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matchasilver · 5 months

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Venting below ///

tw: anxiety, stalking, and depression mentions

Also, despite wanting to post more art and writing, my anxiety over someone seeing it who I hate over takes me and makes me start to involuntarily cry and shake.

Listen, I'm an adult and I will say and do whatEVER the hell I want @ myself. I know that it's good to do things you love, even if you're scared while doing them. It's good for me to do things that bring joy!!!!

#shrimpie speaks #vent #I am sick of hiding and acting like me vague-posting my opinions on the internet is “bad”. I don't care who's stalking me anymore #I am not some criminal #and it's okay to vent and vague post! I know who might see this #and you know what? Why should I censor myself and be scared of nothing?#I had a scary day today #and I was crying a lot because I could not express my thoughts or feelings because I am scared of even drawing or reading around ********.#and not to be beholden to #a system that thinks i'm evil #if there's a person I don't feel comfortable around and usually it's pessimists i'll commiserate with them bc i know i have to deal with b #being around them and might as well #lots of people recognize and realize the negative and forget the positive and think it's fluff #and so because of that i was kinda conditioned that happiness is stupid #and being critical of the world is good #im not a conservative pos i like to look on the bright side naturally #so ofc i'm depressed around negativity #but i mimic it around those who i have to placate or else #i'm scared #fuck i just wanna be out and i need a job #i'm only scared of losing shelter and having no money #i'm learning to be confident again

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