#im feeling nostalgic bc of it bc some of it is p old and i made good friends thru a lot of it

[smokeys-house]

looking back at art of my oc and I want 2 reblog all of it but I also do that like once every few months so I've gotta space it out or ur dash will be only me look into my eyes 👀 it will be only me

[ember20sblog]

I thought since I’ve been on here for a hot minute, I’d introduce myself and tell u a little bit about me:)

First off, Ember is kinda like my alter ego name that I use for pretty much all my social media accounts except Facebook (made that account when I was 14 and it’s mainly for family). My real name is Alyssa but I’ve never really liked that name for myself. Im 21 years old but I definitely feel like I have the mind of a teenager lol

My favorite color is black🖤

My favorite food is popcorn 🍿

I’m a coffee addict☕️ also have an obsession with coffee mugs (especially Halloween mugs)

My favorite animal(s) is an elephant, owl, cardinals (I honestly love all animals Lmaoo)

My favorite hobbies are writing poetry and occasionally drawing

I have been diagnosed so far with C-PTSD, MDD, GAD, an eating disorder (I’ve had anorexia nervosa b/p subtype as well as bulimia and ednos) I’m also being evaluated for mood disorders

I have 2 biological sisters and 4 half siblings (3 half sisters and 1 half brother) I’m the youngest

I have a dog named mufasa who’s a shitzhu mix

I suffer from lots of chronic illnesses as well

I never finished high school. I only went freshman year but missed a lot bc I kept getting sick. I tried homeschooling but I was too mentally unstable and physically sick to do most of the work. And I was in the psych ward and ED residential treatment during sophomore year so I finally just gave up. I haven’t gotten my GED yet bc again I have a lot of physical and mental health issues that make things 10x harder to do

I’m pretty much a homebody but I wish I wasn’t. I wish I had friends but I don’t

I struggle with my sexuality and identity bc of my religious family and what I grew up on. I’m pretty sure I’m a lesbian but I’m not 100% sure. I just know deep down I’m not straight. So maybe queer? Idk but it’s hard when u have homophobic parents and siblings. I’ve only kinda come out to two of my aunts who are supportive but I struggle with internal homophobia bc of the way I was raised and the beliefs that were taught to me. But I’m working on accepting myself

I’m more vegetarian then vegan bc I eat some animal products (some dairy and stuff made with eggs) but I eat a lot of vegan foods. I’m allergic to gluten and lactose intolerant so it’s easier to be vegan most times but I’ll allow myself to get away with eating some animal products. But I refuse to eat meat. Just grosses me out

I’m not big on having a favorite movie or show but I do like superhero movies (marvel not d.c.) my favorite genres of movies are thrillers, action, horror, and some comedy.

The shows I’ve been watching are supernatural, the fosters, American horror story, and SpongeBob (yes SpongeBob bc it’s nostalgic for me and reminds me of a happier time)

I need more shows and movies to watch so if u have any good recommendations pls comment them below!! I also have been trying to find more lgbtq+ movies and shows too

My favorite season is fall and my favorite holiday is Halloween

That’s all I can think for right now but if u have anymore questions feel free to ask me anything:)

[strwberri-milk]

Hi!!! Just wondering what are your head cannons of which bands and music Kaeya likes.

Like for me he absolutely loves The Weeknd.

Also I love your writing and I hope you have a good day<3

i just realised this doesnt really feel long requesty for me omg i could have just answered point blank but!! here's what i got for him :D i'm also totally biased bc. these are the songs im just seeing him looking absolutely ethreal in in an mv grrr

I definitely think Kaeya has a pretty diverse taste in music. I do definitely see The Weeknd on there! I think he might lean more towards some of the more slow-paced/sensual songs because he seems like someone who really enjoys "feeling" the music as cheesy as it sounds. I'm thinking nostalgic/late night drives with the windows down vibes!

Specifcally to that regard I'm seeing Moth to a Flame or Is There Someone Else? if we're doing The Weeknd specifically.

While he does lean that way I also think he had a temporary teenage angst phase in middle school and fell into the P!ATD/FOB scene. He'll probably retain some of it and I'm hearing that he still likes to listen to Too Weird to Live Too Wicked to Die every once in a while when he wants a blast of nostalgia.

Definitely loved the dance-pop/EDM stage of the 2010s. I'm talking Cascada, Britney Spears, the works. Anything he can pop his pancake booty to.

Please put me in a car with him I think we'd have a blast singing to old top 40s.

[thisdogpaystaxes]

Flower Boy by Tyler, the Creator: Album Review

so far, so fucking good, my pen and i are having great conversations about the beats and melodies being so complementary. i quite literally orgasmed when the beat switched in where this flower blooms. i manually checked my panties i am so fucking for REAL rn. shit was GOOOOOD.

currently listening to see you again, decided to write this after the first few songs, it is theee 2017-2018 little anthem. love it. no complaints

who dat boy is interesting. if i recall, this is one of the first songs he released from the album. it was this and 911 / mr. lonely. such drastically different songs. the beat picking up in who dat boy almost makes me wish it was at the beginning of the album. the intense intro would just be like ;O which is always what tyler leaves people doing. but the soft intro with the hard, up beat core of the album??? SO smart. like he eased you in, holy shit youre 5 songs in and nodding! a$ap was the perfect feature for this track, the difference in tone between him and tyler in the sense of raspiness/smoothness is really cool. tyler is aggressive but a$ap is chill. its like a realllly cool contrast that keeps u going like wow!!!

greeeeeeeeat.I NEED TO CHANGE MY PANTS! the switch to pothole from that aggressive song?!!!! oh my god like im literally flabbergasted. the highs and lows are really exciting in this album, like it shows you his range. especially with his features, he matches their specific cool voices with a rad ass beat and his voice. im very specific about features, i think they go bad a lot, but his are meticulously done.

i appreciate that the singles vary insanely from a good amount of songs on the album. its like a little :p oops i lied! bc they sounded typical, upscale tyler. but no. this shit is so gorgeous, like he really cared about the beats he made and you can tell. he took CARE of them. love pothole!!

cute segue into garden shed. personally love this song, it sounds like an over cast sky and you look up and it hurts your eyes a bit, but its cool and you really like how it feels outside. maybe things will be okay. the gradual additions to the beat r like :00000 like it is sincerely some of the most gorgeous shit. estelle was a fantastic choice, truly fucking good and like thought out choice. the lay out of his verses with the features is peculiar in garden shed, in a really freshing, new way. like i really like the exclusivity from their parts never meshing, but their voices complementing the beat in different ways consecutively.

holy fucking shit boredom. now this. this is the song in 2017 i liked. so now i hear it and it makes me upset. like i was 15 years old and heart broken over some loser. like girl... be a kid! but my parents are the reason that was even more emotional. they like freaked on me that year. bad memories. 1:11 beat change always tied me back in then, just like now. its like ohhh yeah. this reminds me of hanging with three people who i loved with every fiber of my soul but we all hate each other now. for separate reasons too? this song makes me nostalgic in a way i don't like, but its really good for what it is. this is a fantastically composed little catchy song. i like that it has a really clear intro and outro.

next we got i aint got time! i fucking love this song, it is so aggressive. aggressive ass song perfectly layered in between soft. its like a buy in. which ever style of his you like, youll hear more of it between the layers of contrast. but its all good, and thats what it is too. its a perfect sequence of aggressive and soft to make you appreciate the fuck out of every song. THE MAIN THING IS CONTRAST IN THE SONG LAYOUT.

911/ mr lonely is an interestingly composed song. i genuinely think this song paved the way for a lot of sounds we hear today in music. like this general style of goofy beats, i swear after i heard a lot more funky shit. franks part makes me want to drink a vat of acid but in the best way. like its so perfectly incorporated, and then BOOM! 5 CAH GARAAAAGE. like YES MORE MORE?!! fucking delicious contrast. then ur like ohhh its gonna end huh, but u r like wait.. its building again?! 2:46 beat switch is like the grand finale

droppin seeds is a track i love a lot. been actually chewing on this a lot lately, it makes me so zen. im like B) when im listening to it.

november i dont love. i got distracted until 1:32 when he played with his flow. but that flow change did tie me back in and im like okkkkk. the chorus is just kind of tired but i feel like thats the point.

glitter...... girl she is everything for what she is... its the same kind of like :$ :Q from boredom. but its also like cutesie. i can stand glitter, cant do boredom. glitter is really cute but since i heard it rn, im ok not hearing it for another like 4 years again. sorry.

enjoy right now, today is great. love love love love love the inclusion of this song. its like a great outro. its a sweet cherry on top of a decadent album. im aware completely of how glitter complements this song, hence the songs placement right before the outro. really good album.

[fekst-fucker]

Ej, clockwork, and p e r h a p s the proxies with a s/o that still sleeps with stuffies doe 🥺 -mothman anon

MOTH IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK ME FOREVER HSHSGSGSG

Eyeless Jack

- Yknow what he gets it

- He too loves to be completely surrounded by soft, squishy things, so stuffed animals make sense to him

- He’s like “they even come in comforting shapes for children. Perfect”

- That’s mostly him teasing you, but he’s picked out a few of his own favorites from your stuffed animals and now sleeps with them every night

- He’s definitely torn a couple up by accident and he feels SO fucking bad, he tries to get you new ones

- If you have any Build a Bear plushies with the little noise chips in them, DON’T let him near them. Once he accidentally activated a little Darth Vader bear and the kshhhhhh kshhhh scared him so badly that he shot straight up to the ceiling and stuck there like a cartoon cat

Clockwork

- Natalie had SO many plushies as a kid, just thrown all over the floor

- So seeing your bed makes her so nostalgic and feel really like safe and secure, she sleeps in your bed more than her own

- And she honestly cuddles them more than you but at least you don’t have to get crushed by her suddenly laying on top of you in the middle of the night

- Queen of picking up your stuffed animals that have fallen off the bed bc “they’re lonely at night by themselves :,(“

- She ends up falling off the bed a lot bc her depth perception is fucked (one eye syndrome :( )

- This also means it’s hard for her to crawl over all your animals, she prefers bigger ones cause they’re easier to grab but too many of the same color in the same spot makes her head hurt

Masky

- Initially he’s like “how old are you again?” but all it takes is being firm with him, smack him on the elbow or the stomach and be like “yeah uhuh how old are you?? How much do you smoke?”

- He’s like geez don’t need to drag me

- He learns to love them though, at least he loves coming into your room late at night and seeing you passed out on a layer of stuffed animals, looking like you’re having the best sleep of your life

- When you wake up he tells you “damn I gotta try that” and he does!

- His back barely hurts at all the next morning and he’s scarily perky, the next couple times he goes out he comes back with a million pillows for his bed

- Use my stuffed animals, coward

Hoodie

- He likes fidgeting with stuffed animals, especially when they have clothes or little zippers or sequins or other fidgety items

- He had a couple stuffed animals growing up, like some really beat up bears and jungle animals, so when he sees one that reminds him of his childhood stuffies he cuddles it and won’t let go

- His favorite was a really beat up giraffe. If u ever see a giraffe… snag it for him

- But only while he’s in your room, he knows that your stuffed animals are YOUR property and he respects that !

- He actually doesn’t like laying over all your stuffed animals, all the little bumps and snags keep him awake and he ends up tossing and turning

- He hates not sleeping next to you so he shoves all the plushies to one side so his side of the bed is clear

Ticci Toby

- On the contrary, this poor boy never really had stuffed animals growing up. He had, like, those stuffed tiny toys from McDonald’s

- So he LOVES any big plushies you have, if you have any giant valentine’s bears or something he lays over it and doesn’t move

- He adores that you have a ton of stuffed animals, he goes into your room even when you’re not there just to stim with some of them and mess around with them

- And he crashes in your bed CONSTANTLY to cuddle you in one arm and a giant plushie in the other

- You appreciate that he wants to coddle your stuffies as much as you do but he’s HOT and it’s hard to fall asleep next to a literal human furnace so you get him little ice pack plushies :,)

- He does the same for you! He’s filled his own room with stuffed animals to make you feel comfortable there too

Jeff

- He tries really hard to be an asshole about it but it’s so nice walking into someone’s room and seeing nice, soothing stuffed animals instead of like. Blood and weapons everywhere

- His childhood was lowkey ripped from him so he’s like let me have. Let me have the funny lettle bear

- He still teases you and kinda bullies you on the dl but you know he’s just bullshitting bc every time you leave the room you see him throw himself directly on the pile and snuggle down into them

- Now is the PERFECT time to run back in your room and jump back on top of him and be like “oh? Oh? Stuffed animals are lame oh?? What are you lying in asshole!”

- And he tries to shove you off and get mad but there’s no way you can be angry while laying in a soft pile so you two end up wrestling in the inescapable tangle of plushie limbs until you’re both exhausted and just laying there panting and still poking fun at each other

[lesbiancarat]

Yay!! Im happy to hear that! Hopefully you can rest up well from your semester!

Ahh by that I meant like you know how kpop albums have concept pictures included? Thats how I view what the TTT magazines are just minus a physical disc cx sorry for the confusion!! Honestly this is all so new and interesting, seventeen never really done something like this. Yes we had mixtape songs but not in this way so promotion will be different. I saw wonwoo and mingyu are doing a song but that isn't related to spider so that means its like jun's and minghao's songs. Which makes things a bit confusing lol, not complaining since hey more content for us ^_^ but yeah guess we have yo see when the next solo actually is. Oh and seventeen coming back!! This is the kind of news I needed, I'm shocked they actually have their own usa site to buy stuff (sort of like nct has) because I know bts nor txt don't. Well bts USED to but that was before bighit decided to shut it down in favor for weverse which sadly I don't see the need for (plus call me old and weird but I don't trust buying stuff from apps? Like I feel a bit more comfy on a computer which Ik doesn't mean its not safer but meh, apps make me fishy lol) also Walmart is selling the albums, bless my family uses Walmart alot (like we used it last night xD) so maybe I can squeeze it in next time? Granted I want to wait for the concept photos first because while I do like a surprise, its also just nice knowing what the vibe is. Or be the complete opposite of what the mv will be about lol.

Ahh as much i was being hopeful and had her eat, sadly my bunny didn't make it =c she passed away on the weekend. She was a strong bunbun, she tried her best to make it out but alas she didn't win. I'm a bit happy my gut instinct told me to spend time with her because at least I got to be with her for her last hour. It kinda sucks because I feel slightly guilty because I couldn't get her the proper help so I feel like I let her down (especially after I found out from reviews the food I bought for her is actually not good for bunnies and can cause problems so I feel dumb) I shouldn't since I gave my bunny the best love I could give while caring for her so she wasn't in a bad place with me. Still can't shake that off, feels weird not waking up and seeing her around or like when I play games she isn't near me chilling. Healing takes time of course so I'm making myself busy with enjoying content from my favorite artists. I made a lil promise that I would finish a game that I played alot while she joined me (it sounds silly but I viewed it as like "our game" ya know?) For her in memory. Sorry for babbling about this bsksbsjd. Losing a pet isn't fun at all. I am so sorry about your cat *hugs you* im sure that furry buddy was well loved!! If I may ask of course, do you have a favorite memory of your cat? Like any funny moment or cute ones?

ahhh ok i get what you mean! it will definitely be interesting to see how it all plays out since SVT haven't done a project like this before. I'm really curious how spread out all the solos are going to be. esp with a cb coming up it seems unlikely we'll get a TTT solo any time soon? but then again SVT are always surprising us these days. but i wonder if they'll come out just whenever a member happens to prepare it or if it's all scheduled out at semi regular intervals 🤔

but yeah it looks like bittersweet is part of the power of love project as opposed to TTT... it's getting complicated real fast! and yeah SVT is definitely expanding into/focusing more on US promotions now... it will be interesting to see how it all plays out! but i totally get what u mean about preferring to buy things on the computer it's funny how that is sometimes djfkgj i had been thinking about preordering the other day since it seemed like we wouldn't be able to pick the version we want anyway, but now that there are some shops that let you i definitely want to wait and see the teaser photos. every day i keep expecting them to start releasing but we get a different surprise instead OTL

I'm sorry to hear about your bunny :( but it's good that you were able to spend time with her at the end, I'm sure it made her feel safe to have someone who cared for her by her side rather than being alone <3 try not to feel too guilty about it, since what's done is done and there's no way to know for sure if it was the sole reason for her failing health. it's good that you're able to recognize and work through your grief, and i think finishing that game is a great way to do that and to honor her memory :')

and thanks, we lost her a little while ago now so luckily thinking about her is more nostalgic than sad. but as for a funny story Riley was a gremlin. she got up on the counters and kitchen table a lot when we weren't looking. she also liked eating paper and we had to be careful where we left things bc once she ate my sister's homework. which, ok, she didn't eat the entire paper but she did eat a corner of it and sort of ripped and crinkled the rest. i can't remember if my sister turned it in like that or if she had to redo it djgkgj

here's a picture of the frame/shadowbox thing my mom made for her after she died with photos, her collar (which she hated and hardly ever wore dhfk), and her favorite toy ;-;

also u didn't ask but here's my other cat liberty from a few days ago :P (she's getting older and has arthritis and kidney issues but she's still alive and kicking!)

[knightofameris]

YEAAAAAHHHH WE SMARTASSES!! WOOOO WE GOT THROUGH MIDTERMS

p h y s i c s ?????? I am. So sorry. i am so sorry you have to deal with physics. that sounds horrible and i would never wish it upon anyone. AND NO YOURE SMART YOU GOT THIS!!! i am cheering you on while also planning on overthrowing anyone who tries jeopardizing your way to the top— anyways. brain = off. mind = everywhere but nowhere at once. and no u.

HHHHGNFNGHHGG I LOVE NARNIA SO MUCH. the entire story was so good and it always made me cry no matter how many times i read the books/watched the movies. not me having the hugest crush on both edmund and susan pevensie....., ANWYAYS YES!! i can totally see what you’re saying with their similar writing styles!! god i love when authors :) and MC is just. Amazing. there is no other way to describe her. i love her to pieces and if i could i would steal her for myself ngl i wouldn’t be opposed- i mean what?

the more i read the more i just want to stop at the A/N right before all the alt endings 😭😭😭 it’s so tempting, because i feel EXACTLY how you feel with going there for the boys but now i’m just so invested in MC finding herself and becoming happy. i want that someday. it’s making me realize how much i want to be a main character and it’s sad BDKSNDS

(also thank you for recommending me this,,, honestly it made me so happy when you made a specific post for me,,, i love it when people send me things bc it reminds them of me or they want me to get into it bc they think i’ll like it like it just warms my heart fbsksndksk) —🧸 <3

HI HI HI UPDATE I FINDIEHD ALL THE ALTERNATE ENDINGS WHILE LISTENING TO THE RESPECTIVE PLAYLISTS THAT THE AUTHOR MADE ON SPOTIFY AND IM REALLY GOING TO CRY?????? AND THEN I LISTENED TO SOME OF THE SONGS FROM THE REGULAR PLAYLIST AND IM JSUT SITITNG HERE ALSO I LOVE DIBA AND ARANYANI SO MUCH I MISS THEM WTF AMERIS HELP I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE THIS FANFIC HAS CHANGED ME WHAT THE FUCK —🧸

p.s. my favorite ending and arc in general was iwaizumi’s. i refuse to comment further

I COMBINED IT CUS I FEEL BAD FOR SPAMMING THE DASH AHAHAHHA. 

and putting it under a read more because this bad boi is long

I still,,, have another midterm. but its okay this one I'm not too worried about LMAO. 

KDSAJFLADSJF YEAH ME TOO IM SORRY I HAVE TO DEAL WITH PHYSICS TOO what kind of dumbass chooses physics as their major? (me, i’m the dumbass) BUT THANK YOU AHAHA. ill fight everyone for you too!!! brain off always, I accidentally posted the drabbles when I was supposed to post them all tomorrow AHAHAHAH. 

NARNIA WAS REALLY GOOD (don't look at my old works tho, I wrote them when I was 15 and bad at writing please.) its very nostalgic and I really want to reread them tbh. they were just so good AHHHH 

DUDE YEAH ID DATE MC AHAHAHAHAH. god. i was so tempted to not finish the fic either but here I am. i want to reread but I don't want to get hurt LOOOOL. fuck the boys we’re here for MC Suzuki. LOL 

and of course!! I really thought you’d like it and I really really love this story sm. <3 

ALSO OMG I NEVER LISTENED TO THE PLAYLISTS..... OOPS. LOL. diba is such a good character and aRANYANI is that how u spell her name idk. LOL I REALLY LOVED THE OCS. I liked her family even tho her mom wasn’t perfect and like, yeah! her mom doesn’t deserve a redemption arc but she’s trying to be better which I fuck with. even the mom knows she wasn’t perfect and that she should've done better. but alas.  

you’ll need a few moments to let the fic settle in. good luck. LOL

I.... am biased and I say suga AHAHAHHAA with oikawa as a close second and kuroo next! also loved iwaizumi too!!! 

ALSO ALSO. I'm in the discord server with the Fly High writer that she has, and I showed her some of your comments (I HOPE YOU DON’T MIND AHKDJG) but she said thank you and that it means the world! it took her a moment to reply because she was dancing around the room, her words not mine! LOL 

[ashes-2-cashes]

wow it's been a while ack

i logged back in cause i was feeling nostalgic and wow do i feel it ljfas

anyways hey, hope you guys are doing good! as for me, honestly? i feel absolutely fantastic. if im gonna be honest, i left because of some stupid "drama" with people, which was mostly me being an asshole because of how sad i was. i know being sad is one thing, but i felt miserable. i was told i was a horrible friend for trying to vent my feelings and not being able to hang out bc of my social anxiety both on and off the internet. i had ended a 3 year relationship with someone who didn't even want to hold my hand because my arm was "too short" to reach, my brother and my sister in law had just experienced their first miscarriage, which affected those in my family greatly, and on top of that, my two friends had ditched on me on the day of my birthday, an hour before they were suppose to arrive, so they could hangout by themselves. i was failing school horribly, i was failing in my friendships and relationships, i was failing in life. i spent a lot of time crying, more than i had ever cried before, and turned to horrible habits to make myself feel alive in some type of way.

but then, it slowly started getting better. i met one of my best friends who spoils me with food and treats, i met an even better group of friends than i had ever had before (save for my "Summer Hoes") that i am still friends with nearly a year later, i started dating my current bf who is an absolute angel and honestly saved me from my dark times and even got to meet/hang out with him a few days after christmas! i exchanged gifts with my group of friends, I made new stories and revived old ones, and I started working harder in school. Now, I have all straight As in comparison to the Cs and Ds i had last year around this same time. My life made a complete 180 for the best and i honestly couldn't ask for better. i have found my happy place, i have found better people to call friends, i have found home.

and honestly? i couldn't have asked for more.

now it's time for me to disappear again. i wish the best for all of you, and i hope you guys find your happy place as well <3

[kvndeathmusic]

my favorite records of the 2010s pt 1 (the less great stuff/honorable mentions)

Neither this post or its followup are going to be in any particular order, however all the records I talk about here are, in my opinion, not as good as the records i will talk about in my part 2. they’re all fantastic but these ones slightly a little less fantastic than the ones in my “top 10″. none of this is based on stuff like 'influence' or whatever other critics base their lists on, this is solely how much I enjoyed these records. And keep in mind, I'm only human, I havent listened to a good lot of records I've heard others describe as top 10 worthy, these are just records I found and that I resonate with. long post ahead. 

Vacation - Bomb the Music Industry (2011)

If you asked me what my favorite band is i will either say bomb the music industry or jeff rosenstock, but considering those are pretty much the same things it doesnt matter lol. While Vacation isnt a perfect record, it is one I love. It lacks some of the ska elements that I love about earlier BTMI records, but at the same time, it is the first record where Jeff’s “””solo””” career sound starts to form in tracks like Sick, Later, Hurricane Waves, Everybody That You Love, Everybody That Loves You, and Vocal Coach. And these tracks are all fantastic, especially the absolutely explosive opener Campaign For a Better Weekend. Where this album suffers in my mind is the fact that it exists as a weird hybrid middle ground between BTMI and modern Jeff Rosenstock, it isn’t really ska like old BTMI and it’s not quite to the same standard as the tracks on We Cool?. And some of the songs are just, not as good as the others, like Why, Oh Why, Oh Why (Oh Oh Oh Oh), which is washed out almost entirely in reverb, and tracks like Savers feeling barren and missing additional instrumentation. But fuck man I can not dislike this record or just call it “ok” because despite this I still listen to this record a lot, it’s so catchy and fun and Im a bit too chronically addicted to btmi. 

Reflektor - Arcade Fire (2013)

i dont really get the hate/mixed feelings others have with this record. there’s so many good tracks dude!!!! sure theres a bit of a slump in the middle and it doesnt reach the same emotional heights as their previous records you gotta be ignorant to overlook this records strengths. while i do like The Suburbs more than Reflektor, man i just vibe HARD with some of these tracks; the title track, We Exist, Here Comes The Night Time, Normal Person, Awful Sound (Oh Eurydice), Porno, and ESPECIALLY Afterlife. Plus the cover art is cool and I like it. However Flashbulb Eyes is one of the worst tracks Arcade Fire has ever put out and I hate it immensely. And while far less offensive, tracks like You Already Know, It’s Never Over (Hey Orpheus), and Joan of Arc are just kinda boring and/or uninteresting. Now granted, I'm extremely biased when it comes to Arcade fire in general unless were talking about the trainwreck that is Everything Now. I started listening to Arcade Fire just before Reflektor came out, and I have a kinda sentimental attachment to the record. ill explain the feeling more when i talk about The Suburbs. anticipation oooooo.

good kid m.A.A.d city - Kendrick Lamar (2012)

i might get crucified by some for not putting this in my top 10, but whatever come at me i guess. gkmc is a fantastic record, but i do think the ending is weak, which is why it’s here instead of in the top 10. i mean, let’s be real, Real is a mediocre track, and while Dying of Thirst is an important track to the whole narrative of the record, it feels way too long. almost everything else about this record is fantastic, from the beats, to kendrick’s nasally flows, to the overall structure of the record spinning a tale of a young man battling demons both inside and out, and his eventual redemption. even if i find this record at times to drop pace, it really is flawless otherwise. it felt like a disservice to put this in the 20-10s, bc it’s a good record, but i had to make some compromises and this was one of them. 

RTJ2 - Run The Jewels (2014)

el-p and killer mike are a perfect duo, and the tracks they make together are always total bangers. and for me, RTJ2 is the best overall, with RTJ3 in a close second. it’s hard to put this on the lower half of the list, some of the tracks just don’t work as well as the others, but despite that there’s not really any tracks i hate or dislike on this record, minus maybe crown. the pure aggression in the opening track Jeopardy sets the tone for an aggressive yet highly focused record. This is some of the best rap out there right now if you want some music to fuck shit up to. 

Pure Comedy - Father John Misty (2017)

This record is both hilarious and extremely bleak. Josh Tillman is a master of satire and sarcasm, and Pure Comedy is the peak of his songwriting skills. The title track is one of the best tracks of the decade, period. And he keeps up the momentum on the following few tracks. The main problem with this record is its weaker second half, but even then it’s criminal to suggest that those songs aren’t good regardless. And despite the bleakness, the one line that sticks in my head after all this time is the line this album fades out to: There’s nothing to fear.

Knife Man - AJJ (2011)

Continuing on the trend of folky, satirical, and bleak records, Knife Man is AJJ’s defining record (next to their debut LP). AJJ blends loud, punky anthems with quieter, folk tracks that touch on sensitive issues in a way only AJJ manages to get away with. And there’s some genuine heart mixed in as well, with the final track Big Bird always striking a chord with me. However, I do feel the record is, let’s just say, padded at times in my opinion. Still, I can’t deny how much i enjoy tracks like Gift of the Magi 2, Hate Rain on Me, The Distance, and Skate Park. Speaking of which when I saw AJJ live recently they played none of those songs and that kinda sucked but hey it was like $20 I can’t complain. And speaking of not getting what I wanted...

You Won’t Get What You Want - Daughters (2018)

It was hard choosing between this record and their 2010 self titled record, but in terms of the overall narrative and variety this record shines through. If there was a number 11 spot in this unorganized list this would probably take that spot. It’s noisey, it’s abrasive, and it’s like nothing you’ve heard before unless you’ve listened to Daughter’s previous records. Tracks like The Reason They Hate Me are catchy in the weirdest and most unwelcoming of ways, Less Sex sounds like a long lost Trent Reznor NIN track, and Guest House is a masochistic and gut wrenching finisher. Fantastic record aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

We Cool? - Jeff Rosenstock (2015)

It’s obvious that I had to include this record somewhere on these list. It’s like a more refined version of the sounds that Jeff experimented with on Vacation. Definitely more punk than ska, but still some of those roots still shine through, especially in the track Nausea. Some of Jeff’s best songs are on this record, from the loud opening tracks Get Old Forever and You, In Weird Cities, to tracks dripping with bittersweet and moody lyrics like I’m Serious, I’m Sorry and Polar Bear or Africa. The main reason this record is on the back end of the top 20 is because the deeper cuts on the record do not match the energy and heights of the best tracks. Tracks like All Blissed Out, The Lows, Darkness Records and Beers Again Alone don’t feel like they belong and stick out a bit. They remind me more of the material Jeff put out on his 2012 EP I Look Like Shit. Mind you they aren’t bad tracks, but I’ll be honest I skip them often when listening to the record because i just wanna get back to the good good stuff. 

Sports - Modern Baseball (2012)

Sports is one of the best pop punk records ever, if you can even consider it as such. It’s like a blend of emo and folk punk, and it works so well. A good majority of this record is on my main shuffle playlist. Is it pushing boundaries? Not really, but tracks like Re-Do, Tears Over Beers, and See Ya, Sucker are undeniably catchy and memorable. I NEED MODERN BASEBALL BACK TOGETHER RN. There’s not really anything that wrong with the record, besides maybe lacking in variety, but at 30 minutes, it’s a record that feels nostalgic even on a first listen, and continues to feel that way even after numerous re-listens. Speaking of nostalgia...

The Suburbs - Arcade Fire (2010)

Some background, when I was 13 (circa 2013), I only really listened to whatever my parents put on for me. From my mom, I “inherited” a taste for classic pop and 80s new wave. From my dad, I got metal and hard rock. The first time I made the conscious decision to listen to a record fully, based on my own curiousity, was when I sat and listened to Sgt. Pepper in the summer of 2013, which broadened the scope of what I thought music could even be. And later that year, the first band I got into after The Beatles? Arcade Fire. When I think of my early teens, the memories are set to this record. I remember listening to Ready to Start in my brother’s old hot ass car while driving to the local fair with some friends on a chill fall night, eating tons of junk and staying up past midnight back when doing that was edgy and cool and not a symptom of my depression. 

If I was judging this record solely by its best tracks, it would easily be in the top 3. But I couldn’t place it in my top 10 because, frankly, some of the deeper cuts are lacking. I can’t say I like Deep Blue. I really don’t like Rococo. And Half Light I kills the pace of the record. But man, that title track, Ready to Start, Modern Man, Empty Room, Half Light II, Sprawl II... these songs defined my early teen years. I still tear up listening to the title track. Sure I have to skip a few songs when I re-listen, but I can’t place it any lower or my heart will break. It existing outside of the top 10 already hurts. And that’s all that’s left now. The top 10. 

But first, some random honorable mentions that didn’t make this list:

Sound & Color - Alabama Shakes

Black Star - David Bowie

Saturation II - BROCKHAMPTON

Melophobia - Cage the Elephant

Teens of Style - Car Seat Headrest

How to Leave Town - Car Seat Headrest

Daughters - Daughters

Sunbather - Deafheaven

Bottomless Pit - Death Grips

Year of the Snitch - Death Grips (should be on this list tbh)

Doris - Earl Sweatshirt

I Love You, Honeybear - Father John Misty

Helplessness Blues - Fleet Foxes

Plastic Beach - Gorillaz

Boarding House Reach - Jack White

POST- - Jeff Rosenstock

S/T - Joyce Manor

Firepower - Judas Priest

ye - Kanye West

KIDS SEE GHOSTS - KSG

You Were There - Kill Lincoln

Flying Microtonal Banana - King Gizzard

Infest The Rats’ Nest - King Gizzard

No New World - Mass of the Fermenting Dregs

Bury Me At Makeout Creek - Mitski

Puberty 2 - Mitski

Unsilent Death - Nails

Itekoma Hits - Otoboke Beaver

Morbid Stuff - PUP

A Moon Shaped Pool - Radiohead

RTJ3 - Run the Jewels

Angles - The Strokes

To Be Kind - Swans

Undertale OST - Toby Fox

Scum Fuck Flower Boy - Tyler, The Creator 

Igor - Tyler, The Creator

Weezer (White Album) - Weezer

nightlife - yuragi

[carcinized]

hiya ollie ollie friend beloved hru !! im about to get off of tumblr because i am currently procrastinating a Big Project that i shouldve started like a week ago so uhhh. ye. but !! wanted 2 say hi

you are a little bit unhinged sometimes and i love that 4 u tbh u deserve it. not sure where that thought came from. youre also super cool i like the things that make you happy and i like how now whenever i see smth i know you like it makes me think of you

you're like. the reddish-pinkish-orange colors of a sunset. that's you. and upbeat but calm and a bit melancholy/nostalgic acoustic music. and sunlight shining through the blinds and the kind of rain where you can walk a block and it'll be sunny again

i think that you and me should be cats together. i dont think this is physically possible but i would like to be a cat and also with you. i think we would be really awesome cats together. like that one cats in love thing that you tagged me in saying it was c!tob and c!rain. that sounds neat

my school has a therapy dog who comes during lunch block sometimes now ! i met her today she's the sweetest <3 i am going to spend all lunch time with her tmrw tbh i think tomorrow is gonna be a day </3

OKAY uhh i gotta go put my laundry in the dryer and do this ffhfhfjghfjing project but !! was nice 2 pop in and leave a thought dump in your asks :) like old times hehe

btw do u like the url change :P charlie & some of my kotlc friends pressured me into it ToT but like. its kinda really funny,,,,

OKAY AGHGHFH its 8:30. i am not getting any sleep tonight huh. pensive. anyway !! love u ollie if i end up sending u a lot of random messages in the near future its bc i wanna talk 2 u more. no pressure obviously real life comes first but. you :)) cool friend :DD i just rly like talking to u owo

OKAY . BYE LOVE U !! how arre u also? how was ur day? give your kitties pats for me :3

HIIII SLAY KING!!!! GL ON THE PROJECT I ALSO HAVE TO WORK ON SOME OF MINE SOON LOL.

honestly i love being unhinged u should see me irl. Today one of my teachers nominated me to be a like idk student embassador thing and i told my friend and i was like “why would they pick ME to settle disputes??? id be TERRIBLE at that” and he was just like “yeah you would be.” 💔 he has no faith in me anyways i decided not to fill out the form to become one 😭 (also it just sounded like a lot of effort and talking about feelings neither of which i like)but awwwww thank you <3

but :OOOO that is very kind of you… also the rain thing that is so interesting to me, i think that you are right but also we dont have that sort of rain here it’s all or nothing here LOL i never really considered that!!! I think u are right tho

dont call me a cat boy 💔💔 im not a cat boy i swear

AWWWWW DOG WIDEPEEPOHAPPY!!!!! have a good Dog king that sounds nice

Ur skaying and yeah gl with all that!!! Its nice to hear from y :]]]

Im gonna be honest when i first read that i was like “what url change” and it took me like a solid 10 seconds to find it. Very subtle but yes i do like it :]

and yasss slay that assignment king. I need to start my 10 page paper on amongus soon it’s due like November or something and its Long but i want it to be good so i must start early. Early birds get the 10 page among us paper worm. And yaaaaa no worries king ! I am bad at messaging first so u can always message me, im just a little guy also my one incident whefe i was like IM DELETING ALL MY SOCIAL MEDIA I HATE THE INTERNET i chilleded now. i do hate the internet but also i like some parts so im just Cutting Back you are a good part !!!!! <3

WEEEE IM GOOD. I GOT KIND OF PISSED OFF LIKE 6 TIMES TODAY BUT IM NORMAL AGAIN. EXCEPT MY MANAGER DIDNT CALL ME BACJ YET AND IM READY TO THROW HANDS. but yaadssss im good i went and got boba today and dill pickle chips so <3 i willo7

[ayyponine]

anyway i was feeling nostalgic and went through some old photo’s, have them

(i took pictures of the albums rather than scanning them bc im p low on energy this week idk why but like. theyre not terrible quality like this dudes pls. probably if u open the pics in a new tab u get better quality so anyway)

tfw u made some truly dope snowmen but... hands cold..... also i look like the kid frm home alone 3

i got the coins to prove i been to efteling loads (they read 1993, 1995, 50th anniversary and the last has no year but i know it was dec 2014) (pretty sure i went in like 2009 or 10 also)....couldnt find photographic evidence though? so have a pic of my sister at hansel & gretel’s house and let’s pretend it’s me ok bc the photo’s pretty cute

one of my fav pics of me n my dad... the others are in a diff post i once shared

also still got some entrance cards frm when we went to disneyland paris.... it was may 1997 and their 5 yr anniversary was big on the hunchback theme B))

this pic is also in the other post i mentioned but god.....what a look i just had to point it out again..... i look like a friend of that vine child w the purple eye glitter u know the one....

anyway when i was abt 11 i was in a folk dancing group and the outfit was ADORABLE

also at my confirmation i looked a BIT like kylo ren but also, my hair looked so good omg....

anyway onto older photos i am not actually in

my mom is the michael cera on the right, idk who that meryl streepish lady is or what kind of night they were all having but, alright

my grandma with an anjelica huston type do

and my granddad channeling (imo?) both clint eastwood and jack nicholson on my parents’ wedding day

to finish off have a pic of (i think??) my mom w her sister in may 1980. idk where the HELL they are but aw theyre having so much fun..

[realmzenith]

elaina ! :)

lays down, mai ily. anyways?? someone pls save elaina she Needs help

What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?fairly long?? but not super long it’d make her anxious. maybe twenty minutes. it’d be a different story if it was a life or death thing tho obv

How easy is it for your character to laugh?difficult. from one to ten w one being v easily she’s like a 7. but for full uninhibited laughter it’s a solid 9. she mostly smiles and when she does laugh it’s at the dumbest things

How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)she’ll lurk on instagram or think which are honestly both bad ideas for her bc instagram makes her depressed bc her social life sux and thinking makes her depressed bc she’s pessimistic and tends to overthink EVERYTHINg. however sometimes she’ll be smart abt it and read a book or look at plant pics or space which will more often than not successfully allow her to relax and get some shut eye

How easy is it to earn their trust?HM not too difficult prbly a 3 if ur nice to her and ur not a complete idiot- ok well. just if ur nice to her bc she literally falls in love w josie an idiot in her storyline

How easy is it to earn their mistrust?moderately difficult she has a hard time accepting that the ppl she trusts are capable of wronging her and usually assumes it was smth she did. she’s kind of an idiot like that so yk :) she’s prbly a 6 on that one? if we’re also accounting for the ppl she moderately trusts. however if we’re only talking abt the ppl she genuinely completely trusts it’s like an 8. she’s not COMPLETELy stupid but still p stupid abt relationships

Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?rules should be followed. she accepts them as a given and that they will be followed as a given. it’ll srsly throw off her game if someone starts blatantly disobeying the law in front of her even if it is just a nominal thing

What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?she’s not a v emotional person? she does feel deeply but hmm i suppose she is fairly nostalgic. certain melodies played on the guitar would prbly be one of the bigger triggers. her mom used to play and she and her dad would sing like dorks but they?? kind of dont do it anymore and she misses it but she isn’t sure how to ask to do it again. it’s the same w disney movies. they don’t watch them as a fam as much as they used to anymore but they still do on occasion! as for enjoying it she doesn’t rlly like nostalgia?? but she lets herself fall into it frequently

What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?she was constantly told to talk to the other kids. she’s never been v social or good w ppl as she prefers her small group of ppl she knows and is comfortable w plus she’s an only child so she’s always been forced to socialize esp in casual settings

Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?not super frequently. she does say damn bc that’s just the classic xstj swear word, her first she remembers v distinctly. it was “bitch” and completely her older cousin’s fault

What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?she lowkey feels like her entire life is a lie? she’s a smart gal and gets good grades easily. she’s close to the top of her class and is considered one of the smart kids. but she herself is convinced she’s painfully mediocre and despite her other talents and unique personality traits she’s like :) im sorry for lying to u all i actually have zero interesting qualities and am a drag but ofc she never voices that bc lbr insecurity? ugly and she doesn’t want to lose the few friends she does have bc she dumped her fears on everyone else. she is, as i said, a Mess

How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?she almost always pretends she understands but if she doesn’t feel like there’ll be negative consequences to asking for clarification and she’s feeling confident she’ll bluntly ask the other person to clear things up for her esp in a business type setting such as school projects, etc. it’s situational but socially speaking? she’ll pretend until she Dies

How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?ask nico to get it or just struggle for ages to try to get it herself

What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?she likes green and black but thinks she looks p drab in most things. in all actuality she prbly does look sharpest in black but yellow makes her look super cute, brings out a softer side of her. dark green is also flattering on her

What animal do they fear most?hm prbly eels esp electric eels. they freak her out for no particular reason. otherwise, she likes most animals and doesn’t mind most bugs

How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?she does usually think before she speaks. on the extreme she’ll turn over a phrase abt ten times in her mind before even considering speaking it aloud but that’s rare and only in high stress situations. despite the fact that she does think before she speaks she’s very blunt abt most things. lay it out like it is and all. embellishing sentences or softening her statements is smth she rarely does as she finds it inefficient 

What makes their stomach turn?reckless behavior she HATES when ppl do stupid risky crap in front of her she finds it very unnecessary and anxiety inducing

Are they easily embarrassed?oh yes absolutely

What embarrasses them?everything. anything. her existence. ppl flirting w her. her parents. being teased. being incompetent. being singled out for anything. lots of things :)

What is their favorite number?she likes the number 60. no reason in particular it’s just a nice number. cue her friend, nico in the back yelling SIXTY???? MORE LIKE SEXY

If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?oh oof dont talk to her about love it throws her for an existential crisis. hm but if srsly asked this she’d prbly say smth like “familial love is smth we’re rarely allowed to choose. platonic is more logical and circumstantial, and romantic is a combination of the two in the sense that it’s ur heart’s choice to begin and ur mind’s to continue.”

Why do they get up in the morning? society dictates that in order for an individual to contribute meaningfully to the world, you must get up by 7 am and do whatever lot’s been handed to you. thus she, as a good functioning member of society, gets up in the mornings and drives to school day in and day out as fate has dictated her duty to be

How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? erratic. she’ll act strangely and become more distant. if it continues for long enough she’ll eventually snap at whoever’s nearest and asking what’s up w her

How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? it makes her sad tbh sldkfjlkj she’s like welp.. this is the lot i’ve been given if i don’t accept it that’s my problem. then she keeps her head up and carries on

Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom? she prefers not to talk abt sex. she’d be v confused if someone brought up the topic of sex casually tho she isn’t SUPER squeamish abt discussing it it’s just?? unprofessional so why would u? ofc w her s/o she would be more than willing to discuss it in order to smooth out questions or misunderstandings before yk. actually. doing the sex

What are their thoughts on marriage? marriage to her is one of the pillars of society, and while she respects people who don’t want to get married, for herself she views it a checkbox on her list of things she needs to do before she dies. it’s?? like she sort of has a timeline and marriage is on the list of things that need to happen sometime in her twenties. she believes marriage should be a mutually beneficial union based on love and respect and believes that along w family units it’s a wonderful invention. however, despite all of this she kind of doubts she’ll ever get married bc she’s like who would date me lbr here :) and while simultaneously seeking after marriage she’s resigned herself to becoming an eventual crazy old cat lady

What is their preferred mode of transportation? she prefers bullet trains. efficient, usually comfortable, she doesn’t have to drive- what more could you want? she’s also fond of walking if a place is close by. helps her chill

What causes them to feel dread? the feeling that a relationship is falling apart and the divide between herself and the other person is growing. the little things like not waiting for the other person after class or “forgetting” to mention another thing about their day- the small things that point to a relationship breaking down. if there’s one thing she hates more than unnecessary conflict and having to just end things then and there it’s watching things slowly fall apart. that is extremely dread inducing in her opinion

Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? if u asked her? she’d say she prefers the truth. in reality? she prefers the lie. she internalizes things and oftentimes “unpleasant truths” can weigh her down for ages. frequently enough to note, she’ll allow herself to continue in ignorance rather than accept the reality of the truth which she’ll sort of know she’s doing but just push to the back of her mind in order to avoid the panic that comes with actually confronting the problem. ignorance is bliss and all. nevertheless, in the long run and in hindsight, she prefers the truth as ripping off the bandaid proves easier than pulling out misplaced stitches one by one

Do they usually live up to their own ideals? she doesn’t come close. she has very lofty ideals to which she holds both herself and others around her. she wants to be someone who’s looked up to as strong. she values efficiency, honesty, reliability and genuinely good motives as well as charisma, passion and confidence. she’s doing alright with the first few but the last three are debatable. she’s passionate about v select things and her confidence levels looks like a heartrate monitor

Who do they most regret meeting? herself. she regrets gaining sentience

Who are they the most glad to have met? josie ;) but nico and ale are close seconds

Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? nope what’s a Conversation? what’s a Joke? she doesnt know them :)

Could they be considered lazy? that’s a no. she works extremely hard and nearly always carries through. it’s partially her nature and partially a way for her to “make up” for her perceived lack of talents

How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? extremely difficult but w time she eventually can esp when given the right type of support

How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? that’s. a hard one. she IS technically supportive but that’s only when she recognizes how much the thing means to the other person and she’s honestly rlly bad at reading these kinds of situations, so it’s rare that she actually does. she’ll kinda be like wtf but if she doesn’t recognize the other person is genuinely excited and invested in the thing she’ll do her best to give her own brand of awkward support 

Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap?she’ll pursue a romantic interest if enough proof that it’s plausible is given but it’s rare that she gets enough “proof” for this to happen. generally speaking, she kind of pushes her desire for romance down. she’ll worry abt it later or at least until josie shows up eyes emoji

Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? not rlly? she’ll just go thru things multiple times she’s not the most innovative person when it comes to things like this. route memorization is her go to 

What memory do they revisit the most often?;) depends on where in the storyline we’re talking but post story defo the time when she and josie went hiking w some of their other friends and when they reached the summit of the mountain the clouds were beneath the peak n completely coating the sky. it looked like a carpet of clouds, like another world and they shared a bit of a Moment. the little things are what elaina rlly cherishes

How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?difficult she’s a bit of a critical person. she’s also not the most tactful when it comes to emotional intelligence related situations so ppl will likely find out she does see those flaws in them if they stick around long enough

How sensitive are they to their own flaws?not SO much but she does take things to heart. she’s sort of?? accepted her perceived mediocrity and general dullness but she’s in no way ceasing to attempt to change other things abt herself. so she’ll seemingly take criticisms in stride but they’ll stick w her when she’s Overthinking

How do they feel about children? kids are? good? she likes kids. as for having them, she’s considered it some and she thinks she might like to. at the same time, she also thinks she’d make a terrible parent- too harsh, bad w comfort, easily stressed. in all reality, she’d be better than most ppl as one esp after gaining a bit of confidence

How badly do they want to reach their end goal? rn the goal is graduating and she wants that fairly badly but she doesn’t particularly doubt her ability to achieve it. after that, it’s getting a good job which she also doesn’t overtly doubt as a certainty so yes she does want it but it’s not?? SUPEr concerning except when she begins to doubt her abilities and if she’ll ever feel like her life is fulfilling 

If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so? she’s lesbian. she’d say it means she’s attracted to women 

QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS

A) Why are you excited about this character?baby. she’s gonna find loveB) What inspired you to create them?love, simon! i wanted to write a cute lesbian high school romance so thus josie and elaina were bornC) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?nope!D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?nope again! she used to be full korean but now she’s half korean and half scandinavian! i think she used to be taller too she’s 5′5″ nowE) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?there are some aspects of each other that would get on the other’s nerves. like i dont think she’d appreciate the wonky outbursts i sometimes have and i’d get annoyed by her lack of social tact/annoyance at the world even tho i lowkey share those traits but otherwise i think we’d get along p well! i think i’d find her cute and i think she’d like my perceived confidence. we share a similar rationality as wellF) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?empathy she’s a big mood tbh and also i want her to be happy G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?her lack of emotional intelligence. while i like blunt and logic oriented ppl it’d get slightly frustrating after a while to be around someone who’s a lil oblivious to social/emotional cues even if that’s a moodH) What trait do you admire most?her humble diligence. i have to complain twice as much as her to get half the things she gets done doneI) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?i think she’d ALSO do great in a sci fi universe. ha maybe i need to give these kids a sci fi au verseJ) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?not rlly no!

[translucio]

we went to a vr arcade and i played the lab (valves virtual reality series of minigames basically) and it was.. interesting. cooler than i was expecting. but it was kinda bittersweet bc there were a bunch of little cameos and references to valves older games, especially the portal series. it kind of felt like a betrayal at first because the references seemed like gimmicky things to get fans' approval while those series were actually long dead bc valve gave up on them. still though, it felt like coming home in a way. one of the games, robot repair, has you as an aperture employee whos supposed to fix atlas because somethings wrong with him. and you hear this announcer voice kinda like the one in the beginning of portal 2, and then atlas shows up (p-body is in the background for a sec) and you gotta rip their faceplate off and you get to see a bunch of techy stuff inside em. ultimately i didnt rlly know what i was doing bc i could barely hear and my vive controllers kept glitching out but i think the point was for you to fail anyway? then glados shows up and is like hi you suck at your job so im gonna kill you. at this point i was like !!!!!!!! OMG and i was smiling irl and it was just!! such a good feeling to see a familiar character from a beloved dead franchise? it made me feel like i was playing portal for the first time again. and in virtual reality it was awesome because its like youre really standing there with glados in front of you. but then the rest of the game was like, some robot arms built walls and a ceiling around you and trapped you and then it was over. i was kinda hoping thered be more to it. anyway.... it made me nostalgic for the Good Old Days of valve games but since they seem to be focused entirely on steam and vr stuff its kinda sad

[falcoknight]

if you're still doing the thing: shokugeki! and haikyuu too if you feel like~

thanks clemmie !!! (can i call u that omg)

shokugeki:

How I entered/learned about the said game/show/movie/etc of that fandom

i think it was just a seasonal thing that i decided to start watching? i almost dropped it first episode but i kept going for some reason and was super hooked after like 3.. and then after episode (14 i think?) i got impatient and read the whole manga and .. now here we are

Fave character

my favorites are souma nikumi megumi takumi ibusaki hisako ryou.. etc!! i lvoe all of them tbh so much

Least fave character

i mean idk who besides the obvious (((antagonist whose name might be a spoiler?)))

OTP(s)

i dont rly have any? OH but i like erina & hisako lol

Pairing that everyone likes but I don’t get

i dont rly want souma to get together with anyone tbh? the only reason i tolerate the ridiculous number of girls who have feelings for him is because he is Completely Oblivious Constantly and its great. never change..........

Fave thing about the fandom

im not super involved in the fandom idk if theres even a significant one rip ;-; but i rly love this series..

The most despised thing

i mean .. im sure theres some gross people considering the nature of it 

If there is something I would change from said game/show/movie/etc., what would it be.

ive said before but the fanservice at first was really bad and sometimes its still bad lol.. i understand this is part of the premise but i wish the first episode/chapter wasnt so awful fanservice wise? bc it really never gets worse than that and i feel like it deters a lot of people from getting into it.. i dont mind it as much as at first because its mostly just kind of ridiculous and funny esp since nobody is spared from it including old dudes but i mean. if u could just tone it down a bit thanks

haikyuu!!:

How I entered/learned about the said game/show/movie/etc of that fandom

i literally cannot remember why i started but i remember as soon as i did i was super into it and watched the whole thing in one night (this was around when s1 was almost done airing maybe 20 episodes?) and it was how i started getting into other anime lsdkfj. haikyuu was where it all began fuck im sure i journaled about it at the time but my old diaries are at home

Fave character

my favs are hinata yachi all the captains and Everyone

Least fave character

i dont really have one i think?? i have to catch up

OTP(s)

kiyoyachi is the only one i still feel strongly about!! but i still like kenhina and every captain ship imaginable. my old favorite ship is kurodai which i also still like.

Pairing that everyone likes but I don’t get

((((((sorry i dont rly like romo kageh/ina?? although i dont feel as strongly abt it as i used to. and also i dont like kur/oken and i dont rly like oik/age)))))

Fave thing about the fandom

haikyuu was literally the first animanga fandom i was ever in and almost the first fandom i was ever in? (before that was p much only long period of pokemon and then briefly homestuck) so like its still special & nostalgic to me even if im behind and dont feel as much about it as i used to? like 2 years ago i made so many friends from hq fandom and most people have diff interests now but its still idk rly nice. im glad that hq made me want to get more into anime. also me and hanna started like talking a lto because of haikyuu which i am Grateful for. i have lots of nice memories bc i was almost exclusively haikyuu fandom for a while which is pretty much the only time i was ever a single fandom blog (since after haikyuu i started watching and liking more and more stuff) and it was a cool and special time. i mean ofc this is totally subjective and its just how hq fandom helped me through the end of high school but.. yea.. (((wrote a lot oops)))

The most despised thing

i mean same as always, big fandoms have problems

If there is something I would change from said game/show/movie/etc., what would it be.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i sort of wish we got to see more of the managers in action? but i know the story isnt really About Them so .. 

[dalesuperstar-blog]

[gods+men] Gorillaz @ The Forum, CA 10.5.17 // Hello, Humanz

every couple years a band/artist is the god of my little segment of the earth. i realise that this is an extremely limited bubble. and i dont really know what the bubble is, honestly. but i think that im gonna use this tumblr moving fwd to talk about it/figure it out. so yay, thx. oh and if you happen to also exist in this bubble, hmu duh.

so today im gonna talk about the current gods - G O R I L L A Z. we’ll go over the gods of the last 25 years later and create some sort of listeroo bc if you know me (which you dont) you know i love lists (now you do).

but like dude for reallies, gorillaz. wtf? who? what? when? how? why? lol that was p much me the whole night. like what in the hell, can we all pls take a moment of silence to honour the genius that is every.single.fucking. part of gorillaz.

quik backgrownd: Gorillaz is an English virtual band. what that means is it’s 4 animated characters: Noodle (guitar/keyboards/my first fav), Murdoc Niccals (bass), 2-D (lead vox/keyboards/super hot for a cartoon?), and Russel Hobbs (drums/percussion). it’s kind of hard to wrap your head around a virtual band, i totally get it. but think of it as like, an extended movie/series. every album, everything they do is just a new episode/sequel to the story. and another thing that’s cool about this idea is that since it’s these 4 animated characters, anyone can work on the project (like how a move and its sequel can have diff set designers, etc.). and that’s something gorillaz have come to be known for - the fucking amazing features and guests on every album. like seriously, how. ok i’ll probably have a diff post just on the band bc super interestinggg

back to the point of this. fucking damon man. & jamie too. that’s all lol

jk 

i mean yea it was really fcuking magical. i do wish i got to see the plastic beach and demon days songs on those tours but honestly theres a certain nostalgic beauty to seeing them now because the songs have so much time-created meaning. thats kinda what on melancholy hill is for me. so many memories -- good and bad -- that i get to remember when i hear the song and then with a whole new memory of live...idk 

NEW SONG apparently they were in idaho for a couple weeks and they wrote this sick country-ish song and if youre not jealous that you haven’t heard it, youre wack and you should be. i mean, im jealous of my past self bc im not there anymore lol

and so many historically important guests came out, old and new, but the real star was fucking little simz.. we were all just like :O the whole time. i turned to my friend and was like That is the coolest outfit in the world and she responded That is the coolest person in the world. Touche. also our last names are a bit similar so now i feel some unwarranted connection to her lol pls can we be friends? there’s something so cool about her: like shes so inspiring youre like fuck i wanna be like her but then at the same time youre like well fuck i will never be that cool. idk how shes so down to earth but also untouchable at the same time.. wonder what she’s doing rn, does she live a normal life? does she like mangos? (i love mangos and that’s always an imp q to ask) and that’s kind of what i was saying before. gorillaz is/are these divine beings and when you get to be in their presence, to vibrate with them it’s just an unreal experience. it’s like you get to exist on this transcendent plane temporarily. and it sucks when you have to leave but youre thankful that it happened and maybe what makes it beautiful is that it ends (no fuck that. i’d be down to stop time and just stay there forever. kthxbye)

anyway yall should catch the humanz tour but maybe gorillaz are just back so maybe you have time but also maybe not and do you really wanna risk that? i say, no.

[cloud9is007]

I was tagged my @justcallmemj, my addams family fellow-ancestor! five things you’ll find in my bag:

HALLS, random little notes/receipts/tickets from things ive gone to with friends, a broadway deck of cards from the wonderful @cinder229, a demigirl bullet journal from my wonderful social justice teacher (who is on tumblr but i dont think i should tag bc her online identity is secret gasp!), an epipen ‘cause gurl those peanut allergies are no joke

five things you’ll find in my bedroom:

(im mixing my uni room and my home home room) a cute scrapbook of memories my friend gave me, a buncha old papers from classes bc im nostalgic AF, lil trinkets that friends gave me, some books, and me. im almost always in my room lol

five things i’ve always wanted to do:

legitimately dress up in full princess garb and just BE A PRINCESS, watch TONS of broadway shows, be in supes profesh (wow im annoying) stage productions, find a hill in austria to recreate “the hills are aliiiive”, run around in an open field in the middle america? idk movies made me think it’s a magical place lmao

five things that make me feel happy:

(copying brielle sightly) music, my BUTTER friends, anyone and everyone related to the Ballinger family, broadway, and disney

five things i’m currently into:

ru-paul’s drag race season 8 (bc that’s the only season on canadian netflix), the microphone that my good buddy hannah gave me omg angel???, NOT feeling sick/tired/sad please and thanks, my ukulele, 2048 (it’s a bad addiction)

five things on my to-do list:

memorize some of my monologue for acting class, write a summary on a prose thing for english, run through choreography/harmonies for musical theatre class, SLEEP, pack my shit for the commute back to uni

1. nicknames? cloud, claudanlays, clauds, dean, claudinie, brown bitch, wife, son, and a plethora more man idk 2. gender? demigirl! 3. star sign? cancerrrr 4. height? 5′3 im p sure 5. time? 10:45pm fuckin oops 6. birthday? July 7th 7. favourite bands? i dont listen to bands LMAO 8. favourite solo artists? Ariana Grande, Hayley Kiyoko, Beyonce, Madonna, Britney, Bruno Mars 9. song stuck in my head? some song that was included in the “Bitch Perfect” medley from rpdr8 10. last movie you watched? i think it mighta been Newsies Live 11. last show you watched? rpdr season 8, ep 2 lol  12. when did i create my blog? i dont wanna go check dude!!! i put this on a past tag thing idk you can scroll  13. what do i post? reblogs of things that make me smile/i think are important! 14. last thing i googled? harley quinn costume (i was watching hillywood’s parody of suicide squad and wanted to see how accurate it was lol) 15. do you have other blogs? nope!  16. do you get asks? ive gotten some from mutuals but people dont do that anymore soo 17. why did you choose your url? my name is claudine, claudine sounds like cloud9, i was born on the seventh month on the seventh day. my dad helped me make my email when i was like 9 so there’s that hahaha. (i havent seen any of the bond movies... i guess that’s another thing on my to-do list) 18. following? 227 only apparently wow 19. followers? 204, and im sure a bunch of them are spammy ones  20. favourite colours? i believe in the equality of all colours so the RAINBOW GAY WOW 21. average hours of sleep? 6-8, sometimes 3, depends on how procrastinatey i am. 22. lucky number? 7!! honestly i love all numbers idk 23. instruments? i’m learning more piano at uni!! and i am self-taught for my uke, i took a few lessons for guitar, i did clarinet in elementary school band 24. what am i wearing? christmas pajama pants and a longsleeve striped shirt that was supposed to be an everyday use shirt but i use it as pjs 25. how many blankets i sleep with? 3 26. dream job? fulltime performer! i’d also love to direct and write things for the stage. i want to see if i can branch into videos as well  27. dream trip? i want to go errywhere with my buddies!! seriously EVERYWHERE omg 28. favourite food? my mom’s shepard’s pie is amazing 29. nationality? I was born/grew up in Canada, and my family is filipino :) 30. favourite song now? i dont think i have one rn! but last month i was SUPER OBSESSED WITH BAD LIAR BY SELENA GOMEZ, i listened to it like 60 times in one sitting im not kidding dude

i have to tag oh my! @meep23, @mmmathaniel @alittleastrophile oh maybe @meloettawiki and uhh if you are a buddy of mine and you see this you can do it too if you wanna?? if you dont wanna do it that’s cool this took more time than it shoulda