#idk wednesday just feels right to me

[lunar-fey]

so apparently there was not a needle "shortage" but rather than manufacturer stopped making 23g solo needles ENTIRELY, went down to the pharmacy today and they were able to give me 23g needles attached to 3ml syringes. they tested at the pharmacy for me to make sure the needles were removeable so i can use them with the 1ml syringes i already have.

anyway all that is to say TESTOSTERONE IS A GO

[shannonsketches]

[hailsatanacab]

look I want to write and I know what I should write but do I want to write it? No

so I'm making a poll! you get to choose for me! please dear lord choose for me

(some links to snippets)

[keeps-ache]

gonna keep it shmoovin man

[taniushka12]

i should be put in one of those medieval things at a plaza for the public to throw rancid food at me and then for god to strike me down killing me immediately as a mercy

[whenthegoldrays]

Hmm

[widevibratobitch]

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[audiovisualrecall]

Also my dad is having surgery on his heart on Wednesday bc the radiation treatments caused his heart murmur to get worse and leaving it alone isn't an option.

[acrosstimeandspace]

trying to figure out a way to express to my family that what they’re trying to do is making me feel v uncomfortable in lots of different ways

[sollucets]

clover @bicyclepainting told me show wip and i actually! have some! so i present two wildly different things

one: ocean eyes future chapter as previously posted

and….

two, as promised, something completely different. i doubt there is crowd interest for this topic here (lol) i’m just appending it to this post to let you know that if i end up stalled on oe again its because i have unrelated brainworms that no one on this acct knows or cares abt (win between us (2022) h/c agenda)

[4-lemurs-in-a-trench-coat]

If they ever met - Nico wouldn’t like Wednesday

[nomaishuttle]

this is not just me complaining bc its one of my chores but i truly donot think the kitchen needs 2 be mopped twice aweek

[clowngremlin]

Literally like genuinely so upset by something someone said at the psychosis support group I go to and I can't get into it because of confidentiality but like it's making me straight up never want to go back to the group even though I have found it to be a positive experience normally

[fingertipsmp3]

I seriously am a colossal bitch when I’m sober, it’s completely unnecessary. I’m absolutely sick of myself and it’s only been two weeks.

[homoquartz]

this post is not gonna be well put together but i am having feelings

mean girls is trending right now because the musical movie just came out and i feel insane. idk why i do, it was stupid of me to think that most people Got It, no one ever gets it, it was always about the memes and the aesthetic.

the first mean girls movie was based on a nonfiction book called queen bees and wannabes. it interviewed and discussed the social hierarchy system in teen girl friendships. how they hold each other to these insane standards of heternormative femininity out of sheer terror that they won't meet those standards themselves. the way they leverage their relationships for some small degree of power in a world designed to strip them of it, even if it drags other girls down.

the "you can only wear your hair in a ponytail once a week and on wednesdays we wear pink" speech was not an original creation for the script. it's a QUOTE from a real teenage girl. those were REAL RULES.

then the musical came, and it was one step removed from the intended messaging of the film. OG mean girls was not perfect (and was extremely racist), but it said what needed said. the musical leaned on the comedy more, but still left a heartfelt undertone, and still critiqued the systems in place. of course no piece of media is going to be perfect, but it was about the conversation.

then this new movie comes out and it is washed over in the veneer of white hollywood feminism so thick you can't see anymore. the problematic aspects of the original movie are taken out to avoid "offending" when the offense was the point. it becomes toothless, it becomes some other thing entirely. they changed karen's line "i expect to run the world in shoes i cannot walk in" to "watch me as i run the world in shoes i cannot walk in." because choice feminism is in vogue, suddenly this character whose entire point is that she doesn't think deeply about WHY she does anything is suddenly hip to the fact that the world is against her.

i think of sokka losing his misogyny arc in the new atla. i think of the Heathers remake casting the bitchy, identical heathers as queer and hollywood-fat outcasts. as if the story, the meaning, the allegory is hidden in the sets and the jokes and the music. it's a whole new thing now, and it's a thing that means nothing in particular.

the plastics should not wear jeans. they should not have curves. their queerness should be suppressed, painful. their sexuality is not a slay, it's the only thing they think they have of value. the santa dance isn't sexy, it's shocking, it's mortifying - they are children.

they're not mean because "we are all mean." they are mean because they are girls in a world that brutalizes them and crushes them into a standardized shape. they are mean because the world is mean to them. they are mean because it gives them some power back. they are mean because it's the only weapon they have.

the landscape of femininity today has shifted to camera-ready makeup at the age of 10, stringent performative hygiene standards, and avoiding being caught on film while having a genuine emotion. the consumerism, the fatphobia, the racism, the classism, the homophobia remain. We could have had a conversation about that.

[bingobongobonko]

grumble grumble. kind of want to call out for work, im deadass too depressed for this shit rn