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guys i am very very drunk, told me dad lando win was the best day of my life and he is slightly concerned, but honestly i've never been happier, i'm completely fucked, i keep screaming, my whole family hate me, but they understand, it's Lando Norris, he's won, no one deserves it more, what a legend, he was so right to stay with Mclaren!!!!!!
#lando norris#f1#im can barely stand#cant even swe#and mclaren won#lando norris won#all the haters can fuck right off#nowins is no more#he is amazing#held of max by nearly 8 seconds#what a legend#our boy our lando norris did that#he deserves the fucking world
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one of the most surprising part of finally joining the batman fandom was reading older comics and finding out that this guy wasn’t an abusive monster (at least in most comic runs) but was just some obviously mentally ill suicidal guy who’s continuously indulged and even manipulated (sometimes) by his closest friends and remaining family to jump off of buildings and sob to the ptsd induced hallucinations of his dead parents and kids he glimpses in the mirror
this is an alfred hatepost lowkey. like alfreds whole reasoning was ‘well I just wasn’t ready to be a father (i abandoned one kid already it really wouldn’t be difficult to do it again) and bruce was sooo hard to deal with 🥺 (i don’t even parent him in any meaningful way)’
Alfred is literally like “hmm schizophrenic 14 year old child. lets let him go talk and train with assassins and murderer detectives to figure out his ‘true self’ since he very obviously doesn’t want the nonexistent encouragement and help I’ve totally been giving. I’ll even pack his suitcases because THAT couldn’t send any wrong ideas to the kid I repeatedly tell to grow up and learn about life.” and he expects him to come back to Alfred’s expectation of ‘normal’???
don’t even get me started with his whole ‘indulging the continuous cycle of robins’ thing. Bruce is like “wow let’s get this kiddo to a foster home with emotionally stable people who can properly raise him” while Alfred is already picking out the fabrics to sew the robin costumes. like worstie you started the cycle of emotional unavailability and crappy parenting!!!!! you (and a lot of people in the fandom included) can’t keep blaming that on just Bruce forever!!!
#im so ashamed this brought out my inner Bruce Wayne defender but GOD Alfred just pisses me off so bad sometimes 😭😭😭😭😭#how are you THAT bad at raising a child you literally volunteered to raise???#aughhh and his continuous victim blaming of Bruce…no wonder the guy can barely stand himself good lord#it’s not Alfred’s fault tho he’s British 💔#like I know he has good qualities. amazing ones in fact. but pls can u properly care for a child#his style of parenting bleeds into the robins except he’s way more understanding with them for some reason#whatever#batman#bruce wayne#batfam#dc robin#alfred pennyworth#dc comics#bruce wayne meta
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how would your Evan be a hockey player he looks like he'd break all his bones if you blew on him hard enough
SUSPEND YOUR DISBELIEF
but also aw... could you imagine what he'd be like if he was actually athletic... he has a sleeper build under all those baggy sweaters. maybe he's around 5'10 and lean and everyone else still dwarfs him travis konecny-style. he has the most sunken eyebags ever from going to the gym at 5am every day. has had several knee surgeries. he's perpetually holding a whey protein shake and a nike duffel but he still has the girliest face and waist. barty is 6'5 and gobsmacked when evan can effortlessly pick him up...
#olympics au#a#guys im unlearning my strict top/bottom rk yaoi gender roles for the very first time. you HAVE to support me on this one its growth#what IF evan didnt have to be a manhandleable androgynous waif who can barely stand on his own. <- never thought this day would come
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Was I paying enough attention?
She once told me about butterflies in the rain. She said... They tatter... or even...
alt. versions underneath the cut!
GO PLAY OR WATCH UNTIL THEN NOW! IT'S SO GOOD I CRIED SO HARD AIEHFNIFWUEUEUE
#mug draws#mark borja#until then game#until then#until then fanart#PLAYING THE GAME AGAIN WITH FRIENDS. THE FIRST TIMELINE AGAIN. WHAT IF I DIED!!!!#i love all the detail in the background you can barely see A TSDTJUGWAU#this was originally supposed to be him standing there but i think this dynamic pose works better. For Suffering Reasons.#<- me im suffering
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mutual orbit
#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#ff14#final fantasy 14#the azim steppe#azim steppe#au ra#xaela#magnai oronir#midlander#hyur#magnai oronir x warrior of light#gpose#wolship#warrior of light#ieeha de verral#ieeha#magnieeha#dont think ive posted them here#im generally a bit self conscious given the numerous amounts of AUs and ships with some overlap here and there#borderline confusing even for me#but feels weird NOT having posted these two given how long ive shipped them in general#love me my bisexual fail king magnai#for context here btw: basically they started butting heads like crazy first meeting. ieeha lacks any respect to speak of irt authority#which obviously magnai bristled at. but as ieeha and the gang stays at the dawn throne for a while he and magnai are forced to interact#where they bicker and argue AND also get to know each other better. ieeha learns a lot about the oronir from him and helps out everywhere#and he gets to know the tribesmen personally as he helps with healing cooking childcare etc. which magnai starts spying on#magnai feels super weird about the whole thing. its good and annoying and confusing and thrilling at the same time and hes getting agitated#and so magnai cant stand looking at him in the end and sends him and gosetsu away. he can barely look at ieeha and its making him lash out#which weirds ieeha out a lot. he thought they were making some progress to at least being civil with each other and hes a little hurt tbh
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i listened to ghost quartet in full no skipping 7 times today what
#i still barely know the lyrics#save for the soldier and rose and starchild which im pretty secure in#oh and like the train one#see i dont even know the names#so far i can say the Ushers (mostly pt2) and the soldier and rose are my faves#ghost quartet#also gang I think I understand it enough to like not bang my head against a wall!!!#key word: reincarnations#that is what makes it make sense...right#right?#right.#also gang britain ashfords voice is just#actually everyones voice#but ashfords stand out#and gelsey in the soldier and rose PLEASE#that acappella in the beginning PLEASE PLEASE#dave malloy#musical theatre#musicals#if you havent listened to the live version listen to it#or even better watch it#mr malloy himself uploaded it
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the rituals are intricate
florida panthers @ new york islanders | 10.26.24 (x)
#gustav forsling#aaron ekblad#niko mikkola#florida panthers#2425#these rituals back to back... catmin wanted me DEAD FR FR#you think forsy “come on 5”-ed him again#so the mikksyekky bumpy ritual has been workshopped to only 2 bumpies i see im taking notes#once again its not enough ekky gets laid out on the ice for 60 minutes a game he has to get it from his teammates too#on another episode of i dont know how exactly ekky managed to convince mikksy to go all out on the bumpy ritual#but damn if he didnt do mikksy really does put his all into this very strange request#the forsyekky ritual where ekky can barely make any eyecontact with forsy#versus w mikksy where he stares into his soul to ensure hes not holding out on him strength wise#utterly fascinating coupling we have here#the dynamic is 3 farmdogs. the pyrs that stands in your way. an obstacle. and a jungle gym for the baby goats. has become one with the gras#the berner thats a little too happy to be here and in lieu of doing their job follows you around instead#like sweetheart go watch the herd with the pyrs what are you doing here i love you but im just making sure the bunnies are okay go on git#and the insane border collie that the farm is scared of because they literally vibrate when not given a job and despite being run to the#ground will still find the energy to run some more what is this thing made of oh its just a smart workaholic yeah i guess that tracks#oh the pyrs barely gives the berner the time of day for playtime because the only playing they really tolerate is from the lambs and kids#and the only one who can keep up with the berners high energy is also the insane herder who is just a vibrating string at all times. yeah.
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This is a horrible angle but if you can look past her giant butt, you can see our steadiness training is coming along soooo nicely.
#bird dog training#rory borealis#dogblr#basically im asking her not to move her feet while i go place the dummy (paint roller)#soon ill switch back to using my step and have her stand still while i throw it#and then i can have her stand still while i throw birds#shes doing sooooo well#i havent worked on stays barely at all so im extremely surprised and pleased
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sighhh i really wanted this choso x reader fic to be a oneshot or maybe two parts at MOST but it's looking like it might end up just being a fullblown series at this point🧍🏻♀️
but i’ve already written 10k words for it, so 😍 imma just post the first chapter for it n treat it like a series now i guess 😭 damn
it’s just funny cuz i gave up on choso x reader zombie au cuz i didnt want to start another series on top of kickoff, n so i was like oh why don’t i just do a simple small choso x reader oneshot instead just to get my choso fix lmfaoo but apparently i have not a single clue how to tell how long a fic will actually be when i’m planning it out 😃
THATS OKAY THOUGH lol sry im just rambling here bahah BUT i will make a post sooon aksing who wants to be on taglist for it 🧚♀️✨ im having a lot of fun writing it soooo ehhe
#just yappin out here#i guess i wanted it to stand as like a complete body of work#but its 10k words and i’ve barely covered like……maybe a sixth of it lmfaoo???#yea no way#im gonna have to scrap the oneshot plans for it haha#whatever i can handle two series at once#right????????#we’ll see
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#so my mom's wake thing was today and that was a lot. not in an emotional sense but in a im standing here talking for 3hrs#to ppl i dont kno or barely kno. ya kno? but it was good bc so many ppl showed up to talk abt her#so many people. my mom made a huge impact on the school system. so many ppl relied on her. she encouraged at least 2 ppl to get their#master. for one person to specilize in helping the dyslexic after her experience advocating for 3 dyslexic daughters. she wrote and was#awarded a 10000 dollar grant for special needs and intervention curriculum. which will affect so many lives.#everyone loved her. she's gonna get a track meet named after her and a scholarship created in her honor.#she was an amazing person and she affected a lot of lives and im glad she was my mom. and she raised at least one jem in my littlest#sister who is so sweet and is a great teacher. god but there was some weird stuff too. were pretty sure her old boss was in love with her.#and there were some weird comments abt her being a strong woman or this woman doing so much and its like hm y do i detect a note of sexism#y not say she was an amazing person? y the surprise? weird comments about how pretty i looked. which yes i looked great lol. my funeral fit#was cute. we did bright colors bc it was a celebration not a dower event. and im sure it was ment well but it was a lil weird. and then#everyone was telling my grandma what a great job she did raising my mom and like god fuck off she didn't do jack. my mom was great despite#her terrible mother. ugh. but altogether it was good that everyone was able to express their love for her. it was def a day that was for#them mostly. i mean partly for us but mostly for them. none of us even cried. ay but we have 2 more parties in her honor#bc everyone loved her so much we have to do one in her hometown too. plus a personal friends get together. ugh. im so tired#i wish i wasnt the most awkward. eye contact avoidant person in the room but like ya kno. what can ya do?#unrelated
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look as much as i like cassandra and bruces relationship im forever grateful that babs won the custody battle over her
#she’s finally only passively suicidal now instead of actively!!! babs is really a miracle worker :)#also because im convinced that cass should NOT be raised by a guy who sees so much of himself in her#especially when that guy can barely stand to look at himself in the mirror. especially when that guy sees himself as a violent monster#babs brings out the best in cass mentally#something that bruce really couldn’t do. it’s so sweet to see#bruce wayne#batman#cassandra cain#cass cain#batgirl#oracle#barabra gordon#batfam#dc comics
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zolf in rqg207 is so much. nearly crying on this coach over him turning around mid-battle ready to absolutely obliterate this thing, seeing hamid nearly dead on the floor, and stopping everything else he was doing because "absolutely not"
#i will never not cry over zolf and hamid. i think about them for too long and feel like im gonna throw up#bc at this point in the campaign they just. straight up dont like each other?#they barely had a conversation since 192 if i remember correctly#they can barely stand to be in a room together#but zolf will still move directly through the enemy's space and ignore all tactics for the chance of saving hamid's life#my post#rqg#i think Constantly about if hamid had been attacked one turn later as well#could you Imagine if zolf had to choose between hamid and wilde#i genuinely dont think i would ever survive#could you imagine zolf and azu looking at each other if he was forced to make that choice
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I'm like gradually becoming more physically disabled and am now at the point I can't work. I just can't. I'm too fatigued and dizzy and in pain and physically weak to keep going. I've been through a gamut of specialist visits, all providing no answers.
My primary care doctor has officially given up on me, basically told me to just start popping painkillers and suck it up. That this is my own fault for stopping antidepressants, when said antidepressants left me malnourished due to low appetite, and once I stopped, my physical health and motivation had a marked window of improvement. At least until whatever this is started.
I can't work like this. I can't easily apply for disability bc my pcp has turned on me and won't give me a diagnosis. He has refused further testing. I'm so tired of fighting. I'm so so tired.
#i might loose the insurance i have#im moving and no longer employed#its even harder to apply for disability outside of ny and i no longer will be here#im just so exhausted on all levels i dont know what to do#i was trying to take a nap bc i got a wave of brain fog#but when i close my eyes i just think about how fucked i am and cant sleep#but im not even allowed to be depressed about this#bc I'll loose even more credibility in the eyes of any doctor#lineko.txt#my dad is loosing patience w me#im a waste of resources and can barely help around the house anymore#sometimes ill try to do the dishes but then i almost faint from standing#but according to evey doctor im in perfect health#sorry ive been such a fucking drag to see on the dash but my life is kind of in the shitter and this is my public diary
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would you still love me if I was professionally diagnosed
#lemon man talks#The urge to apologize a million times to everyone#Bc I feel like an awful person for not replying and posting abt how im depressed on tumblr#But physically I can barely stand up right now and mentally I’m at an insane low and I just#Feel so bad for being like this I don’t wanna make anyone worried I don’t wanna bring people down when I say anything#I’m so sorry maybe I’ll stay off tumblr for a bit so I won’t post anything anymore and people won’t hate me#Or whatever#go my undiagnosed disorders
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Besides Danmarch (and low key FeiQiu?), what other Honkai Star Rail ships do you like?
not many honestly!!! danmarch is my fav i love their silly banter....yanli is my new second fav HEHHEHEHEHEHE you cant give me two cute kids who have so much in common and yet end up as childish bickering rivals anyway and then their mentors forcing them into the get-along-tshirt (metaphorically) and expect me not to love them instantly heheeee
#more rambling from me below but#i dont have any stelle ships yet#she just seems so incredibly lowkey#shes just chilling like the cool cousin. i think i like her better as this blank-faced dumb chill person#i know hsr was trying to push the firefly agenda but i just...cannot stand her ass lmao i know its probably an unpopular opinion#i hate when games only give you a really short ass time to befriend a character and then all of a sudden its like (you care very much)#(her death fills you with rage) like i barely know her???#when everyone was like (im so sorry about firefly i know you were close...)#and im like uhh i mean not really i knew her for like 30mins but sure#if they did the firefly death with march??? or dan heng??? or himeko ???? then i can see stelle being MAD MAD BRO#but this new random person.....nah#anyway. ignore my ramblings i wish games put more effort into relationship development lol#if you like firefly thats cool. i get it#i just cannot get on board with her#ironically thought SAM was cool as hell and the reveal really did surprise me. kudos to not being predictable#but for me it was like that post where its like#character keeps mask/helmet on: !!! <33333#character takes mask/helmet off: :/
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13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology
#fghgjhjhggh#'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3'#like thats where you'll end up right#'find out when the aliens come try and take over'#eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably#forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it#and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end#i dont think you come out of that.................normal#even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like#functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think#she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13#i dont think shes normal under the surface#i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched#dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand#can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become#can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups#the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like#i think they'd be weird#4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a#matter of urgency and duty#and then losing the third member of your party?#dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up#iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of#having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years#when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with#i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O#she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly#or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist#has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it#and shes like oh fuck google
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