#idk I love her she’s so good I’m gonna be so sad when she’s gone

[exopelagic]

anyway I was talking to this girl instead of the freshers today who I knew before and stayed on to do her masters and she’s my favourite person in the world she’s so cool

[nortism]

doctor who liveblog pt 22

s4 ep10 midnight

- i’m glad donna’s getting a nice holiday

- COLIN MORGAN OF BBC MERLIN FAME??! katie mcgrath next pls

- “ladies and gentlemen and variations thereupon”

- ROSE ON THE TVVVVVVV

- oh god was she possessed

- FUCK SHES REPEATING LIKE THE THING OUTSIDE

- SHE GOT HIS VOICE

- that was such a good episode, genuinely unsettling

s4 ep11 turn left

- omg are we in a country that’s not the uk?? i didn’t know the tardis knew how to do that 😭😭

- oh never mind they’re on a different planet, should have known

- and billie piper!!

- oh the doctor’s dead

- get the screwdriver donna!!

- ROSE TYLER!!!!!!!!!!

- oh she’s vanished

- donna’s so funny

- NO MARTHA’S DEAD this sucks

- SARAH JANE SMITH’S DEAD?!?! this au is awful

- ROSE

- i love donna’s grandad so much it’s not even funny

- london’s gone??? thank god the world is free!

- not leeds

- uh oh america

- ROSE

- oh fuck jack as well

- oh great, now the uk is turning into nazi germany

- that’s a big old bug

- rip alternate universe donna

- BAD WOLF?!?!?!!????

- shitttttt

s4 ep12 the stolen earth

- oh fucj the earth’s gone

- MARTHA

- ohh fuck the companions r all gonna come together

- ROSE WITH A GIANT GUN WOOOO

- oh yeah the whole gang in the opening credits

- oh great we’re gonna find out what a shadow proclamation is

- ofc the british are celebrating the end of the world by drinking and rioting

- ofc it’s the fucking daleks

- i feel like there was easy ways to exterminate the human race i won’t lie

- the crucible?? always with the religious imagery

- idk if i trust the space cops

- not the rhinos again

- ohhhh they’re building a mega planet

- for what it’s worth, i trust martha to save the world. she’s done it before

- NO MARTHA

- the loss that is yet to come???

- also which god??

- BEES ARE ALIENS?!?!

- i knew i couldn’t trust the space cops

- ROSE

- when he was a 90 year old teenage girl

- HARRIET JONES MY LOVE

- yay martha’s alive

- aww rose is jealous

- is everyone here a jones?

- HARRIET NOOOOOO

- he’s still thinking about rose 😭😭

- jfc what is that

- ewww

- FUCKING DALEKS RUINING MY REUNION

- oh my polycule did reunite, just under the worst circumstances possible

- FUCK HES REGENERATING ALREADY

- noooo sarah jane

- whatttt

s4 ep13 journey’s end

- did he just regenerate back into david tennant???

- MICKEYYYYYYYYY

- JACKIEEEEEEEE

- oh the whole gang is back together i missed them 😭😭😭

- oh donna i love u

- they gotta stop leaving the tardis lying around!!!

- that’s nice of the daleks to translate for different countries

- that’s a lotta daleks

- donna?!!

- DONNA?!?!!??

- hello is donna regenerating?!?!

- ITS ANOTHER DOCTOR?!?!?

- dw rose this is just an avg day for jack

- nah is the new doctor technically donna and the doctor’s child???

- pls leave my girl and her mummy issues alone

- oh they’re soulmates

- when did martha learn german??

- oh yeah on her world tour

- it would be cool if they subtitled the german bc i’m getting none of this

- not loving the sound of a reality bomb

- omg they’re disintegrating

- oh so we’re destroying all matter now???

- won’t this also destroy the daleks??

- apparently not

- SHES GONNA BLOW UP THE EARTH

- oh fuck the whole gang’s been teleported

- it’s up to u now donna

- uh oh rip the other doctor

- uh oh rip donna

- this is a bit awkward

- YES FHEN DONNA

- the doctordonna

- SHES PART TIMELORD?!

- they oppenheimer-ed him

- K9!!!

- finally an explanation for why he sucks a flying the tardis so much, he needs more guys

- he’s got the biggest family on earth 😭😭

- she’s getting her own doctor?!

- aww she got her kiss?? i think aww?! this is a weird situation all round

- oh no donna’s malfunctioning

- wait what

- is she fucking dead

- HER MIND’S BEEN WIPED!!?!?!

- awww she’s forgotten him

- this is so sad

- aww granddad

- jesus that was bleak

[noeasyisnoisy]

‼️TBB EP 10 & 11 SPOILERS BELOW CUT‼️

ep 10

who tf are these people

ykw good for you emerie

ARE WE FINALLY GONNA KNOW WHAT THE EMPIRE IS DOING

“YOUR responsibility” hemlock is setting her up for something 

kids?

OH MY FUCKING GOD ITS INQUISITORS I THINK

omg those poor kids :(

why is bro smirking like that HELP

oh my god they’re gonna take that child.

BANE AGAIN??

poor baby omg MY HEART

i have a soft spot for kids i’m sorry 

EVA IS ADORABLE

“when i’ll be going home.. can you find out for me?” IM IN PUBLIC IM GONNA START CRYING STOP

i don’t trust this green kid

CALLED IT

omg he just wants to go home IM GOING TO SOB

“i was following protocol” = “good soldiers follow orders”

why did i know his name would be jax

am i psychic or have we heard it before and i’m js forgetting

nala se 💔

“there is nothing i can do” YES THERE IS BE SO FR

NO NOT TARKIN 

ngl i’m kinda surprised tarkin doesn’t know abt the project

OH MY GOD

PHEE

NO

omg what if (if he’s tech) she snaps him out of it.

“how many others like this have you captured?” oh honey you have no idea

i can’t stop thinking about the baby and his mother and THIS IS REALLY SAD

DID THEY KILL JAX???

“we just wanna go home” STOP.

SHE KEPT THE HAY LULA

AND GAVE IT TO EVA

SHE KEPT THE HAY LULA AND GAVE IT TO EVA!!!!

i’m rooting for you emerie

ep 11

where are we

PHEE!!

oh my god phee. (i remembered the convo w maybe tech)

IS THIS A TRAP

ITS A TRAP

I CALLED IT

PHEE WATCH OUT

i’m trying so hard not to get up my hopes that it’s tech rn.

what did he grab 🤨

tbb’s location or smth maybe??

SHE KNOWS

sneaky bitch

maybe tech’s ship reminds me of padmé’s ship a bit

not exactly but kinda similar? maybe it’s js the general shape

PABU

NO

pabu’s gonna be gone

NO THE CADETS

oh god are they gonna leave right before pabu’s attacked 

TECHS GOGGLES.

GET OUT

STOP

AND LULA

OH MY GOD

i’m currently bawling my eyes out

notice how the island is completely in the dark

god i love lighting

HUNTER KNOWS

NO HE SEES HER

OMG NO

WRECKER KNOWS

holy fucking shit.

HOLY SHIT

HE BETTER BE ALIVE

IF THEY KILLED HIM ISTG

CAN I NOT CRY FOR TWO SECONDS

hunter knows

HOLY FUCK

I KNEW IT

PABUS GOING DOWN

ok this music slaps though

maybe tech feels like tech but the voice (accent, tone, everything) is SO different

my heart hurts omg

OMEGA SWEETIE NO ITS NOT YOUR FAULT

“i’ve barely done anything yet” first of all BE SO FR second yep oahu is a goner

ok but protective crosshair hits different every time

BATCHER STOP

if they kill batcher.

OH THANK GOD HES ALIVE

JENNIFER YOU SCARED ME.

why was hunter taking out that trooper kinda..

EAT HUNTER

GOD HES HOT

maybe tech no. 

STOP

omgomgomgogmogmg

HES ALIVE BUT IM STILL SOBBING JESUS

I NEED TO CALM DOWN

OMEGA YOU ARE NOT GETTING CAPTURED

STOP IT.

she’s smart but it’s too risky

she’s grown up so much holy shit

“then you never should’ve come here in the first place” I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA KILL EVERYONE OMG

crosshair your hand better not start shaking.

HIS NOISE

HIS SIGNATURE NOISE

IN THE MUSIC

ITS BACK (it might’ve been back for a while but i didn’t notice it)

THANK GOD HUNTER

WET HAIR HUNTER⁉️⁉️⁉️

IM TOO HURT TO APPRECIATE FULLY THOUGH

update: i rewatched and that hair is NOT wet 😔

BATCHER!!!!!

oh my god hunter’s gonna be PISSED

i’m crying again

NONONO

HUNTER SAVE CROSS NOW.

NO

NO

NO

NO

omega what do you know

is she meditating

THE FORCE???

IS SHE GONNA TAP IN AND TELL THEM BC IDK WHAT ELSE THEYD DO

ok so my final thoughts are i am HURT and still crying WHAT THE FUCK JENNIFER

[v3nusxsky]

haah can i request a larissa x r fic?

maybe larissa comfort reader that is in a really sad/depressed mood and has a mental breakdown ‘cause they think they are a burden and they are not enough, they feel like they are constantly bothering the people around them with their stupid things, so they isolate themselves and cry, larissa finds out and comfort them and, idk, biig cuddles and sweet words (i’m so sorry if it’s too much specific, feel free to do whatever u want hh and it’s oki if u don’t want to write it)

i love u and ur fiic sm<33 -🌱

Never a burden to me| h&c

*Authors note~perfect mood to write one of these and it's such a good prompt.*

Trigger warnings~ depression anxiety and paranoid thoughts

Prompt~ see ask^^^

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Recently, everything had been piling on top of you, it was almost suffocating really. All you could do is try and cope with it, yet you weren't coping at all. Asking for help wasn't an option for you either. You didn't want to burden anyone with your problems after all they are just that, your problems. Recently you had leaned on your dear friends Enid and Wednesday, you felt you annoyed them with needing their help and support. They were lovely, yes Wednesday can be lovely once you get past the hard outer shell she had, but truthfully you felt like you infringed on their couple time and they saw you as this annoying cling on. So you'd avoid asking for help just to ensure you won't lose your friends.

You knew you were isolating yourself, you knew that wouldn't help you feel any better. You knew that. Yet you couldn't stop. No matter how hard to you tried to convince yourself, that it was okay to need someone's help, love and support, you just couldn't face the fact you'd be burdening them. After all why would they care about your problems?

You'd stop attending classes, opting to stay in your dorm wallowing and all in all crying until you couldn't cry no more, then you'd nap and repeat. This was day three now, you knew you needed to eat, drink some water and shower, yet the thought of leaving your bed was too overwhelming. That meant accepting you needed help. You knew that as soon as you got up and attempted to feel better, that you'd break down in guilt over pushing everyone away, and no one had checked on you yet so why should you bother?

Firm knocks sounded on your door and you immediately hid under your covers and tried to hold your breath. If you didn't make a sound they would leave. Right? Well wrong, Larissa Weems was determined to figure out why you had been skipping  class, after all this was extremely out of character for you. She was worried something bad had happened after being informed no one had seen you for three days. Meaning you hadn't left the room for a shower or to get food. Most concerning.

"Go away!" You mumbled hoping your foul mood would put the offender off. However, when the doorknob turned and you heard the creaking of the floor board you knew you had no such luck. "Oh sweetheart" she murmured taking in your room, truly it was as if a bomb had gone off, you in your hidden spot didn't see the waves of concern rushing over her. Larissa sat herself on the edge of your bed and murmured one last thing to you, "sweetheart when you are ready I'm here to talk okay? I want to help you darling."

Then silence was a comfortable one, only disturbed by the ticking of your bed side clock. Before you even knew it you were sobbing harshly once more, coming out of hiding and throwing yourself into the older woman's arms. She immediately embraced you and began to hush you with words of comfort, "oh sweetheart it's okay, you're gonna be okay. I'm here darling."

"Mm not too much?" You mumbled into her shoulder which was now drenched in your tears. "No darling not too much I promise you" she hummed, "and I never break my promises sweetheart." You sat in her embrace trying to soak in her words and gain the confidence to share your burden. "Feel like burden everyone and I feel unexplainably sad. Even getting dressed or showered or eating is a chore" you whimpered slightly feeling the emotional toll of your words, truly it did feel better now you had shared the burden. Obviously not magically disappeared, all better, but a little less intense and overwhelming.

You sat like that for a while until your stomach growled causing the headmistress to spring into action, "sweetheart you go grab a shower and I'll go down and get you something to eat and drink okay? Think we can manage that? And as a special treat I'll brush your hair and fix it however you wish okay?" Larissa Weems brushing your hair? Was this a dream come true?  "I'd like that momma, sorry I'm sorry I didn't" you whimpered feeling embarrassed at your slip up. "Hush sweetheart I don't mind and you can call me momma if you wish I feel like a mother too all my students" she reassured and made sure to flash you a genuine smile. "Darling shower time momma will be back soon" and with that she stood up to leave. "Thank you" was all you could whisper before the door shut, both of you feeling better than before her visit.

Word count~ 928

[dont-blame-it-on-the-kids]

Haven’t read avatar tales or the lost adventures yet.

But I read (most of) the ATLA comics!

Spoilers

Approx Timeline Order:

Katara and the Pirate's Silver mid. Honestly. The pirates are cool and all but it didn't really add much for me. 4/10

Suki, Alone was actually a really good addition to the plot line! It explained a lot and it did a pretty good job in the short comic style. Wish Kyoshi actually showed up more for her tho? She had like one speaking line that was echoing what Suki was already saying then she was Gone 6/10

The Promise was boring honestly. Zuko was the bad guy again?? Only thing I remember is it started to shake up Aang’s “the four nations need to remain separate to be in balance” ideals. Establishes Yu Dao as an old fire nation colony and how life there has changed over 100 years. Also Katara being… soft about Aang’s promise to End Zuko even tho she fucking told him straight up in the show if he stepped out of line she would kill him. 3/10

The Search, god Ursa is so unwell and honestly Azula gets it from her 100% they blame Ozai but it’s also gotta be Ursa too. Azula having complete mental breakdown. The continued influence of Ozai on the kids and the fire nation was a good set up. Ursa literally putting Zukos life on the line to prove Ozai was intercepting her letters to home she wasn’t supposed to be sending anyway was insane. Giant face and memory stealing spirit who said she would only give out one favor but ending up giving out like four? Amazing. Aang’s negotiating skills 0% helpful. Serving me a PTSD milf on a silver platter who’s made some awful choices. 10/10

The Rift I’m going to be very honest I am so sad we didn’t get to see more of the acolytes in this one. (And I’m UPSET we didn’t see any older one of the original acolytes covering their tattoos in LOK that would have been an amazing plot point.) TOPH!!!! God Toph rocked in this one. And go Poppy for dumping Lao’s ass lmao, sad we didn’t see her tho. Gonna be honest I didn’t clock in this one that the valley was where RC was built. Basic story, cool bending, and possibly Suyins father?? Idk after seeing it I’d be convinced. CABBAGE MAN!!! My truest fave lmao loved the overt shots of him deciding to get Cabbage Corp up and running. It would have been cool if they mentioned that one in Imbalance tho as a facility. Also seeing Yangchen!! 6/10

Macha Makers iroh gets a crushhh and also spirits work with him like it’s after LoK b2? Very cool. It’s pretty good for one of the free comic shorts 6/10

Toph Beifong’s Metalbending Academy honestly not much happens in this one. Suki is adorable. We see a lava bender named Sun and we Never See them AGAIN 3/10

Smoke and Shadow this one FUCKED SO HARD my godddd my PTSD MILF on a silver platter. Azula being so unwell and Kiyi fucking nailing firebending poses she saw Zuko do once and escaped the cell with all the kids. Tom Tom is adorable. Mai and Ty Lee bonding moments my godddd 10/10

Azula and the Spirit Temple gosh this one was pretty good. Loved the spirit tho a hope to see more of that haunting thing if we ever get an ending to azula’s story. Azula having a spirit lead mental breakdown? 8/10

North and South oh god. This one was basically LoK b2 all over again. How many time are these guys gonna fight?? And tbh I ALSO don’t like how in LoK the south looked like a mini replica of the Northern tribe. So seeing the explanation of why and then it kinda just being allowed was not fun. I feel like they could have done something more than recycle a LoK plot line but okay whatever. 2/10

Imbalance 😒 talk about recycled plot lines. How many water benders are going to try to pit benders and non benders against eachother? Bad guy was almost cool. A good bit of set up for how Cranetown actually grew into Republic City, it would be nice if LoK incorporated the original spirits of that valley tho. Especially when the portal opened. Art was amazing and Toph going undercover then immediately blowing that cover was amazing. if the bad guy here or Any of the set up was mentioned in LoK and it was expanded upon here it would be better. Like if Amon referenced Liling as part of the reason the Equalists formed. I know this is the problem with pre-quils 4/10

Not in timeline order:

The Bounty Hunter and the Tea Brewer iroh redemption arch for the worst directing choices made for him in the show? Yup. Gives June a good ending. Actually kinda like the set up of the tea cartel. Over all a nice short story. 6/10

Lost and Found very short story about Toph being good with kids?? Very cute. 7/10

[fredsnumberonewife]

hello! i’m here to provide you with an idea! you kept appearing on my feed so i’m gonna take a chance. Do you mind writing for George Weasley? I’d be honoured if you did a angsty piece that ends in fluff. I’m thinking like George cheats on reader when he is drunk and then she finds out and he is all like oh no i’m sorry and then they have this whole break up thing and he apologises by like idk cheesy way or something. does that make sense? thank you! have the most wonderful day/night!

cheat-george Weasley.

tonight was the night of the griffindoor party. They had just won the quidditch game against slytherin. Your boyfriend George and his twin fred had already been drinking. So they where both already intoxicated by the substance.

you where more sober than to two only having a total of three drinks. Fred and George always intended to go crazy. You never understood why. There crazy without a drink if gets even more crazier with a drink.

You made your way over to the drink table making yourself your fourth cup. When you turned around your heart dropped. George was kissing Alicia. His arm around her waist the same way it as around yours just just hours ago. Tears swelled in your eyes you couldn’t believe it your George kissing someone else. You stormed up to your dorm and ran to your bed crying. Everyone at the party had seen ans created a rather big fuss about it. Once Fred had realised he tried looking for you to explain that it was just his drink and she threw herself onto him. But it was too late you where off.

The next day occurred. You didn’t want to leave your bed you didn’t want anything. You where hurt they boy you truly loved had betrayed you. Making your way to the hall for breakfast George had met you by the door. ‘‘Y/N i’m sorry for last night I- Fred told me what I did i’m so sorry I shouldn’t of drank so much.’’ George pleaded to you a sad look lingering in his eyes. ‘‘Your blaming the alcohol. I can’t with you it’s never your fault there is always something else someone else who caused the issue.’’ You screamed at him. ‘‘Y/N come on your not being fair now.’’ ‘‘I’m sorry i’m not being fair because i’m not forgiving you. Where over George. I’m sure you won’t mind now you can have Alicia. Your welcome to one another now , don’t need a drink to hide how bad you want her.’’

And that was the last you had spoken to George in a week. You had noticed in class he wouldn’t take his eyes off you. And going into your dorm after class he left flowers or your favourite chocolates on the bed . But you couldn’t not after what he did. You couldn’t bare getting hurt again. But he was all you ever wanted . You second guessed yourself all the time. He never went near Alicia after all of the events happened. He doesn’t even speak to her. What if you had gotten it all wrong maybe he didn’t want her maybe he didn’t mean it.

That night you gone to his dorm you knew Fred had detention so you would be able to get George alone. ‘‘Who is it.’’ You heard George shout as you lightly knocked on the door. ‘‘Its me Y/N I want to talk to you.’’ George ran to the door swinging it open. He couldn’t believe it when he saw your face. ‘‘I want you to listen to me and don’t interrupt.’’ You said to him sternly to which he nodded. ‘‘I’m going to trust you , i want us to try again. I’m still mad at you for what happened but i don’t believe you purposely cheated on me. I want us to try again but if you mess up even in the slightest then where done for good.’’ You told him to which his face lit up. He finally got his girl back.

[achingly-shy]

ttpd reactions from this morning when i couldn't post them <3

fortnight (feat. post malone): 

I WANNA KILL HER???? (that’s a lyric not me wanting to kill taylor)

I LOVE YOU ITS RUINING MMY LIFE

this beat is good

and post okayy

i wanna kill him?????? too????

okay post’s part isn’t bad! it’s at the end which i wasn’t expecting though

that was good!!!!!! okay i feel a lot better now

the tortured poet’s department

this is giving hey stephen intro

oh i love the high note it’s pretty

nofuckingbodyyy

CHARLIE PUTH????? HELPSFKSJFLKSJ

LUCY??? JACK????? the shoutouts omg

okay i like the bridge

THERES ANOTHER PART 

people put wedding rings on and that’s the closest my heart has come to exploding :(((( 

i love me a long song <3

who’s gonna hold you who’s gonna hold you gonna hold you

idk if these are the exact lyrics but i’m vibing!!!!!

my boy only breaks his favorite toys

okay get it beatttt

oh i LOVE the note hold on toyyyyyys and destroyyyyyyys

and overall so far the production is giving midnights more than anything else which ig makes sense but i was hoping for a little folklore idk

all these bridges are awesome though

i wish i had lyrics rn in front of me but this is the best i can do in class ☠️

down bad

OKAY IM SO READY FOR THIS ONE

what’s this sound omg?????

OOOOOOOH

in a cloud of what

rewind

i’m seeing if genius is unblocked on my chromebook i can’t do this

oh it just said sparkling dust lmaooo

idk what i heard the first time

i love how she says fuck it if i can’t have him

genius is blocked 🙁

cause fuck it i was in love……..so fuck you if i can’t have us…….

trying not to vibe in class is so hard skjfksjkfs

is this the most fucks in a taylor song ever??? slay girl i love that word too

so long, london

OH NO

i love these intro vocals omg

how much sad did you think i had think i had in me :((((

SO LONG LONDON YOU’LL FIND SOMEONE 💔

i stopped cpr after all it’s no use…..how long will we be a sad song before we were too far gone to bring back to life……

I’LL FIND SOMEONE

AND YPU SAID I ABANDONED TEH SHIP BUUT I WAS GOING DOWN WWITH IT OH MMY GODDDDDD

these lyrics are >>>>>

the way it’s both so long as in goodbye london and also so long as in a long time. genius actually

but daddy i love him

5:26 omgggg

i love the sound of this one but it’s hard for me to grasp all the lyrics without seeing them in front of me

“i’d rather burn my whole life down than listen to one more second of all this bitching and moaning” ME TOO soooo relatable girlie

i love the way she goes up on bItching and moaning

and we’re not even halfway through omg

ohhhh yeah i really like this one

EVVEN MY DADDY JUST LOVES HIM

WEDDING?????

THIS IS SO FULL CIRCLE OMG

fresh out the slammer

GIRL OF HIS AMERICAN DREAMS

idk why that stood out to me 😭 probably because of so-american

since yk i hate america lmaoo

florida!!!

and the city reeks of drriving myself crazy yeahhhhhhh

FLORENCE POP OFFFFFF

i need to rewind i havven’t been paying attention to the lyrics

florida!!! 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁 it’s one hell of a drug

i’m haunted but i’m feeling just fiiiiiiine (the vocals!!!!!!)

FUCK ME UP FLORIDAAA

OKAY ONE OF MY FAVES FOR SUREEEEe

guilty as sin?

okay this is chill

not any lyrics are standing out to me a bunch though

long-suffering propriety damn

what is he writing on her upper thigh i can’t tell what’s she’s saying lol

ranking these is so hard 😭

[nightglider124]

Maybe it is me but I don’t get the vibe that dickkory’s small convo was flippant on either side (i mean a little on dicks at first cos he be like ViSiOnS dOnT eXiSt) but at the end, Kory was like ‘like you said, to hell with visions’ but she seemed so sad about it like she thinks he won’t accept their shared vision bc he doesn’t want it with her. (We all know he does like duh)

I saw some people annoyed that that is all the conversation was but i think it speaks louder than just what was said. I mentioned it on another post but Brentons acting was real good in that scene bc he seems to really wrestle with what to say and although he just says ‘idk’ i think he feels torn. And they’ve also got much bigger issues than that particular vision at this point. Like we can circle back ya know?

Poor Kory though like the convo with Rachel in the beginning when Rae is like did he not tell you and shes just like no he didnt…

Ugh i want the angst. I am also v curious as to when Kory gets hurt since they’ve left off with Jinx dead (for now).

Other thoughts:

I get now why Lisa posted that stupid ass ig story 😂 bc jinx still be into Dick a little it would seem which back off bitch he has a whole child with Kory on the way so leave 😂 nah but I don’t think that will be explored more - i reckon that is more so a wistful thing on Jinx’s part but nothing will come form or at least i hope nothing does cos lets face it she isnt dead dead 🤷🏻‍♀️

Very curious how Jason will be appearing this season. It was said he is in Joshua and Teagans livestream a couple weeks ago. Not that i want to see him but im curious how he slots in in this particular season 🤔

MY BABY GAR 😭 he is going through it and when i tell you i was cryING when he grabbed Kory in a hug like i needed a GarKory hug more than I realized. 😭 I am extremely interested in Gar’s whole story this season. I LOVE that he is finally getting more. He seems to forgotten in other seasons and that is a crime. I worry about baby boy but am super happy that its getting explored more.

On the note of Gar, I’m assuming Sebastian or Brother Blood now I suppose was the one to send them to another existence or dimension but Gar went to the red so I am guessing Gar is separated from the team to begin with in part two of the season. I am v excited for part two of the season for multiple reasons.

Connor irked the shit out of me. I get it; tis his Lex side and I completely understand why but the attitude is so grating. Joshua plays it so fucking well but my God every time he spoke I was like stfu 😂😂

Rachel got her powers back and became White Raven!! I was v surprised to see the white dress and cloak but I was like OOOOOH. Her powers are gonna be fierce af in the second half of the season. And talking of powers, Kory’s having gone up to 80% has me NERVOUS. I bet that is how she gets hurt. I fucking bet she supernovas and fucks herself up. Like why else would they mention it?? 👀 i am scared for my fave in second part. 😭

Tim and Bernard are cute. Like it was sweet when they had that litte scene. And omg when Tim was like we kissed to the team, Kory had like a lil smirk on as did some of the others and Dicks like oh big night for everyone then - loved it.

Jinx may annoy me cos of the whole Dick history and clearly being into him still but she really does have me giggling. When she got stabbed i was like aw gurl ya took too long with taunting her frozen self 🙄 but I appreciated in the RV when she was like ‘i could take her out, fucking nut her’ feels so fucking British and I greatly appreciated it. I literally hear people talk like that all the time so I enjoyed that part 👀😂

I can’t think of much else now but I liked the episode. Wasn’t the absolute best imo but it will tide me over til second part of the season which I hope is sooner rather than later- anyone know when it’s meant to be returning??

[pearblossommina]

ToG Read-A-Long, Heir of Fire, Day 5

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YEAH SORSCHA GET IT HONEY

Aedion to Chaol: “I didn’t think that kind of honor still existed in Adarlan.”

FR!!!! Why on EARTH is he going through with it, except for the vague sense of duty, of honor. Going to Anielle is… I guess good for his family? but who cares?! His family should be proud of him for being a member of the king’s guard…. Like, is that not important to them?

(I know he promised but the situation is still so stupid to me) (your dad is so stupid Chaol) (and boring) (stop letting him control you)

Aedion is so cool, though

He’s the only SJM man not to have daddy issues

(Cause he has no dad)

(Hey good for you Aedion) (you’re quickly becoming my favorite boy)

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So, who are the guys

And

Why do they wanna kill Ren

They belong to the king? But not in the same legion as Chaol, somehow?

I wanna solve this mystery but I feel like I’ve got nothing to go on

31 manon please I love you so much

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Manon and Abraxos taking flight feels like the music swelling in a moment of triumph in a 90’s movie, It’s like Free Willy it’s like the Neverending Story, it’s everything it’s EVERYTHING.

33 ok so hear me out

Rowan should open a tattoo shop for pansexual fae

Ugh, I actually thought her heart was HEALING. Guess not. She’s back on her anguish. (Poor Celaena.)

34 back on her anguish big time,

I am actually still torn up about Nehemia too, so, I get it. But girl. You can be sad without making it everyone else’s problem. Be nice to my boy Emrys. He’s literally so loveable, how dare you make him feel bad.

Idk what Rowan even did? Except not be a good friend, I guess, but like, she’s in such a tender place it’s really HARD to be friendly to her. I think he’s doing alright being the aloof handsome magic teacher…. And I think he’s a pretty good teacher. She needs space before she’ll welcome anything close to what she had with Nehemia.

Anyway that scene rescuing Luca was cute

Build back the ability to have friends and get close to people

You got this, girl

I believe in you

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Idk what’s wrong with me lol

But I DID like seeing her beat him up and him just taking it

Somehow when he started talking about his dead mate all I could think was… wait they’re not mates? I know, I know, it’s a different book than ACOTAR, but I just expected them to be mated to each other.

And then I was like, wait….

Because, based from her other work - when you are a faerie, the most important thing, the highest calling in life and the truest happiness you will ever know, is finding your mate. And if your mate dies, that’s probably so devastating…

Anyway, WHAT IF, what if, Aelin lost her mate too? What if her mate was Nehemia???

(Remember when she said it was like a piece of her soul was gone)

(like she had lost a “soul friend”)

What if, because she was mortal the whole time, she just never noticed that Nehemia was her mate. And now she’s coming into her abilities and at the same time experiencing the real anguish of knowing that Nehemia is dead.

I think it could be real interesting to watch them come together as survivors, who have gone through the loss of a mate, and they could like, grow closer and trauma bond over that. Not many people know how it feels. I feel like it would be kind of an interesting spin on the “fated mates” trope. Idk.

Wrapping up the first part of the book. I’m invested. Also, I’m gonna be on vacation for the next week, and I’ll take this book with me, but idk if I’ll be on here posting my daily reactions!

I will if I can make time for it, but no promises. My flight returns may 1st, when we will be reading the Assassin’s Blade!

[moodindigov]

hey guys nerd moment about the title of the fic (this is long im sorry)

mood indigo was actually a jazz song released in the 1930’s by duke ellington, barney bigard with lyrics by irving mills, except bigard said that its real credit is derived from his clarinet teacher, Lorenzo Tio’s, melodies. so that clarinet part like biagrd’s solo? yea that was Lorenzo tio’s melodies that weren’t full developed and when bigard did finish them and show them so ellington, he liked it and it was included. and like its almost impossible to tell where ellington’s collaborators part begin bcs apparently he’s js that good at blending that stuff idk (dont take that last part as a fact thats purely from what i remember.) anyways, mood indigo is about a little boy and little girl who are eight. girl loves boy and while they never acknowledge the feelings, the girl waits at her window bcs the boy visits her. and the song basically describes the feeling the girl had when the boy didnt visit her. so you may be asking, duct why would u choose something like that as a title for a book about the slump in london 1930s and about criminal organizations? well, dear anon, here u r:

1. literal (?) meaning; im gonna be so honest with you i purely got this idea from brendan and neksa / jess and morgan. i couldnt stop thinking about that wonderful art i found of brendan and neksa it was of neksa as a raven or crow i dont rmb but point is that its gorgeous and stunning i love it. the idea that brendan denies his feelings of love for her purely because he half doesn’t want to acknowledge that he’s become so attached to a person in such an intimate way and half because he just cant risk his father (or anyone) finding out that he’s gone and practically betrayed his dad’s whole like symbolism in tje trading world (remember they don’t like the library. yk how contradicting it would be to have one of the biggest illegal book trader’s son dating someone from the library, especially someone who works in like the same facility as the archivist? yea its damnable like no ones gonna trust ca. brightwells or his business anymore.) anyways the literal meaning: girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit/come back to her. brendan literally left neksa (the woman he was oh so deeply in love with) because he didn’t want to hurt her and played it off as the fact that he didn’t love her. and when jess comes back as brendan (lmaoo) i feel like you can imagine the smallest sliver of hope she had that they can be something again but its practically disappeared next to the pure anger and grief in her heart. and when neksa dies, brendan can’t visit her anymore. its literally not possible. (until he died then maybe they could be happy tgt). this is so many words words words guys i promise im not actually this much of a nerd on a daily basis this is just interesting to me. anyways, once again, girl is sad bcs boy didn’t visit her one day. umm we can go back and look into jess’ past: boy is eternally sad bcs his brother died. aka: boy is sad bcs his brother can’t visit him. like ever. sad sad sad moments💔💔

2. this is like an actual stretch but um i consider it okay so basically girl being sad is jess boy who didnt visit (or wont anymore) is a semblance of love or sanctuary. throughout the series its obvious that jess just doesn’t trust his family. im pretty sure he even says it like he does not trust them. but hey, maybe he did once. maybe he did when he was a little boy who had an older brother who he could rely on—one that taught him how to walk and that taught him the basics. someone who he could go to for advice and who could help him keep his head above water. now we don’t have a characterization, but i’m going off of @thegreatlibraryfangirl’s advice and kinda semi-making my own..so um sorry if u dont like that guys..but anyways i feel like the moment jess starts to really rely and trust the other’s is the moment that melancholy feeling, that mood indigo, goes away. it doesnt go away completely, theres always gonna be a solid chunk never satisfied but thats okay because he has people he can trust with his life that will help him get through it. not only this but the bond that jess and dario (will) share in this au represents that. they’re both young—maybe 13 max but they both lack one thing that only they can give esch other; sanctuary.

[dulcewrites]

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So I decided to three different parts for the three stars (idk if each star counts for a separate but that is how I’m gonna do it lmao)

From fmo part 1: Is this why you don’t under the understand the obsession with dragons. You hate the ludicrous insistence that you can control them. That if you give them enough love and patience that they will need you the way you need them. Good behavior has gotten you nothing. Doing right by the dragons in your life has gotten you nowhere. Aemond is not yours despite the vows you took, or sacrifices you’ve made for him. The same way your children will never be yours despite the pain you take to have them. You’ve been burned by the very dragon that’s supposed to protect you.

I thought about this part bc I saw post on here about no matter how much you do for dragons ie the Targaryen family, they cannot save you. It was like a gif set with of course the iconic driftmark knife scene. But it also had the scene during the stepstones fight where one is the soldiers said that daemon is coming and will save him… just to get crushed by caraxes 😭. One of the reasons why I am taking fmo in the direction I am, away from a cheating/love story and broaden things, is bc I am so fascinated by how the Targaryens as a family really ruin everything they touch (including each other.. irony of the incest). So many people devote their lives to them, it is a very thankless task imo

From fmo part 3: Opposed to the elation you felt after having Daella. Dread creeps in; dread that comes from a place of sadness and protectiveness. All you have is your children. Even with the bonds and alliances you may have made, only they are extensions of you. Daella, your sweet girl, a reminder of what could of been. You have Alaric, the flesh and blood reflection of what you have been through.

Another central theme of the fmo is motherhood. Also love versus duty. Rightful or wrongly, fmo reader sees her kids as direct extensions of her. Daella being the reminder of what could have been is about the happiness she felt in her family/role after she was born. Alaric is a reflection of the the situation she is in. Aemond would’ve never pushed for a baby if he didn’t feel like she was onto him cheating and he was trying to recapture the ~magic~ of having his firstborn. Also alaric resembling aemond is just another twist to the dagger. Reader’s love for her children is her strength… it is also her downfall :(((

From untitled work (ie I could use this for a number of works lol):

The mass amounts of guilt and embarrassment had cooled. Instead of using the moment as an indictment on her character, she chose to look at it as a reason to reconnect with things she had slipped away from. Her faith trying to heal the wounds left by those around her.

One fit of rage and the whispers of a queen gone mad started. She began to reinstate herself firmly in the hands of the Seven, and she is called an overdramatic zealot. Better to be been as mad or self righteous than to be dead.

Despite being the Queen or the mother to Princes and a Princess of the Realm, she is still a non Targaryen woman amongst dragon riders. She has seen how non Targaryens have faired against this house. Even ones that share Valyrian ancestry and own dragons are no match for the ways of House Targaryen. She will always be the outsider. Alicent was reminded of that when Viserys insisted on Aegon and Helaena getting married, even despite the pleas to rethink the decision. Bond Targaryen blood he said.

If Targaryen blood is untarnished, what does that make her?

So this is bit of character study I did about my bestie, my pookie, my loml Alicent. One the I do wish we would’ve gotten in the show is Alicent’s psyche directly after driftmark. Her journey about her faith, how she tended to Aemond, and ofc hel and Aegon getting married/having kids. That’s a… lot to happen in six years. I feel like she would’ve been a bundle of nerves (even more so) right after driftmark. Her fears were basically confirmed. Also I would’ve killed to find out how she found out about Rhaenyra and Daemon getting married… perhaps I will write something that includes that. Maybe if I ever get to the Daemon/laena daughter oc 👀

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[ghostiewriter]

I finished KoA🥲

I fucking new gavriel was gonna die I had a feeling and I thought I’d prepared myself for it but I did not and I was fighting to hold in my tears cuz I was not by myself at the moment and it fucking hurt. All those years he could’ve had getting to know aeidon😩 l know it was like he finally accepted his dad after that but it still hurt.

Bro and the thirteen sacrificing themselves for Manon 😫😫😫😫😫 I actually couldn’t hold in my tears for their deaths. Idk if it’s because out of all the characters stories Manon was one of the most captivating for me besides aelin. I absolutely loved her character arc and development, I could never get enough of her chapters and hated when I had to wait more than 5 chapters for her to come up again. And asterins story was so incredibly sad but she’s no longer separated from her human love and child🥹 (not me talking about these characters like they’re actual people)

Also she and dorian better have gotten together after the book I was really rooting for them and I hate I didn’t get to see them finally fall into a romantic relationship with each other. They were so fucking cute 😭

Sorry this is all over the place but I hated reading aelin getting tortured I felt so helpless and was so mad at cairn and Maeve for all the shit they did to her but it’s ok cuz Rowan skinned him alive and maeve finally died in the end :)

Also my appreciation for Rowan and aelin’s relationship after she was rescued went way up. He was just perfect for her and I love them together. I felt for aelin so much, all the shit she gave up for everyone and when Dorian’s dad have her the message from her family 😫 and when she was breaking a little and her mom was comforting her omg my heart was breakinggg.

I loved seeing the soft and vulnerable side of lorcan when he and elide finally got together it was adorable. Idk what it was about their story though I just felt like it was a bit rushed in a way after she avoided him for the most part which was understandable I guess I just really wanted to see a whole conversation about what happened and for him to beg on his knees even though he couldn’t lmao. But it was understandable since they were in the middle of a battle and she was terrified she lost him. Also Lord Lorcan Lochan 🤣 I fucking love them

Lysandra is amazing I love her and I’m glad she didn’t immediately forgive aeidon for all the shit he said to her. I understood why he was mad but this mf took it so personally like my dude get over yourself and stop treating the woman you love like shit!! That being said when they finally got together I was very happy for the both of them😌

Also Yrene fucking Towers ending erawan😏 love her

Omg and them when aelin and chaol finally met up with Dorian 😭 I love all their friendships and it was actually so heartbreaking when the war was done and everyone had to leave back to their countries :(

There’s so much stuff I could say more about but that would be really fucking long and I feel like I’ve gone on enough for now. It was a good read even if it broke my heart over and over again

OH BESTIE I SOBBED DURING THIS BOOO I GET IT AHSHSBSJZBSNSB

The Thirteen sacrificing themselves and Gavriel’s sacrifice genuinely got me, I wasn’t expecting it to make me sob but they did😭especially Gavriel like he just started having a relationship with his son!!!!

ELIDE AND LORCAN ARE SO CUTE AND THEY ARE ONE OF MY FAVS!! Still pissed we never got that smut scene tho, we were robbed!!

But I adore Yrene and I need more Manon and Dorian and just everything was so🫠and the wee scene with Dorian realising he was named after his dad? KILLED ME

anyways, now you can move onto acotar🌚you’re gonna LOVE IT

[darklordofthesimp]

hey dark. i’m not gonna put my anon callsign on here, but i’m just gonna leave this here. you can post it if you want, but ig it’s just more of a way to get it out.

my mom died when i was 17, sept 17th 2021. and despite it being two years later, i still miss her a lot. it stills hurts even if she was a shit mom. like she gave me mountains of trauma and shit but when she died it just really fucked me up. and o don’t deal with it bc i don’t like to confront it. i’ve accepted that she’s dead and gone but like,, it was too early yk? i miss her.

i told my brother and he was joking to avoid the topic and idk i felt a bit invalidated. he told me that life moves in and no one will care if i miss her. basically saying that time stops for no one and that feeling sorry will just make it worse, but like,, that’s our mom yk? ido i just miss her bro

Death is a fucked up thing.

People tend to feel guilt for hating someone who was honestly worthy of being hated. You think that you're not going to feel anything when they passed on because they were so fucking shit to you when they lived. That's the biggest lie people tell themselves.

You're gonna feel it.

You're going to miss them.

And then you're going to feel conflicted about it because why the fuck do you miss someone who hurt you?

Two years is nothing when it comes to grief, so don't feel like you should have moved on by now. My grandmother passed from cancer in 2020, she begged me not to leave for the army so that I could spend time with her during her final Years.

My dad and her had a horrible fucking relationship, she traumatised the shit out of him but she was good to me.

I needed to get out so I said I'll see you throughout the year for holidays. A year and a half later I caught an emergency flight to go see her after she stopped answering my calls. She was so far gone she thought she was hallucinating me.

The next morning she figured that I was real and she started sobbing saying she could die now because she'd seen everyone. She died two days later.

I see my dads guilt even though he was valid in not loving her throughout his life. But the fucking grief that ripped him apart was fucking tangible because that was his MUM.

Same as you.

You're not alone in feeling this way and grieving in your own time is fucking crucial. The world won't stop for you, your brothers right. But you can still grieve AND keep moving forward they're not mutually exclusive. Some of the busiest people on earth are grieving some really heavy things.

Your brother is coping differently and the both of you are struggling to come to terms with what's happened. I promise you you're going to be okay. The sadness for that person and conflict will never really go away but bit by bit you begin to heal and come to terms with the fact that things like this are a tragic part of life and that you can take comfort in the fact that everyone around you knows how grief feels and they're right along there with you regardless of whether you know it or not.

[cheemken]

Ough

Drasna being Diantha’s mother figure is such a great concept. She took in this sad lonely teenager and helped raise her the best she could. And she ignores any warning signs pointed at Diantha because, this is HER kid, the one she took care of. The same teenager who compared herself to a superhero, and wanted to be the worlds hero. She was a good person

Unfortunately for Drasna, she didn’t know that Diantha had a different idea when it came to being a saviour

But god the mental image of Diantha after the battle of Unova is just g r e a t. She’s really expecting her mom to be on her side. That she’s the worlds hero, the worlds queen, just like she always said she was going to be. And now looking at how…terrifying her daughter is, Drasna has to accept the facts that Diantha was always meant to the villain. She was never the hero

Also YES with Diantha being hated when she was a young champion. It gives even more reason as to why she’s so insistent on turning Iris into a proper champion, instead of just, idk, killing her to get her out of the way. Cause she sees herself in Iris and she wants to give Iris the support and upbringing she herself wasn’t given. But she’s so far gone that it’s though unethical ways like manipulation and torture

But one thing I don’t get is if part of Diantha’s plan was to wipe out Unova, or at least the league, how would Iris still be considered a champion? Since she’d have no league to represent she can’t be considered a champion of a league that doesn’t exist no more.

Unless I’m overthink that part and it was just more of a threat to kill them all?

PLEASE THE DRASNA AND DIANTHA ANGST IS JUST CJMFNCMCNDNCBCMN

Your honour I wanna ramble more abt that fr cause like cbdmnd

I did have a concept where Diantha actually heard that exchange between the Psychic and Drasna, and when the Psychic left, Drasna saw Diantha hiding just within ears' reach, and Dia's tearing up, going "am I.. am I gonna be a monster..?" She chokes out, she really doesn't wanna be a monster

And Drasna's there wiping away her tears, pulling her close, calming her down, "of course not, my angel. What they said is nonesense, you know how those psychics can get. You will never be a monster."

"really..?"

And Drasna just pulls her closer to her, almost tucking in Dia's lithe form, and she whispers, "yes, my love, you'll be a hero, not a monster." Even tho she's starting to doubt it too

And just bcmxbdn God please Drasna seeing Diantha after that battle in Unova, sees how too far gone she is, the blood dripping clean from her hands and on her face, staining her white clothes, reaching out to her and god ofc she won't deny her daughter, despite it all that's her kid, that's her child, her darling Diantha, and ough just cbndnd Drasna taking her hands, her own trembling when she felt the blood, and Diantha leans in on her, sobbing

"I'm a hero now, right?" But Drasna didn't answer her, instead she just pulled her closer to her, letting Diantha fall into her arms, body strained after that grueling battle in Unova, "mom.. are you.. proud of me..?" And Diantha finally passed out, the fatigue getting to her

God please that would break Drasna bcmxjdm like imagine seeing the kid who's such a fanatic of this superhero, insisting that she'd have a similar cape and hat like him when she was younger, going on how she's gonna be a hero turn into such a merciless killer who still held on to that belief that what she's doing was right, that she really was a hero, a hero who's better than LucarioMan

And oughhh pls,,,, Diantha seeing Iris and thinking that she'd make Drasna proud too by taking care of Iris, bc hey they're similar yknow, they've been through the same shit, and if Diantha's a hero now bc Drasna said she'd always be, then hey Iris will be one too

But what she didn't expect was for Iris to go against her, why? Why would she even go against her? She's only trying to help her see her potential, to help her see how strong she was, to help her be a true Champion. But even w all that, Iris went against her, even going as far as to get her friends and the entire Unova League to go against her, and she's there wondering what she's doing wrong, she's only doing what she thinks is right

As for the wiping out the Unova League, idk I always imagine that as a threat, or rather she'd get rid of the Elite Four and Gym Leaders, Iris' League, and replacing them w other more capable people that would listen to Iris and even kill those who'd go against Iris or say shit abt her, but if they do cross her then she will just wipe out Unova along w Iris in it, what's the point of keeping a hopeless region around full of weak people, right?

But I also have this lil concept that if Diantha really wipes out Unova's entire League, then she might let Iris be Kalos' Champion, if she's gonna have a successor might as well someone who she knows is strong, someone who actually knows what's it like being a Champion. Plus do you see my lil vision for this, Diantha making Iris a lil version of her bc ofc, they got so much in common, it's only right for Iris to be Kalos' next Champion once Diantha steps down, she just has to double her efforts this time on training her on becoming a true Champion

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

Which Sweden wins were deserved and which ones weren’t, according to me:

1974 - Waterloo by ABBA. Deserved.

This is the reason ABBA’s career set off! And they’re amazing!

1984 - Diggiloo Diggiley by Herreys. Deserved.

I CAN’T TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE DIGGILOO DIGGILEY. I used to listen to this on a CD so much as a kid that the CD broke. It’s silly, it’s catchy, it’s cheesy, it’s amazing. To think, back in this day you could win by singing about something so simple as golden shoes.

1991 - Fångad av en stormvind by Carola. Deserved.

It is catchy asf and easy to dance to. I get it.

1999 - Tusen och en natt by Charlotte Nilsson (Perelli now, but Nilsson in 1999). Undeserved.

This is probably the most ”unknown” of the Sweden wins and sorry to all the Charlotte fans but i’m just not feeling it. Both my parents have said they were very surprised this even won because they weren’t that into it either. It’s not a bad song, but idk if I would call it a winning song either. But oh well, there were other tastes and standards in 1999…

But another reason is that Iceland came in second this year and if we hadn’t won, they would have gotten their first win.

2012 - Euphoria by Loreen. Deserved.

Euphoria was amazing. It’s still a song that plays and holds up.

2015 - Heroes by Måns Zelmerlöw. Both deserved and undeserved.

I was not expecting him to win in 2015 and when he did, I was very happy about it. His song was good and I think what really stood out was the effects with his little animated dude. The only problem is that his win lead us to

1. Have like 7 years of men representing us in esc, all with pretty similar songs and I can barely remember how half of them except for in the chorus. The only exception was 2020 with a trio of women, but then we didn’t have any competition. Finally in 2022 we had a woman compete again and it really felt like a bit of fresh air.

2. Insert Måns every year in esc somehow. Stop inserting him. Stop milking the man.

2023 - Tattoo by Loreen. Undeserved…?

The question mark because I don’t know how to feel. I should feel happy that we’ve won, but I did not at all feel that. Especially when it was so clear that the audience wanted someone else. It didn’t feel right, it didn’t feel fair. And I think swedish media definitely makes it worse when they openly mock the others, especially Finland, over this win. They’re making us look like prudes and kind of insensitive with the things they say. It’s like not even swedish media can celebrate this because they wanna focus on the negative backlash. Like with this behavior, I think we deserve as little points as possible for at least 5-10 years so we can fucking calm down, because I’ve noticed kind of already after Måns’ win we’ve developed this hubris, and I had hoped we’d start to calm down, but now with this win I am sad to say it’s probably not gonna disappear for a longer while.

But at the same time. The song isn’t bad… and Loreen is a queen. And I gotta say, I didn’t think she’d win. First of all, she competed in our national competition in 2017 and didn’t even get to the finale, so I was unsure at first what would even be different this time. Then she won, and I thought, well, people have sent precious esc winners before. It’s never gone that well except for one time in the 80s, but that is an exception. But I guess Loreen just has that po-po-po-pooooooweer /j So seeing her win actually was a bit of a surprise. I knew she’d be popular with juries, but I really thought ”oh but the televoters will probably only give her 100 points at max”. Haha…

It’s cool that she’s the first woman to have won twice, but tbh, eventually it’s just gonna be a textbook trivia. I mean, how relevant is Johnny Logan now? Now we need other records to beat - maybe first band to win twice (Måneskin, Lordi? Maybe?), maybe first country to win with only jury/televotes because the other gave them 0? This year was also a learning year how to do it next time, or possibly a protest to change the system. Honestly, the voting system has changed so much in years, and now we at least have the power in the semi’s. Maybe it will change, maybe it will not. We’ll see.

Also as a final note: There’s a lot of songs you barely remember who have won. From 2016-2019, the only song I remember is Toy by Netta. Also, there’s gonna be so much other underserved wins in the future. Both in our national competitions to choose a representant from our country, and in esc. What happened this year has def happened before.

I’m a bit curious what next year will bring. But I do think this win was more undeserved than deserved, even if I could see why it would win too.

[charmed-asylum]

Damnnnnnn CheChe!!! U done unlock my WH level w this chapter. Damn girl if I didn’t think I was deep diving into this chapter this one was the sign seal and deliver okurrrrt. Before we start I want to start it’s long so your gonna see spoilers sorry it’s a reblog but please read this and her other stories bc this chapter here was one of many ( even every chapter of any story is a true reminder of who she is this one is some top level good good)

ALRIGHT AND IIIIIIIIIIIIII WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOUR SHITTTTTTTTT okay had to get out my system bc shit went down but I was here for it with my sun-visor and shades living the good life.

Last chapter cliff hanger had me hanging at the edge my seat like damn she gone and add a fuckin mid season finale cliff hanger or something.

Girl can I say only you can have a god damn my wig slip off bc of all this sweat with this love screen with a man like Rafe and wrap that shit with a , “ He wrapped it around you and pulled you against him, mindful of how cold you could get “ girl that had me taking this wig off and shaking a bit bc girl mmm mmm girl in this chapter I had me doing this same shit more then twice .

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THE SHE THING I MEAN CAN ANYONE EXPLAIN THAT SHIT I WAIT

When Rafe ask about JJ girl like oh he cares about my friends biiitch stop that lyin he probably saw with his eyes u can see and know this man is trying to pull you away from him . ( and again I say it’s funny I’m like nah in this Rafe actually ain’t the crazy man) “ You knew what he was referring to, and it made you smile. He didn’t like JJ, that was no secret, but you were glad he asked about him because he knew how much you cared about him.”

“I beg him and I beg him to get out, but JJ is one of those people where family is family,” you scoffed. “He’s going to stick by him no matter what, and I hate it.”You had similar thoughts about Rafe, but you kept that to yourself. Sometimes it scared you just how alike he and JJ were, just how much they had in common. You both heard and felt Rafe sigh, and you wondered if his mind had gone to the same place that yours had. “You’re a good friend,” Rafe murmured, and you looked at him just as he brushed a finger down your face. “I like that about you.” You gave him a soft smile. “I try to be.

It’s sad bc idk what we can call this girl she genuinely stuck in a place where she trying to nice I see it and it makes her blind. Bc she cares so much but like in last chapter when JJ knows how she is decide to manipulate ( which for me I’m like zaaaaamn boy you really that desperate) like mmm but for her to say this in away to get this off her chest even tho it’s not like she uses his name I hope Rafe get it . And a clap tho bc she not stupid nor blind like other think like she reminds but like others would want to do if it was reversed she gave him a chance that’s good we finally get announcement 📢

Nos back to my WH SHIT GIRL THAT NECKLACE IS WHAT THAT BC ALOT OF IDEAS CAME IN MY HEAD GIRL IM TOO CRAZY TO BE LEFT W SOMEONE SIMPLE IN SWEET SHIT.

…………. I’m mad bc 😪 shit was just like she said before perfect and I’m like shit this is too nice like we only got to worry about JJ the creep and yandre vibe mother fucker but even this part movie night part was like mmm he ight

After he had apologized, things felt more like what they used to be than they had in a while. You didn’t know if it was because JJ had snapped, letting out everything he’d been keeping inside for months and making you aware of just how much he’d been struggling with this… Or because everything being out and in the open now had relieved him, had been the first necessary step to actually trying now.

I think I see a cycleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ( u know we getting back to this in a minute)

Way you talk about Ward relationship really had me wondering if it’s true like we see Rafe and Ward and Sarah but she ever think 💭 what it’s like for Rafe or oh he crazy he probably did this or that not that I’m his favorite and Rafe only trying to be seen or heard . And as her friend she now sees both sides so how can she truly deal with . Crazy “She’d take it the wrong way, would feel like you were saying she had some blame, and you only just got one friendship back on steady ground. You didn’t want to shake the table on another.”

Look I don’t wanna say it but again I’m gonna put out the fact this man called her a fuckin slut sorry nope slut shame her last chapter ish to give JT sorry shit . Like I understand technically he would understand but I wouldn’t tell JJ anything about Rafe bc he so fuckin manipulative that he make u look back w the wait huh. Think im wrong . She tells him about Rafe and what does he do . Jokes and use that shit against her .

Neatly they reading this chapter 8 times I can finally say they fuckin knew and then wanna guilt trip her was fuck up like how many times did she say it and they forgot. Shows how much they care alot to say but why she feels more free w someone else not her friends mmm to the point she do what ever to keep it .

This part like this really got me feeling I’m in a 4D movie btw bc it felt so real like again going back to what I was saying before like imagine like most siblings feel bc idk about yall but I know the feeling of feeling less then enough and trying to do what ever to get that approval and then get the spit in the face you never cut it bc it’s just I’m a dick saga

Apart of me feel bad bc again who wants to feel your not good enough like why be here and stuff and lord boy totally having those thoughts as he was driving .

Idk why while I’m reading this the song Stan comes to mind and that part at the end when it’s raining and he driving ranting and shit

I mean hot damn

The whole car crash screen had me on the hotline to any bitch better come tho bc I’m about to fuckin lose my shit line .

Level of love this girl has for him is damn like you say what your idea of RIDE OR DIE BITCH DOING IT RIGHT NOW GOD DAMN IT

Now I do want to be that girl butttt JJ A PETTY ASS BITCH BC WHILE EVERYONE ALL oh no poor you JJ OVER IN THE FUCKIN CORNER FACT CHECKING YOUR ASS W EACH LINE

“… your eyes met JJ’s then. He was frowning at you, studying your face, but he pulled you into a hug anyway. He deeply inhaled, breathing you in, and you didn’t want to think about how worried they’d all been. Especially JJ who struggled to let you go.” Like boy just can’t help his creepy ass out can’t he.

Yo Sarah ahah come come next time I tell you to shut the fuck up I mean it okay okay let’s keep the family business out your mouth okay hahaha shit girl like your not much help oh he not herreeeeee okay and neither are my parents so what good sis. Then we got JJ w the ““Ward wouldn’t let Rafe come and see his girlfriend at the hospital after she crashed his car?…“We all know what Rafe is like. Ward’s not gonna stop him from doing what he wants to do…” your heart sank. “So, why wasn’t he at the hospital with you? Why didn’t he at least meet you there? Hmm?” Like mind your business petty pa

Then again like you all her friends she just got in an accident and you wanna have a bunch of oh and ahha and wait a secs moment NOW REALLY OKAY SO ALL THE SHIT WE ALL DO WE GONNA SWEEP UNDER THE RUG BUT U GETA CHANCE TO drag Rafe even tho it gonna pull ur girl down to you do in a heart beat. Bc no lie you all switch up on her real quick like wtf ( sorry but if that was me I be like 💨 oh tia in the Tim’s and thug braids for real )

Welcome back now is this what we call a cycle ⭕️ bc if I’m not mistaken we had last chapter or so ago when JJ decide to be super toxic and nasty and shit at her before and try to play like it was on her.

“I am trying,” was the first thing he said when he forced you to face him. “I promised that I would be better, and I am trying, but you have to meet me halfway.”

You opened your mouth, but he continued.

“What am I supposed to say—do when you wind up in the hospital with bruises and a concussion because your boyfriend snorted a few lines of coke and thought it was a good idea to drive? Tell me how I’m supposed to react to that.”

BOY NOW LETS BE 💯 ight Pope John B even Sarah example of trying you. YOUUU DIDNT EVEN BAT A MOTHEF FUCKIN EYE LASH TO TRYIN 1st chance you get you always down playing her calling her names and making her feel bad then be all 🥺 boy bye .

Then again he got her thinking she in the wrong now honest should she had took the blame to think the worst and someone could of died no no she shouldn’t but still she was thinking of Rafe and the trouble he was in so her being the to she is bf if it was JJ she would of done same shit toooooooo she did it but bitch boy forgot that shit real quick mmm

THEN HE DID IT LIKE THIS IS UR BEST FRIEND BUT ITS NOT RAFE WHO MAKES HER CRY ( besides pleasure or holy shit we about to die bc of the car crash ) but you .

NAHHH NOPE HAHA HE TRYYYYY IT OH DONT COME NON OF YALL COME TIL U COME CORRECT OKAY I WANT A SORRY A GET WELL CARD W A TEDDY AND FLOWERS AND A SIDE OF A 10$ or more gift card to a official place and JJ to get a nerve . Shit like no thank god she alive we all dumb and so shit nope you slow af no thank you for thinking of my dad . You alive okay but girl next time think about logics of what could have happen u is poor girl nope YOU STUPID LIKE YOUR MOMMA. And if toooooper catch me outside boy did speak to Sarah then you telling me he didn’t mention to Sarah how he had to pull him back for going after her . Folks are funny bc they only remember what they want to when they want to bet next time it be like yea girl he did mention how hard Rafe tried to get to you but you was trying to protect him . Nope you stupid ass bitch .

Also side note if papa Cameron don’t have respect for our girl doing this he stupid . Mmm mmm mmm but to wrap it up I knew I hit my level bc after all of this this ending had me hitting new heights as reader and how I was emotionally and mentally at

“He didn’t respond to that, only nodding in defeat, not putting up a fight when you pulled him to lay down with you. When you kissed him, he seemed hesitant to kiss you back, your hands on his as you guided them over your skin. At some point, he didn’t need your help, fully being hit with the knowledge that things could’ve gone so wrong. Rafe was afraid to let you go, and even after you came around him for the third time, he still refused to let you go.”

The Less I Know The Better IX (JJ Maybank x Reader x Rafe Cameron)

Warnings: eventual NON-CON, eventual DUB-CON, jealousy, manipulation, DUI, mentions of blood, underage drinking, drug use, mild unhealthy relationship, eventual violence, one sided kiara x jj, non canon ages, pogue!reader

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summary:  When you start dating Rafe Cameron, no one is more surprised than you when your best friend JJ takes it really well. However, no one is more surprised than JJ when he’s forced to see his once frumpy BFF in an entirely new light, suddenly terrified of losing what he never knew he had to the person he hates most.

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