#idk why this feels unreal to me
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ok but how fr are u on writing that dirty laundry rewrite....
like no pressure but me and my bestie are abt to piss ourselves in anticipation.....
(ps when hurting for home update im dying squirtle 😫)
LMAO I'm so sorry anon, hurting for home update coming.... eventually :D I've written like.. almost half of the next chapter :3c I just died of graduating and work disease. but I prommy I have not given up
as for how fr I am... I am 110% fr, as for when I start working on it? :3 whenever I get hit with divine light
#i didn't know my fic had real fans#idk why this feels unreal to me#also lowkey might reread dirty laundry again for research#and do some soul searching for all the vld chara uni majors#vld#klance#dirty laundry#hurting for home#asks#anon
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I was in a major car accident yesterday (got t-boned) and was very luckily a) alone in the car, as the passenger side got walloped and b) not injured. However I took care of everything and then went home and proceeded to sleep for 19 out of the following 24 hours.
#I could feel all my muscles and all of them were in pain. every ounce of my energy was sapped#I needed to eat but the thought of eating made me want to puke#I had to be driven home and I was sat in the front seat like 😵💫🫥😱 why aren't you BRAKING you need to BRAKE every two seconds#After my 24 hour reset I am now up to eating a meal. I still hurt but only the top quarter of my body instead of all of it.#I can stand the thought of being driven now but idk how long it'll be before I'm OK with driving again 🙁#I have been thinking about it like. all the time which sucks. Unfortunately my tolerance for processing negative experiences is -1000#If something bad happens to me I want to just fix the situation and move on from it immediately#and that just doesn't happen in reality. But now I'm stuck sitting with this awful experience for who knows how long :(#I'm lucky our insurance is so good it'll cover everything (but deductible obvs) and I imagine the car is fixable#All in all I'm incredibly lucky and I know that and I'm so grateful to be healthy and home with my husband and cat#But also I've had my license for 8 years and never had an accident. I've been through so much this year. This car is 1.5 months old#It just feels so unnecessary and evil for this to happen now and I feel so guilty that apparently I'm at fault#and caused this huge financial and energetic drain for my lil family when we've already dealt with fuckin everything else the past 6 months#The ''why me why today why when I'm a responsible driver'' is real and my whole shit is rocked. I'm still shaken up#I've had a few times recently where shit felt... unreal? Like I should be able to reload my save because that couldn't have just happened#And this was so vividly that way#I'm strong but like. The Cursed™️ vibe is very present#May have to do a curse break and many protection spells soon#cause this is getting ridiculous#personal
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happy birthday! I just wanted to let you know that I came across this account after seeing this sick horror piece of old time churches, decinding to follow the page, and then realising that it was the same artist who'd written that sick comic on time travelling werewolves and vampires which I'd lost. and they're both t4t too ! effervescent
thank you!
Honestly it is an extremely unfamiliar reality that someone could know me from multiple different things... Not sure what to do with that but I'm glad to have impacted you in small ways and I hope to continue to do so! So thanks for being here, I'm glad that fate brought us back together haha
#honestly I never know what to say to things like this#its so kind...#there's also some kind of. there's a lot of feelings around it#the goal of an artist is to touch peoples lives in small ways. imperceptible ways really...#and I guess I never think of myself as doing that. I just think of myself as intending to do that#because thinking of myself as someone who IS feels like a great level of responsibility that I'm not sure I'm quite ready or qualified for#but I am! I've been making comics for years and I've like indisputably influenced the lives of thousands of people#and I take that extremely seriously. even though its a silly little comic its very dear to me and I am very proud of what I do#and so. thank you for sharing this#I'm being very dramatic. I'm aware LMAO#idk! just like woag my stuff is out there...#people remember it... man... thats just unreal#dickensians#asks#just another reminder of why I work so hard to make something 'good'#to me it's about making something that is worth the love people are giving it#because you're all so so so important#and you deserve something wonderful#and so I'm just doing my best to make something that feels wonderful. as much as I'm capable of haha#so. yeah...#just reminds me how important it is and why I do what I do.#thank you
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#it feels so unreal to me to be applying for a disability certificate#after i grew up hearing that i should be thankful for being fully abled (catholic family (kind of))#idk you always internalize the shit you hear as a kid so i feel like im making a big deal out of nothing#even though everybody else knows what happens when i try to do “what everybody else is doing”#and collective ignorance doesn't help at all#like when im transparent about the reasons why im not looking for “a real job”#ive heard things like “I don't know what kind of autism that is because i know x person who is autistic and has a job”#im done explaining peoplr what a spectrum is#but yeah those kind of comments make me question the severity of my problem with social interaction#anyway#that was today's unsolicited venting moment
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1994, 2001, and 2018
"But OG ReBoot has crappy and scary 90's CGI amirite?"
#reboot#I've seen people rank on the original's CGI plenty of times but I guess Guardian Code's CGI is just fine and dandy right?#barf#a lot of people are conditioned to consume Disney-Pixar/Dreamworks-type slop#so it doesn't really surprise me that they make fun of the CGI in ReBoot or Beast Wars for that matter#anyways#at least this makes me feel more confident in my art abilities if the so called professionals can't make Bob look good these days lol#also the fart huffers at Rainmaker thought it was okay to animate with Unreal Engine????#still racking my brain trying to think why they'd use Unreal Engine over Maya or something else#maybe the license for using UE is cheaper? idk
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Me: *tells my mom I’ve been thinking people at work are controlling my mind again* My mom: No one can control your mind. But AI,
#it’s just. it’s LUCKY I’m in a headspace to recognize this stuff (only bc my period started and I thought OH that’s why I’m miserable) xD#actually psychotic#actually schizoaffective#unreality#im an adult btw. I feel like I have to disclaim when mentioning my mom. im 25.#idk what’s going on with my moms mental health. she’s super deep in conspiracy theories. shes not messing w me she does believe it.#anyway im just tryna avoid ever showing my face at work again bc i Messed Up. I'll have to go back Monday. sigh.#two years ive had this job. two years. and I talked abt. sigh.#they are all lying to me tho#words by seaweed
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I said i would block them because after years of them hinting at a romantic relationship if everything turned out to be a lie/a skit/ mkt strategy i would feel lied to and my trust in them would be completly gone. Not saying their personal stuff its any of my business but my feelings and perception of them are my business and i would relocate my interest somewhere else
how would you know it was a lie or a marketing strategy tho. like this hypothetical already makes no sense but ok lets pretend it does and go along with the logic.
say next week, after everything they've ever posted after all these years, dan decides to upload a video saying he has a boyfriend who is NOT amazingphil!!! how does that mean all of the past experiences that he has shown us that he's had with phil is suddenly a lie or a marketing ploy? the whole "dnp gay as a business scheme" thing is so stupid cuz they would have Actually played it up if that were the case. yeah whatever the tatinof fanfic section is playing it up, but in their regular degular videos for years they would try so very hard to no homo. even once they were done with ACTUALLy saying they werent gay and dan wasnt as publicly defensive online, it was still friends and thats it, no hinting at anything more, the most Teasing we would get are innuendos and feeding each other lmao. and dont get it twisted. they did that on purpose to tease us, but it was never any sort of """"bait"""" or trying to make us believe in phan or some shit it's just them having fun with us as an audience. it's so insulting to think that dnp would be that manipulative to their audience, that in this unrealistic hypothetical scenario in which they announce that theyre seeing different people that would mean everything that we have seen of them is suddenly a lie.
#why does seeing another person = everything about their relationship is a lie#no offense you literally sound like that guy who said dnp not announcing that theyre fucking is setting back the queer community#and im not saying you have to still enjoy their content in this stupid fake unreal never going to happen situation#but its just so. insidious to even think that they are those kind of people#like i dont care if its parasocial bc for me its what my gut is telling me and my gut is saying deep down they are good people#so idk man i feel like. you need to rethink why you enjoy dnp im being so serious about that#like if it really is just because you see them as in a relationship then sure but like. is that seriously all you like abt them???#myrambles
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“go to hell” is basic. “i hope you have the opportunity to write a romatically dense character in a situation where even you can see the other characters romantic sense” is smart. it’s possible. it’s terrifying
#❛ ♡ › jupiter : 𝐨𝐨𝐜.#insane how i keep on finding such trait haunting me ... got back into a game with my best friend and omg ... the character who i write in#our dynamic came out in leaks like : oh yeah i am avoiding them bc i think they hate me and now idk what to do with this distance ...#even though he ran away and this character spent years. EVEN AFTER THEY FOUGHT last time they spoke! to make sure they were alive.#constantly getting people to check up on him.#this is. uh a common occurance on this blog. a lot of my muses really struggle to see romantic interest in them and. in turn. can take years#in canon material to recognise their villains. not to sound cliche but its not your muses its them#dived into alie.n stage lore and discovered til.ls feelings for iv.an were listed as#unrealized feelings which honestly? i think has opened up a whole world of thoughts and tbh like a whole new way of looking at the dynamics#i hold with my particularly more dense muses and realised yeah? yeah#! that makes sm sense... its not that they werent in love at the same time#(they were and thats why they make some strange decisions. trust)#but did they understand it for what it truly was? maybe#maybe not. the not is more telling bc yeah ... that just makes sense 🫠#anyway good morning! today is definitely a message / gaming day. im going to try and keep an eye out for memes today but after sending#about 20 asks my brain coming up for starter plots is not 100% rn JFSJFJSKFJSJDJ#dynamics on the other hand .. 🥰
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"Big Blonde and Beautiful" by Queen Latifah from the Movie Musical "Hairspray" is exactly what plays in my mind when I think of Demeter
oh wow would you look at that
my hand slipped :P couldnt stop giggling till i drew her so here ya go! also now all i can think of is her saying 'ill let u lick the spoon because it tastes real nice' to a smol persephone ^-^
bonus big 3 goddess trio class doodles! ill colour them later. maybe ;)
#feeling much better about myself lol#demeter my beloved#she looks so lovely :D!!#really hope the colours dont change too much#oh and i cant draw hands lmao#tis saturday today and i havent ticked any boxes in several weeks now and feeling quite terrible about it#looks like ill be retreating to my cave and staying there till i recover this time#call me hestia the way id probably be on fire and not feel it bc im so tired lol#im so sorry but the asks and other general activity will have to wait for longer :')#really looking forward to athenas ask omfg#the gasp i gusped#>:D#unreal#ur mind astron and the wonders it holds#astron#demeter#greek mythology#my art#i had upside down pineapple cake for breakfast today#idk why but i think demeter would like baking them :)#ALSO#i love pecan plaits!! i instantly thought of that when she sang about pecan pies lol#nom nom
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In my constant brain rotations of “why are people in the west so hard on mecha aside from the fandom can be a bit unfriendly” I think one thing I realized as much as I hate to say is how mecha is sometimes treated remind me of the constant hatred superhero stuff gets.
It’s such a weird comparison because with mecha I do not know what the root of it was-and I’d love to know why but I feel there’s either no clear answer or there is one and it’s stupid-where as for superheroes in the west while there’s still a dedicated community the mainstream audiences have become tired of them due to over-saturation, which I understand, but it’s caused such a massive dismal to the entire genre of it much like mecha.
People think superhero stories can’t have any substance because it’s all about fighting and not about the characters- yet forget the SIGNIFICANT impact they had to so much pop culture. How superhero stories were rooted within comic popularity, how superheroes inspired countless of stories, even so far as reaching japan since so much early anime was taken off of western media which birthed its own genre of superheroes. It’s no different to how mecha help started up the anime industry making it one of the most important genres to japans history, yet most people don’t know it and belittle it.
Yet in superhero story cases it’s even WORSE when people are against it yet then go to see one superhero movie because it’s animated and put it on a pedestal and don’t bother to try other superhero content even though they consumed is no different from the norm. It’s the exact same shit when people watch eva and then think all other mechas don’t compare to it, when the genre always had darker, mature and emotional elements, just only a select few decide to canter to a audience who doesn’t even accept what genre it’s from which makes it all the more frustrating to deal with.
I’m someone who’s hardly into superhero stuff even if some of it catches my eye but it sucks to see that the situation is pretty identical to how mecha is seen, that I can’t help to feel sympathetic whenever I see some comic book fans upset at the mainstream audience even if they too can be a little hostile.
#meg text#to clarify I do agree 100% live action superhero movies especially the MCU got really stale#but that doesn’t mean those movies being stale should single out all superhero content when the stuff before is still GOOD#I was in a server that wasn’t mecha but someone was like “I hate superheroes” yet the discussion was just about a old Justice league cartoo#again- what’s so wrong about the animated ones? when they were from a time pre-saturation and people praise shit like spider verse?#I seriously cant tell if this is also a factor of the ever growing issue of people don’t wanna check out old things despite their importanc#*me awaiting the day someone unironically saids the boys/invincible/spider verse is a deconstruction so I can sigh in pain with actual fans#I hope to god that doesn’t happen but it feels like it’s close to why people already say superhero movies don’t have characters#and maybe that’s true bc I haven’t watched a marvel movie in ages but also I think you more so mean “characters being expanded upon”#because… every story has characters… just some can lack dimension and depth… but their still characters…#oh and it’s funny how it’s always these two that get singled out for focusing on action but shonen gets a pass 😑#action doesn’t equate to less characters!! How do people not realize this?#it’s fine if not your preference but fights can LITERALLY be CHARACTER DRIVEN#a lot of them are in fact because there’s always a purpose to these fights! Even if the meaning is sometimes barebone#also I know there’s gonna be a mecha fan who hates superhero who finds this post#and hate to break it to you but I’m pretty sure the super in super robot came from superhero and just not super powered#especially when a lot of the stuff Nagai made/worked on was him clearly tackling a superhero story from another angle#of course mecha isn’t entirely a superhero genre since we have “reals” but the 70s robots? Oh yeah meant to be superhero’s#and what I said above I think the comparison is warranted because the downplaying is unreal sometimes#will say between the two superhero’s probably have it worse because mecha honestly is more so “im curious but idk more then 5 shows”#because my god I can’t have some conversations irl where this shit doenst get unnecessary heated#had a whole English teacher who wouldn’t stop complaining about superhero movies last semester in college 💀 it’s that bad#that said mecha still suffers from people liking one show and shooting down the other it’s just not as prevalent bc mecha content is low#it’s not dead like others say but it’s mainly been gundam and people now just think gundam is every robot (which is PAINFUL but whatever)#moral of the story is don’t judge a book by it’s cover especially when that book is actually really important to fucking pop culture
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due to confusion about my identity! 'lime' is a persona someone takes on when they like lee hakhyun a lot. thank you for you time
#my discord is @hakhyun !!! idk why other people are getting mistaken for me 😭😭#feel free to invite me to servers if it's orv related! or just dm me i don't mind#unreality
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*sees fave Paintbrush's exit III interview*
That characterization was interesting to say the least. Even though I was a bit in *ahhhhhhhhhFAV* mode, I feel odd about PB's out-of-character dramatic personality.
Also, Lightbrush confirmed??????
#special interest fun time ahhhhhh#but yeah I admit it feels meh; why chañge their personality just for the interview?#accidental ñ oops!#along with that no questions about the other characters in season 3? But questions for season 2? idk#reading osc and ii neg tags was interesting tho; some stuff I didn't know about in the previous seasons made PB's#writing in the interview more odd#I like PB's original characterization; they're loyal doing their best for the teams they were in; learning how to overcome their hesitation#on allowing others to lead along side them. Them wanting to be understood and their firery anger representing how they feel being mistreate#I find that line between being good leader and their fear of instability is what made me interested in them#the star??? thing didn't really feel like PB that was not their focus tho#.....yeah not a great feeling ahh#feels like they are heavily flanderized; like Silverspoon type of behavior in the interview#anyway gonna put PB's brain in a firelance and let them rage for twelve hours straight#// unreality; Pyrrhus said they would not act like that // lol; only time I'm noting my paras like this here#osc#ii paintbrush#inanimate insanity
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#im so bored of my trying-to-fall-asleep daydream material#ive exhausted all the (few) plot lines i have for my space mail carrier oc k need new material!!!!#i need to like. figure out a new oc to have a weird gay thing going on with my existing one#but im so bad at coming up with characterssss :(( thats why i like my oc sm she just appeared and i immediately knew what to do with her#its actually unreal how bad i am at coming up with oc lore#everything i have so far was just like locked and loaded in there idk how to produce more#my post#if anyone wants to talk about space related ocs feel free to msg mee :>>#i mean. right now im gonna sleep but like in general!#i love my oc so much... id like to make a whole story for her but its. soso difficult#also yea this is me subtly trying to get my mutuals to mash their ocs face to my ocs face like were playing barbies#im not ashamed to admit it!!#but also if someone just wants to talk original works without the matchmaking part then thats also very appreciated fsgdhdhdh
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i have been working on this ezioleo request for so longgggg,, im about halfway through coloring and then i can do some MINOR shading
#wip#tendebill art#im still tired as fuck#all day i think about going home and drawing#then i actually get home and im too tired to even start working on anything#idk why march feels so busy#not to mention this was supposed to be my only event-free weekend and now it turns out theres a family thingy on saturday#technically i dont have to attend but i know i should#is it too much to ask for enough time and energy to draw gay italians and also maybe my ocs for an entire day???#also public transit exhausts me#up to 2hrs on the bus/tram daily will do that to a mf i guess#and i just realized i havent touched my ps3 since feburary >:/#unreal#cruel even
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it's minecraft time bitches
#i feel pretty today so now it's everyone's problem#well it kinda isnt cuz you. cant see my face#idk why i cover it up at this point ive showed parts of my face so many times in the past its unreal#if you do some digging you'll find my Mask Era™#idk im just paranoid that people wont like me cuz of my age (im really self-conscious of it because like. i act super mature for my age and#What If My Moots Dont Like Me™)#all i can really say to assure y'all is that im not 12#idk.. ANYHOW MINECRAFTIN TIME#i am but a silly little guy#im above 12 but below 16 so.... oopsies#idk i feel really bad for things i cant control
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#vent in tags#cw: death#I am thinking about him again man#he passed so loved and he was ready and thats what matter but g-d dammit how much I want to be selfish#listened to a song that happened to be about death and reference the place we grew up together and just :'0#ah yes this is Fine#this and the birthday relvation earlier#idk why it's hitting me so hard#I remember acknowledging huh the age difference between us matches theirs thats v interesting#huh he passed at the same age too ok thats just an interesting coincidence#but the birthday being the same is unreal#it's hard to believe its real and that it has been so long#I don't think ive processed this all right yet#despite that#idk it feels strange to mourn him cuz that means he's really gone#and so I just live vicariously through fictional parallel's ig ??#like a baby fucking loser#belghhh#sorry for being so down lately ill post nicer things later-
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