#i wanna reiterate: i spent AN HOUR AND A HALF going 5 miles per hour through CoSpr*ngs

[blunderpuff]

Pikmin Bloom congratulated me for walking 10 thousand steps yesterday

however, i barely walked at all; I was driving all day. i did, however, spend ~75 minutes going 5mph on I-25 in Colorado Spr*ngs yesterday

so i guess my phone judged all the stop-and-go over construction zone roads to be slow enough that i was probably walking

[chibi-chanforever]

𝕌𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕝 𝕕𝕠𝕠𝕞𝕤𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕒𝕣𝕣𝕚𝕧𝕖𝕤 || 𝟙 ||

Pairing: Kozume Kenma x Fem! Reader

Summary : Your world was awfully small. It was a simple puzzle and the biggest piece belonged to this one person named Kuroo Tetsuro. However, as time passes Kuroo’s puzzle gains another important piece and in your anxiety to not lose him to someone else you decide to add that piece to your life as well. So you're introduced to Kozume Kenma, who you only saw as a package deal that comes with ‘Tetsu’ . As the years passed feelings changed, what once was childish adoration bloomed into the flower of youthful affection. What you didn’t realise is that in order to protect your flower that grew for Kuroo, you began plucking petals off the flower that bloomed for you.

Wordcount : 1.4 k

Warnings: Family breakdown

A/N:

f/c- favorite cartoon

Chichai- little (pronounced>like a 5 year old kid saying wittle)

Special thanks to ssrated1volleyballplayer ヽ(^ 。^)/, NewFriendJen>.< and vanillekiss <3 for beta reading!

||prologue||

  ‘Huh? Why did I want Testu to love me?’

  This blatant thought brought you out of the trance you’ve been stuck in ever since your friends spoke about the ‘husband’ topic. ‘EW! Love is gross! I hate love!’

  According to you, nothing good came out of love. At that tender age, love was something you didn't quite understand and you had little knowledge about the subject. You knew your mom loved you, you knew your dad loved you too! You also knew that they loved each other... but in the end what was the result? You were alone; You were left behind by both of them, and now, you were living with your grandparents, trying your best to fit in this new area.

  After your dad had left, the first three months were horrible. Your mom had gotten really quiet, she would burst into tears at odd times and spent hours staring at the wall? And after three months your mom had left you at her parents house saying that you reminded her too much of him and it hurt her too much.

  *＊✿❀ You distinctly remember what happened; You had come down to drink water and had almost entered the kitchen, but was stopped short when you heard your mother’s voice. It was clear that she had been crying and the way her words were slurred, you assumed she had been drinking too.

  You could hear that she was talking to someone on the phone; you took a step forward to go and hug your mom, to tell her that you love her, that everything was going to be alright. However, her next words left you lifeless; You stood there paralyzed as your mom’s extremely broken voice felt like sharp shards of glass piercing your ears. You felt like your ears would bleed when you heard her.

  “I can't take it anymore mom! I can’t bear to look at her. It hurts so much mom… AHHH it just hurts so much, I want to di-” You made a run for it, you didn’t think you could stomach any further than this. You went to your bedroom, hid under the sheets and kept reiterating,

  “This is a dream! This is a dream! This has to be a bad dream! This is a dream”

  What happened after that was very fuzzy, you felt numb. You couldn’t remember much, but when you came back to your senses, your mom was waving at you; your grandma was holding your hand, waving to your mom for you.

  You saw delicate tears fall and drip down your mom’s chin , ‘why was she crying?’ You wondered, already unnerved by what was happening. Your legs began to move before you realised, you ran towards your mom, hugging her knees and begging her to take you with her.

  “WHY ARE YOU LEAVING ME?” You screamed.

  “I’m not leaving you honey! I’ll come to see you on the weekends! Mommy just needs some time sweetheart.” She said, while simultaneously trying to pry your little hands off her leg.

  You still wouldn’t let go of her leg and kept pleading, “I’ll be a good girl! I won’t trouble you mommy! Please! Don’t go because you hate me! I swear I’ll listen! ”

  “Oh sweetheart, Mommy’s not leaving because she hates you,” and then she uttered those horrible words.

  “It's because I love you Y/N” ❀✿＊*

  ‘Does love mean that you leave the person you love behind? Then no! I absolutely do not love Tetsu and I don’t want Tetsu to love me either. I will never leave Tetsu behind! Even if it means I will never love him…..but why does it hurt? Why does it feel like loving Tetsu is what I am supposed to do? But no! I can't ever leave him, not now, not ever.’

  You cherished Tetsu and under no circumstances, ever wanted to lose him. After years, you had finally found some stability in your life and you weren’t ready to give that up, not in a million years, come what may! You would fight an army if you had to!

  ‘Tetsu won’t leave me if I don’t love him right? Thats easy, I'll just stick by him and be the perfect friend, forever and ever,’ But somewhere deep down, you knew this was wrong; Things would change, they always do. However you weren’t ready to accept it just yet.

  Meanwhile Kuroo had found a new interest. His life had gone ahead and started to diverge into a new path, while you were desperately trying to protect yours from breaking down. Little did you know that Kuroo was going to open a new world for you, after horribly breaking down your old one.

  ⊱⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊰⊱⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊰⊱⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊰⊱⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊶⊷⊰

  It's been about a year now, since you’ve known Kuroo.

  Nothing has changed much really; He was still the same old goofy guy you used to and still continue to adore. However, recently it has come to your attention that Kuroo has started to spend a lot of time practicing something called volleyball? This resulted in the time he spent with you to diminish slowly as days passed by.

  “Testu do you want to watch f/c today?” You would ask.

  “Next time! I gotta go play volleyball” Was what you’d get. Wanna go to the garden? Gotta play volleyball! Wanna hang out after school? Gotta play volleyball! Wanna go see the new comic collection at the store? Sorry I Gotta. Play. Volleyball.

  This new discovery was eating at you, and you felt like Kuroo was making up an excuse to not hang out with you. Whenever you asked him about volleyball, his eyes would light up like stars in the velvety night sky, but he wouldn’t really give you much details about it, besides the fact that it's super awesome.

  Whenever he spoke about volleyball, it frequently went like “The ball came at me and I spiked so hard, and it went like voosh! And it was so awesome! You know I’m quite tall for my age right, so I can block the ball really well. And you know, you know...” And it went on and on and on without any real information on how the game is actually played.

  And suddenly, you remember that you heard a name. ‘Shit I wasn’t paying attention, I blanked for one second and I missed out! What did he say? Whose name did he take? Ke? Ke- something! GOD, why didn’t I pay attention. He’s gone too ahead now and I can't even ask him or he’ll whine that I never listen to him! This is so frustrating! Ugh!’

  In the end, all you knew was that he didn’t play alone, which meant that he was spending his time with someone else more, and this unconsciously made you anxious. Your mind was running a million miles per minute with thoughts like,

  ‘Soon Tetsu will stop hanging out with me, he’ll never want to see me again, he’ll forget about me, he’ll realise how much of a disappointment I really am!’ Your mind kept on creating more of such thoughts that brought all your fears to life.

  These thoughts started getting darker and darker by each passing second, festering and reopening closed wounds. No! You couldn’t go down that road again, you had to do something!

  The next day, you got up extra early, ready to execute the strategy on which you spent more than half the night planning. Going over the steps and possibilities over and over, until you were determined that it would work. So you walked up to Kuroo, “ Hey Tetsu~” You sang out, “Hey chichai” he says smugly, fully aware of how annoyed you get with the name.

  “I told you to stop calling me that!” You whine, your face which was now dusted with a pink hue, was facing away from Kuroo to hide how flustered you got when he called you such names.

  ‘I can’t get distracted! Not now at least! I have to do it, it’s now or never. Deep breaths y/n, you can do this! It’s just one question, c’mon’ You sigh before looking at Kuroo, your face still slightly pink. Kuroo looked at you with a worried expression, “ y/n are you feeling-” He gets cut of by your question,

  "𝑪𝑨𝑵 𝑰 𝑷𝑳𝑨𝒀 𝑽𝑶𝑳𝑳𝑬𝒀𝑩𝑨𝑳𝑳 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝒀𝑶𝑼?~"

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