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sunnibits · 1 year ago

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nah fr tho I’m feeling a new wave of deranged hope that we could actually get fangizzy as endgame,, like,,,,, imagine,,,,

#idk I don’t REALLY think it’ll happen but #the magic of the show is that it COULD #I really truly believe it COULD.#if that’s what the writers thought worked #we’ll just have to wait and see #fang #izzy hands #ofmd

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nathsolkyoako · 19 days ago

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I read the shit I wrote yesterday and like. Dude this is Weird

#like I wrote that that was my hands that typed that gay shit #im. I don’t think it even fits the theme I could change a few things to make it more on theme ig??? but idk im probably not gonna post it #probably. im not sure I don’t know #no one elseis gonna write it I guess. I think. I don’t know #again nothing even happens they just talk about it but it’s still Weird #idk smth smth sex as just a topic or something that’s happening from different perspectives who like it more or less than the other is an #interesting thing to think about #there was a book I read for English last year called smth like ‘beautiful world’ or smth by ocean vuong. I definitely spelled that wrong #and that topic came up a few times and how he explained it was really interesting #he was gay in the like 90s or 80s and they had to keep their relationship a secret and shit idk it was cool it was interesting to think abt #like it can be used as a topic the same way a fight could or a walk in the woods is #also im like a grey ace so im definitely seeing just that whole topic in general as like. idk smth that isn’t real like how you’d talk about #a dragon or smth like it’s talked about a lot and you see it in media and shit but you know it’ll never happen to you/you won’t actually see #it yourself #cod I talk a lot

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chibishortdeath · 5 months ago

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Great googley moogley it’s all going to shit! Every day becomes exponentially more terrifying!

And all perfectly timed to just right at the start of what’s supposed to be my adult life where I get my shit together and be useful and productive!

#we’re cooked #we’re doomed #idk the end is nigh or whatever god damn #I just wanna be able to live in my own house and draw a guy sometimes without the ever present threat of the horrors is that too much #apparently yeah cause houses aren’t achievable anymore but man #m a n #especially if you didn’t/couldn’t go to college and aren’t capable of working most jobs #doesn’t help there’s the chance some part of my existence might be suddenly illegal or extremely dangerous yippie!#the options are literally 1. people die 2. people die what the hell do you even do man #how the fuck is this the election I’m gonna get forced to be a part of we’re living in hell #and nobody around me believes it’ll get bad yay great oh so wonderful #I can’t wait to lose rights and cause millions of deaths regardless of who gets chosen #I think one of these days I’m literally just gonna die of stress #it’ll either be a stroke or a heart attack or cancer or uh well ya know #we’re fucked #we’re screwed #I wanna have some kind of an actually visible break down but ive suppressed everything so much that I don’t outwardly emote much anymore :)#and the constantly dissociating thing too I guess #if you ever think ‘oh yeah I can just think of guy in a situation that’s so cool’ don’t it’s a trap—#although tbh this would be significantly worse without it so uh law of equivalent exchange I guess #fuck fuck fuck anyway #not putting this in the main tags #definitely deleting this later #if anyone in my house got any hints that I may or may not have different opinions than them well uh I’m financially dependent on them so um #literally wouldn’t have anywhere to go if anything happened #oh we’re really in it now Simon #hell world #there’s like what 7 genocides going on too I hate everything I hate everything I hate everything #I can’t do anything to help anyone either cause I don’t have a job and I could get kicked out or treated badly at home for it #not that anyone thinks very highly of me at home anyway I am kinda family disappointment number 2 I pretty sure

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bright-and-burning · 26 days ago

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for someone who has really been battling w obsessive thoughts re:race safety for the last like 6 weeks this race is maybe going to do me in

#you guys don’t even know the amount of times i’ve had to like #fight my brain to stop thinking abt ppl crashing on repeat for an hour #i haven’t posted abt it bc it’s quite silly. to not be able to get urself to stop seeing crashes #and to be convinced like if i don’t somehow get myself to stop thinking abt it it’ll happen #(and if i talk abt it then its real which means it’ll happen. to my dumb brain)#but . idk if i’ll be able to watch now that ive kind of convinced myself if i do something really bad is gonna happen #augh. brain no worky :(

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 2 months ago

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this sucks this sucks this SUCKS

#blue chatter #literally NOTHING IS WRONG #nothing weird is happening this week besides being busier than usual tomorrow #which is perfectly okay and I can handle it #but I’ve been having increased frequency of dissociative episodes and intrusive memories all week #I don’t necessarily think they’re flashbacks? bc I know where I am in real life and that it’s not real #but I’ll remember the same traumatic thing over and over again #and it’ll just spin like a broken record in my brain for hours #or my body will lock up and I’ll get flashes of something new I just remembered #and I’m not dissociated because I am *so firmly* in my body but I can’t fucking *move*#because if I move then I’m not safe or someone will be mad at me or smth. idk. I know it’s irrational.#I would really like it to stop #I want a break

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catboyloghain · 1 year ago

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i’ve been avoiding buying clothes for a long time bc Ugh but i’m doing it today bc i need some new basic things before going on this fancy cruise with my parents. dropped $300 in the first store. why is everything in the world so expensive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#telling myself this is fine bc i haven’t bought myself new shit in years #and none of my jeans fit right anymore #so those are necessities #i still need to go to the shoe store bc my sketchers are like ten years old #and i got them at bealls #so i need nice clean sneakers and maybe some nice flats #idk how my parents will feel about me wearing my docs on the cruise even though i think they’re nice #fuck it! it’ll be cold so boots are normal and acceptable right #this suuuuuuuucks this suucks so bad #also i don’t consider myself to be that fat #like i definitely am a little bit but im really not that big i think im kind of average maybe a little above #but im consistently the largest size at these stores #how does anyone bigger than me buy clothes #like this is so ridiculous #im a 16/18/XL in women’s an L/XL in men’s #like this is a normal average size to be; and yet they only stock up to a 16 usually. i found one pair of pants in a 20 #unbelievable shit happening at the gap

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star-crossed-lizards · 2 months ago

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i miss my ex but i don’t miss the effect he had on me something terrible happens to me when im in a relationship and it just ruins everything

#i just don’t want anyone to have that much power over me again #i feel like i need to do a loooooooot of personal development before i can feel confident that it won’t happen again #it’s just in my nature to do whatever other people want especially if i care about them and want them to be happy #i have to learn how to tone that down though or i’m going to keep ruining my own life over and over on accident #also he was really mean to me and made me feel bad a lot but idk if i’m sensitive or if he was rly mean or maybe both?#i can’t even be friends w him bc i know he will be able to talk me into getting back w him #and it’ll work on me bc i’m really easy to manipulate #so i have to just never see him again. and he was like the only person i spent any time with for years #and at first i was like yay finally i can see other people!!!!!!#and i am still happy about that i don’t want to give that up but i do wish i could have a nice time with him #we have some really nice memories together #i wish he was someone that was still safe for me but he’s not i do not trust him #he also shows me constantly that he doesn’t care about what i want he just wants to be with me and come live w me again #like i really don’t think he gives a fuck about what i want or my wellbeing if it clashes w what he wants then he doesn’t care #he’s been saying a loooooot of stuff to me that makes me very confident that our relationship cannot be repaired

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gaylittleguys · 4 months ago

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trying to keep an open mind bc the concept of this movie is very interesting but the characters are so annoying it’s pissing me off

#watchin coherence #holding out hope that it’ll get better but.#:|#this happened also when I tried to watch reign of fire last week #which started off really cool and interesting but the second the Americans showed up it kind of sucked #and Matthew mcconaughey specifically pissed me off so bad I turned the movie off #.doc #I think it’s fine to have characters that suck or are annoying or make poor decisions #but. I think you do have to care enough or find them interesting enough to want to find out what happens #and I think this is a hurdle that comes up in horror a lot #bc an inherent part of the genre is bad things happening to the characters #and you don’t feel as bad and it can be fun to watch characters who suck get their comeuppance as it were #idk. protagonists don’t have to be likeable or good people but they do have to be interesting you know?#and also there’s a threshold of annoying that you cannot pass with every single protag

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itwaslegendary · 11 months ago

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okay so nothing interesting happened tbh!! the only “interaction” was when i was waiting for my best friend at her class’ door (she and him are in the same group) and when he was going out he passed right next to me so i moved a bit to the side to let him through and he said “oh sorry” but that was all and it was just like a basic polite gesture lmaoao

i have class again this afternoon and this time i’ll actually have to be with him bc we are both in that class and in total we are 9 people there so we’ll see (nothing will happen jdnsjckqvck but at least it’s fun)

#rambles #i also caught him staring at me once when i was talking to my friend but i don’t really mind that #this is so foolish one it’s hilarious #i don’t think this will go anywhere but at least it’s entertaining #i mean the morning is boring enough already at least i have something that keeps me interested #so idk this kinda takes part of the boredom away…? even if nothing ever happens between us it’ll have been a fun ride

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butch--dean · 1 year ago

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My partner’s building caught on fire last night bc some asshole was shooting off fireworks on the front lawn 🙃

#things keep happening and happening and happening and happening and happening #and I really fucking need them to stop #tbd on if his unit caught on fire but it definitely has smoke damage #anyway. I’m exhausted for him and not to make it about me. but I’m so fucking tired #I need to hibernate for the rest of the year I think #and like. to make it more complicated this isn’t the only huge thing that’s happened to him in the last month. there’s at least two other #giant life altering things that have happened #and I have been waiting for a good time to have a hard convo with him. but shit keeps happening #and I don’t know how to do it now #I feel selfish for feeling like this but jesus fuck #i need to talk through this Thing with him before I can allow myself to get further entangled in the relationship #and he doesn’t know it’s coming and idk how it’s going to shake out. if it’ll be the end or not #but he’s so wonderful and I don’t want to lose him #and I don’t want him to lose me while all this shit is going down #but fuck. that might happen #ugh

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mars-ipan · 2 years ago

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^ nervous but excited

#the senior picnic is tomorrow and i’m genuinely looking forward to it #i’m also kinda scared shitless bc i am going to. ask someone out lmao #SCARED !!!!! i have literally never directly asked someone out with my words before #bc like. okay. when i was a kid and had my first crush #i told EVERYONE in the class except that kid. so eventually someone accidentally told him #since then i have sworn myself to secrecy with crushes. i tell my most trusted friends and NOBODY else #….iiiincluding the person i’m crushing on #i once wrote a note to a kid in middle school but 90% sure i was bearding so i don’t really count it #anyways point is i have liked this person like literally all year. and i do not know what i’m doing #i’ve done tarot readings. i’ve had dreams (they kissed me in my nap dream earlier it was O-O). like i am being given the green light #and i know if i DON’T say anything i’ll regret it #and worst case scenario it’ll be a lil awkward and then we’ll go back to being friends (they’re not an asshole and neither am i)#but i’m still so so so fucking nervous bc i’ve never done this before!!!! and it’s new and i’m not in control and idk what will happen like #at all #bc ok. i don’t think i’m definitely going to get rejected. but i also don’t think it’s definitely gonna be mutual yaknow???#bc i’ve been looking for signals. and i think there have been some????#i’m normally very good at knowing when ppl are flirting with me #but when i like the person i become COMPLETELY oblivious no matter how hard i try #i am fully unsure of how they feel about me #like offering to do heart hands with someone for a picture and regularly complimenting their hair and foot positioning and laughing at jokes #when nobody else does and and and #they do a bunch of shit like that! and it’s just like. they’re such an overall nice person that idk if they’re flirting w me #or if that’s just who they are. i do not know #ANYWAYS. i gotta go to bed so i’m well-rested and don’t chicken out #bc i will kick myself forever if i do #uhhhh #goodnight tumblr #wish me luck !! please i need it very badly

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inkykeiji · 2 years ago

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*JJK Spoilers*

Yeah the next manga chapter was leaked and he’s OUT AND LOOKIN BETTER THAN EVER!!!! ^-^ I literally drooled and dropped to my knees when I saw hehehe

(I will say as someone who read up to this point- it is long and grueling after the Shibuya Arc into the Culling Game Arc)

jjk manga spoilers

AAAAAAAH IS HE REALLY OH MY GOD I COULD CRY I MISSED HIM SO MUCH 。ﾟ(ﾟﾉД｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡ i literally stopped reading after naoya died because i was like WELP all of my faves are dead or locked away and now i’m bored HAHAHA so i’ve just kinda been ??? waiting for daddy gojo to return. i promised myself i’d pick back up where i left off as soon as i knew he was outta the box so!!! i’m gonna catch up to bsd manga first and then i’ll start devoting time to jjk again hehe c:

#jjk manga spoilers #jjk spoilers #wow so much going on today #dabi and gojo all at once????????? my mind literally cannot handle it I HAVE ANXIETY LOL :(#this is what happens when i feel like idk i don’t know how to properly explain it but it’s basically when i have more than one heavy #fixation happening at once #i find it really difficult to divide my time between them and then get this inexplicable anxiety because of it #anyone else who hyperfixates may understand what i’m talking about/trying to say but it sucks #i have so much trouble juggling more than one Thing at once but i am trying!!!!#either way i’m so glad to hear that he’s back <3 #i have a gojo fic in the works (shh!!!) that was originally one of my genshin fics but now i think it’ll be jjk #it’s just such a good idea and i love it so much but it won’t work with bnha characters :/#anyway!!!!! EEEEEE FUN FUN #i hope ur having a lovely day my friend!! <3 #stay safe and drink lots of water! <33 #clari gets mail #inky.jjk

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fingertipsmp3 · 2 years ago

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Would it be stupid of me to request time off on the day after the Eurovision final

#there’s no consequences for requesting time off; to clarify. i’m on a zero hours contract so unless i’m sick or outright ask for holiday pay #i’m just getting a day or more of unpaid time off #but still. would it be silly and frivolous #i don’t even want it in order to drink… i just want to stay up and watch the entire thing including the voting #and not have to worry about working a 9-5 the next day (because i always seem to fucking get signed up for 9-5s while everyone else gets to #do a delayed start. what is that about)#i put in the request. it’ll most likely get accepted. like i don’t see why it wouldn’t #there’s already 3 people signed up to work that day… they don’t need me #the only reason i think they’d decline it is because i have unpaid time off the following sunday; but i will HAPPILY cancel that so i can #have the 14th off instead. i requested the 21st off for a pokemon go community day but tbh i’m not even really playing pogo anymore #since they nerfed remote raids and ya girl lives in the middle of nowhere so there goes like. my only way of getting legendaries.#anyway. that happened. i’ll just leave it and if it gets rejected i’ll bring it up with my manager #and lie or something and say i had plans on the 21st but was going to move them to the 14th and would it therefore be okay for me to have #that day off instead? i feel like that would work #honestly though idk why i worry considering one of the guys in retail has weeks of time off… i’m starting to wonder why he took the job #and if he’s ever actually planning on coming back to work. i legit haven’t seen him in a month and i’m there ~4 days a week #it’s a little bit fucking wild but anyway yeah.#nothing better come between me and the eurovision or we are going to have a problem #it’s bad enough i’m going to miss some of wimbledon. i’ve worked in education most of my adult life so this too is a new concept for me #if i can catch the opening day and the finals i’ll be happy tbh #personal

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theswampghost · 4 months ago

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i was supposed to go see dp&w earlier today but the theater had a power outage and i don’t think ill be able to go back to see it 😭😭😭

#my next few days are so hectic i won’t have time to do anything #idk why i’m so upset about this i was just really looking forward to it today and now i don’t think it’ll happen for a long time #lu.txt

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scrimple · 1 year ago

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one of my scars is shaped like my home constellation in a past life and i’m starting to think the universe guided my hand to create it to remind me of where i’m from

#bunny talks #i’m ok just venting #block don’t report #i finally took off the bandaids …#picked at them a little bit #the deepest one is white it kinda looks like pus um. idk if that’s just normal for it healing wise #but it usually happens with deeper cuts of mine anyways #it just looks kinda . idk i don’t feel good when i look at it but i don’t feel bad necessarily #just empty kinda nauseous i think . but no feelings attached just physical reactions? if that makes sense #i feel so disconnected from myself all the time #i need to shower and idk if i can without bandaids on i’m really scared it’ll hurt bad and i’d rather just wait until it closes itself but #idk if that’s wise #augh idk anymore

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insanechayne · 2 years ago

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#late night thoughts at it again #sitting with my melancholy #not trying to feed into it necessarily but at the same time I’m starting to think that if I don’t let myself feel it and deal with it #then it just won’t ever go away #and of course it’s over something really stupid anyway but that’s just how I am I guess #my one friend and I used to be closer and things have cooled over the last couple weeks and I’m having a hard time handling it #I miss the flirting and talking about sex and calling each other baby and having that connection that we did #it was a bunch of positive attention for me and I grew accustomed to it #and he’s going through stuff right now and isn’t in the mood for all that and it’s not that I don’t completely understand that #and I’d never want to make him uncomfortable or be pushy or anything like that #just feels weird and makes me kinda sad because I miss him and us and all of that stuff #going from being one way every day for months to suddenly being nothing is really hard to handle and accept #it’s like filling a bath with nice hot water and being so excited to get in but then getting called away and having to let it drain out #it’s like that weird form of disappointment when you know you can’t change something #and I just have to wait around and hope he’ll come back to me like that one of these days #but sometimes it feels like that won’t happen #and if it doesn’t that isn’t a problem because whatever he decides/wants is fine #it’s just that I would want to know now so I can start getting him out of my head in that way #but keeping the hope around… if it goes south later on it’ll kill me #idk just a lot of dumb shit on my mind now #and he and I have a motto about our relationship #friends first #so I’m not going to let this effect our friendship #and I know we will always be good close friends and that does make me really happy #but I still have to sit with the rest of it and process it and keep myself calm about it #I guess sometimes we just have to let our demons talk for a while #personal

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