#im just playin around w/angst tee hee

[spaciebabie]

okay i keep thinking abt this specific arc in two that i think is gonna end up being my favorite arc n i keep thinking of kat specifically

she goes thru SO MUCH in this arc, and throughout it all she wears a brave face as horrible situation after horrible situation is thrown at her until she's barely taking care of herself and in one of the few moments of her down time she finally looks at herself in the mirror.

and she see's her hair. now idk how other ppl feel abt their curly hair, but for ppl like me (biracial and/or black) our hair means a LOT to us n im thinkin abt this moment where she realizes she has let her hair get to a point beyond repair. its too long to manage in her current situation, its matted, tangled, and she hasn't washed it in weeks and she realizes she can't take care of it anymore.

and its such a small thing right? hair grows back? but its not a small thing. she worked for YEARS to attain the length, ta get it looking the way she wanted it to and this is her breaking point. where, she has had almost EVERYTHING taken from her, and NOW-

she has ta take one more thing away from herself.

and suddenly everything comes crashing down on her. the sleepless nights, the mere scrapes w/death. how is this fair? the one thing she is able ta control in her life. and she has ta cut it off.

can you have brainrot for your own story?? auduahduahd short hair kat is gonna ruin me