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lilgynt · 1 year ago

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moms WILL make sure you cry once a day at least

#personal #i’ve been cleaning my room all day and #that doesn’t effect anything but mid crying i’m just muttering i didn’t do anything bc at this point it’s a comfort mantra for when my #family fucks around with me randomly.#anyway so my mom calls and said she was talking with a friend and i got brought and so did my issues #and she got me these expensive vitamins and im steadily getting sadder/ more annoyed during the call and crying silently #and i saw yes to taking them and she keeps going and i’m like mom i said yes #and she’s like it’s just a conversation and i tell her i’m just upset bc the move for my mental health is #ignoring any issue i bring up then buying me expensive gifts so i can’t talk about said issue #and i was like i want to be clear. this is extremely nice gesture. thank you. thank you very much #and she’s like i can never do anything nice for you #so i’m like maybe we can hold off on nice gifts or treats and focus on communicating or get pass these door issue #and she just went silent like she always does so i just said never mind thank you and we hung up #and now i’m crying in bed feeling utterly alone cause it’s not like i can reach out to either of my brothers #and i feel resentment for ben grow everyday just bc he gets to live his life after doing that to me #and i have to live with the consequences of his actions everyday #and everyone keeps saying their not blaming me for it and then treating me like shit #i m just gonna stop talking to my mom as much for a while i’m not talking to either of my brothers if i can help it but #i just let her slide even tho she’s literally begging me to get back harder with my ed

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ziggy-stardust-is-in-love · 2 months ago

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wow I love being an average teenage girl!! completely normal and not strange!!

#IM SO HAPPY I GOT TO BRING UP THE TIGERS #they’ve been in the basement longer than I’ve been alive #They’re at least 50 years old #probably around 60 #They were my Canadian great grandfathers (he died LONGGG before I met him. Seems chill though)#Sorry my room is so messy oml it’s so bad #I’m cleaning it asap #If yall have any simple decoration recommendations lmk #Green day #david bowie #posters #EEE #HAHAH I MIGHT DRESS MY SKELETON IN ONE OF MY DAVID BOWIE COSTUMES #WIG AND ALL

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godsperfectprincess · 3 months ago

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the last day of august has been so beautiful

#ash rambles #it’s been overcast the past couple of days but today it’s sunny and breezy #i’ve been reading a sipping on shirley temples all afternoon #i spent the morning cleaning my room so they can put new floors in tomorrow and it looks so nice #i’m thinking of watching a movie over dinner….#genuinely such a lovely rest day

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disengaged · 8 months ago

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i have been diagnosed with “rather severe” fibromyalgia

#and ‘likely’ the me/cfs double whammy but he couldn’t determine my #degree of PEM so i’d have to find someone else to confirm it #pegasus speaks #they told me i was gonna have to stay on the psych ward until monday or tuesday if i wanted to see the rheumatologist #bc they don’t work weekends and there is no outpatient option #(told me this AFTER i had been discharged .. like after they had cleaned my room and put someone else in it)#i’d been waiting for them to come see me all day and then evening rolled around and still nothing #and i’ve been fighting for this for years so i agreed. but i cried so hard the doctor arranged for an on-call to see me #did the whole physical and ultrasounds and went over all the blood work and my history again #and i got to go home after #i’m so thankful to that man #feels like shit to know how poor the prognosis is but i’m comforted to have a concrete starting point #to know i’m not delusional after 6-7 years of seeking medical attention for this #i’m both saddened and so relieved #and above all exhausted

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fingertipsmp3 · 1 month ago

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I’m always so fascinated by people’s bad roommate stories. I’m not sure I’ll ever live with someone I haven’t vetted extensively beforehand ever again

#every living situation where i’ve been assigned roommates randomly; i always seem to get one person who is an absolute angel #and 1-2 people who are honestly fucked up #i lived in halls 1 year of undergrad and everyone was kind of equally insane. honestly no one stood out as particularly bad #because everyone was just constantly screaming. i dealt with it by going home most weekends and getting noise cancelling headphones #3rd year of undergrad i lived in a suite which.. honestly was basically an apartment. had a living room/kitchenette; a toilet; a shower room #and 4 bedrooms #one of my roommates i’m still friends with to this day but honestly they were and are kind of a ridiculous person #like they were actively dealing drugs most of the year and their boyfriend was around most of the time and they would bone LOUDLY #and that’s the good roommate. so you can imagine the other two #one of the others.. honestly wasn’t a bad roommate; she was helpful and clean and civil #she was loud as hell though. she used to have attacks of insomnia and decide to rearrange her furniture at 3 in the morning #and we shared a wall. she also had an illegal pet rabbit.#our personalities just didn’t mesh well; like it became clear pretty fast that we were going to spend as little time together as possible #third roommate was loud; rude; annoying and gross. she’d be calling people at 7am just to yell down the phone to them about her problems #i was like who is picking up the phone to this bitch. she also picked up on my homosexual vibes in that way that homophobic straight girls #always seem to have; and was convinced i had a crush on her. and she bought a betta fish (allowed according to dorm rules) and then it died #because she didn’t want to take care of it properly. and she refused to do anything for herself #like she was always breaking shit and leaving it because she didn’t want to email or call maintenance. so then i’d have to do it #because it was always something we specifically shared. like a set of shelves she put a fucking 5lb shampoo bottle on. twice.#in grad school it was almost the same thing. one angel roommate who was kind of messy but otherwise fantastic #she rolled the best joints i have ever seen. and i still miss her cat cali #it was the men that were the problem. one was an international student who left after a month and bothered nobody #like to the point i didn’t notice when he moved out because he was so innocuous #the other two though….. so one of them started hooking up with my favourite roommate and immediately became SUPER annoying #the other one stole shit; left lights on all the time; left fridge and cupboard and freezer doors open; tried to guilt trip me #into giving him my weed; played mariah carey at 2am; never bought a single cleaning product or household item for the collective #unless you told him to…… he was even using my toothpaste at one point. like. sir.#oh and he was always dirtying other people’s dishes and cookware and leaving them in the sink for days. and leaving big chunks of food #in the sink. it was fucking gross #personal

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exopelagic · 3 months ago

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okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool

#okay so I came to this flat and he wasn’t here. greeted by a very dirty flat with shit all over the kitchen counters over cling film #I meet first my other flatmate who told me he stays in his room constantly bc of previous bad flatmates #has literally just a saucepan and some salt in the kitchen. so I’m like okay spaghetti guy potentially not great but could just be #how this guy is yknow #on Tuesday I get an email back saying he’s coming back from Norway tonight looking forward to seeing you feel free to use the kitchen sauces #rlly friendly message that I wasn’t expecting. I also didn’t know he’d been on a trip i just knew he wasn’t there bc his door was open #(to a REALLY nice room. multiple rlly nice plants (which he has little care labels for!!!) and it’s tidy and pretty #and he’s got a sheep teddy on the bed)#meanwhile I am in my own head bc I don’t wanna cook in the kitchen until I can clean it and I can’t clean it without moving his shit and #I haven’t seen him yet to talk abt it and I can’t bring myself to talk to him immediately bc I’m dying #and embarrassed as hell by how I’ve been cooking in my room with a microwave and air fryer (loud) and sneaking my shit out of the kitchen #but then yesterday I DO talk to him!! and he’s super friendly!! actually interested in having a conversation and Good at it.#and then he’s cooking and like. spaghetti burns but I’m not there for long and seems to be a mistake (he made the same thing for lunch today #and did Not burn the spaghetti) and is otherwise clearly competent bc the food smells Good and despite leaving a few things out it’s like #washed up stuff isn’t dirty and the sides are better despite still under cling film. more a case that he’s spread out than he’s messy #and now today we talked and i offered to hold onto some shit over summer bc complicated situation that boils down to he’s flying back home #and he cant take all his stuff and had to choose between chucking stuff/having literally nothing this weekend. like sleeping on the sofa etc #and then cleans the whole flat?? which I’m assuming a good chunk is his mess? but he did not need to do that. could’ve easily left #bc there are two people still living here who would’ve had to deal with it and he doesn’t know either at all #and THEN tonight we talk abt food which is fun bc we both ordered stuff. and he offers me some honeydew melon bc he’s been gorging himself #these past two days to finish it before it goes bad/he leaves which is also really sweet #and JUST NOW. I take my headphones out after finishing dinner and hear the sweetest fucking guitar #he plays the gentlest like dreamy sounding acoustic guitar I’ve heard in my life in his room (door closed by the time I leave)#this is actually just a really cool dude #now that the kitchens clear I’m gonna cook tomorrow and will probably offer him some bc otherwise he’s gonna be eating out all weekend #he has extra takeout for tomorrow night but might want smth Sunday #regardless I am just. huh??? left a bit stunned bc of the u turn my opinion of this guy has taken. bc my opinion of him was a reflection #of my discomfort moving to this weird dirty basement flat with two people I didn’t know #well. idk where to go from here. I think I’ll start by talking to him more this weekend. bc holy fucking shit.#luke.txt

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beheadable · 4 months ago

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Ouuughhh…. Sickle……. <3

#HI #I’ve been running around the house all day and also elden ring #I also have to bake a cake tonight for my mom’s fiancé’s birthday #which I am very eager to do I miss baking #but I just saw a photo in my phone and lost it a little #I am marginally less stressed and annoyed at everything now though because I cleaned my room

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sscrambledmeggss · 4 months ago

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mimi is sick :(

#my pet bird #i woke up today and uncovered her cage and she has been plucking her feathers :(#my family and i immediately made a vet appointment #but like that’s my bestie #she was with me through all of middle school and like ughh #i’ve been trying not to sob all day because i don’t want to stress her out more #we cleaned her cage and put a mirror in there to distract her #and have been playing calming music #she’s acting normal besides being itchy and of course her bald spots :( she also has diarrhea :(#but she’s been eating which is good!!#i’m just so worried about her #but in like three hours is her vet appointment #i’m kinda in shambles over it #she has never done this before and i worry i did something wrong #or that she has a disease #we also took alibaba out of my room in case it’s contagious #tw vent #meg’s incoherent thoughts

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lilgynt · 4 months ago

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why my mom can’t flush or wash her hands is beyond me

#personal #it’s the washing hands mainly #like does it suck to see pee/poop left over Yes. Emphatically Yes.#way better than seeing her walk out the rest room and not once hearing the water running #and like i call her on which obviously she doesn’t like #which can lead to her doing it #telling me she was gonna do it in the kitchen sink #which way are you washing ur pee/poo hands in the sink we clean our dishes in?????????????#or yells at me i’m not her mother #mother fucker you ruin the communal space as is don’t make it poopy too 😭😭😭😭#haven’t eaten all day bc when i ran home to grab my lunch #two car accidents made the ten minute trip back to my office the whole hour #and i see or smell something gross in my house i immediately lose appetite.#i do have cereal so i can eat that ��#ugh now i’m remembering her grabbing a fist full of the bowl i began making yesterday when she asked me to paint her toenails #i hate bashing her in this way bc it feels. worse than just calling her on her actions buts it’s so fucking gross #she grew fungus under press ons i did for her and swore off them #but all i could think is that…….#i don’t even wanna say it #dad made me lose 30 pounds last year on accident i’ve actually gained weight - not all of it bc i still fit in the #clothes i bought during that time but let’s see if i can lose more bc of my mom #like cooking yesterday way gross bc of the house and then i remember my mom can also be gross #and has control of every room outside of my room #which is a mess bc i’ve been partying so much #(it was a mess before laundry is KICKING my ass)

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diorstarr · 8 days ago

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good (?) morning I had very weird dreams last night which is odd because I never (remember) my dreams…one was me baking something and I put the toaster in the oven but I didn’t do it the right way and someone (my mother?) yelled at me and I woke up feeling so guilty and shameful, as if I was about to cry. Then I went to sleep and imagined I met up with a group of mutuals but not in a yayyy!!this is fun way but in a way that felt as if they were going to bash my head in with a bunch of rocks….and i know why I’m dreaming these things bc I’m so sooo stressed rn but what’s weird is that I usually dream of the thing itself happening to me (taking the test and doing horribly, being called on by the prof and humiliated in front of the class) I’ve never really had stress dreams where another Bad Thing is happening to me….

#and I woke up in a weird mood bc of it all and I’m not feeling real rn😵‍💫😓#ok byeeee have a good day everyone I have to lock in 🔐for class and my finals that are coming up #manifest I also clean my room today bc it’s bad and I’ve been putting it off🤧#*

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cetoddle · 5 months ago

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well i’ve completed the first step towards cleaning my room. i finally picked up the literal pile of trash by my desk

#i love being depressed 🥰#i’ve been feeling slightly better the past few days #so i want to make a plan and try to work on cleaning this weekend #before things get bad again #i just have so much stuff and so little room ..#but it’s gotten to the point that i recognize living in a mess isn’t helping my mood at all #so id like to work on that while im in one of my better periods mentally #i think i always try to get everything done in one day (impossible) and just stress myself out even more #so this time ill just take it little by little. maybe ill clean off my desk later and finally put some laundry away #and then this weekend i can focus on my shelves #next time i have a day off i can work on my dresser..things like that #snow.txt

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kastukj · 7 months ago

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Soon I will be free of adult chores and have my own life back,,, soon,,