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I HATE PPL SAYING EDDIES GONNA MOVE BACK TO TEXAS, I HATE IT. My man JUST had a plot about experiencing joy, why the fuck would he punish himself by moving back to texas, if he moves, thats his whole found family torn away from him.
Eddie moving back to texas to be with chris means he has NO support system, no friends, just his son and his parents, eddies roots arent there anymore its be like trying to put a tree in sandy soil. Yeah that tree grew up in hot climate and sandy soil, but then the tree got the right type of soil, a proper watering schedule, and is now FLOURISHING why would you take it out of its new pot to put it back in its old one? The old one that stunted its growth and suffocated it?Just because it grew there doesnt mean it THRIVED
Eddie moved away from his parents for a reason, and putting himself back in that position of being critisized for every parenting move, of being told hes not good enough, that hell drag chris down with him, and this time he wont be able to leave. I think the only good part about that would be chris seeing how shitty hus grandparents treat his dad
Also you thunk buck is letting eddie go anywhere? Buck? Mr. Abandonment issues galore? He MIGHT let eddie go to texas to get chris and bring him home without him. But move there? Permanently? Not a chance.
Im sorry but having no support system whatsoever, and tyen being forced to live in the place he left for a reason, with parents who dont act like they love him and a son hes convinced hates him does not sound like the recipe for a postive mental mindset, or having and experiencing joy. It sounds like a place depression and self-doubt can thrive, and no one there on his side seems like a way to get yourself a trip to grippy sock prison.
Im getting so passionate about it because this is a popular theory, and imo it seems like smth the show could do, which is what has me so scared. But to me, it makes no sense character wise. Let chris come HOME
#eddie diaz#911 abc#buddie#evan buckley#911#911 on abc#buck x eddie#buddie 911#911 show#evan buckley x eddie diaz#eddieblr#eddie díaz#christopher diaz is a national treasure#christopher diaz#christopher diaz has two dads#let chris come home#helena diaz#ramon diaz#helena diaz bashing#ramon diaz bashing#eddie diaz has bad parents
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hello............ loyalty duo werewolf au..................... im gonna start posting bits and bobs here and there of things ive written that dont really have anywhere else to go. no promises on if this will be continued, but i. i do love me some werewolves........................ divider
Warnings for vague descriptions of injuries and implied torture. The writing and editing is kinda rough, sorry for any major errors :')
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“Werewolves don't exist,” is what the voice says. “What the fuck, werewolves do not exist!”
The muzzle hurts. It's too tight for his face. But he doesn't move from where he's laid, a bloodied heap slowly healing from his wounds. Every full moon he's dragged into this bedrock room after his fights, and every full moon he tries to escape while adrenaline is still flowing through him, and every full moon he suffers the consequences of thinking they can’t possibly stop him this time. He's too tired to fight this new voice, their scent uniquely cat-like and hovering above him. His eyes are too swollen. He's cried quite a bit. It's hard to stop when he's like this.
“Shit, I guess werewolves exist. Fuck. This isn't what I thought was gonna happen when they said there was dog fighting.”
The voice hovers closer, and he tries to shy away. Something is— broken, probably, in his leg, and his claws are cut through the quick, but he tries anyway to press against the wall.
“Hey, hey hey hey, no, I'm not gonna hurt you,” the voice pitches down, softens, and the part of his mind that can't bear another moment of cruelty forces a whimper out of his mouth. “Oh that's— I'm not gonna hurt you, I'm here to get you out, yeah? We're gonna leave. We're gonna leave riiiiight now, right now, I scared everyone else out, it's just you and me now.”
He's not sure he believes the voice, but beyond the walls, there is a terrifying, blessed silence. Whatever this voice did to everyone else, it could probably do to him. He's in no shape to fight it off.
“Hey,” the voice is even quieter now. “It said outside the door that your name is Wifies. Is that you? Wifies?”
He recognizes the name as the one they call him when he's not like this. He can't make any meaningful noise with his muzzle on, but he tries for. . . a purr, something in his chest that isn't a growl.
“Okay. Wifies. Okay Wifies, I'm Ken. You look too big for me to carry, so we need to work together to get you out of here, yeah?” there's some rustling, and Ken curses. He can't help the way he curls up further. “I brought all my escape kits but not a single healing pot. I'm an idiot.”
Getting up from his curled up spot sounds impossible, but his nails are already growing back in as jagged spikes, so he knows he can do it. He struggles to get his arms beneath him, hoisting himself up after a few false starts. Using his good leg, he twists around to sit and lean against the wall. That little bit of effort has him panting, or panting as much as he can within the metal restraints of his muzzle. He peels his eyes open, ignoring the sting.
“Hoooooooly shit,” Ken mutters, staring up at him. He's a head taller than Ken like this. “I definitely can't carry you, my God.”
Ken is dressed in all black, a brown strap across his chest and a bag hanging off his back. He's a cat hybrid, which explains the smell. His ears and eyes and whip-thin tail are split between a candied green and a golden orange. As soon as his blood stops rushing through his ears, he can hear Ken's heart beating, fast and skipping.
He can't make himself any smaller if he's meant to walk. He lowers his head and puts his ears back.
“Nooo, no no no, it's— you make yourself very small very well. Um, okay, let's— how am I gonna get you out of here?”
His bad leg still hurts, but if he can leave. . . He digs his palms into the bedrock behind him and pushes himself to stand. His weight, as paltry as it is for a wolf his size, causes his bad knee to buckle. Ken yelps. He withstands the shaking, burning pain of it to stand up properly.
“They don't chain you up anywhere?” Ken asks, eyes darting around the room. “I've got a netherite axe. I could definitely split any chain.”
Chains were no good. Once his nails grow back, they're easy to shred. He stares down at Ken.
“Jeez, you're huge, good fucking grief.”
He lumbers forwards towards Ken, and the darkened double doors of his cell. Ken takes a step back, then another, then turns around to push the doors open to their absolute maximum. He hunches over to squeeze through.
The hallway is just as dark as the cell, uninterrupted bedrock as far as he can see.
“It's a bit of a labyrinth. Just follow me.”
Ken hesitates for a moment before weaving his way through the halls. He follows, a loud, thudding, limping pace that should have alerted every single creature around to his presence. But it's just Ken’s feather-light footfalls and him. Whatever Ken did to clear the place out was absurdly successful.
As they turn another indistinct corner, he sees— moonlight. It pools onto the floors, sweet and cool and calling to him. There's a hole blown through the bedrock, the sparkling smell of redstone surrounding it, and he scrabbles around Ken to squeeze through it. Tumbling onto soft, dewey grass (grass, real grass, when had he ever felt such a thing?) he loses all strength and lays on his back, staring up at the full moon.
She's so huge. He's never seen Her before, had just known when She was full or new in his core. But here She is. She is huge and beautiful and he feels, for the first time ever, at peace.
Ken hops out of the hole and steps closer, crouching next to him.
“Hey buddy,” Ken says. “Do you think I can take the muzzle off?”
He shakes his head, then growls for good measure— a soft growl, low and short to not intimidate Ken too much. He can't explain that the muzzle was put on when he was smaller, that it can’t be removed when he’s like this. Or, it can, but it’ll hurt so much he might cry again. Better to let Ken believe that it’s impossible, just in case.
“That's a no. Okay. Well, we should probably leave soon before anyone realizes anything,” Ken looks up at the sky before swinging back and sitting down in the grass, sighing. “But I don't think sitting here for a little longer can hurt.”
Wifies purrs and basks in the moonlight.
#saiintly apocrypha#saiintly hymn#wifies#kenadian#loyalty duo#MCTY#MCYT fanfiction#MCYTblr#werewolf au
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Encountering a completly new problem called too many mediterraneans in sport. I didn't know this was possible.
#picking faves in f1 is easy as hell#Spanish. done.#and then i added drivers that i just liked#now im tryna find reasons to get ppl off the list#alex marquez likes pineapple on pizza so ig he's done#im not gonna get fucking anywhere like this#motogp shit
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job applications: this is entry level! anyone can apply!
job applications: ...as long as you've done at least six months of highly specific work, or have this exact degree, or if you kissed a chicken during the last moon of 2012-
#im back in the trenches bois its Not Looking Great#gonna apply to this stupid thing anyway but#it looks like stockin grocery store shelves is the way im gonna go#unless i get Very lucky or manage to bullshit my way into this job#college isn't necessary but Man a lot of places want you to attend. no <3#but noooo instead i have to like. work. till i die. and never make enough money to live comfortably. sigh#sometimes i think to myself 'i should make video essays on youtube and see if that goes anywhere'#and sometimes i think 'i should scribble up things that people would buy and make a shop'#and sometimes i think 'what if i killed someone with a stick. would that be fucked up or what'#absolutely unprompted#AGHHHHHHHH THE BOXES WE AS HUMANITY HAVE LOCKED OURSELVES INTO IM GONNA LOSE IT#i was born to be a handsome decoration / weird little artist for eccentric wealthy people#i was meant to drape myself across a beautiful philanthropist woman's lap and doodle lil animals for her#while she rambles and feeds me grapes#yk. if i did make a shop i could have an extra section for small crochet things#coasters. small hand warmers. tiny shapes. simple cat toys. that sorta thing. quick and easy stuff#i could make them w/ specific colors so that they're subtle fandom themed#i literally have a coaster in damian's robin colors... a black/red SB square...#hm. thinking#oh shit i gotta work on that new commission sheet#OH NO. I FORGOR SOMETHING I SHOULD NOT HAVE FORGOR. I HAVE MADE A LITTLE FUCKY WUCKY#excuse me everyone i have something to finish
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i wass confused because you said your roommate called you “he”
my housemates also call each other they them yet somehow manage to understand which cross-sex hormones they'd have to inject in order to grow facial hair
#you think im gonna find $400 rent anywhere but a tranny home... not a damn chance#like ok rent is cheap beacuse of the original leaseholder having signed the damn thing nearly 20 years ago#so. due to some local rental laws the landlord cannot raise the rent. we're paying early pre-2008 rent#and because the O.G. is nonbinary he wants to keep this shit In The Community. I had to know someone to get in the place to begin with#and got lucky as fuck that right after i landed here and started couch surfing with strangers that 1 of them had dated someone in this house#im not about to start beedlessly making a stank about gender when it doesnt matter one iota in this situation. its#*needless....#its utterly unimportant.#i support the adult female right to troon out af just as much as i criticize misogyny homophobia medical negligence / malpractice etccc#but most importantly: i respect my ability to have a roof over my 🦲
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went to a comic store today and saw individual issues of idw sonic in person for the first time ever btw . epic win
#not that ive never been to a comic shop before its just the only.one thats anywhere near me#is one i didnt know existed until like a year ago because its in a weird spot#and their hours are very incompatible with the days/times im actually able to go around shopping#and ive also been to other places that sell comics they just never hvae idw sonic#ANYWAYS i got to go today and they had sonic yayyy . and i also got an issue of monster high new scaremester#because ive really been wanting to read that one and havent been able to find it online like . at all. nobody is archiving that thing ....#i only got issue 2 though because they were out of issue 1#and i didnt have a single chance to check for issue 1 when it came out. because of the previously mentioned scheduling curse#nervous that i actually spent money on it because idk if im even gonna like it#ive heard mixed reviews on it and the book that its a continuation of . but fuck it we ball#also if this store carries sonic idk how i never saw it before because i Have been a couple times in the past#maybe they just now started getting it recently?? or just happened to be out the last few times?? idk
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i thought about spades slick again and i fell to the ground clutching my knees in tears
#He went through every horror imaginable#He fought tooth and nail for what he wanted#Gave it everything he had#AND HE STILL LOST#FUCK#ive been heavily debating rereading homestuck again now that ii is ending#i miss homestuck so bad#its like. theres this specific thrill i got from reading and experiencing homestuck that i cant find anywhere else#if that makes sense#dont get me wrong i absolutely ADORE ii#but homestuck was so jam-packed of content of everything and anything you could imagine#you could find anything#...mabye im being a little dramatic.#but whatever#i miss my alien old man yaoi#dadroog come back to me#le sigh#bonks thinkpan#im gonna have to stick with bonks thinkpan even though i go by laika#toodles
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its come to my attention that i cant get my nose ring. out of my nose.
#It. Should not be this hard surely..#bruh i swear if its like#bc i got my nostril pierced same time as my ears and all 3 were pierced w the same stud and#One of the earrings would NOT come out bc the earring literally wouldnt come apart and i ended up pulling the entire stud thru. to get itou#NOT on purpose iw as just trying to take it apart and it was easier for it to GO THRU MY WHOLE EAR than for the stud to come apart the way#its supposed to But the other ear was fine.. and once both were outt i tried just taking them apart and putting together outside of anythin#so there was no resistance anywhere#and yeah the one that came out weird just doesnt come apart. i have it now and its like GENUinely stuck together maybe i could get it apart#with like Pliers b ut#but the otehr one is so smooth to take apart and put together#SO IM SAYING#IF THE ONE IN MY NOSE. IS LIKE THE FUCKED UP ONE. IM GONNA BE SO MAD. GET OUT OF MY FUCKING NOSE#whatev i dont need to ttake it out right this instant but#i bought a hoop Like ia ctually want for it and i was just trying today#to take the stud out and put it back in so ik how to do it when i get the new jewelry#But well#I looked up a tutorial and everything but if its just like the stud itself is crooked inside and tahts why it wont come apart WTF am i#supposed to do in that situation#<- go back to the piercer#But i dont want to.
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Diantha three wolf moon cosplay real
#diantha hairy fucking legs cosplay real#ok ok ok im gonna get serious and go back to posting mostly headcanons starting tomorrow i promise#also i dont plan on making her coat flair out like it does in canon simply for the fact that trying to sit down would be hell.#her coat was not made with the intention of letting her sit anywhere. she has to stand forever and im not doing that#ill just need to figure out some other way to make her coat more visually interesting
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MY BEAUTIFUL BOY WHO I WOULD DESTROY THE WORLD FOR
#WHEN TF DID HTEY FINISH MAKING AND COLROING HIS NENDO WHAT THE FUCK#WHERE DO I ORDER IT#WHERE IS#WHERE IS HTE LINK#I CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE#I FOUND BREAKS BUT ITS OFF HTE JP WEBSITE#WHERE HTE FUCK IS MY OZ LINK WHERE I WANT IT SO BA DPLEASE#LOOK AT HIMMMMMM LOOK AT HIS LITTEL SMILE WHHHSHWHWHWHWHWHWHWW#IM GONNA CRY HES SO HAPPYYYYY#MY BABY BOY MY EVERYTHING MY PRIDE AND JOY#avil speaks#pandora hearts#oz vessalius#IF ANYONE KNOWS WHERE I CAN GET IT#PLEASE#I AM BEGGING ON MY HANDS AND KNEES I WANT HIM SO BAD#YES IM AWARE I HAVE AN OZ PLUSH ALREADY#BUT I MUST ALSO ATTAIN THE OZ NENDO.... HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME#this boy turned my life around i you dont understand....#another Essential you must know about this blog#i love this character his name is oz vessalius and he is from a manga known as pandora hearts :)#Unfortunately i also grew up to be like him LASKDJFALSKJH
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MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!
grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.
#ramblez#little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao#this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it#hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD#hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you#batim#batdr#bendy and the ink machine#bendy and the dark revival#and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions#it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting#But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent#dw Im not going anywhere <3#also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently#old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD#also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns#he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs#and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get#and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they#dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves#to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent#mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did#so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!
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they should invent a job that I can do and I don't have to drive super far to get to
#just blahs#i am going to cry ok guys#im trying to decide if this is better or worse than being in highschool and idk guys#why is everything hard and why is it so hard for me in particular for some reason bcs I know the majority of people deal w this just fine#why does driving have to scare me so fucking bad and every job is like 30 minutes away#and none of the places here in town are hiring and if they are they require previous experience or whatever and I don't have any#ive never had a job and its so hard to find applications anywhere bcs none of the small places here are on job listing websites#and i dont have every little shop here memorized to look them up#and it doesnt help that just the idea of going in for an interview makes me want to cry out of anxiety#and i was trying to get a babysitting job at the least#but the lady i was gonna babysit for wanted me to do it for like 6.25 an hour for both a 7 and a 1 year old ..#like maam .... i am not going to watch a young child and a literal infant for that much ...#and then when i said hey uhhh could you do more than that maybe ? she was like oh no i cant do that at all#and im sitting here like :|#im going to cry
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in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.
#i need better coping mechanisms but it’s so easy to just turn to substances when you’ve never learned how to cope w your emotions#and physical pain. however a lot of it has been brought on by the substance abuse aka i did it to myself#so i probably deserve it#but i started with them in the first place to get rid of pain that was so overwhelming and constant#it feels like every time i do something to preserve myself im punished for it#and im so sick of it. i cant believe its gotten this bad#i drink to help the pain -> i get hungover and the pain is way worse -> i drink to stop that pain#and the worst part is it always works#realistically ive depended on substances for like a decade#i started drinking at 13 and fell into a rut of alcoholism at like 15/16#my mom was going thru a phase of alcoholism and roped me into it so bad if be woken up by her bringing me a drink at 9 am#and we’d drink till she passed out and i had to walk her to bed and cook for everyone and do all the chores#it went on for months one summer#then it was weed and i smoked every day from like 18-22#only thing thwt stopped me from drinking until i started again after both my parents died#i havent recovered since.#im still so traumatized and depressed that i looked for any method of relief#the dph phase was the worst. i think alc is even better than that lmfao it was horrible#once i got access to alc i stopped all that. wouldnt have if i hadnt had alc tho#it’s honestly been one addiction after the other for a decade#and my parents fueled so much of it#‘oh id rarher you drink under my eye than do it behind my back’#BRUH YOU WOULDNT LET ME GO ANYWHERE OR DO ANYTHING. HOW WOULD THWT HAVE HAPPENED#crazy how i was obsessed w drugs and shit by the time i was 10 and i remember thinking wow im gojna grow up to be an addict.#why am i so irreparably fucked up#idk whatever. like im not gonna drink abt it lmao.
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i need more wrestlers to have affordable merch, to have pins (and stickers and key chains) as merch, and stores to have shipping costs that make fucking sense
#i meed chrissy b things but pwt sucks and ordering from ddt is so limited and jumping through so many fucking hoops#also theres no good pins anywhere#fml im gonna look at etsy ugh#like i get it especially making pins is difficult and probably expensive and not many people ask for them#but i want them! i love pins they are among my favorite novelty merch next to key chains!!#im sad :(#night is an absolute mess on main
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the only thing stopping me from writing larxene x aura blackquill smut is that i have no earthly fucking idea how to get the two in a room together. wouldnt want it to be some 'au where theyre both office workers and get locked in a closet xoxo' thing. aiming for fully plausible 'YOU CAN'T PROVE IT DIDN'T HAPPEN'. i usually place japanifornia in quadratum for my ends re: keyblade revolutionnaire, but that asks wicked questions abt how larxene got there so my best bet is probably 'san fransokyo and we imply that the plot of big hero 6 is happening in the background of aa during the 7 year gap'. but then what
#got them on the same world at least :bloody_thumbs_up:#all i can think is they meet in a bar -> fucking hate each other -> take it outside -> make out against a wall -> onwards and upwards#but like. wtf are they fighting abt. what happens after they make out#like ik dom/sub stuff is optional but larxy and aura are both wicked domineering#(i usually call her 'larry' as my nickname to keep myself from maintagging her but i absolutely cannot do that anywhere near aa)#am i even familiar enough with their characters to write em faithfully < asking this abt crossover femslash with a target audience of 0#so like it turns out there are a number of things stopping me! among them that ive never written any smut that isnt materfred bullshit#will think it over and then maybe...#god if this is the first kh x aa thing i write and Not keyblade revolutionnaire im gonna get laughed out of my own brain#larxquill
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why is the process of making a will like pulling fucking teeth and i dont even have a guarantee that my family wont be allowed to have control over my body when i die which is the only reason i wanted to go through this process in the first place
#god forbid you have no family and arent married and die#LIKE DOES THIS NOT INFURIATE MORE PEOPLE. IS IT JUST ME.#FOR FUCKS SAKE#the amount of things in life that depend on you having a group of people that will take care of you makes me want to rip my hair out#what the fuck are people all on their own with no family or other supports supposed to do#why are more people no angry about this#like what are we even supposed to do when faced with life circumstances like this. is this a problem i can even fix or work around?#because im completely lost i wanna just curl up and die i feel like im never gonna get anywhere
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