#i will throw my laptop across the room
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what if I used the opening paragraph of We Have Always Lived in the Castle to teach my students how to write a good intro to their narratives. I have no idea if they would get or appreciate it but it would be a little treat for me
#we have always lived in the castle#shirley jackson#if I read one more narrative that starts like#ever since I was a child I loved to play football!#everyone has experienced sadness in their lives!#i will throw my laptop across the room#Merricat is gonna show these kids how it’s done
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just saw some art of armand and middle aged daniel on twt. just shoot me it would be less painful than the emotions im feeling right now
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800 words is still progress even if I don't love every one of em and they took me all night to write
#I say to myself as I try not to throw my laptop across the room#i write sometimes#look. this is literally a drop in the bucket. this thing is another long marchly chapter fic no one asked for but my brain was like hey!#you should write this!#so 800 words of chapter 2 is. nothing. it's literally nothing. it's less than nothing.#it's also the most progress I've had in a very long time#I'm exhausted now though and must sleep cause I can feel my mental faculties going to shit#and the writing isn't flowing anymore at all so I gotta call it#I'll study the aftermath tomorrow at some point and see if anything I wrote is salvageable 🤞
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me internally when i’m trying to respect and recognise that my dad has unaddressed autism that impacts the way he handles social interractions while also trying to not just excuse the shitty insensitive behaviour that has absolutely contributed to my mental health issues
#it’s like. haha yeah he handled that situation terribly but remember it wasn’t intentional and he doesn’t understand how that came across!!#i can’t be mad at him i can’t take it personally and get upset haha. hahaha.#and also it’s like. being autistic isn’t an excuse to be a dick. being autistic doesn’t mean you have to like. emotionally damage ur kid ✌🏻#which i AM. growing up with him has fucked me up!!! and i’m allowed to be mad at that i’m allowed to be upset!!!!!!!!#but also oh god is that shitty of ME??? is that insensitive???? do i need to just be more empathetic and understanding#but ALSO also. when ur a kid that shit doesn’t matter. when ur a kid and ur dad is making you cry that doesn’t matter.#and those years of damage stick with you even when ur older and trying to be mature and understanding#literally this evening started with me trying to do something nice for him. trying to give him a gift. actually literally giving him a gift.#and it has ended with me feeling fucking….. shit.#and disrespected. and useless.#i try so fucking hard with this man and with our relationship and every fucking time i try to connect with him he throws it back in my face#like. hey! you’ve been saying how much you want to play gran turismo 7!!! i will loan you my PS5 for a while bcus i’m not playing anything#and i will BUY YOU the fucking car game for you to play it while me and my mum are away on our girlie beach holiday#like i will happily and enthusiastically do those things for you because you have been so vocal about wanting to play this game!!!#so it will make you happy right? it will be something positive for you to enjoy!!! right?!!!????#i will bring my console down to the family tv room for you and i will send you the money so you can buy the game!!!!#oh. oh you’ve clicked around the main playstation menu for 2mins and then turned it off to watch the news. and then just open ur laptop.#not even gonna buy the game huh. just gonna open ur laptop and zone out and act line i’m not even in the room. oh ok. ok ok.#not even a fucking thank you. not even a HINT of recognition. ok ok. ok. ok. now you’re literally ignoring me when i talk to you. ok. ok.#and like!!!! i know this seems so dumb and minor and insignificant but you have to understand. it has been 25 years of this shit.#25 years of me trying to make this man happy and 25 years of him rejecting all of those attempts.#and 25 years of……. a lot of other shit also.
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Play in my mind on repeat (On repeat) How can I fall asleep? I loved you, now you'll never leave (Never leave) How can I fall asleep now?
Beige by Half Alive
#beige#half alive#music video#indie music#gif.mine/midnightlonelygirl#wanted to try giffing for the first time in a long time#this was fun but i want to throw my laptop across the room#anyway this was a cool music video#music
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the worst thing about digital art is that when you pour hours of your life and your heart and soul into a very special painting for a loved one only to end up spurned and betrayed, you can't even tear it up and cast it into the fire in a fit of dramatic hysterics. all you can do is like. delete it.
#VERY anticlimatic and offers none of the emotional release i'm looking for here#i want to throw my laptop across the room but i recognize that's a bad idea#life tag
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news! csp crashed on me and the yuurollo art i spent 10+ hours on was completely wiped and not even the initial sketch remains!
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cozy memories <3
#ts4#legacy#simblr#phoebe#rowan#konnor#august#it took them so long to sit down at the hot pot i was thisclose to throwing my laptop across the room#august got up and tried to eat a bowl of cereal instead like are you SERIOUS#why are sims so obsessed with cereal they could have the finest most delectable spread of food#and still want that bowl of cereal#ok last one for now#!!
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hendo off in the second half please i'm about to become ageist
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I hate windows 11 so much. So so so much. Worst operating system I've ever had to use. Leave me ALONE with all the popups and horrible programms I didn't install. I DON'T CARE ABOUT MCAFEE HOW ABOUT YOU WORK INSTEAD. And don't treat me like a mentally challenged neanderthal I have used a computer before.
It might've now broken my ubuntu installation, istg I will commit terrorism if it's not fixable. Who does it think it is to even fucking touch that partition.
#i'm about to throw my laptop across the room I've never ever been so mad#apparently 'critical error: your start menu isn't working. please log out' which is the ONLY action they allow after that.#except they do not fix it when I log in again. they also don't allow me to do anything else about it. i want to kill windows.#why do I need to use this horrible horrible operating system. let me use linux this is a cs course why can't I use linux.#personal
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incredible notification to get after the fucking day i had at work
#you would think every architect in the tri-state area wants to win this one project and wants us on their team bc our business is sdvosb#and they ALL have custom templates i have to work with so im literally redoing RVERYTHING for a new template each time#i literally want to throw my laptop across the room#anyway watching this & waiting for damien
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why why why why why why WHY what did armand owe to fucking coven why could he not have just fucking run WHY?!!!
#WHY? COULDN'T CLAUDIA HAVE HER HAPPINESS /WHAT/ DID THE COVEN GAIN FROM DESTROYING HER WHYYYYYY???!!!#is it just fucking lestat wanting her dead?#but why the fuck would armand put what lestat wants over louis?#sarah invited me to watch the next ep and her place and i was like. ohh thank goodness. because left to my own devices#i would almost definitely throw my laptop across the room#so yeah. gonna buddy-system my way for the emotional devastation#chriiiiist#iwtv#amc iwtv#claudia...........
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also sorry when i hear the lyrics "is there a word for a bad miracle?" all i can think about is forrest. holy shit all i can think about is forrest.
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just. one request left
#i love editing i swear#it just makes me want to throw my laptop across the room sometimes#.mimiming ❜
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I kicking hate everything. And I'm just angry for no fucking reason. A document that I needed to print 2 weeks ago has no decided that Now is the time it would print about 15 times consecutively. I don't even need that document any more my mum is annoyed at how much paper I've wasted despite saying I sent it like 5 times but not that many. I have so many things I need to be doing - I'm what 3 weeks into my final year of uni I'm not completely behind on absolutely everything but if I keep having fucking days like this then I will be. And there's some fucking concrete mixer outside whiring for the whole fucking morning and it's three o'clock now and it's still fuck going. I just want to shout at it to shut the Fuck up already. My room is a mess. I was meant to to working from home but I've got absolutely nothing to show for it.
On top of all that I've just broken a mirror because it was on my desk and showing me how fat my face and double chin look when I'm just trying to stop a 20 page document printing over and over and over (when it wouldn't even print once when I need it)
#personal#I hate myself#i hate my life#i hate this#i hate my body#Ive never actually moved past aprts of my eating disorder#Like I eat normally enough#But I'll still get triggered enough by my own fuck reflection that I'll throw a mirror across my room and break it#Just had to restart my laptop#Today is just a having a bit of a breakdown bc I can't do anything well ever wirte off kinda day
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tell me why (off topic but a great taylor swift song) i just got docked points for calculating freezing point depression and making my answers be negative when we were explicitly told in class that freezing point depression should be negative because it "doesn't add to the temperature, it subtracts from it."
#read this with anger in your heart please#thank you#i am going to throw my laptop across my dorm room#chemistry#stem#academics#i have a love hate relationship with this#right now its hate#our guest lecturer said that in a snooty and disdainful voice so please feel free to read it as obnoxiously and condescendingly as you plea#random thoughts#thoughts#taylor swift#shes mentioned so i'm counting it#college#help im a biology girlie in a cruel chem world#its on sight with smartwork
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