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OHMYGOOOOOOD
Thank God this wasn't as sad as the others đ I needed a break from crying.
"Maybe itâs fate," she joked, but her tone had a hint of seriousness.
The way I almost screamed bc IT IS FATE đ„șđ©·
Logan followed without complaint, falling into step beside you as you made your way to the car. The streets were quieter than usual, but the tension between rival families was palpableâsomething was brewing, and everyone knew it.
Istg when I read this I was so sure y/n would end up with a bullet between her eyes, that's how scared I amđ
You laughed, standing up and dusting your hands off. âSorry to disappoint. Iâve got a weakness for strays.â
Logan being the ultimate strayđ
đ€ she's always drawn to him
Mr. Russo gave Logan a once-over, then grinned, his false teeth gleaming. âYou any good at cards, tough guy?â
This was so precious to me!! Logan playing cards with y/n and her friends â€ïž
âYeah?â You took a step closer, crossing your arms with a playful grin. âAnd here I thought Iâd be driving you crazy.â
âYou do,â he murmured, almost too quietly. His lips turned up slightly, but he looked away, that unspoken wall going back up.
This has so many meanings, not only flirting but I can imagine after over 100 years loving and losing the same person over and over, that would definitely drive him crazy
You glanced down the hall and shrugged. âGuess I can live with that. For now.â
Loganâs lips twitched, just barely. âFor now,â he echoed, and there was something heavier in those words, something he wasnât sharing.
MY HEART ACHEDđđđđ
The kiss was desperate, wild, like he was making up for lost time. His lips claimed yours with a roughness that sent a shiver down your spine, his hands moving to cradle your face, pulling you closer as if he couldnât stand the distance. You gasped against his mouth, your fingers finding their way into his hair, tugging him down harder.
Logan groaned into your mouth, a deep, almost pained sound, and the desperation in it made your blood race. He kissed you like he was starving, like he needed this, needed you, and you felt your body melt into him.
Omfg I've never seen them so passionate it's making me feel things đźâđš the smut was perfect balance of passion and desperation
And this time, he was determined to make it last as long as he could. Maybe, just maybe, even put that ring to use.
Screaming crying throwing up đđ„șđ„șđ„ș bc I desperately need to see when he proposes but I can't even imagine how it would go
You felt a surge of affection for him then, this man whoâd somehow become both your protector and your closest confidant. He was rough around the edges, guarded and distant with everyone elseâbut with you, he was different. You brought out a softness in him, a warmth that felt as though it had been buried for a long, long time.
This might be one of the best dialogues I've read, bc it's so true đ„ș for decades this man has tried everything in his power to cherish and protect the love of his life, she's the only one that brings out a resemblance of peace on himđđ
Loganâs gaze darkened. âItâs not. You know that. And anyone who tries to take it without your say? They got me to deal with.â His voice was low and dangerous, a promise just for you.
Forever obsessed with this story and the way he will do anything to help and adore y/nâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
i love you, in every time àżâ§â 1973 - we meet again my dear...
chapter summary: After leaving Team X behind, Logan finds himself back in New York City working as a bodyguard for various people. Until he finds himself acting as a bodyguard for you, a mobster's daughter.
word count: 18.3k+
pairing: Logan Howlett x fem!reader
notes: i'm a sucker for the bodyguard trope (and also just dofp logan in general, that man makes me go feral), so you know i had to do it when given the chance! i had so much fun writing this version of reader, especially because this is the closest to 'modern' times that we've gotten and i didn't have to do a ton of research about this year. the tags might give away a little bit of the plot, but i promise it's gonna be a fun ride ;)
warnings/tags: fluff, angst, 70s!logan, mafia/mob, implied age gap, flirting, smut, thigh riding, unprotected piv, creampie, arranged marriage
series masterlist - chapter 4 â chapter 6
He left Stryker, Victor, and Team X behind, settling in New York City as a bodyguard, hired by various people: politicians, the mafia, anyone.
Logan was now getting his fifth job, protecting a mobsterâs young daughter.
He was used to jobs like this by now, but something about this one felt... different. As he walked through the large estate, the details blurred around him. His focus was on the jobâuntil the moment he saw you.
You were standing by the window, the sunlight filtering through the curtains, casting a soft glow over your face. There was something familiar about the way you held yourself, the way your hair fell over your shoulders. For a second, it felt like the air was sucked out of the room.
Loganâs chest tightened.
It was you.
Same face. Same presence. Same pull that had haunted him for over a century.
But you were different, too. This time, you werenât a schoolteacher, a nurse, or a coal minerâs wife. You were his new job.
You turned, eyes meeting his, and for a brief moment, it felt like you recognized him too. That sense of familiarity flickered across your face before you smiledâpolite, but distant.
âY/N, this is Logan,â the mobsterâyour fatherâintroduced. âHeâll be your new bodyguard.â
Your fatherâs voice faded into the background as Loganâs gaze remained locked on you. You gave a small nod, extending your hand. âNice to meet you, Logan.â
Logan stared at your hand for a beat too long before taking it. That brief contact sent a shock through him, an old memory he couldnât quite shake.
âLikewise,â he muttered, his voice rougher than he intended.
Your father clapped Logan on the back. âI expect youâll keep her safe. Thereâs been some... tension with a rival family.â
Logan only nodded, but his attention stayed on you. You were right in front of him, alive. But you didnât know him. Like always.
After your father left the room, you leaned against the window frame, crossing your arms. âSo, how long have you been doing this?â you asked, your tone casual.
Logan leaned against the wall, watching you closely. âLong enough.â
You raised an eyebrow, a small smirk tugging at the corner of your mouth. âThatâs vague.â
He didnât respond, and for a moment, silence settled between you two. It wasnât uncomfortable, but there was something unsaid hanging in the air.
âWhat about you?â Logan asked, more to fill the space than out of curiosity. âHow do you feel about having a bodyguard?â
You shrugged. âIâve had worse.â
That earned a faint, almost imperceptible smile from Logan, but he quickly covered it with a grunt. âGlad to hear it.â
A pause. Then you looked at him, your eyes narrowing slightly, like you were trying to figure him out. âYou seem... familiar.â
Logan stiffened. âDonât think weâve met before.â
You tilted your head, studying him. âNo, but... I donât know. Something about you.â
Loganâs heart pounded in his chest, but he kept his expression neutral. He couldnât tell you. Not about the past lives, not about how many times he had watched you die.
You shrugged it off, smiling again. âMaybe Iâm just imagining things.â
âMaybe,â Logan muttered, not meeting your eyes this time.
The rest of the day passed in a blur of introductions, schedules, and instructions from your father. Logan followed at a distance, keeping an eye on you, but his mind was elsewhere.
That night, Logan sat on the balcony just outside your room, staring out at the city lights. His thoughts raced, the weight of the engagement ring in his pocket feeling heavier than usual.
You were alive. Again.
But for how long this time?
---
You plopped onto your bed, the wire from your rotary phone stretching with you, âhe is good looking though.â
You could practically hear Jenniferâs grin through the phone, âoh, yeah? Man, all your bodyguards are good looking. Itâs not fair!â
You laughed, twirling the phone cord between your fingers. "Heâs⊠different though. I canât quite put my finger on it. Heâs quiet, but not in the usual 'Iâm-paid-to-watch-you' way."
"Is he mysterious?" Jennifer teased, her voice light. "Maybe heâs got some dark, brooding backstory. Mob families always hire guys like thatââstrong and silent.â"
You snorted. "Maybe. But heâs not like the others." You hesitated, leaning back against the pillows, staring at the ceiling. âThereâs something familiar about him⊠like Iâve met him before.â
Jennifer paused on the other end of the line, then her voice softened. "You think heâs one of your dadâs guys from back in the day?"
You shook your head, even though she couldnât see it. "No, itâs not that. Itâs⊠weird, Jen. Like I know him, but I donât. Itâs been bugging me since I met him."
"Maybe itâs fate," she joked, but her tone had a hint of seriousness. "Youâve been going through bodyguards like theyâre tissues. Maybe this oneâs here to stick around."
You rolled your eyes but smiled. "Fate? Youâve been reading too many romance novels."
"Hey, a girl can dream!" Jennifer laughed. "But seriously, if you feel something, maybe itâs worth looking into. Heâs hot, right?"
You smiled at that, though your thoughts wandered back to Logan. The way his eyes lingered on you, like he was seeing something no one else could. "Yeah," you admitted softly. "Heâs definitely that. Heâs probably as old as my dad or somethinâ. But man, Jen, if you saw him youâd lose your mind.â
You twirled the phone cord around your finger, still smiling to yourself, but your thoughts kept circling back to Logan. Something about the way he looked at youâlike he knew more than he was sayingâstuck with you. It wasnât creepy or overprotective. It was... familiar. Comforting, even.
Jenniferâs voice pulled you from your thoughts. âHey, donât overthink it, okay? Enjoy the view for once. Not everyone gets a hot bodyguard with a mysterious vibe. Maybe heâs the silver lining to your dadâs whole âparanoiaâ problem.â
You laughed quietly. âYeah, maybe.â
You hung up not long after, still feeling the weight of that odd, lingering sense of déjà vu.
---
The next morning, Logan was waiting for you downstairs. Dressed in his usual dark clothes, he stood near the front door with his hands in his pockets, posture relaxed but alert. His eyes flicked toward you the second you entered the room.
There it was againâthat heavy gaze that made it feel like he could see right through you.
âMorninâ,â you said, offering a small smile.
âMorninâ,â Logan replied, his voice gravelly.
Your father wasnât homeâout dealing with âbusinessââwhich gave you a rare moment to yourself. Well, mostly. You slipped on your leather jacket and glanced at Logan, your lips quirking up in a teasing grin. âWhatâs the plan, bodyguard? Gonna follow me around all day?â
Logan grunted, something close to amusement flashing in his eyes. âThatâs the job.â
âYou always this chatty?â
âOnly when I meet interesting people.â His tone was dry, but there was the faintest flicker of a smile beneath it.
You snorted, heading for the door. âCâmon, hope you like running errands.â
Logan followed without complaint, falling into step beside you as you made your way to the car. The streets were quieter than usual, but the tension between rival families was palpableâsomething was brewing, and everyone knew it.
Still, Loganâs presence made you feel... safer. Like nothing bad could happen as long as he was there. It was strange. You barely knew him, but being around him felt easy. Natural. Like youâd known him for a lot longer than a day.
---
When you said you were going to run âerrands,â Logan hadnât expected you to walk straight into an animal shelter. He followed you through the entrance, nodding politely at the woman at the front desk as you greeted her like an old friend.
âMorning, Lorraine!â you said with a bright smile.
Lorraine, a middle-aged woman with kind eyes, smiled back. âThereâs my favorite troublemaker. The pups will be glad to see you.â She cast a curious glance at Logan. âAnd whoâs this?â
âMy latest babysitter,â you said with a smirk, glancing at Logan. âLogan, meet Lorraine. Lorraine, Logan.â
Logan gave a curt nod. âMaâam.â
Lorraine chuckled. âA man of few words. I like him already.â She waved you both toward the back. âGo on, theyâve been waiting for you.â
As soon as you walked past the front desk and entered the back area, the sound of excited barking filled the air. Dogs of all sizes pressed their noses against the bars of their cages, tails wagging furiously at the sight of you.
You crouched down in front of one of the kennels, talking softly to a scruffy little mutt as it whined and pawed at the bars. âHey, buddy. Miss me?â
Logan leaned against the wall, arms crossed, watching the way you scratched behind the dog's ears. There was something easy about the way you moved here, something soft. For a mobsterâs kid, you had a surprisingly gentle touch.
"Didn't expect this to be part of the job," Logan muttered after a moment, his voice low but teasing.
You glanced up, grinning. "What, thought Iâd be shopping for fur coats or shaking people down for cash?"
Logan raised a brow. "Somethinâ like that."
You laughed, standing up and dusting your hands off. âSorry to disappoint. Iâve got a weakness for strays.â You reached into your jacket pocket and pulled out a small bag of treats, tossing some into the kennels. "These guys have it rough enough without me skipping out on them."
Logan watched as the dogs practically fought over the treats, barking happily at your attention. You moved from cage to cage, giving each dog a little affection. It was... unexpected.
Logan watched you toss the last treat into one of the kennels, the scruffy mutt practically vibrating with happiness. He leaned back against the wall, arms crossed, an amused glint in his eyes as you turned and dusted your hands off with a grin.
"Youâre full of surprises," Logan muttered.
You raised an eyebrow, smirking as you folded your arms. âOh, yeah? Disappointed?â
"Not exactly." His lips twitched, like he was fighting a smile.
You took a step closer, tilting your head. "Well, what did you expect?"
Logan shrugged, keeping his expression neutral. "Spoiled. Entitled. Maybe a little dangerous."
You laughed, the sound light and easy, and Loganâs chest tightened in a way that felt too familiar. "Dangerous, huh? Guess Iâve got some layers." You gave him a playful once-over. "What about you? Big, scary bodyguard with a brooding vibe. Got any surprises I should know about?"
Logan snorted. "Not really."
You narrowed your eyes like you didnât quite believe him, but instead of pressing, you motioned toward the door. "Câmon. Iâve got one more stop."
Logan fell into step beside you as you exited the shelter and made your way toward the car. You chatted casually, filling the silence with stories about your favorite dogs at the shelter. But Logan stayed mostly quiet, his mind racing. It wasnât just your voiceâit was you. The way you carried yourself, the way you teased him like it was second nature.
He stole a glance at you as you drove. God, it felt the same as always. Like gravity pulled him toward you whether he wanted it or not.
---
Logan shouldâve expected the second time around that you werenât taking him to a normal place for errands. He was even more surprised when you parked in a nursing home parking lot and got out with that same pep in your step.
The sliding doors opened as you walked up to the front counter, where a middle-aged woman with tired eyes peered over the top of a blocky computer monitor. Her name tag read Carol.
âMorning, Carol,â you chirped with an easy smile, tapping your fingers on the desk.
Carol looked up and brightened at the sight of you. âWell, if it isnât my favorite visitor. Here to cheer up the old-timers again?â
âAlways,â you said, flashing a grin. âAnd I brought backup today.â You gestured behind you to Logan, who gave a brief nod.
Carol gave him a once-over and arched an eyebrow. âWell now, you didnât tell me youâd be bringing a tall drink of water.â
You smirked, glancing over your shoulder at Logan. âYeah, figured Iâd mix things up.â
Logan just grunted in response, but the corner of his mouth twitched slightlyâhalf amusement, half something else. Carol winked at you before waving toward the hallway. âYou know where to find them.â
You led Logan down the hall, your steps light and familiar as if you'd been coming here for years. He followed quietly, his sharp gaze flicking between doorways and hallways, always alert.
âYou spend a lot of time here?â Logan asked as you slowed near a door marked Activity Room.
You shrugged. âYeah. Most of these folks donât get many visitors. Itâs nice to stop by and remind them theyâre not forgotten.â
Logan gave a small grunt of acknowledgment. It was such a simple thingâvolunteering at a nursing homeâbut it hit him hard. It was just like you to find the overlooked parts of the world and give them your attention, like the dogs at the shelter, like the people here. You always had that streak of kindness, no matter which life you were living.
You nudged open the door, stepping into the room. A group of residents sat in mismatched chairs, some knitting, others half-watching a daytime soap on an old television. At the sight of you, faces lit up.
âThere she is!â one of the older women called, setting her knitting aside with a delighted clap of her hands. âI thought you forgot about us!â
âAs if I ever could,â you replied warmly, walking over to give her a light hug.
Logan lingered near the doorway, watching as you moved through the room like you belonged there, chatting with each resident, asking about their week, their familiesâif they remembered them. His heart twisted, both with admiration and an ache that wouldnât quit.
You noticed him standing off to the side and shot him a teasing grin. âDonât be shy, Logan. They wonât bite.â
He raised an eyebrow. âNot worried about them.â
You laughed, turning back to an older man with a deck of cards spread out in front of him. âLogan, meet Mr. Russo. Heâs got a mean poker face.â
Mr. Russo gave Logan a once-over, then grinned, his false teeth gleaming. âYou any good at cards, tough guy?â
Logan shrugged. âI can hold my own.â
You slid into the chair beside Mr. Russo, motioning for Logan to join you. âCare to test your luck?â
Logan hesitated for only a moment before pulling out a chair, the legs scraping against the linoleum. As he sat down, you dealt him a hand, your fingers brushing his in the processâa fleeting touch, but enough to send a jolt of familiarity through both of you.
You caught Loganâs gaze over the cards, a flicker of something unspoken passing between you. There it was againâthat sense that you knew him somehow, though you couldnât quite place it. It nagged at you, but you let it pass, offering him a playful smirk instead.
âCareful,â you warned. âI donât go easy on anyone.â
Logan returned the smirk, something dangerous glinting in his eyes. âNeither do I.â
---
After the game, which you wonâbarely, you said your goodbyes to the residents, promising to visit again soon. Logan followed silently as you made your way back to the car, the soft clinking of your keys the only sound between you.
âNot what you expected for today, huh?â you asked as you slid into the driverâs seat.
Logan leaned against the car door, arms crossed. âNot exactly.â
You smiled, starting the engine. âBet you thought being a mobsterâs kid would be more... glamorous.â
âSomething like that.â He gave you a sidelong glance. âYou like keeping people guessing, donât you?â
You grinned, shifting the car into drive. âItâs one of my many talents.â
The two of you drove in companionable silence, the hum of the city filling the space between you. Logan rested his elbow on the window frame, glancing at you every so often. You were like a puzzle he couldnât quite solveâdifferent from the others, yet still unmistakably you.
âWhy do you do it?â he asked after a while. âThe shelter, the nursing home. You donât have to.â
You shrugged, your expression thoughtful. "Dunno. Just because I was born into this life doesnât mean I like what my dad does. I guess sometimes I feel like Iâm tryinâ to balance the scales."
Logan leaned back against the seat, his sharp gaze on you, but he didnât respond right away. You could tell he was chewing on thatâprobably picking apart your words, trying to figure you out. He always seemed like the kind of man who noticed everything, even if he didnât say much about it.
You flashed him a teasing grin, trying to lighten the mood. "What about you? Any skeletons in the closet? Or are you just a man of mystery with perfect timing?"
Logan snorted softly, his lips twitching in that almost-smile he had. "Iâm no mystery. Just do my job."
"Oh, come on," you pressed, throwing him a playful look. "You gotta give me something. Favorite food? Ever been married? Deep, dark secret?"
He gave you a sidelong glance, amused but guarded. "Steak. No. And not a chance."
You huffed in mock disappointment, drumming your fingers on the steering wheel. "Youâre no fun, Logan."
"Never said I was," he muttered, but there was warmth in his tone, like he didnât mind your teasing at all.
The conversation paused for a moment, the soft hum of the engine filling the space between you. Loganâs eyes lingered on you a little longer than they probably should haveâtaking in the curve of your smile, the way your fingers tapped a rhythm on the wheel.
And damn, if you didnât make it hard to stay detached. You were so... alive. Every glance, every smile, every little laugh. You carried yourself like someone who knew how fleeting things could beâand even though Logan knew you couldnât remember, he remembered every time youâd slipped through his fingers. That thought settled heavy in his chest, like a weight he carried everywhere.
You shot him a grin. "You know, if you keep looking at me like that, Iâm gonna think youâre interested."
Loganâs lips twitched. "What makes you think Iâm not?"
The boldness of his response caught you off guard for a second, but you recovered quickly, leaning a little closer, eyes glinting with mischief. "Careful, tough guy. Youâre supposed to be protecting me, not flirting with me."
"Who says I canât do both?" His voice was low, rough, and it sent a small shiver down your spine.
You tilted your head, pretending to consider it. "I think my dad might disagree."
Loganâs eyes darkened slightly, though his expression didnât change. "Your dadâs not here."
There it wasâthat pull again, the quiet, unspoken gravity between the two of you. It was like standing on the edge of something dangerous and thrilling all at once. You felt it in the way his gaze lingered, in the weight of his words. He wasnât just playing along.
You cleared your throat, breaking the tension with a teasing smile. "Well, if youâre planning on making a move, Logan, you better make it good. Iâve got high standards, yâknow."
Logan let out a low chuckleâquiet, but genuineâand for a moment, you thought you saw something softer in his eyes. Something like... affection.
But just as quickly, it was gone, replaced by that familiar guarded expression.
"Noted," he muttered, shifting his gaze back to the road ahead.
You grinned, satisfied that youâd managed to chip away at his walls, even if only a little.
---
The two of you finished your errands without any trouble, stopping by a grocery store for some essentials and grabbing a late lunch at a small diner tucked away from the main streets. It wasnât muchâjust burgers and friesâbut sitting across from Logan in the booth, you felt surprisingly content.
He was quiet most of the time, but not in a way that felt awkward. It was... comfortable. Like he didnât need to fill the silence just for the sake of it. And every now and then, heâd throw out a dry, sarcastic comment that made you laugh harder than you expected.
You leaned back in the booth, sipping your soda and watching him over the rim of your glass. "Yâknow, Logan... youâre not half as scary as you look."
Logan raised an eyebrow, smirking slightly. "Disappointed?"
"Not at all," you replied, your smile turning a little softer. "I like surprises."
He held your gaze for a moment, something unreadable flickering behind those sharp blue eyes. And for a secondâjust a secondâyou thought maybe, just maybe, there was something familiar about the way he looked at you. Like you were more than just a job to him.
But before you could dwell on it, Logan glanced at his watch and cleared his throat. "We should head back. Your old manâll be expecting you."
You sighed dramatically, sliding out of the booth. "Guess my funâs over."
Logan chuckled, tossing a few bills on the table for the check. "For now."
You gave him a playful nudge as you walked past him toward the door. "Donât sound too excited."
---
By the time you got back to the house, the sun was starting to dip below the horizon, casting the streets in a soft orange glow. Logan followed you inside, his quiet presence grounding you in a way you couldnât quite explain.
"Thanks for today," you said, tossing your jacket onto a chair.
Logan gave a small nod, leaning against the wall near the door. "No problem."
You hesitated for a moment, then shot him one last grin. "You know, youâre not as bad as I thought."
"Same to you," he replied, that almost-smile creeping back onto his face.
And just like that, the unspoken connection between you simmered beneath the surface, waiting.
Maybe Logan was right. Maybe your dad would be pissed if he knew how much you enjoyed your new bodyguardâs company.
But standing there, watching Loganâs gaze linger on you for just a beat too long, you found you didnât care all that much.
"Goodnight, Logan," you said softly, turning toward the stairs.
"Goodnight, Y/N," he replied, his voice low and steady.
And as you climbed the stairs, you couldnât shake the feeling that this wasnât the first time youâd said goodnight to him like this.
Not by a long shot.
---
Your dad told you not to leave the house today, which was fine by you, you had laundry to do anyways.
It had become habit to do your own laundry, even if you did have maids around the house. Nancy, one of the older maids, was the one to teach you that, along with cooking and cleaning since your mother has been gone since you were little.
You had a radio set on the washer, the familiar croon of 70s tunes filling the small laundry room as you pulled warm clothes from the dryer into a basket. Youâd been at it for the better part of the morning, the simple domestic task giving you a sense of normalcy. The soft hum of the machines, the crackling radio, and the scent of clean laundryâ it was all routine.
Routine helped keep your mind off the storm brewing outside your little bubble.
You sighed, swaying your hips a bit to the music as you lifted the basket. The house felt quieter today, with your dad off dealing with âbusinessâ as usual. And Logan? He was somewhere nearby, probably lurking in the shadows like the brooding protector he was.
As if on cue, Logan appeared in the doorway, leaning against the frame with his arms crossed. He was dressed in his usual dark clothing, looking as stoic as ever. You wondered if he ever wore anything other than flannels and a leather jacket.
"You know, I didnât take you for the laundry-doing type," he remarked, his gravelly voice cutting through the music.
You raised an eyebrow, throwing a playful glance over your shoulder. "What, you think Iâm too spoiled to do my own chores?"
Logan's lips twitched, almost forming a smile. "Something like that."
You smirked, grabbing the laundry basket and turning to face him. "I like to surprise people."
"Youâre good at it," he replied, his gaze lingering a little longer than usual. There was something behind those eyes, something deeper, but as always, he kept it hidden beneath that calm, impenetrable exterior.
You tilted your head, leaning your hip against the dryer. "You sticking around or just checking on me?"
Logan shrugged, though his eyes never left yours. "Just making sure you're not running off anywhere. Your dad was pretty clear about staying put."
You rolled your eyes, but the smile tugging at your lips softened the gesture. "Iâll be a good girl. Promise."
Logan grunted in response, pushing off the doorframe and walking closer. "Youâre a lot of things, Y/N. Not sure âgood girlâ is one of them."
You let out a laugh, swatting at him with a towel. "Hey, I can behave when I want to. Itâs just more fun not to."
He caught your wrist with ease, holding it for a second too long before letting go. There was that familiar tension between you again, the unspoken something that crackled in the air whenever the two of you were close. He probably didn't mean to linger, but you could feel itâthat pull.
"Maybe itâs the company," you teased, grabbing your laundry basket. "You bring out the best in me."
Logan didnât respond immediately, but there was something in his eyes, something that made your breath hitch. He was quiet, but not in the usual way bodyguards were. With Logan, there was a weight to his silence, like he was always holding back, always watching.
You pushed past the lingering tension with a grin, heading toward the door with your laundry. "Come on, broody. Letâs get out of the laundry room before we both go stir-crazy."
As you passed by, you brushed against himâjust lightly, but enough to send a small jolt through you. He didnât move, but his eyes followed your every step, that silent intensity never wavering.
You stopped in the hallway and shot him a look over your shoulder. âYouâre making this way too serious, you know. Iâm doing laundry, not sneaking out of prison.â
âOld habits die hard,â he replied, crossing his arms with a slight smirk. âBesides, I think your dadâs idea of âsafeâ is pretty different from yours.â
You rolled your eyes, hugging the laundry basket closer. âRight. Next, heâll say I need an escort to the mailbox.â
Logan raised a brow, clearly amused. âYou wouldnât be the first.â
That earned him a laugh, and you shook your head, settling the basket on the table in the hall. âGuess youâre stuck with me then, bodyguard.â
âDoesnât seem so bad,â he said, his voice softening as he glanced at you. His gaze was familiar in a way you couldnât place, like heâd looked at you this way a hundred times before.
âYeah?â You took a step closer, crossing your arms with a playful grin. âAnd here I thought Iâd be driving you crazy.â
âYou do,â he murmured, almost too quietly. His lips turned up slightly, but he looked away, that unspoken wall going back up.
âGood,â you teased, reaching out to poke him in the chest. âKeeps things interesting.â
Logan caught your hand before you could pull it back, holding it just long enough that you could feel the warmth of his touch, the quiet strength in it. There was something in his eyes that hinted at⊠more. Like heâd known you far longer than you couldâve ever guessed.
âIs that what you want?â he asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
Your heart thumped, but you kept your tone light. âDepends on what youâre offering, doesnât it?â
His gaze dropped to your hand, still caught in his. He let go, but there was something in his expression that lingered. It was like he was searching for the right words, something he couldnât quite say. Or maybe didnât want to.
Instead, he settled back with that guarded look. âBetter get used to me being around,â he said, nodding toward the front of the house. âYour dad wonât have it any other way.â
You glanced down the hall and shrugged. âGuess I can live with that. For now.â
Loganâs lips twitched, just barely. âFor now,â he echoed, and there was something heavier in those words, something he wasnât sharing.
You lingered for a moment, the silence stretching between you, before you picked up the basket again. âWell, Iâve got more laundry to fold. But if you feel like helping outâŠâ
He chuckled, shaking his head. âNice try, sweetheart.â
You rolled your eyes, shooting him a wink. âFine. Iâll let you off easy this time.â
âAppreciate it,â he said with a smirk, but his eyes softened as he watched you turn to go, like he was holding back something he couldnât quite name.
As you walked away, the light-heartedness of the moment stayed with you, but so did something else. It was that look Logan had, the one that made you feel seen, like he knew you better than anyone else ever had.
Maybe he did.
Or maybe, in some impossible way, he always had.
---
âNo, no, no, cara. Give it to me.â Nancy took the mixing bowl away from you, stirring the batter while muttering something in Italian.
You leaned your hip against the counter, placing your head on Nancyâs shoulder with a pout. "I was doing what youâre doing.â
Nancy shook her head, stirring the batter with a practiced hand, her warm, familiar presence comforting. âNo, cara mia, you were doing what you think Iâm doing.â She shot you a look, one of those fond, chiding glances sheâd perfected over the years. âAnd it was not the same.â
You laughed, pressing a kiss to her cheek. âFine, but youâre teaching me bad habits. This is how I stay spoiled, you know.â
She chuckled, patting your cheek affectionately. âYou think you need me to be spoiled? You do just fine on your own.â
Before you could respond, Loganâs familiar silhouette appeared in the doorway. He leaned against the frame, watching you with a slight smirk that was becoming all too familiarâand endearing.
âCareful, Nancy,â he said, his voice a low rumble. âSheâs already hard enough to handle.â
You turned, hands on your hips, feigning offense. âExcuse me, hard to handle?â
Logan shrugged, crossing his arms with a smirk. âYou said it, not me.â
Nancy chuckled, eyes sparkling as she looked between you and Logan. âAh, Y/N, heâs right. You do have a little spirit.â
You scoffed playfully, giving Logan an exaggerated glare before grinning back at Nancy. âWhat? Iâm an angel, and you know it.â
Logan snorted, clearly enjoying himself. âRight. A real saint.â He gave you a knowing look, one that made your stomach flip despite yourself. That unspoken energy simmered between you two, even as you tried to keep it casual.
Nancy just shook her head, muttering something in Italian as she set the bowl down. âAngels donât cause so much trouble,â she teased, pinching your cheek. âI taught you better.â
You rubbed your cheek with a grin, leaning back against the counter. âIâm blaming Logan. His bad influence must be rubbing off on me.â
Logan raised an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth twitching up. âThat right? Thought you didnât need any help there.â
âOh, I donât,â you said, crossing your arms with a challenging look. âIâm fully capable of trouble on my own.â
Nancy watched the two of you with a satisfied smile, turning back to her baking. âAh, I see,â she murmured, her voice light. âItâs good to have someone who knows how to keep you in check.â
The glint in her eye wasnât lost on you, and you rolled your eyes. âYouâre making it sound like Iâm some kind of wild child.â
âNo, no,â she replied with a grin, waving her hand. âJust that I think he knows you better than you think, cara.â
Loganâs gaze softened a little at that, and though he didnât say anything, his look lingered, as if he were silently agreeing with her.
You cleared your throat, feeling the familiar warmth creeping up your neck. âWell,â you started, trying to brush off the moment, âif Loganâs going to stick around, he might as well help.â
Nancy gave a sly smile, turning to Logan. âWhat do you say, Logan? A little kitchen work wouldnât hurt.â
Logan shook his head, holding his hands up in surrender. âYou two are doing just fine without me.â
You shot him a grin, taking a step closer. âOh, come on. Big, tough Logan afraid of a little flour?â
His smirk softened as he looked down at you. âYou keep pushing, and I might just teach you a lesson in troublemaking.â
Your stomach fluttered at the way his gaze stayed locked on yours, that familiar pull tugging you closer. âIs that a threat?â
âCall it⊠a warning,â he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper. His hand brushed against yours, just for a second, but it was enough to send a spark up your arm.
Nancy cleared her throat, clearly amused. âOkay, okay. I donât need you two making a mess of my kitchen.â
You stepped back, giving Nancy a sheepish smile, and Logan chuckled, the sound low and easy. âSheâs right,â he said, nodding toward the door. âGuess Iâll just keep an eye on you from a safe distance.â
Nancy gave him a knowing look, shaking her head with a chuckle. âIf only it were that simple.â
---
âAh, stay still, cara.â Nancy chided you, taking out a roller from your hair.
You gave Nancy a pout, eyes skimming your reflection in the mirror with clear discontent. "I donât like it." Your voice held more weight than just the hair and makeup, though, and Nancy seemed to pick up on it.
She clicked her tongue, smoothing out a curl before looking at you through the mirror. âAh, cara mia, tonight is important to your father. Besides,â she added, eyes glinting, âyou look beautiful, yes?â
You gave her a half-hearted smile, brushing your hands over the bright yellow fabric of your dress. The dress was elegant and too formal for your taste, the kind of thing youâd never have chosen if it werenât for your dadâs insistence on making you âpresentableâ for his associates.
Nancy sighed, placing a gentle hand on your shoulder. âY/N, itâs one night. Then youâll be back to your regular clothes, hmm?â
You grinned, rolling your eyes. âCanât come soon enough.â
Just as you were about to add more, there was a quiet knock at the door. You looked up, already expecting Loganâs familiar silhouette. He leaned against the frame, hands in his pockets, his usual air of calm doing little to hide the intense look in his eyes as he took in the sight of you in the dress.
âLooks like theyâve got you all dolled up,â he remarked, a faint smirk playing on his lips.
You shot him a look, half annoyed, half amused. âYeah, laugh it up, tough guy. Bet youâre glad itâs not you in this thing.â
Logan chuckled, stepping further into the room. âYou could say that.â His eyes met yours, and for a brief second, there was something in his gaze, something you couldnât quite put into words. But just as quickly, he looked away.
Nancy gave you a knowing smile, patting your shoulder before stepping back. âLogan,â she said, with a gentle warning in her voice, âtake care of her tonight, yes?â
Loganâs expression softened, his gaze turning protective as he looked at you. âAlways do.â
Nancy winked, then left the room, leaving you alone with him.
You let out a sigh, reaching for the hem of your dress as if you could somehow make it less constricting. âDo I really have to go down there?â
Logan raised an eyebrow. âYou think your dadâs throwing this party for fun? Whole point is for you to be seen.â
âGreat,â you muttered, moving toward the door. But as you passed him, Logan placed a hand on your shoulder, stopping you.
âYouâll be fine,â he said, his voice lower, more reassuring. âTheyâre not expecting anything from you. Just show up, smile, let them know you exist.â
You looked up at him, searching his face. He was steady, calm, his expression soft in a way he rarely let others see. You didnât know why, but having him there made you feel a little more at ease. âGuess I donât have much choice, do I?â
âNope,â he replied, his mouth twitching into that almost-smile.
With a resigned sigh, you squared your shoulders. âAlright, letâs get this over with.â
---
The party was everything youâd dreaded: formal, suffocating, and filled with people whose only interest in you was as your fatherâs daughter. Youâd stuck close to Logan most of the night, exchanging quiet remarks whenever the chance arose, his presence the only thing keeping you from losing your mind. But as the night wore on, a few glasses of champagne and the tension of the evening started to wear on you.
You tugged on Loganâs sleeve as you leaned in close. âThink anyone would notice if I snuck out?â you murmured, your breath warm against his ear.
Logan chuckled low, his gaze flickering over you. âConsidering your dadâs been watching you like a hawk? Probably.â
You rolled your eyes, letting your hand brush his arm. âFigures. He canât just let me have one night off.â You shifted closer, feeling his warmth through his jacket, and gave him a mischievous smile. âBet you didnât sign up for babysitting duty.â
âDidnât realize youâd need it,â he replied with a smirk, his voice barely loud enough for you to hear.
You nudged him playfully, letting your hand linger on his arm. âI donât,â you said, a little more insistently. âYou just donât know what to do with me.â
His eyes met yours, and there was something dark and unspoken in his gaze. âCareful,â he murmured, his voice dropping. âI might take you up on that.â
The hint of challenge in his tone sent a thrill through you, and you leaned closer, your hand settling on his chest as you whispered, âOh, Iâm counting on it.â
You could feel his heartbeat, steady beneath your hand, but his expression gave nothing away. He looked down at you, his jaw tight, but his eyes held that familiar intensity, the kind that had always made you wonder just how long heâd been watching you. It was intoxicating, that pull between you, and tonight, with the champagne loosening your guard, you felt bolder than usual.
When you finally pulled away, you could feel his gaze following you, but you didnât let yourself look back. Instead, you mingled through the crowd, smiling politely, pretending to listen to conversations while stealing glances at Logan across the room.
After what felt like hours, your fatherâs attention finally shifted, and you took the chance to slip away to your bedroom.
As you walked up the stairs, Logan trailed behind you, like always. You were tired of this, of the flirting, how he did it back to you, but how nothing ever happened.
Well tonight you were done with that.
You opened your bedroom door and sat on the bed, quickly slipping off your heels and tossing them carelessly across the room. The muffled sounds of laughter and clinking glasses filtered up from downstairs, where the party raged on. Logan stood in the doorway, as he always did, watching you in that silent, intense way that had been driving you crazy for months.
You looked up at him, your fingers playing with the hem of your short yellow dress, the fabric brushing against your thighs as you shifted on the bed. âYou cominâ in, or are you just gonna stand there all night?â
Logan didnât respond right away, his jaw ticking as his eyes flicked over you, taking in the sight of you sitting there, legs crossed, your dress riding up just enough to tease. He sighed, stepping into the room but staying near the door. âYour old manâs got half the city downstairs, Y/N. This ainât the time.â
You raised an eyebrow, a small smirk tugging at your lips. âSince when do you care about my dad? Heâs not your boss.â
He crossed his arms over his chest, the leather of his jacket creaking. âHe pays me to keep you safe, not⊠this.â
You stood up from the bed, taking a step toward him. âThis?â you repeated, voice playful, but you could feel the tension in the air thickening. âAnd what is âthis,â Logan?â
He didnât answer, just stood there, his eyes dark and unreadable, but you could see the way his body tensed when you got closer, the way his gaze flicked down to your legs before snapping back up to your face.
You reached out, your fingers brushing against the rough material of his flannel, and you could feel the heat of his body through the layers of fabric. He stiffened, his hand catching your wrist, but it wasnât harsh. Just enough to stop you.
âY/N, donât,â he warned, his voice low, rough.
You tilted your head, stepping even closer until your body was almost pressed against his. âWhy not?â you asked softly. âYouâve been following me around for months. Always there, always watching. What are you so afraid of?â
âIâm not afraid,â he muttered, but his grip on your wrist tightened just a little, like he was holding himself back. âYouâre too young for this. I work for your dad.â
You pulled your wrist free, undeterred, your hand now resting against his chest. âIâm not a kid, Logan. And you donât work for himâyou work for me. Youâve been protecting me, havenât you?â
His eyes narrowed. âThatâs not what I mean, and you know it.â
âThen what do you mean?â you shot back, moving even closer, your fingers trailing up to his shoulder, over the leather of his jacket. âYouâve been pulling away from me every time I get close, but you keep coming back.â
Loganâs jaw clenched, his hands hovering near your waist, as if he was afraid to touch you. âYouâre drunk.â
âIâm not drunk,â you said firmly, your voice steady. âAnd you know that.â You pressed a little harder, your lips just inches from his jaw, close enough to feel the warmth radiating from his skin. âYou donât have to keep pretending like you donât want this.â
His hands shot up to your shoulders, gripping you tightly, but he didnât push you away this time. His breathing was heavier now, the muscles in his arms tensing as if he was fighting against himself. âYou donât know what youâre asking for,â he growled, his voice barely above a whisper.
âMaybe not,â you admitted, your lips brushing the stubble on his jaw as you spoke. âBut I know what I want.â
Logan groaned low in his throat, his fingers tightening on your shoulders, but still, he didnât push you away. His resistance was crumbling, you could feel it.
âYouâre not a kid,â he repeated quietly, almost like he was trying to convince himself.
âNo,â you whispered back, your lips ghosting along the side of his neck, your hands moving to his chest, fingers curling in the fabric of his shirt. âIâm not.â
In a swift movement, you pushed him back toward the chair in the corner of the room, his legs hitting the edge as you guided him down. He sat heavily, his hands falling from your shoulders to your hips, still trying to hold onto that last bit of control.
You straddled his thigh, your dress riding up as you settled against him, the heat of your body pressed against the denim of his jeans. His hands moved up to your waist, holding you in place, but the look in his eyes told you he was barely holding on.
âY/N,â he rasped, but his voice was shaky, uncertain.
You didnât give him time to think. You started moving, rocking your hips against his thigh, slow at first, testing. His grip on your waist tightened, his eyes darkening as he watched you, the tension in his body radiating through his hands.
He wasnât stopping you.
You bit your lip, your breath hitching as you pressed harder against him, the friction sending a jolt of heat through you. Logan groaned, his hands sliding down to your hips, holding you steady as you moved. His control was slipping, and you could feel it.
âFuck,â he muttered under his breath, his head falling back against the chair, his eyes squeezed shut.
You leaned forward, your lips brushing his ear. âStill think Iâm too young?â
Loganâs jaw clenched, his hands gripping you harder as you rocked against him, the rough fabric of his jeans rubbing against the thin material of your underwear. Every movement sent sparks of pleasure through you, and you could tell from the way his breathing quickened that he was feeling it too.
His hands slid up your sides, fingers digging into your skin as he tried to pull you closer, but you were in control now. You pressed your lips to his neck, kissing the exposed skin, feeling the tension in his body as you kissed down toward his collarbone, your fingers tangling in his shirt.
Logan groaned, his hands gripping you tighter as you moved faster, grinding against his thigh with more urgency. The heat between your legs was almost unbearable now, the pressure building with every movement, every gasp that escaped your lips.
Logan's eyes were shut tight, head thrown back against the chair, his hands gripping your waist like he was the one trying to stay grounded. But you werenât stopping, not after all the months of back-and-forth, all the moments youâd caught him watching you with that dark, unreadable look. The friction, the heat pooling between your legs, was everything youâd been waiting for, and it was clear from the roughness of his breathing that he wasnât far behind.
You pressed harder, your hips rolling against his thigh as you gripped his shoulders to steady yourself. The thin fabric of your dress had ridden up, and you knew he could feel just how soaked you were through the denim of his jeans. His hands were at your waist, digging into your skin in a way that bordered on painful but only made you push down harder, rocking your hips with more insistence.
Loganâs voice was rough when he finally spoke, his hands tightening as if he was trying to keep himself from pulling you in closer. âY/N⊠youâre playinâ with fire here,â he growled, the words thick, like he was barely holding back.
You ignored him, pressing a little harder, your lips hovering just over the edge of his jaw as you breathed, âMaybe I like the heat.â
His jaw clenched, but his hands slid up, settling just under your ribs, holding you steady as you moved. Each shift of your hips brought another groan out of him, the sound vibrating through his chest and sending a thrill straight through you. You could feel yourself getting closer, your breath coming in shallow gasps as the pressure built, the heat between your legs almost too much to bear.
âLogan,â you whispered, your hands slipping up to tangle in his hair, pulling his face closer. You could see the restraint etched across his face, the way his jaw was clenched tight, like he was struggling to keep himself from giving in. âI need you.â
His hands tensed on your waist, fingers digging in harder, his breathing growing rougher with every word that slipped from your lips. But he didnât pull away; if anything, he held you tighter, letting you grind against him, the rough denim of his jeans rubbing against you in a way that left you breathless, desperate.
âYou know what youâre doinâ to me?â he muttered, his voice barely more than a growl as his eyes met yours, dark and full of something youâd been longing to see for months.
âMaybe,â you replied, a small, breathless smile tugging at your lips as you kept moving, kept pressing closer, feeling the tension between you both thicken until it was almost unbearable. âMaybe I want to see how far youâll let me go.â
Logan groaned, his grip tightening as his eyes fell shut again, his hands shifting to guide your hips, helping you keep up the steady rhythm that was driving you both closer to the edge. You leaned forward again, your lips brushing against his neck, pressing soft kisses along the exposed skin as you rocked against him, the heat building with every second.
âY/N,â he rasped, his voice so low it sent a shiver through you. âYouâre⊠youâre so damnââ
You cut him off, pressing your lips to the spot just under his ear, feeling the way his breath hitched as your hips ground down harder. You were close, every nerve ending on fire, and you could feel that he was, too. His hands were everywhere, sliding up your back, pressing you closer, holding you tight like he was afraid to let go.
And then, finally, the pressure broke. You gasped, fingers digging into his shoulders as your hips stilled, your body shuddering against him. Loganâs grip on your waist tightened, his own breath hitching as he held you steady, his hands warm and solid as you rode out the waves of pleasure.
He was quiet for a long moment, his breathing heavy, and you could feel the way his body had tensed beneath you, the strain in his hands as he held himself back. Slowly, you looked up, meeting his gaze, and the intensity in his eyes made your breath catch all over again.
Without a word, Logan shifted, his hands sliding down to hook under your thighs as he stood, lifting you with a strength that sent another thrill through you. Your arms wrapped around his shoulders as he carried you to the bed, the heat in his gaze leaving no room for second thoughts, no hesitation. This was it, and you were ready.
He laid you down, his hands lingering on your thighs, his fingers brushing over your skin as he looked down at you, his expression a mix of hunger and restraint. You reached up, tugging him closer until he was hovering over you, his weight pressing down just enough to make you feel secure, safe.
This was what youâd been waiting for, what youâd both been skirting around for too long. Loganâs hands slid up your sides, his fingers trailing along the fabric of your dress, and you felt your breath hitch as his gaze darkened, a small smirk tugging at the corner of his lips.
His thumbs brushed the exposed skin just above the low neckline of your dress, leaving goosebumps in their wake. You watched him, eyes locked on his as he leaned in, his jaw tight, the hunger in his gaze barely restrained. The room felt smaller, warmer, like the air had thickened between you.
And then, finally, his mouth was on yours.
The kiss was desperate, wild, like he was making up for lost time. His lips claimed yours with a roughness that sent a shiver down your spine, his hands moving to cradle your face, pulling you closer as if he couldnât stand the distance. You gasped against his mouth, your fingers finding their way into his hair, tugging him down harder.
It had been seventy-three years since heâd last kissed youânearly three quarters of a century of holding backâand the intensity of it showed. It was all-consuming, like he was trying to make up for every second heâd denied himself this.
Logan groaned into your mouth, a deep, almost pained sound, and the desperation in it made your blood race. He kissed you like he was starving, like he needed this, needed you, and you felt your body melt into him. His hands slid down your body, rough and sure, stopping at your hips to pull you flush against him. The heat between your legs was almost unbearable, and the friction of his jeans against your thighs only made it worse.
You broke the kiss for air, your breaths coming fast, but Logan didnât stop. His mouth found your neck, trailing hot, open-mouthed kisses down the curve of your throat, teeth scraping against your skin just enough to make you gasp. His hands were everywhere, tracing the curve of your waist, the swell of your hips, gripping you with a possessiveness that sent a thrill through you.
âLogan,â you whispered, your voice breathless, needy. You tilted your head back, giving him better access as his lips continued their descent, leaving a path of fire along your skin. Your hands fisted in his flannel, pulling him closer, and he groaned again, the sound vibrating through your body.
âGod, Y/N,â he rasped, his voice thick with desire, like he was barely holding on. His hands slipped under your dress, fingers brushing against the sensitive skin of your thighs, and you shivered, your breath catching in your throat. He pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes heavy-lidded, pupils blown wide with need. âYouâre gonna be the death of me,â he muttered, but the words were laced with something softer, something that made your heart skip.
You didnât reply, just pulled him down for another kiss, this one just as desperate as the first. Your hands roamed over his chest, slipping beneath the open flannel to feel the heat of his skin, the hard muscles that tensed under your touch. Logan shivered, his breath catching as your fingers brushed against his bare chest, and you felt a rush of satisfaction at the way he reacted to you.
His jacket slipped from his shoulders, landing somewhere on the floor, but neither of you paid it any mind. Your hands were already pushing the flannel off him, revealing more of his skin, and Logan helped you, shrugging it off with a growl of impatience. The white beater he wore beneath clung to his chest, and you could see the way his muscles flexed beneath it, the way the fabric stretched taut over his shoulders.
He leaned back down, capturing your lips in another searing kiss, and you moaned into his mouth, your nails digging into his shoulders. Loganâs hands were back under your dress, sliding up, leaving trails of heat in their wake. His touch was rough, calloused, but so incredibly gentle in a way that made your heart ache. You arched into him, your body pressing closer, desperate for more, for everything he was willing to give.
âFuck,â he muttered against your mouth, his hands sliding higher until his thumbs brushed the edge of your panties. He paused, breathing heavily, his eyes searching yours, looking for any sign of hesitation. But there was none. You were all in, had been from the moment youâd first seen him.
You reached down, grabbing his wrists and guiding his hands further up, silently urging him on. Loganâs breath hitched, and his eyes darkened even more, a low growl rumbling in his chest. His fingers hooked into the waistband of your panties, and you could feel your heart pounding as he tugged, the thin fabric slipping down your legs.
"Fuck, Y/N," he growled, his voice thick with need as his calloused hands slid back up your thighs, pushing your dress higher. "You're so damn wet already."
You gasped as his fingers brushed against your center, your hips jerking up instinctively. "Logan, please," you whimpered, reaching for him.
He leaned down to kiss you hard, his tongue pushing into your mouth as his fingers began exploring you properly. The roughness of his hands contrasted with how gently he touched you, like he was afraid of breaking you. You moaned into his mouth as he slid one thick finger inside, your hands gripping his shoulders.
"That's it, darlin'," he murmured against your lips. "Let me hear you."
Your dress was bunched around your waist now as Logan worked another finger into you, stretching you carefully. Your earlier orgasm had left you sensitive, making every touch feel electric. His thumb found your clit and began rubbing slow circles that had you writhing beneath him.
"Logan," you gasped, your nails digging into his skin through his beater. "I needâah!âI need more."
He growled low in his throat, curling his fingers inside you. "Tell me what you need, Y/N. Say it."
Your face flushed but you met his eyes. "I need you inside me. Please, Logan. I've wanted this for so long."
Something dark and possessive flashed in his eyes. He withdrew his fingers, making you whimper at the loss, and reached down to undo his belt. The metal clinked as he pulled it free, the sound sending a thrill through you.
You sat up enough to pull your dress over your head, leaving you in just your bra. Logan's eyes raked over you hungrily as he pushed his jeans down his hips. The obvious bulge in his boxers made your mouth go dry.
"Come here," he growled, pulling you into another searing kiss as his hands found the clasp of your bra. It took him only seconds to undo it, and then you were bare before him, your nipples hardening in the cool air.
Logan's mouth moved to your neck, sucking hard enough to leave marks as his hands cupped your breasts. You moaned as he rolled your nipples between his fingers, your back arching into his touch.
"Fuck, you're perfect," he muttered against your skin, his voice rough. He shifted to take one nipple into his mouth, his tongue swirling around the sensitive peak as you gasped and squirmed beneath him.
Your hands found the hem of his beater, tugging insistently until he pulled back long enough to yank it off. The sight of his bare chest, all hard muscle and dark hair, made heat pool between your legs. There were old scars scattered across his skin - remnants of wounds time hadn't quite erased.
You reached for his boxers but he caught your wrists, pinning them above your head with one large hand. "Not yet," he growled, his free hand sliding down between your legs again. "Want to make sure you're ready for me."
His fingers found your clit again and you cried out, oversensitive and desperate. "Logan, please," you begged, trying to buck your hips up against his hand. "I'm ready, I swear. I need you now."
He studied your face for a long moment, his eyes dark with desire, before releasing your wrists. "Take them off," he ordered, nodding to his boxers.
Your hands shook slightly as you pushed the fabric down his hips, freeing his cock. He was huge, thick and hard, already leaking at the tip. You wrapped your hand around him, stroking slowly, and Logan's breath hitched.
"Careful, darlin'," he warned, his voice strained. "Been wanting this too long to end it early."
He pushed you back onto the bed, settling between your spread thighs. The head of his cock brushed against your entrance and you both groaned. Logan braced himself on his forearms above you, his eyes locked on yours.
"You sure about this?" he asked, his voice rough but gentle. "Once I start, I don't know if I'll be able to stop."
You wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him closer. "I'm sure. Please, Logan. I want you."
He kissed you hard as he began pushing inside, swallowing your gasps as he stretched you open. The burn was intense but perfect, your body gradually adjusting to his size. Logan moved slowly, giving you time to adapt, but you could feel the tension in his muscles as he held himself back.
"Fuck," he groaned when he was finally fully seated inside you. "So tight, darlin'. Feel so good around me."
You clutched at his shoulders, panting. "Move," you urged. "Please, I needâ"
Logan pulled back and thrust forward again, setting a steady rhythm that had you seeing stars. Each stroke hit something deep inside you that made pleasure spark through your whole body. His hands gripped your hips, holding you steady as he fucked into you with increasing force.
"That's it," he growled, watching your face contort with pleasure. "Take it, Y/N. Take all of me."
Your nails raked down his back as the pressure built inside you again. Logan's thrusts grew harder, faster, driving you both toward the edge. The headboard banged against the wall with each movement but neither of you cared about the noise.
"Logan," you gasped, feeling yourself getting close. "I'm gonnaâah!"
"Come for me," he ordered, his voice rough. One hand slid between your bodies to rub your clit. "Want to feel you come on my cock."
The added stimulation pushed you over the edge. You came with a cry, your body clenching around him as waves of pleasure crashed over you. Logan growled, his rhythm faltering as your walls pulsed around him.
"Fuck, Y/N," he groaned, his thrusts growing erratic. "Where do you wantâ"
"Inside," you gasped, still riding the aftershocks. "Please, Logan. Wanna feel you."
He cursed, his hips snapping forward a few more times before he buried himself deep with a growl, spilling inside you. You could feel him pulsing, filling you up as he collapsed onto his forearms above you.
For several long moments, the only sound was your heavy breathing. Logan's forehead rested against yours, his eyes closed as he caught his breath. You ran your hands up and down his back, feeling the sweat-slick skin under your palms.
Finally, he pulled out carefully and rolled onto his side, pulling you with him. You winced slightly at the soreness between your legs, but it was a good kind of ache. Logan's arms wrapped around you, holding you close against his chest.
---
Logan let out a low groan as he woke, the bed beneath him feeling far too comfortable, unfamiliar in a way that immediately set him on edge. It took a second for his mind to catch up, piecing together where he was and, more importantly, who he was with.
He didnât need to look over to feel the warmth beside him, or the way your hair fanned out across the pillow. It hit him all at onceâthe heat of your skin against his, the way youâd leaned into him last night, confident, unrestrained. He opened his eyes, gaze finding you lying beside him, face soft and peaceful in sleep, an arm draped over his chest as if youâd claimed him in the night.
Logan sighed, glancing at the ceiling, but couldnât help looking down at you again, still asleep and blissfully unaware of the storm in his head. Heâd known it was a bad idea from the start, coming upstairs with you last night, letting his guard down. But damn, when youâd gotten close, pushing him toward that chair with that look in your eyesâheâd been gone the second youâd touched him.
He was even further gone when he had finally kissed youâit was one of his biggest regrets the last time he had seen you back in 1943âhe never held you the way he wanted to. Too afraid that maybe he was the problem, the reason you kept on dying over and over.
And because of that, he hadnât been this close to you since 1900.
It was strange, being here like thisâletting his guard down after all those lives, all those memories of watching you fade out of his reach. A part of him had always tried to keep a distance, to save himself from the heartbreak he knew was coming. But last night⊠last night, heâd been weak.
He brushed a thumb over your arm without thinking, lost in thought. It was impossible not to wonder, with you lying beside him like this, what it would be like if this time were different. If, just once, he could hold onto you, let himself believe youâd stay.
But he knew better.
His hand lingered on your skin a moment too long, and he felt you stir, your lashes fluttering as you slowly opened your eyes. A soft smile touched your lips when you saw him, and he felt his resolve crack just a little more.
âMorninâ,â he murmured, his voice rougher than heâd meant.
âMmm,â you hummed, still sleepy, your fingers tracing a lazy pattern over his chest. âDidnât think youâd still be here.â You said it lightly, but there was a hint of something else thereârelief, maybe. âGuess I finally wore you out.â
Logan huffed, his lips tugging into a smirk. âGuess so.â
You shifted to look at him, your eyes bright with that familiar mischief. âSo, whatâs your excuse this time?â
He raised a brow. âExcuse?â
âYeah. For pulling away,â you said, your tone casual but pointed. âYouâve always got one.â
Loganâs jaw clenched slightly, and he broke eye contact, looking away. âItâs complicated, Y/N.â
You reached up, cupping his face and guiding his gaze back to you. âThatâs what you always say. Doesnât mean it has to be.â
He was silent for a moment, searching your face. He could feel the weight of his past with you, all those memories stacking up like a dam holding back a flood. But he couldnât let you in on that. Couldnât make you carry the burden of knowing youâd livedâand diedâso many times before. It was his cross to bear, not yours.
âMaybe I just donât want you getting hurt,â he finally said, his voice quieter, a touch raw.
You let out a short, incredulous laugh. âPlease, Logan. You think I donât know what Iâm doing?â
Logan just shook his head, but he couldnât help the small, amused smile that crept onto his face. âYouâre a handful, you know that?â
âIâve heard that once or twice,â you teased, running your hand along his chest. âLucky for you, I donât scare easy.â
That hint of defiance in your voice tugged at something deep inside him, and he caught your hand, holding it in his as he looked into your eyes. âYou say that now. But Iâve got a way of⊠complicating things.â
Your gaze softened, but there was still a spark there, unyielding. âGood thing I like complicated.â
Loganâs eyes darkened, and for a second, he felt that familiar pull, the urge to tell you everythingâto let you in on the truth of why he was here, why he couldnât stay away. But he stopped himself, the weight of all those lost lifetimes bearing down on him again. He couldnât do that to you, not this time.
âThen I guess Iâm stuck with you,â he said, trying to keep his tone light, even though his grip on your hand tightened ever so slightly.
âGuess so,â you replied with a grin, shifting closer. You tilted your head, eyes narrowing as you studied him. âLogan?â
âYeah?â
âAre you ever gonna stop acting like youâre some kind of curse?â Your voice was soft but firm, like you were daring him to argue.
Logan went silent, his gaze flickering away from yours. Youâd hit closer to the truth than you knew.
âDonât know if I can,â he admitted after a pause. âItâs⊠complicated.â He shrugged, hoping youâd leave it at that.
But, of course, you didnât. âThen I guess Iâll just have to keep proving you wrong,â you murmured, pressing a light kiss to his jaw, a warm reassurance that only made him feel the pull of his past even stronger.
He didnât answer, just closed his eyes, letting himself savor this one small, stolen moment with you. Just this once, heâd allow himself that. Because deep down, he knew heâd always lose you in the end.
And this time, he was determined to make it last as long as he could. Maybe, just maybe, even put that ring to use.
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You were back at the dog shelter, this time staying a little bit longer since one of the workers, Amelia, was out sick.
Lorraine handed you a few leashes, âmind taking some of âem out for a walk?â
You happily grabbed the roped leashes, âof course.â Then you glanced over at Logan, who had been eyeing the dogs with a mix of amusement and reservation. âYou up for walkinâ some too?â
He raised an eyebrow at you, then at the leashes in your hand, but there was a hint of a smirk playing at his lips. âDidnât take you for a dog wrangler, Y/N.â
You laughed, clipping one of the leashes onto a small brown mutt who was practically bouncing with excitement. âCome on, Logan. Whatâre you afraid of? They donât biteâwell, not all of them, anyway.â
Logan chuckled, reluctantly stepping forward. âRight. Long as they donât try to drag me down the street.â
You handed him a leash attached to a shaggy, medium-sized dog with big brown eyes, looking up at him expectantly. âHere. This oneâs named Ringo. Heâs a sweetheart.â
Logan eyed the dog suspiciously before giving the leash a little tug, testing the waters. âRingo, huh?â He knelt down and patted the dogâs head, a faint smile crossing his face as the dog leaned into his touch. âGuess youâre alright.â
You couldnât help but smile at the sight. âSee? He likes you already.â As you finished leashing up a few more of the dogs, you handed the leashes to Logan. âThink you can handle these guys too?â
Logan took the leashes without complaint, looking down at the little group of dogs at his feet. âGuess I donât have much choice.â
âGood answer,â you teased, giving him a wink before heading toward the door. You led the way outside, the two of you walking side-by-side with the dogs trotting happily along. It was a warm day, and the sun was shining down, casting a soft glow over everything.
Logan glanced over at you as you moved down the sidewalk together, the dogs tugging excitedly at their leashes. You had a carefree smile on your face, and he found himself watching you more than the path ahead, the memory of a few nights ago still vivid in his mind. The thought of it sent a thrill through himâyet at the same time, a pang of dread.
âYou always this happy walking dogs, or is it just âcause Iâm here?â he teased, a little smirk tugging at his lips.
You shot him a playful look. âGuess youâll never know.â You nudged him lightly with your shoulder, eyes bright with mischief. âBut if you keep coming with me, you might find out.â
He let out a small laugh, his gaze softening as he looked away. Even after all these years, you could still surprise himâlike the way youâd drag him to places like this or the way you talked about the little things with such enthusiasm. It was one of those qualities he remembered about you from lifetimes ago, and it hadnât changed. It made him feel like maybe, somehow, this was different.
As you walked a little further, one of the dogsâa scruffy little terrierâyipped and tugged at Loganâs leash, trying to chase after a pigeon. He grunted, holding the leash tightly and muttering, âSettle down, mutt. Youâre not goinâ anywhere.â
You laughed, glancing over with an amused smile. âRingoâs got more energy than youâd think, huh?â
Logan shook his head, but he couldnât help but smile. âYeah, well, maybe I should be takinâ notes from him.â He looked at you then, and his expression softened. âYouâve really got a thing for these dogs, donât ya?â
Your smile faded into something more thoughtful as you looked down at the furry pack in front of you. âI dunno. I guess theyâre just⊠easy to be around. They donât care about who my father is or what I doâthey just want someone to be with them, you know?â
Logan nodded, watching the way you interacted with the dogs, your fingers lightly brushing over their heads, your voice soft as you spoke to them. Youâd always had that kindness about you, that gentleness that made him want to believe in something better, something⊠safe.
âYouâre good with âem,â he said quietly, almost to himself.
You looked up at him, a smile in your eyes. âYou know, youâre not so bad with them either, Logan.â
He chuckled, shaking his head. âNah, I think Iâll leave the dog-wranglinâ to you.â
For a while, you walked in comfortable silence, the bustling city around you fading into the background as you wandered through the neighborhood with the dogs. Finally, you reached a small park, and you stopped to let the dogs sniff around.
As they explored, you took a seat on a nearby bench, patting the spot beside you. Logan hesitated for a second before joining you, stretching his legs out in front of him.
You looked over at him, your expression soft. âThanks for coming today. I know this probably isnât your ideal way to spend an afternoon.â
Logan shrugged, trying to act casual, but he couldnât hide the warmth in his gaze. âWouldnât be here if I didnât wanna be,â he said, his voice low.
The sincerity in his words made your heart skip a beat, and you looked away, feeling a little bashful. You fiddled with one of the leashes, clearing your throat. âYou know⊠the more time we spend together, the more I wonder how long youâre planning to stick around.â
He hesitated, his jaw tightening as he considered his answer. He wanted to tell you the truthâthat heâd been watching you, waiting for you, for so many lifetimes. But he couldnât. Instead, he reached out, his hand covering yours where it rested on the bench.
âAs long as youâll have me,â he said quietly.
The words hung between you, and for a moment, it was like the whole world had faded away. You looked up at him, your eyes searching his, trying to read the depths of his expression.
A soft smile touched your lips, and you squeezed his hand. âThen youâre gonna be around for a long time, Logan.â
He felt a strange, hopeful ache in his chest at your words, and for the first time in what felt like forever, he allowed himself to believe that maybe, this time, things could be different.
The dogs barked, breaking the spell, and you both laughed, pulling away as you got up to wrangle them again. But even as you continued on your walk, he stayed close by your side, his hand occasionally brushing yours as you walkedâalmost as if he was reminding himself that you were real, that you were here with him.
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Late one night, you lay beside Logan in the dim light filtering through the window, the cityâs night sounds a steady hum in the distance. Your head rested on his chest, your fingers tracing lazy circles over the skin above his heart, feeling the steady beat beneath your touch.
Logan shifted slightly, his hand coming up to rest gently on your back. For a long time, he just lay there, watching you in silence, his thumb brushing along your spine. You could tell he was relaxed, but there was something elseâa quiet intensity in the way his gaze lingered on you, a heaviness in the air that made your heart race.
âWhatâre you thinkinâ about?â you murmured, letting your fingers trail up to his collarbone. You glanced up at him, catching the faintest hint of a smile as he met your eyes.
âJust⊠wonderinâ how I got roped into all this,â he said, the corner of his mouth lifting. But the glint in his eyes gave him away, and you saw something softer there.
âYeah? Doesnât seem like you mind too much.â You smirked, giving his chest a light pat. âIâd almost say youâre gettinâ attached.â
He snorted, pulling you a little closer, his arm tightening around you. âCould say the same for you,â he replied, his voice low, almost teasing. âYouâre insatiable, yâknow that?â
You laughed, and the sound was soft in the quiet room. âYouâre the one who keeps showinâ up, Logan. If you wanted me to behave, youâd stay away.â
He raised an eyebrow, clearly amused. âMaybe I donât want you to behave.â
Your fingers stilled on his chest, and you looked up at him with a mischievous glint in your eye. âSo you like me like this, then? A little reckless⊠a little spoiled?â you teased.
He chuckled, his eyes softening as he looked at you. âYeah,â he murmured, voice barely above a whisper. âThink I do.â
You felt a warmth spread through you at his words, and you settled back against his chest, letting your hand rest over his heart. For a while, neither of you said anything, the silence comfortable, his warmth grounding you. It was a rare kind of peaceâone that youâd come to cherish whenever you were with him.
But then, curiosity got the better of you, and you lifted your head, giving him a thoughtful look. âLogan,â you began, your voice hesitant. âHow long are you gonna stick around? I mean⊠I know my dad thinks youâre just here for protection, but⊠it feels like more than that.â
Loganâs gaze darkened, a flash of something unreadable passing over his face. He glanced away, his jaw tensing as he seemed to search for the right words. âAs long as you want me here, Iâm not goinâ anywhere.â
The weight of his words hung between you, and you felt your heart skip a beat. âThen donât,â you whispered, leaning up to press a soft kiss to his cheek. âI donât want you to.â
He didnât say anything in response, but his hand slipped up to cup the back of your head, pulling you down into a slow, lingering kiss. There was something different about it this time, a quiet desperation that made your pulse quicken, like he was trying to hold on to this moment, to keep it from slipping away.
When you finally pulled back, you searched his eyes, wondering what was going through his mind. âYouâre not gonna let me go, are you?â
A small smile tugged at his lips, though his gaze was still shadowed. âNot a chance, darlinâ.â
You felt a surge of affection for him then, this man whoâd somehow become both your protector and your closest confidant. He was rough around the edges, guarded and distant with everyone elseâbut with you, he was different. You brought out a softness in him, a warmth that felt as though it had been buried for a long, long time.
Without thinking, you reached up and brushed a lock of hair from his forehead, your fingertips lingering against his skin. âYou know, for a guy whoâs supposed to be my bodyguard, youâre doing a terrible job at keeping things professional,â you teased, though there was no bite in your words.
Logan let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. âYouâre the one makinâ things complicated, Y/N.â
âMaybe.â You smirked, your fingers still tracing over his chest. âBut you donât seem to mind.â
He looked at you then, something fierce in his eyes, and for a moment, you saw a glimpse of the man heâd beenâa man whoâd loved and lost, whoâd carried scars from lifetimes past. You wondered if he would ever tell you his story, if he would ever let you in on the secrets he guarded so closely.
But for now, you were content with the silence, with the feel of his heartbeat beneath your hand, with the quiet reassurance that he wasnât going anywhere.
As the night wore on, you lay there together, wrapped up in each other, the world outside fading away. And for the first time in a long time, you felt like you were exactly where you were meant to be.
---
Your father had asked you to come to his office in the spacious house. At first it was nothing but muffled voices from outside the door, until Logan heard your father speak again, for a longer period of time, causing your own voice to rise.
While Logan couldnât make out the words you were saying even with his enhanced hearing, he could tell you werenât happy. Your voice carried that sharp edge you only got when something really struck a nerve, and judging by the way you didnât hold back, it had to be serious.
Logan lingered just outside the heavy, mahogany door of your fatherâs office, his fists clenched as he heard your voice rising behind it. It was clear you were upset, and whatever was being discussed inside, you didnât like it. Heâd seen you frustrated, angry even, but never like thisâthere was a desperation in your tone that sent a chill through him.
Moments later, the door flew open, and you stormed out, cheeks flushed with anger, eyes flashing as you spotted him. You barely paused, brushing past him, but Logan caught your wrist, stopping you in your tracks.
âY/N,â he said, his voice low. âWhat happened?â
You turned to face him, anger and hurt swirling in your eyes. âHeâs⊠heâs marrying me off, Logan. To that family. After everything he promised meâhe said heâd never force me into something like this.â
Loganâs expression hardened. âWhat are you talkinâ about? He canât just⊠marry you off like some kind of deal.â
Your hands were shaking as you brushed a stray lock of hair behind your ear, struggling to keep your composure. âApparently, he can. Thereâs been this feud with the Romano family for years, and he says this is the only way to keep the peace. To protect me. Protect us.â
Loganâs jaw clenched. He felt a familiar anger rising in him, a deep, protective instinct heâd been fighting to keep under wraps. âSo, heâs just gonna throw you into a marriage you donât want? You donât even know this guy, do you?â
You shook your head, looking away. âI met him once. He was⊠polite enough. But thatâs not the point, Logan. I donât want to marry himâor anyone like this. My father always said heâd let me choose, that he wouldnât⊠sell me off.â The bitterness in your tone stung, your gaze distant as if replaying the conversation.
Logan searched your face, feeling an ache he couldnât put into words. âAnd he knows how you feel about this?â
You swallowed, nodding. âI told him, but he says I donât understand the bigger picture, that this is whatâs best for everyone.â You gave a hollow laugh, looking down. âFor everyone but me.â
He felt a pang of guilt, knowing he was just a bodyguard, technically part of the arrangement meant to keep you safe from any threats. But you were more than just a job to him, and the thought of you being forced into something like this made his blood boil. He let out a rough breath, stepping closer. âY/N, you donât have to go along with this. Not if you donât want to.â
Your gaze softened as you looked up at him. âAnd what am I supposed to do, Logan? Run off in the middle of the night?â You gave a small, bitter smile. âI donât even know where Iâd go.â
He didnât hesitate, his voice dropping low. âThen we go together. If you donât wanna go through with this, weâll figure somethinâ else out.â
Your breath hitched at his words, and for a moment, the anger and hurt seemed to fade, replaced by something warmer, more uncertain. âYouâd really⊠leave everything?â
He shrugged, almost nonchalant, but there was a fierce determination in his eyes. âI got no reason to stay here if youâre not here, too.â
You hesitated, torn between the depth of his offer and the weight of the decision you knew would follow. Finally, you gave a small nod, as if grounding yourself in the moment. âI donât know whatâs gonna happen, Logan, but⊠I just need to know youâre here. That Iâm not going through this alone.â
He reached out, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering. âIâm not goinâ anywhere, Y/N. You got my word on that.â
There was a silence between you, thick and charged, each of you processing the weight of everything unsaid. His gaze stayed locked on yours, and for a moment, the anger and fear in your eyes softened, replaced by something closer to relief. And then, almost impulsively, you took his hand, squeezing it tight.
âThank you, Logan. I⊠I needed to hear that,â you said softly, glancing away before meeting his gaze again, vulnerability written all over your face. âJust⊠donât let go, okay?â
He gave your hand a reassuring squeeze, his voice barely above a whisper. âNot a chance, darlinâ.â
---
Nancy was doing your hair once again for the dinner with the Romano family. You had tried everything over the past few weeks, trying to convince your father that this didnât have to happen. That he promised you he would never do this.
But no matter what you did, he was firm in his stance, "you're getting married to Clyde, and that's final."
You sat still, staring at your reflection in the mirror as Nancy pinned up the last of your curls. Your face looked composed, serene even, but beneath it, there was a storm brewingâa knot of anger and dread you couldnât shake. Every time you thought about that dinner tonight, your stomach twisted. Clyde Romano. A stranger. And yet, your father had decided this was your future, and nothing you said seemed to change his mind.
Nancy, sensing the tension, placed a comforting hand on your shoulder. "Itâll be alright, Y/N. Youâll be surrounded by family."
Family. Right. But none of them seemed to understand how trapped you felt. You forced a tight-lipped smile, nodding. "Thanks, Nancy."
As she stepped back, there was a light knock at the door. You turned to see Logan standing there, looking slightly uncomfortable in his formal attire but as steadfast as ever. His gaze softened as he took in your appearance, though he quickly masked it.
"Didnât mean to interrupt," he said, glancing between you and Nancy. "Just wanted to make sure youâre ready."
Nancy finished adjusting your hair and excused herself, leaving you alone with Logan. You looked at him, searching his face, hoping for some kind of lifeline.
"Logan," you murmured, voice barely above a whisper. "I feel like Iâm being dragged somewhere I canât escape from."
He stepped closer, his expression darkening as he listened. âYouâre not alone in this, Y/N. You know Iâm with you, whatever you decide.â His hand reached out, brushing against your arm, his touch grounding you.
You drew in a shaky breath, steadying yourself. âWhat if I decide to just⊠disappear?â you asked, half-joking but mostly serious.
Loganâs eyes met yours, and you saw the unspoken resolve there. âThen Iâll be right behind you. Doesnât matter where.â
For a moment, you let yourself believe itâthat you could simply run, with Logan at your side. But reality crashed back in, and you dropped your gaze.
"I wish it were that simple," you whispered, clenching your fists. "But if I leave, it could tear everything apart."
Loganâs hand settled over yours, his grip firm and reassuring. "Then we make it through tonight. And tomorrow, we figure out the rest. Youâre not facing this alone, darlinâ. Not as long as Iâm here."
You looked up at him, finding strength in his gaze. Heâd been your rock through all of this, his presence steady and unwavering. And tonight, that was what you needed most.
âAlright,â you murmured, giving him a small, grateful smile. âLetâs go face this⊠together.â
He nodded, his grip on your hand a silent promise. Whatever came next, you knew heâd be there, just as he always had been. And with that thought, you found the courage to head downstairs to face your familyâand the Romanosâone more time.
---
The dinner was at an Italian restaurant, one your father owned as cover for his business. Your dad sat at the head of the table while Clydeâs father sat at the other end. In front of you was your uncle Ermanno, who was also your dadâs consigliere, while Clyde sat next to you.
Logan, along with the other bodyguards, stood watch at the entrance of the private dining room, their silent gazes sweeping the place. He wore his usual hard expression, though his eyes softened just a touch when they found you across the room. Heâd been watching you all nightâcatching every little shift, each moment you looked down or forced a smile, every subtle tightening of your hand on the tablecloth.
Clyde Romano leaned in a little closer, his arm casually brushing against yours as he tried to make small talk. "So, Y/N, I hear youâve been helping out at a shelter?"
You nodded, barely meeting his eyes. âYeah, I volunteer with the dogs mostly. ItâsâŠnice to get away from all this sometimes.â You forced a smile, trying to keep things polite. You could feel your fatherâs gaze on you, watching for any misstep.
Clyde smiled back, but it felt too rehearsed. âWell, once weâre married, you wonât have to worry about shelters or anything like that. Youâll have enough responsibilities as a Romano.â
You felt your stomach twist at his words. Loganâs gaze sharpened from across the room as he picked up on the slight shift in your expression. You shot him a quick look, your eyes pleading for any kind of rescue. Loganâs jaw tightened, and for a brief moment, he almost looked like heâd step in. But he stayed put, his hands clenched behind his back.
Instead, he looked for the smallest opening. Just as Clydeâs attention was pulled away by his father, Logan slipped into view, leaning down beside you. âYou alright?â he murmured, low enough that only you could hear.
âNot even close,â you whispered back, your eyes fixed on your glass. âHeâs already talking about our future like⊠like itâs set in stone.â
Loganâs eyes flickered with something fierce. âWeâll get through this, Y/N. Tonightâs just another show. Nothing more.â His fingers brushed the back of your chair, the barely-there touch sending a wave of calm through you.
But Clydeâs voice cut back in before Logan could say anything more. âY/N, we were thinking of heading to Italy for the honeymoon. Itâll be a good chance to meet the rest of the family there.â
Your heart sank further. Italy. An entire ocean away, away from everything you knew, from everyone who mattered to you. âItaly,â you echoed, your voice strained but steady.
âYeah. The Romano estates are beautifulâbeaches, vineyards⊠a real paradise.â He seemed oblivious to your hesitation, already dreaming up plans youâd had no say in. Your father looked pleased, nodding his approval from his end of the table.
Logan straightened, but the look he gave you was unmistakable: You donât have to do this.
You swallowed, shifting in your seat as Clyde rambled on. When his focus shifted to his own father again, you leaned back just enough to whisper to Logan, âIâm not sure I can keep pretending.â
Loganâs expression softened, and for a second, he let a hint of his guard down. âYou donât have to, darlinâ.â His voice was low, almost tender, meant for you alone. âSay the word, and we walk outta here. Right now.â
The thought made your heart skip, but your gaze drifted toward your father, seated across the table with a look of satisfaction. Leaving wasnât just about you; it would mean defying him, challenging the life heâd molded for you. The thought felt like a mountain on your shoulders.
âI canât just walk away,â you said quietly. âHeâs⊠heâd never forgive me.â
Loganâs hand brushed yours under the table, a quiet show of support. âMaybe heâs the one who should be asking for forgiveness,â he murmured, his thumb tracing a light circle over your knuckles. The warmth of his touch settled something in you, steadying your breath.
You gave a tiny nod, squeezing his hand for just a second before pulling away. Logan straightened, stepping back to his post but still keeping his gaze on you. Clyde was oblivious, caught up in a conversation with his father about future business plans, each word feeling like a nail in the coffin.
Dinner dragged on, a blur of forced laughter and stiff conversation. Every time you felt yourself sinking, you looked toward Logan. He was there, solid and watchful, like a silent promise of something real in a room full of facades.
Eventually, the families began to wind down, talk shifting to more casual chatter. Clyde, emboldened by the nightâs success, reached over and took your hand, his grip possessive. âSoon, youâll be part of the family, Y/N. Youâll see. Youâll come to love it.â
Your mind screamed at the thought, every fiber of you wanting to pull away. But you held still, not daring to make a scene. Loganâs gaze narrowed, his jaw set as he took in the sight of Clydeâs hand around yours.
Finally, as the night came to an end and the families started to stand, Clyde leaned in with a smug smile. âReady to go? I thought weâd take a walk, just the two of us.â
Before you could answer, Logan was there, stepping in with a casual yet firm presence. âMr. Romano,â he said, addressing Clyde but looking right at you, âyour father asked to speak with you in private before you head out.â
Clyde frowned but nodded, reluctantly releasing your hand. âIâll be back soon, Y/N.â He disappeared toward the far end of the room, leaving you alone with Logan.
You let out a slow breath, the tension finally loosening from your shoulders. âThank you,â you whispered, looking up at him, gratitude spilling from every word.
Logan gave a slight nod. âCouldnât let him drag you out there without a say.â His voice was rough, but his eyes softened as he held your gaze. âYouâre not alone in this, Y/N. Whatever happens⊠you got me.â
The weight of the night lifted just a little, and for a moment, you almost believed you had a choice in all of this.
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âA week?â you repeated, your voice barely above a whisper as you stood in your fatherâs office. The weight of the word seemed to pull you under, even as you fought to keep your voice steady.
Your fatherâs expression was impassive, arms crossed as he looked at you. âYes, Y/N. The Romano family wants to move quickly. They think itâs best, and I agree. Itâs time you take on this responsibility for the family.â
Your jaw clenched. You remembered the promises he made, back when you were younger, that heâd never force you into something like this. âI just⊠I donât understand. You always saidââ
âPeople change, Y/N,â he interrupted, his tone firm. âThis is whatâs best for you and for us. For the family.â
You shook your head, feeling a rush of helplessness. âAnd what about what I want? Iâve been trying to tell you for weeks that I donât want this, and youâre not listening.â
He exhaled sharply, the kind of sigh that signaled his patience was running thin. âThis isnât about what you want. I didnât raise you to be selfish.â
âSelfish?â The word stung, and you couldnât help the surge of anger that rose within you. âIâm asking for my life. How is that selfish?â
He frowned, unyielding. âEnough, Y/N. This is happening. Weâre done discussing it.â
Your breath hitched, but you forced yourself to stay composed. The walls of the office seemed to close in on you, the reality of it settling heavy and cold. You had a weekâseven daysâto either submit to this life heâd chosen for you or⊠what? You didnât even know.
Without another word, you turned and left, fighting the urge to slam the door behind you. The hall felt stifling as you walked out, your thoughts churning.
When you reached your room, Logan was there, waiting. The moment he saw your face, he stiffened. âWhat happened?â His voice was a low rumble, the concern clear.
âA week,â you whispered, barely able to meet his gaze. âI have a week before he marries me off to Clyde.â
Loganâs jaw tightened, and you could see the flash of anger in his eyes. He stepped closer, his hand moving to rest on your shoulder. âSo thatâs it, then? Heâs just⊠throwing you to that bastard?â
You nodded, the words catching in your throat. âI donât know what to do, Logan. I tried everything, but he wonât listen. Heâs set on it.â
Loganâs hand slipped down, finding yours and giving it a reassuring squeeze, his rough fingers warm and grounding. You tightened your grip, the frustration and helplessness boiling inside you finally having somewhere to go.
âIâm supposed to just go along with it,â you muttered, bitterness seeping into your words. âAct like Iâm thrilled to be Clydeâs obedient little wife. Like my lifeâs just⊠his to take.â
Loganâs gaze darkened. âItâs not. You know that. And anyone who tries to take it without your say? They got me to deal with.â His voice was low and dangerous, a promise just for you.
You looked up, searching his face, a flicker of hope stirring. âBut what can we do, Logan? Heâs not going to listen to me. And if I push back too hard⊠I donât know what heâll do.â
âThen let me get you out of here,â Logan said, leaning in closer. His voice softened, gentler now. âWe can leave, right now if you want. Just say the word.â
Your heart twisted painfully, the temptation so fierce you almost said yes then and there. But reality clawed its way back, the weight of your fatherâs expectations and the tight grip he kept on every part of your life. Leaving would mean giving up everythingâand, deep down, you werenât sure you could risk it.
âWhat about my dad?â you whispered, feeling the weight of it pressing down again. âHeâs⊠heâd see it as betrayal, Logan. And what if he goes after you?â
A flicker of something familiar crossed Loganâs face, a shadow from a life you couldnât remember but that he clearly did. âY/N, donât worry about me,â he murmured. âBeen through worse.â He squeezed your hand a little tighter, his thumb brushing over your knuckles in a gesture so tender it nearly undid you. âAnd if heâs got a problem, then he can take it up with me.â
You let out a shaky breath, feeling the anger and fear give way just a bit. âYou say that now, but you havenât seen how he gets when people cross him. Heâd never forgive me, Logan. Heâd never forgive us.â
Loganâs hand moved to cup your face, his touch steadying you as his eyes met yours. âThen we donât need his forgiveness. We get you out, and I keep you safe. Whatever comes after, we face it together.â
The fierce certainty in his voice sent a warmth flooding through you, your resolve hardening under his gaze. âBut Clyde, the Romanoâs⊠they wonât just let it go.â
A smirk tugged at Loganâs mouth, the edge of defiance clear. âThen theyâll learn what happens when they mess with you. Ainât nobodyâs right to take away your freedom, Y/N. Not your old man, not Clyde, not anyone.â
A beat of silence stretched between you, his hand still warm against your cheek. Your fingers tightened around his, and for a second, all the anger and dread faded, leaving just you and him in the quiet of the room.
âWhat about⊠us?â The words slipped out before you could stop them, and for a second, you held your breath, waiting for his reaction.
Loganâs eyes softened, his gaze never leaving yours. âWhat about us, darlinâ?â He brushed a thumb along your cheek, his voice dropping to a low murmur. âYou think Iâd just leave you here to face this on your own?â
His words sent a rush of warmth through you, and before you knew it, you were leaning into him, his presence steady and unshakable. He let out a low sigh, wrapping his arm around your shoulders and pulling you closer, his other hand tracing gentle circles over your back.
âYouâre all Iâve got in this,â you whispered, feeling the tears prick at the corners of your eyes. âI canât lose you, too.â
âYou wonât,â he murmured, pressing a kiss to the top of your head, his hold tightening just enough to reassure you. âNot now, not ever.â
You stayed like that for a long moment, wrapped up in his embrace, the weight of everything slipping away in his arms. But eventually, reality crept back in, and you pulled back, catching the flicker of resolve in his gaze.
âIf we do thisâŠâ You paused, steadying yourself. âIf we leave, we need a plan.â
Logan gave a small nod, his hand still resting on yours. âWeâll figure it out. Tonight, weâre just gettinâ you through this.â
It was a promise, simple and unbreakable, and for the first time in weeks, you felt a flicker of hope stirring deep inside you.
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The rehearsal dinner was held in a private room at the church a few days later; a grand, echoing place with gilded walls and tall stained-glass windows that cast colored light over everything. Clyde, his parents, and your family were all gathered, discussing wedding arrangements like it was a done deal, each word chipping away at any illusion of control you had left.
Logan and the other bodyguards stood at a respectful distance, keeping watch. He tried to keep his gaze neutral, but his eyes lingered on you longer than necessary, catching every forced smile and stiff nod you gave.
As the minister went through the motions, you and Clyde practiced exchanging vows. You held his hands, repeating words that felt like a foreign languageâlifeless, meaningless. Your eyes drifted toward Logan, and he gave you the barest nod, grounding you with that single, unspoken promise.
After the vows, Clyde leaned in close, his voice low and smug. âI think youâll come to love our life together, Y/N. Just give it time.â
You forced a polite smile, biting back the words you wanted to say. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Logan clench his fists, his face darkening.
Finally, as the rehearsal ended and people began drifting off, you made your way to a quiet corner, needing a moment alone. Logan slipped over to you, his movements subtle as he came to stand beside you.
âAre you alright?â he asked, his voice softer now that it was just the two of you.
You shook your head, feeling that familiar knot of dread twist tighter. âLogan, I donât think I can go through with this. But I donât know if I can run, either. Iâm⊠ Iâm stuck.â
He took a deep breath, his gaze intense as he looked down at you. âWhat if I told you that you didnât have to decide tonight?â he asked quietly. âThat we could just⊠take it one day at a time. You donât have to have all the answers right now.â
The tension in your shoulders eased a bit, and you met his eyes, finding strength in the certainty there. He wasnât pushing you, wasnât forcing anything on you. He was just⊠here, with you, in whatever way you needed.
âOkay,â you whispered, nodding slowly. âOne day at a time.â
Logan gave a small, reassuring smile. âThatâs all we need, darlinâ.â His hand brushed your shoulder, lingering just a second longer than necessary before he stepped back.
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The day of the wedding had arrived, and you were dolled up, your makeup and hair were perfect, and your wedding dress was heavy, constricting, and large.
Once the makeup artists and hair stylists left, you had fled to the bathroom in the bridal suite and were currently hunched over the toilet. You hadnât thrown upâyetâbut you could feel the nausea and anxiousness rising.
You braced yourself against the counter, taking deep breaths as you tried to calm the twisting feeling in your stomach. The dress felt like a vice, heavy and restrictive, pressing on every nerve, suffocating in a way that went beyond fabric and lace. You squeezed your eyes shut, hoping the queasiness would pass.
A knock at the door pulled you from the spinning in your head.
âY/N?â Nancyâs soft, steady voice filtered through, full of that motherly concern youâd come to rely on all your life.
You took a steadying breath, swallowing hard before calling out, âCome in, Nancy.â
The door creaked open, and Nancy stepped inside, closing it quietly behind her. Her gaze immediately softened as she took in the look on your face, her expression a mix of sympathy and something elseâresolve, maybe.
âOh, cara mia,â she murmured, reaching out to place a hand on your shoulder. âYou donât look well. This whole businessâitâs too much, isnât it?â
You managed a shaky nod. âI⊠I donât know if I can do this, Nancy. Every time I think about it, I justâŠâ You trailed off, not sure how to put into words the suffocating dread that had settled over you.
She gave you a small, encouraging squeeze. âYou know,â she said quietly, âthere are other paths besides the one your father chose for you. And you donât have to walk it alone.â
Your heart skipped at her words. âYou⊠youâd help me? Even if IâŠ?â
Nancy nodded, a spark of fierce protectiveness in her eyes. âLoganâs already got your things in his car,â she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper. âIf youâre ready to go, heâs waiting.â
You blinked back tears before grabbing one of her hands, ây- you want me to go?â
âSĂ. Your father is a bastardo, breaking that promise him and your mother made.â She squeezed your hand, âLoganâs a good man. Iâve seen the way he looks at you. He wonât let you down.â
You swallowed hard, Nancyâs words settling like a quiet fire in your chest. She was right. Your father had broken his promise, and you didnât owe him your life just because he controlled every other part of it.
With a shaky exhale, you gave her a nod. âAlright⊠Iâll go.â
Nancyâs face softened, relief mingling with pride. âGood girl. Now, take this.â She pressed a small envelope into your hand. âCash. Just in case.â
You looked down at it, blinking back tears. âThank you, Nancy. For everything.â
She pulled you into a hug, her hand stroking your back gently. âGo, cara mia. Go live your life.â She pulled back, eyes glinting with fierce determination. âAnd donât look back.â
You nodded, holding onto that resolve as you slipped out of the bathroom and made your way down the hall, heart pounding. Every step felt heavier, weighed down by fear and the voice in the back of your mind that told you this was dangerous, reckless. But when you stepped outside and saw Logan waiting by his car, the weight lifted.
He looked up, his gaze intense but soft, like heâd been waiting for this moment just as long as you had. âYou ready?â
You hesitated, just for a moment, before giving him a small nod. âYeah. Letâs get out of here.â
Logan opened the passenger door for you, helping you in, his hand lingering on yours for a second longer than necessary. He closed the door, then climbed into the driverâs seat, starting the engine with a low rumble that matched the pulse pounding in your ears.
As he pulled out of the churchâs parking lot, the weight of the decision hit you again. You were leaving everything behindâthe security, the expectations, the people whoâd shaped your entire life. But with each passing second, the fear melted away, replaced by a strange, liberating sense of excitement.
Logan glanced over, noticing the small smile tugging at your lips. âYou donât look so panicked now.â
You shook your head, unable to hide your grin. âIâm not. Not with you here.â
He gave a soft chuckle, that familiar warmth in his gaze. âGood. Because weâve got a long drive ahead of us.â
You settled back, feeling more at ease than youâd felt in months. There was silence for a moment, comfortable and charged, before you turned to him, voice barely a whisper.
âWhere are we going?â
Logan smirked. âAnywhere but here.â
You laughed softly, relaxing into your seat. The road stretched ahead, open and endless, and for the first time in a long while, the future felt like something you could shape.
logan is 141 years old and reader is around 23-25 years old
what!? is that a happy ending? who would've thought... next up, is origins!
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If you're taking requests for Lando, and are comfortable writing angst. I'm in one of those moods where I need gut-wrenching neglected girlfriend being called clingy and then him grovelling for forgiveness. You don't have to write it, I just really have been in an angsty mood.
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As usual I don't like what I did, but I have been starting this like a thousand times and never finished it and this time I did. So I'll go with the flow. I hope you'll like it !
I took so much time to write this that your mood probably changed like a thousand times đ I'm sorry đ
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These past few days have been hard for you. Lando has been away for the past three weeks because it was a triple header and you couldn't come with him because of work. You always thought that being famous too would help you have clear weekends to come to the races, but apparently not. You had ads to film, shoots for magazines to do, interviews to prepare and do too, and it was getting overwhelming.
And Lando being in a different time zone definitely didn't help. You barely could texts, or one would respond hours later, the phone calls only last a few minutes (when you can actually call each other) and it wasn't enough for you these days. Your anxiety was getting the best of you, resulting in a few panic attacks daily.
Usually Lando helps a lot, but he had enough stuff on his plate too. He was in a tough battle with Max for the championship, and from what you've seen and what he had told you a bit, he was struggling with the car this week-end. You tried to make it work as much as you could. But you just couldn't do it anymore. You were back at Monaco after working hard until Saturday afternoon, actually coming home at Lando's place around 9pm, crying yourself to sleep, not even eating.
You knew Lando would be back for a few days from Vegas for a couple of days before flying to Qatar. But you definitely didn't expect to wake up at almost 5pm the next day by noises in the kitchen. First of all, how did you sleep that much? You were tired but damn, that's like 18hours of sleep ! And second of all, who was in the kitchen?
You slowly walked, carefully listening to the noises. After leaning a bit, you saw Lando searching the fridge for something to eat.
"Oh my god" you said relieved it was him. "you scared me so much!" you said walking to him, hugging him from behind.
"I scared you- in my own place?"
"yeah as you were in a different country" you leaned onto the counter next to him. "how did it go?" you asked about the race. Yes you didn't watch it as you slept half a day. You were going to watch it as you woke up, before Lando gets back, but well, you definitely didn't have time for that apparently.
"not good" Lando said barely looking at you
"oh" he walked out of the kitchen "but where did you finish?"
"You didn't watch the race?" he asked, going to the living room to eat at the table
"Well, I wanted to, but as you can see I.. overslept" he stared at you, as he was judging you "and you came back before I could watch it, so might as well tell me directly" you sat in front of him
"Well I lost the championship and finished P6, behind Max at the race. Happy?"
"Why are you so mad at me? It's not my fault, I'm just trying to know what happened to support you"
"support me? You weren't even there for that"
"ugh, excuse me? Sorry for having a career of my own, which I might give up with everything happening at the same time"
"like you can't take at least one day to come watch the race"
"that's the only thing you got from what I just said?" you stood up "what the hell Lando? What happened for you to treat me like that? I've been working my ass off, trying to contain my panic attacks all alone because you also have a career and can't be by my side 24/7, you barely even answer my text, you don't call me, you don't even ask me how I am doing!" He just stared at you, not saying anything. "you know what? I think I was better alone" you said, leaving the room, heading to his bedroom to gather your stuff.
"Wait- where are you going?" he said following you, like he suddenly cared.
"I'm going to my parents for a while. I haven't seen them in 2 months between my work and the races. And you're leaving like in two days anyway so, might as well try to have a good time with people that actually care about me" And before he could say anything, you were out of his sight, driving to the nearest airport to fly to your parents (trying to avoid to cry and have many panic attacks on your way).
You knew Lando wouldn't fly to you for the next two weeks with the races getting all of his time. But he did harass you with texts, tried to call you, which you ignored. He also sent you flowers, many flowers, gifts with little cards, apologising and asking for you to answer his texts and calls. You did feel guilty, even if you made it clear that he neglected you, you felt bad for keeping it to yourself that long and just lashing onto him like that.
You watched the last two races of the year, a knot in your stomach. You felt like you made it worse by acting like that and ignoring him. Hell he could have an accident and not make it back and that would be the last thing you said to him? That is a very bad scenario but still. And at the same time, your pride was telling you to keep ignoring him, that you were right and that he was the one to come back to you (which he was actually trying to do).
Until the next Monday after the last race, when you heard a knock to your bedroom. Innocently thinking it was your mom, you told "her" to come in, only to be faced by Lando holding flowers in his hand. You were laying in bed, in your pyjamas at 3pm, scrolling on your phone.
"Lando? What are you doing here?" You said, sitting up.
"You didn't give me other choices" you nodded, admitting that it was true. "I'm sorry for being a bad boyfriend" he said, taking a step closer to you
"keep going" you said, crossing your arms
"I shouldn't have neglected you like that even if I get too busy at work. I know you always take time for me even though you're working too and I should do the same thing" he sat down at the edge of your bed
"hm hm" you nodded
"I know you didn't read my texts nor listened to my voice messages or voicemails, but I've been apologising for a thousand times and, I've been begging you not to breakup with me" you couldn't help but laugh
"I've listened to them" you admitted
"w-were they good?" you tilted your head "you know I'm not good for that type of stuff"
"You're getting there"
"So what are you saying? Are we good?" you leaned a bit closer to him
"No we're not good Lando. It's not a bunch of texts, calls and gifts that are going to make me forget what happened. Hell I told you I wanted to abandon my entire career and you didn't even react" he was about to say something but you cut him off "and I know it's been very tough for you too for the races, that's why I gave you the benefit of doubt when you were away, but- you were sitting in front of me Lando-"
"I know, I know" he sat right in front of you, holding your hands "we've been dating for a year and- honestly I don't know what happened. When I came back from SĂŁo Paulo you were there for me, and thank god you were, but I think it's just, it went to my head and I was under so much pressure" you wanted to cut him off but he didn't let you "and I'm not making up excuses for what I did. I just don't want to lose you. I'm so sorry, I'll do anything for you not to leave me, just please, don't go. It won't happen again, I promise" you sighed
"I wasn't going to leave you Lando" you had a little smile. You could see it in his eyes. He was scared he really messed up to the point you were actually going to leave him for good. Maybe stepping away for a few weeks made him think, like for you.
"Really?" He seemed genuinely surprised
"Yes, but I needed some time, like you did too"
"yes. I'm so sorry. I love you so much. I won't do it again"
"You better not" you both laughed a little. "I love you too"
"Not as much as I do" and he immediately leaned in to kiss you. "Now I need to give those flowers to your mother because she helped me to get to talk to you" you gasped as he stood up
"of course she did" you laughed "and to think those flowers were for me? I'm offended" you joked
"Didn't you get enough with everything I sent you?" you tilted your head "too soon?" you both laughed
"yeah, too soon" he left the room. You got up and followed him down the stairs.
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gym rat taehyun who you end us seeing frequently at the gym whenever youâre around too and he starts helping you out on some of the stuff and sexual tension and then BAM, sex
a/n: I haven't written smut in so long so please bare with me đ I'm trying to get back into the groove of it but I've kinda lost confidence though I hope that doesn't show in my works lol. I hope you enjoy this, anon, and thank you for requesting!!
Warnings: smut, pnv, exhibitionism, unprotected sex but hyun's pull out game is top tier, I would know
WC: 1.8k
The gym a few blocks away from your apartment was always too crowded for your taste. Midday was the worst, with every piece of equipment occupied, and the ones that weren't were a sweaty mess due to peoples' lack of politeness.
Though, around 10PM was always the best time to go. It was much less crowded, and it was almost calming, in a way.
You, along with a few other late night gym rats, took this time to your advantage. The gym was nearly empty, and hip-hop music played quietly from the speakers. The sound of equipment moving and barbells clanking was miniscule compared to how it usually was.
Though, you'd be lying to yourself if you said that that was the only reason you came to the gym at that time.
Your other reason - your main reason - was currently at the pull-up bar, biceps bulging and sweat dripping down his clear skin as he effortlessly hoisted himself up on the bar. You were quite familiar with this man, or at least as familiar as you could get from afar. Without fail, he'd always be at the gym at this time, always alone, and ever so efficient in his workouts.
You tried not to stare as you leisurely stretched. You weren't in the mood for heavy lifting or cardio, yet you were fully intent on boy watching.
After what seemed like over a dozen pull-ups, the man hopped down from the bar, turning around with a hand on his hip to grab his towel, and you quickly looked away to not get caught ogling. To look busy, you continued with your stretching, doing basic stretches to pass the time. You were so distracted trying to look busy that you hadn't even noticed a certain someone approaching until you heard his voice.
"Your form isn't good." He said, causing you to flinch and sir upright, staring right at the man who was sipping from his water bottle.
Is he talking to me?, you thought. Though, he was obvious who he was talking to, due to his large brown eyes seemingly piercing into your soul. "...huh?" Was all that you could muster out.
"Sorry." He apologized, screwing his water bottle shut. "I don't mean to bother you, but I just thought that I should tell you that your form isn't very good. You might hurt yourself."
Your lips went into an O-shape as you realized what he was saying, and you couldn't help but feel embarrassed. You fully expected him to just walk away after that, but he spoke once more.
"I can help with some stretches if you'd like." He said. "I'm no personal trainer, but I know a thing or two."
"Oh...you'd do that?" You asked, trying to keep your voice steady as you inwardly fangirled, knowing that this was the perfect opportunity to get closer to the man you've been crushing on.
"Yeah, of course." He nodded, placing his water bottle down and coming closer, your heart beating a mile a minute. He gave you a sweet smile before he bent down to your level, and you got a close up look at his sweaty skin and well built arms, causing you to shiver in anticipation.
"See, when you're doing lunge stretches, you have to make sure your back is flat and your core is engaged so that you can keep your balance." He said, his voice soft, though the near emptiness of the gym made it seem as if he were loud and clear. He got into position beside you, showing off the proper way to stretch, and you followed suit.
Throught the stretches, you had learned that his name was Taehyun, and he was pretty flexible himself. You may have even purposefully made yourself seem incompetent in your stretches so that he wouldn't leave anytime soon. It was getting later and later, but you didn't want to go home - not yet.
"Hamstring stretches are a bit harder, as most people don't stretch for long enough." He informed you, gently pushing you onto your back. "How flexible are you?" He asked, helping you to hike your leg up. You were hyper aware of the feeling of his strong hands on you, and the change of position nearly made you dizzy.
"Uh, maybe moderately?" You spoke, clearing your throat in an effort to sound like your panties weren't starting to get damp.
"Moderately?" He chuckled with a slight tilt to his head. "We'll see about that then, yeah? Just tell me when it's too much." He said, his hand circling around your calf as he started to slowly push your leg up...up...and up.
You winced a bit, the stretch starting to get painful, but you were too distracted by how he placed his other hand right on your thigh.
"There you go." He encouraged, your leg straight up and pushed against his shoulder as he kneeled down in front of you. "How're you feeling? Think you can go a bit more?"
"I can definitely feel the stretch." You chuckled, your heartrate beating a mile a minute. "I think I can go further, though."
With that, he started to slowly push your leg up once more, your thigh almost touching your chest. "Hmm, you're pretty flexible, aren't you?" He spoke, and you don't know if it's the rising desire within you or not, but his voice was starting to sound more...intimate.
"I didn't...I didn't realize before now." You said, finding it hard to breathe.
"Good thing you have me here then, huh?" He smirked, the sight making your walls clench around nothing. He then started to slowly lower your leg before doing the same to the other one. Your breath hitched at the stretch, and you winced.
"Fuck..." You whispered, unable to keep it in.
"Just a bit more, you got it." He said, his whisper matching yours as he stretched you further. His torso pressed against your leg, and you couldn't help yourself from taking a peek down between your legs. Truthfully, you just wanted to make sure you didn't completely soak through your leggings, but instead, you got a glimpse of what Taehyun was packing. The dim light of the gym reflected on the bulge in his gym shorts, and you literally felt your heart beat in your clit.
You quickly looked back up, eyes slightly widening, just to see that he was making eye contact with you. There was a certain gleam in his eyes that told you that he knew exactly what you were looking at.
If that didn't tell you enough, then his next actions did.
Stretching your leg so that your thigh met your chest, he positioned himself so that he was pressing up against you, and your breath hitched once you felt his bulge directly press against your clothed heat.
Shit...he's so close.
"There you go..." He said, his voice dangerously lustful. "Now you're all stretched out for me."
You weren't exactly sure when the switch flipped, and at this point, you didn't care if you were soaking through your leggings or not. You weren't crazy, his voice definitely held some underlying tension there, and neither of you could hide from it.
"Now that you're all stretched out, you can work out safely, no matter how hard."
Next thing you know, your leggings were hanging off of one leg, and your panties were pushed to the side to accommodate for how Taehyun's girth was stretching you out in a completely different way.
Sweat dripped down the strands of his wet hair, and your leg was hiked up on his shoulder, ensuring that you had no way to hide from just how deliciously he was rocking his hips into yours.
It was a caconaphy of hushed moans, grunts and whimpers, the sounds of your bodies colliding. You but your lip harshly to try and silence yourself even though you were pretty sure the gym was empty at this time. Taehyun's cock ruthlessly massaged your g-spot with each thrust, and he groaned in ecstacy as your nails dug into his arms in order to brace yourself.
"Ah- ah- ah-" Staccato moans left your lips as your body jerked each time his tip slammed against that spot within you, his pelvis hitting your clit over and over again.
"Fuck, you're so tight." He groaned, his brows furrowed in concentration, solely focused on fucking you dumb on his cock.
A loud keen ripped from your throat as he slightly adjusted his positioning, his cock hitting so deep inside your fluttering walls. Your hips bucked up and your other leg lifted, the urge to close your legs and run away from the numbing pleasure growing greater.
"Nuh-uh." Taehyun tsked, shaking his head as he roughly spread your legs, his cock pushing deeper inside of you. "C'mon, you can take it. Take this cock." He grunted, gifting you with a particularly harsh thrust that had you reeling.
Your head fell back on the mat underneath you and your thighs shook. You could feel his cock throb inside of you, his low grunts only driving you closer to the edge. You then gasped loudly, your jaw dropping and your body tensing.
"C-cumming, I'm cum-" You stammered out, only to cut yourself off with a high pitched moan that would've been impossible for you to keep in. Your pussy walls clamped around Taehyun's thick shaft like a vice, and he felt like he was seconds away from absolutely losing it at the way your fucked out face contorted into barely concealed pleasure as you creamed all around his cock.
He wrapped his hands around your wrists, holding you down as he pumped faster, his balls tightening as he saw completion on the horizon. "Mmmh, that's it...cum on my cock just like- hah- that." He groaned, his jaw clenching as his blunt nails dug into your wrists, and before he knew it, he couldn't take anymore.
He was quick to pull out of your tight heat, which was almost painful, but that no longer mattered to him, because his hot, thick cum was spurting out of his glistening cock and onto your stomach. The hottest whine left his throat as he came down from his high, his chest heaving up and down, and his eyes darting down to your fucked out form.
A few minutes of comfortable silence passed, the only sound being the low volume of the music playing through the gym speakers and the sound of the both of you catching your breaths.
"Well, uhm..." He suddenly spoke, clearing his throat. You noticed that he was avoiding eye contact, and the tips of his ears were tinted red.
Was he...embarrassed?
You fought the urge to laugh as he continued.
"If you just, uh...do those stretches before every workout, you should be good to go." He said, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Thanks..." You spoke, your voice a bit hoarse. "For helping me stretch...and for the little present you gave me." You said, referring to his seed that was splattered across your stomach, seeping down to your belly button.
His eyes widened and he choked, almost as if he forgot that he had came on you.
"I'll...deal with that."
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Hello. I will call you Phoenix because that sounds very cool and you are cool and I platonically like you and enjoy your works.
Anyways I have come to request an all mercs + Pauling if youâre comfortable and want to write that. (If not maybe just Medic +whoever else you want to write for.) with a reader who has Schizophrenia? Iâve been going through some moments with it and the TF2 mercs are my comfort characters and your blog just feels nice.
If you arenât comfortable with this feel free to block me or just ignore this ask entirely! Thank you very much!
A/n: GAHHH ILY PLATONICALLY TOO 𫶠ty for sending in a request, Iâm so glad you enjoy my works! I try my best! I made sure I did some more extensive reasearch about schizophrenia/the real experience with it before I wrote this, please let me know if I should make some edits! (And other ppl reading this, also donât be afraid to send an ask about making edits!)
Mercs + Pauling w/ reader w/ Schizophrenia (headcannons)
(Platonic or romantic!)
Pauling:
- will have some guilt about how she works all the time and canât be there for you
- might send some gifts and call you in between jobs/travel, asking how youâve been, asking if now was a good time or if you needed a distraction
- as soon as she gets the chance to come see you, she takes it
- asks over and over if youâre okay, because itâs been keeping her anxious on her jobs
- sheâll comfort you with sweet words over the phone if you call her for help
- reminds you to take your meds
Scout:
- absolutely clueless
- buys into stereotypes
- âthe voicesâ type shit
- this guy is gonna need a thorough explanation as to how you feel all the time
- probably asks you how youâre feeling all the time too
- might be a little too quick to do his sneak-attack hugs
- likes hugging you a lot, so that could offer some grounding if youâre having delusions/hallucinations
- words of affirmation 10/10
- expect a lot of wordsâŠ
- speaking of a lot of words, need an auditory distraction? The scout-o-matic is here! (Only $69.99)
Soldier:
- clueless prick
- thinks youâre some spy or something
- it might take the entirety of the team to convince him otherwise and try to explain it to him with your help
- might also buy into the stereotypes
- if you say you hear or see something that man is going to run around screaming with his shovel trying to chase them off for you (believes theyâre real, but only you have magic powers to see them or something)
Medic:
- #1 meds administer
- does not buy into stereotypes, since he may know something about it
- (fw researching you heavy)
- dude is taking notes as youâre straight up not having it
- jk he goes to comfort you if he can after a bit
- you WILL be staying in the infirmary with him (sorry I donât make the rules)
- will look into techniques to help you
Demo:
- you already know heâs offering alcohol to take the edge off/distract
- you have tried many times to tell him that that will not work
- if you had alcohol with your meds things would not end well
- offers himself as a napping space for being really exhausted (Iâd take him up on that)
- he might already be passed out when you go to ask if you two can nap
- might wanna just scootch in there
Heavy:
- will protect you from the bad things (or at least try)
- if someone hurt pookie thatâs no good it will not do
- offers protective bear hugs if you need something/somewhere/someone to cuddle up to and be distracted/grounded
Pyro:
- if youâre describing what you see to them, or have in the past, they might try to draw them with good old fashioned crayons and printer paper
- also schizophrenic đ
- huge empathy from them
- but uhm they might also just straight up not know theyâre schizophrenic, so bro could just be like âsameâ
- alright enough Gen z talk from me (there can never be enough)
- even if just hanging out with them makes you feel more comfortable
Sniper:
- probably feels bad for you
- opts to hang out indoors if hallucinations/delusions are not fun outside
- comforts you when you think you see or hear something
Spy:
- if heâs attempting to be subtle you might expect some noise cancelling headphones and other helpful tools show up at your door
- if you need a break from certain rooms heâs definitely gonna offer his smoking room
- gets you pill organizers for your meds if thatâs something you struggle with
- offers lots of gentle comfort
- letâs be honest, this guy was clueless before you started talking to him about it and what it was
- now he just wants to offer help
Engie:
- probably pities you a bit
- gives you that Texan hospitality but may take a bit to understand you better
- will 10/10 make you something if thereâs something he can make to help and if itâs possible
- gonna try everything in his power to make your life easier
ââââââââ
Hopefully I did okay đ ty for sending in your request!!
#team fortress two#tf2#scout tf2#sniper tf2#tf2 scout#tf2 demoman#tf2 x reader#engineer tf2#medic tf2#sniper x reader#medic x reader#medic x you#scout x reader#demoman x reader#tf2 engie x reader#engie x reader#engineer x reader#schizophrenia#heavy tf2#heavy x reader#spy tf2#tf2 pyro#tf2 medic#pyro tf2#tf2 spy#tf2 engineer#tf2 sniper#tf2 fanfiction#tf2 headcanons#spy x reader
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YESSSSSSSS YES YES GOD. OH MY GODDDDDD. RIPPING MY SHIRT OFF LIKE THE HULK. YOU GET IT OP. I LOVE PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS (Says the aroace guy . Like okay fork found in kitchen cmon now)
No cuz LISTEN. romance and attraction is something that is constantly front in center in society as a wholeâŠ.its a lot more understood than friendship or familial relationships. so it probably makes SENSE to hugo at least in concept.
Attraction is understood by a lot of people as like a biological instinct (And obviously its more complex than that but thats the most Basic idea thats been held for most of history i think). And hugos definitely been Attracted to people before. I think he kind of just sees it as a nuisance tbh. He just tries to gaslight himself into pretending it isnt there.
But platonic loveâŠ.you dont have that physical reaction yknow??? I mean ive had what i can describe as platonic âcrushesâ before but itâs differentâŠ.It could be different for other people ofc but in my experience platonic love kind of sneaks up on you. You might not even really notice its there. One day youâll just be looking at someone and youâre like, âoh yeah. This one. Theyre the one. Theyre safe.â
They affect you in little ways. like influencing the way you think or the way you speak and you dont notice until someone points it out. Youâll pick up on words they use and everyday things will make you think of them. ITS JUST. GAH!!! I LOVE PLATONIC LOVE!!
I think platonic love is SUCH an important part of hugoâs general role in the story because likeâŠ.This isnt his first rodeo remember? Hes done jobs for donella before. Hes probably crushed on a few people before. Maybe even people hes worked with. But clearly its never affected his performance before. none of these crushes have Permanently rewired his brain and this perspective he has of the world.
The reason team radical has such an impact on him is NOT just bc sheâs gay for varian. Itâs bc ALL OF THEM are the first people who have just Genuinely cared about her, with no ulterior motives, no strings attached, no romantic connotations, no nothing. Theyre the first people sheâs actually connected with and felt like she could be herself around. and theyâre the first to actually able to counter these mindsets that are so Natural to her- these mindsets that itâs every man for himself, that relationships are all temporary, and that sheâs not fundamentally deserving of love. Varian, nuru and yong showed hugo a new perspective on life. ALL OF THEM DID!! NOT JUST VARIAN!!!
Its why platonic varigo is genuinely so important to me and one of the reasons i think varigo are the âbest friends first/lovers secondâ kind of couple. its also why i dont really like them having chemistry like right off the bat. Because likeâŠThem being friends first is the only reason their relationship as it is is even possible. Neither of them really had friends their age before and thats Why they really connect.
if it wasnât for varian justâŠbeing a good friend, and him, nuru and yong all collectively showing hugo this new outlook on lifeâŠ.team radical would have just been another means to an end. Sure maybe hugo wouldâve had a little crush on varian or found him attractive, but it wouldnât have made him like, quit his whole job. He wouldâve just done the work and moved on with his life. he wouldnât have FALLEN IN LOVE like he did. Love and attraction are two different things and hugo didnt just have a crush on varian, he fell in love with him. and he fell in love (platonically, of course) with yong and nuru too.
THATS what changed him!!! Genuine human connection and love!!! It had nothing to do with romance!!! And i feel like people just tend to focus on the yaoi or whatever when likeâŠIt means nothing if we arenât seeing hugo form these bonds with the group as a whole and watching his outlook change as a result! without the core feature of genuine human connection and friendship the yaoi wouldnât even EXIST!!! đđđ
I especially need more library/betrayal scenes with the whole group bc it genuinely makes me so mad when theyâre Just about varigo and nuru and yong are just. Left behind? NOBODY EVER WRITES NURU AND YONG REACTING TO THE BETRAYALâŠ..NOBODY WRITES THEM HELPING HUGO WHEN VARIAN GETS POSSESSED. THEYâRE JUST. LEFT BEHIND AND THEN THEY SHOW UP AT THE END WHEN THEY HAVE THEIR GROUP HUG OR WHATEVERâŠ.SOMETIMES NOT EVEN THAT!!!
IT BREAKS MY HEART BECAUSE THEYâRE NOT JUST SIDE PIECES TO VARIGO!!! đđđ GAHHH. I NEED MORE TEAM RADICAL JUST ALL BEING BEST FRIENDS AND LOVING EACH OTHER!!!!! I NEED YONG AND NURU TO PLAY A PART IN THESE MAJOR PLOT POINTS TOO!!!!
I feel like we don't talk about how Hugo would be weirded out by the concept of having friends enough. Like we all pretty much agree that Donella, while maybe not being outright abusive, was at least not an amazing parent figure and made Hugo live a life that wasn't super healthy. But I haven't really seen anyone talk about how he probably has never felt platonic love.
I like the idea that it wasn't Varian that convinced Hugo to leave Donella, it was Nuru and Yong.
Hugo would have at least had a crush before, if not an actual relationship, he's aware that liking someone made you want to do stupid stuff, like quit your job, abandon your mother figure, and live with them for the rest of your life, but wanting to do that sort of stuff for someone you have no attraction to whatsoever? Huh?
I just love the idea that while Varian was a huge part in changing Hugo, it took friendship with no hint of romantic connotations to finally win Hugo over.
#pansy rambling again#hugo rottewange#vat7k hugo#varian and the 7 kingdoms#varian and the seven kingdoms#vat7k yong#vat7k nuru#team radical#varigo#varian
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"Are you going to be okay?" + Bucktommy
No. No, I am not đ Please remember this is an angst prompt and that I love you so, so much đ
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your smile and the sound of your voice | T | 1.2k
âAre you going to be okay, Buckaroo?âÂ
Hen taps the neck of her beer against his and nudges his shoulder.Â
âYeah, of course.â He checks his phone again and sees the text heâs been waiting for from Eddie.
Be there in 5
âYeah,â he says again, brighter and easier. Like heâs suddenly got more room to breathe.
She fondly rolls her eyes, letting him know sheâs not buying it but sheâs here for him all the same.Â
His gut twists with nerves, like he inhaled an entire roll of Mentos and chased it with a two liter of Coke. Heâs fine, though. Heâs more than likely tachycardic, and heâs sweating like a pig, but heâs good. Honestly.Â
Why wouldnât he be? His family is supporting him through one of the more dramatic moves heâs ever tried to pull off. And he didnât have to say a word for them to buy into his unhinged plan. They just- did. Albeit with many unvoiced concerns communicated in shared glances and whatever telepathy thing Hen and Chim have going on. Still, theyâre here and heâs so, so grateful. Heâll want them to celebrate or if⊠well, he just needs them either way.
He taps his foot nervously, gripping the karaoke mic tighter and watching the seconds tick by on his watch. And then he sees him. His world stops when Tommy notices him. Their gaze locks across the room like one of those cheesy rom coms that Tommy loves. The kind theyâd watch on the couch, or in bed together on a lazy afternoon. Buck wishes it was actually one of those meet cute moments where the main characters have a love at first sight experience.Â
Instead, Eddie and Chim are nudging Tommy towards the front of the bar, urging him not to turn and run. All so Buck can cut his heart open and bleed out on the stage for him â for them â and hope he has enough time before his veins run dry.Â
Tommy reluctantly sits on the bar stool strategically placed front and center. Heâs flanked by Eddie, Chim, Maddie, Hen, Karen and Josh like a group of off kilter secret service agents. And yet heâs still looking at Buck with this mix of adoration and exasperation. Like nothing changed and heâs just here to watch his boyfriend be an idiot.
Buckâs heart pounds behind his ribcage and itâs all he can do to stay standing. He takes a swig of his beer, not that it does much when his mouth feels drier than the Sahara. Hopefully Tommy will understand needing a little liquid courage if only because he knows how much Buck hates singing in public.Â
âReady?â The DJ asks him.
âReady as Iâll ever be.â
Buckâs eyes flick to the screen, knowing his piece begins immediately. Thereâs no intro or lead up. Just Buck and whateverâs left of his dignity.Â
âIf you change your mind-â he winces as his voice cracks, âIâm the first in line. Honey, Iâm still free, take a chance on me.â
Christ, itâs so off key but heâs on a roll now and gaining confidence with every note.Â
âGonna do my very best and it ainât no lie, if you put me to the test, if you let me try!â Buck sweeps his free hand over his torso, peacocking in every sense of the word.
Tommy scrubs at his face, looking for all the world like he wishes the floor would open up and swallow him whole. Not that Buck blames him.Â
âPlease donât make this harder.â Tommy sighs. Silently begs with a pleading look.Â
Buck sings louder to drive the point home. âYou want me to leave it there, afraid of a love affair. But I think you knoooow, that I canât let go.âÂ
Even with Tommyâs palm covering his mouth, Buck can still see the smile glowing in those blue eyes he always wants to stay lost in.Â
He steps off the stage, flirty and confident as his friends make room for him to circle the man heâs over the goddamn moon about. The man heâs so fucking in love with that heâs willing to humiliate himself in front of their colleagues. âYou say that I waste my time, but I canât get ya off my mind. No, I canât let goooo. âCause I love you so.âÂ
Buck shrugs playfully, drinking in the embarrassed smirk heâs so familiar with. Just one of the dozens of expressions heâs catalogued over their months together. And tortured himself with in the weeks since Tommy broke his heart. Both of their hearts, really.Â
By now, the crowd is clapping and cheering him on as he sings his lungs out, strutting around like the lovesick fool that he is.Â
âHoney, Iâm still free. Take a chance on me!âÂ
The song fades out, coming to an end as he slides on his good knee. He stops in front of Tommy, panting and flushed, baring his soul for everyone at the badge and ladder to see. Except he only needs one person to see it. To see everything and not be terrified.
âI know I fucked up before and I- I rushed things. And I know this isnât how any of this should have happened. But you wouldnât answer me or- or return my calls or texts.â His jaw trembles, voice breaking as tears drip off his chin. âYou can take your time, baby. Iâm in no hurry.âÂ
Buck risks reaching for Tommyâs hand, threading their fingers together. âTommy. Sweetheart. Take a chance on me. Again. Please.â
It feels like a truce, like a fresh beginning. Like the start of something.
âEvan.âÂ
Buckâs blood fizzes like champagne, bursting with hope. Tommy smiles, a lopsided thing, and oh Buck can hardly sit still long enough to hear what comes next. But he has to, he needs to be patient. Not impulsive, not like before.Â
âBuck,â Tommy corrects.Â
The world seems to collapse around him. His chosen name sounds like nails on a chalkboard. Like a sour note in an otherwise beautiful aria.Â
A tear escapes, rolling down Tommyâs cheek, past his now wobbly lip. âI wish I could. This is- itâs sweet and no oneâs ever done anything like this for me before.â Tommy looks up at the ceiling, just like he did that night in the loft, and then meets Buckâs gaze again. âYou are gonna be someoneâs once in a lifetime. I just know it. But not-â Thereâs a strangled sound between them, from god knows where. Maybe itâs Buck, maybe itâs Tommy. Maybe itâs both.Â
âIâm sorry,â Tommy whispers.Â
In a blink, Buckâs hand is empty and Tommyâs weaving through the crowd. Leaving him all over again.
âNo, wait! Hold on!â Buck drops the microphone, ready to chase after him this time. Like he didnât before. Like he should have. He apologizes as he knocks into tables and past servers until heâs finally out in the cool night air. He licks the salty tears from his lips, frantically searching in every direction. It hasnât been that long. Buck was seconds behind. Tommy has to be here.Â
But heâs not. Thereâs no sign of him in the crowds of people walking by. People laughing and talking and living their lives with fully formed hearts. All of them ignorant to Buck and his despair.Â
âWait,â he rasps, falling to his knees in the middle of the filthy LA sidewalk. âPlease wait.âÂ
#friends don't let friends suffer by themselves with ABBA on repeat#i would say i'm sorry but i think we all know that i'm not#hippo writes#hippo gets mail#james tag đ#bucktommy#tevan#kinley#hurt no comfort#ficlet#bucktommy ficlet#now if you'll excuse me i'm gonna go lay down for a while#and maybe cry forever about it#evan buckley#tommy kinard#please donât divorce me#đ„șđđ
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#i tried my best to make this look good đ#kinda not good though...#loc creds 2 contexty#kpop#aesthetic#kpop moodboard#moodboard#soft moodboard#white moodboard#beige moodboard#black moodboard#pink moodboard#aesthetic moodboard#purple moodboard#purple aesthetic moodboard#leeseo moodboard#leeseo purple moodboard#purple leeseo moodboard#leeseo ive#ive leeseo#ive leeseo moodboard#aesthetic leeseo moodboard#purple aesthetic#leeseo ive moodboard#cute moodboard#alternative moodboard#messy moodboard#coquette moodboard#colorful moodboard
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love my evil smirking cat đȘđđââŹâš
Toxinelle's Version.
#griffe noire#chat noir#paris special#ml gifs#miraculous ladybug#mledit#ml#gifs#moussigifs#ml paris#ml paris special#miraculous world#miraculous world paris#claw noir#his hair omg i tried my best to make the green as consistent as possible but its hard fjklfs#i feel like at least most of them pop#on the computer version at least fjslfs#he doesnt look as good on my phone đ
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i drew an ash fanart based on @chaoslynxâs fanfic (streetlight angel â you guys should go read it, itâs really amazing :3)
#i like the lighting in the left one a lot more#but my friend said it looked cozy and i agree#so i tried making it less cozy đ#definitely not my best work but iâm one long blink away from falling asleep#but yeah anyways go read that fanfic guys itâs so good#banana fish#ash lynx#fanart#tw blood#tw blo0d#tw bl0od
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guys wtf i just had the most detailed dream last night about a girlfriend that doesnât exist,,, like idk how to explain it đđđ and i donât even remember her name, itâs at the edge of my memory but i canât recover it. but i remember like all the events and her face.
#this is the most stupidly worded post iâve ever made#but it was so fucking sweet đđđ and somewhere along the line i realized i was dreaming and that i was going to lose her#and it was soul crushing#the most distinct part was when i dropped by her house like i usually did#and she was throwing a party and i squeezed through everyone to find her and then she kind of ignored me so i tried to make my way out again#but then her best friend stops me by the door and asks me if i wanna sing karaoke with them and i was like ???#and when i say oh okay. she says after all [name] threw this party for you#and this girl shows up in the doorway and asks me if i would do the honors of dating her#(and look this girl was way out of my league i assumed so)#(she was a really good artist and collected bunny plushies)#and i#SORRY THIS WHOLE THING IS SO STUPID BUT LIKE IT WAS A VERY POIGNANT DREAM#AND IT WAS VERY SWEET AND I MISS THIS GIRL THAT DOESNF FUCKING EXIST#BECAUSE OF A STUPID DREAM#natâs rambles
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âïž? (if u want to, if not its ok :)
Send âïž for Barnaby to draw your muse!
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pixel pride flags ver 2! / ver 1
#i tried hard on these pls do not be mean if some do not look the best bc i know...i know đ it was really hard to get the black & white#stripes to look okay w/the shading without changing them to be Completely different colours đđđ#i think the ones that are all colours look the best but some of them..i just couldnt make them look as good :(#but!!! i did my best w/the skills i have now which is all i can do and i hope you all will like these regardless đ#as always these are free to use if you are so inclined to do so đđđ#pixel art#my art#pride flags#ok to rb too hehe ^-^
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I just finished watching Abbott Elementary (or all thatâs come out so far aaa) and the way that every single one of these teachers are people my gay ass would wish were my parents as a kid
#the klock keeps ticking#abbott elementary#the school itself reminds me so much of the catholic school i went to#very small very under budget everything is old and broken#except the difference is that the teachers in this show are all good and not monsters#they just. they just love the kids so much you know đ#my favorite character is barbara shes adorable and also like the best teacher#she just works so well with her students and believes in them and does whatever she can to help them đ„ș#they all do really its like aaaaaaaaa#janine is the type of teacher that you kinda need to protect cuz you know shes really stressed and trying so hard#and she makes cookies and you look at your classmates like listen here dickweeds you better eat these fucking cookies#melissa is one id definitely wish was my mom shes very tough but caring#she has the energy like shed beat the shit out of some incompetent adult but always makes sure to treat the kids like angels#you need to give her flowers#jacob is the teacher whos very nice and passionate and he tries a bit too hard to make the kids happy#that hes very bad at discipline and ends up letting the class get too out of control#so you kinda gotta help him out sometimes by telling everyone to be quiet and pay attention#definitely a teacher i wouldve eaten lunch with and i would draw him a ninja turtle and hes probably cry#gregory is the teacher i wouldve lost my shit over like on the first day youre really nervous hes gonna be scary#cuz hes kinda being a bit short#but then you realize he was just really exhausted and really really nervous and he like would make a really bad pun while teaching#and youre like OH okay so i gotta do everything for this man i see i see#like all i can imagine is that he for some reason has to do something really weird like ride a tricycle one day#and youre like YESSS GREGORY OMG YES PLEASE GET IT KING YESSSS#he just drops really weird bombs occasionally like he reveals that hes a talented juggler one day and youre like please adopt me please#you gotta give him all the drawings and cookies#this is my deep thorough analysis of these teachers thank you very much
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was the only first shift part-timer at my job to not quit like 2 weeks in and my manager said he âknew i was a stayer from the moment [he] met [me]â which is like. just manager talk but iâve been thinking abt it a lot for some reason
#not like it necessarily âmeant a lotâ to me or anything#like it was nice to hear ofc itâs nice to be appreciated#just like. a âstayerâ#iâve had this really weird relationship with this general concept for a minute now and i donât think iâve ever really talked about it#because sometimes it kind of feels like all i do is run away LOL#i stopped talking to all my friends from senior year largely because i convinced myself i was complicating things#like. being in their lives was actively making it worse which they didnât deserve#so i kind of ran away from that instead of trying to work it out because. i donât know. everything with that situation makes me so tired#but there are other instances that feel like the opposite?#i feel like iâm always either running away from my people problems or sitting and staying like a good dog. forever#something something needs to be useful something#if the. Heh. The best that i could give to you was noth-[GUNSHOT]#but if the best thing i feel like i can do for someone is Not be there. i tend to take that route#knowing full well the entire time itâs not really. rational? but saying that out loud to yourself over and over doesnât make you believe it#im odd bc im so âlogicalâ but forget that the main reason people have you as a friend is bc they Like You Actually#so im always just kind of looking at people like. equations. this whole thing would be so less complicated if we just took this variable ou#and suddenly i have the power to just take the variable out#idk#i think that whole situation was doomed anyway. maybe i do owe those people better maybe i donât#hey actually. fuck this i did try#bc they kind of never. like. followed up with me on any of The Situation they kinda just let me deal with that completely on my own ?? đ#then when it made us all kind of distant and /i/ tried to bring it up they really did not seem to give a fuck about like#making an effort to be real with me#so. i did try. i only have so much to give and i wasnât going to keep throwing lines out#maybe they did deserve better. but do did i. god so did i#probably wonât delete later but i might delete some of these tags later lol. drama they
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god i love james wans movies, theyre so bad but so good
#like some of them are bad at being horror but good at being drama and im here for it#i have mixed feelings about the warrens irl but them in the movies đđ i need a husband like that#i hate them they made me attracted to patrick wilson and thats not okay#but fuck by the third movie lorraine knowing him so well she keeps his heart medication in her locketđđđ#because he goes running without thought to save her even when she doesnt need saving#even when she CAN handle it herslef she never needs to push through the worry or fear#because he just always instantly there#but as for the annabelle movies i still think the real doll is creepier than the dead silence leftover prop BUT he or someone on his team#knows not only horror but ghosts#and its impressive to me all the things they split between annabelle and the nun/valak that are legitimate haunting experiences#its the room turning darker the longer you look into it amd the horned things smile#and the yellow eyes that they onlt gave to the nun#because i honestly believe that showing it in its true form with all of these traits would give it power#and like...release it#anyway the two movies i wanted to watch arent up for streaming ans im too lazy to get my laptop out for it#cause im actually maybe gonna play a game on it duh#but fuck i do think james wan doesnt pull punches with jumpscares while also creating compelling characters#especially if those characters are fully damned from the beginning#idk maybe i feel this way because of my paranormal experiences but i genuinely do like jumpscare horror when its done well#becayse his is#and also he know how just Bad malignant was and he did it anywayđ#annabell creation was the best by far tho horrorwise#plotwise i do love the conjuring 2 even though they werent involved with the enfield haunting#after their initial interview they werw told to fuck off by the family ans morris rosse was the main investigator#but valak was sexy and it was such a lovely portrayal of their relationship#tbh annabelle is good but it just makes me a little sad because she nearly loses her baby#that stuff kinda gets to me not as horror but as like a personal thing#ill still watch it tho im not a baby i can deal with that shit but just i know i probably cant have kids and wouldnt survive if i tried so#anyway james wan haters get fucked his movies are good when hes the one directing them
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okay I cannot work on this anymore bc i am tired of it LOL I've decided to just work on a bunch of "mediocre" pieces rather than spending ages on one MasterpieceTM so that I will hopefully learn faster, so ... throwing this into the void and skittering away to go make more !!
sorry that the colours are kind of weird (the eyes should nooot be pink LOL) and nothing is rendered except the face, but i am simply done working on this FSGJKL
#im gonna be so real fdsjkl i kind of hate how this came out đ#i learned a lot though and theres a couple little pieces of this that i think are good but dsfjkl overall im hrmmm#also the colours look different on my tablet vs laptop vs phone and GRRR#i've tried to make my laptop and tablet true to colour as best i could but i can't do anything abt my phone#and somehow... it still looks different btwn tablet and laptop even though i've messed w the settings on both so much sdjkfl#bwegh. alas. i have learned the basics of how to paint in CSP so that's a win#doodlebug.png#dandy.cmd#đso good at being in trouble
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