#idk what I’m going on about though this is all hypothetical silliness

[10-59]

What if Joel had his own Vlinny? 🤔 Jloel 💀

i’m ngl i had to meditate on this one for a while 😭

to fit into the “visibly off version of an existing guy” archetype like vlin i decided on turning his horns upside down + green -> purple + rarely smiling + no sharp teeth + an overt appreciation for nu-metal. Might mess around with him again eventually?

[myrandomsuaus]

So I got this ask awhile back and it’s been rattling around in my brain

At the time I had no clue on how to answer the question because I hadn’t checked out the bpau in some time since I hadn’t been keeping up with the su fandom. However, now I have a bit more of an answer and I’ll be putting that here.

Firstly, I don’t have a lot of details on how it would go, but I do know that Purple would be existing on earth with her pearl and the two would be known as Amy and Aubie, two rouge gems not apart of any of the courts. The two would meet and befriend Pink/Rose and Pearl and join their rebellion because of their shared love of the earth. However, just like the AU goes, the rebellion fails and is cut short. Rose is revealed to be Pink and Amy ends up revealed as Purple, who confuses all except White (and Aubie). Earth is taken away from Pink, Pearl and Aubie are punished (Pearl losing her ability to speak and Aubie being rejuvenated), and Purple is reintroduced to Homeworld. A new era is brought in to celebrate the return of the diamond that had “disappeared”, which is White’s way of treating the little rebellion as just another tantrum of Pink’s while forcing Purple back into a role she didn’t enjoy (because she felt all gems should be treated equal, but White never agreed with this). Purple to satisfy White and to keep from losing her pearl (since White had intended to take her away just like Pink Pearl, but Purple begged to keep her pearl since she was only doing what she was told by her) went along with White’s plans, she even changed her form to look similar to White to also satisfy White (since the two have a history).

Here is Purple’s reform. I tried making it similar to White’s form while making it different to fit Purple, plus making it darker to show that she may look similar to White, but they are different. She’d much rather treat all gems as equals and show that each gem is their own not what their gem is (ex. A pearl may be a pearl, but they’re more than just a pearl).

Secondly, idk if I’ll actually make my own bpau because I’m trying to focus more on my main AU, but I’m down with making what if designs for the AU. I thought about making Sophie a design for the potential AU, but I haven’t. Though she’ll look similar to Purple and her canon design (aka my current design for Sophie). I will say as a random thing for the potential BPAU is that Sophie is the daughter of a poly ship (Purple, Thomas [her dad] and Janice [her step mom in canon au]) and will end up with a younger sibling from her dad and mama (what Sophie calls Janice). [this is all just silly hypothetical stuff because idk if I’ll actually make this an au]

Lastly, remember this is all just random and for fun. It was something I’ve talked about with some friends, but I’m not taking this seriously because like I said it’s just for fun. I honestly just love coming up with random story ideas because there’s just so much that could happen and I’ve been told that I have a very active imagination (I’ve been told this by my mom since I was a kid, like three years old or so) lol. Anyways, this is just a silly lil suau idea that probably won’t go anywhere. If people enjoy the idea enough maybe it could just be a silly random AU I occasionally talk about and develop. Otherwise it’ll just be some random thing that exists on my blog lol.

Likes are nice, but reblogs are appreciated.

That’s all for now. Stay creative my friends ^w^

~Mod Art

[awkwardcreature789]

8, 13, 25 (just picked random numbers idk what the questions even are)

Hello there Anon. *stares up at you w/ my autistic eyes*

(need to update reaction pic to accurate design but whatever)

Tattoos, biggest turn ons, perfect date. Ok uh-

Tattoos- yes I do want tattoos in the future, I want a semicolon tattoo on my left wrist, and maybe a few silly tattoos hidden on myself like Easter eggs yknow? I want a pentacle on my back though because wiccan shit is awesome 👏 and I for sure want to get a matching tattoo with my mom (and maybe my sister when she’s older lol)

Biggest turn ons- i live in Texas so I can answer this one I suppose lol- I am Demisexual and Pansexual, but I’ll answer hypothetically and also for all genders/presentations- I am a very intimate-sexual person, so sex for me should be about love and showing one another your love for each other through pleasure and intimacy, so a slow burn kind of thing? Idk- My biggest ones are gently tracing my skin, whispering sweet nothings, gentle but also firm dom asserting kinda stuff but like I’m fragile so be nice lol- also praise and reward- and being sensual too like- AUGHGHHHHHH oh and when the other person makes noises and says my name even though I’m the most bottomest bottom there is AAAAAAAGGAGAUUAGGAHHAGAGAHSH but honestly I’m so easy to fluster and make a panicked blushing mess it’s not even funny lmao- I’m a fragile submissive pillow princess who’s insecure and anxious and likes to see I’m not the only one being vulnerable 👍 like bro if we making out and you tell me you love me over and over BITCH I AM YOURS- TAKE ME AWAY- HOUSEWIFE INSTANTLY- I WILL MELT- anyways yes I have daddy issues and need a tall gentle dom daddy for my bf (or tall gentle dom mommy if i want the gf) I AM WEAK AND FRAGILE SO TREAT ME AS SUCH AAAAAAA-

mkay perfect date, we order Chinese takeout and then go to their house or apartment or whatever and we sit in a calm environment and paint/draw each other. Other perfect one if the art isn’t arting, we order Chinese takeout and binge MHA/BNHA or Hazbin Hotel or Helluva Boss, while cuddling up together under a blanket.

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

AXEL I AM HAVING A CRISIS RN. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO LIKE WIDHWKSNDJ

so i think my friends crush might like me 🧍‍♀️ yikes🫠 IM NOT 100% SURE BUT LIKE THE STUFF THIS GUY DOES??

LEMME GIVE YOU A FEW EXAMPLES CAUSE LIKE IM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND😓

okay so the first example is how he teases me which like i get it people tease each other all the time but he does it a lot to me and from what i’ve seen he hasnt done it to anyone else😭 he’ll tease me abt anything whether it be my height cause im “short” or something i said or maybe something stupid i did like he’ll tease me abt it 😭 MAYBE IM JUST OVERTHINKING IT IDK

second one is this time we were on the bus with our friends,, so what happened was he sat next to me even though there was an empty seat next to his BEST FRIEND?? LIKE WHAT?? idk lowk found that kinda weird especially cause like when we were at the bus stop he was standing with me rather than with his best friend

the third time is when we were at this arts conservatory place and like there were different departments and i wanted to visit the theater department so what happened was him and his friend were going to visit the visual arts department but when he saw i was going to the theater department he immediately turned to his friend and then they shared this look and he came with me to check out the theater department instead 🫠 IDK I FEEL LIKE IM JUST CARING ABOUT THIS WAY TOO MUCH 😭

OKAY BUT THE THING IS LIKE HES ACTUALLY SUPER SWEET AND FUNNY AND NICE BUT MY FRIEND LIKES HIM 😭😔 if he actually did have a crush on me tbh i wouldnt mind BUT I FEEL LIKE ITS SO FUCKED UP OF ME BECAUSE MY FRIEND LKEK ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS HAS A CRUSH ON HIM AND ALSBWLANSKW⁉️⁉️ in my mind im trying to justify it cause i knew him first i was the one to introduce them and hes closer to me than he is to her BUT I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BAD FRIEND LIKE WHAT FRIEND DOES THAT 😭 (omg this could be one of those reddit aita posts or something)

oh yeah one of my teachers screamed out to the entire class that my birthday is next week 💀 she was like “ON BAMBI’S BIRTHDAY NEXT TUESDAY—“ LIKE LADY? YOU DONT NEED TO TELL EVERYONE TIS GONNA BE MY BIRTHDAY?? shes so sweet though like i love her tbh

okay enough about me now 😋 so hru?? anything interesting happened lately?? (GOODBYE I FEEL LIKE IM BEING SO AWKWARD)

BYEBYE ILYSM 💗💗

-bambi

NOT A REDDIT AITA STORY

also i feel like… there’s def something there haha… cause like… interesting??? either that or idk he’s tryna get to know u more??? either way i think u should talk to ur friend about it ! see what she thinks n how she would feel if anything hypothetically happened between u n him… yk…

OMG UR BDAY IS ON TUESDAY WRITING THIS INFO DOWN IMMEDIATELY!!!

ANYWAY i’m good! nothing interesting going on tbh i am just here to post my silly little smaus n then forget i exist ❤️❤️❤️

ILYMMMM

[elytrafemme]

@evilpuzzlingpapercrown and also @eternallyworm because i haven’t been checking evilpuzzlingpapercrown recently and missed the latest response by several hours even though i was kinda online at the time

~ now here is the message that took me 2 hours to write (i got distracted)~

shimmying into your inbox hello hello an irl almost found out i was a system today by following one of my alter blogs. ✨yippie✨

tbh!!! idk if he actually realized because 1. he didn’t like the pinned post but 2. he sent an ask saying “omg it’s you” (possibly a reference to the inclusion of “my main is puzzlingpapercrown” in the top of the pinned) 3. he still might have not read the read more 4. i sent them the men and black gif and they were confused 5. i immediately blocked him from that blog and privated the pinned 6. we have had 3 conversations since then and she never mentioned it

conclusion? i have no freaking idea what i’m doing ever 💅

claps my hands together i am here. today. to talk. aka to answer the question you handed me in the last ask response but i have lots to say… so it’s another ask BABY. okay i’ll admit my typing style is kinda fucked right now but we’re managing 

i feel like making some like short responses to some things in the response to the ask before covering the question so here we go (imagine me doing that silly drumming on the desk that like hyper salesmen do. or something)

freaking hyped that i have the dahlia hawthorn seal of approval. like for real we are quite thrilled. we are quite hesitant with interacting with anyone so i am thankful for this. there will likely be an ask one day in dahlias inbox(most likely from Jupiter tbh) 

shaking hands on the switching thing. i think the worst time a difficult switch was like *trying* to happen was one of my drivers ed driving sessions. like in the middle of driving and my eyes are unfocusing and my brain is literal soup and that was a freaking moment for real. didn’t stop till i like got home and crashed. it also prompted me to think “hypothetically if i was a system perhaps and maybe that was a switch or SOMETHING”

okay and also that’s so interesting that there’s those tiny shifts in appearance for ya. i don’t know but it’s just interesting to hear an individual experience on stuff (for me it’s like a change in perception of my appearance. like i look different and feel different about how i look depending on who’s fronting. even if i look the exact same there’s something off in the brain and it’s so funky)

OKAY AND QUESTION YOU ASKED ME tehehe 

“ do you also like... ever feel the process of a memory actively getting repressed?”

okay tbh yes. and it’s like uh. there’s multiple ways this sorta happens.

for starters i can very much tell when a period of time is going into the hashtag memory vault because i will have the worst memory of the events while they’re happening. most recently i can recall, i forgot in full basically everything about after 24 hours of it happening. everything i remember is what my sister said about it afterward. yippie!

however even smaller events i can sorta figure out that they’re going to be hashtag in the vault in the moment. it’s like our perspective feels small and maybe even blurry all around. and then even directly trying to recall events from within that moment are very choppy.

idk how to describe it but it’s there.

and! with some important information we’ve developed a system of like for fully logging information. so like an important memory we will sorta lock an image and singular thought into the brain regarding the event as a way to make sure everyone has a memory of the moment. this was a tactic we came up with long before realizing we were a system which is funny. 

so a good amount of my memories from like a while ago are singular faded images with like a sentence of thought. 

okay i realize this is even longer than before but i’m having the time of my life with talking about this hahdjfj okay yea 

i also did stop for like an hour to look on instagram and fell down a rabbit hole of small buisness making makeup brands. yea

ANYWAY PEACE AND LOVE ✨💕✨💕✨💕✨ YEAAAAAA (but for real thank you for listening and talking i’ll try and respond in the comments this time)

HIYA!!! Hoping answering this activates something in me TM because I'm getting such nice asks on both my alter's sideblogs but i want them to front to answer them :((( hopefully they decide 2 say smth but for now just me Mare again!

absolutely fascinating and yet horrifying experience oh my God. see I'm playing with fire b/c the first person I would ever tell about systemhood is my best friend who is also the only person i know IRL that has access to this blog. so it's like I wouldn't hate it if xe sees this but also it's pretty dicey that it's written all over this blog and xe definitely could see it. but. shrugs.

still. goddamn that is either lucky or like. unfortunate. either way uhhhh hope things r alright with that

yep! Dahlia's approval is hard to acheive and I can say that because she hated me at first but now she's basically my older sister so we chill we chill. yeah idk she's a cynic so she likes The Good Intentioned TM and appreciates that u guys are like. so caring and kind to me all the time. and also finds you all funny. so like. thumbs up emoji

OUGH THAT'S AWFUL!!! HATE THAT HATE THAT. Long switches fucking SUCK don't know how long u all have those, typically ours don't last too long but the first time Nightshade fronted. hoo boy. that was a rough 30 minutes . still Drivers ed.... fucking SUCKS goddamn.

totally get that w perception, i think sometimes it's like that for us but usually even if our face looks the same there's something about the way we hold ourselves that's distinctly different. like how we set our jaw or the way our eyes slant or something. yeah!

THAT'S SO INTERESTING WAIT. the fact that you guys have a memory storing system for important memories is SO so fascinating and like. i'm so glad u have that bc that seems to be so helpful!!! from how u describe it at least idk i hope it's helpful! and the blurriness is interesting and also hashtag relatable; for us it's less blurriness and more exhaustion but at some point exhaustion becomes blurriness. at any given point in time if someone in the headspace wants me to not think about something they put my brain in sleepy mode and i can't think. assigned naptime at hosting

if any businesses stand out or seem super cool feel free to share with the class bestie

yeah :D u can talk to me whenever i mean that. im sorry im so bad at answering ur asks i always wanna give them my full attention unfortunately i have the worst attention span in the world. promise i love talking to u all though :D

[arvandus]

Hiya! How’s chapter 11 coming along? I’m sure it’s going to be amazing no matter what! If the smutty dabi one shot is still on the agenda I have a little idea for some very soft fluff. I know you don’t take requests but I can’t stop thinking about this idea! I already shared it with @sauza via anon but I wanna know what you think and if you might consider extending it into a full fic. Here goes!

The league is playing a party game where everyone writes down random (often lewd or dangerous) things on cards. There’s a verb pile and a noun pile. Each person draws one card from each pile (for example: the verb card “lick” and the noun card “the blade of toga’s favorite knife”) and then they go and perform the act like a dare. If you chicken out of the randomized dare you are out for the rest of the game. (Also I like to think that Compress is a wizard at shuffling cards and makes sure everything is truly random.) At the time I couldn’t think of a prize but lets say the winner gets to pick the kind of takeout they eat for dinner next time.

Our lovely reader happens to draw the verb card “give a kiss to” and the noun card “every single one of dabi’s staples”. She doesn’t have to perform the task in front of everyone, but if she has a witness (dabi) that can verify then she gets a point? Idk. I think it’d be interesting if the relationship wasn’t completely established yet so cue flustered reader.

However reader decides maybe I can use this as an opportunity? My boi dabi has been self loathing a lot lately so maybe this can help??? Dabis pretty chill with the whole ordeal since he thinks reader is a fine piece of ass anyway. Normally dabi is a little rough when it comes to seggs and likes to be the dominant one, so he’s a little bratty. However the reader is assertive but soft and something about the tenderness just gets to dabi so he’s more sensitive than normal and he lets out cute little noises. Then maybe this can lead into smut! Whatever you feel works best!

Anyhoo that’s my idea! You’re super creative with your storytelling and I think you can take it in so many different directions that would all be fantastic! I also think you could come up with more dare combinations that would be really funny! Please do tell me your thoughts when you get the chance! Love you!

So many thoughts with this. I'm not very good at dare games like that, so not sure my ideas would be good ones. But I think the dares would all be more about messing with the other members to fuck with each other and piss each other off (lovingly) and less about getting lewd things to happen. If anything, I think Toga would be the one to put "give a kiss to" since she's so obsessed with love, so that combo of kissing Dabi's staples could still happen hypothetically. Some silly daring ideas that popped into my head... Steal one of Shigaraki's hands (good fuckin' luck)

Wear Compress's mask (imagine the hilarity where someone takes off his mask only for him to be wearing another one underneath it...)

Drink Twice's favorite beer (especially if it's the last one)

Wear Magne's lipstick (Imagine Shigaraki pulling this one)

Give a massage to Spinner (Not a dare cuz it's Spinner, but because it requires emotionally repressed villains to show and receive affection with one another. And he deserves it. I love Spinner.)

The challenge with this though, is that it could make some odd combos that might not make sense if the verbs and nouns are mixed up ("give a massage to Magne's lipstick," for example). So I think writing out simple truths or dares would be easier, and maybe have each person write out and submit three to give some variety.

I'd imagine that this would be an "ice breaker" game that someone would suggest, not quite realizing the chaos it would cause (Twice, maybe?). I DO however, LOVE LOVE the overall idea of kissing every single one of Dabi's staples and making that man melty soft. For me, I'd probably have it be a part of an impactful scene around intimacy and Dabi finally letting go, because I'd imagine that letting someone else touch (let alone kiss) his staples would be a huge deal for him. (I actually have a much later scene in Touch that will involve something similar, so perhaps I can tweak your idea for that scene and give you credit and tribute the chapter to you? 👀)

Anyway, those are my thoughts!

[chdarling]

Hey I really admire the amount of dedication you've put into TLE and I'm really looking forward to the second instalment, have you got any tips for people who want to start writing fanfic but don't really know how to get started? (sorry if you've already had this question before).

Oh oh I know this one! (warning: this ask got away from me)

Ok so: Whatever it is that is in your head right now that is making you think you want to write a fanfic? Write it down. Don’t worry about making it pretty or structured or even a narrative at all. Is it a snippet of dialogue between two characters? Is it an image that won’t get out of your brain? Is it a vague idea or a trope that just tickles you? Write it down. Make it exist in the world. There’s power in that.

I keep all my notes on my phone, and they are not pretty or polished or anything, but I keep EVERYTHING. (insert unpaid promo for Evernote here) It’s fun though because I will find notes months and months later that say nothing but like “James learning to juggle” (true story, this just happened, apparently 3am Chloë thought this was a revelation worth waking up to type idk). And I will have absolutely no context for where these ideas came from but hey!! Here they are!! What happens now?! (magic)

Once you get into the habit of writing down all your ideas (I mean ALL of them!!) then you can go back through and pick out what speaks to you or piece together something that starts to feel like a narrative. For me one of the most fun parts of writing is putting different ideas together and seeing all the surprising connections that can come from it. For instance, maybe, for inexplicable reasons at 3AM, you had an idea about James juggling and then you found another note about

....you know what? I’m not even going to finish writing that paragraph. I’m just going to show you the nonsense that went on in my brain while I was designing my totally facetious James Juggling example. Before I could finish the above sentence, my thoughts went like this:

- what is an example of a random note I would write that could inadvertently relate to juggling in this hypothetical scenario

- hmmm what about Lily being called a circus freak by Petunia

- Oh my gosh Lily runs away from home and joins the circus lmao

- Wait Sirius ran away from home in canon actually

- WAIT Remus is a werewolf! That has old-timey circus vibes!

- OH MY GOD THEY’RE ALL IN A CIRCUS

- oh oh oh themes! I feel the themes! Themes of societal rejection! Angst! Unexpected community!

- WAIT WAIT WAIT it’s an old timey circus story about foRBIDDEN LOVE and FOUND FAMILY

- is there a murder?

- no wtf it’s a love story why do you always try to make everything about murder

- 🤡

So believe it or not I have a point and it is this: write literally everything down, you have no idea what kind of ridiculous connections you will one day make. Give yourself permission to play without the pressure of publishing. Be as silly as you possibly can and then clean up your messes later. ❤️

Also who will write the Jily Circus AU because I’m not gonna but I want to read it now pls

(thanks for the ask, love! sorry for...whatever just happened up there)

[makeste]

Idk, I remember deku being actually okay with abandoning the hero dream literally seconds before all might showed up to offer, all might saying both before and after choosing deku that you can't be a hero without a quirk, and aizawa saying that it's more cruel for their dream of being heroes to end halfway (aka quirkless bakugou) rather than kick them out before they start (quirkless deku if it had stayed that way)... it's not balanced. deku never *actually* had to deal with it, ofa was there

anon if I’m being honest I’m not 100% clear on your argument here. you talk about Deku having to face the possibility of never having a chance to pursue his dream, but then you say that he never had to deal with it? he spent ten years of his life dealing with it. no one believed in him at all (except for one person, whose response to believing Deku might be capable was to furiously suppress that thought and go out of his way to degrade Deku at every turn because the thought that he might be capable made him afraid). he had to believe in himself. he had to try and press on even though everyone kept telling him it was impossible. he had to deal with the potential loss of his future at a time when he should have been the most hopeful for it.

and he was never okay with it. when all hope seemed lost, after even All Might, the hero he looked up to the most, told him it was impossible, he tried to convince himself that it was all right, even though we can clearly see from the expression on his face that this is a soul-crushing blow for him.

I assume you’re actually talking about the panel towards the end of the chapter, where if you take the scene out of context, it does look like he’s a little more hopeful about trying to move forward:

but the thing is, this expression isn’t because he’s finally come to terms with being quirkless. this expression is because Katsuki just finished running up to him and being all “HEY DEKU!! I NEVER ASKED YOU TO SAVE ME YOU STUPID NERD GRR” before doing an about face and stomping off, which was as close to a thank you as Deku was ever going to get from this version of Katsuki at this particular point in time. this face is because he’s happy that Katsuki is alive and that they were both saved. and in the immediate aftermath of that, it probably seems silly to be worrying about things like whether or not he can become a hero like he always wanted. but that doesn’t mean he’s actually made his peace with it. there’s no way he went from the pain we saw in that other scene above to him just all of a sudden being totally fine with it just like that. it’s just that after this point he literally never has a chance to think about it again, because that’s when All Might shows up and is all “I know this is going to sound like an impossibly fantastic coincidence, but what if I told you that I, the hero you’ve admired all your life, could give you my quirk? :D” and Izuku is all “:O” and so our story begins lol.

but the fact that he eventually, after ten years, finally did get a quirk (which broke all his bones and inadvertently set him on the path of being hunted down by a homicidal maniac whom All Might mistakenly thought was dead) doesn’t negate the ENTIRE CHILDHOOD he had of not having one and being treated like an outcast and an object of scorn or pity because he didn’t have one. he absolutely did have to deal with it. he had to deal with it during the formative years of his life. and he had to do it alone, without anyone there to mentor or guide him. even the people who cared about him still dismissed him. he was completely written off from the age of four, and he dealt with it entirely on his own. so I have to disagree with the point I think you were getting at, anon. it is unbalanced, but in this instance the one who undoubtedly got the short end of the stick was Izuku, not Katsuki. Katsuki will be all right. and Katsuki, unlike Izuku, will not be alone, and he will have people who still believe in him. one person, at the very least.

also, just a side note, this idea of balance/imbalance in terms of How Much Suffering They Each Have To Go Through is kind of straying from the point imo! because that makes it sound like a punishment being handed down unto Katsuki from above. “you are hereby sentenced to one hundred years of quirklessness for being a jerk to Deku in middle school.” him losing his quirk isn’t about fairness, or penance, or about equalizing him and Deku; it’s about him experiencing something from a perspective he was never able to have before because he was privileged. characters grow through their experiences. and just like Izuku grew through his, Katsuki will grow through his own, if and when it does happen. and he will either get his quirk back in the end (which, let’s be real, is far more likely to happen than not), or he’ll figure out how else to Not Lose to this, because that’s what he does. anyways but in any event we’re still just talking about an as-of-yet totally hypothetical situation so let’s just see what happens.

[obiyuki-beebs]

CH 116 thoughts / discussion

mkah spoiler / discussion and no cut.

I’m going back to thinking about the 115 post (reblogged directly below this one or in the obiyuki content page on my blog) I did and how that bottle is just like the one Touka Bergatt told his brothers “wont work on him”. So now we know that this bottle of perfume (and is perfume, not poison as I had previously thought) that is basically hypnotic pheromone juice. Touka apparently cannot be influenced by it. Was that what was used to lure in and kill Touka’s father? I think so.

Remember in the early days (ch. 28) when Mitsuhide smelled that smashed potion and went nuts over Zen for a chapter? 

While it may not be the same potion, it does have similar hypnotic properties. This potion is described by Garack as being associated to what we are thinking of at the time, or more particularly, producing a strong reaction to a deeply held loyalty (a type of love). Mitsuhide is worried about Zen, who he already has a strong relationship with. This potion seems to have enhanced feelings that were already there.

That was the same instance that was used as the final test for Shirayuki’s court herbalist apprenticeship, which she passed. I think that counts as a strong memory that may influence this arc as well if she and Ryuu recall the test in their brainstorming and investigation.

We did not get a name for the plant, and it is simply referred to as the blue flower drug. While I’m not supposing Sorata was planting an easter egg so early, I do think she may be using a similar premise of hypnotic (at the very least).

Back to 116....

You can see in this depiction of Yozumi that his eyes are blank. We get confirmation that he was hypnotized, but I think we should remember this look for future encounters as it provides insight to the effect the perfume has. 

After she hits him to get him away, he looks shaken. Shirayuki sees how strongly his emotion is affected by this. Yozumi is tearing up with obvious pain in his eyes. What happened to his lover? He asks repeatedly for Shirayuki to leave, facing away from her, clearly fighting the hypnotic temptation. Look at his face in the next image. Why is he so distraught? What about his lover and the perfume are so upsetting? This might also provide some insight on why he’s so protective of the perfume bottle. Is it all he has left of his lover? Did she die? Missing? Was he betrayed?

“I took it with me in secret.” 

Did he steal the perfume from her?

Yozumi -- who will not name his lover but we can almost definitely infer is Mm. Liera or in some way connected to her -- reacts to some of the perfume that Shirayuki placed on her collar. This means that the perfume is not the same as the potion described in ch 28, so is it the same plant in a different formulation? Or is it a different plant that also has hypnotic effects?

(as a side note, I wonder how effective washing out the perfume is? Washing off of your skin, sure, fool proof that eventually the substance will be gone. But with fabric? It might be much more difficult to clean. Maybe Shirayuki is using the pepper Ryuu gave her to wash her collar? If there is somehow leftover potion on her clothes, will some unsuspecting gentleman get a whiff of trace potion and be swayed to make a move? I would like to see shirayuki in proximity to obi for this hypothetical... this whole paragraph seems silly now that I’m editing but I’m leaving it). 

“When I was beside him, he seemed like he was in pain.”

Emotional pain? Physical pain?

Yozumi seems to have been ‘addicted’ to his lover by means of this perfume, and describes withdrawal symptoms when he was separated from her for more than a few days. 

Withdrawal -- physical withdrawal -- is serious and a sign that the body has become accustomed to a stimulus, that being in contact with the stimulus is the bodies new normal. 

However..... I’m not sure how closely we are supposed to compare that to withdrawal in the real world. I (used to) work in healthcare and still think like a nurse... I can’t help but apply that line of thought when Shirayuki is also a health care professional. Court Herbalist seems to cover sides of modern nursing and modern pharmacy. I think it’s more likely that the perfume is a vehicle for manipulation -- a lure for an assassin to exploit -- rather than so severely addictive that it incapacitates someone. 

That being said, Yozumi is still addicted to the smell of the perfume. Addiction psyche will often have you rationalize and seek out the source of your addiction, even if you know it’s the wrong thing to do. Will he try to seek his lover out? Is she alive? Is she a villain!? All I’m sure of is that she is associated with the Bergatt scheme (re same bottle, etc), and is part of the untrustworthy faction in the North that will try to reclaim Wilant and its territories. 

Can Yozumi be trusted out and about? Lol no. Probably not. Who does he kinda look like? Obi bb..... Spy time? Will the knights ball be a masquerade?! WILL OBI AND SHIRAYUKI GO TOGETHER WEARING MASKS?! ahem I hope so. With close proximity dance & perfume. I hope we get some Obi x Shirayuki confronting the tension between them. Maybe the perfume / knights ball will be the catalyst? 

Then. Yozumi is contacted by someone he has never met and invited to meet, and this woman has the same scent. This woman is connected to the original lover, and whoever supplies the ‘perfume.’ Probably the Bergatts and their loyalists. This encounter with the perfume alerted Yozumi that he should be suspicious of the lover and the scent, which catches us up to the present and why he has come to see court herbalists. 

So this perfume ... basically makes people horny .....there’s going to be a ton of temptation shit going on and I am so here for it. 

this post is already so long ...... my arthritis is so bad rn but I’m so pumped about the chapter I’m popping 800 mg ibuprofen and trucking on thank you so much for reading up to this point

So ... the identity of the lover. We know she is high born, and is the daughter of a Viscount. We can assume she’s from the North. There seems to be a network of women working with and / under Mm. Liera to tempt and manipulate chosen parties (Yozumi, Touka’s Father, etc). 

Shirayuki and Ryuu plan to send their observations to the pharmacists of Lyrias, with “people they can trust.” Eisetsu became a little more suspicious to me in this chapter. His reaction to people we can trust was odd when you reflect on it, especially after he OBVIOUSLY LIES ABOUT KNOWING MM LIERA at the end of the chapter. Obi can tell that Eisetsu is hiding something. 

Bullet points from here on out because handswristselbowsandshoulders are literally on fire haha arthritis !!!!!

Other thoughts:

I wonder what Mitsuhide and Kiki were talking about on their walk in the woods? How curious. Maybe they are discussing the state of the North and theorizing similar to how we are? IS THIS META SORATA (p not)

I love the interaction between Ryuu and Shirayuki when she has finished washing off the perfume and she thanks Ryuu for coming with her and Obi ... happy family ... peers who trust ... coworker you can rely on .. ♡(｡- ω -)

lol Eisetsu “vetoed” but I mean he seemed to get a clue after Yozumi mentioned her being from a Viscount family. 

Another suspicious Eisetsu moment ... Does he know who Yozumi Iriz is? Apparently so. 

I might be totally off base in suspecting Eisetsu. Maybe he’s one of the good guys. It’s too early to just explicitly trust, especially in a part of the country that is known to be hostile to ProWistalFamily. I am pretty back and forth about if I trust him, though. I want to. I think he’s funny and that he seems genuinely good. But idk. My hackles are raised.

It brought me SUCH JOY that Obi came back after the rains, with the flowers blooming.  (((o(*°▽°*)o)))

Wasn’t that little agreement clap between Shirayuki and Eisetsu much like the high five that Obi and Shirayuki do? Maybe Yuki did that to put herself at ease, almost like she too is trying to trust Eisetsu. 

d r a m a ? ? ! !

People are covering for Mm. Liera and her crew. They are associated and probably working closely with the Bergatt loyalists. What will be next?

We will hear more about the upcoming Knight’s Ball

More research conducted on effect of perfume and its properties

Will it be related to the blue plant from ch 28?

Will a spy be sent to Lyrias to intercept research on the perfume? This is more of my Hackles Incorporated TM business mentioned before re Eisetsu and if he can be trusted. 

BACK TO WAITING!

<3 beebs <3

[foolishlovebugbaby]

stupid cupid | part 2

part 1 | part 3 | part 4

college!au / bang chan x fem!reader

Summary: bang chan is always complaining about being single since birth, so best friend reader decides to play cupid and sets him up. big mistake.

Genre: angst-y?? with some fluff later on idk you decide (a Lot of slow burn so idk how many parts this multi-shot will have lmao)

Warnings: like a few swear words

to stardust: gosh i love you

chan stared at his phone, mouth slightly agape and heart slowly picking up speed. he didn’t put much thought into that message; all he knows was that it just came naturally to him and that he didn’t have to think twice before pressing send. but now, the longer he stared at the message the more he felt increasingly anxious about what you would say. the sound of his phone dinging brought him out of his thoughts.

from stardust: i know.

his lips twitched into a slight smile at your reply. always quoting star wars, he thought to himself fondly. but now he had a different dilemma; he felt a strange fluttery feeling erupt in the pit of his stomach and he couldn’t explain why. he felt his cheeks warm, but immediately brought himself back into reality.

that was his first mistake.

i’m her best friend, nothing more. that’s all there is to it. 

he’s yet again brought back into reality when Hana emerges out of the restroom, smiling brightly at him. 

“ready to go?” she says bright-eyed

“ready as i’ll ever be.” his smile matches hers, though not as bright-eyed, and they head towards the exit.

when you first told him that you found someone that was willing to go on a blind date with him, he was genuinely excited. 

something about the way your eyes glimmered with excitement and happiness made him feel just as excited and happy. you always did seem to have that effect on him- whenever you were happy, he was just as happy as well; whenever you were sad, he was just as sad as well. 

but when you told him that the date was to take place today- on a wednesday evening- something faltered in him. he always looked forward to your movie nights together- it was his one break during the week where he felt the most at ease- and it made his heart sting at the thought of you finding it easy to replace it with something else. 

she’s doing it for me; i should be grateful, he thought to himself the night before. 

unbeknownst to him, you actually didn’t realise the significance of the date until it was too late; it made sense to you to schedule the blind date during a day when both chan and hana were free, (which were wednesdays for chan and thursdays for hana), and so you set the date without thinking. 

he couldn’t lie- the date went pretty well; she was as charming as ever and they were able to hold up conversations pretty well. but in between the moments of silence and pauses his mind often drifted back to your shared apartment and what it is you would be doing.

on the dining room table studying, maybe.

or maybe on the couch flicking through the channels, indecisive as ever.

he’d smile to himself during thoughts like that. 

a part of him felt a tug of longing to be there on your couch that was coming apart at the seams with you eating instant ramen rather that being at the café tables eating grilled salmon with hana. but he buried that feeling deep within him the moment it came into his mind. 

this was his second mistake.

he’d grown accustomed to it- burying away thoughts he knew he shouldn’t be having.

“i had a great time tonight, chan.” hana said meekly as they walked down the sidewalk together, side by side.

“so did i.” he replied, smiling softly at her.

“uhm, i-i’d really like to meet you again sometime- i-if that’s okay with you, of course.” she stuttered out, her face blushing a deep red. he thought that shade of crimson was cute on her.

smiling to the ground, he softly replied a gentle “i’d like that.” not knowing that his heart did not reciprocate his words.

“honey, i’m home~” chan sung cheerily as he entered the apartment. just as he was about to go on a tangent about how cold it was outside, he spotted the lump of blankets on the couch sheltering your sleeping figure, soft snores emitting. he quietly chuckled and softly made his way over to you.

he stared at you fondly; your body tightly wrapped up in the blanket and your nose flushed red from the nipping cold of the air conditioning. 

he liked this shade of crimson a lot better.

he saw the tv playing a nature documentary on meerkats and he sighed to himself.

couldn’t find a movie you liked? tch, you shouldn’t have sent me off then, silly.

 usually you’d be asleep either on his shoulder or on his lap, but seeing you all alone, brows furrowed and freezing from the cold, he could not help but feel a pang of loneliness in his chest, even if it wasn’t his own. 

so he picked you up and carried you into your room just like he would any other night, and actively chose to ignore how nice it felt to hold you in his arms and feel your head snuggle up into the crook of his neck.

just like he would any other night.

and that was his third mistake.

“how many times are you going to read ‘all the light we cannot’ see in a single semester?” your friend and fellow library clerk, felix, said. you both were on a break from arranging books on the shelves and signing off on borrowed books to students. 

“leave me alone, bro. it’s been a hard two weeks, i need some cheering up.” you pouted and stuck your tongue out at him. 

“so reading a heavy, lowkey depressing novel set during war times is your version of ‘a cheering up’?” he snorted and shook his head at you.

“it’s a literary masterpiece, thank you very much.” you retorted, focusing back on the book.

“is it safe for me to assume that your ‘hard two weeks’ have something to do with a certain dimpled, box-dyed blonde?” he quipped from next to you and suddenly all the words on the book seemed like gibberish. you tried your best to look everywhere and anywhere to avoid his gaze and to try and not look suspicious (which, in hindsight, only made you look even moreso), but failed miserably at both.

yes.

“...no.” you said meekly, putting the book down and scratching the nape of your neck.

 “has anyone told you that you’re a horrible liar?” he asked sarcastically.

you couldn’t help it; after the blind date and after hearing about how well it went from chan, you felt slightly disappointed. a part of you- a very small, very tiny (but still existent) part- hoped that somehow the date didn’t go very well. but it did, and now you felt both disappointed and angry at yourself for being a terrible friend. 

“oh sue me for missing my best friend, geez.” you said frowning.

during these last two weeks, you weren’t able to see much of chan. he was either too busy at his day job, too busy at his lectures, or too busy hanging around with hana. the only times you were able to see him were during your wednesday movie nights, in the mornings cooking up something burning for breakfast, and whenever he’d come to pick you up after work. and although you were grateful for those moments, it just felt empty otherwise.

“even i can tell that you’re not just missing him. sis, you’re basically pining over the guy. when are you gonna realise that maybe, just maybe you look at him as a little more than just a friend?” he questioned you, genuinely worried and frustrated about your current state. his brutal honesty hit you where it hurt (usually his brutality was what made you like his company- heck, it’s why you even started to get close to him- but now it just rubbed salt in a wound you didn’t know you had.)

“never, because it’s not true,” lie. “he’s my best friend- we’re just best friends, nothing more, nothing less. a-and besides, even if i hypothetically did like him, it’d be unfruitful- he’s into hana, hana’s into him. there’s no space for me in that equation.” that last sentence was quieter than the others, your voice failing to mask your disappointment. it was the cold, hard truth and there was nothing you could do about it.

you fought these conflicting feelings every single day, not wanting to jeopardize the friendship that you and chan had as you cherished it more than anything. two years went by just fine, so why did these feelings come up now? were they there all along? did it really take one person being added into your dynamic to make you realise so much? endless questions plagued your mind, some you didn’t even want the answers to.

felix sighed next to you, feeling bad about prodding at your fresh wound. 

“you know i care about you, i just don’t want you to keep pitying yourself like this. you deserve to be selfish this time, especially if it’s concerning the one person you love.” he rested a hand on your shoulder gently and you could see the genuine concern he had for you. 

was it true? did you actually love chan in that way? you still didn’t know, and you couldn’t bring yourself to say no.

“well, my shift’s over. i’ll get going now.” he stood up and smiled down at you, you returning that smile even though it didn’t quite reach your eyes. 

after muttering a “get home safe,” and “see you on monday.”, you were left to your own devices in your dimly lit library. 

your hands fumbled with the keys to the library doors, the cold nipping at your fingertips. it was closing time now, and there was still no call from chan about picking you up, so you figured you’d wait for him at the sidewalk benches for when he did pull up. 

so you waited, and waited, constantly checking your phone for the time and shivering from the cold. 

12:34 am your phone read, but then the drained battery sign flashed, and your phone completely went black.

“fuck!” you whisper-yelled to no one in particular. it was late, the night was cold, and now your phone was dead. 

just my fucking luck.

just as you thought things couldn’t get any worse, thunder erupted from the sky, and not long after did pelting raindrops follow. 

“are you fucking kidding me right now?!” 

there was no shelter shielding you from the incessant rain, so you sucked in a breath and ignored the tears welling up in your eyes and began sprinting home in the cold, harsh rain. 

the reality that chan forgot about you hit colder and harsher than winter rain. 

after 15 minutes of running in the unforgiving rain, you finally made it home. albeit drenched, freezing and broken hearted, you were home. and you were alone. again.

something about how dark it was in the apartment, and how the thunder rumbled and the rain pelting against the windows made you feel even lonelier, and you didn’t think that was possible.

you were tired- no, exhausted, by everything; college, your job, these fucking feelings, and tonight just amplified the pain in your chest even more. so you shut the door and slowly slid down to the floor, not caring about the fact that your clothes were drenching the cold floor beneath you, or that it was pitch black everywhere. you didn’t have time to care about those things. 

as hard as you fought the tears welling in your eyes they still over flowed and ran down your cheeks. one became two, and two became full on sobs. he forgot about me, you thought. have i always been this easily replaceable? 

it hurt- it hurt so much. but you didn’t know what to do about it. in that moment you resented him. he was supposed to be there for you like he promised all those years ago, but he wasn’t. but more than that you resented yourself more- for setting him up on that stupid date, for not realising your feelings sooner, and for having feelings for someone that didn’t reciprocate them back. 

you let yourself cry. you let yourself cry everything out, choking back each sob. you let yourself cry until you couldn’t anymore; until you exhausted all your tears. then you took in a breath.

i can’t be selfish like this, you thought to yourself. 

i’m not going to depend on him like this. his priorities have changed, and so should mine.

in a house too loud and on a chair too uncomfortable, chan grew increasingly worried about you. it was almost 1am and after multiple fruitless calls, he became frantic.

he was at a party that hana had invited him to, and the blasting music and constant “hello’s” to people he had never seen before dragged on longer than he thought. so when he checked his phone to remind him what time it was, it was already way passed the time he was supposed to pick you up.

fuck fuck fuck

without muttering a goodbye to hana, or anyone for that matter, he picked up his keys and bolted through the front door. 

the music must’ve been extremely loud, because he was met with unsuspecting rain and thunder. but he could care less about the fact that he was getting soaked on the way to his car. all he could think about was how sad and angry and hurt you must be for being left alone in the cold and rain.

god, please tell me she didn’t have to walk home in this weather.

he drove as fast as his second-hand toyota corolla allowed him to, speeding through the highways and possibly running more than one red light.

he didn’t care that it was dangerous, or that he would get a ticket in the morning. what he cared about was you.

the drive felt so agonizingly long, even if it was just 20 minutes. but 20 minutes felt like forever when he was stuck worrying about you

there was no one he hated more than himself at that moment. he felt so cruel. what asshole forgets about their bestfriend like that?

he felt so sorry, so utterly disappointed in himself and his heart broke with each passing second. he was so angry at himself and so overwhelmed that he felt tears stinging his eyes. but how could he cry? you were the one left alone on a night like this, not him. you were the one breaking, not him.

the moment he reached the apartment, he slammed his car door and dashed up the stairs and into the elevator. he fumbled for his keys, breath heavy and panting, heart pounding against his ribcage. when he finally did open the door, he immediately spotted you.

you were sitting at the dining table, studying the night away as you usually do.

but he couldn’t help but notice the way your shoulders drooped, cover by a blanket even though the heater was on, or that you nose and cheeks were red and that you were constantly sniffing, or that your hands shook every time you took a pause between writing. 

seeing you like that only increased the hurt he felt for you. but what ached the most, though, was the fact that you didn’t even look at him when he entered the room. 

he wore an expression of hurt- one that you didn’t see as you were too busy fighting yourself to focus on the essay plan you were doing- and let out a staggered breath.

“y-y/n? i-i’m really sorry. i-i was at a party and i-i got carried away and i didn’t realise how late it was- fuck i’m so sorry. there’s no excuse for it. are you okay?” by the time he finished he was kneeling next to you with one hand on your knee and one on your shoulder, trying to get you to look at him, but you just continued to focus on words that began to make no sense to you.

“please just talk to me. did you have to go home in this weather? was it raining while you got home? i know the buses don’t operate at this hour, b-but please tell me you took a taxi.” he knew the answer even though you didn’t say it, but he continued to ramble. the trembling in his voice broke your heart, and if it weren’t for the fact that you exhausted all your tears earlier, some would have been slipping by now. 

you were still hurt, and you didn’t have anything to say to him; you couldn’t tell him that your phone had died; that yes, you did have to walk in this terrible horrible weather and that no, you were not okay, because all the words were stuck in your throat. so you coldly shrugged your shoulder to get his hand off of it. 

it broke him. 

“please just look at me. i know you’re upset, but just- please.” you didn’t budge. 

“y/n.” he said your name a lot firmer this time but there was no hiding the sorry in his voice. so you looked at him.

it devastated him to see your bloodshot eyes and tear stained cheeks. it devastated him to see you force a thin, straight smile that tried to hide the quiver of your lips. but what absolutely killed him was seeing the way your eyes trembled when they looked at him. 

without a second thought he wrapped his arms around your small frame and pulled you up, burying his face into your neck and whispering i’m sorry and please forgive me over and over again. 

you closed your eyes. it had been so long since you last hugged him. so long since you last smelt his perfume like this. so long since he held you in his tight embrace. you missed it. you missed him. a lot.

you weakly wrapped your arms around his middle, sighing. feeling him hold you broke away all your resolve and your heart was quick to forgive him, even though you didn’t want to. but your heart was fickle when it came to him.

always has been.

“i’m okay, channie. it’s okay,” hearing you say his name softly like that made him release a breath he didn’t know he was holding. 

“i forgive you.” he closed his eyes.

i really don’t deserve you.

well that took a lot out of me goddamn. plz like and reblog and stay tuned for the next update ☆(❁‿❁)☆

[ladydreemurr]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; MUN & MUSE - MEME.

FILL OUT & REPOST ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm. TAGGED BY: @mrfunnybone TAGGING: @sxvethequeen @a-real-chara-cter

MY MUSE IS:   CANON / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO. ( She’s good, you guys. }

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK. { Don’t Google it. }

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. { Mostly. You get the occasional guy that didn’t check her stats or forgot certain scenes, but it’s rare in my experience. }

Are they underrated?  YES / NO / IDK. { Guys, she’s very good. }

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO { I think so, anyway! She’s the one that rescues you in the Ruins and she’s significant in many endings, among other things. }

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG. { She is your mom and she will be your mom and you are gonna like it. }

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO. { Queen of the monsters! }

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. { She’s got a lot of good will as a fair and kind ruler, but she also ditched her job at the worst time. Aaand a rebellion starts to straight up yeet her off the throne in one ending. So...  depends? }

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?  — As far as writing Toriel’s character, I follow canon as closely as possible, adding things of my own when there are gaps or room for creative license ---which Undertale has a lot of. As a general rule, I'm pretty conservative about breaking from canon without “good” reasons, but I’m not bound by it, either!

SELL YOUR MUSE! AKA TRY TO LIST EVERYTHING, WHICH MAKES YOUR MUSE INTERESTING IN YOUR OPINION TO MAKE THEM SPICY FOR YOUR MUTUALS.  —  So I’m just gonna take this opportunity to wax about why I love this lady:

Toriel is the result of a long and interesting life. She’s a runaway monarch with centuries of red letter events, memories and hard decisions behind her, many of which were extremely painful for her and others. She’s suffered loss and made it worse by choosing to cope with them alone. She’s been and can still be harsh and judgmental. And yet, and yet, and yet when you first meet her, you might never guess any of that; she’s overwhelmingly a loving, passionate and downright silly woman who extends her generosity to everyone around her. She still wants to be a teacher. She still wants a family. However imperfectly she may express it, nothing she’s been through has smothered that.

Not only does her natural humor and genuine warmth make her easy to like and trust for most people, but she’s usually quick to become invested in others; she cares what they think, how they feel, and who they are. Above all, she wants to help  — and absolutely believes she can do that — whether people want her to or not. She knows what’s best, after all.

Toriel is good you guys she’s very good---

NOW THE OPPOSITE, LIST EVERYTHING WHY YOUR MUSE COULD NOT BE SO INTERESTING (EVEN IF YOU MAY NOT AGREE, WHAT DOES THE FANDOM PERHAPS THINK?).  — Weeell, as far as canon goes, Toriel is only really an active agent in the beginning and the end; you don’t see her for a while between those story beats and that means she only really gets those moments to do anything interesting.  Toriel is also less overtly “spicy” or “quirky” than some of her fellow cast members, too, so she might be outshone by them as far as raw personality goes.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?  —  I was between fandoms and fresh off my first Undertale playthrough when I stumbled upon the RPC community. I’d been considering joining with a Toriel blog already, but what pushed me over the edge was a Sans writer and a Papyrus writer that I loved the stories of. Their work finally got me excited enough to throw my hat in. Even though they’re long gone, I’m still excited to see what sort of stuff I can contribute to!

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING?  —  Whenever I see people writing together, it inspires me. Whenever I get myself on a long ramble about characters, it inspires me. Poetry inspires me. Spite inspires me. Just immersing myself in the world and act of creating stuff for the sake of it inspires me, basically!

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES...? / NO / { I don’t feel like I’ve done a whole lot with Toriel yet, but I’m feeling good about what I’ve managed so far. }

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO / SORT OF? { I definitely come up with stuff, but I’m still a little timid about sharing my ideas. I’m workin’ on it! }

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / SORT OF?  {I have off days, but I think I’m good at her! }

Are you confident in your writing?  YES ? / NO. { I’m a recovering perfectionist, which is what slows me down more than anything else. Accepting and internalizing that RPing is innately messier than solo writing takes work! }

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. / SORTA. { I guess that depends on what this refers to! Emotional stuff gets to me pretty easy (I’m a sap) and I hate seeing people being awful to each other, but as far as, say, being insulted and such, I usually don’t take what people say about me online to heart too easily. }

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?  —  Yes! We’ve all got blind spots and weaknesses somewhere; if you guys see one I don’t, I’d love to hear it.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?  — Totally. It’s my jam.

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?  —  I’m usually curious, but I don’t expect people to explain themselves to me or anything. I’m just really interested in the different ways the same character can be interpreted; it’s really fascinating!

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT?  — Just fine! Honestly, I think it’s a good thing that we often don’t have the same vision for a given character. I’ve disagreed with how other people write Toriel, too!

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?  —  Again, just fine! It’s a normal part of engaging with media as long as there isn’t any toxic behavior attached.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS?  — Yes. Guys, if you see me do things like- — and this is totally, 100% hypothetical and definitely not a thing I did— accidentally write two instances of “only” where there should very obviously be one, go right ahead and point it out to me. And ya know? I’m surprised no one’s pointed out problems with my em-dash abuse yet. Heh.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?   — Generally yes, though I’m trying to be more easygoing. I’d like to be more proactive in talking to people and not worry so much about whether people will dig the things I post. But, uh, you know; recovering perfectionist!

[franeridart]

Oh man, I'm just imagining that there's so many close brushes with kiribaku almost realizing or almost being in positions to find out that the other is a vigilante-- an injury and no way to get into contact with Jack or Mina-- a rainstorm washing Kiri's dye away on the job. I think it'd be especially funny if he thought for a minute that Kiri was bleeding but then Kiri is like "UH GOTTA GO ITS NOT BLOOD" and he realizes it's red hair dye

Oh Kirishima sort of already suspects it’s Bakugou - more or less? He’s in the process of starting to suspect it, at least lol for being someone who really doesn’t want to be found out Bakugou’s more carefree in his disguise than Kirishima is (his hair is a pretty obvious giveaway, for example, thought Bakugou relies a lot on the ‘attacking and running’ strategy, so in his mind all he gotta do is just not be seen by anyone at all lol) compared to Kiri he gets bruised and beaten up way more too (Kiri’s hardening makes it easy for him to avoid that in general) - Kiri’s noticing Bakugou’s bruises and his vigilante friend’s bruises match up a whole damn lot, so he’s starting to figure that one out

Bakugou’s a dumbass tho (read: he doesn’t really look at people he isn’t particularly interested in) so for him it’s gonna take a while haha

Anon said: If in vigilantes au Bakugou and jirou are just friends why do they live together and hug like a couple?

They’re best friends, and sometimes when your best friend is going through a real rough heartbreak and he’s in literal tears over it, you might be nice enough to offer your back for him to hide his face in and let him pretend he isn’t currently breaking down on you. Sometimes, you like a person in a platonic way enough to emotionally support them as best as you can when they’re at their lowest. It. Sort of happens between best friends, now and again. You don’t really need to want in someone’s pants to care about them.

They live together cause they started working together as vigilantes when they were in high school, and once they moved up to college they found it a good idea to have someone back home who knew about what they were doing to treat eventual wounds, since they can’t go to the hospital! Also the rent is cheaper this way

Anon said:Can you draw more comics of childhood kiribaku? You’re art is sooo cute 💓

It’s something I’ve regularly kept on going back on for years by now, so sure, it’ll probably happen! And thank you!

Anon said:OH MY GOD. Please tell me you will make an official webcomic of your Vigilante AU. It’s so beautiful, cute and I definitely need more of this. It’s like a drug that I did not know I needed until I read your concept(????). BTW, your art is soooo pretty. Thank you so much for drawing KiriBaku ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Ahhh I’m really happy to hear you like it! For personal reasons I’ve decided that making a cohesive, coherent succession of comics isn’t something I want to do, but I think I’ll draw more of that AU soon enough, snapshots and things like that! I hope that’s good enogh for you~

Anon said:May I request a pissed kiri??

Didn’t I draw that less than 10 posts ago

Anon said:Hey, I rlly admire you! I wish we were friends, you seem rlly nice!!

Thank you!!! The few close friends I have might tell you I’m actually not that great at the whole friends thing, but I appreciate the feeling a lot! :D

Anon said:Were Kirishima’s eyes red in the last panel of the last comic??

Yep :( he really does like Bakugou, after all

Anon said:I saw you answering the other anon and if I may ask, why posting the gem au was a big mistake? Were pol rude with you? If it’s so, I’m sorry abt it

Anon said:You said that posting your SU AU stuff was the biggest mistake you ever made… is it because of something that we, as viewers and worshippers of your KiriBaku (damn, I’ll never stop telling you it’s cute and adorable and it hurts but it’s also sweet), can help NOT doing? Or is there anything we can do?

It’s okay, it just got in the hands of people who don’t particularly like Bakugou, and these people started talking about the AU in less than nice terms, which was honestly pretty ridiculous and made me wonder how people can survive being alive on this earth when they consider Steven Universe sensitive material but either way it brought around in my activities a bunch of people I would have preferred not to interact with ever, and that sort of took the fun out of the AU? Now every time I think about drawing for it those people come back up in my head and I get annoyed all over again, it’s no fun

Anon said:are you still doing the fusion au? id love to see kaminari and shinsou

I’m not, sorry! Though someone did ask about baku and mineta and I’ve been thinking about drawing that horrible monster since then, and I’ve also been wanting to redesign the krbk fusion, so maybe I might get back to it ??? I’ll add shin*kami to the list haha

Anon said:I really like the relationship Jack and Bakugou have, and the angst is nice too! I really like the vigilatne AU! I hope we can see more of it, only if you feel like it of course!

Thank you so much ;;;

Anon said:Silly question. If Kirishima activated his quirk being in water. Would he float like wood, or he’d drown like a rock? >//w//

Oh, I’m pretty sure he’d go down since his quirk makes him into a rock haha

Anon said:I think this is around the eighth anonymous ask I send you, but being a porn-making Tumblr user, it’s better if I don’t go public. I just wanted to say, once again, that I love your KiriBaku, it makes me both ache and feel so warm and fuzzy inside; but right now, the focus is that Bakugou’s crying face against Jack’s back is just so good, expressive and painful. I often hate his guts, but yours I can never hate. And the sheer intensity of that expression, and the environment too… so many feels

Aw, thank you!!! I’m glad I can make you enjoy my fav character, anon :D !!

Anon said:I have a question about the vigilante AU. What’s the relationship between jirou and bakugou? Because they don’t look like just friends

Why don’t they look like just friends tho

Anon said:Hypothetically. How would Bakugou react (or what would he do) if Kirishima stopped showing interest in him?

Are we talking about a specific AU or is this meant for the canon universe? Well, either way I’d say he’d be pretty hurt, but it’s not like he can force Kirishima to like him can he. Ah, in the vigilantes AU he’d probably think it’s for the best even if he’d hurt a lot over it, but in canon and most other AUs I like to think he’d try to fix it somehow? Unless he has other reasons to not act on his feelings for Kirishima… gosh this is a vague question, there are so many possibilities really!

Anon said:🧡Hi Fran! I’m pretty sure you’re the one who introduced this concept to me so I wanted to say thanks! Touch starved Bakugou and super cuddly Bakugou are totally my fave, especially when you have him all curled up with Jirou! Having them be Mina and Kiri level besties makes so much sense and I love you for introducing that thought to me!!!🧡

I’m!!!!!!!!!!! so happy to hear that!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;O;

Anon said:in your vigilante au, Kiri has a scar, does Bakugo ever notice the scar?(curious if it reminds him of Red or nah, love yur art btw~~

When he’s not doing vigilantes work it’s actually hidden by the hair, so Bakugou never noticed! But if he were to notice he’d probably mark it down as a Kiri thing and leave it at that, as I said he’s not the most observant when he’s not particularly interested in someone so he hasn’t really registered it on Red’s face anyway haha

Anon said:I RLLY LOVE YOUR AU!! I haven’t found an AU in this fandom I’m rlly into but THIS IS SOCUTE??? will there be more?

Heck I sure hope so!! Thank you for liking it!!!

Anon said:hey for the anon you were looking for an outrageous ship to draw to test out their theory, try Tokoyami and Link (legend of Zelda link) cuz I just saw cosplayers of them hardcore dancing at dragoncon and I die every time I think about it. You can find a video of it on quirk-registration-office​  

…………………..I’m probably never gonna draw that ngl LMAO BUT this ask made me wanna draw Tokoyami as a Rito so I guess that’s ???? something that might happen instead heck that’s a good concept I should have thought about earlier

Anon said:I absolutely love your art its soon amazing and I really like the vigilantly au but take care of yourself okay

I dunno what I did to make you worry about me but thank you so much for it? I’ll try my best !!!! And thank you for liking my doodles too!!! ;^;

Anon said:Do you know about any fanfics based in your art?? (Idk if that’s grammatically correct sorry 😅)

Hmmmmmmmmmm there are a few but the only one that comes to mind right now is such a funny pair !!! boy ellen’s fics are always so damn amazing, I still can’t believe she wrote for me ;^;

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For the ABC OC Ask, randomly selected: C # 1-5, D # 1-5, F # 1-5, G # 1-5, I # 1-5, M # 1-5. It's a lot of questions, take your time & feel free to answer as few or as many as you want. :)

Ooh, no worries, I looooove lots of questions. Also sorry, wasn’t ignoring this. I’m a scatter brain with no sense of time management. Since a lot of these are repeated I’ll skip over them since they’ll be in the previous post. Also I’ll give the answer to whichever OC I think best fits the question.

C: Comfort1. how do they sit in a chair?Angelus sits horribly in any chair especially if he finds it uncomfortable since he’ll be twisting and turning every which way until he finds a comfortable enough position.

3. what is their ideal comfort day?For Jelani it’s a quiet day where his phone doesn’t ring and he can get up at whatever hour he wants though even if he tried he can’t really sleep past 8:30 and he can spend the rest of the day in the art room reading while his husband is drawing.

4. what is their major comfort food? why?For Angelus it’s totally steamed dumplings. Just had one shitty day once and was taken out to eat but he wasn’t feeling up to eating much but nibbled on a few and loved them instantly so from that moment on every time he sees steamed dumplings it’s like instant serotonin.

5. who is the best at comforting them when down?Abigail? LokeLoke? JelaniJelani? LokeAngelus? GingerGinger? AngelusTrevor? LokeTre? TrevorLatoya? Abigail

D: Decoration2. how would they decorate their child’s room?So Fae is actually a graphic designer and in her spare time an interior designer so when she head her first baby, Leah, she went overboard with the latest trends but made it cute and neutral since she wanted it to be a surprise. Now with the triplets she wanted to know their gender for sure given the fact that she was dealing with triplets. Again went with the latest trends turned cute but she stuck to neutral designs anyway.

3. how do they decorate their own room?Ginger and Abigail have a bit of a gothic theme to their whole apartment but their room is especially heavily themed. The rest of the place is subtle but not their room. We’re talking Victorian goth, black silk sheets, dim lighting, dark reds and deep purples and lots of black.

4. what type of clothes and accessories do they wear?Okay so for a while now I’ve been sketching and writing Angelus as a cross dresser and idk I think it fits him well plus he’s super into cute things. Any kind of skirts though he heavily prefers short and really short skirts, especially loves heeled boots, thigh high socks, baggy sweaters or any cute tops really. He mostly sticks to soft and pastel colors. Men’s clothes he’ll go with darker colors.

Accessories? He’s really into bows, flowers and really subtle bracelets, necklaces and earrings. No, he isn’t trans, he’s very cis. He just likes to cross dress and no, he isn’t doing it as a way to mock trans people he just really likes how he looks and feels while wearing women’s and girl’s clothes.5. do they like makeup/nail/beauty trends?Going with Angelus again, yeah he loves that stuff especially makeup. He’s gathered a pretty big collection of it over time gotten dozens of nail polish of all kinds of colors, and has a ton of makeup. He’d wear acrylic nails but 1) he’s super clumsy and 2) I’m not so sure it’s a good idea for a werewolf to do that.

F: Fun1. what do they do for fun?Most of them just really enjoy getting together, ordering a few large pizzas or just buying a bunch of tacos and bring a bunch of beer and soda and spend a few hours playing video games. Bringing their own consoles to have more people playing and if they feel silly enough probably stream it for friends who couldn’t come over to watch. If they don’t feel like going to one apartment they stay in their own and meet up online on whatever game they wanna play at the moment.3. who would they have the most fun with?Honestly a lot of them have known each other for literal centuries and have grown close and sometimes intimate so really they all just have a lot of fun together.4. can they have fun while conforming to rules?They can but Loke and Jelani are constantly holding the group back from making any idiot mistakes. Unless it’s to defend one of them they’re pretty chill when out.5. do they go out a lot?Not that often really. With the job sometimes they’re out for weeks and even months and when they finally have some down time they’re too tired to do much of anything else. They do go out though but just not when they’re on call.

G: Gorgeous1. what is their most attractive external feature?Jelani? Everything!2. what is the most attractive part of their personality?Abigail’s ability to always be encouraging and her bubbly personality just triples that.3. what benefits come with being their friend?Jelani: spoils friends and family every chance he gets, is always just one text or call away no matter if it’s an emergency or for fun, and is faithful to the end. 5. what parts of others do they envy?So out of all Angelus has the lowest self-esteem and he just thinks the worst of himself. He wishes he was as good a person as Loke is or as talented as Ginger or as confident as Jelani. Not just personality wise, he genuinely believes he’s some ugly monster that needs to be hidden (was raised to believe that and unfortunately stuck). He just wishes he wasn’t him on bad days but he’s been working on all of that and has done really well to the point where he doesn’t feel that way about himself all the time.

I: In-the-closet1. what is their sexuality?Angelus: gayJelani: pansexualAbigail: lesbianLoke: bisexual (demisexual)Latoya: pansexualTrevor: pansexual (aromentic)Ginger: bisexualAlly: ace/aroSanaa: queerIngvarr: bisexualJørgen: queerMason: gayTre: straightLeah: bisexualAnette: lesbian2. have they ever questioned their sexuality?Well, shit a bunch of them have at one point or another. Some took a little to settle their feelings while some took long years to realize certain things about themselves.3. have they ever questioned their gender?Asher did for long years though he wasn’t sure of what was actually happening and why he was so confused over a lot of things. Wasn’t until much later that he finally figured himself out.4. would/was their family be okay with them being LGBT?Angelus’s abusers, if they ever found out, would just use it as another reason to hate him even more though I won’t really touch up on that. They’re just incredibly hateful and abusive people.

M: Maternal1. would they want a daughter or a son?Loke wouldn’t care especially considering that they may end up being trans. He just wants one or two at the most.2. how many children do they want?Angelus wants none. He doesn’t hate kids or anything like that, he’s pretty good with them, really soft spoken and patient with kids. When Jela babysits his cousins he goes with him and helps out especially since it’s a teenager and three 7 year-olds. He’s just scared to death that he’ll end up abandoning them like his parents abandoned him (when I mean I abandoned I mean sold him) or worse that he’ll be like his abusers and he wouldn’t want any child to go through what he went through. Luckily his husband doesn’t want kids either.

As for Jax they’re Angelus and Jelani’s hypothetical child. Just something I wanted to have fun with. A Maker and a werewolf end up making a demigod hellhound btw!. Would this change in the future? Hell if I know, man. Maybe, maybe not.4. what would they name a son? what would they name a daughter?Trevor eventually ends up becoming a single father, accidentally but nonetheless he was super happy about it and will be a pretty great dad. He ends up having a son which he named Damien and had it been a girl he woulda named her Rosemary. If it wasn’t obvious Trevor is a huge horror nerd.5. would they adopt?Ginger and Abigail have talked about it a lot and since neither can have a kid (vampires in my setting can’t procreate, they’re very undead) they’ve decided to adopt but not yet. Not till they feel like they can be fully prepared.

[andrewuttaro]

New Look Sabres: 2019 Offseason Retrospective

Some offseasons are over in a hurry. All the action is done by Independence Day and Hockey goes into hibernation for two months. Then there are offseasons like this one: hurry up and wait because something else is about to happen. That said Jeff Skinner is our Stanley Cup. In the Season Retrospective back in April I said the Buffalo Sabres’ Stanley Cup for the 2019 Offseason would be resigning Jeff Skinner. The team didn’t qualify for the playoffs so what’s the next most important thing for the team? Jeff Skinner. If you said anything other than Jeff Skinner you either thought the Sabres were going to trade up in the draft or you think Jack Eichel is a bum… or both. Either way I think you’re fooling yourself. Jeff Skinner proved to be the ideal left wing for Jack Eichel, even after the wheels flew off in the second half. Lose a guy like him and you’re in the same spot we’d been in for three years prior putting Eichel with left wingers like… Zemgus Girgensons? Yikes. Looking back at last year’s Offseason retrospective its kinda funny that I was so pumped for Conor Sheary. The guy does an important job but he’s really just a middle six wing. That left side was so barren for years that it seemed impossible we’d ever get a guy capable of skating wing with Jack Eichel. The crazy thing about the offseason the Sabres have had is that now they have… dare I say it: a very good top six! Don’t worry, we have all of Training Camp to debate roster deployment and we certainly will! The next great offseason accomplishment, our secondary Stanley Cup, is ROYAL FUCKING BLUE! On August 15th, 2019 shortly after 3 in the afternoon years of waiting came to an end. One little tweet ended years- YEARS of our bitching and moaning for the best incarnation of the Sabres look. Honestly it overshadowed the reveal of the 50th Anniversary third jerseys the following day for me. Coupled with an implied return to the original Sabres logo without the silly silver lining all over it, it’s not exaggeration, and certainly not out of place on this blog, to say Buffalo now once again hosts one of the best logo/color combinations in sports. Either way, those were the two big defibrillators taken to the chest of an exhausted Sabres fanbase this offseason.

The hurry up and wait of this offseason was Rasmus Ristolainen. That trade seemed inevitable and then it wasn’t for most of the summer. Then Chad DeDomincis spoke about his secret sources and put the likelihood of a trade at 70%. Just as we had feared the move was held up by a string of dominos that can best be described as cowardly General Managers waiting for the market to be set on restricted free agents. As of the posting of this article there is no resolution of the Ristolainen situation making any in-out section somewhat hard to do. I still believe the trade will happen before opening night, but we’ll just have to wait and see. For me its not worth getting wound up about what he said in a Finnish newspaper. It’s been clear he’s not been entirely happy here for months if not years. Does it hurt the potential trade? Idk, does it hurt more than his shitty advanced stats already do? This is already more time than its worth spending on a hypothetical trade. The moment that trade happens there will be a heartfelt goodbye from me, Risto is a guy I loved a lot. Let’s talk about the moves that did happen! Going out is Matt Tennyson, Sean Malone, Danny O’Regan, Matt Moulson (finally officially gone), Scott Wedgewood, Jason Pominville and Alex Nylander. The out list could be longer than that, but I tried to keep it to folks who were or could’ve been NHL players. That list is very scant on big names but more importantly its shorter than the coming-in list (particularly on defense): Henri Jokiharju, Marcus Johansson, Curtis Lazar, Andrew Hammond, Jimmy Vesey, Colin Miller, Arttu Ruotsalainen and… I know it was technically a resigning but Jeff Skinner because we resigned Jeff Skinner!!! Before Matt Hunwick’s neck injury unfortunately sent him to Robidas Island (LTIR for all of this upcoming season) there was not only a surplus of defenseman on the right side but there was so many that the team was going to be over the salary cap. This was what made us all think a Ristolainen trade is inevitable... and now September is knocking on our door. Once again, talking about the outs and ins of the Sabres offseason is kinda hard with this big, pending, hypothetical trade hanging over our heads. Nonetheless, plenty did happen.

As always take my enthusiasm with a grain of salt. Last offseason retrospective I was amped for Patrik Berglund and that ended in a way no one could’ve predicted. Nonetheless, I am pretty excited for Colin Miller and Marcus Johansson. Miller will be an excellent top 4 d-man once he filters into that role and Johansson is the kind of role player at left wing this team needs more of. Side note: I’m just really happy we’ve got a GM who knows how to take advantage of cap strapped teams like we saw in the Miller move. If “Trader Tim” was dumb enough to waste a draft pick on negotiating rights for Vesey three years ago, “Poppin Botts” is smart enough to poach playoff performers. Speaking of three years ago Jimmy Vesey probably doesn’t need to be in the top six, but his acquisition is low-key brilliant and if you ask me he’ll look like a steal by November. When it comes to the forwards I know we could still use a right wing, but I don’t think there are many offensively bad incarnations of this top six anymore. Pending that hypothetical Risto trade, the closest thing to a blockbuster this offseason was Alex Nylander for Henri Jokiharju. It was a one-for-one trade and pretty immediately called as a win for the Sabres; as fans we thought Nylander would go as part of a package but there it is! The steal of the summer! For one, whatever switch was flipped in Nylander’s motivational subconscious toward the end of last year’s training camp was fleeting. I’m not suggesting anything dubious but LMFAO had a longer run of quality play than Nylander. I apologized for calling him the lesser Nylander brother last year though that is plainly correct. I think the words of a Chicago blog really have the best words to form my new, final burn of the 2016 first rounder: piss-poor motivation. We may never know what he could’ve been had he given a shit, Chicago isn’t exactly where you go for quality development these days, but the return for him was way more than we could’ve hoped. While I normally struggle to wrap my head around prospect trades this one was a quick learn. Henri Jokiharju is the kind of young defenseman you can’t really put a ceiling on. He could’ve been a regular on Chicago’s blueline had Joel Quenneville not lost his job there. Keeping guys like Marco Scandella and Rasmus Ristolainen around decreases the likelihood Jokiharju starts in Buffalo but he deserves the spot whether he gets it or not. Lawrence Pilut and Zach Bogosian starting the season injured throws some more wrinkles in that story, but we’ll just have to wait and see.

Before we wrap up I want to reiterate how hawkish I am on Linus Ullmark. Both him and Carter Hutton fell off a cliff in December and never recovered last season. Those two guys are the main reasons we got a ten-game winning streak. I am crazy enough to say they’re good play early in the season was not a fluke and Ullmark specifically I think will make a compelling case for the starter role. Next up in the world of New Look Sabres is a blog on the Prospect Tournament next weekend. I’ll be in Delaware that weekend but nonetheless you’ll get a post on that as the final appetizer before Training Camp starts and we’re really off to the races! Like, share and comment. New Look Sabres is now a part of my broader Uttaro Sports Plus blog so there’s other stuff to enjoy while you wait for more Sabres content. We don’t have to wait much longer. Football season is here and I’m back in graduate classes so it can’t be too much longer! Enjoy your Labor Day weekend!

Thanks for reading.

P.S. I wrote a full-fledged Farewell Jeff Skinner piece that was never published because we were blessed enough to keep him. If there is enough interest I can post it or parts of it. Let me know what you think.

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feeling blah? check your space. (long step-by-step)

my husband, who is probably the smartest and most spiritually awesome person i’ve ever known, has been trying to instill this kind of mental acuteness within me for years. sometimes i remember it, sometimes i forget. sometimes i remember it but it’s a high pain day. y’know how it is.

this is a little things kind of thing at first. a lot of my time is spent in front of my computer and a lot of it is spent on the sofa or in bed. but wherever i am, i try to keep my surrounding area clean.

why? well let me explain, both in a spiritual way, and for practical reasons.

in a small space, like my desk and on my side table of my bed, it’s imperative to feel open and spacious. if my side table or desk gets cluttered, i feel claustrophobic, or overwhelmed by Stuff. even if it’s things that are there to give me positive thoughts. If there are too many, it’s time to declutter.

a lot of people (anxiety sufferers, a-spec folks, adhd people) have this thing that makes them block out things that stick around for a while. things that stay in a static place for too long become background noise, but they give a feeling of clutter. it also sucks when you’re looking around you and you’re hit with a wave of knowing it’s there to make you feel better, but you’ve gotten mentally weary of that exact thing that’s been there for a long time.

So, go over this checklist with me.

 Things up on the wall near you. How long has it been there? Is it helping? Is it mental/visual clutter? If it’s not stimulating it you how it should, it’s time to take it down.

Your horizontal space beside you. Does it have a bunch of unnecessary clutter? Are there things in that space that don’t have any important or special reason for being there? If you can, remove all the clutter, and re-arrange the important things to suit your space better. Don’t move things you have a reflex of it being there. (Y’know. tissue boxes, meds, your tablet pen, etc) 

Your outer bubble. Are there things in your immediate area beyond where you’re sitting which is distracting you or making you feel nervous, claustrophobic, or overwhelmed? Do your best to find a solution to this problem. Clean up, brighten the area, and put something there that helps you relax. 

Another big help is getting your whole area clean. Don’t push yourself to do everything at once. Take your time to do a little here and there, don’t rush yourself or stress yourself out about it. This is an in-depth reason for keeping things clean, how to feel super accomplished even in the littlest tasks, and respecting your own area. Here’s YA BIG ASS LIST.

Your bedroom: Clothes. are there dirty clothes around you, or clean clothes that haven’t been put away? Do yourself a favor and unclutter this first. Take all the dirty clothes you’ve been tripping over and sort them into light and dark piles. Put those light and dark piles. now you can start putting your clothes away. how i do this is i sort my clean clothes by what they are and which drawer they go. then i fold them and put them away. it gives me a chance to stretch and pop my back between the steps. And that’s like, six whole steps. now you’ve got two clean baskets (presumably) that you can use to put your dark and lights into for easier laundry. This is usually the worst and most draining job of the bedroom. break it into easy to do steps. drink some water while you’re doing it, just to make sure your joints aren’t getting tired while sorting and folding and putting away! Dishes. Are there any dishes in your room? Even if they’re stinky and weird, bring them into your kitchen. Get a clean glass for your water. Hey! that only took a few minutes, I’m sure. Give yourself a rest. A+ cleaning, and I’m not being condescending. That’s a great job! Garbage. I’m sure you’ve got some papers or snack wrappers, or drink cans/bottles/disposable cups. go from the door of your room with a plastic bag, gather stuff up as you pass by it. bring that out of your room, and suddenly you don’t feel like you live in a landfill. Bedding. How long have you been sleeping in between the same top cover and sheet? When’s the last time you changed out your pillowcase? It’s time for a change. remove them, throw them in a pile, and put some clean ones on. If you don’t have other ones, wash those and once they’re dry, put them back on. You’ll feel cleaner and get to sleep better. Clutter. Hell, this is me all over. I’ve got too much cool stuff and paperwork cluttering my shelves. I follow the six month rule with paperwork, clothes, and useful stuff that barely gets use. Are you going to need it or use it within six months? If no, get rid of it or pack it away. Bring the clothes to your local thrift store if you can. If you’ve got decorations that have gotten dusty or grimy, take one of your bored days to clean them up. not only will you be doing something that makes you happy, but it’ll make your room far less apt to accrue negative energy. Your knickknacks bring you joy. Treat them respectfully! Floor: Vacuum. get the dust, dead skin, and whatever else up out of there. Side note: If you are having bad dreams, there’s a few neato things you can do to help you sleep. Some people swear by amethyst under your pillow. Some others suggest other stones. idk about y’all but stones under my pillow are somehow worse than troubles with dreams or sleep. I prefer sachets for in your pillowcase. even if you aren’t the best at sewing, you can do this. Just get a tiny white fabric baggie. whatever works for you. Just make sure it’s secure, so the herbs don’t get loose and make your bed an itchfest. lavender is the primary scent people go with, though I’m not the biggest on that scent. anise is another one that works, because this is silly but true: it’s shaped like a star. cedar, since the middle ages, has been thought to cure persistent nightmares, and open you to lucid dreaming. jasmine is such an awesome flower and scent, so mellow and enchanting. i’d suggest this because of its calming and kind vibe. find dried jasmine and add it to the bag. there’s a ridiculous many herbs worth exploring here. If you want to get spicy with it, I suggest adding a sigil or even an amulet of the one you want to look over you in your sleep. I use an amulet of the archangel Gabriel, who presides over dreams and sleep.

Your Bathroom: Your area rugs. These little buggers need to be washed. They’re usually made of fabric. Fabric that hangs out in your dampest room, no less. You probably don’t think of it often, but mildew is not a good thing for your health, and those things get mildew like crazy. Time for the washer and dryer again! Your towels and washcloths. How long has that washcloth been chilling there? Okay, if it dries and becomes a stiff nasty mess? Time to switch them out. Towels (especially hand towels) need to be washed frequently, too. Not only because the mildew thing is still y’know. a thing. but you deserve to be cleaned by clean things. it’s better for your body, and it’s so good for your spirit, to know that you’re doing right by yourself. Your place you keep things. You know, that place you keep your products, makeup, whatever. Is it in disarray on a messy shelf or counter? Time to fix that up! Set all those things aside, clean the surface they’ve been chilling on. Then you can get things sorted and aligned. Did you know straight lines are satisfying? Try it. Also if you have a candle in there, just light it for a little bit. Not only is it trés romantic and luxurious, but it burns the stank out of there, not just physically, but otherwise, as well.  Your toilet. Not only the bowl. The bottomside of the seat, and the hinges that attach the seat and lid. and back behind those hinges, where the shitter meets the tank. Goodbye stink goblins! Also bye that general gross feeling.  Your tub. You dissociate there a lot, think your thoughts, and get clean, but that means your dead skin, hair, and oils are all over that. I personally use either orange cleaning solution or magic erasers, and those fucking rock that shit out. Oh, don’t forget to de-hair your drain. Gross nasty gluck. Personally, my mom told me to stop associating those oils, hair, and all that other stuff with yourself. (and nail clippings.) This makes sure you don’t wind up getting hexed. (Those nail clippings and that nasty hair can VERY easily be used in a hex bag.)  Your sink and mirror. First off, how the hell are you going to take bathroom selfies if this makes you always internally go “yikes”, and not at yourself. Scrub the toothpaste grit from around and in the sink. Side note: If you don’t like what you see when you look in the mirror, you can set rose incense near the mirror, use that hypothetical bathroom candle, and turn the light off. Speak into the mirror, “I am the best me so far.” or something similar. Remind yourself that you are okay, no matter what kind of imperfections you think are there. You are incredible. Nobody’s seeing your flaws because they’re too busy fretting about their own. It’s cool. you’re cool.  Floor. while those stinky area rugs are out and on their way to the large cloth water vortex, take a minute to sweep. Envision yourself sweeping away not only the garbage and grut, but the anxiety and bad feelings. Dustpan, garbage, good. Trash. I left this for last. You’ve got a lot of stuff you’ll need thrown out.  If you use a plastic shopping bag in a tiny little garbage pail like i do, it’s time to clean it out. If you’re also a nasty bitch like me, you’ve gotta also put the stuff that missed the garbage can in there too. Go take that to your main trash to go out with you next time you leave your place. Well now your bathroom is flawless and won’t make you subconsciously make you anxious. You’ve got things looking like they’re almost meant to like, exist in the fictional world Jenna Marbles apparently lives. 

Kitchen: Fridge: Clean out all the nasty shit. Wipe it down. Put the containers over near the sink to wash. Dishes. Do you have piles of these nasty bitches fucking up your day, every time you go on a raid for sustenance? First step is to gather them, then take your time for each step. Wash them. Put them away. As you do this, speak to yourself, chant to yourself, or just think to yourself, that by cleaning these, you are doing right and fair to your body. a clean dish is a healthy dish. a clean pan is a pan that will cook happy foods. This whole room is capable of so much, and can do so much for your joy and health.  Sink. After you’re done cleaning the dishes, you can unstink your sink. Again, I’m all about that orange solution, but if you like another scent that makes you feel energized, go for it. This is the part of the kitchen that shares like, a third of the work. This is where all the negative and gross goes. Down the drain both physically and emotionally. Get the fuck out of here, nasty! Counters. Just wipe them down until they’re not nasty and crumb-laden and have spatters on them. tell them that they’re going to do great things for you. If you’re a kitchen witch, you’re making all your cool shit on them. Stove/microwave/the heaty thingy. Ungrut it. our friend the stovetop is the unfortunate victim of nasty cooked on things. So is our screwy science friend, the microwave. Scrubby dubby! sometimes you’ll need to soak ‘em. Whatever makes it easier for you.  Floor. It’s time to sweep! again, take that broom and use it, not just to get rid of sugar, cereal and even the dried corns nibblets that fell under the fridge, but the negative energies. again, be firm about it. Fuck outta here, dark spookies! carefully pour the stuff in your garbage. Ya Cabinets. Before you pull out the mop and bucket, don’t forget the surfaces of the cabinets. A Happier kitchen is a kitchen that doesn’t tell you the story of the ill-begotten incident of the chicken parm. You see that squidge of marinara on the cabinet door and have been annoyed by it since it was made. Time to get it gone.  All the while, think about the things these cabinets have seen. All the weird utensils you never use that live in this drawer. The fondue machine you bought with the aspirations of having a 70s night get together, as told to you by that very convincing guy at IKEA. Think of all these cool things in your kitchen. Focus on the positive moments you’ve spent in here. Picture the future of this kitchen. And thank it for the memories to come. Floor 2: Slippery Boogaloo. Mop and bucket time!!! No seriously if you don’t like mopping, idk what to say. Do your kitchen a solid and scrub away all that nasty crap that didn’t make it into the dust pan. Once you’re done and it’s drying, feel fucking awesome about a job well done.  Side note: Hey y’know what kicks ass in a kitchen? The scent of the season. A lot of people get down with the welsh calendar, and that’s a great way of cycling through the seasons comfortably for people. then there’s the regular four seasons, but do it how you want. It’s imbolc as of the time I’m writing this. I personally love cinnamon and sandalwood, since they’re both wonderfully warm scents, to balance out the wintry shivers of the outside. You can use essence oils, or like, airwicks, or candles, or even make a wreath with those fun things in there that are aromatic on one of your walls. 

Living room Seriously, all these hot takes can be used in the living room now. Clean under and between the couch cushions. clean your decorations. declutter. Remember the good times as you clean. And then to cleanse it of all the gross energies, do what you do. Use white and sweet flower/herb scents to reset the most important room of your house’s energies.  Side note: If you want to keep your stuff from disappearing, place a pin safely deep under your couch/chair cushion. This is called pinning the devil. you’re literally pinning down whatever it is that’s keeping you from finding - or straight up disappearing - your stuff. If you have guardians - decorations of animals of some sort - make sure they have a full spy of the room. I prefer putting one on each corner of the room so everything can be seen. This makes sure the energy you want in your home is respected. If someone has bad intentions, this will give off a vibe of them being unwelcome and feel your guardians’ eyes on them. If they’re someone that you appreciate, and you feel comfortable around, these guardians will keep things nice for you and give your home a welcoming feeling. don’t forget to dust them. 

[cha-eunwoow]

lHello hello hello!!! I am taking a break from homework to work on some tags and pop then into my queue And i am going to start with this super fun kpop tag!, I was tagged by these beautiful babes @jinjinxed (Morgan) 💙💖 and @buffbin (Lara) 💙💖 and i would like to first thank these angels for the tag and recommend you all check out their blogs if you have not already now let’s get into the tag!

1) 5 favorite groups?

Astro

Seventeen

Day6

N.Flying

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

Eunwoo

Jae 

Joshua

Vernon

MJ

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

ASTROOOOOOOOO 

buuuut here is why, I have l o v e d different groups at different times, I have watched a lot of MVs, seen a lot of choreography I have seen so many concepts. I can remember when I first stumbled on Astro I was watching a lyric video and Again ‘should have held onto you’ was suggested to me on the side bar on YouTube, and I was all for giving new music ago. I licked on it and remember being hooked to the intro right off the bat, so you could say Moonbin started it, but I will cut to the chase, I like music that resonates in my heart and emotions Astro did that right off the bat, even though i wasn’t fully reading the lyrics I still felt the emotion behind the song,the first music video I saw was Hide & Seek and never has watching a MV made me smile to the point where my cheeks hurt, and I continue to smile after all day. And I know this is a super duper simple reason to why I love them but Astro makes me happy, they make me so happy. And I love how close you can see they are, how hard they work, and how they all truly have beautiful hearts, and again I know it is such a simple maybe silly reason but because they make me happy and because they make me smile, and that is something we often forget to do. So I hope we can keep smiling with our boys for a very long time

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

Let’s set Eunwoo’s looks aside entirely here, yes he is good-looking, you have to have never seen Eunwoo if you do not think he is attractive and an actual fairytale prince on this earth, but the fact he is greater than his looks and how he truly is, that is what makes him a prince. I fell for his voice the second I heard it because I basically binged Astro songs and just waited for his part, and i am so proud of how much stronger he has gotten vocally. I adore how hard working and smart he is, and despite being just such a high caliber human being already, he is still humble and wants to improve himself, he recognizes his flaws and wants to be better. And speaking of which, he always pushing and going do all of his personal actives but still keeping Astro, what can he do to help Astro, and how can he be his best for Astro and Aroha on his mind. He cares about Astro so much he cried because he was worried about holding them back, which is far from the case. I love how he got nervous and to try to help calm down, he did research on all the hosts on Hello Counselor (him on Hello Counselor was honestly so cute) and how preparing things like that eases his mind. And I could go on about his Singing, his acting, his dancing (I am so proud of him he is always getting better and better), him being multilingual, knowing how to play the piano, or how his eyes light up before he smiles and you just feel the joy from him, his laugh oh my goodness. Or how he maybe quiet at times but you can see the gears turning in his head behind his eyes as he analyzes a situation with a smile on his face.   But to tie this up I really think I love him as much as I do because I see small fragments of myself reflected in his personality and in the way he thinks, and I also cannot help but look up to him (not just because I am short either) and want to be better and aspire to have the sense of maturity that he has about so many things. I want to put my heart into things like he does, and at the end of the day I am so glad that the universe has put me into the same timeline as him, so I can watch him grow and shine. And I also hope we all can aspire to be a little more like Eunwoo at the end of the day

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

Credit to le Petit Prince 

7)  Favorite Kpop MVs

Baby

Very Nice

Crazy Sexy Cool

Clap

I’ll Wait

8) 10 Favorite Kpop songs? ( no particular order because that is ha r d )

Baby-Astro

Thanks-Seventeen

Innocent Love-Astro

Pls Don’t be sad-Highlight

Again Should Have Held On To You-Astro

Hot Potato-N.Flying

I Smile-Day6

Hola Hola- K.A.R.D.

With You-Astro 

Likey-Twice 

This was really hard omg 

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

I watch too many of them to pinpoint one but anyting with ‘X groups as vines’ are really funny 

10) Favorite content creator(s) within the fandom?

@beyourstar Jen makes the most beautiful GIFs oh my god I c r y

@sleepyastro leepyastro S K I L L S they got your cute and they got your cool art, and they do beautiful sketches of the boys 

@artist-aroha Kat’s Astro word prompt drawings are always so good oh my god 

@snibnoom Keeps us well updated on top of giving us content we may not otherwise see and then being an artist as well

@sanhatation Riley makes the most beautiful edits, honestly I am in art school and she does graphics better than some of my classmates 

go check all of these amazing blogs if you have not already

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

Astro pretty much, I like to keep this blog all Astro all the time, to the best of my ability

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

jkshjshjsdjkfseare you kidding?? fine omg 

F-Joshua 

M-Eunwoo?? 

K- Jae (I feel like we would roast each other and that just may be a result of it)

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

Amber Liu or Ailee or Jae

14) If you could date any idol, who?

If I even hypothetically could, I don’t even think I would. I don’t even think I’m compatible with anybody what the heck this is hard  I will say Eunwoo and we can see how that could fail and move on.  and when we break up he would be the one my family would keep asking about tbh

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

Dream pt. 1, Autumn Story, or Winter Dream 

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

Idk what this even means 

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Moonbin or MJ tbh 

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

If you do not thing I would fight Jae or Sanha for being tall, loud, or sassy you are wrong I love them though omg

19) Favorite vocalist?

MJ or Joshua 

20) Favorite Rapper?

Vernon or Jinwoo

21) Favorite dancer?

Moonbin or Minghao 

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

Competitive, always want’s to improve, kinda sarcastic(I’m only saying kinda because lord knows this boy can roast if he wanted to), analytical of situations, we also both like the color blue

23) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

A beautiful heart and mind

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

• Clap or Swimming Fool- Seventeen

•Be Bazy or Blood-Day6

• Baby - Astro

• play Astro if you want to see my hype 

25) Your worst wrecker?

BIN IS OUT TO DRAG ME AND THAT IS NOT OKAY

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

none so far and none anytime soon

27) Favorite choreo?

Thanks by Seventeen is honestly just so beautiful I cry watching it 

28) Favorite live performance?

this~~~~ X or X

29) Favorite debut mv?

Hide & Seek because how could you not

30) Recommend a rookie group

Dreamcatcher

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Baby~~~~~

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

@astros-turf @blueberrybins @myunghjun @moonbinandback @jinjins-freckles @jinjinwooz @jinwoowoohoo @parkminhyuk @snibnoom(as rules always go you do not have to do this tag if you do not want to and sorry if you have already been tagged for this but if you have done this tag link me to it💖💙💖)