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Cis people don't post about things you don't understand in the trans tags challenge
#like this is aimed at a specific person and if you are seeing this dont worry it is not you bc ive blocked them#im a little mad rn#they had a take which i was kind of confused on so i checked on their intro to see#who they were and like what are their position to say something of THAT fashion#which was#not a radical take#just a little suspicious#and yup a cis person who says they “dont believe in gender nor in assigned sex” “dont believe it when people say they are some gender”#and “think woman are too entitled when it comes to feminism”#like#im sorry#you dont get the benefit of the doubt#may a woman or a trans person never cross your way#rambles#trans
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#p5 pmd au#p5 pmd comic#persona 5#pokemon#pmd#shuake#so as part of the major changes i figured it would be best if akechi xplains the time shifts now bc im not doing drenched bluff#he's not a newbie so he would know the guild is going to cut into their share of money and he would know enough to explain MDs to akira#we ARE doing mt bristle and waterfall cave but they will be really quick and shoved into a flashback sequence that sums them up nicely#and by nicely i mean that will prolly be another 30 page chapter#gatekeepers wil be included there too#apple woods is really more important tbh . .....#also inserting a little bit of myself in there w akechi being mad at akira not having electric moves rn bc#WHY DOESNT SHINX GET SPARK UNTIL LIKE LEVEL 15 COME ONNNNNN
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I wanted to put these all together so I can look at them when I get sad. So my apologies for the disservice of not replying individually. For folks that missed it these wonderful people are referencing somebody who wanted to remind me that my writing isn't the strongest nor is my art and that I should stick with my attempts to be funny (which you know, fair) I haven't gotten this many asks (or replies to the initial one) about the same topic since MELE came out
Ironically you guys know I'm not good with words, the best I can think of is just to say thank you. Your encouragement and love means the world to me
#that was the only mean anon i've gotten in a super long time so i can't be too mad i guess and they had a point im a little annoying#rememeber#asks for bee#thoughts from the peanut gallery#sadie my oldest mutual thank you thank you so much#and Dot you've stayed with me even though i'm not focusing on ME rn im putting you through the ringger thank you#everyone thank you#thank you so so much#i wish i had better words#i woke up and thought somethign had happened happened when i saw my notifications#but no it was just acts of love
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school is making me miserable so here's a doodle sheet of akechi truths. hope this helps
#goro akechi#my art#<- i guess. how many times have i said i guess to this. sorry no new big or good pieces i have horrors in my brain#p5 spoilers#i guess#i suppose that.these r 'headcanons.' but these are just truths in how i draw this guy. also not my best akechi drawings for sure lol#would u guys be mad if i made another akechi animatic. <-if this happens it will not be soon i have So Much shit going on rn.#my mind is just doing things again (things being listening to songs and thinking about him)#anyway its rlly funny to me that gloveless akechi feels so naked but he doesnt Actually wear them all the time lmao. he does to me though.#hope this helps.#i did the jacket around neck thing as a little kid because it stayed there better than the waist. he on the other hand is doing hero moment#anyway my brain has long imprinted on him like a baby duckling. thoughts and prayers on the schoolwork im not doing.goro akechi#i hope he dies<- not true
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Feb 1 2024 Hourlies -> first day of my period -> my sleep schedule is backwards and I did it 12am to 12am style even though it technically is part of my yesterday and not all of my today
#hourly comics day#im a little mad bc i have my perios rn but im tired of people complaining about art being too cliquey or gentrified oe whatever#like calling hourly comics day something for rich kids. grdjjgkdmd#you can do it ugly. let yourself try. you dont need the expensive supplies and lots of time#i had fun drawing this bad and not editing it#it doesnt have to be a masterpiece to be worthwhile or enjoyable#hourlies#2024 hourlies
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ive made myself more wet and pathetic
#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL#its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed#because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH#how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would#be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing#or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late#i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed#the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either#because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember#the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either#the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with#crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure#BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION#im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real#really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and#thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT#you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without#making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY#yapping#doodles#puppysona#edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule#and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened
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Basically Nikolai and Shatov's conversation in the last parts of the first chapter
tagging people l can think of who's read/reading The Possessed cause l am obsessed and in need of more content: @girlatreus @karamazovanon @viiinz @alyshkas @t4tstepantrofimovitch
#the possessed#the demons#the devils#devils#demons#nikolai stavrogin#shatov#why did l make this red? Idk#it looks a little bad#but idc#holy shit this is red#im so mad at myself rn#but too tired to do anything#digital art#my art#dostoevksy#dostoyevski#fyodor dostoevsky#dostoevsky
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#.img#as i always say. chronic illness is so funny#im actually ok rn i just got a little sick b4 lunch and got mad about it#ok 2 rb also 👍
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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Books Read in 2024:
Little Mushroom: Judgement Day by Shisi (2022)
The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System Vol. 1 by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (2021)
The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System Vol. 2 by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (2022)
The Musician and the Monster by Jenya Keefe (2019)
A Deceptive Alliance by Sydney Blackburn (2018)
Cinder by Marissa Meyer (2012)
Claimed by the Orc Prince by Lionel Hart (2022)
The Witch King by H.E. Edgmon (2021)
The Disabled Tyrant's Beloved Pet Fish Vol. 2 by Xue Shan Fei Hu (2024)
[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]
#2024media#gigi.txt#okay so little mushroom is a post apocalyptic danmei abt a human and a mushroom and its so fucking good. im reading vol 2 rn.#its introspective and gorgeous and i love the worldbuilding and wahhhhh#scum villain! i have my hands on all the physical eng copies so im rereading also bc im doing an svsss big bang uwu#the musician and the monster is like. a mlm book abt well exactly what it says and i was actually fucking SO ABSORBED?#i read it in one sitting it was so fucking good. deceptive alliance was an mlm book ft. a guy disguising as his sister w/ arranged marriage#and it was. it was a book. idk. learned that romance novellas are not for me bc way too short i love identity shit but nah.#cinder is a YA book that i remember seeing as a kid but the cover put me off and tbh im kinda mad abt it bc i wouldve ATE THIS UP#as a teenager. like its solid now but holy shit i wouldve been all over it. mc is a cyborg in like fantasy future china and there are alien#that live on the moon and its all fairy tale retellings in this setting and im enamoured. gonna read the rest#orc prince was the elf self lubing assholes book idk if i need 2 say more honestly#i hated hated hated the worldbuilding in the witch king and how the trans issues were framed and i DNF-ed it at like 25% of the way in#finally disabled tyrant continues 2 be absolutely insane fishy romance its just so bonkers every single time 10/10
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Hi story I’m drunk + high rn great combo. Frank Castle. I need to **** *** *-**** ** **** ** **** ***
-cab
hello cab! thank god for tumblrs completely automatic censorship of that type of thing (very real very true i didnt make it up) that being said god. god real. whatever it was probably and even if not then at least i can understand the feeling
#poor pixie wanting to share her palia gameplay with me just for me to cut in with 'if i could get hard id be so hard it would hurt rn'#tbh the artstyle of that specific comic panel i sent does drive me mad. frank looks young and a little too pretty sure but#at the same time. so squishable#sorry i on the other hand just woke up and its like noon. im not entirely lucid either KJHGDS
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Helloooooo i will be making art / participating in art fight agaun soon, my partner & i’s car got totaled while parked by a fucking jeep wrangler rolling down a hill in neutral. Looney toons car accident 😭👍 no one was harmed bc both cars were empty this whole situation has been so odd
#petals#WE JUST MOVED TO A NEW STATE im not even goimg to mention the madness of my job rn. anyway#promise i will make a shop… soon…. i’ll draw again…. soon……. also not fully moved into our own place yet / subleasing rn so its a little bit#of a whirlwind of a month!!!!! whewwwwwwww
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everyone who can watch lmk season 5 right now is inherently evil
#nnstuff#rambling#lmk#im mad im pissed im pissy im a little bitch baby rn about this hissing biting etc etc
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Saw your tag saying FSM haters come fight you. Here I am! Frankly I'm not so much of a hater as I am just of the opinion "wow this guy sure Started All This Shit" but I'm absolutely willing to hear your view of the matter if you're willing to share! Love some Friendly Fandom Discourse (it's healthy tbh) come at me bro 👊 👊 👊
HI LOL.... my personal opinion is that the FSM gets a lot of hate for similar reasons to wu (which i also think are unjustified but that's a different post). like you said he gets a lot of the blame put on him for starting everything that's to come in the show, but i don't really feel like he intended to do any harm.
the FSM was born into a war. when he was still a very young child, he was forced to choose one side of himself, of his family, and destroy the other. and so he ran away. but this world he runs to is chaotic and dangerous. and so again, he is forced to fight for the right to live in peace along with the inhabitants of this world.
but even in this new world, he wasn't safe: the oni followed him, determined to bring him back to fight for them. and after them, the overlord. his whole life, especially when he was younger, he had been fighting, or running from forces that aimed to destroy him.
i believe the FSM was incredibly paranoid throughout his life, worrying that at any moment everything would be ripped away from him. this can be seen in how secretive he was, how much of his history is hidden away. the mech used to win the war against the overlord was sealed away where it could never be found. he granted elemental powers to select people to help keep him safe. even in his death, he hid away, in a place that even wu could not find.
this paranoia carries on through his sons. he taught them both to fight, to protect themselves, when they were also very young. one of the earliest moments we see of them is them fighting with swords! and though he loves them, they are not immune to his secrecy, or his fears. when they steal the scrolls and enter the serpentine territory, he never fully trusts them again. when garmadon gets bitten and starts to turn to evil, he's desperate to cure him. and i don't fully believe that the FSM intended to make garmadon feel broken or "wrong"... just that his fear has so consumed him at this point that he can't see the damage he's doing to his children.
it's also worth noting that despite garmadon's corruption, the FSM never truly hated him. he was left to protect the golden weapons alongside wu, he recieved the same protective enchanted gi, and was left the same clues to find him after his death. it's just that garmadon was unable to see this through the corruption (which is another post).
perhaps all he did was to protect his sons. that seems to be how wu sees it, at least. because wu repeats this same behaviour with the ninja, even if unintentionally. he brings these kids into a war because that happened to him, and his father before him. maybe he doesn't even realise it's wrong. he hides things from them not only because because he's ashamed of his past (again, another post lol), but because his father always hid things from him. it protects wu, but it also protects the ninja.
i don't believe the FSM was a flawless person. hes one of many grey characters in ninjago, and to boil down everything he did to "good" or "bad" is a disservice. maybe you see him as someone who only ever ran from problems instead of truly solving them, maybe you see him as a cruel and neglectful father. and maybe those are both true. but he's also someone who always tried to fight for peace, for himself and everyone in ninjago, and someone who truly loved his sons, despite the damage he did to them both.
so that's who i think the FSM was. an immortal, all powerful godlike being, yes, but also a scared child who just wanted to live peacefully, and would do anything to prevent another war. and maybe he is, in some way, indirectly responsible for every bad thing in the show, but i think this is more of an after-effect of the countless wars and conflict. he did the best he could, and considering all he went through, i think he did alright.
#also like. he died thousands of years ago so the fact that its only recently things have been kicking off is quite impressive LOL#ninjago#the first spinjitzu master#fsm ninjago#SORRY THIS IS SO LONG.... hopefully it makes sense i rlly didnt wanna spend ages on this but theres soooo much to say#its hard not diving into hc territory too LOL....#like always my thoughts on ninjago are complex and weave into each other... so its hard to make them coherent but hopefully it comes across#i have two other big essay posts im working on rn so yeah i didnt wanna spend.. AGES on it haha#if u disagree or r confused come argue w me pleasee i love sharing opinions abt this shit. its so fun. jsut dont be rude thats all i ask :]#asks#also i didnt know where to put this but worth noting: wu and garm entering the serpentine territory risked starting Another war.#so him being mad is fairlyyyy reasonable i think. even if he was extreme abt it#smth else i didnt know where to put: the theory that the overlord is the manifestation of fsms oni side/inner conflict over his identity#issue upon issues....#anyway. i think its a little unfair that ppl always talk abt how awful it is that the ninja had to fight so young and stuff#when the exact same things happened to wu garm and fsm
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Actually sorry I need to bitch and moan about this. I've been reading the san.dman (do not ever do this to yourself it's a hell unimaginable by anyone) and like... I really think it's interesting how much ga/iman is praised as super progressive on Tumblr for THIS specifically when it has so so much bad in it. About 10 issues in I started a game with how many women were in the issue who survived/were raped/nearly raped and it was insane how little women did not fit into these categories. One black woman lived and the rest were all burned alive. And he then later gave an excuse that it was bc of how Dream imprisoned Nada (16 year old African queen who fell in love with him. Its a very big mess and really sucks) in Hell so of course it influenced the entire world and so every black woman but ONE (who was introduced in the second to last issue) died and died violently. Not even to get into how it plays into the really violent misogyny that he had during the short story he wrote around the end of San.dman (when he was in his mid 30s) that was literally just one graphic rape scene to a minor after another (his snow white retelling is pretty infamous bc of how bad it is just by the summary but let me tell you that it is FAR worse to read). Like there's so so much that I think people do not discuss with his writing and it honestly just is very baffling that people hype him up given well. Everything that happens in San.dman. like the endless alone has a lot of... Well let's say interesting issues. Every single woman dream comes across wants to fuck him (to the point that at his funeral, it's 90% the women he was with/wanted to be with him and then a little from his siblings????), despairs entire character is literally just that she's depressed and coincidentally the most prominent fat character (and also naked all the time. Which they did seem to fix in the show but it's baffling how it's like her, one serial killer who nearly raped a woman before dream stops him, a guy that dies and I guess Abel if you squint for the fat rep) and then desire oh my god. I wish desire was written well instead of here's our nonbinary/gender fluid/genderless rep (cool in theory!!!) and then the fact that it (in the original series, she uses he she and it pronouns) raped a woman is dropped on your head and he is not at all regretful about it and ends up like.. taunting the victims granddaughter??? And delirium my god if there was ever a representation for born sexy yesterday and also being weird as fuck about mental illness it would be her. She's barely clothed most of the time, referred to as very very young most of the time and her mental illness (vague) is just kind of used as a joke a lot of the time? Like it's a funny joke that she doesn't remember stuff or that she's overstimulated or that she's using the wrong words or talking like a child. It's really weird because all of these characters have potential but they aren't really ever treated that way. Me when I get him for every single woman treated horribly!!!!!
#twist rambles#i am NOT taking any chances for this thus why its censored bc well. i don't want to deal w it lol#rape mention#misogyny#misogynoir#<- all for bl but im mad about this againnnn#sorry im just!!!!!! when i get him!!! like ppl do NOT know how bad it is and how bad it's handled#no notes on d/eath bc her writing is mostly ok minus the spinoffs but god I just. the way he treats women!! it's bad lmao#not even to get into the lgbt handling bc like.. i guess he was trying but man its so so bad. genuinely do not get me started on it#long post#<- it kind of is but the rage just kind of consumed me a little. like i dont get why he's this bad at it!!! i do actually but like god it#sucks. very good to read this if u want to blow him up already and want to strengthen that#im on a spinoff that everyone hates rn and like man its weirdly a relief that its not written by him. I'm excited to see the stuff caítlin#wrote bc maybe it'll be better. im back to the mines now but. know it's bad ok#and that SUCKS bc like there r characters i like. theres parts i enjoy.#8 was the only one i rly would recommend bc it works better than a lot of the stuff in it but man. yeah. it sucks to see the potential in a#media and then its like misogyny sledgehammer!!!!!
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something about when el went into void and found billy, she saw him on the beach surrounded by sunshine and love and truly fucking actually happy. something about how when she turned around and saw the storm, she put her hands out and felt the ash falling from the sky, and then saw neil abusing billy and abusing his wife. something about how even in the monstrous world from another entire dimension, neil's still the fucking monster in the story
#idk how the upsidedown and the void and possession work and at this point i dont fucking care#actually something about how she said she saw a someone pretty and then saw a boy#and didnt even click it could be billy until she heard his name get called out#like i guess she wouldn't know what he looked like as a kid and all that#but like.... they knew billy was possessed by this stage like?#and when she was like 'im at the beach' and lucas was like '??? hawkins has no beaches???'#max was like 'tell us what else u see' so pretty sure she was picking up what was getting thrown down#whatever none if this matters!!! i was just clipping up that scene for gifs today and decided to not mute it for once#and was like oh this is actually like genuinely fucking sad#like????? the fact billys hiding out in his memories??? except he cant actually live in just his happiest memory#cos even in his happiest memory#he asks to stay at the beach just a little longer#and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad#also the fact even his happiest memory is still surrounded by some of his most heart wrenching memories#like he can't remember the good without the bad#like his mind physically cant think about the one day on the beach were he caught a 7 foot wave#without remembering the fact that his mum fucking left#cant do this rn sorry guys im fucking emo#m#text
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