#ill probably delete this later or something

[niinnyu]

Her.

[coatl-cuddles]

" WIP DELETE LATER 🤪🤪🤪" ok who gaf?

[lollytea]

I really love hope is a thing with feathers and I also really LOVE the hope as a sewer rat poem too but I wish it was not explicity written as "well actually" against Dickinson asgvsjnk. The imagery is SO GOOD but this whole vibe of "my metaphor is better than your metaphor" kinda sours it for me

[natsmagi]

sorry for making yet another textpost but i came across that post saying they dislike transfem natsume because he "canonically hates being perceived as a girl and tries to erase all sorts of memories related to that" and also went on to shame genderbends of him aswell. So, as someone who not only draws genderbends of natsume but is myself someone who is nonbinary and hates being perceived as a woman, i thought id offer my two cents

first of all; i think its important to note that natsume does NOT hate his childhood. in fact, hes quite happy that he had such an unusual upbringing!

what natsume hates is being perceived as weak. thats why he was raised as a girl after all, it was his mother trying to protect him from evil spirits. he doesnt hate the whole "-chan" or "wearing dresses" thing because he has a hatred for womanhood, its because due to his upbringing hes now come to associate those things as being weak. he begs tsumugi to forget about it because that means tsumugi remembers natsume being weak, and natsume thinks tsumugi still referring to him as "natsume-chan" means he still sees natsume as weak. (iirc natsume did however once say that he is a little sad that he doesnt really know how to relate to young boys due to this in poltergeist, but i couldnt find the exact quote. either way that just adds to the complexity of natsumes relationship with his childhood, because while he is happy to be "abnormal" in that sense, it has left him lacking in some areas)

i have to ask though, should this conflict of his not be something we hope he overcomes? should we not want him to develop a healthy relationship with various gender expressions? should we not want natsume to overcome his belief that feminine things = weakness? i want natsume to reach a point where he can wear feminine clothing and not feel like some damsel in distress because of it. i want natsumes character to grow. i want him to develop a positive relationship with his gender because natsume DOES enjoy some more typically feminine things, like baking! he used to bake with his mom when he was little! and i want him to feel like he can indulge in that side of him without feeling insecure.....

i LOVE transmasc natsume, my primary hc for him is transmasc nonbinary after all, but with all these things considered, shouldnt people be allowed to headcanon him however they want? if they hear his story and negative relationship with femininity and how that resonates with them and they themselves are transfem, should they not be allowed to hc him as such too?

which brings me to my next point; my own personal relationship with gender and femininity. i was raised as a girl and i fucking DESPISED womanhood. i hated everything about it. i hated how i felt forced into a box i didnt want to be stuck in, and i hated how it felt like my whole life had already been planned out for me due to societal expectations, aswell as me needing to present a certain way. i was peak "tomboy" growing up, constantly wearing super baggy clothes and wouldnt even brush my hair alot of the time. but despite that i remained miserable. i frankly hated how i looked and would constantly dye my hair vibrant colors in an attempt to make me like myself a little more. it wasnt until i realized "wow, im actually not a girl at all" that i finally let go of believing i needed to look a certain way (and thus, defying it) and started to dress for myself. i started to dress in clothes that made me happy and feel pretty! alot of which leans feminine, but clothes doesnt have a gender, and how you dress doesnt define your gender either, but it can still be a bit scary yknow? especially since i dont want people to think of me as a girl, and drawing a bunch of femstars has really made me learn to love myself more in a funny way. i can put these characters in clothes i think are beautiful, i can explore the more feminine parts of me that i adore but dont want to express in public due to how i want others to perceive me, but it has also warmed me up to femininity even more. because femstars to me feels detached from the expectations of society because its not a real thing!! there are no canon femstars designs!!! i can do literally whatever the hell i want with it and its been so liberating to me!!

all this to say; i think it really sucks seeing the way this fandom treats transfem hcs and explicit genderbends, because like ive said before; they can truly be something so personal. you dont know why that person is drawing what theyre drawing, so its a little unwise to make assumptions based on ........ Well, whatever it may be. i know very well that women dressing the way society expects them to SUCKS, esp if you have personal ties to it, but you have to realize the issue isnt femininity, but misogyny.

[spaceshipkat]

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[sophiethewitch1]

far distant and incredibly vague spoilers for www but putting it under the cut anyways

realising for some reason that at some point in all 3 wips im currently working on you get imprisoned. i would say i dont know what that says about me but i do i really do know what it says

[mcnuggyy]

finally took the time to look through all my tags and save all the art people have drawn of my guys over the years, i cherish each one so much, they are all saved in a folder safe and snug now <33

[justewil]

its kinda funny that i still just. do not havr anything im good at at all

[cherry-bomb-ships]

[ibrithir-was-here]

Well I've tried writing this three times now.

People of Tumblr over 30-- any advice on how to be Ok with the knowledge that life will never turn out the way you try and plan for and not Demotivated because of said knowledge?

[p-inkbrush]

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[scottishoctopus]

So friggin fed up with everything, everything's gone to crap these last few months and I'm just completely done and you know what, Davy Jones had a point when he said life is cruel because yeah it is. I'm so done

[cavity-collector]

i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

[piploopsy]

gonna be honest ive kinda been considering deactivating this blog, or at least going somewhat inactive. i love south park and i love posting on my silly little blog and it makes me incredibly happy to know there's a little community of people who all enjoy my art, but sometimes this fandom can just be really stressful for me to be in. mostly due to personal bad experiences along with the amount of people saying fucking disgusting things about the literal children in the show and how normalized it can sometimes feel.. i know there's plenty of people in this fandom who aren't like this and I've met plenty of them! but sometimes i just feel really uncomfortable being associated with the same fandom as the not so great people. i dunno if ill actually deactivate this blog or not but i might go inactive for a little while

[hobbinch]

I'm turning into the joker over seeing fellow white non-Jewish leftist friends and acquaintances sharing posts scoffing at the idea that Jews are native to the land currently called Israel and Palestine. Israel's gov't is clearly using tactics from the US Genocide playbook to evacuate the land and dominate its residents. That doesn't mean you can paste American dynamics of Who's Indigenous/Native And Who's A Colonizer directly onto the situation.

You can't absolve yourself of the guilt of being a settler in America by taking it out on Israelis. Some people claiming Jews aren't indigenous/native are saying that because their goal is 0 Jews in Palestine or any neighboring countries. At least do a minute of work to make sure you're not fucking platforming those people.

[bytedykes]

who has suggestions for which origami animal i should fold for my next art project