#ill update the fundraisers when im off work too

[televenus]

sigh. mistria update

[shhh-were-all-mad-here]

10/22/2017

11:45pm. The AC in my apartment is broke and, even though it is October, its very hot in here. So my window is open and my fan is on. Anyway, just a few updates and a bit of freaking out. Aidan and I broke up. We were not a good fit. Like at all. And I don’t have to lie on here or worry about hurting anyones feelings so here goes. He was exhausting to hang out with. Im a pretty lowkey, chill person who also happens to have depression and anxiety and some people just take a lot to actively hang out with and he is one of those people. So every time we hung out, which was always late at night, I was already tired and he just drained me even more. I felt band but I couldnt do it. For my own sake I had to end it. But. We’re gonna talk about this other guy for a bit. Cameron. Cam. Whatever you wanna call him. The boy I liked before Aidan. He was handsy when Aidan and I were dating and even more so now that we’re broken up. On Friday, we had a parade for homecoming and after he was like ‘Sadie, you wanna get dinner?’ and i was like yeah sure so he told me to pick a place and we went to cook out and my best friend and her bf (who is also on drumline) met us there. When Cam had to go to work I told him they would take me home and he got up and stood there for a minute and was like ‘oh okay’ and went to leave. But according to Erick, *(my friends Drum line bf) he ooked like he was waiting for me to change my mind and ride with him or get up and tell him bye or something. Anyway then Saturday at the game, we were standing there talking to some other people and he said something and I acted offended and he put his arm around me and hugged me close and I put my arm around him and then instead of letting go he started swaying and kept holding me. He did that a few times before the game and then he said something else that I either didnt hear correctly or didnt understand and he got really extra in explaining it. Like first the boy put his hands on my shoulders and then he was like holding my face and looking me in the eye and talking about whatever it was but honestly i cant remember what it was because I was so caught up in his eyes and I put my hands on his arms and when he finally let go of my face and he brought his hands down he held my hands for a second and then left go and i was like oh lord okay.. and we went back to whatever we were talking about but like I said i dont remember what that was. Then after the game i told him i was going to eat with my mom and he was like ‘can I come i wanna met your mom’ and i was like sure but why do you wanna meet my mom but he didnt answer me. he also didn’t get to meet my mom because she wanted to drop me off and go home too so i told him that and he goes ;thats okay ill meet her some other time’ like oh okay. Anyway, it was really nice. Other than that, nothing new. UNCC finally won a game last night! And Dr. Miller gave us Monday off. We already have Friday off so we only have band once this week. We also have a fundraiser on Wednesday and im super excited for it. Okay, 12:01, time for sleep