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randomositycat · 2 years ago

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taking the autism quizzes to sooth my ever racings thoughts

#my brain is trying to get me to draw comics that r like 'oh my mind keeps telling me to crash my car but im chillin ong im chillin #idk why she's saying these things to me'#like girl honestly why is she telling me to get myself in danger #i do not particularly want to be in danger thanks #i wanna sit and i wanna chill

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dukeofthomas · 5 months ago

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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.

#my dc posting #dc #batfamily #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging #but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3 #also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found #out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam #i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical #and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc #controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t #hem #instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they #should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay #like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good #or funny #like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl #eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like #90% of the fandom's content 😔

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orengejoshi · 14 days ago

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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!

yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)

it's so common in fandoms!

I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.

I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔

I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!

#that's autism for you #I'm sadly really picky and easily grossed out by things #I'm not even trying to be judgemental #I wish I was such a person that is just chill with everything but I have more icks than likes #so my fandom experience is like 80% discomfort and trying to avoid things without shutting out the majority of content in the first place #from what I heard I seem to have this problem particularly in this fandom bc the series is horror.#and I ship a toxic ship.#but I neither enjoy horror nor this trope. so what the fuck am I doing here #how did I get here. I'm lost guys #but yeah; it naturally attracts more people that are into quite dark or hardcore things #and I'm just sitting here with my soft dick in my hand wondering where it all went wrong #i don't belong here #I can't relate to 99% of people #honestly? I just... like Flug....... I just adore the autistic scientist #and I wanna SMOOCH him but I can't identify too well with myself or thus my sona #so how the fuck am I gonna smooch and love on this man #I need SOME second character for this!!#well Black Hat is pretty cool and easier to draw than the rest; I like his design...#so here we are.#I'm not really in it with my heart. I don't understand the essence of this ship. I'm a fandom blep #that's why a lot of content is probably disturbing and upsetting as hell to me.#but that's just my theroy..... a Joshi™ theory #sorry for rant I am bored and tired😔#enjoy #villainous #villanos #dr flug #kenning flugslys #my art #ask reply

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anemonet · 2 years ago

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i asume the cave is wet and moldy

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ianthoni · 4 months ago

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The stark difference between their vibes is taking me out LMAO

#smosh #anthony padilla #ian hecox #ianthony #☀️🔍#is this what they mean when they say how tops sit vs how bottoms sit #my beautiful princess #ian #my princess diana #i wanna put him in my pocket #pocket sized #daddy chill #anthoy

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thedreadvampy · 6 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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beartitled · 6 months ago

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Woop it’s 21th!

Thank you for sending your asks and submissions fellas ❤️

Will be working on them👷 ✏️

#ask/suggestion event #got a bunch so lots of work 😈#have no concrete dates of how long it will take #either till I finish them all or get bored/tired #I’ll try to make it as chill as possible 🏝️😎#bc don’t wanna stress and overwhelm my tiny bear brain #(and my drawing paw 🐻‍❄️)#so yea relax 🏝️ sit on a nice comfy couch 🛋️ and enjoy slowly appearing content 🥤

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leviiackrman · 4 months ago

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UMETAROU NOGUCHI - Demon Slayer [sketch redraw]

more art || character page || commissions

Tag list (ask to be added or removed): @carrionsflower @statichvm @risingsh0t @simonxriley @tommyarashikage @kanos @bbrocklesnar @confidentandgood @unholymilf @florbelles @thedeadthree @shellibisshe @roofgeese @aezyrraeshh @faerune @tekehu @jackiesarch @minaharkers @sergeiravenov @carlosoliveiraa @rosenfey @nokstella @queennymeria @heroofpenamstan @alexxmason @tethrras @jamessunderlandgf @a-treides @solasan @bigbywlf @delzinrowe @fenharel

#my art*#oc: umetarou noguchi #artists on tumblr #demon slayer #kny oc #kny #demon slayer oc #my ocs #original character #character design #digital art #okay yes clarification: I have already drawn him but his original design always felt off to me #I loved how dynamic it was BUT #since developing him more I felt the smiling while he holds his sword didn’t sit right #he doesn’t like fighting… he didn’t wanna be a slayer… so being happy to do it wasn’t right #hence the new design #he’s more comfortable just chilling and being helpful #he’s also chaotic af so him looking calm while fighting… hmmm not it #as we speak I am currently rendering him!!#so will be finished soon hopefully #but honestly drawing is something I really wanna do atm but I’m struggling for mental energy #I keep waking up on the verge of a panic attack and I’m so defeated #just… wanna be chill again #but I doubt that’ll happen #anyway I hope you like the new version!#sorry for the semi mental dump

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queen-helaena · 6 months ago

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i said it on twitter but i really think the whole team green/team black thing could’ve been a fun little rivalry if half the fandom wasn’t fucking insane

#it is just a show #with dragons #some of you need to sit down shut up eat a hot dog and chill the fuck out #it’s supposed to be fun #both fucking sides do this #so i don’t wanna hear shit #house of the dragon #hotd #hotd s2 #house of the dragon season 2

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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itsmewahoo · 1 month ago

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genuinely have been way too exhausted to play video games other than webfishing. been super busy at work now that the holidays are coming up

i havent even touched the pristine cut for slay the princess yet 😩

#wahoo rambles #i just wanna sit down and chill and tirn my brain off when i get home

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lilidawnonthemoon · 2 months ago

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insufferablemod · 2 months ago

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#Ruining the semi normal sleep schedule I'd managed 2 keep going for like a week cus of paranoia 😎#This is ofcthe one time I'm like Actually fucking sleepy #I shocked myself earlier n am in a spiral about the whole “even a semi small shock can fuck up ur heart hours or days later” thing #Which idk if thats unreasonable paranoia or like normal n smart #The internet is 50/50 on it lol #Mom says im being paranoid. Called a like phone nurse about it who said it'd be smart 2 get it checked just 2 be safe #But it's late and doesn't feel serious enough for the er?#Also the er is hell. U just sit there for Hours waiting n then get looked at for 5 minutes told n2 wait even more n then told 2 just go hom #So I am just kinda... existing.. until stuff opens n I can hopefully see a doctor about it or something:)#And cus I was already feeling kinda sick Before the shock I can't be sure if I actually have any symptoms of something worrying #AAAAND my anxiety about the whole thing is making me over analyze every heartbeat or muscle twitch #N tricking my brain into believing shit that's not real #I wanna nap so bad but my brain won't let meee #Ok ramble is done... I just needed 2 get this out of my system somewhere...#Can u believe I use 2 think I didn't have anxiety?? I was all Oh yeah I'm Super chill 😎 while sirens played in my head 24/7 #rambles

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flowercrowngods · 9 months ago

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i was never scared or violently physically opposed to the mere thought of going to school tomorrow, but this changes today as the school where i have my 4 weeks practicum is the most horrible fucking desolate piece of shit school i’ve ever fucking set foot into omg

#it’s dark and gloomy and cold and loud and my mentor doesn’t fucking care that it’s like 100 dezibel in the room like #my skin crawls just sitting in the back of the room and doing *nothing* bc i neither have to listen nor teach yet but GOD do i wanna #commit several crimes against myself just thinking about going back there tomorrow or every day for the next 3.5 weeks #this has nothing to do with anything but man. it’s so terrible. had i not know before this placement that i never wanna be a teacher???#this school would have settled the deal rather permanently i violently hate everything about it #and i’m usually a relatively chill and stoic and pragmatic person but man

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seariii · 1 year ago

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Seeing a few people hating on Kotoko, and seeing their reasonings makes me think...

How some take others actions without much care about what is behind it, or even when they see what is behind the action, it's just on a superficial level...

I guess it really translates to what my friend said about "to everyone else it's OBVIOUS that your action makes you an asshole, but you yourself don't see it, and no one cares to explain it to you"... I'm not justifying her words or actions in any way, it's just...

In real life we act a certain way, and we see mean people who we dislike for a reason or another... 2 years ago, I had to work with someone who was a total asshole. Everyone hated him, except his girlfriend, who was my friend. She went on and on about how he was a sweetheart and so nice to her... He ended up cheating on her and hurting her deeply, she ended up hating him just like everyone else, despite everyone's warnings...

There are people who by my standards I'd consider "bad" which is a subjective term... I still don't believe Kotoko is a bad person, but I believe she has done terrible things... Encouraging Haruka like that, is almost like Muu not doing anything to stop him... I don't think he has "a higher chance of doing it" because of her words, I believe he had already decided and the moment he talked to her about it it was just to further set it in stone

She believes Haruka is a sinner so punishment shall be brought

Just like Amane did to her mother

Just like Fuuta did to that highschooler

Just like Kotoko herself did to that serial killer

... and just like Kotoko did to the guilty prisoners

She is cleaning the world in her own eyes... After tsumi pointed out to me how radicalization mirrors (or is basically a variant of) cult indoctrination, I can't stop thinking about even more parallels about Amane and Kotoko....

someone said how Kotoko is basically a window of the future of Amane if she isn't helped, and I can see it even more clearly now...

I don't know, I wish there was something that could be done - she says, as if these were real people and not fictional characters on a story

#milgram thoughts #i dont wanna main tag this #also im sorry its my savior complex acting up milgram does that to me #'i have to do something' sit down girl and chill you don't *have to* do anything #sorry i'm just rambling #im not even sure what i was trying to say

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oetscop · 10 days ago

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god its been 7 months on T. i should probably come out to my dad soon 😀 fuck. my voice is in fact dropping now noticeably so

#tongue #willing to be almost annoyingly trans to my grandparents #probs bc the rest of my moms side is chill abt me being trans thankfully #and like idc what my grandparents think abt me #but im sitting here like . what if i make my dad sad :(#hes been good health wise for a while now esp since the hear attack but i still dont wanna add more stress #i wish i could transition but also still be lily #and sometimes i still wish i could just be her. i tried to hard but i cant #i just dont want to hate myself and i dont want to upset my dad. i love him too much

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