pokemon, starmie's post was the one to get the most notes on my pokemon blog?? why do y'all like starmie so much

Something you want other people to see

please go read my warriorcats fanfic Turning to Savagery. I worked really hard on it. also i want more ppl to know who my blorbos are

okay, as always when i tag ppl, you can just ignore me if you don't wanna do this. i won't be offended i pinky promise. also you can do this anyway and say i tagged you. if you're reading this rn congrats you're officially tagged by me. show me your art, i demand it

@bougonia @henriediosa @nothing-is-relevent-but-it-is @ashestosparks @enderblogs-23

and last plug, but if you like my art and actually wanna keep up with it, i suggest following me on deviantart. or instagram i guess but i post less often on there. or just @pokemon-every-day if all you care about is my pokemon fanart. okay im done goodbye i love you

[turnabout-sunflowers]

I’m late as FUCK but I also took a look through your dgs liveblog tag and WHOOH. Congrats on finishing such a life altering game 🥺

What did you think of the game? Any favorite characters? Any ships? And I also happen to talk wayyy too much about this game so if you ever need to yell or scream incoherently my dms are always open! I WILL yell back

Also I am legally obligated to ask what you think of susato. Thank you, and have a nice day/night :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! Hope you enjoyed <3 YEAH IT SURE IS LIFE ALTERING OUOUUGGHHH

I'm tentative about talking one on one with people before i really know them just because I am a very awkward and socially anxious person and tend to warm up to people easier in group settings-- however!! i'd love to chat with you! you seem cool i'm just a lil guy who needs to be approached slowly like one would approach a wild cat therefore if you ever wanna chat at me through asks and stuff i love talking to people that way so i'm always down to hear your thoughts or if you ever wanna ask me more stuff <3

WHICH. THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME QUESTIONS BTW. I LOVE QUESTIONS. I LOVE ANSWERING THINGS AND GIVING LONG RAMBLING ANSWERS. IM GONNA GIVE YOU LONG RAMBLING ANSWERS NOW

1] What did you think of the game? I LOVE IT IT'S ONE OF MY TOP TOP FAVOURITE GAMES OF ALL TIME???? IT'S. IT'S. Okay what you need to know about me is 1) I LOVE extremely linear plot-heavy games. I have somehow never played a visual novel before ace attorney despite the type of game I would most enjoy being the ones you're basically just reading instead of playing. 2) I have been super interested in murder mysteries ever since I was very young but NEVER found anything that I felt I could get into before finding ace attorney. mainline AA already filled so many niches there but DGS just completes something in my soul. that's my house. that's my home. i live there. I love it SO much it's so perfect it's everything I've ever wanted in a game, being able to put things together and figure things out as I was playing was SOOOO fun and it was SOOOO . just. GOOD. HJOUOUOUUOGGHH.

2] Any favourite characters? IS IT . CAN I SAY ALL OF THEM??? HFJDKFKD. I have several friends who are still playing DGS and every time they get to literally any character I'm like "that's my blorbo ":3" every time. to all of them. I love all of them they're all my beloved family you couldn't possibly make me choose. Anyway it's Kazuma my favourite is kazuma. JKFDHDFKJKGJFE. Like yes I love all of them completely equally and this is the complete and utter truth however I have been so emotionally attached to Kazuma since several months before I ever even touched the game. I have openly cried on the couch in the dead of night over Kazuma several times. Before I touched the game. I'm dead serious. He means a lot to me <3 However everyone else is an honorable mention and by everyone else i DO mean everyone else. EVERYONE in the main cast + my obscure side character blorbos (haori and inspector hosonaga i love you)

3] Any ships? eehh?? Kind of? I don't really do shipping in the way that fandom does? Usually I'm not as invested in ships much because I care way more about the platonic relationships. so there's a lot of ships that i just kind of shrug and go "yeah, sure! i'll take that as headcanon" and accept it without being invested, and otherwise most other ships i'm just neutral on. when I AM invested in romantic pairs i still am like. completely chill with them not being romantic it's more of just an investment in that pair and their dynamic lol

THAT BEING SAID. Asoryuu. Susahao. Ginasusa. Uhhhh. whatever the ship name for holmes & yuujin is. Those are the ones you'll see me reblogging. I'm either very invested in them or at least have them as my headcanon depending on which it is but! those are them <3 susato polyamory real. everything else is generally just a "eh not for me" or "yea sure why not"

4] Thoughts on Susato My thoughts are uuummm she's me! HSDJKHF. I'm usually pretty quiet about kin stuff on tumblr but. [gestures to my tag masterlist with one of them labelled "kin tag" pretty openly] not necessarily hiding it either lol lol. Hi! She's me <3 I'm her <3 i am incapable of pretending to be a normal average person about dgs. those little guys in there are my family. I mean this so genuinely

That fact that I'm kin with her aside though I think she's a really good character I'm just like. kinnie lens makes character analysis interesting lol. To an outsider's perspective though I suppose she'd technically be my favourite character? I'm gonna write a whole ass fic going over the entirety of the events of the game from susato's point of view just to put all my thoughts somewhere so. FKJDFDLK if that gives you any idea of how frequently i am thinking about her.

Come talk to me about her introductory line in 1-1 that is just "in my darkest hour, with nowhere left to go, she appeared like a bolt of lightning." i'm SUPER fucking normal about it i'll wax poetic about it for hours. honestly i'll wax poetic about ANYTHING re: susato for HOURS because listen. listen. i have the insider knowledge. i have so many thoughts all the time i'm bark bark bark