#im not proof reading this im sorry its my truth i have to keep running forward

[bittenmoths]

it's  been  a  long  time  since  his  concern's  mixed  with  rage;  since  anger's  sparked  at  all  his  wires,  suddenly  alight  again  after  years  of  outage.  he  feels  lightning  -  struck;  hyper  -  focused.  scared,  if  only  for  selin.  it  doesn't  look  terrible,  her  features  -  they  never  do,  but  her  eye  will  be  fine.  there's  no  gashes,  no  cuts  -  an  immediate  bump,  and  swelling  -  but  there's  no  blood.  his  stomach  doesn't  lurch  forward;  but  slowly  creeps  upwards.  he's  not  sure  if  his  heart's  dropped  down  to  meet  it  -  but  the  entirety  of  him  feels  beating;  feels  alive.  he  can  do  this  -  he  can  help  selin,  get  her  ice;  hands  barely  registering  the  cold  as  the  bartender  hands  it  to  him,  wrapped  in  a  cloth  that's  -  hopefully  -  clean.  he  can  help  her,  in  however  small  a  moment  this  may  be  -  he  can  help  someone.  "a  normal  amount,  huh?"  his  voice  is  lighter,  now,  a  smile  threatening  to  break  through  despite  the  chaos  a  moment  before;  soft  as  he  talks  to  her.  "no,  it  doesn't  look  bad  -  you'll  be  fine,  sel.  here  -"  rafael  lifts  the  rag  -  wrapped  ice,  hand  lingering  before  he  presses  it,  gentle,  to  her  cheekbone,  "-  let  me  do  it.  you're  just  going  to  need  -  ice,  some  pain  relief.  it'll  bruise  -  but  you'll  be  fine."

there's  always  the  smell  of  burning  gasoline  that  lingers  at  the  back  of  his  mind;  a  phantom  sensation  from  a  phantom  limb  on  a  phantom  person  -  now  it's  spilled  beer,  stale  and  rotting,  clinging  to  him,  so  very  alive.  his  top  is  stained  with  it;  a  mess  made  in  the  commotion.  it's  uncomfortable  -  but  he's  as  whole  as  he  can  get,  as  solid  as  he  believes  himself  to  be.  "selin  -  please,"  part  amusement,  part  concern,  again  -  the  corner  of  his  mouth  twitches  up  as  his  free  hand  encases  one  of  hers,  bringing  it  back  down  to  level.  his  gaze  doesn't  leave  hers  -  an  attempt  to  keep  her  grounded,  from  panicking  further.  "i'm  fine  -  look,  see?  i'm  all  in  one  piece."  an  offbeat,  "i  don't  get  hurt  so  easy."  sometimes  he  wished  he  could;  but  that's  another  thought  for  another  time  -  when  he's  alone  in  the  dark  once  again.  when  he  stares  up  at  the  same  ceiling  he's  stared  at  for  years  now,  and  wonder  why.  for  now  -  his  attention  only  lingers  on  selin,  adjusting  the  ice's  placement  on  her  features  -  traveling  up  her  temple.  "i'm  fine,"  he  repeats  -  if  only  to  reassure  her  one  more  time,  "is  taylan  around?  do  you  want  me  to  -  call  him?  we  can  get  him  over  here,  get  you  home  -  who  did  you  come  with?"

she'd broken her wrist once , a little over ten years ago . fourteen years old and still the fearlessness of childhood hadn't fully vanished , remnants of the girl who used to run head first after her twin and return home with scraped knees and leaves in her curls still lingering . selin remembered lying on the ground , her friends peering down at her in concern from the very chain - link fence she'd been trying to jump that day . she remembered pain , but she remembered laughing too , feeling so very human and alive . — where had that bravery gone ? sometimes it felt like she wasn't solid anymore , like the sureness of her had been smoothed down over the years by her parents and her fears alike into something malleable ; a piece of clay molded into a shape she no longer recognized . — and when had she stopped feeling so alive ? was it when she saw the future she'd always imagined for herself dashed into tiny , unsalvageable pieces ? was it when taylan moved away ? or perhaps it was the awareness of other people's mortality that made her start to fear her own . rafael's brother , her own brother , daniela , whoever they'd found dead on norwood street — she could pull on the familiar cloak of optimism , tell herself she'll live brighter because nothing's guaranteed , because life's too short , but it didn't erase the fear . it didn't erase the feeling something horrible could be behind every moment she spent laughing and loving , and how there wasn't a single thing she could do to stop it . it doesn't register that rafael had been talking to her , nor that he'd moved her away towards relative safety , just that one minute she can feel the pull of the crowd , and the next it's the side of the jukebox brushing up against her back . when he grabs her wrists it's enough to pull her out of her daze , and she lets him move them out of the way , lifting her face to meet his gaze . stunned tears are blinked away in quick succession , and she feels the need to apologize , embarrassed because she was fine . she thinks of her brother , the way he's never shied away from a fight . she thinks of june , how more often than not they sport scrapes and bruises . both of them , unafraid in all the ways she'd forgotten to be . " it hurts a normal amount , i think . " more blinks , because what did she know ? selin had never been hit in the face . there's no eloquence to describe the stinging in more detail , intoxication still muddling her brain , even despite the pump of adrenaline working its way through her system . " does it look really bad ? " the question comes out sounding small , like it was coming from the mouth of a child , or like someone desperately searching another's features for any inch of comfort , the way she found herself doing now . her hands almost come up to touch her face again before she drops them , and they hover hesitantly between them , another thought dawning , building a new rise of panic . " — did you get hurt ? are you okay ? " hands find their target against his own face , feeling for phantom wounds she could have missed .

[neverluckygoldfish]

57 -

Well. It’s me. And it’s time to come clean. Or get clean.

I write this at 3am (still drunk) sitting in a hotel because I was too drunk to drive so I fell asleep in my car for 6 hours. At the mall.

So I guess let’s sit here and face some hard truths.

I thought I was better than everyone else. I thought if I fixed everything underneath, then alcohol wouldn’t be a problem. I thought then, I could control it. I thought I could find the easy way through and be this person that’s like “wow I really struggled and rags to riches and all that”. I thought if I could have one or two instances where I drank and was fine - POOF! It’s proof I’m cured!!

Haha god I am so annoying sometimes.

OMG SURPRISE! Alcoholism isn’t a quick fix. You can’t take a bunch of magic mushrooms and fix it. You can’t get on the proper meds for your mental issues and fix it. You can’t upheave literally your entire life to run from the problem and fix it. You can’t tell yourself “this is where I am and I give myself grace” and fix it. You can’t “only drink a little” and “pace yourself” and fix it.

My husband (who I love more than breathing) can tell me that my drinking is hurting him and I can’t (won’t) fix it.

EVEN if my life gets good and I no longer want to “escape” it per se.

I can’t fix it.

Blame my hyper independence but I realize now that I thought I could fix any problem. Ever. I can find an easy solution to keep coasting. Like I legit pride myself on working the system.

But this also stems from my desire to break free of normalcy and the confines of society and being a sheeple and needing to be a “certain” way to achieve “success”. In case it isn’t obvious, I could go on and on about this.

Side bar: if you’re reading this and feeling shitty about where you’re at in life, like you’re not successful enough - let me leave you with this: who decided that success looked like? Who defined it for you? I guarantee it wasn’t you. What if you were to decide the definition of success and being a good person? What would that look like?

So yeah. I am fully going off the deep end. Luckily this go around I haven’t ended up in the hospital or injured myself or someone else - but something needs to give.

I don’t understand why I can’t give up the alcohol? IT’S LITERALLY EVERYWHERE. Ads, TV shows, grocery store displays, billboards.

It’s only once you have a drinking problem that you really notice how ingrained alcohol is in our culture. Or maybe you’re a smart one who realized it ahead of time - god fuck you, I am jealous of you.

I don’t know how to stop. I’m in tears thinking this is going to kill me. I don’t want to stop because I don’t have another or better option.

Ok like I know what’s smart, I know what’s best. Just stop drinking right? Obviously you know what it’s doing to your life and the people around you. You’re smart - stop.

I don’t want to. I want to be a normal person who can drink and get lit from time to time and not have it be a big deal. Not have it turn into a 6 month bender. I need to let this expectation go but I don’t know how because I feel like if I admit it… people look at you differently, they hold you to a different standard, they watch you.

I swear this happens but tell me if I’m actually just paranoid.

ITS NOT THAT GOD DAMB EASY OKAY IM SO SORRY FOR BEING THE HURRICANE RIGHT NOW

So yeah. In my underwear. Drunk. An hour from home. At a hotel. Not sure what to do. Not sure how to explain this one. I found a nearby meeting at 7am, let’s see if I even wake up lol.

Honestly? I give up. I don’t know best. I don’t know anything!!! Now what do I do?

Each day - we keep going. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.

[t0shii]

hq boys when you're feeling anxious or stressed

suna rintaro, hinata shoyo, oikawa toru x gn!r

!warnings! mentions of anxiety, reader comparing themselves to others, mentions of food & hunger, driving. this is like all fluff no angst rlly tbh.

SUNA RINTARO.

he could tell something was up but conviced himself he shouldnt pry as he had already asked you twice if you were feeling alright, to which you reasurred him with a "yep" both times, it was suspicious but he thought maybe you just wanted to be left alone. meanwhile you weren't sure why you lied him, you obviously were not doing okay at the moment. currently he was driving you home and your anxiety was going absolutely crazy from the amount of school work that was piling up on you, it's unfair you thought to yourself, looking out the window. not only were you stressed from work but trying to keep up with your friend was hard, to say the least. they were phenomenal students, straight As in their transcript and though your grades were just fine, you couldn't help but feel inferior and insecure. it's unfair how effortlessly smart they are and how i'll never be able to catch up.... oh boy if your thoughts weren't running wild before they definitely were now, you hadn't even realized your boyfriend pulling into your driveway until he slightly tapped your shoulder. "are you sure you're alright? i don't wanna pressure you ofcourse but, you know you can tell me anything right?" ... and there were the water works! the little string holding you together had snapped just like that. you sat there in the passengers seat sobbing into your hands and suna rintaro hadn't a clue what to do in the moment.

"give me just a sec" you heard him mumble but not before he gave you a kiss as light as a feather on the top of your head. somehow you didn't notice him exit the car and rush to your side until he opened your door and hugged you so tight you honestly couldn't breathe. after a few seconds your boyfriend let go of the embrace which, to his dismay, only made you cry even harder. now, he knew he was known for being quite... stoic but he was definitely panicking on the inside and it was really difficult to remain calm on the outside. your boyfriend carefully reached over you to unbuckle the seatbelt that you had yet to unclasp. "lets go inside baby." his voice was so gentle it would've taken you by surprise had you not still been crying. you nodded in response and he helped you carefully out of the car, holding your hand all the way to the door, "d'ya have your key?" you nodded trying your best to unlock the door, after a few struggled and shakey attempts you finally had your door unlocked but not without rins help because he couldn't bare to watch you struggle any longer.

stepping inside rin helped you take your shoes off, removing his own after, "bedroom?" having calmed down a little you whispered "yes," with a small nod. he nodded with you in response and took you to your bedroom. after helping you change into comfy clothes he helped you into bed, crawling in right behind you. your back was snug against his chest and he held you super tightly, it was silent for a few minutes until finally he spoke up, "please tell me how i can help" you could feel your lip quiver. "well... you don't have to say anything right now, you know i can wait. i'll even leave if you want, i just wanted you to know that you can tell me whenever you're ready and that i'll listen." neither of you were sure when you'd be ready to admit what had gotten you so upset but you felt comfortable knowing suna rintaro would be there whenever you were ready, whether it be minutes from now or even months.

HINATA SHOYO.

your silence on the walk home was starting to concern him.. maybe im just talking too much... he thought, "hey... im sorry if im talking your ear off.. how was your day angel?" to say he was disappointed with your response would be an understatement. not thar you HAD to talk but usually you were talkative with him and the worry in his tummy was only growing more. a simple, "oh.. my day was alright sho," simply woundn't cut it! "hey, are you feeling okay?" it was silent for a few seconds before you answered a mumbled "i think so, are you feeling alright, sho?" he simply nodded with a "mhm" and you told him to continue on with his story from earlier.

he complied but only to fill the silence. hinata decided to trust you when you said you were okay because you know your own feelings and he knows for a fact he's made it clear before that you could and should let him know if something was bothering you. though you enjoyed listening to hinata's stories you only found yourself getting lost in your own mind whilst he rambled on.you could tell he was suspicious of your behavior but was grateful he had left his curiosity behind because you were sure you would snap if he had asked you if you were okay again, you really didn't want to cry in front of him. truth is, your thoughts were running wild, stressing over the smallest things; assignments due at the end of the week, what you were gonna get your boyfriend for your anniversary, how you were gonna make time for your friends surprise birthday party and helping sho with his studied all the while trying to take care of your own self and keep your own grades afloat. "y/n..? we're at your house.. are you sure your alright? you look a little pale, are you ill?" crap! how had you not noticed you were approaching your own driveway you wanted to slap yourself for being so clueless. you couldn't help but feel horrible for not listening to your boyfriends story also.

"yes sho i'm fine really, i just didn't have time to eat lunch today but i have food inside so don't worry m'may?" he looked at you suspiciously and you knew he was onto you, "y'know y/n, i'm not gonna force you to tell me what's going on but just know i'll always be here for you, okay?" he gave you a small smile before engulfing you into a tight hug, it honestly melted your heart. surprisingly, you didn't start crying on the spot. "y'know, i wanted to trust you when you said you were okay but now i'm not so sure if you were telling the truth," he mumbled into your shoulder. you sighed, giving up the facade. "sho.... i just don't know what to do honestly, i have alot on my plate right now and i'm really stressed with all the responsibilities ive piled onto myself," you admitted. he nodded lifting his head from your shoulder, giving you the brightest smile, "well, i can always help out! i might not be the mooost helpful person ever but i'll try my best, and if anything i'm good moral support!" you giggled at that but suddenly you felt your lip quiver from the sudden guilt you feeling, "i'm sorry for lying to you sho-", "hey! its alright! you dont need to apologize. especially dont need you crying on me now!" he smiled cupping your face in his hands, wiping away a few stray tears of whom managed to escape.

OIKAWA TORU.

you smile back at him and thought of how silly it was that you tried keeping your feelings a secret from your boyfriend of two years, hinata shoyo, feeling glad that you confided in him. he knew you were upset as soon as he saw you that very morning, he could read you like and open book and you knew that fact very well. still though, you tried your best to hide yourself from him, though it was hard considering you sitting right next to him in the passenger seat of his car. finally after a whole day of being worried sick, he was tired of leaving things left unsaid "babyyyy," he sang for you from the kitchen, "please come here a sec!" he yelled for you louder. soon you came trudging down the hallway, blanket wrapped around your body, he couldn't help but smile at how adorable his s/o looked.

"c'mere quickly," he said will a grin, opening his arms for a hug, which you gladly accept, wrapping your arms around his waist tightly. "now, i know you know that i know that you're not feeling well, so please tell me what's got my angel so upset?" he said softly rubbing his hand lightly over your back, his voice a little muffled from his cheek being squished against the top of your head. you let out a breath you hadn't even realized you were holding, "'m sorry tooru, i don't know what's wrong with me today.... just not feeling well." you felt him nod against your head in response, "well good thing your amazing boyfriend is here to make you feel all better huh?" you let a out small giggle at that. "you know you can tell me when you're feeling down right? you shouldn't keep things bottled up inside", "i know tooru... im sorry, i just dont really know wbat i'm feeling so down about though," you admitted shyly. "hey that's okay! there absolutely no need to apologize for that, here, look at me, angel," he tilts your face so you're looking up at him, his big soft hands holding your face, thumbs stroking your cheeks lightly, "i'm here whenever you figure it out, hell, even if you dont figure it out or there just isn't any reason at all. you know i'm always, always, always here. i promise you that, m'kay?" he finishes his little speech with a smile, smothering your face in kisses. you could only feel relieved, thankful and loved. because you knew that you would always have your soulmate, oikawa toru by your side.

( a/n ; ahh so im sorry if this has any spelling or grammatical errors it's sort of late as i'm writing this! and im too lazy to proof read.... also it might just all be word vomit and if it is im so sorry 😩 ++ i'm positive ive kept the reader gn throughout the whole thing but if there are slip-ups i promise i'll do better next time! i rlly wanted to write some hq boys when ur feeling anxious and beyond stressed because i have been MEGA struggling with my own anxiety lately, especially bc of school so i just needed to let my feelings go! anywhooo i hope everyone who reads this has an amazing day or night! ) p.s. im new to writing so be nice 2 me or whatever 😩🙄😌👍🏻

[peachiimilquetea]

heyyyy :) can i get an angst scenario (fem!reader) for your event, with tenya and the prompts, "fuck you for making me love you.", "i'm sorry that i was never enough" and "i just want to understand why i wasn't enough." please?

your writing is *mwah* chef's kiss <3 thank you!!!

“𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮” + tenya iida

ft. “i’m sorry that i was never enough” + “i just want to understand why i wasn’t enough”

a/n: PLS WHY DO YALL ENJOY ANGST SM IT MAKES ME SAD WHEN I WRITE IT EVSJSBSJSSN. this one was just… damn. i hope i did the prompt justice tho! check out my event here!

contains: infidelity, tenya CURSES????, fuck mc ion like her in this one, breakup, overall just a shitty time, hakagure is a real one even after graduation

length: 1.2k

a/n ii: tysm for the kind words abt my work!! 🤍

hey iida, i hope this email finds you well given the circumstances,

i’m really really sorry…

tenya’s eyes scanned over the contents of the email and he could feel his world crumbling around him as he read. he had to remember to give hakagure something for all her troubles, as he was appreciative of all her help.

he had suspected something was going on for a few months, he wasn’t stupid. he saw the way you had started leaving your phone face down and picking up “extra shifts” at your job.

he noticed the way you smiled, how hollow it looked now when he said something to you or how you tensed up whenever he touched you, almost like an aversion to his affections.

so he pulled some strings, reached out to his old classmate from high school, now one of the top heroes that specialized in stealth in the country. he asked her to tail you on the way to one of your shifts and see what she could find. all he needed was confirmation.

i’m really really sorry…

you had decided to surprise him by coming home early from work that day. the guilt of sneaking around was eating at you and you knew he was suspecting something you made the snap decision to try to throw him off your trail.

you had decided to surprise him by coming home early from work that day. the guilt of sneaking around was eating at you and you knew he was suspecting something you made the snap decision to try to throw him off your trail.

“ten ten? baby i’m home!” you called, putting your stuff down at the door and striding into the room.

“why are you home so early?” he clipped out, initial devastation turning into anger the longer he looked at your face.

“what, i cant surprise, my boyfriend, anymore?” you attempted to joke, picking up on how tense the air was becoming.

“oh now i’m your boyfriend?” he chuckled in disbelief.

“what are you talking about? you’ve always been my boyfriend, ten, we’ve been together for like a year.”

“don’t bullshit me right now, _____. how long?”

“excuse me?” your smile started to slip, hoping he was angry about something else. anything else.

tenya turned the laptop sitting next to him around and your voice caught in your throat as you tried to answer him. high definition proof sat in front of you, a testament to how little you cared anymore. the look on his face told you everything.

he knows, you thought but used all your energy to keep your face as neutral as possible, opting to play dumb.

“how long, _____? answer me.”

you stayed silent, still trying to figure out a way out, but you knew you had reached the end of the line.

“how long have you been doing this _____?”

“s-seven months,” your voice was small. you were scared and ashamed- knowing you had been stringing him along for all this time and never seeing him react to anything like this. not when his brother was attacked or when his father died.

tenya didn’t think he could feel any worse. 7 months was more than half of the time you had been together officially, meaning you had checked out of this relationship a long time ago. you had been lying the whole time. having your cake and eating it too. it made him want to scream, cry and throw up all at the same time.

“im sorry tenya… really i am, but youve been so busy with hero work and your father left you in charge of everything, i’ve just been feeling really neglected, you know?”

“and you didn’t come to tell me about it? you went outside the home, outside of us to get your needs met?”

“it wasn’t like that-”

“then what was it like?” he pressed.

“i..”

“answer me, _____, what was it like?”

“you want the truth?” he gestured for you to go ahead, “i was bored.”

everything you said after that fell on deaf ears. you were rambling, and he wasn’t even sure if you were coming up with excuses for your own sake or for his.

you cheated because you were bored- bored of him and his unwavering love, bored of the late nights you stayed up to imagine your future, and bored of the way he treated the ground you walked on like gold. he absolutely adored you, and you got bored.

tenya’s mouth felt dry as he tried to articulate exactly what he was feeling. he wanted to go for a run and let the world blur into the background as he cleared his mind. he wanted to cry, one large cathartic release of everything that had been building up for the past few weeks. but most of all, he wanted to know why.

“you... got bored of me?”

you breathed out, exasperated, “yes, tenya, god! i needed some excitement, something different. you’re always so uptight, i just wanted to let loose sometimes, it was suffocating!”

iida flinched, the truth stinging more than he anticipated it would. he didn’t even recognize the woman that was staring at him, trying to explain away the betrayal of a lifetime.

“fuck you," he spat, even surprising himself with how hostile he was.

“tenya…”

“no. fuck you for making me love you, and fuck you for not having the integrity to break up with me when you knew you didn’t want to be here anymore.”

you deflated, feeling sick to your stomach at what you had done. initially, you hadn’t meant for it to get this far, but that didn’t matter now. “i know, i’m in the wrong and i’m sorry, but i think we can make this work and-”

he raised his hand at you to stop you. he didn’t want to listen to any more of what you had to say. he wanted you out of his house and out of his life.

he wanted to make you leave, and that’s exactly what he did, helping you pack up the things the two of you had gleefully moved in 3 months prior, and kicking you out.

he told you explicitly to never contact him again, much to your anguish. you knew you fucked up but you still wanted to be selfish, you still wanted access to him in ways that you didn’t deserve.

the rest of the day didn’t feel real. tenya went ghost, turning off his phone and sitting on the couch staring at the wall, unable to sit in the bedroom he once shared with you.

he thought about the ring he had asked his mom for, the ring he had already planned to give you, and heaved out a shaky sob. it was probably burning a hole in the nightstand drawer now, never to be used for its original purpose.

his eyes scanned the room, landing on a photo of the two of you that sat on the tv stand. getting up, he walked over to it to get a closer look. such a stark contrast from the way things were now. the two of you were all smiles in the photo, faces flushed and rosy from the cold air. he ran his thumb over the frame, finger caressing your face.

“im sorry i was never enough… i just want to understand why i was never enough.”

[proffessional-busboy]

There's Always a Loophole

Author - me

Warnings - idk kinda sad? kinda angsty? NOT REALLY THO SO IG JUS READ AND FIND OUT

a/n - so i had this idea that the reader is basically Landon, except a girl who obviously has your name. Gif isnt mine, credits to owner. again again, not proof read.

Summary: Hope is on a mission to save her girlfriend, who was taken to Triad HQ. Everything goes according to plan.

"No, no please! dont do that!" but it was too late, your yells pointless as the headless horseman threw the knife into malivore. You watched as it fell, stopping right before completely sinking into the pit. You watched in confusion as it floated, rising back up amd flying into the hands of, none other than your girlfriend, Hope. "Hope!". *gif above*

"Your welcome." she said and immediately started fighting the monster, yelling chants and spells. "He wont die! You watch sci-fi stuff, help me! How do i kill him?" she asked, desperately trying to stop the monster from doing any further damage to your or her.

"Well, headless horseman is more fantasy"

"Get to the helpful part!" she managed to screech before she was hit in the hand with the spine-sword.

"Uh, in the Tim Burton movie they defeated him by giving him a bride!" you thought back to the movie. Even though it was fiction and didnt really exist, most of the things in your life shouldnt either. "But that wouldnt be my first choice"

"Me neither". she chanted another spell and it worked, flipping the creature onto the ground.

"In-in the O.G cartoon, he had a pumpkin head. That...he might keep it with his horse?" you tried your hardest to find a way to defeat the headless villain. Looking at him again, you noticed a sphere shaped pack on its back. Then the realization hit you. "Correction! He's got it under his cape! Kill the head, the body dies. Thats science faction!" you almost celebrated.

Hope looked over at the cape, searching for what you saw. She noticed it. "Great" she said, sending you a thumbs up. The spine-weapon swung at her again, but she grabbed it. "One head coming up".

She continued throwing kicks and sent it flying into the wall, the head rolling down the stairs to you. You grabbed it. "Uh god. Why is it moist".

"Uh gimme gimme!" she reached her arms put as the monster made its way down the stairs to you. You threw the head, it landing on a pole that Hope was holding out. The body dropped, defeated and dead.

"Suck on that Tim Burton." you said, making your way up the stairs to your girlfriend. "Hi."

"Hi." She pulled you into a kiss. But pulled away seconds later. "Um, um. So i had this entire speech that i practiced with your prismatic hologram. But i know the only thing you want from me is the truth. And the truth is...i love you."

You looked at her, surprised to here that, but with admiration. This amazing girl just saved your life by defeating a malivore monster, and here she was telling you that she loved you.

"Im sorry about all the secrets that ive kept, but i'm...im mostly sorry about keeping that one. Cause i love you y/n y/l/n." she smiled at you.

"i mean it wasnt a huge secret because i love you too Hope Mikaelson. And i forgive you for anything that needs it. And i know it looked like i was losing when you got here but thats just how my combat looks." you smiled as she laughed, pulling you into another kiss. It was stopped shortly after when a voice rudely interrupted.

"Nothing like young love is there." you both turned towards the direction it was coming from. Clarke. "Shame it has to be so short-lived. You'll find, baby sister, one of our family's worst traits is," he reached into his jacket, pulling out the knife. Holding it infront of him for a second, "well, we're terribly clumsy.", and he threw it into the pit.

"No!" Hope exclaimed. You both watched as Malivore started bubbling amd smoking.

"Well, arent you gonna clap or something?" Clarke asked. "That was a total power move.". And with that, you grabbed the spine-weapon and swung it in his direction, grabbing him in the neck and making him collapse.

"Damn, your combat is no joke."

"Okay, we got to think. Figure something out to keep him from rising." you said pacing.

Hope looked at you confused for a second. "What do you mean him?"

You forgot that she was completely oblivious to the discussions you had earlier. "Ooh, we have a lot to catch up on." and then you told her everything.

"So malivores your dad?"

"Weird, huh?

"And he cant be killed, which is why Triad turned to goo?"

"Youre a quick study" you said, recognizing your girlfriends ability to quickly catch on.

"But nothing's ever immortal. I mean, not really. Nature wont allow it, there's always a loophole." she had to think quickly.

Malivore started bubbling amd groaning. "Any brilliant ideas because i think we're running out of time." you said, pointing to the black goo.

She looked at it and looked back at you. "Just one" she sighed. "But your gonna hate it." she paused for a second. "Kiss me".

So of course you obeyed. There was a lot of emotion in it. "I didnt hate that at all."

"Not that". she said, her hand snaking from your face to your neck. "This".

And she snapped your neck.

AHAHAHAHA YAYYY ANOTHER ONE. Again, please tell me what you think. PART 2?!?!?

[jossambird]

This Soul Of Mine PT 4

Main Incubus Otto x Reader (Incubus Axel and Oscar x Reader in later parts!)

18+ (also in later parts)

(Mentions of Rape but only passing, as Incubus are Male Demons who feed off sex, most of them are NOT kind Swedes.)

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

After a few moments spent together in silence petting the little cat in Otto’s arms, a man came out of the house along with Oscar. The unknown man’s eyes narrowed as he took you in, frowning deeply as Oscar seemed to whisper to him.

“I am Axel.” He roughly stated as he kept your gaze, accent thick. You nodded, trying to smile but too overwhelmed to. The wind blew around you, the silence practically deafening as he seemed to stare into your soul.

“I am Y/N-“

“Yes I know, your name was on the cookie box.” He cut you off, sounding irritated and headed back inside with Oscar, leaving only the screen door open.

“Sorry, he is wary of.. new people.” Otto whispered, a small smirk appearing on his lips as you both heard Axel huff loudly inside the home. Together, you sat on their front porch, petting the little bundle of fur before it demanded to be put down, running away quickly.

“I... May I ask a favor of you..?” You asked Otto, voice silent as to not let his brothers hear you. Judging by the way you saw them slightly turn their heads though, Super Hearing was also probably an Incubus power.

You felt bad asking this of him, it wasn’t his job... But he had imprinted on you, hadn’t he? Laid claim to you accidentally, just as The Handler had said. You were now his, and he yours, surely that meant something.

Your slight pinpricks of worry reached his nose, followed by embarrassment and hope. Hope?

“Yes, of course.” Otto whispered back, feeling slightly overwhelmed by the smell of relief you exuded, so much so that he had to look away, eyes turning inside to catch both Oscar and Axel watching out of anticipation.

“Would you mind accompanying me to church after tomorrow? It would not be for long, I... I need to deliver something, but I dont feel comfortable going alone.” You answered, wondering if he could sense that you were hiding something from him.

Could Incubi also read minds, just as their female Ruler had? Was that simply a Succubus power? God, as soon as you got home, you were going to write all of this down.

It was obvious you were hiding something from him, but as he took in the delicious scent of your emotions, Otto knew it wasn’t anything malicious. Your worry and hope outshined anything else, the sweet mixture making his insides burn, feeling the sudden need to comfort you.

It was a mistake to reach out, to touch you, hand placed on your forearm. The moment he did, mouth open to answer, the sharp dangerous smell of arousal waifed off of you, calling to him, your surprise mixing with it as he retracted his hand. Otto’s mind reeled as he tried to recover, senses on fire, barely registering that you had accidentally projected some of your emotions onto him in that moment.

“I will walk you home.” Axel declared, scaring you as he appeared behind you, gloved hand settling on your shoulder to lift you and turn you away from his stunned brother. You frowned, trying to turn to say goodbye to the two other brothers but couldn’t, Axel’s rough hold veering you out the yard and into the street and cold night, his gray eyes shining as he watched you.

“I know that you know.” He stated as he walked alongside you, momentarily shutting his senses off as to avoid your whirlwind of emotions that you visibly had no control over whatsoever. Mortals, such incapable beings. He didn’t miss the way your head snapped back to him, watching him as you walked together.

“My brothers are young, a hint of stupid even, so they cannot tell, but I can. You fraternized with her, sat with her. You smell of her cigarettes.” He said after a moment passed, coming at a standstill. You werent Otto’s soulmate, you were working for The Handler, plotting, cruel, acting kind to get close to his poor unsuspecting brother. He wanted to lash out, tell you how stupid you were-

The scent of pure unadulterated relief flooded his senses out of nowhere as you turned to him, eyes wide open as you gasped deeply, looking at him in surprise.

“Oh god, thank goodness! You have no idea how relieved I am to know that you know, she absolutely scared the life out of me! She arrived at the Church and sat right beside me!” You exclaimed, hands flying to your face to hide from him, fearing he was about to kill you-

“You- Your being honest...” Axel said, tone sounding more uncertain then he had ever been in his life, finding himself out of his depth at your honest and truthful answer. Something within his chest hurt, a sharp and twisted pain, lighting his senses on fire. It felt like the first breath of fresh air after being held under water for ages, wind filling his lungs as he breathed in slowly. He didn’t understand, he didn’t get it; you knew they were demons? Incubi, to be specific, and yet you stayed either way?

“Why would you fraternize with demons, demons that rape, harm pretty little women like you... who lure unsuspecting women out in parks at night, only to eat their throat out?” Axel stated, trying to make you see just what they were, the dangers that they brought, what they truly were, but as he went on, he felt more drained, losing whatever edge he hoped to exude out to you.

He hated you, hated that a mere mortal like you were making him regret his choices, making him regret what he was as he saw the gentle pure kindness in your eyes. Most of all, he hated that you, you of all people, a pretty little church goer, made him regret being born an Incubus. For the first time in all of his existence, a mortal, a human, knew what he was, and stayed, showing him the same exact kindness as before.

“Wow, with a facial expression as flat as that, Im really trembling in my boots.” You smirked at him, hand lifting to push your hair back behind your ear as the wind blew around the both of you, trees swaying in the wind. A vile putrid stench filled the air for a moment and made him forget the retort that had been on his tongue, nearly making him gag as the scent filled his senses. What was that?

“Do that again.” Axel whispered out harshly, eyes sharply observing you critically as you stopped smiling.

“Do what again?” You asked, eyes wide, breath catching in your throat as he came closer, face moving towards you as if to smell you.

“Place your hair behind your ear again, there is something... unclean on you, something The Handler must have implanted on you, I can smell it wafting into the air around you.” Axel said before recoiling sharply as you lifted your arm, your soft gaze turning worried as you watched him openly gag, the noise making the nerves inside of you burst.

“Oh my god Axel, are you okay!? Im so sorry!” You asked, stepping away from him to leave him some room but halting as his arm shot out, grabbing ahold of your wrist-

Axel froze as foul images assaulted his senses, the scent overpowering him. He remained unmoving though, feeling it too important of a vision to pull back, pull away. You, the mere human mortal, were too important, he corrected himself, heart beating faster as he watched a Priest, supposedly a man of God, jerking himself off, your dainty little bracelet in his hand. Axel watched with a feeling of violation as the priest finished himself off and pocketed the bracelet, only to give it to you later that day at the end of a sermon. The man had tainted it, placed his unholy hands on it, coated with-

“Take it off.” Axel grunted as he pulled away, emotions running amok inside of him like a hurricane in an open field, ripping and destroying everything in its path. The delicate scent of your hesitation reached him, and he almost sighed out of joy at the sheer difference of weight your scent had over the bracelets filthy smell, making him forget the Priest’s disgusting act.

“If you can trust me, no matter how small, please, trust me now Y/N.” He added, eyes locking onto yours. It was a stretch Axel told himself, knowing he wasn’t in any position to demand anything of you after accusing you of potentially betraying them with little proof.

Nothing in this world had ever brought him ecstasy, nothing had ever made his dead heart beat, and yet here you were, ripping the bracelet off and throwing it into the woods behind you; the mere sight of your trust made his blood roil pleasantly under his skin, fingertips aching to touch you.

Had this been exactly what Otto had felt the first time he had touched you? Otto had been frugal on the details of his awakened state of mind, but was touch truly the key? It had to be, he had never felt a more pressing need to touch a human, anyone, anything, YOU, more then Axel did right now, invisible Incubus tail fidgeting back and forth out of confusion.

“Are you alright?” You asked again, noticing how far his gaze seemed, reminded suddenly of Otto’s expression the first time he had laid his hand on you. Axel breathed in sharply as you came closer, eyes connecting with your own. His gray-blue eyes shined in the moonlight, platinum blond hair reminding you of fresh snow.

You didn’t know what Father James’ bracelet had, or what magic was on it, but you trusted Axel.

“Y/N... If I asked you to no longer visit the Priest alone, would you respect my judgement?” Axel whispered softly as he lifted his hand, wanting to pushing your hair once more behind your ear but couldn’t. He watched you, watched as the wheels turned within your mind, and watched with greed as you bit your lip softly.

He had always seen female lovers do it, biting their lips to keep themselves from making sound, or out of desire, and it had never done anything for him. Yet here he stood, hand lowering to his side once more, insides churning in pure delight at the sight of your teeth sinking into your lower lip softly. The sweet scent of your surprise at his question curled around you, patiently allowing you to think before answering him.

You wondered if Axel had heard you speak to Otto earlier or if he had taken an educated guess. Did he also have powers like their Ruler did? He visibly had Super Hearing, but the was for another day to think about.

“You know, earlier at your home, I thought you hated me. But I would almost say you have a soft spot for me Axel, seeing how accommodating you are, walking me home.” You said, changing the subject as you felt anxiety rise up your spine with a vicious need. Axel hummed in answer, eyes squinting as he regarded you.

“You need not answer me, but please, next time, ask my poor simpleton of a Brother to accompany you.” He spoke, smiling a bit as you nodded and continued your walk home, silence reigning over the both of you the rest of the way.

——

The walk back home was torturous for Axel, mind and heart fighting, intelligence trying to reign victorious over these... feelings, emotions. Useless things, really.

Yet... he understood, understood why Otto had been acting irrationally. Nothing seemed to make sense as he had watched you wave goodbye to him from your front door, senses telling him to leave but.. body roaring to go knock on your door, to ask for permission to enter and touch you, touch your cheeks and run his lips against your throat. Axel wanted to feel your pulse under his fingertips, feel the fleeting human life inside you, and to feel you, just you, touching him back out of your own volition, not like the humans affected by his natural Pheromones.

Axel’s feet came to a sudden stop, previous inner thoughts reminding him just what he was: A Demon. An Incubus, a male demon that sought to impregnate human women, feeding off their souls and lives. He was everything your kind feared, everything they had nightmares about, everything human children cried about.

Slowly yet quickly, the thought came crashing down on him that this, all of these emotions he was feeling, all of these humanly soft thoughts, all of these stupid fantasies could never happen.

Never should he touch your cheeks, and run his lips along your throat. Never should he feel your pulse under his fingertips.

Never, under any circumstances, should he ever feel your touch, from this moment on. If he did, Axel knew he would fail, knew he would throw everything to the wind, fairytales and folktales be damned.

If you touched him, Axel knew he would follow you until the end of the Earth.

[kz-i-co]

Charms & Potions (Pt. 3)

»Summary: The harder you fall for Changkyun makes you want to live a normal life. Was it possible?

»Pairing: IM Changkyun/ Reader

»Genre: Smut - supernatural au

»Words: 3.7k

»m.list ╫ MX masterlist

»Part 1 | Part 2

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You starred at the bracelet as it was safe away in a jar so it wouldn't harm you. You read book by book trying to figure out how to reverse its source. The only thing was to soak it in driftwood blossom but your aunt only had one left. But you felt this was an emergency so you boiled it down anyway and now you were just waiting for it to cool.

-

Once you woke up you were nervous since the bracelet turned white instead of the dark chestnut color it was originally. You couldn't give it back looking like that so you played around with a few spells turning in a natural brown but it wasn't the color you wanted. Maybe he won't notice.

...

You looked around and saw no sign of Changkyun and you wanted to keep it that way. You wanted to stay your distance as heart breaking it may be but you couldn't get caught up in his family.

But what if he wasn't like them.

You did overhear his family talking about how he wasn't ready so maybe he was new to this whole thing. His family was forcing him into this world and he wanted no part of it.

Your aunt wouldn't approve so maybe it was just safe to stay away until you could. You figured you would have to move away just like before anyway so you shouldn't get close to anyone so what was the point.

"Hey." You jumped from the thought of him right behind you.

"Hey." You smiled but followed by a cough. "Sorry I'm going to be late to class." You quickly ran off trying to avoid him.

And that's how it was for the past week. Your only excuse was that you were sick and missing a few days was your proof.

...

"Why aren't you in school?" Your aunt said as you once again slept passed first period.

"I just don't feel good." You yawned. "Besides what's the point in getting a school education anyway when all we do is move around. I learned more on my own then this dumb school."

"I don't know I like this place so far. It's quiet." She shrugged. "I'd think we try to stick it out as long as possible, at least until you're done with school." She sat in your bed.

"Once again what's the point? It's not like I can have a normal life and go to college and start a family."

"Of course you can dear. I did." She smiled.

"Not since I was born. Because of me you have to hide too." You said with anger in your voice.

"That's your mothers fault unfortunately." She tried to lighten the mood but it had no effect. "Once you have control with your powers, all this running will end. Don't worry."

"How do you know that?"

"Because as of right now, everyone is afraid of you. All you need to do is prove you are not a threat."

"And what if my powers take over and I can't control myself?" You started to feel the emotion overcome you.

"They won't. You're strong and you have a warm heart. There's nothing to worry about." She caressed your cheek before getting up. "You can stay home for the rest of the week and starting tomorrow we will work on your powers." She said. "I better get more drift wood since I'm out. Can't have hunters on our backs."

She left you alone.

How can you control your powers when all you have is anger. You wanted a normal life more then anything and you just hated that you had to live like this. Hide from people you grown to love and can't even be yourself around. It was hard.

...

"Mandrake? How do I get that?" You were trying to find spells on how to sacrifice your powers but nothing was standing out to you. Mandrake was a rare herb that all witches banned since it could do such horrible magic. It's said you can use it against yourself but it can be very dangerous and no one was survived enough to say if such a spell can work or not.

You were in depth of your reading when you heard a bang against your window and it suddenly opening. You held your hands up ready to attack until you saw our precious boyfriend struggle to get in.

"What are you doing here?"

"I came to see if you were okay since you haven't responded to my text or phone calls. It's impossible to reach you."

"If my aunt finds out, I can get-"

"She's not here." He had a devious smirk. "Her cars gone and I saw that your uncle is passed out on the couch."

"Well I'm really sick so stay back."

"You don't look sick." He walked closer to you.

"It's a stomach virus." You fell upon your bed as he got closer.

"So?" He started to make his way on top of you that your stomach was erupting with butterflies. "I missed you."

You froze. "Did you not miss me?" He said disappointed.

"I do." You bit your lip nervously.

"Then what's wrong? It's my family isn't it? I promise they're cool- well maybe weirder then most but once you get to know them it's.....weirder." He laughed.

You wanted to tell him to leave so you could be saving your own skin but you couldn't. You have fallen in love with him in the short time you knew him and it made you weaker. He smiled at the way your were staring at him causing his cheeks to turn red.

"What do you think of me?"

"Can I use perfection?"

"No." You blushed.

"I think you are the most beautiful girl I've ever seen." He started.

"No."

"I mean it. Also you are very different, which is why I like you."

"Different how?" You asked intrigued.

"Well for our first date we hiked through the woods after midnight is something, well almost.....Other girls want to go to the mall or some fancy dinner but instead we hang out in cemeteries." He smiled "You don't care what people think and I like that. You are just you."

"I feel like I can trust you with anything." He continued sweetly.

"I trust you too." You wanted to tell him the truth but not yet. You wanted to plan things out and make it memorable. You were going to tell him everything and you didn't care if his family were what they were. He was different and you were madly in love with him. Maybe this was your chance to stop the hunt and rejoice.

"I'm going to kiss you now. And I don't care if I get sick." He said and didn't give you a chance to react before bringing his lips towards yours. You didn't take long to respond. You wanted him just as bad.

He guided you up more so you could lay comfortably on your bed as he had you wrap your legs around his waist. Your breath was getting thinner, causing him to kiss farther down your neck. You held your breath trying to stay in control especially from your powers.

His hands start to wander up your loose tee, leaving goosebumps in its place. He sensed your stiffness and looked up at you concerned. "You want me to stop?"

"No, no. I'm fine. I'm just....not used to this." You laughed sweetly. "I've moved around so much I never even spoken to a guy before."

"Remember our first date? We both are sacrificial." He said causing you to blush.

"I'm ready to lose mine if you are?" You bit your lip.

"You sure? We won't be able to help out the witches or-"

"Oh shut it. We will be safe now." You laughed.

"What about your step dad?" He asked.

"You said he was sleeping right? We'll just have to be quiet."

"Okay." You bit your lip as he started kiss down your chest. He had your shirt off in a second and was already working on your bra. You just let him take control as you tried to stabilize yourself from destroying your room.

He quickly moved down father, removing your shorts, along with your underwear. He leaned down kissing up your thigh until he came closer to your most sensitive area. It definitely wasn't like anything you have ever experienced before that you had to clump your first together as they started to heat up from your overwhelming powers. You let out deep breaths trying to contain the audio moans that were trying to escape past your lips. You grabbed the hairs in the back of his head as he continued to please every inch of you.

He suddenly pulled up as he stared at your weakness. "You alright? You're burning up."

"Yes. Please keep going." He smirked at your words and pulled off his jacket. He leaned down once again back where he was until he figured you had a taste and got back up removing his shirt. You followed and sat up already reaching for his jeans, helping him in the process.

You couldn't help but stare as you finally had him undressed. He noticed and couldn't help but blush that he had you pinned to the bed once again ready to take control.

"Just let me know if you want me to stop."

You nodded. You knew the obvious when it came to the first time. Pain.

"I'll go slow." He whispered as he made his way under the blankets with you. He kissed your lips passionate then looked down to guide himself below. You felt chills once you felt his member brush through your folds. You winched in pain as he slowly started to rock against you to try to adjust.

"You okay."

"Yeah." You smiled. He grabbed your hand sweetly.

He slowly started thrusting which caused more pain. The pain was worse then you thought causing you to clench your teeth, but it eventually smooth and you felt the pleasure start to take hold.

"You can go faster." He looked at you surprised.

"You sure?"

"Yeah." You caressed his cheek.

He started quickening his speed against you and that's when you finally felt comfortable. You could tell he was more comfortable as well as he started kissing down your neck.

You couldn't help but moan as he kissed along your collar bone, you couldn't contain yourself anymore.

"I'm not hurting you am I?" Changkyun looked at you to make sure you were okay since your eyes were closed tightly.

"I'm great." You smiled out of breath.

You wrapped your hands around his back as he sped up once again causing the pleasure to stir up into your stomach. You could tell he was close as well since he started moving unsteadily.

"Oww." He winched in pain as your fingers dug into his back.

"Sorry." He kissed your lips with a smile as you felt him slow down and finally release inside the condom, causing you to reach your climax as well. He still thrust against you slowly to work down from his climax.

Once the feeling subside he collapsed on the bed next to you. You felt paralyzed lying there, letting every possible emotion flood through.

He leaned up to look around your room suspiciously. "Were your candles always lit?"

You looked up following his gaze. You mentally slapped your self. You thought you had your powers under control but you guess it was impossible. At least you didn't destroy your house.

You couldn't help but laugh thinking about it. "I guess I knew you were coming."

You cuddled up into his chest, which felt like forever until he started to get up.

"You can stay if you like." You blushed. "My aunt probably won't be back until later." You couldn't help but notice the burn fingertip marks that were now scarred on his back. That's what your magic does when you had no control. Fire. You were lucky that it didn't grow worse.

"I would love to but knowing my family, they'll probably go out on a hunt for me." He rolled his eyes.

You nodded getting up and wrapped your sheet around you. "Oh here." You handed him his bracelet as he was getting ready to leave.

"Oh thanks. My aunt just gave this to me, she'd probably flip out if I lost it." He laughed.

"I hope you don't mind but I might keep this a little longer." You smirked pointing to the jacket.

"Keep it as long as you want." He smiled.

"So how long is your family in town?" You continued to ask.

"Not sure. Kind of just wish they would leave already." He laughed but you can tell he was serious.

"Why what's wrong?" You lied already knowing the answer.

"They're just a little weird. And I'm forced to keep them company." He rolled his eyes once again.

"I'll try to see you later." He smiled as he held up your hand and leaned in to kiss it until he took a glimpse at your burned finger tips. "What happened?" He asked concerned.

"Oh....that." You quickly took your hand away. You almost forgot about the damage his mountain ash bracelet left.

"I was trying to cook breakfast this morning and accidentally touched the burner." You lied. "I'm fine."

"You sure it looks pretty brutal."

"Yeah. I'll just buy some burn ointment or something." You shrugged.

"Or maybe find some natural herbs in your spell book of yours." He teased that you quickly laughed to hide your awkward expression.

"Sure." You nodded.

.....

You couldn't handle it anymore. You cared for Changkyun to much, you needed to be normal. You have to be. If you wanted a normal life and keep Changkyun safe you needed to find away to get rid of your powers. It was dumb and reckless but you had to try.

You went down the dark alley to the supposed 'spell shop' that you aunt got her herbs from.

The shop stood out like a sore thumb compared to the other shops. It was suspiciously creepy. The door had an obnoxious creek as soon as you entered probably alerting the whole neighborhood.

"Hello dear, what can I do for you?" An older women spoke behind the counter.

"Just here to look at some books." You smiled avoiding her stare.

"A spell book?"

"Well this is a book store." You laughed nervously.

"You don't have to hide in here dear. I'm not so different." She said causing you to turn towards her.

"What do you mean?" You played dumb.

"Please girl. I can just feel how powerful you are......I'm guessing you don't know it yourself."

"How can you tell?"

"You wouldn't be here." She stated the obvious. "So....What are you looking for?"

"I was wondering if you have the spell book of Levisa Mandrake?"

She looked surprised from your request. "Why would you need such a book?"

"I want to be normal." You said just getting to the point.

"Ahh I see." You couldn't read her expression. "That's very risky."

"How so? I just want to be able to live through my life without fear or secrets." You sighed.

"Because all the spells in that book are dangerous. They use it against other witches.....not on themselves."

"But doesn't it destroy magic?" You asked growing impatient.

"It has yes, but it can also kill a witch." She began. "Only a few witches have survived such a spell."

"Well I'm pretty much dead anyways with these powers. I need them gone." You raised your voice.

"Alright. This way." She had you follow her far back in the darkest parts of the shop. She pulled out a key to unlock the glass case.

"That's all it takes? A key." You laughed confused.

"Of course not dear. This key is made with mistletoe. It's very powerful."

She rummaged through until she found the fight book. It had a lock and key and she immediately brought it up to the counter.

"Thank you, how much?" You asked ready to get your wallet.

"No money."

"Oh then how do I-" She grabbed your hand placing it over some kind of glass vile and had a blade aiming towards your finger. "Hey What are you doin- aish." You winched in pain as she drew blood filling up the container.

"Your payment is your blood." She put a cork on the top and wrapped it in cloth. "Don't be reckless." She said putting the book in a bag along with some kind of sack.

You left with an uneasy feeling in your gut. You may be some kind of powerful witch but there was still so much you didn't know about. Darker stuff you felt you shouldn't mess with. You felt like you probably should have never stepped foot in that shop but the only positive thing was you had a chance to be normal and that was all that matters.

-

>>To Changkyun: [6:23 P.M] Hey you home?? I need to see you

You wanted to see Changkyun one last time before you went forward with your spell. If what the lady said was true and there was a possibility that you could die, you need to see him, just case you don't get another chance.

~~

"Shoot the target." Changkyun's brother pointed to the tree with a giant red 'X'.

"Why do I have to do this? Isn't it my choice?"

"Just think of it as self defense training."

"Like I will be carrying a crossbow everywhere." He laughed at his statement.

"Maybe you should."

"Because there is so called witches that will attack me."

"It's not funny man." His brother raised his voice. "This isn't some fairytale."

"We are talking about witches. They aren't real." I.M responded back.

"What about the one in the basement?"

"Just because she had some allergic reaction to some dirt doesn't make her a witch. You guys kid napping some innocent girl is really fucked up and I don't want any part of it."

"When are you gonna grow up? One day this shit will bite you in the ass and I'm not gonna be there to save you." His brother snapped.

"Maybe I'm not the one who needs saving." Changkyun tapped the trigger sending the arrow straight to the bullseye. He dropped the crossbow walking away alone.

Once his brother leaned down to collect he noticed a black shadow starring at him in the distance. He could make it out as some women. He quickly ran to his bag to grab another arrow but once he looked up the figure was gone.

....

Changkyun didn't even want to go home. He walked as long as he needed to clear his head until he ended at his door.

She's not spilling." Changkyun over heard his aunt talking to his dad. "We know she's here. I can just feel it. Should we just kill her?"

"Snoop much." His brother interfered exposing him.

"I.M, where have you been?" His father sighed.

"Just a walk." He shrugged.

"Alright. Go get ready for dinner." His father sent him off but his aunt stopped him.

"No no, he's part of this now, he should listen. And he goes to school he can help us." His aunt spoke almost excited.

"Any newer students at your school, specifically a girl who seems off?" His aunt started. "She would be around your age."

"Not that I know of-" Changkyun started to speak confused.

"Isn't your girlfriend a newer student? She just moved to that old house down the road." His brother smirked.

"Bingo." She smiled crookedly.

"No, what are you saying? That she's a witch?" He said defensive.

"She just moved here?" His aunt spoke.

"Yeah so what? We have new kids all the time."

"Alright aright. Just keep an eye out for her to make sure."

"She's not a witch." He raised his voice.

"Let me ask one question." His aunt started her interrogation. "Have you been wearing the bracelet?"

"Yeah."

"Did she touch it or react to it in any way?"

"No. She even handed it to me."

"Why did she have it?"

"I forgot it at her house."

"I.M you need to wear that bracelet all the time." His father raised his voice.

"I know I'm sorry. I am wearing it. Can I leave now?"

"Fine."

"What are we going to do?" His aunt whispered to his father. "He's obviously fallen in love with the little witch."

"Let's not be accusing quite yet. It doesn't seem she's dangerous."

"What if she is the (Y/L/N) witch. Then he's in more danger then we know."

"How about we invite her over for dinner and see for ourselves." His father spoke.

"That's a good idea. Expose her for what she really is." His aunt smiled. "Can't wait."

~~

"Why aren't you answering me?" You growled into your phone as you stood outside his house.

You paced back and fourth outside his house because you didn't want to walk into the wolf's den. You figured you can just wait until he answers you back.

"Great I probably look like an idiot....or worse a stalker." You whined. "Now I'm talking to myself.

"Can I help you?" You saw a woman standing at his door confused.

"Oh um....Is Changkyun home? By any chance." You sounded embarrassingly nervous.

"Are you his girlfriend?" She asked.

"Oh yeah." You smiled.

"Great. We are just about to have dinner, please join us." She said welcoming.

"Okay." You shrugged.

She led you inside and already started making you a place at dinner. "Changkyun....you have a visitor." His aunt called from the stairs.

As soon as Changkyun ran down the stairs, he made eye contact with you and you expected a smile or at least a look of compassion but it was the opposite.

He looked at you with fear and panic and it worried you. A deep chill down your spine. What was wrong?

[livingasaghost]

is this too personal? should it go on my private journal blog? maybe so. but i don’t fucking care.

listen i know to fall in love is like THE PEAK of the human experience (for some people, or at least that’s what the allo world has led me to believe) and i do in fact know it EXISTS like i know true love is real and it’s out there and people are living a fairytale where someone will stay married to you for like 30+ years and they will do ANYTHING you ask them too just bc they think you’re cool but like.........the fuck of it all is that i still believe romance isn’t meant for me

way back when i started this blog when i was but a dumb high school child i would always get pent up on line UGH ALAS NO ONE WILL LOVE ME I AM GROSS AND STUPID! (which like...valid) and i kept feeling shitty bc everyone was falling in love (none of those couples save the one shitty one survived that hellhole) and no boys would pay attention to me (me, a girl who stayed at home 90% of the time, did no extra curriculars outside of guitar lessons, and did not EVER interact with the boys in her classes unless forced to) and also i think i just hated myself (still valid sometimes) ...wait where was i going with this...OH YEAH i kept feeling sorry for myself bc NO ONE WOULD EVER LOVE ME and it felt like some huge travesty that no guy would ever tell me he thinks i’m special and beautiful and that he would do my laundry for me if i asked (the golden standard honestly). which like...in some ways, might be true. i do think true love is special and i think everyone deserves a shot at finding that, but i think it’s been cool to see my views on all this change over the past few years.

it’s not that i don’t believe in love. it’s not even that i believe i’m undeserving of it or that no man will ever find me attractive (bc honey i am GORGEOUS and i don’t CARE). like i think if i put myself out there and did try to go on dating apps or meet people at parties or go to bars i COULD do it. like i DID go on a date last year and that guy was VERY MUCH into me. and it was sweet. it was nice to have those nervous butterflies bc OMG WAIT YOU THINK IM CUTE??? NO WAY like yes that was nice! so clearly it can happen! it’s a thing! but like...i think i’ve become more exposed to that stuff and i’ve been in those situtations and i’ve realized that i am much more aroace than i thought. i still don’t think i’m aro, by any means, bc i genuinely love romance books (which means i like romance yes????? who’s to say) but like...man the idea of being IN A RELATIONSHIP...it’s weird man. 

what’s odd is that up until like...2008/2009ish i don’t think i EVER was fantasizing about marriage/falling in love...at least not like that, not dramatically. i remember in 8th grade i went to oh lord it was a BIBLE STUDY OF ALL PLACES and the girls were like ��so are you praying for your future husband????” and i was like uhhh what and then i SPIRALED SO HARD after that bc i was like FUCK I MIGHT HAVE A FUTURE HUSBAND!!! WOW!!!! A WEDDING IS SO PRETTY!!! I SHOULD HAVE THAT!! I GET TO HAVE THAT!! THE UNIVERSE/GOD OWES ME THAT!!!! I’M GONNA BE THAT!!!! and like the fuck of it all is that if i had never had that realization, had never seen bride wars or started a journal to my future husband (PLZ LAUGH BC IT’S THE SADDEST MOST HETERO THING I HAVE EVER DONE AND I HATE IT BUT I KEEP IT BC IT’S A JOURNAL OF THAT TIME OF MY LIFE) i don’t think i would have spiraled so much in high school fearing i’d end up alone. like sure when i started reading romance books i got sad too, but i don’t think i realized until that age that like...i was so invested in marriage? (yes we switched from love to married we’ll get to that - apparently it’s therapy time????) like i think i always assumed it’d happen for me bc doesn’t everyone get married and have kids? (my sweet summer child oh boy the brainwashing was deep) and it’s like.......fine. bc marriage is fine. love is fine and great whatever. (and i had a great marriage to learn from) but also...........all those expectations were pinned upon me when in actuality what i’m realizing now is that IT DOESN’T FUCKING MATTER!!!!!!

like i’ve been to a number of weddings now and i’ve seen friends get engaged, have breakups, fall headfirst in love and then fall out it just as quick, i’ve seen friends be single and have hook-ups and get married and have their heart broken and like....even though in my heart of hearts i know it’s worth it if you find it, i also know that i wouldn’t know how to handle it. like i’ve read books about it all, i’ve listened to the songs, hell i HAVE watched other people go through it all...but i still don’t know what mine would be. bc the fuck of it all is that 1) i rarely feel attraction to anyone, and i haven’t met someone i’ve been attracted to since 2010 (!!!!) 2) at the end of the day i don’t think i necessarily want a physical relationship (which is kind of half the reason people marry right?) and 3) i don’t think i can imagine myself being that intimate with another person. 

is it possible? yes. maybe one day in another 10 years i’ll make another leap and i’ll be living somewhere like new york and i’ll meet some guy through a job or through travel or through some weird twist of fate and we DO hit it off and everything works out and suddenly i realize that i can only be comfortable with this ONE person and thus we take it slow and eventually get physical and get married and HOORAY ITS ALL FINE IM NORMAL and as it turns out the gut feeling i had at 16 was correct and i AM actually demisexual! could happen. i wouldn’t be totally shocked. but i also know that right now...it’s not a possibility. it would take a LOT for me to be in that place. and i think that’s the difference. ten years ago in high school i just assumed i was normal, i assumed if i got what i thought i wanted it’d all work out and be fine and i’d be happy bc I WAS IN LOVE. but the fuck of it all is that that first date i had? it was proof that you should be careful what you wish for. i don’t want a boy to kiss me. i don’t want a boy to hold my hand. i want someone to talk to, who likes what i like, who supports me and thinks i’m cool, who’ll buy me nice presents sometimes and see me for who i am and not run away. and honestly? i HAVE THAT. i have a few people like that actually.

what i realized was that what i ACTUALLY want, is for the butterfly feeling. that feeling you get where you’re like nervous bc the other person said they think you’re cute and they want to learn more about you and they’re interested in you and they SEE YOU and you feel the same way about them and you think they’re nice to look at and they think you’re nice to look at. that’s what i want. i want the butterflies. i want to be attracted to someone. i haven’t felt that in GOD so many FUCKING YEARS. i mean i feel that with fictional characters sure, but we all know that’s stupid and doesn’t count. 

like i kid you not i’ve only been attracted to two (possibly 3, but i’m not counting the 3rd) people in my entire life. just two. (i don’t count the celebrities and characters and things although i guess if i did it’d be up to like 5-10 maybe) but like people i’ve met? two. that’s it. and it’s all so STUPID. bc it DOESN’T MATTER! like i feel weird being like LOVE ISN’T FOR ME I DON’T WANT IT! bc it feels like a lie and i do know i would like someone to fall in love with me. but genuinely, truly, i feel like a different person that the hopeless girl i was in 2010 bc...i don’t need it. i don’t know what i’d do with it. i don’t want someone to touch me. 

the great thing about all this that i realized a long time ago is that this bitch is never going to have a bad heartbreak. and i know the saying better to have loved than never love at all.......but i do love. i love all the time so much that sometimes i can’t breathe. i just...don’t have that kind of love. and it’s okay. bc no one will EVER hurt me like that. 

like i always said if i WAS going to fall in love it would happen ONCE like i will not be dating multiple people in my lifetime, hell i probably won’t even go on that many dates without finding THE PERSON bc in part i don’t put myself out there often, but mainly bc i KNOW people. i know myself, i know what i want, i have intuition about all that and i truly genuinely think that if i ever found it, it’d be that or nothing. bc i also think the person i’d be into would be similar. and i know people probably think that’s stupid and also there’s nothing wrong with dating a lot of people in your lifetime, in falling in love more than once, but like...i’m not that kind of person. i think part of me really does believe in soulmates, even if there is some level of free will in the world outside of determinism. 

but because i feel like that, and bc of my very VERY private personality (who doesn’t let people in easily, who doesn’t care casually, who doesn’t give my heart away without protecting itself) i just don’t think i’d ever let myself...oh no here is a dark truth YIKES...i don’t think i’d ever let myself feel that deeply about someone. 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well this is an interesting thought

which is the PERFECT start to a romance novel i might add

like i feel a LOT don’t get me wrong. i may repress my emotions but ya girl has a lot of passion a lot of love a lot of feelings for things. and i do love some people A LOT. like friends mainly. i love them SO MUCH (too much) and the ones who are STILL my friends...i have learned how to let them live their lives. i love them desperately, they inevitably let me down or move or fall in love (jesus christ it’s the worst) or whatever, and then things shift and i tell myself “hey you know what? it’s okay, you’re clearly no longer the most important thing in their life, so you can just pull back and not invest so much in them bc clearly they want to invest in other things and that’s okay!!” and then i move all my affection to someone else who DOES want it at that time, and thus i let people go bc i give them the space i assume they need and then the space gets to big and we can’t overcome it bc i don’t know what i’m supposed to fight or go back or try again or whatever and then they don’t fight for me (maybe bc i didn’t fight first, maybe bc they just stopped caring about me) and then suddenly...it’s over and i’m sad but i’ve put so much distance between us that i don’t really feel anything anymore. like oh my god what the fuck

literally my heart’s self-destruct protocol is that when i notice someone slipping away and stop caring about me i just assume the worst and immediately stop caring about them and then they can’t really hurt me. so the ones who HAVE hurt me are the ones who directly called me out and lied to me or did something bad. most of the people i drifted from who i once ADORED really only stopped being close to me because i thought they didn’t want me around anymore and i didn’t want to be annoying. (or bc i pushed them away bc i didn’t want them but that’s another thing) so like truly i think it would have to be someone being MEAN to me out of nowhere bc otherwise i’d just be like “it’s cool, we grew apart, i’ll get over it” (which i dont believe someone who really loved me would do) ahhhhhhhhhhhh

...

so anyway we all know this is hypothetical and obviously i wouldn’t know how i’d genuinely react if i fell in love but we also know that i WON’T fall in love in the next 5-10 years (prove me wrong by tyler joseph) but it’s fucking VALENTINES DAY WEEK and literally this happens every year bc i try and convince myself that HEY! YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE IN LOVE DAMMIT! but then sometimes i think FUCK! I WANT TO BE IN LOVE DAMMIT! and it’s like honestly yeah mood....but they can coexist. i want to fall in love. i know i would not do well in a romantic relationship right now. i also know i deserve love, and i would be a great partner to someone. but i also know it’s all complicated and fucked up and difficult and i don’t meet people anyway and i wonder if my real partner is somewhere waiting in new york and and and and and and and i’m just so FUCKING SICK OF IT ALL!!!!!!! truly!!!!! i’m sick of feeling inadequate just bc i don’t want to kiss a boy. i’m sick of feeling obligated to fall into society’s romantic norms. i’m sick of waiting for someone to love me and treat me well when i have people who do that already. i’m sick of my friends falling in love, sick of people having their heart broke bc they fall for shitty people...i’m sick of shitty people breaking other people’s hearts for no reason. i’m sick of my awesome parents and their absolutely beautiful true love. i’m sick of being single. i’m sick of daydreaming about what it’d be like to be romantically attracted to someone. i’m sick of reading romance books and i’m sick of wishing i was in one. i’m sick of being asexual. i’m sick of allosexual people. i’m sick of watching people make out. i’m sick of my friends falling in love and then treating their friends like shit just bc they only care about their significant other. i’m sick of VALENTINES DAY!!! i’m sick of weddings!!!! i’m sick of conventional hetero norms!!!! i’m sick of love songs and dating apps and feeling like my worth is tied to someone loving me romantically. i’m sick of SEX OH MY GOD PLZ MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!!! 

i can’t believe my therapist tried to tell me that i would always be a little lonely if i never had a romantic/sexual partner. fuck that. you don’t need anything but your friends and your family and your own self love. god is big enough.

I’M NOT LONELY I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO SEE AND UNDERSTAND ME AND LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM!!!!!

...

just had a weird thought that i can never be an authentic christian bc half my friends aren’t christian so around them i act like christanity is a joke (in some ways it is?) but i also can’t be authentic around my christian friends bc some of the things they say i can’t fully stand behind either bc i am a secular person too and it’s just like WE REALLY CAN’T WIN HUH GOD!!!!! i love being unknowable!!!! at least i have laura shes the only person who understands both sides that’s nice

oh my god i get to hug laura the day after tomorrow 

...

anyway. 

can’t wait to be the random single family member who shows up at all the family gatherings while all my cousins get married and have kids! i finally have accepted that i get to live that dream and WOW IT FEELS GOOD!!!!!!

[littlemisssquiggles]

So I'm currently head-over-heels for The Dragon Prince and I don't think anything will pull me out of this obsession for a long time. While I'm crying over this show, what did you personally enjoy about the quality of the plot and the characters in general? I'd love to hear your opinion from your amazing writing while I (im)patiently wait for season 3.

Hey there Snowflake. Sorry for the late response. That’sactually a really good question. Admittedly, what first drew me into The Dragon Prince series was the fact that it was created by the one of the originalHead Writers for Avatar:The Last Airbender.

A:TLA will always remain a gem inmy all time favourite animated series list so knowing that one of the men responsiblefor shaping its story branched out and made his own thing immediately peaked myintrigue. It was basically the same sentiment Ihad when I first heard about RWBY being a fan of Monty since his fan made animations like Dead Fantasy.

It’s kind of hard for me to describeexactly what it is that appeals to me the most about the writing for The Dragon Prince. I guess if I’m being completely honest here, what I love mostabout this series are itscharacters. More importantly I love how theseries writes its characters and treats them.

This might be an odd question to ask but have you ever been invested in a series where you got the sense that atsome point the show-runners just forgot how to write for their own establishedcharacters? So instead we get moments where characters behave out of characterbased on what the series has established as their personality and you get thesense that they are only acting this way for the sake of pushing the plot regardless of whether or not the characters’ actions makes sensein the context of who they are as…well…a character?

I’ll give you an example soallow me to deviate here for a sec. Are you familiar with a series calledMiraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Chat Noir? In case you don’t know, it is aFrench 3D animated series following the heroic conquests of Ladybug and ChatNoir---two teenage heroes tasked with protecting the city of Paris from thenefarious masked villain known as Hawkmoth who uses butterfly-type monstersknown as Akuma to infest unsuspecting citizens; feeding into their negativeemotions to transform them into supervillains who Hawkmoth then task to stealLadybug and Chat Noir’s miraculouses which are the source of their power.

There’s also the titbit where Ladybugand Chat Noir are each other’s love interests, both in and out of costume. Ladybug isactually a young girl named MarinetteDupain-Cheng, who in her civilian form is in love witha boy in her class named Adrien Agreste. However unbeknownst to Marinette, hercrush Adrien is actually Chat Noir---her partner in crime-fighting and as Chat Noir, Adrien is inlove with Marinette as Ladybug.

The whole point of the series is that thesetwo knucklehead teen superheroes are in love with each other but as each other’s counterparts while being completely oblivious to the truth abouttheir respective identities. It’s a brilliant concept and if all of that sounds like something very interestingto you then it is.

Despite what I’m about to say, keep inmind that Miraculous is a really goodshow . In spite of my current misgivingsabout it as someone who has been with its since its first season, I would still recommend it to anyone curious about giving it a watch.

It’s a delightful cute show. I justhave some things to say about it but this is only myopinion . Even if you might appreciate mythoughts and views on certain things, my opinionis NOT law.  My opinion is only a representation of mythoughts and feelings toward a piece of medium I indulge in. It’s not a reflection of the overall quality of the medium. Those views are up to you. 

Forgive me if I sound like I’m ramblingnow but I genuinely feel it important to give that small disclaimer since wekind of live in an era of free speech where others use their opinions to lambastothers on why their opinions are right or wrong; based on their opinion.

I am not one of those people. You areallowed to like or dislike something regardless of whether or not you agreewith my opinion of it and vice versa. All I ask is for respect of my views and I shall give that of yours in return.

That being said, let’s talk Miraculous. Andin regards to how on earth this ties into TheDragon Prince, we’ll get to that surely.

At the start, Miraculous was one of my favourite animated series especially as a fan of 3D art and animation.I also couldn’t get enough of the whole Ladybug and Chat Noir love story especiallywith all the multiple pairings that branched out from this one couple---Ladynoir, Adrinette, Marichat and Ladrien. It was silly but adorable all the same and I ate up the fluff like the hopeless romantic I am. 

However; as the seasons went by, itultimately became rather difficult for me to remain truly invested in seeing these two characters achieve their goals since I couldn’t relate to them anymore. 

It’s glaringlybothersome to me now how everything is just always handed to Marinette/Ladybug, our so-calledbeloved protagonist; even when her actions of the day might prove that she doesn’t deserve it. And it certainly doesn’t help when this is done at time at the expense of Chat Noir/Adrien who is often kept in the dark when he’s supposed to be the deuteragonist who shares relevance to the plot as our main heroine.  

It’s hard for me to care aboutthe relationship between Adrien and Marinette/ Ladybug and Chat Noir anymorewhen the show constantly contradicts itself on wanting to show their relationshipmoving forward while also backpedaling in other episodes (for example: episodes such as Animaestro and Oblivio from the current third season).

This makes any progression the plotattempts to pull for their development feel pointless in the end and after three seasons of this tango, as a Miraculer, I’vesadly lost interest in wanting to see our two heroes get together.  This is sad because that’s technically the backbone ofthe show. Fans know that Ladybug and Chat Noir are going to get together because theplot has established that from the get-go and constantly reminds the audiencethat this is going to be a sure endgame. But where it ultimately fell short for me iskeeping me invested in the pairing. While I’ll admit that I was fully on board forthis ride when it first started, now after three seasons, I’m tired. The whole ‘Oooh! Will Ladybug and Chat Noir fall in love both as superheroes and civilians? Will they learn each other’s true identities’ song and dance has become stale for me and even the introduction of imposter love interests doesn’t help.

It only serves to kind of sour the pot for me. Why bother developing these fake relationships when you’ve done the equivalent of nothing to help progress Marinette and Adrien’s relationship both as themselves and as heroes. Season 2 started us off with something that could’ve been potentially great if furthered in its current season but so far, Season 3 hasn’t done much to service the development left behind from that last season.

All things considered, I still like Miraculous andI’m still going to keep tuning in for future episodes since thereare other aspects and characters within the show that I liked enough to keep medevoted.

I still like Adrien very much as one ofthe supposed main two characters (even when the show might make you thinkotherwise). But in regards to LB and CN’s whole song and dance with their so-calledlove story, it’s hard to cheer for a relationship between two characters whenthe show constantly flip flops on what their relationship is supposed to be.

One minute they are destined partners; made for each other because they are meant to be important to eachother. Therefore, their strong dynamic is meant to be proof of what makesthem work as both a team and potential lovers. Next minute Ladybug is a ‘strong, independent heroine who doesn’t needChat Noir’ and he’s painted as more of a liabilityto her than an asset---the loveable yet fumbling bumbling idiot sidekick whosesole purpose is to be a dude inthe distress for the sake of pumping up Ladybug’salready plot-inflated ego all the while gullibly kissing her ass even duringmoments when she treats him terribly.

I humbly apologize in advance if thereare any fellow miraculers reading this response post who might feel veryoffended by my comments toward Miraculous. I’ll admit. My words are indeed harsh. Sorry. But... I still wishto stand by them because they are a blunt representation of my current stancetoward the current state of writing within the show.

I used to reallylike how Miraculous portrayed itscharacters. Loved it even. For three years, Miraculous was my top favourite show and fandom. But following the end of itssecond season, I don’t know how to feel about it anymore. I still like it but its characters man---my interest in their growth is dwindling. 

I guess the biggest gripe for me with Miraculous atthe moment is that I don’t feel as if the characters have really grown at allsince the show first started. Even after two full seasons going into its thirdrun; despite the plot thrusting them into scenarios that one would assume would help them to change (for better or worse), these characters---at least our main ones feel thesame. I know the show has done things to show progression for its charactersespecially in terms of relationships. However it all feels meaningless in the end.

And the flip flopping doesn’t help thiscase. At times, I felt as if Miraculous was being written by two different typesof writers. One who wants to show these characters growing from the people theyused to be because they are meant to while another just wants to keep thesecharacters in the same tropes they started off with. I’m not sure if any other Miraculershares the same opinion but that’s how I feel.

That being said and getting back ontrack, it’s the complete opposite with TheDragon Prince. In this show, I can tell that theplot actually does affect the characters and they react to them in ways you might expecttheir character to react to it given their established personalities. I also lovehow the Dragon Prince has this nice balance to it.  It knows how to juggle its more and heart-wrenching serious moments with its comedy in a way that rarely feels jarring. At least to me.

In TDP, I get the stronger sense that thesecharacters shapes the story in the world around with their adventures and individual experiences being veyr important to the narrative as opposed to the contrary where the story is this and these characters are molded to fit whatever story the writers feel to thrust them into; if that makes sense. And this all boils back to just how much I lovethe characters of this show. I don’t think there is a single character in theTDP cast that I don’t like.

I even have a soft spot in my heart forthe supporting side characters who our Dragonic Trio occasionally interact with during their travels. This is why I was so relieved to see Grenfinally be freed in Book 2. It’s about time my beautiful strawberry man gotfreed.

The DragonPrince is so great that I even care about itsvillain characters as much as the heroes. Even though Lord Viren and hischildren: Claudia and Soren are painted as the antagonists to our Dragonic Trio, I like that there is so much more to them than just that. On the contrary, there are aspects ofthese three that makes me think they’re not villains. Particularly Lord Viren. The guy isn’t just the classic mustache twirling bad guy. He has layers. Depth. 

I understand that Lord Viren is supposedto the bad guy however; he’s not entirely bad. There is a good side to him and its evidence in his relationship with the royal family. You cantell that Viren genuinely cared for King Harrow and had great respect for Queen Sarai since she saved his life. 

I guess what I’m trying to say is thatthe characters of TDP feel real to me. They don’t feel like just characters in a story. They feel like peoplewith experiences that their audience can relate to. Connect with. The Dragon Writers know and understand their characters as people and know how to write for their characters and because of howwell they’ve portrayed them, it makes me as the viewer more interested in theirstories as the main plot carries on.

I pray that the Dragon Writers keepthis up going forward with the remaining books. Sometimes show-runners start to suffer from writer’s fatigue and/or forget how to write for the verycharacters they created the longer the plot is stretched to the point that the series comes to feel like it lost direction at some point (coughsVoltroncoughs). 

I hope this won’t be the case for the Dragon Writers.Two seasons in and these guys continue to keep me loving their world and Icannot wait to see these characters be fleshed out further in the upcoming book. The Dragon Prince Book 3 cannot come any quicker.

I can’t wait to see what Rayla and Callum’s adventures with Zym across Xadia will be like. I still can’t believe they separated the Dragonic Trio. Usually you have to wait like…what…three-four seasons to get the squad ripped apart but nah…The Dragon Prince did that in season two.

Still in shock over that. But as much as I’m going tomiss Ezran in the party, I’d by totally lying if my Rayllum shipping heart isn’t beyondecstatic to see what these two duo adventures together will belike. Particularly following Rayla’s near confession.

I’m curious to see how that will affectthe way Rayla interacts with Callum from now on. I’m mostly just excited to see blushingRayla awkward about her crush on Callum. As of Book2, I think it’s safe to say that Callummight be over his crush on Claudia. Or perhaps his resentment over hers and Soren’s betrayal currently outweighsany former romantic feelings he might still have for her. Feels bad m’dude. I don’t ship Callum with Claudia at all but that doesn’t mean I want Callum to hate her.I really like Claudia as a character and I want the best for her and Soren too.My children are going down a dark path and I don’t like it. Especially Claudia. I still stand with my theory where I don’t think Book 2 will be the last timeClaudia will use the extreme form of dark magic to aid with Soren’s paralysis.I still think Soren is still permanently paralyzed and that Claudia’s spell isonly a temporary fix meaning that Claudia may have to keep performing Viren levels ofdraining magic from other magical beings to keep her brother stable…which is going taint herso much. I just hope that in the end, Soren will be the one to save his sisterfrom her own damnation.

At the end of the day, Soren and Claudia love each other and will do anythingfor each other. If there is anyone I trust to save Claudia should she ever loseherself to dark magic (which let’s just face it, will tragically happen down the line); it’s Soren--- thevery person she’s doing this for. Damn! The Writing for these two is so good! Megaprops to the Dragon Writers for writing such an engaging, strong brother andsister dynamic and sibling love and loyalty to one another without making it borderline…well…incestuous.  

I don’t want to see Claudia fallto the dark side, guys. Despite being a firm user ofdark magic like her father, Claudia is actually the opposite of her chosen element. I feel as if Claudia was willing to theput in the effort to awakening her arcana as Callum did, she could possibilitybe another Sky Mage like Callum or perhaps an Ocean Mage. Or maybe an Earth Mage? Who knows. It’s all just theories and speculation of mine for now.

Speaking of which; next up is Ezran. I’m excited to see what his travels will be like. Ezran is so young yet he’s sodown to earth and possesses a level headed maturity and outlook on the world around him that one can appreciate.Ezran will make a great king some day and if Book3 is the kick-starter to that part ofhis arc towards that goal then bring it.

I am ready to follow Prince Ezran on his own separate journey back home with Smexy Dreadlock Man (I’m sorry his name escapes me at the moment but his handsomeness doesn’t).

This also makes me curious if Ezranwill ever get to meet the young queen---the daughter of the Two Queens who gavetheir lives along with Ezran’s mom. I’m actually really, really interested inseeing Prince Ezran meeting QueenAanya.

I kind of low-key ship Aanya and Ezran. Yes, I know they haven’t met at all and we have zero idea of howthese two would get along should they encounter each other. Nonetheless, theidea of Ezran and Aanya coming together intrigues me because of how perfect itwould be should it happen.

I love the idea of Ezran someday possibly marrying Aanya with thetwo joining their kingdoms. After all, theQueens of Duran sought out King Harrow during their crisis in the winter andKing Harrow was willing to open his kingdom to the People of Duran.

Sure Viren tried to fight against it atfirst but Harrow stuck to his guns. Both Ezran and Aanya are currently the very young heirs to their respective thrones expected to lead their people. Aanyahas already begun her ruling and now Ezran is on his way to reclaim his throne. Bothlost their mothers who sacrificed their lives for their people. If Ezran andAanya meet, I think they can hit it off and make great friends. While I doubt romance willbe a thing for them since they are still children, I still want these two tomeet and form a close long-lastingfriendship that could one day potentially lead toa union that unites two kingdoms like their parents did long ago. But that’sjust me with my theories.

I’m hoping that Ezran’s adventures withSmexy Dreadlock Man will lead to him possibly passing through Duran while alsoencountering BirdHarrow along the way. That’s a reunion I’malso looking forward to.

And yeah, that’s pretty much all I haveto say for now on The Dragon Prince and its upcoming season. 

Fair notSnowflake, you’re not the only one excited for Book 3. Maybe you should follow Tim Kamiski on Twitter. I believe he’s an Art Director at Wonderstorm working on TheDragon Prince Game. He released a poster art for Book 3 that looks hype.

It’s a shame we’ll possibly have towait till early next year for Book 3. But until such a time, I hope my response toyour question was a good enough one to help you ride the Wonderstorm till the next season, fam.

~LittleMissSquiggles(2019)

[jaaebear]

frozen love ; na jaemin

pairing: na jaemin x reader featuring ten and taeyong

genre: angst and maybe some fluff

set out: bulleted scenario bC im lazy 

masterlist

hey kitty gorl ! how are you? if you read this you’re beautiful uwu

anywho, letzzz get it

i hate myself

welcome to this soulmate fic

so b4 we jump in lemme say a few things 

you are a witch surpise biatch

and you live in a world where there are many mythical creatures along with humans

and humans are seen superior 

so that is why the royal family of the world are humans

and who are they? well they’re the na family

the queen and king and their two sons, na jaemin and ten

lets ignore ten’s last name so they’re brothers okay thx 

&& they’re both humans bc they’re the royal family

out of all mythical creatures, witches are the lowest breed of creature

they’re outcast and anybody associated with them are seen as horrible people who don’t deserve anything

this is because decades ago,,,, the king at the time had a soulmate who was a witch

when the witch fell pregnant, she tried to secretly abort her baby with magic as she was young

like 16 young

if anyone here is 16 and a mum, you rock, you go glen coco

when the king found out he was furious and deemed witches as the evilest creatures and shall not be on that same rank of other mythical creatures

they were the outcasts of breeds

and everybody knew who they were because each witch had electric blonde/white hair which couldn’t be achieved even with hair dye

same as everyone knew the royal family for their deep black hair that nobody else had

and for decades after that, the royal family was never paired with witches

now to you

your family though you were going to be an easy child until you were born on a blood moon

but so were like 5 other witches

it was said that the ‘princess’ of witches was born on a blood moon once every 666 years 

long time i know but yolo

and it appeared you were born on a blood moon 666 years after the last princess

and you weren’t call the princess because you were royal, you were called the princess because you had every magical ability known to witches and were seen as more powerful 

ofc the royal family HATED you 

their daughter despised you considering she was born on the same day

so you were an outcast and being the hot head witch you are

you took it out on other witches, torturing them

not seriously but if they needed a pencil, all the pencils would magically disappear

rip

some days you would break and just cry because you wanted to be normal

anyway, everything went to shit when you were eighteen

being eighteen, you had your dark baptism (yes i stole this from the chilling adventures of sabrina don’t @ me) 

and you were at your most powerful

you were going to be this powerful for the next three years of your life

and everything was great but people feared you

you hated that

you constantly went to spell class where you meet selene, your best friend

she was the daughter of witch Lords

which was pretty cool

then one morning you woke up with black roots in your hair, fading into your normal electric blonde and you shit yourself

you didn’t leave your room for days and nobody bothered you, scared you would hurt them

flip to jaemin, 

his older brother ten was just chilling in his room until he heard jaemin scream

he bolted to the room only to notice jaemin in front of the mirror

he thought he was just being dramatic until he noticed that his hair was almost white with black tips

then ten screamed

when the king came in, he fucking lost it

screaming at jaemin for no reason because it was obvious he soulmate was a witch

it was then explained by the King’s cousin that it was a form of soulmate connection

someone people had their eyes connected to their soulmates and they changed to their soulmates colour or 

they had a tattoo, like ten, in the form of their soulmate

ten had wings as his tattoo on his wrist

he later met taeyong, an angel with the most beautiful white wings

taeyong had the word royal on his chest

surprise

they were soulmates

they had married by now

jaemin hated himself

how stupid could he have been to be paired with a witch

but he learned to love it and when you appeared in his dreams

he later learned to love you

you wore a hat everywhere now, concealing your black roots because people would notice

then it started spreading so you wore headscarfs

now you only had white tips left

but nobody knew

selene came racing to you one afternoon, 

telling you how the royal family had put on a ball to find the witch who the son was connected to

little did anyone know, the king planned to kill her

bitch

but she was excited because it was the only royal ball witches were ever invited to

the kingdom was in overdrive for the next few days

they knew the ‘princess of witches’ would be attending so they tried to make everything magic proof

but they failed and gave up

fast forward and its the day

you, selene and her father, The Lord, were standing outside the doors of the palace

“hey what are you doing?”

selene stood in front of you, worry flashing in her dark eyes

she wore a white dress with a lace purple sleeve to indicate she was the lord of witches daughter 

you on the other hand, had a white headscarf on trying to look normal while concealing the black hair 

you wore a simple black dress to blend in to the other witch commoners 

“i can’t do it”

selene explained how you were just going to greet the royal family then you could go hide

 upon receiving a nod from you, she grabbed your hand leading you in

“okay” you say, “let’s get this over with”

the doors opened again and jaemin looked up from his seat to see who had entered 

room was silent as it erupted into whispers and gasps

you didn’t know why until you noticed you were the only one in black

you leaned over into selene and asked her why you were the only one in black

“you said everyone would be wearing black selene! i wanted to blend in!”

“dad said the princess has to wear black and i knew if i told you the truth you wouldn’t come!”

“no i wouldn’t of! you lied to me!”

“y/n” selene’s dad spoke up “they just need to know who to keep an eye on, you’re at your most powerful”

you felt yourself get angry, and hot

selene noticed the tips of your fingers become red

indicating you were channeling fire

one more bad thing would set you off

you hadn’t looked the royal family once 

but you heard the king’s voice into a microphone before you could remove yourself from the front entrance

“please take off the young princess’ headscarf”

you shook your head, backing away from the guard

you almost made it to the door while the guard was talking into an earpiece

“but sir, she has white hair, look at the tips showing”

the king told the man to do as he said and it was only then that it clicked to selene what was happening

“holy shit” she whispered to herself 

and her dad already knew

the royal family had their eyes trained on you 

and when the guard grabbed your headscarf you told him that he didn’t want to do that

but he did anyway

and  the room was crazy after that

a witch, the princess, with black and white hair

“jaemin...” ten started but the boy couldn’t hear him over the people in the room

you still hadn’t looked at him

‘cmon, look at me’

and on que, you lifted your head

your eyes meeting warm brown and noticing the crystal white hair on his head

selene had notice your eyes sporting a small red hue and she was terrified

and then king spoke carefully into the microphone

“kill her”

and that was the last stroke

the curtains of the palace went up in flames, your hands glowing red

you turned towards the guard

“move, before you’re next”

he didn’t but you couldn’t bring yourself to hurt him so you simply teleported out of the room into the palace gardens

na jaemin didn’t thing twice about breaking protocol

he ran out of the room, still feeling your presence near by

and he met you at the gardens

you controlling the plants with your mind, letting them grow into something beautiful

 you turn around to meet him, eyes on the floor

he made his way closer

“hey,” he said “look at me”

“i-i don’t think i can”

you walked toward the fountain making shapes of water in they air

he followed behind you

“please, love, just look at me”

and after a moment, you lifted your eyes to his like you did in the ballroom prior to running out

“your higness”

“please, call me jaemin”

“jaemin...” you tested the name

“i’m sorry about your curtains”

“they’re replaceable, you are not . i cannot believe my father wanted to kill you”

“i can, i mean look at me, i’m a witch”

“but you’re more”

“sorry?”

“you’re more then a witch, my love, you’re my soulmate and i vow to protect you with my life” 

a tear slides down your cheek

“deep breaths, y/n, deep breaths”

you were stunned at how he knew your name but chose to ignore it, wrapping your arms around his neck and bringing your body closer to his

after a moment, you pulled away but not far enough for his hands to leave your waist

they fit snuggly and you love it

“y/l y/n, princess of the witches, i vow to always protect you and be here for you”

“and i you, my prince, my ice prince”

when ten and taeyong leave the ballroom to go looking for jaemin, they don’t know what to expect. you burning him, fighting or what but they are surprised to see you two, making sweet promises to each other

ten leans against taeyong, neither moving to leave, but to watch

“my love, can you freeze this moment, i want to remember it forever in my mind, just for a few seconds”

and you comply, reciting a few words in latin before your hands become icy cold, the gardens freezing over with only you, jaemin, ten and taeyong in sight

and when the spell wore off he spoke to you “now we have a forzen love and i hope it stays like this forever”

ten smiles sweetly watching you to lean into each other

lips grazing before hugging and he knew

you were the one for his little brother

[moved-to--mysticandskepticmuses]

 beneath the cut is a copy paste version of harley’s timeline as i’ve sorted for this blog and my rp purposes - it is super choppy and unfinished, it was delivered over discord while i was doing like five other things and brain dead; this is just a placeholder of it until i can write up something more cohesive / established.

she just didn’t want, didn’t need any reminders of the way things had been before her father had been creamed by one of many fat cats in their expensive cars and their diamond pink rings.  wrong place, wrong time, her ASS.  she’d never been any under delusions her father had been a saint.  what she’d found when cleaning and packing to move from one shit hole to another had done nothing but clarify that some people in this world just had it coming.  SHE WANTED TO THINK SHE WAS DITCHING THE BOARD GAMES, THE BARBIES, THE WHATEVER ELSE HE’D GIVEN HER BECAUSE SHE DIDN’T WANT TO KEEP THINGS BOUGHT WITH DIRTY MONEY…THE TRUTH WAS SHE JUST DIDN’T WANT ANYTHING AT ALL THAT WOULD REMIND HER OF THE FACT THAT HE’D BE MISSING FROM THIS YEAR’S CHRISTMAS DINNER.  AND EVERY ONE AFTER.

mmmhmokay so, she was a gymnast, like, super super super good, she was actually on the team to go to the olympics like a year or two after that too ugh im sorry all of this is going to be so fucking sporadic my brain is a mess

okay let me roll this back a pace

\so she grew up in a mostly normal two parent decent white collar life  her mom was kind of distant and off putting but eh  that's just the way it washer dad was an accountant / worked for the mob etc though she didn't find that out til later / it was mostly only suspicions no hard proof etc.they weren't rich they weren't poor she didn't have the best shit but she didn't go hungry either etc she did gymnastics and ballet and track and such she was really really good at gymnastics that ws where most of the free money and time went then her dad gets killed in a hit and run when she's like 12 ish her mom goes super stiff and just basically retreats from life as a whole, she gets super short tempered and any warmth there was just kinda fizzles out, she starts putting more and more pressure on harleen they don't have a nest egg, the mom didn't work, now she has to have an office job, they move to a shitty apartment in the wrong side of town, things are hard and rough and gritty at 14/15 harleen ends up on the team for the olympic gymnastics and blows out her right knee in the second event of the competition

needless to say she's a wreck and she's devastated and there goes everything she's ever worked for meanwhile her mom loses her shit and is like how am i supposed to pay for this how are we supposed to survive now because that was supposed to be their golden ticket so harleen kinda just has an inner mental breakdown and shuts down but just acts like it's no big deal its fine and just kind of self isolates and pushes herself with her recovery and therapy and ends up causing more damage in the long run but she wants to get better faster // which is all really moot because she's never going to be back to that level of competitiveness again and definitely not w/in that limited time frame that is the peak for gymanstics aka she was borderline too old by the time she made it to the olympics the first time so she pretty much ends up just having to rely on herself to take care of herself from that point on because her mom just basically likes to pretend she doesn't exist she throws herself into her schoolwork which -- she was always smart and liked books and school anyway but she really just sort of skimmed along with bare minimum because she was throwing herself into her gymnastics for so long she ends up graduating near the top of her high school class and between her gpa and her 'personal triumph / recovery' story whatever she ends up getting scholarships and grants for college she's always been very hyper sensitive / needy when it came to attention and praise / rewards she always had a lot of trouble with self-worth / needed external validation if she wasn't the best, or at the top of whatever she was doing, she doesn't feel like she's doing good enough / she's always always pushing herself

she finishes her degree early bc she just works her fucking ass off and ends up interning during her doctorate at arkham there's a lot of other misc shit in there of course i mean she has trouble with relationships she needs too much validation and she has too high of expectations for realistic anything she also keeps people at arms length bc she knows they're going to leave / end up disappointing her / end up being disappointed in her she's very obsessive / very orderly and proper with her life everything has its place she files her reports, everything is on schedule or ahead of it, everything is neat and clean, folded, put away, organized, so on because the more she can control it all the better she feels

like everything in her apartment is white or black everything is in cubbies and boxesher cabinet doors are glass etc. etc.neat, organized, tidy very sleek and modern her books are organized by size i mean just like epitome of obsessive she has schedules for everything she schedules time for reading and for her baths and studying and cooking and eating and she schedules the time she has to go out and socialize and and she's super fucking smart and she's really good at her job too, like, in the comics it's indicated that she successfully ( i mean as much as anybody can ever successfully treat) treats / rehabilitates two face and a couple others of the super whacked out bad guys -- at least temporarily -- during her time with them at arkham etc

SO then enters the joker and ???????he's literally the epitome of everything she isn't / everything she can't stand in anyone else ever?i mean he's literally chaos personified ok but he's this MYSTERY and he's chaotic and he's charming and he's enigmatic and he's SO FUCKING SMART even when he's trying to dumb himself down for the fun of it and he's just ? he's this huge fucking puzzle

and she becomes so obsessed with trying to figure it out trying to figure him outhow he works what made him this way who he is and he's so slippery and she gets so frustrated because what's real? what isn't? what's a game? what part is truth and what is lies?and she wants to figure him out / she wants to fix it / she wants to unravel it all and put it all back together

but he's just this tangled web of things that drive her crazy and it hits her obsessiveness so hard and he's so good at manipulation and playing people and he's so good at reading people and using people so he just knows how to push her buttons BUT this all ties back in because in the comics etc you remember that line from the blurb about the fat cats with their diamond pinky rings etc ?

at some point while he's luring her in etc.they're talking about things and i have always headcanoned that he did a lot of push and pull like hannibal lecter did with clarice like i'll show you mine if you show me yours type thing so he ends up learning stuff about her along the way too and one of their sessions, i figure it would be not too long before he convinces her to help him escape he's got a present for her too and it's the mob boss' pinky finger w/ the diamond ring, in the guy's embroidered handkerchief the one that killed her dad that he had killed or at least that's the implication

so yeah it's a really long explanation but that's the connection between that first blurb and the whole point of it being yeah he gives her the guy's pinky i headcanon that she wears that ring on her middle finger or thumb pretty much all the time after he's finally done with making her bonkers

[fgiggl3sx2]

I want to fucking scream. I want to fucking cry. I want to fucking disappear. Why does all this keep happening? I feel i will never be good enough for you. I do things not thinking or knowing that it could possibly mess things up for us. I have never gone through this before, i never been with someone who gets pissed off with me because i deleted pictures of myself because i find them ugly or i just dont like it. It sucks because of the fact i didnt tell you all the trust is gone. It sucks that i downloaded messenger to check something cause i assumed you was using it i cant be trusted because i didnt tell you. youre right i dont think of these things because to be honest ive never had to do any of this before so its hard for me to keep up everything just to make you happy and for you to be at ease but some how i always manage to fuck it up without meaning too. And even if i explain myself and tell you the truth and the why behind it.. its too late because you already feel the way you feel and its not fair to me because im literally doing nothing wrong. And you still feel im talking to someone but how? You have all my information you can clearly see what i do and who i talk too. So because i dont remember old information i cant be trusted? You dont remember old and newer information but i trust your word behind it but because of what i did when it came to jeff its different right? Which isnt fair. It sucks that you always search for things in my past, yeah i did it in the beginning which i shouldnt have. But why are you doing it now? Its not right, but of course you are going to use that against me and make me feel like shit always. Any little thing i do you always make me feel like shit for it. It sucks, it sucks that im walking on fucking eggshells with you, because it seems like anything i do is wrong in your eyes when all i been trying to do is fix myself and us. Its gotten to the point where i question if you even love me anymore? Are you looking for reasons to just not love me anymore or to not care anymore? Are you looking for reasons to try and leave or just not give a shit about our relationship because it will be easier for you? ... I took a break from typing.. but here’s a random question you ever took a shower and then just put your hands on your ears and just let out a silent scream. i swear i was there just silently screaming for a good 2mins under the water with tears running down my face. i had the strongest fucking urge to cut myself like i just needed too.. instead i was just scratching at my chest i promised him i would never harm myself again but fuck do i want too. I hate this i truly hate this, i hate how im feeling its too much i feel myself exploding from it all. I ended up giving you proof because you feel that all i do is keep lying to you when im not i tell you the truth about it all but dont give EXACT detail. Why do i have to apply that i had to log into mine to click on your profile if i wasnt even viewing my own.. think of it as a detour you just pass through  a different way but you dont actually stop anywhere .. i didnt stop to view who messaged me i could care fucking less who messaged me but you dont understand that.. and oh look you found another reason to not want to trust me “how ironic” as you would say. Then assume i deleted shit when i didnt and if i did on fb it would tell you if i did or not. The messages you were thinking of was on instagram but because you dont want to believe it because you are uncertain im still a liar? And then you go and assume i would unblock him what fucking for? i have everything i need and want right in from of me which is you!! Why is it that you cant make any mistakes why is it only me? Like obviously you made a mistake but whatever i will take the blame for that one too because fuck it, im already at fault for everything else.Then we are going to bring up the cheating message there is so many different forms of cheating doesnt mean its right because its not cheating in any form is cheating. Me seeing someone behind your back is a form of cheating even if i didnt physically do anything with that person, but because i knew she liked me it was wrong of me to hang out with her. The only person i physically did that too was Guillo. But after him everyone else cheated on me and i felt i was in the wrong for hanging out with her knowing i shouldnt even though they already cheated on me.. i will always blame myself for everything because obviously i did something wrong for them to cheat on me right? It all stopped when i met Ryan though. He changed me in many ways and to be a better person i then knew what i wanted in a relationship and i knew i wanted to be married one day and to settle down so that was my goal in life. So when i say i use bad choice of words sometimes i really fucking do at times. Shit when i was with ryan i felt bad for even doing stuff with my baby daddy at times even if it was for chance. Thats how much i changed.. and when we cross paths again is when you met the changed me. And i fell so fucking hard for you and i already fucked up once. I dont know why you feel that i would EVER want to fucking do it again. HELL NO, i want to be your wife i would never cheat on you!! Im sorry it feels like endless lies but i did fix that but when im under pressure i fuck up soo much that i tend to ruin everything and i hate that about myself. I never been more sure of someone like you before. i never tried so hard in a relationship before either.. like when jessica said i came along way believe that because i really fucking did. i do things for you i would never do.. i didnt even do with ryan like give all my info to you and have you forever be able to read my texts. i would never do that for anybody i would tell them to fuck right off to trust me. i know its not easy trusting me right now because i keep fucking up my words and doing everything poorly because we simply think differently. But doesnt mean i wont keep pushing and trying. I just dont want you to give up on me because i know in person it was soo much easier for us it was and you KNOW THAT. I just hope you can make it up that long. and i hope you still want to be my Husband Brandon because i want to be the best wife you ever had.. and i want to be your wife. and i will continue to change and improve us and myself. for better or for worse. I hope you dont take this message as another fight because i dont have anymore fight left in me. I still cant stop crying.. you dont have to respond to this message at all. Just please ... Will you stay? Will you continue to fight? Most importantly ... Will you marry me? </3 

[pinksweatergettingbetter]

warning, the following has mainly snarky (and possibly furious) opinions on Spirit of Justice. Reader discretion is advised.

Trucy, you don’t need to take sides. There’s one side. The truth. And both Apollo and Phoenix are on that side.

They’re not at the same bench but they’re on the same team. It’s gonna be ok.

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“I’m sorry too, little lady! this is all my fault..”

Oh so trucy gets an apology, but not Apollo? cool cool whatever 

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Trucy, if Phoenix and Apollo become bitter enemies over a property dispute then they weren’t really all that close to begin with.

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Dhurke: invalides trucy’s feelings while simultaneously spouting more of his Manly Man shit

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“one minute we’re trading blows, and the next, we’re having drinks together”

well if that’s his mentality i can see why he thinks its ok do be an utter fuckwad to everyone

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“We’re simple creatures at heart! Hah-hahahaha!”

yes... men are so simple at heart... they’re just a bunch of neanderthals... thanks Dhurke, truly you are the way to the future.

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To be honest, I am glad that this is a civil case. When I first saw the publicity I was sure they’d made Phoenix a prosecutor for no reason and I was furious.

I’m not super glad at the way things turned out but at least the bullshit counter didn’t go into the red and explode.

Phew. I’m actually sighing in relief here. Maybe I can pretend what follows is all a friendly game or something.

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Aww; poor Judgey’s confused :(

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...they seriously don’t need to have a falling out to be on the opposite side of a courtroom. Lawyers face each other all the time. 

They don’t have to hate each other, they just have to keep things professional, otherwise they’d cause a conflict of interest. Like... it’s not ideal but tbh it’s more a danger to their clients than each other.

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Y’know, I’m gonna dare to be optimistic here; as much as I hate this storyline and most people in it, this is actually an interesting and character-developing scenario.

Apollo has to face off against his mentor, the guy who... well I’d say Kristoph taught him all his tricks, but Phoenix was a sort of moral guiding force, I guess. Apollo standing up and holding his own against a superior is a legitimate way to show that he’s come into his own. Plus, since it’s not framed in a negative light (or at least, it shouldn’t be) it’s more impactful than phoenix being straight up evil since that would make it easy to take him down. This is a contest between two people who simply happen to be on opposite sides of the chess board. Again, it’s a pretty legit way to show Apollo’s growth.

...that said, I just wish it wasn’t happening after zero character build up and a heaping serving of bullshit. :T

Oh well. At least they got something right.

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it is pretty hilarious how much they’re trying to up the drama though. it’s not that deep, guys

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I guess Atishon just doesn’t have legs 

[snerk] his shitty speeches are actually kinda funny. ...if a little cliché.

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...he’s standing... but I'm still not ruling out that he’s legless...

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Tbh, even though Atishon is clearly lying, the fact that Datz basically threatened the orb out of Buff does make this kind of in their favour. 

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...Apollo, don’t overcomplicate the case. All you have to do is prove that it’s not the crystal and you can have it. 

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Reasons Apollo would make a good rebel: He doesn’t blab his rebelness all over the place for no reason.

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SEXY PAN UP SHOT FOR MS. SKYE

nice ankles, ms skye.

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“Ema..?”

“Use some manners, we’re in court”

thats not the way you acted the last time you were called as his witness :/

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whoa seriously whats with the sudden crazy 180 for Ema? Yeah, she’s grumpy, but suddenly she’s acting like Apollo’s some rude little shit off the street. Why is she upset that he’s going up against Phoenix? Why does he need to apologize? JUST BEING ON OPPOSITE ENDS OF THE COUTROOM DOESN’T MAKE YOU ENEMIES.

or did the SOJ team forget the lessons we learned in the trilo–– oh who am i kidding they’ve never even laid eyes on those.

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“You’ll never get the job done with that attitude. Take it from someone who’s been there” Been where???? Been where, Ema?????? what the fuck are you talking about what is going on 

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haha the fey statue and the urn were ‘stolen’, huh? yeah. stolen from a better game.

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pfft. So Buff’s some Kaitou Kid type, huh?

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y’know ive been neglecting to mention it but have you noticed how much they skimp on animation compared to DD? DD had like 20 tiny animated cutscenes, and SOJ has one lame one at the beginning of each case to set it up. I can’t believe they even slashed the animation budget.

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has anyone noticed how unfocused 3D phoenix looks. he looks like he’s just. staring out into space.

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i love they don’t use gendered pronouns to refer to Buff’s kid. Remember the last time they did that? Mr. Andrews......

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“I was shocked to see the urn that came from Kurain in Kurain”

anyway quit referencing actually good games, SOJ. Back to the shame corner for you.

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oh COME ON. How do you steal a fucking wall relief?! 

and he really couldn’t just get a fucking permit? what the fuck is this

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“but good intentions are no get-out-of-jail-free-card”

they are a sentence-lightening card, though! either way, this is one of the things i like most about AA. No matter how good your intentions were you still dont get away with cold-blooded murder. 

OR KIDNAPPING, AURA. HAVE FUN IN JAIL YOU SHITTY EXCUSE FOR LESBIAN REPRESENTATION.

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every single theft of an artifact can be attributed to Dr. Buff. every single one.

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alright, so we’re back to that whole ‘missing object report’. Thing is, unless there really IS a Crystal of Ami Fey, this wouldn’t work out. Atishon has to provide evidence that he owned the item, or that it existed in the first place. If this crystal turns out to be made up I’m gonna pitch a fuckin fit.

Don’t disappoint me, SOJ.

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“Wimperson”

ah, SOJ, with all the comedic genius of a third-grader.

...to be fair i could say the same about Larry but i like larry and AA1. and it also plays into his phrase-thingy!

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seriously. gimme pics of the crystal or we’re gonna have some serious problems.

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“So how do you know this item is the thing he’s looking for”

“he said so”

THATS. NOT EVIDENCE. 

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oh judge, your oldness never ceases to be to be enjoyable 

(that wasn’t sarcasm btw i love that dumb running gag)

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seeing phoenix scream from the opposite side of the table is very enjoyable. just because i love seeing phoenix scream but also like having that scream not mean something bad for my case. 

i get to have my cake and eat it too! <3

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um i dont think you can put dashes in email addresses.

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“Don’t tell me!”

“Oh, but I will anyway.”

I love Apollo so, so much.

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so you looked far enough into this that you tried to hack his computer but you’ll accept “its mine cause i said so” as concrete proof of something??

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“Maybe the recipient of the email was a dog lover!”

he might be on the other side with the kid gloves off but phoenix is still Phoenix “a baseball also has stitches” Wright.

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fuck. he walks to the bench. he cant not have legs.

...but maybe........

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what the fuck

Atishon has the same birthday as my dad

DISGUSTING

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oh my god, seeing phoenix /sweating/ on the other side is even more surreal

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i also love that everyones making ‘politicians are gross’ jokes willynilly but they all forget that they’re Criminal Defence Lawyers

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“This is... Quite... a thing... you’ve said”

I'm wheezing

this is turning out to be way funnier than i expected

please SOJ I'm having fun don’t stop me now

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i mean he has a point. if Atishon leant the item to Bluff to study that still means that Atishon owned it in the first place.

HOWEVER, WHERE THE FUCK IS THE PROOF OF THE ORIGINAL ITEM IN ANY WAY RESEMBLING WHAT WE’VE GOT HERE.

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its so weird to see phoenix on the wrong side of the bench that i keep getting his voice wrong when i read him out loud. i keep making him sound deep and authoritative instead of... well, how he usually sounds.

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“Well, grandchildren ARE meant to be spoiled... I mean, that’s what grandfathers are for!”

judgeyyyyyyyyy

im crying

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ema: can i fuck off now

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“lets get more info on the crystal”

FINALLY. thank you, athena.

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NO, NOT ITS HISTORY, DAMNIT

PROVE THAT IT EXISTS AND YOU OWNED IT.

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“back in the old country”

...england..?

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pft i though his testimony said “The Hilarious History” instead of illustrious history and i was so ready

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“he protected the spirit mediums, a minority back then, from the rest of the locals”

well thats a big fat lie because

A) Kurain village is build on mediums

B) no way the Fey clan would allow a male ruler

we could reaaaaaaaallly use some photo evidence, Atishon.

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“One Ives Shineto”

ok what the FUCK. where the hell are all the women?! HEY. SOJ TEAM. DID YOU EVEN GLANCE AT THE  oh of course you didnt fuck meeeeeeeeee

also whats that pun

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FFFF PHOENIX YA LIL SHIT

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“The transformation the mediums underwent when channeling spirits frightened the locals”

i am glad to know changing your entire bone structure is as scary looking as it sounds. of course, i doubt people would be frightened for too long when they were talking to deceased loved ones.

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i must say they did do a good job writing Atishon’s lines.

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“The Kurain channeling technique is known to have originated from Kooraheen, and Ami was said to travel there to train”

No, Ami invented the technique, and according to your backstory, she lived there first. Can you even keep your own facts straight?

I mean, apart from all this being bullshit and i hate it.

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i legit cant believe it took THAT LONG for phoenix to point out the fact that the handover agreement was signed under duress.

that'd be like, the first thing i pointed out. 

...ah, there it is. I knew this couldn't stay a happy little civil case for long. Here comes the murder.

Also, really Phoenix? You didn’t bring up the fact that he might have been killed any earlier too?

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Now that theyre bringing up the pile of books, I realize how ridiculous it is that there were so many of them on the ground. Pulling out one book might dislodge one or two next to it, but not the entire shelf. For the books to have fallen like that, they would have needed to have been shoved from the other side, or for the shelf to have listed forwards. neither of those things are possible. and nobody noticed this?!

i mean the only reason i didnt think about it was because i knew this was murder from the start.

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Man, Phoenix, with all your “with respect for the dead” talk, it sure did take you a while to bring up the fact that you knew he was murdered and the police should probably be getting on that right now.

>edit: Actually I just realized how despicable that is; keeping the fact that this was murder secret just to use it later on as a quick bargaining chip in your civil case.

Hey capcom? You can screw up the series all you like but FUCK you for making Phoenix a skeezy piece of shit on par with the likes of von Karma. Because you know who else withholds information that sensitive for such a petty reason? MANFRED VON KARMA. 

Fuck you, capcom, fuck you, fuck you, FUCK you. 

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“Did you forget who you were up against, Mr. Justice?”

All I do is hurl baseless accusations!!

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wow the second this turned into murder i just got tired of this case. Also, Phoenix, you better back your butt back to your seat. Being a murder case, this requires a prosecutor... something that you are not.

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theres AN AUTOPSY REPORT. WHY ISNT THIS A SEPARATE TRIAL.  THIS SHOULD BE A SEPARATE TRIAL; THIS SHOULD BE BEING... TRIAL-ED IN ANOTHER COURTROOM. you can reference it, and use it as evidence, BUT YOU CAN’T JUST COMBINE THEM.

Damnit, Capcom, I TOLD YOU NOT TO DISAPPOINT ME.

BUT YA JUST COULDN’T HELP IT, COULD YOU.

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...Datz is in the gallery... But he was just in jai–– fuck it whatever

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ok now that this is a murder trial Atishon’s non-answers aren’t funny anymore, theyre ANNOYING. I WANT THIS SHIT TO BE OVER AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. YAP ME A CONTRADICTION OR I’LL CRAM YOUR BELOVED PLAQUE UP YOUR POLITICALLY INEPT ASS.

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“Try me, o lord of plebs”

its been a long time since any meme-y type person has called someone else a pleb... please try to keep up, SOJ.

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i love that phoenix, at the end of each statement, politely states “get the fuck on with it, asshat”

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why the fuck did he 

fall asleep what

OOO THE JUDGE YELL 

AW YEA

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“What did I ever do to deserve this?”

you existed in the first place, Apollo. I’m sorry.

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No.............

I do not like that Phoenix used the phrase, “Witness, I think it’s time for you to come clean.”

You know who uses phrases like that.

Assholes.

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“You should know I always come fully prepared, Justice!”

( buy it, buy it, buy it, buy it––)

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...Right, so Phoenix isn’t a prosecutor but he sure as hell has been doing a lot of prosecutorial things. Calling all the witnesses, explaining the case, etc.

Oh and he and and Atishon still didn’t tell anybody that Buff was most likely murdered right off the bat so ffffffuck you capcom 

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Fuck you, Datz. Stop laughing and fucking focus on the fact that you’ve been accused of murder and it’s kinda tough on your ol’ pal Apoll– oh wait silly me i forgot none of you give a rats ass about him. All you do is laugh and eat and sit around waiting for Sadmad to come home.

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“Better brace yourself, son”

Hey guess what Dad warranty expires if you haven’t made or tried to make contact in 20 years so get that word out of your nasty mouth, Dhurke.

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“Worried this might make a rift between you two...

...and that you might then leave the agency”

haha

“Hahaha. She has an active imagination”

hahahah

hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

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“...Nothing a little persuasion couldn’t handle.”

Capcom. If it was something douchey. I will tear you in half.

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SEXY PAN UP SHOT FOR

robot guy

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i remember when i used to be excited for each new case. now I'm just scared what new horrors the next will bring.

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hang on why does the drone not have a special sound font? if it didnt disguise the operator’s voice it would be kind of obvious who they were...

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HOLY SHIT MISSILES

SO... THE WHOLE “BOMBS IN THE COURTROOM ARE HORRIFIC THING” FROM DD IS JUST FORGOTTEN, HUH??

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hang on.

“Capitalist pig; I’ll turn you into pork stroganoff”

is “Sarge” legit Russian, then? That explains the “Komandir” thing. Shit, I have to change my voice.

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ok so Sarge is written with an American Sargent phonetic accent, but uses Russian rankings and seems to be communist. What am I missing???

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“I guess he does dress like he’s in the military...”

hes a paratrooper!!! why dont you know that? i thought you grew up with him.

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“That’s true. Papa didn’t keep our house locked up.”

...the... archeologist... with a house full of priceless treasures... didn’t lock his fucking doors.

hey congrats for trusting the mediums and all but guess what? thats irresponsible as fuck and incredibly stupid for a supposed thief so I'm kinda surprised it took you this long to be discovered/bumped off.

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those have got to be nerf bullets cause firing a GUN in court is just fucking ridiculous. like too far for Ace Attorney. Melee weapons, ok. Long range firearms? No.

...Though... Note to self... Next time, when creating parody prosecutor, you now have legit grounds to just give him a fucking gun........

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“Sorry, but I’m afraid lawyers are missile-proof.”

Note to self. Upgrade gag prosecutor to missile launcher.

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ooh, i see this drone is in the same vein as the Assassin’s Radio.

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“Courtroom warriors don’t use guns or missiles, because evidence is our weapon of choice!”

Ahah! THATS why prosecutors are so violent. They never have any evidence to back up their assertions so they just fuckin ASSAULT people.

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i... had a little chuckle at ‘truth bomb’

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“What’s with him and Siberia of all places?”

Well context wise it seems he's some kind of... Defected-to-communist American?

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Huh. Athena’s powers must be based purely on sound waves then. Interesting. 

Anyway, it’s mood matrix time! Hooray!!! I’ve warmed a lot to the Mood Matrix to be honest. I like the glowy lights.

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I’m gonna make a guess right now that something was on fire. Cause thats some PTSD shit right there.

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pfft the gallery was so on board with their new judge overlord. Also thank goodness this is Ace Attorney and this shit is allowed to fly, cause you’d get your ass handed to you if you tried this in real court, pal.

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Um, I wouldn’t dig any deeper if sarge is still in such a state. It’s not... safe. Either that or you best hope that thing’s bottomless magazine has run out. Plus, I love that whoever’s watching over the actual Sarge in the Lobby hasn’t tried to stop them when they noticed them SCREAMING AND PRESSING THE ‘FIRE’ BUTTON REPEATEDLY.

Or they’ve left Sarge unattended and the Dark Age of the law isn't over because it was an omnipresent thing to begin with...

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its ok, game. contrary to what you think, you did write Sarge’s backstory in a memorable enough way for me to remember it up until now.

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Huh. 

HUH.

So... the person involved in writing Ace Attorney Investigations... Has written a sequence in which we must burn evidence to prove a point, huh?

:T

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DONT YOU HINT AT ME, GAME

-

that solemn moment of reflection doesn’t include Phoenix cause he’s over behind his desk bawling his eyes out

“I’LL BE YOUR NEW PAPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”

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actually Athena’s got a point. Her tragic backstory is much more similar to Sarge’s than Apollo’s. She can properly relate to losing one’s last family member in a horrific way.

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S––

Well, considering her age, Cutesie Pan-up shot for Armie.

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Apollo’s having serious Robin Newman flashbacks right about now

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ahhhhhhhhhh. her mom was Russian. It all makes sense. Tbh just for now, forgetting everything else, this kind of does feel like an old case. I’m at peace... for now.

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i guess it’s less of an orb and more of some kind of lantern then. Cause you can’t really burn a crystal

unless its

whitcrystal

hahah

hahahahahahahhaha

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so far I'm ranking the cases from best to worst: Magical, This part of Revolution, Foreign, Rite and Storyteller. 

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sgsjgsjsjjs athena’s INTENSE LOOK OF HUNGER as Apollo burns the orb

“I wanna see me some sweet mama goddess”

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damn shit thats her face

thats uh

o

ohhhh

oh i see. I was wondering what the ‘great power’ the orb could bestow upon people was, and now I realize that since it depicts her face, if someone knows her name, they could channel her. And since she's basically an actual goddess that would bestow some serious power.

not bad, not bad at all.

i know i highly dislike Kooraheen but i legit feel kinda blessed

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“The issue is crystal clear”

*seals phoenix’s fate with a fucking pun*

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dont keep saying “did we just win” before the verdict is handed down, you'll jinx it.

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oh hey, blackmail. its like a perfect reenactment of Capcom getting Phoenix to sign onto this sequel.

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Phoenix: According to the legend, once the founder returned... She would bestow spiritual power onto the person who solved the riddle.

Apollo: ...Y-youre kidding, right?!

[Apollo looks flummoxed, the gallery whispers. We cut back to Phoenix’s smirk, and then––”

???: Phoenix... Just give it up.

[Phoenix screams in shock. We pan back to Apollo......... Who now has D-Cup breasts and a very familiar face.]

/...i wish.

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legit tho i cant believe he's trying to pull this. I'm cackling

this is the lawyeriest lawyer ploy ive ever seen

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“What’s gotten into him?”

bad writing.

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sdsgsdhjafhgj EVEN THE JUDGE IS CALLING BULLSHIT IM CRYI

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(sigh) i guess we’re really gonna have to finish this, aren’t we. oh well. on we go! let’s forge ahead!

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y’know i just remembered that Pearl appeared like, once in this. Was that her only part? I guess she just existed to remind us that Kurain village used to have girls in it.

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noooooooo fuuuuuuuuuuck

i really hope the contradiction doesn’t require pressing because i aint sitting thru this fuck’s antics again.

-

it has rounded corners.

and its huge.

-

phoenix and apollo’s objections are too similar, i can never tell who’s screaming.

-

“There haven't been many murders there, I take it”

well........ not “many”

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i love that Atishon pledges to banish murdeer from Kurain village and Apollo is all “yea good luck with that” like Murder is inevitable, even in a tiny village like Kurain.

Thats. kinda terrifying.

...though considering the way Kurain is...

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i cant tell phoenix and apollo’s voices apart (sigh)

i never know whose objecting 

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Phoenix: my client couldn't have viewed the murder directly from where he said he was, but the fact remains that he had inside knowledge of said crime!

...phoenix, you’re just trying to help apollo along, right? you didnt seriously believe that that sounded positive to your case, instead of Shady as Fuck, right??

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“You talk big, Mr. Justice, but do you have what it takes?”

he just finished telling Phoenix he was about to put what Phoenix taught him into practice. Phoenix should be swallowing a lump in his throat and trying not to cry of pride right now.

-

“that suitcase could be a weapon anyone could use!”

yeah... yeah! even someone in a wheelchair!! oh wait wrong case.

..........but we still have someone in a wheelchair

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a 3D crimscene view

haven't seen that shit since AAAJ

-

‘THAT SHITSTAIN ON THE BOOK PROVES HE WAS HAVIN THE COFFEE SQUIRTS, CASE CLOSED BOYS”

sorry i just felt like being vulgar

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“and there it is, the final excuse cornered killers are so fond of”

holy shit

i love apollo

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phoenix shut up please, just shut up

let it end

let me rest

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oh wait

ah here we go.

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“hes a bright young politician with a future ahead of him, its in our nations best interests to avoid burdening him with the taint of scandal”

hey, uh Enshiro

ill never forgive you for putting those words in Phoenix Wright’s mouth

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“Lawyer! Do something! Or a bad thing will happen to ‘her’!”

no? nobody else heard that incredibly obvious threat? nobodys gonna

“whats he talking about? well, i can ponder that later. for now...”

FUCK

YOU

DO YOU HAVE A BRAIN THAT IS CONNECTED TO YOUR FUCKING EARS?!

HOW THICK HEADED DO YOU HAVE TO FFUCKING BE TO NOT RECOGNIZE A GODDAMN THREAT WHEN YOU HEAR ONE YOU 

YOU

YOU PUTRID PICKLED RED PEPPER?!?!??!?!

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Athena: oh yeah i also heard Atishon making blatant threats at Phoenix but meh, phoenix made me pinky swear not to tell. 

I’m not shitting a lung in fury, I’m just getting rid of an organ i dont need through the nearest available passage. I’m perfectly calm and not cursing this game, Eshiro and his entire team to the pits of their own stupid made up hell.

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“I had no idea. This must’ve been excruciating for him.”

i wanted to write a sarcastic jingle but i had trouble coming up with rhymes, so the blunt bottom line is:

when you’re not good at writing, simply steal clever and impactful plots from previous iterations so that you’ll seem clever and exciting

i mean

nobody even remembers Farewell my Turnabout anymore, right????

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what the fuck is his deal with being king

-

OH SHUT UP DURKE 

GO FUCK YOURSELF

think youre gonna steal Franziska and Mia’s thunder????????????? no

you aren’t a fucking fraction of an inch as cool as either of them.

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“he’s saved my neck so many times”

w

when

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“where there’s a will, there’s a way”

how about where theres a whip, theres a better game?

-

“wait................... maybe we can summon the founder now that we can see her face??”

aww. you got there in the end, didnt you apollo.

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...that doesnt automatically spare Maya’s life. Pearl is also a spirit medium. And i’m fairly certain there are other–– oh wait SOJ retconned that neverMIND

anyway, Atishon could still bump Maya off and then force Pearl to channel Mamma Kooraheen

-

OH MY GOD HE JUST BROUGHT UP PEARL

WHY PEOPLE ARE SO STUPID 

-

WIMPERSON BROUGHT UP PEARL

THE IDIOT VILLAIN BROUGHT UP THE FLAW IN YOUR BRILLIANT PLAN 

GSEGFISGUILSGIULSGUI;SRHG

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“pearl wouldn't help you if anything happened to maya”

um. you morons think he’d politely ask her to help??? he's already kidnapped someone and threatened their death?? he and his founder aren't above torture or blackmail????????????

you FUCKING MORONS

-

why even bother resigning? just do what you did before and let him go to jail.

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...this’d better just be a lead up to his breakdown animation 

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YOU COCKSUCKING FUCKSTAINS JUST END IT ALREADY

END IT END IT END IT EDN TI EDNEI HDFI HSRLG SIHFLIHIR HF;LIVHLSIRHIGHISRHOVGLORIH’WI’HSGOI’WSGZIHSI

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“if only you'd been smart enough to kill the girl, too...”

wow

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...what the fuck

well that was... interesting.

-

i cant even celebrate Phoenix congratulating Apollo, I'm just so tired

there are like 85 sarcastic remarks i could make but I'm just so exhausted 

-

yay we got the orb

dootdootdoot dootdootdoot

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even the judge doesnt want to have anything more to do with this.

im right there with ya judgey

-

“All I can say is, thats my boy!”

NO, YOU DONT GET TO CLAIM PARENTAL PRIDE OF THIS KID

HES NOT YOUR BOY

YOU BARELY RAISED HIM

GO HOME AND DO YOUR SHITTY COUP

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“Still, its kinda nice to be appreciated”

if only you actually were, Apollo

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yeah, thought so... ill bet they dont even channel her. cop out.

“tsk, thats no fun” indeed, trucy

-

i love how nobodys like “OK WHERE’S MAYA??? IS SHE OK???”

its fine her whereabouts are unknown and the last info on her was just that her life was in danger

pfffff

-

its alright, Armie has a place at the WAO 

-

"i knew if i admitted i could walk, id have to leave the house”

uh honey newsflash: you can leave the house in a wheelchair too. I'm pretty sure your dad would let you stay inside anyway

-

christ how fucking corny can you get. I CAN WALK AGAIN. why dont we just have Tiny Tim in here throwing away his crutch and dancing a fucking jig

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see, there we are. Maya’s still in danger you fuck wits.

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and part one is over, folks! i am pooped. and furious.

till next time.

[imsarabum]

Responses to {Part 21} I Won’t Stop You // Jeon Jungkook, Vampire!AU Asks~

Please ‘Keep Reading’ to find my response to your ask ^^ As always, I have copied and pasted all asks into this post in regards to last night’s chapter to avoid clogging up people’s dashboards and to avoid spoilers for those who may still wish to read the chapter. Thank you ^^ 

(I have also included asks that I received in the hours before IWSY was posted ^^)

Anonymous said: So i found IWSY last week and marathoned through it in 2 days and omg its so good im dying for the next part!!! Thank you so much for blessing us all with your writing have a wonderful day/night!!!!!! ❤❤❤❤❤

Oh my gosh thank you for marathoning through it! I’m really happy that you found it and that you’re liking the story so far my dear ^^ I hope you have a wonderful day or night too! ❤

Anonymous said: TONIGHT'S THE MOMENT OF TRUTH!!!

WOOHOO! C:

@mysr3 said: Queen Serren will shed some light for us tonight and poor Jungkook' unbeating heart is ready  I can feel it! My heart is also not ready!!! Have A good day Love ❤️  PS I re-read Who are you again! And I find new things that I didn't notice before last time and feel different! You are such a good writer !!!

Hehe yes things were revealed last night with more to be explained c: And yay thank you for reading it again! I’m glad you could pick up on things that you maybe didn’t pick up on before, I personally love when that happens to me :3 ❤  Thank you so much my love :)

Anonymous said: It's 11:14pm in Sydney right now and I am so ready for IWSY! Unfortunately, it's a little known fact time difference is a bitch and I can't read it till the afternoon! *sighs* if only they didn't block tumble at school. -Tall anon

Aww that sucks that they block tumblr at your school! But I can understand why because they wan you to concentrate :( I hope you’ll enjoy it when you read it my love!

@lostheretics said: fEW HOURS TO IWSY AAAAAA *screaming internally* but cant read it immediately bc i have mid tests😔😔😭😭

That’s okay my love! tests and study come first ❤  I hope you enjoy it when you get a chance to read it!

@deangetoutofmyspleen said: iTS TUESDAYYYYYYYYY

YES IT IS!! ❤

Anonymous said: Yuss, vamp!Kook-tuesday!! Highlight of the week ❤

I’m so happy that it’s the highlight of your week ❤  ahhhh that really makes me smile so much!

@m1n-yoong1 said: OMG I JUST REALISED ITS TUESDAY AND IM REALLY HAPPY NOW. My day has been quite bad so I was sad all day until now 😁😁

I’m glad it can brighten up your day my love, I’m sorry that your day has been sad :( *hug* ❤

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PARANORMAL SHENANIGANS YES ❤  hehe I hope you enjoyed it babe!

@kpoperinthehoody123 said: OMG SARAAAA!!!!!!!!!! I JUST READ THE WHO ARE YOU // IM JAEBUM SERIES ALL IN ONE GO AND IT IS SOOO FUCKING LEGIT THAT I FORGOT CEO JUNGKOOK WILL BE COMING OUT ANY MINUTE NOW!! HOW DO U WRITE THESE MASTER PIECES??? *cries in the corner* However, U have such an amazing and creative mind oh Sara😘😘😘 Can't wait to read 'I wont stop you' part 21 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Ahhhh thank you so much for reading it alongside IWSY! (I hope you enjoyed last nights update too!)  You flatter me way too much D: I just imagine something and then write it, it’s nothing special ❤  Thank you so much my love!

Anonymous said: I've updated your tumblr way too many times tonight.... I'm dying to know what's going to happen! 💕

asdfghj I hope you enjoyed the update beautiful!

Anonymous said: i spent a single day binging the entire IWSY series and i've never been happier because it's been hard to find some good vampire!jk and now i have and i'm living also i remember that i had read it when there was only one chapter and then i forgot about it but honestly im so happy to be back!! your writing is exceptional and as a fellow writer, i'm so happy to have found this and you ❤️❤️

jkdgkjsdg ugh thank you so much ❤  I’m really happy that you found it and returned to it and that you enjoy it ❤  thank you for finding me and telling me that you like my series dear, it really means a lot to me!

Anonymous said: I'VE NEVER BEEN SO EARLY FOR A FIC HOLY--

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT!! ❤

Anonymous said: idk why but i??? Cried during chapter 21 its was sO GOOD BLESS

awh~ sad tears or happy tears? c: Thank you so much my love!

Anonymous said: I had a feeling that I would get the vampire explanation and not the "what the heck is she" explanation. On another note, in really happy with how the whole thing went, like I half expected for it to bee more awkward and for the second hand embarrassment to be worse, but you managed to write in in a way that wasn't over the top and still provided a realistic (as realistic as we can assume a scenario like this would play out) scene. So thank you for once again making the week long wait worth it.

Yes~ I personally feel it would be too unrealistic for them to tell absolutely EVERYTHING in one go~ (Y/N) has had a traumatic time and if they were to just unleash everything then she legit might run away terrified lolol. I’m happy that you perceived it as being realistic - especially when the genre is supernatural. I think, for some people, there will always be an element of cringe when it comes to talking about Vampires but I really wanted to make it as natural as possible. In this chapter, I really just wrote like - how I would react if someone were to tell me. I’d be scared but I’d require proof and I’d be curious if I was able to see substantial proof heh~ Thank you very much for honest and unbiased review of the chapter, it was refreshing to read and respond to - and I hope you have a lovely day ❤

Anonymous said: I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK FOR THIS MASTERPIECE TO REVEAL WHAT THE HECK Y/N IS?

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@moonlighthollow said: Jesus christ.... this was so worth the wait😂😍 I'm soooo inlove with this story omg thank you for writing so perfectly and amazing🙏

I’m glad you found it worth the wait ❤  Thank you so much for reading the update my love!

@lovehaniwhaimagines said: HOLY FLIPPIN SHIT. I binge-read all 20 chapters of I wont stop you just yesterday and waited until the new chapter and holy frickin cow, I LOVE IT. Please keep up the good work, I appreciate every single thing you write :) ~

I’ll keep writing for sure! Thank you so much for reading and enjoying the series love ^^ ❤

Anonymous said: You know you could actually write a book and it would sold to millions of people! You're creative stories and writing are fantastic. I love how you mix humor into your stories, especially in "I Won't Stop You". You are one of the best writers on tumblr no doubt about it. Love you~

I’m not sure about millions of people xD But maybe one day eh!? hehe~ And yes! I love to incorporate a little bit of humour, especially if one of the characters personalities is like that, it can be a great mood lifter or a change of pace throughout the story or chapter ^^ Ah, you flatter me so much ❤  thank you my love, and I love you too!

@parkheehi said: I'm so fucking happy that Y/N was not that mad at jungkook for his secret. :D do you know how many parts I won't stop you will have?? (BTW I DIED WHEN JUNGKOOK SAID 'I won't stop you' AFTER Y/N ASKED HIM IF SHE COULD  TOUCH HIS TEETH)  Don't overwork yourself and stay healthy!🤗

I have no idea how many chapters~ You guys will know when I do! ALSO THIS ISN’T THE FURST TIME JUNGKOOK HAS SAID ‘I WON’T STOP YOU’ - and actually, the reader has said it before too ;) I guess youll have to go back and read to find out where and when it was said! hehe ❤  thank you my love and I hope you’re having a great day!

@semisweetsuga said: I fukin knew you were gonna end it on a god damn cliffhanger but the update was SO GOoD I loVEd iT!

This should no longer be a surprise anymore~ I’ll gladly wear my crown for queen of cliffhangers ~ hehe, I love Kotooooo ❤

Anonymous said: I JUST ABSOLUTELY LOVE WHEN YOU HAVE "I WONT STOP YOU" SAID IN THE IWSY STORY!!!! IM SO EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK BECAUSE IVE HONESTLY SO CONFUSED WHENEVER YOU MENTION THE AFFECT (Y/N) HAS ON PEOPLE. ❤️😍

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! :3 Jungkook has said it once before and so has (Y/N)~ muhaha! I hope you’ll enjoy the storyline when you find out what (Y/N) is ❤  thank you so much for reading!

Anonymous said: HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME! I HAVE BEEN WAITING LIKE THE WHOLE FUDGING BOOK TO FIND OUT WHY SHE TINGLES, AND THEN YOU JUST SNATCH IT OUT OF MY GRASP AND SAY NOPE YOU'LL HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER FUDGING WEEK TO KNOW THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW (I know I sound really sad) Ugh 😑 at least you know how to keep your readers along for the ride

Because my dear, I am evil and I enjoy inflicting pain ❤  heh~ Thank you so much for reading and I hope you’ll enjoy the future chapters!

@pandafish said: A very intense and dramatic reveal!  I can't want to hear about their history!

Thank you so much my dear! I hope you’ll enjoy it :D

@animeimmortal said: I shit you not i have never been this mad before. The other cliffhangers? Fine ill just deal with it. but this one? LET ME LIVE FOR ONCE I BEG YOU JUST ONE CHAPTER WITHOUT A CLIFFHANGER PLEASE DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE FROM THE LACK OF KNOWLEDGE I AM SO FRUSTRATED I NEED THE REST GOD PLEASE OMG ❤ love you ❤

U mad bro? :3 tehe~ But thank you s always for reading it despite wanting to kill me ❤  I love you too!!

Anonymous said: When she asked to touch his fangs and he was like 'go ahead I won't stop you' I literally had to refrain from shouting TITLE REFERENCE! BOOM!

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! Jungkook has said it before and so has the reader ;) But it was probably less obvious because I like to slip in those things to see if anyone picks up on it~ heh^^

Anonymous said: *glares at you author* I was this close to knowing. NOW I HAVE TO WAIT 7 MORE DAYS TO GET MY ANSWER TO WHY I'M VAMPNIP!!! GRRAGH>:( But on the bright side, this chapter wasn't as angsty as I feared! Hooray! :) *but I'm still mad at you hmph*- love Vampnip anon

*glares back at you and smiles* muhaha~ Don’t be mad at me because I love you very much ❤  hehe thank you so much for reading it my dear!

Anonymous said: AAAHHH I've waited so long for this IWSY Chapter *^* My jaw dropped when "I" called the Queen 'bitch' >.< I also really wanted to read about her finding out that the Jeon's are the royal family and her beloved Jungkook is a PRINCE <3 maybe in the next part~(?)

Haha yes! You called the Queen a bitch! c: But it can be forgiven I guess due to the circumstances lol ^^ YES MAYBE SO! ❤  thank you for reading the update dear ^^

@omelys-space said: Once again such a great update ❤ I am glad that they all opened up to her and that she had her time to freak out but calmed down pretty soon after that  Excited to see what she is now and again gotta give some love to Serrena  She is such a babe 😍 Thank you for your hard work and till next week ❤

Ahh thank you so much my love ❤  I’m happy that you enjoyed it and I hope you’ll look forward to next week too! ^^

Anonymous said: You always leave me crying, my heart full yet broken. Every Tuesday. And it's okay because art takes time.

Ahh you make me sound like such an emotional abuser :c I don’t mean to break your heart! *hugs* hehe~ thank you so much for reading the chapter dear ❤

@deboracorrea25 said: OMG!!! Perfect, simply perfect! I just love the way you write,  the way you make us feel all the emotions of the characters. I could feel the surprise, the anger, the acceptance, and even the love. I couldn't imagine this to be better, and I know next week chapter of "I won't stop you" will be flawless too. Thank you again for writing this fanfic. Love you!

sdfghj you’re too sweet for your own good, i’m so glad that you could feel all the emotions that everyone in the chapter was feeling ^^ thank you so much for reading it and for looking forward to next week - I’ll do my best!! ❤  I love you too :D

@mocking-butts said: OH MY GOD IM SCREAMING FOR THIS CHAPTER~!! I was literally at the edge of my seat when they were telling her and oh my god I almost cried and I need it to be next week I want to know so badly I love this story so much teach me the ways oh wise one. I love this story so much I can't even right now.

It’s only 6 days away now! *sweats* lolol c: Thank you so much for loving the story, I really really appreciate it that ❤

@fashionkilla124 said: I am SO FUKIN DONE WITH IWSY. I WAS CRYIN AT FIRST BUT HAD ME DYIN AT TGE END I CANT JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL.😩😩😂😂

*pats your head gently* there there my love, its okay~ ❤

@kookies-hoe said: ARGHHHHH 'I won't stop you' JUNGKOOK YOU TEASEEEE AND ALSO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME, THE CLIFFHANGER 😭😭😭😂

Ahhhh but it’s not the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series!Both Jungkook and the reader have said it before :3 thank you for reading it my lovely!

@mysr3 said: SARAAAA!!! I LOVE YOU!!! You saved JK heart and my heart at the same time This chapter I love it. The details are amazingly well portray and I love the humor you threw in there to emphasize Y/N characters in the state she is in or her personality in general. ahhh I love your writing! But you just ripped my heart out dying to know the whole story! I was so sure you would reveal today! I thought I had nailed how today chapter would turned out but I was wayyy offff lol Well played my love ❤❤❤

I’m glad I could save your heart and rip it out at the same time hehe ❤  I’m so happy that you could feel everyone’s response and their personalities in the chapter too ^^ Thank you for reading it dear and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Anonymous said: THAT ITALICIZED I WONT STOP YOU I SCREAMED BIIITTTCCCHHH YAAAAASSSS 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 I love it SO MUCH also the garlic bread part I died that was so fuckjng funny and then the to be continued 😭😭😭😭 y u do dis 2 mE ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

This isn’t the first time that the title has been mentioned in the series! Both Jungkook and the reader have said it before c: LOL I chuckled at the garlic bread reference when I was writing it haha (i’m so pathetic lol) Thank you for reading it despite the frustration of waiting ❤

Anonymous said: If you keep ending IWSTY chapters like that I'm going to explode. It's been continuous cliffhangers omg. I love the story and I can't wait for the next chapter!!❤ love you

Please don’t explode, that would make me mega sad :( And yes - continuous cliffhangers are kind of my thing? my style? lolol I’m sorry but it is what it is! :P Thank you very much for reading and I love you too pumpkin ❤

Anonymous said: okay SARA what the absolute HECK why must you play with our feelings that way?? i really thought we were going to get the tea ☕️ on what the reader is but NO ahhhh lovely chapter though omg 11/10 as always!!!!

Because I love to play and toy with people’s emotions~ does that make me a bad person? c: lolol thank you for reading and enjoying the chapter my love!

@doubletroublesince1994 said: I didnt expect this reaction at all! I thought she'll stay mad for 2 or 3 chapters before finally accepting it 😂😂 On a side note, I particulary loved this chapter because Ive been waiting for the declaration since day 1! Can't wait for tge 2nd part

Ahahaha I hope you still enjoyed it though my love! And it makes me really happy to hear that you’re looking forward to the next part too! Have a wonderful day babe ❤

Anonymous said: Oh my gosh this chapter was so good!!!! I can't believe that Jungkook finally told Y/N!  Thank you for writing this amazing series. ♡♡ - self care anon (and yeah, I'm trying to take care of myself. The routine is the most helpul part. Love you!)

Hi there self care anon! I’m glad to know that you’re still taking care of yourself and that my series can attribute to that self care routine ❤  And I’m also really happy and thankful to know that you enjoyed the chapter, thank you so much for reading it and I hope you continue to take good care of yourself ❤

Anonymous said: O.o Oh mai gawd Sara, that was sooo good. IWSY part 21, (y/n) stays!!! Yess!!! I've been so excited for today, I was so anxious to see whether or not (y/n) runs out on Jungkook and I'm so glad this part ended the way it did. Without a doubt, IWSY is the main reason I put up with tuesdays. ily soo much! can't wait for next part! - army anon

Hello army anon! I’m so glad to know that you enjoyed the new part ^^ and yes! (Y/N) was never going to run away or leave Jungkook - she loves him too much :D I love you too and thank you so much for reading it!

@audreymv said: MAMA IS ABOUT TO GIVE STORYTIME WOAH.  This was a roller coaster of a chapter like she yelled at them and she was angry wow and then like wow next thing ya know is she is apart of the ancestral line. Maybe her parents died by mistake. Ooo it's getting interesting

STORY TIME WITH SERRENA TURN UP! lolol~ Thank you once again for reading the new update and I hope you’ll enjoy next weeks too! Have a great day my love ❤

@btsfanficss said: What the heck I swear I was following you this entire time :o BUT ANYWAYS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EXISTING I LOVE IWSY SO MUCH IVE BEEN FOLLOWING IT FOR SO LONG ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

That’’s okay my dear don’t worry! A lot of the time I assume I’m following people but it turns out that I’m not so I totally understand xD Thank YOU for existing too and thank you so much for reading IWSY ❤

Anonymous said: Not gonna lie, I squealed like a fangirl when Jungkook said, "I won't stop you" LOL. But you're seriously killing me every week sara! I die every Tuesday, then get resurrected the next Tuesday just so I can't read the next chapter 😂 UGH AND AGAIN? REALLY SARA?  IM STILL WAITING TO FIND OUT WHAT Y/N IS 😭😂  I'm hoping the next chapter will be nice and long for me to indulge in 😉... and not gonna lie, I'm scared of the idea of vampires, BUT I REALLY WANT ME A VAMPIRE JUNGKOOK OMG 😜 - 7:45 Anon

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: lolol And don’t worry - the next chapter will probably be around 7k words (just like this chapter was), because it’s essentually the chapter that I explain the lore I’ve created/decided upon ❤ AND SAME I REALLY WANT A VAMPKOOK and I also want Vampire Vmin too lolol~~ Thank you so much for reading the new chapter as always 7:45 anon ❤

Anonymous said: YESSS I WONT STOP YOU AAAh. This made my day lol , I love you!!!! Have a great day c:

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: hehe ^^ I love you too and thank you so much for reading my dear!

@ineffabl-y said: IM SHAKEN OMFG but like WHEN IT SAID THE TITLE I SCREAMED also you should use this thing called interactivefics and it lets the reader insert their name inside the fic and I love it!!! just a suggestion tho ANYWAYS CANT WAIT TO BE THIRSTY FOR THIS FIC TILL NEXT TUESDAY <3

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: That’s good that there’s a site like that but I think for now I’ll be staying on tumblr because if I moved and started uploading somewhere else, people might get confused :( Thank you so much for reading my love and I hope you have a good day!

@ohheyitsebonyrose said: Saraaaaaaaa my queen. That part was amazing. I'm so glad the protagonist knows of vampires now ^.^ IM SO CURIOUS TO SEE WHAT SHE IS!!

Yes she finally knows! What a relief hehe ^^ Thank you so much for thinking that it was amazing! I hope you’ll enjoy next week too my love ^^

@theninjachan said: I die every Tuesday and rise again every Tuesday. Thank you. Chapter 21 was a delight (cont.) Oh and “Go ahead; I won’t stop you”  Nut bust x10000000000

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: Hehe, thank you so much for reading it my love and I hope you’re having an amazing day!

Anonymous said: I CANT TAKE NO MORE. THIS TUESDAY TO TUESDAY IS KILLING ME. I JUST WANT Y/N AND JUNGKOOK TO BUMP UGLIES AND BE HAPPY. BUT THIS CHAPTER WAS SO INFORMATIVE AND INTERESTING LIKE I WAS LIKE AHHHHH SNAP ITS GOIN DOWN NOW. But on a real note like this story is my shit. I don't mind waiting every week but I do. But like I don't. But then again I do. I'm just confused and I need to know what up with y/n cuz my theories are hella wild and I need the tea ☕️. I love you so much! 💜 ~LilKookieAnon

BUMP UGLIES AND BE HAPPY LMAO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LIL KOOKIE ANON :3 I love you too and don’t worry, all will be explained in time, I promise you!! Have a wonderful day my dear and thank you so much :3

Anonymous said: Wait, so since Serrena is older then Jeonju does that make her a cougar?  🤔😂

I mean, I guess so c: A hella cougar tho! hehe~~

Anonymous said: I HAVE NO WORDS. That chapter was amazing!!!!!! I'm jungshook. But in all honesty I really want everyday to be Wednesday!! *sigh* I'm so excited for chapter 22! -Tall anon

Thank you so much my dear! That means so much to me Tall anon :D I’m so happy you enjoyed it!!

Anonymous said: How long do you think I Won't Stop You is going to be because honestly I need it to be as long as possible!! I absolutely love it

I have no idea how long it will be but it won’t be ending any time soon ^^ you guys will know as soon as I do! thank you so much for reading and enjoying it my dear ^^

Anonymous said: OH MY GOD I LITERALLY SANK DOWN IN MY SEAT WHEN HE SAID "I WON'T STOP YOU" ITS LIKE YOU MADE ALL OF THESE CHAPTERS JUST TO SAY THAT ONE PHRASE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IM SCREAMING

Did you know that this wasn’t the first time that Jungkook said I Won’t Stop You? The reader has actually said it before too c: It will be a reoccurring sentence throughout! I hope you’ll be able to find them all c: hehe I love you so much too and I’m so happy you enjoyed the chapter!!

@jynxy24 said: I hate you so much, Sara. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE AND JUST AS SHE WAS ABOUT TO TELL?! COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNN! (Reader was adorable with the way she was asking question :3) I swear when I saw that cliffhanger, I was like, "Wha- Uh- Sara!" ISTG I'M SO CONFUSED AND FRUSTRSTED😂😂😂 Staph torturing me, Sara😂

Awww don’t hate me because I LOVE YOU very much c: And you should know by now that I love to torture you c: But thank you very much for reading the new chapter Jynxy my love ^^

Anonymous said: God damn it you know like what even what the actual fuck. I am more than shook rn ok. I am relieved nothing too bad happened but I am on edge now with that cliffhanger (& all others). I love it & dislike it (I don't like using hate cuz it's a strong word u kno). I'm sure u get that a lot tho lol. I am so excited for the next part oml I'm so eager to find out what the reader is & y she makes vamps feel things. It sucks to wait but I am really looking forward to the next part 💕 take care 💕

I do get it a lot haha it’s a weird feeling to know that people love and hate me at the same time lolol xD Thank you so much for reading and I’m sorry about the frustration! I hope you’re having an awesome day my dear ^^

@ananyak26 said: Ok I love this chapter!!! How can Serrena  be so savage AND sweet at the same time?!.. And jungkook... Ahhh.. Jungkook . Great job as usual author-nim!!!

She’s a badass mum indeed! Thank you so much my love and I’m so happy you enjoyed the new chapter!

Anonymous said: Love the 'I Won't Stop You' series! I found it a few weeks back and it's amazing!!! Always looking forward for each Tuesday (well Wednesday for me since I'm 7 hours ahead of you)

Ahhh thank you so much sweetie! I’m so happy you found it and that you’re enjoying it ^^ And ugh, damn timezones, they ruin everything!! lol I hope you’re having an amazing day ^^

@angelbeats47 said: YO SARA!!! I'm really getting angry reading I Won't Stop You!!! Like seriously you're writing is fantastic and I can't handle this anymore.... I literally threw my pillow as I finished reading the latest chapter 😡😡😡😡 THIS STORY IS TOO GOOD! I'M GETTING MAD BECAUSE I GOTTA WAIT ANOTHER WEEK FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER 😫😫😫😩😩😩 ugh so good so good 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽

Hiya doll! :3 You only have to wait another 6 days so it’s not too far away right? c: hehe, thank you so much for reading and I’m sorry it makes you angry :P I hope you’ll enjoy the next chapter!!

Anonymous said: I die every Tuesday bc of your clifghangers!!! Asdfhklhdf your work is so good,  i literally binge read all of 'i won't stop you' yesterday and its killing me inside!! Also, a part of me wants yoongi to fall in love with her and become a better person but i also want her to end up with jungkook ahhhhh can u feel my pain T__T

Awh thank you so much my dear! Glad to know that you’re enjoying the story and I’m sorry about the frustration you feel heh ^^ Have an awesome day/night!!

[latenightbotanist]

I have feelings about the ode to joy and im going to dump them on you

At the time i am writing this part i have suffered through twenty two (22) hours of “ode to joy” repeated in my brains so you are gonna suffer with me now. Srsly, ask @madgronkish i kinda lost it around noon.. Anyways. First thought when i heard it was literally" theyre not going to fucking reunite them to THAT SONG??!?!“ Whilst i was wrong about sherlock driving the car…they still did that. Thanks mofftiss.

Ok now down to business. First off, DISCLAIMER, i am in no way qualified to do this? I dont know much about music and have like half an experience at writing meta? so..sorry in advance, maybe just look at this as inspiration and well..gay feelings bc i have enough of those to go around rn.

I will also tag some lovely people who actually know how to do this whole meta thing, and who knows, maybe one of you actually reads this mess and makes somethin out of it? Possibly? Idk, i dont blame you if you dont, really. @quietlyprim @loudest-subtext-in-tv @joolabee @hudders-and-hiddles @love-in-mind-palace @teapotsubtext @beejohnlocked @kinklock @marcelock @gaytectives @ormondsacker @culverton

So.. for all of you who dont know, ode to joy (originally “freude, schöner götterfunken”) is part of beethoven’s 9th symphony, it is the first ever symphony to incorporate voices, the lyrics mostly come from schillers “Ode an die Freude” and the melody itself has been the european anthem since 1972 (1985 if you insist on EU).

Ok so lets have a quick look at the lyrics(and i really mean quick, these are my notes from this morning, not exactly coherent but enough to get a general idea of my feelings about this, we’ll get into more detail later) i also put both the english and german version bc i felt at some points things got lost in translation, but honestly i dont know what to do about that so yeah, if you speak german, good for you, if not and by the end if this youre not bored to death and still have questions dont hesitate to ask i will awkwardly but gladly try to elaborate (this applies not only to lyrics btw)

O Freunde, nicht diese Töne!


Sondern laßt uns angenehmere anstimmen,


und freudenvollere.

/

Oh friends, not these sounds!


Let us instead strike up more pleasing


and more joyful ones!

(Literally lets have happier stories, also the score.. yes lets get the johnlock theme back,please)

Freude!
Freude! / Joy!
Joy!

Freude, schöner Götterfunken


Tochter aus Elysium,


Wir betreten feuertrunken,


Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!


Deine Zauber binden wieder


Was die Mode streng geteilt;


Alle Menschen werden Brüder,


Wo dein sanfter Flügel weilt.

/ Joy, beautiful spark of divinity,


Daughter from Elysium, 

 
We enter, burning with fervour,             (Cant set the heart on fire if its

 
heavenly being, your sanctuary!              already burning w/ love, yall)


Your magic brings together 


what custom has sternly divided.               (Gayyyy!!!!!)


All men shall become brothers,           (Secret brothers,reunion…)


wherever your gentle wings hover.      

(Idk, mrs hudson is an angel?)

/

Wem der große Wurf gelungen,


Eines Freundes Freund zu sein;

 
Wer ein holdes Weib errungen,


Mische seinen Jubel ein!


Ja, wer auch nur eine Seele


Sein nennt auf dem Erdenrund

!
Und wer’s nie gekonnt, der stehle


Weinend sich aus diesem Bund!

/

Whoever has been lucky enough.         (Luckiest man in the world,


to become a friend to a friend,                 my only friend, … ) 

 Whoever has found a beloved wife,


let him join our songs of praise!               (Uh….how bout no?)


Yes, and anyone who can call one soul


his own on this earth!                                       (My john…..)


Any who cannot,

let them slink away
from this gathering in tears!   (Mary crying,then disappearing)

/

Freude trinken alle Wesen


An den Brüsten der Natur;


Alle Guten, alle Bösen


Folgen ihrer Rosenspur

.
Küsse gab sie uns und Reben,


Einen Freund, geprüft im Tod;*

(Like.. sherlock died and
 came back for john what more proof??)

 Wollust ward dem Wurm gegeben,

 
Und der Cherub steht vor Gott. 

Every creature drinks in joy


at nature’s breast;


Good and Bad alike


follow her trail of roses.                  (Good and bad, rosie, hmmmm)


She gives us kisses and wine,


a true friend, even in death;              (Or only in death?hey mary)


Even the worm was given desire,     (Mycroft? Nah,probs moriarty)


and the cherub stands before God.    (Sherlock, my lil cherub)

/

Froh, wie seine Sonnen fliegen

Durch des Himmels prächt'gen Plan,

 (Plans…ominous)


Laufet, Brüder, eure Bahn,

 
Freudig, wie ein Held zum Siegen.

Gladly, just as His suns hurtle


through the glorious universe,


So you, brothers, should run your course,             (the way it was always


joyfully, like a conquering hero.                                  meant to be…..) 

/

Seid umschlungen, Millionen!


Diesen Kuß der ganzen Welt!


Brüder, über’m Sternenzelt


Muß ein lieber Vater wohnen.


Ihr stürzt nieder, Millionen?


Ahnest du den Schöpfer, Welt?


Such’ ihn über’m Sternenzelt!


Über Sternen muß er wohnen.

/

Be embraced, you millions!


This kiss is for the whole world!             (,!!???? Like???????Yes pls)


Brothers, above the canopy of stars


must dwell a loving father.                                (Or two? Hey dads)


Do you bow down before Him, you millions?


Do you sense your Creator, o world?


Seek Him above the canopy of stars!


He must dwell beyond the stars.

Well that was……….. kinda gay. Yeah yeah i know its just a queer reading no i dont believe it was intended to be gay by either beethoven or schiller (or was it?? Irdk) but. in the context of the show. which is rather what were looking at. Pretty damn gay, right?

Ok lets have a look at my absolute favourite lines first:

Your magic brings together/what custom has sternly divided.

Well… i think we can all agree that society has, quite sternly indeed, divided holmes and watson, romantically. Homosexuality just simply wasnt a custom, or at least very frowned upon, mildly speaking. It is rather magical to watch this wrong being righted though, i should think. More specifically in bbc sherlock, the divide has come through a custom of not speaking to each other, and guess what?? Yeah hudders is friggin done with that bs these two are talking now!

And then…

Be embraced, you millions!/This kiss is for the whole world!

*shrieking* do i? Do i really need to talk about this? I think not. This just…. yeah. I mean really….. I would like to add at this point that, at least to my ears, embraced sounds like a rather tame option of translation. “Umschlungen”, to me personally conveys a certain vigour, almost as if the embrace might… idk.. come as a surprise to some extend? Take the air from some peoples lungs? Yeah dunno what that could be about……

If you still need more i guess i could just blubber some more about it all but tbh what is structure? so yeah, here we go, feel free to leave anytime i mean its already pretty gay and hurts my heart i wont blame you if you think 

•WE ARE NOW ENTERING THE REALM OF JOY… yep thats happening things are getting happy, please, god, let them actually. And this joy that we will feel when John and Sherlock ( finally) get together will mend all the wrong thats been done to those two, and us Holmes fans, during all these years of being kept apart by society and norms and customs, homophobia and heteronormativity. Were entering a sanctuary, we are literally save here!

•General message of schiller’s ode to joy is literally that HUMAN CONNECTIONS ARE THE CROWN OF HUMAN EXPERIENCE like wow yes thank you it is as if human connections were the stuff that…completes you as a human being. Say what? 

•Not only is this true for johnlock but also for our entire community, were bound together by the joy of this show, our joy will mend what heteronormativty destroyed, the joy of their kiss will unite us, we will embrace it and the joyfull gayness will embrace us! 

 •The fact that its literally such a groundbreaking piece of music. There have been symphonies over and over but this is new, this is different, he incorporated voices. Groundbreaking,earthshattering… u get it. Seriously if anyone who has even a slither of a clue about music wants to educate me on what the inclusion of voices could stand for please im begging enlighten me my brains too fried im already struggling to get this done(as you might be able to tell. I am so sorry)

 And now, onto some more shit i stumbled upon in the original poem that, sadly, didnt make it into the song but: 

•Have patience for a better world to come, god(mofftiss) is good and will give you what you deserve

•Forget hatred and revenge, forgive your (arch)enemy who shall not have to cry or be rueful (ahem mary. Also possibly mycroft to some extent who knows whats gonna happen) 

•Bravery even in agony,help where innocence is weeping (hi john) 

•Something about oaths and telling the truth to your friends as well as enemies and how lies will bring everything down…… 

•Narrowing the circle, making oaths with wine and staying faithful(keep believing!!) 

•Salvation from tyranns, hope to the dying, mercy in council, forgiving of sins and ENDING HELL well ok then yes to all! 

 No honestly theres a lot and im horrifically underqualified and have a headache so i’ll stop now. If you actually read this whole mess of a thing.. thank you. Bless your soul. I’ll make you an origami elephant or something

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Battle over Pipeliners looms

A fight over ownership of McPherson's collegiate summer baseball team, the Pipeliners, has erupted over the past 48 hours. The Kansas Collegiate Baseball League announced today it has awarded control of the "franchise' to Chad Pinson, who was an assistant coach for the team and handled marketing in it's inaugural season. Caleb Hartman, who established the team, contends he is the legal owner.

This is the announcement from KCLB issued on Facebook

Kansas Collegiate League Baseball is formally announcing that today we have decided to move forward with Chad Pinson and his vision for the baseball organization located in McPherson, KS. After one year of involvement it has become apparent that his professionalism, maturity, and integrity align with our league values. Coach Pinson, whom has been involved as an affiliated owner with the team since inception in the 2017 offseason, will now act as the sole owner of this franchise slot. This franchise with the KCLB will continue its current league affiliation agreement as agreed upon by Pinson in 2017.

Chad Pinson, active immediately will be held responsible for all outstanding balances due to the KCLB. Including the agreed upon franchise fee. Until full remittance of the remaining balance the KCLB continues to reserve the right to enforce any and/or all legal remedies to us.

This decision was made unanimously with full support from current owners and umpires affiliated with the KCLB. PSA and the NBC are aware of the current situation and are excited for the future of our franchise in Pinson's hands.

Furthermore, the KCLB would like to apologize for the public defamation of character that Chad Pinson, his family and supporters have been forced to endure in the beginning of this endeavor. The KCLB will show full support for Pinson in the legal proceedings following today. It was the hope from our organization for a peaceful and professional split.

For the members of the McPherson community, we look forward to continuing summer collegiate baseball in your town. We promise to deliver a professional and family friendly experience year after year. The KCLB has no intention of leaving your community. We look forward to placing an unequivocally qualified individual such as Chad Pinson in charge of the franchise in McPherson. We are confident that the community of McPherson will rally around an individual with values, integrity, and a true passion for baseball.

This statement was issued by Caleb Hartman in a Thursday morning e-mail

It has been brought to my attention that former assistant coach Chad Pinson has reached out to all of you regarding wanting your support in taking over the McPherson Pipeliners due to the fact that I was stepping down as owner and head coach. Unfortunately this couldn’t be further then the truth. The team as been a sole proprietorship owner by myself Caleb Hartman and always will be owned by myself. CHAD PINSON WAS AN EMPLOYEE OF THE MCPHERSON PIPELINERS.

MY WIFE AND I HAVE ALL THE PROOF TO SUPPORT OR CLAIM TO OWNERSHIP!!!!

Chad was hired by my self back in August last year after my first year of coaching with the Wichita marlins. Mr. Pinson was hired to help generate sponsorships and help with the business. I work 40-50 hours a week like most people do, because of my out of state work due to my job I let chad have complete control of Generating sponsorships for the team. So many of you have spoken with chad and met with chad numerous times about sponsorship. This is where I have messed up. I should have been out there to meet and shake hands and thank you for your contributions to the team. Many of you have built a relationship with Chad Pinson on a personal level, which he has in turned and manipulated many individuals in to asking for their written support for him to take of the team because I was “stepping down”. This conversation never took place with him and I at all. These written “letters of recommendations” were taken to the league (KCLB) and central Christian College to secure another season in McPherson with out my knowledge under the same name but a different company.

The McPherson Pipeliners have always been owned by Pipeliner baseball recruiting LLC. Which is owned solely by myself. Every sponsorship check was sent to “the McPherson Pipeliners” in Moundridge which is my address. Every invoice we have paid has come out of MY business account that I gave chad a company card to make equipment purchases which he abused considerably towards the end of the year when he began to realize that he would most likely not be with the team again in the future.

Many of you know Chad Pinson as the face of the team due to his talent of being a likable out going person and I should have been more active in the community as an owner should. I just couldn’t be as active due to my career traveling in the oil and gas industry and a pregnant wife. The letters he’s asked for as a recommendation were All based on a lie, a lie that concocted with out my knowledge.  Chad Pinson had access to a company card what was directly linked to our account and he began to abuse toward the end of the year, which is part of the reason we still have a few open balances that IM trying to cover out of my and my family’s pocket. 

Chad Pinson was an employee that got a bad taste in his mouth by the end of the year because he knew that He most likely wouldn’t be apart of the team in the future. He has since concocted this plan to take advantage of me by setting up a similar business running with the same name. I have been contacted by some of you with come already asking if this is all true and unfortunately yes. This is all true. Chad Pinson is trying to steal the McPherson Pipeliners for his own when he has no affiliation with the team

I ask that you stand up and support me (Caleb Hartman) in this situation. I have never wanted to step down as owner, nor have I ever wanted to pass the business on to Chad Pinson. I’m sorry that you all have been duped by this disgruntled former employee. I am also sorry that I let it get this far. I should have been more active in the community and not have let chad get the upper hand by developing these person connections. I should have been the one doing all of that but in the end you also don’t expect to be screwed over by such a long time friend. 

I have been in contact with a civil lawyer and have decided to serve Chad Pinson with a cease and desist order. Chad has from what I have been told many legal battles active against him regarding past debt from his previous employer

In closing, I am Caleb Hartman. The owner of the McPherson Pipeliners. I am from Moundridge Kansas. I grew up in the McPherson community since I was born. This was my idea. My team. My name. My logos. My community. My website. My Facebook page. My players. My recruits. My coaches. I graduated from McPherson College. THIS IS MY BUSINESS. My wife and I have all the proof to support my claims. WHAT CHAD PINSON IS DOING IS ILLEGAL! DO NOT BE DUPED MY CHAD PINSON!

Please stand up and support the rightful owner of the McPherson Pipeliners, do not let this man come in to our community and ruin something that I brought in for McPherson.

Chad Pinson issued this statement Thursday afternoon after KCLB made their statement.

I am following up with the press release made by the KCLB for me to take on the managing role of the Pipeliners Baseball Team. I have gladly accepted this role.

As many as you know, I was indecisive of about returning for the 2019 season due the current situation that is at hand. I was struggling make a decision to stay or remove myself because I didn’t want to leave the players and community, but I did not want to associate myself with the current culture that was being allowed within the team. My standards were not being met which questioned the integrity of the organization. My decision become very easy when the KCLB league contacted me asking about my plans for the 2019 season to which I expressed my concerns about staying or leaving the organization. The league had the same concerns as myself, but they did not want The Pipeliners to leave the league as they could see what a great thing it is for the community. When a team has great support in a community this reflects the league in a positive way, but when negative things happen within a team it impacts the community and the league. The league was apprehensive to keep The Pipeliners within the league, unless there was a change of ownership and/or management. This is when the League asked me if I would take on this role so that The Pipeliners could stay in McPherson. As I said above, I gladly accepted and proceeded to move forward with the support of the league to keep the Pipeliners intact. My goal is, and always has been for the best interest of the players and the community of McPherson.

Many of you may have read the post that has been circulating on social media. It is apparent that the initial change of management has not been handled professionally. Clearly the decision made by the KCLB of having me take on the managing role for The Pipeliners has not been accepted in a mature or professional manner.

Without a doubt, the accusations posted on social media of me are ERRONEOUS and UNTRUE. It is unfortunate this has become a personal attach that has created drama with everyone involved directly or indirectly with The Pipeliners. These actions has left me no choice to get my attorney and the governing body of the league involved.

I apologize that this situation has brought so much negative attention to the McPherson community and players. The statements about the League and myself are embarrassing to McPherson and the players. I am not impacted by the statements about me as they are not true. But, when these comments impact my family (my wife, children, players, and community), I become very upset and will fight to the very end. All I have wanted is a place for the players to play in a supportive community where they can continue to follow their dreams, and McPherson is the greatest place to do so. These actions concern and baffle me. By taking this course of action, the ones who suffer the most are the fans, community, and players. This is for the team, not for personal gain or recognition. Through the support of the KCLB, PSA, and the NBC, summer collegiate baseball will remain in McPherson Kansas. I look forward to improving the culture of this organization.

Feel free to contact me directly to answer any questions or address any concerns you may have.

I look forward to calling McPherson home. Again, thank you for all your support.

We'll have any updates on the situation as it develops.