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s1llydr3amscape · 5 months ago

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🐰🩸, 😈❓, 🎂🫂, 🍬

sorry for multiple, i am curious!! (feel free to not answer any of em if you dont feel like it!)

🩸🐰 :

EXPLODES EXPLODES EXPLODES SPINS INTO THE SKY!!!!

Vanessa wahhh!!!!! Sometimes I feel like if put to much off myself Into her because that's what usually happens when I love a character too much. I feel like another reason Vanessa doesn't usually ask for help is because whenever she did ask for it it just ended fricking her over.

Like growing up 4 me asking for help is either a life or death sentence. Like idk probably culture shit but asking for help Is a sign of weakness and if you can't immediately do something you're a failure. Your value is how useful you are and probably why Vanessa is reluctantly obeying Glitchtrap like that shit is ingrained with you. It doesn't go away! Even after she gets to be free from their control asking for help is still to hard for her.

Vanessa after sb probably overwokrs herself because now she has things to worry about and also like mouths to feed. She has to be useful she has to. Why else would she be allowed to live and like thankfully she learns it's OK to rely on others. She learns it's ok to ask for help it's not a burden.

😈❓️ :

Imma be real Im kinda me with willy that much but that's because being autistic abt vanessa and during her early days and ppl kept shipping him w her left and right left me very very bitter. But like I do like how most ppl write him and how much off a freak he is!!!! I think he did it for immortality honestly. Sometimes, I feel like he preferred robots over humans because he wanted to be a robot. Like no hunger, no pain, no tired that kinda jazz. Also why he likes wearing the springbonnie suit a lot!!!

Also hearing summaries abt the book willy it's like damn bro wtf 😭 Gaslighting ur own kids and giving children heart attacks with the nightmare gas?!?! In this au tho I want him to care abt his kids in his own fucked up way.

So what happened was when he became Springtrap he was ecstatic yay I'm my fursona forever now but also AFGHGHH THE SPRINGLOCKS.

Also like im so glad in the graphic novel they made him bald when he was experimenting with remnant!!! LIKE YEAH BRO DECAY DECAY DECAY!!!!! Also probably why he killed more kids than adults is because he probably thought younger people would make his immortality last longer.

🎂🫂:

I like to think they did. Why because I love bittersweet endings a lot. Charlie thinking she could save them by giving them another chance at life. Yet they remained trapped in those dingy suits forced to stay there and do the same things over and over and over again. I'm sure some of them were bitter with what she did.

They're all kids after all sometimes they just see the black and white and not the grey off it all. But before their tension they were probably the closest friends ever. I think they all drew alot and even made characters roleplaying with eachother!! Projecting hehehe my irls and I would draw and self insert eachother into different media. I think they'd do the same!

🍬 :

Im in a Elizabeth mood. Sorry i love ffps a lot!!

I never really focus on the human characters in my aus besides Vanessa because I feel like I can't write ppl that well. Like idk how to describe it It's like I feel like seeing others work of the human characters is freaking more peak to me. Also just like not feeling like a person sometimes and just going oh yeah these are human activities!!!! Also i think cuz like when I joined fnaf when it first came out I liked the animal characters more like we can attach any headcanon we wanted because well heheh they barely had any personality traits

I do write them in my more serious au and me just hyper analysing the game they're from and anything that could be related to em especially with the afton kids specifically Elizabeth my fave out of em because ughhh this poor girl like I haven't read the silver eyes trilogy sadly but from the summaries. God this poor girl just gets taken over by the robot AI and its like ughhh 😭😭😭 and apparently William told Baby to kill herself LIKE WHAT WHATS GOING ON IN THOSE BOOKS? I love father daughter dynamics.

FFPS Just hurts more because she's like this is a gift you've given us before getting cut off by Henry but it hurts more becayse she's trying to be a good daughter and follow in his father footsteps!!! William doesn't even acknowledge it at all in the game. No lines nothing he's just it's like he's avoiding her embarrassed by his own mistake about letting his own creation kill his own kid again. Leaving her to rot in the basement and letting Micheal go in his place instead like why did you do that why why why she likes to play pretend.

In the end maybe she pretended to much that her father loved her so much and that's why she has to be good. He must've left her down there because she went to visit baby without his permission like ughhh 😭😭😭😭 The fact she got kicked out of Ennard too like she's still bossy and in charge and I just love that cuz we got a sick ass fnaf design. But also since the funtimes have their own AI maybe being trapped down there for so long with her believing her fantasies and trusting her to go into Micheal before being ejected out from him. They ended up hating her because they wanted to kill and kidnap kids cuz off what Willy wrote in their AI

So she's just left alone again after having the people she spent her entire childhood with leave her because unlike people they're not like her. And just wahhh her and Charlie 😭😭😭😭 I could go on about that (ended up liking em cuz of some fanart) like they know eachohter right both the daughters of their fathers who work together. Like in FFPS they hate eachother. Projecting again but my parents used to love shit talking my friends parents so I wonder if it ever happened.

Do they hate eachother too?? Is it passed down?? Are they friends here did they both realise they both went a different path in life. One bringing life the other bringing death. Do they ever get to reconcile in the fire realising that in another life they could've been friends or even more.

Like HUHHHH THAT FANART KILLED ME 😭😭😭😭 also I think k the main reason I got so attached to Vanessa is cuz off how they both lowkey parallel eachother. Like Liz dynamic with Willy and Nessie dynamic with Glitchy.

#asks #vanessa #charlie #william afton #elizabeth #google translate don't know slang 😭 like no that's not what I meant </3 #I wish there was libraries near me I hate reading books online need to feel the pages #also is Elizabeth like blonde a red head or ginger? I had a debate with irls and it brain breaks us #making vanessa wasian so I can project the shit that happened to me on her and it making sense mwahahah >:3

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zushimart · 1 year ago

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hi idk if this is a weird ask or not bc im half asleep but i just wanted to say that i started following u on my old blog in late 2022 like maybe december and your posts about bpd scara made me feel so seen. i wasn't diagnosed then but it was recently on the table as a diagnosis for me all of a sudden and it was terrifying because i feel like pwbpd are demonized and hated everywhere i look. and just like scrolling thru ur bpd scara tag was like looking at a diary of my own mind or smth. so it was really new to me to see someone talk about borderline as something that brings love and pain into our lives and not just as some scary evil-people diagnosis. like ur definitely my fav writer on this app by far but also u make me feel really validated in my emotions i guess? wow idk sorry like i actually have no idea how to describe it but hopefully u can read minds ‼️ 🤞 i have since been diagnosed with bpd with a criteria score of 9/9 so 😳 idk where id be rn in september 2023 if i hadn't sort of started to learn to love myself from your writings exploring a character. so yea this is probably a strange ask so feel free to ignore it. also im going on anon bc im scared of interacting w ppl. ALSO U R SO FUNNY ND YOUR HUMOR/RANDOM FUNNY TAGS FEEL SO SIMILAR TO MY INTERNAL MONOLOGUE

this is such an open & genuine thing to say to me . i like had to sit with it for a second because it was so .. idk like how to communicate it . my devaluation of ths blog is pretty frequent, treating it sort of like a big boy version of the 2000s children’s diaries with locks.. my thoughts tossed in here nd piled nd piled nd piled, endlessly messy. nd it objectively is a writing blog , like yeah, on a surface level, i own& maintain a writing blog, but i would never tell people that. when people ask my hobbies i always say writing & ill show them my poetry pieces but i never tell them i have a blog because im kind of embarrassed by the very seriously delusional self indulgence i pour into this thing . but then i hear about.. like, for ex. we learned ab and have to maintain our own commonplace book in class, which is essentially where people collected anything and everything they felt needed to be archived from their day and tucked it into the pages of a journal . like how thomas jefferson’s commonplace book will have his serious philosophical & political ramblings side by side a recipe for cornbread because it was just a place to put everything big & small . the practical & the theoretical. just, whatever Means something to u. and leisure, indulgence, pleasure r concepts just as important as virtues imo. anyway i say all this to say that what u said to me makes me want to treat everything better, even this place. it like, makes me feel really proud of my writing& analyses that i might normally b quick to label as inconsequential or childlike because im scared people will think i care too much about something so culturally insignificant. but i do care!! obviously!! a lot. i was like kind of bummed today for a number of reasons frm feeling a bit isolated to feeling like living out my principles& ideals (connecting w community, peer centered thinking etc etc) is almost impossible because im sooo freaking shitty at social convention. so when u sent this in & i read it, it was almost like when ur spacing out nd someone snaps 🫰🫰 in front of ur face to get ur attn. so busy trying 2 b significant to someone to realize that u Already are significant in a myriad of little ways. that it’s not something u search for or insert urself into but rather an inevitable outcome of existing. Anyway . not to b sentimental but i wanted 2 b as candid with u because i really did think it was sweet of u to share & im really happy that i was able 2 positively shape & support a little space of ur life because really thats all i ever want to do. Soooooooooo if ur ask was weird then my response is even weirder. Handwritten thank u:

#And what kind of boyfriend would i be if i didnt support my girlfriend with beautiful princess disorder #i think its just a fact of loving someone that even the most frustrating things ab them can b beautiful #or that for every weakness there’s an equally intense strength like sides of a coin #My response to this ask would b so much more impactful if i didnt constantly make dick and ball and sex jokes on this damn blawwg #happy tag

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beauty-and-passion · 3 years ago

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hi, just spent an hour and a half reading through your posts from the last month and a half bc i neglected hw to get school stuff done, and holy crap you are??? somehow more amazing every time i come across your blog??? i haven't started the c!thomas playlist analysis bc i know im going to get sucked in and brain is gonna shut off for the next two hours afterwards, but dang. Also! opinion on what (literal) fruit each side would be? (accursed ask word count why doth thee despise me so /j)

OMG, you even neglected school stuff to read my ramblings? Well, what can I say, except for 1) please do not neglect school stuff and 2) time for me to furiously blush and hide in a corner? <3

But seriously, thank you so much for your words, I really appreciate them. And I hope you will enjoy Thomas' playlist analysis - just like all other analyses that will come in the future! :D

Oh my, that’s a very juicy (eheh) question! I like it and I had a lot of fun searching for the perfect fruit for each Side.

Speaking of that, I want you to know just how many goddamn times oranges popped out. Best fruit for your immune system? Oranges. Best fruit against anxiety? Oranges. Best fruit for your health in general? Oranges. Oranges are everywhere and I had a hard time not picking oranges for Virgil or other Sides.

At the end I didn’t because, well, oranges are all reserved for we-know-who. So I chose other fruits, whose properties, benefits and meanings related most to the Sides.

Logan: blueberry.

Blueberries are the best fruit in the universe. They are on top of every list, their benefits are incredible: they help improve bone strength, mental health, skin health, blood pressure, digestion, but they also protect against heart disease and cancer in general. In addition to that, blueberries are also the best fruit to improve your mind and your memory. They are amazing.

Also, they're tiny, modest fruits. Not as world-wide famous as apples, not as unmistakable as bananas or pineapples. And yet, so important.

A bit like logic and Logan himself: he's not showy and dramatic like the Creativitwins, he's not influential like Patton. But he's important, he's a fundamental part of Thomas. Without him, Thomas wouldn't work.

And, hey, it's dark blue! What better fruit for our logic boi?

Patton: apple.

Apples are notoriously great fruits: they are nutritious, good for weight loss, help reduce the risk of diabetes, lower blood pressure and offer a lot of benefits for the heart (a variety of potent antioxidants and fibers).

Also, if we think about fruits, apples are probably the first one that will pop into our minds. Apples are generally seen as a good, almost innocent fruit. An apple a day keeps the doctor away, right?

At the same time, apples are also a symbol of maturity, temptation, even sin. Apples have a strong association with christianity, because they are considered the Forbidden fruit. Even though it's never specified if the fruit was an apple, popular Christian tradition holds that Adam and Eve ate an apple from the forbidden tree in the Garden of Eden.

So we have a fruit which is both childish and mature. A bit like Patton, who has the softest, most innocent appearance ever, but is also a very mature Side. Someone who is good and pure, but has a darker part too.

Roman: strawberry and cherry.

It was impossible to choose only one, so the prince will have two. Both strawberries and cherries are very good fruits, full of antioxidants, good for your heart, sodium-free, fat-free, cholesterol-free, full of potassium (strawberries) and good for your sleep (cherries).

But the real reason why I chose them, it’s because they are both aphrodisiac fruits. Strawberries have always been associated with love, because of their heart shape: in ancient Greece, they were considered a symbol for Aphrodite, the goddess of love. And there were a lot of legends about how sharing a strawberry would lead you to fall in love.

Same goes for cherries: according to the eastern mythology, they're a symbol of beauty, fertility and even immortality. And their bright red color is a universal symbol of passion and love.

Also if you have to think about sensual fruits which are not as "straightforward" as bananas, your choice would probably fall on these two: what better way to gently seduce your partner, if not with sweet sweet strawberries or with shiny, round cherries?

Virgil: pumpkin.

I've never really thought about it, but pumpkins are fruits. So, well, they’re Virgil's fruit. Next.

Just like all fruits, pumpkins are very nutritious, but also full of antioxidants, packed with vitamins to help your immune system (so a perfect choice for the embodiment of fight-or-flight) and their seeds help reduce anxiety.

Also, it’s a frickin' pumpkin, so Virgil can carve it for his favourite holiday. It's basically a fruit made for him!

Remus: pomegranate.

I know you're surprised, but nope, not a banana. Pomegranates are better, because they’re the most aphrodisiac fruit: they’re packed with antioxidants and iron, which help deliver more blood to all areas of your body, including your genitals. They increase testosterone, improve sperm quality (it’s more healthy and fertile) and, according to a pilot study, pomegranate juice could even have beneficial effects on erectile dysfunction.

In addition to that, a lot of cultures associate pomegranates to fertility and sensuality. I mean, you have this round, rosy fruit that opens to these gleaming ruby-red seeds that burst from the inside: it’s a very suggestive symbol of femininity and sensuality in general - and even sexual awakening.

In Greek mythology, pomegranates are associated with Aphrodite (goddess of love) and Hera (goddess of marriage and childbirth). But also to the myth of Hades and Persephone: in the story, Persephone ate six pomegranate seeds and since this is a fruit of the Underworld, she was not able to completely leave the Underworld anymore - thus leading to her famous destiny of spending six months above ground and six below with her husband.

So pomegranates are a symbol of love, birth and passion, but also of death. They are literally known as the fruits of death! Remus would definitely love them.

Janus: lemons.

Lemons are yellow. That's it.

Nah, I'm kidding. I chose lemons, for several reasons. First of all, when people think about "fruits", the first one that pops into our minds isn't a lemon. Maybe strawberries, apples, grapes or even a pineapple. Fruits are generally associated with a juicy, sweet taste.

So lemons are a bit of a weird, "unfitting" fruit. It's sour, way more sour than any other. It's not a fruit you can just eat whole - unless you are very brave.

At the same time, lemons are immensely important. Just look at this brief list of their benefits:

natural remedy against infections

help in digestions

restore the acid-base balance of the body

help for spasms and sore throats, treat colds and flu

one of the most powerful antioxidants (reduce the risk of cardiovascular disease)

act against Alzheimer's and other degenerative diseases

protect and strengthen blood vessel walls

prevent cataract and diabetes

strengthen the immune system and fight against cancers of the esophagus, stomach, colon, mouth and lung

increases self-confidence and concentration

It's not the nicest, sweetest fruit around, but it's extremely important. Just like the snake boi isn't the cutest, fluffiest Side, but he's still a fundamental part of Thomas.

In addition to that, lemons have a lot of great spiritual meanings, such as longevity, purification, clarity, friendship, happiness, rejuvenation, love and fidelity.

And the reason why I chose lemons for Janus is also because of their sourness. In fact, according to what I found out while searching for more meanings, in art lemons are a symbol of the bitterness of existence. Perfect for Mr. We Live In A Society.

Orange: grapes.

Nah, of course he will have oranges. No matter if oranges won't have anything to do with him: he has oranges, period. He's the orange boi.

#sanders sides #ask #patton sanders #logan sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #janus sanders #remus sanders #orange side #loved that ask #and loved you!#thank you again #great ask

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proudfreakmetarusonikku · 2 years ago

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hello i just wanted you to know youre probably my fav author Ever and i aspire to write like you and your fics are a big source of creative drive to me (massive apologies in advance if this is a bit mucjh!!!!! im barely conscious w a headache & Cannot Tell For Shit)

ive spent more school nights than i should re-reading your fics for hours on end bc theyre so good everything hits just as hard even after the 16th read and i like picking apart every paragraph for fun. i like to doodle designs for immortal!prime on my school notebooks and i get so hyped whenever i get an email notif of your ao3 that ive had to just refer to you as "my favourite book author" to my very concerned mom

im pretty sure your analyses are what even got me interested in cprime in the first place lmao. i adore your ctommy design bc it is So Cute and try to put little details of it ive picked up into my own whenever i remember it. all your headcanons are absolute bangers too

and reckon ive infodumped about immortal!prime to my friends at school because I Get Normal abt the thimgs i like. also i freak out whenever i see u in my notifs even if its just to like a reblog

anyways point it i just wanted u 2 know i think ure awesome and a big inspiration 2 me !!! have a great day and may your bed forever be free of food crumbs :D

oh my goodness? this is so sweet! i woke up in a lot of pain today bc joints Bad but this made it so worth it. thank you so much anon.

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bluewinnerangel · 4 years ago

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Too Young lyric breakdown (and some more)

A while ago (IM SORRY ANON) I was asked to do an analysis of Louis' Too Young and this has been in my drafts for a while as I just couldn't find a way to be completely content with it, but I don't think I'll ever be for this one so maybe it's best to just let it roam free and share.

Generally I try not to make their songs about eachother automatically and solely based on Louis & Harry are together and this is about love so the only option is that this is about eachother and there's nothing else to consider. I just think that's too easy, loads of songs have romantic personifications of non-romantic subjects, songs can simply just not be autobiographical, etc.

That said, I would be having to do some brain twisterfries exercise to make Too Young about anything other than Louis and Harry being too young to know they had everything (I mean, I could make this about the band as a whole if I tried, but that's about it. And that's purely because I think that's what Niall did with This Town and So Long which has some great Too Young parallels, explained here). And I do feel like there are some things hinting at this, not so much with the lyrics itsself but with what he's said the song is about. So yes, I'm not gonna analyse this in a he's got a special someone when he was young kinda safe way, I'm sorry, this time there's no subtlety, there's just Harry. It was Harry. It is Harry. It was always Harry. Harryharryharry. Let's get into it:

~~putting in a cut because of course this is gonna be too long not to~~

(un?)fortunately this song isn't as deep and spiral-worthy as some of the other lyric analyses I've done (I'll link some below), but one thing that seperates Louis' songs from 1Ds/Harry's is that Louis has been abundantly clear what this song is about, and that's something really interesting to uh read into along with the lyrics:

I can remember that feeling of being 18 and meeting the person that you might spend the rest of your life with. We all made mistakes when we’re younger, and I just wanted to capture that idea of true honesty. Look, I wasn’t ready for that responsibility. And now I reflect, and I’m older, and I can look back with experience. I can see why that was wrong. But at the time, there’s a lot of 18-year-olds—especially 18-year-old lads—they’re not ready for that responsibility. I wanted to capture that.

— Louis for Apple Music

“Too Young" is about meeting ‘the one’ aged 18 and, like a lot of blokes that age, not being equipped for it, I found it hard to look that far ahead. I had to make a few mistakes and go down the wrong path to realise what I had and what I thought I’d lost.

— Louis for Crash Records

Quite a simple song really, again didn't need too much production, and conceptually, it's one- it's eh- I wrote it from the point of view of how much of responsibility you can have at a young age of potentionally meeting you know tHe GirL that you're gonna be spending the rest of your life with and that's a heavy responsibility you know for any age and especially you know trying to deal with that at 18 and understanding that and being mature enough to deal with that, ehm, so yeah kind of just conceptualize that and put it into the song, this was one of those sessions I would comfortably say this song took the longest, ehm, the song itself was written relatively quickly but some producers like to work very very meticulously you know what I mean this was one of those sessions I was definitely there all day but well worth it, decent tune.

— Louis on the Track by Track on his YT

There is so much to gain from the things he says, how he words things, and what's between the lines if you pay close enough attention. I do believe Louis has shown time and time again he's very sneaky and subtle with things, and although sometimes he's straight(pun intended) up lying, most of the times he's right there playing dumb in that fine line double entendre middleground of plausible deniability.

First see how he really really needs wants has to focus on mentioning "18" every time? Just sneaking it in every damn time? What's so important about 18? "He obviously just met the love of his life at 18 don't be silly he's not thinking about how people might interpret that" I mean yes he obviously did meet sOmEoNe at 18 but he clearly has a story ready here and "namedropping" 18 is a part of it. "18" isn't relevant to understanding the too young story, he could have said when he was just a little boy teen when they were young. He wants us to know about 18. So why is he doing this? Some things we can relate 18 to: We know he was 18 when he went on the X-factor, when everything started. We know he was 18 when he met Harry too. We know there's a song "18" that is a big ol' larry too (whenever I think "18" hear Harry yelling "16" somewhere in a little drawer in the corner of my brain) We know he wasn't publicly dating eleanor until he was 19, almost 20 too. But he's clever about it, he goes for "meet" and not "be together with" every time, he's carefully choosing his words here. It's not a fuck up, he's being smart. Plausible deniability at its finest.

Then in the first 2 quotes, he's clearly saying this is about him, that it's autobiographical. But then in the 3rd explanation he doesn't, he describes it as a concept. Now let the 3rd quote also be the only one where he drops a gender: "girl", and in the other two he doesn't. How Incredibly Unfortunate For Him That Is. But it gets worse. What he does do in the other two is mention dudes in plural. In both. Yes "but he just means that-" yes but sneaky. lil. shit. behavior. We're just too young lads chilling in a glass half empty 5 feet apart cuz blokes not gay. Just saying, just carefully look at what he does and doesn't say.

Anyway onto the lyrics:

We were too young to know we had everything

Too young, I wish I could've seen it all along

I’m sorry that I hurt you, darling, no, oh

We were too young

This speaks for itself, and the things that don't get clarified in the verses

I've been looking back a lot lately

Me and you is all I've ever known

Again this is pretty self-explanatory, "me and you is all I've ever known" is just really damn funny, like ok sure just let go of that public narrative, idk who douis(? was it douis?) is either, sure.

It’s hard to think you could ever hate me

Ok so whenever I can't place a line I like to go through their other songs and see if I can find some hint of intent that there's some kinda tying songs together going on. Here that's pretty hard to do because it's generic AF but still I'll try, literally all the "hate":

"You're a nightmare on the dance floor, And you hate me, and I want more" - Kill My Mind

"And I know you hate to smoke without me and, oh, Now you know, I'm wasting my time when it was always you" - Always You

"Wish I didn't need so much of you, I hate to say but I do" - Defenceless.

Also: Harry: "You've got my devotion, But man, I can hate you sometimes" - Fine Line (I think this is about the music industry but ok)

Also: One Direction: "You say, you say to everybody that you hate me" - Still The One (STILL THE ONE! STILL. THE. ONE!).

I mean maybe that last one but pff that didn't do much.

I've also seen the explanation that this is about their public images, that publicly it's speculated their friendship is ruined, that they "hate" eachother since they were basically ignoring eachother in public.

But everything's feeling different now

Then that makes sense too, that's not the case anymore since.. they're not seen in public anymore.

Oh, I can't believe I gave in to the pressure

When they said a love like this would never last

So I cut you off 'cause I didn't know no better

Now I realize, yeah, I realize

This is just heartbreaking. It's right there, there's no way around this. People pressured him, told him to give up on their love, to let go, not just that, a love like that. This is NOT about any openly celebrated heterosexual relationship. I'm really trying to write this without making it an angry closetingisbad spewing fire larrie kinda thing but what else am I supposed to do here? He lays it all out, he was pressured, told just give up because whatever you two have going on isn't gonna last so just save us all some stress and just give up, probably over and over again to the point where he started believing in it, or seeing no other option but to cave and cut him off.

Face to face at the kitchen table

... is he just dropping kitchens and tables because From The Dining Table and "kiss in the kitchen like it's a dancefloor / kids in the kitchen listen to dancehall" - Sunflower Vol 6? lol

EDIT: I don't know why I brushed over that that easily while knowing the Sunflower vol 6/Two Ghosts parallels and just not taking the time to look at it for more than half a second.... So there's this parallel in Sunflower Vol 6 and Two Ghosts about kitchens and being tongue-tied, and in Two Ghosts it's sad sad sad, Two Ghosts is at the I've-cut-you-off point...

(@ialwaysknewyouwerepunk describes these parallels and why they're there well in this Sunflower Vol 6 analysis)

But here I want to compare Too Young and Two Ghosts:

Two Ghosts:

The fridge light washes this room white Moon dances over your good side And this was all we used to need Tongue-tied like we've never known Telling those stories we already told 'Cause we don't say what we really mean

Where Harry takes Two Ghosts point in time and writes around it, flips it on its head in Sunflower Vol 6, Louis appears to have done the same in Too Young.... He sets the same mood: we're in the kitchen (the fridge light washes this room white/at the kitchen table), I see your face(moon dances over your good side/face to face), then the rest of the verse kinda mimicks eachother too, but more hopeful. Where in Two Ghost they're tongue-tied, repeating the same stories, not saying what they really mean, in Too Young they can finally have a conversation:

This is everything I've waited for

Now we can finally have a conversation

That I wish we could’ve had before

This is a Home parallel (parallel doesn't mean intentional reference, but this does fit well): "Make a little conversation, So long I've been waiting, To let go of myself and feel alive". These parallels also happen in Canyon Moon by the way Where in Home they're giving into the pressure of being told their love wasn't enough, they're confused, "stumbling in the dark", questioning it "but if you say you feel the same, could we be enough?" (again questioning it in Strong: "is it so wrong, that you make me strong?"), in Too Young he's looking back on that, wishing they could've had what they can finally have now before. I know I'm a bit special with this, but I don't think kitchens and conversations and names of places in songs originate from something literal. Like I don't think he went to Amsterdam and then went to Tokyo to let it go etc. I think a conversation, having a talk, and with that miscommunication as well, are often used as ways to describe what they can and can't say out loud, to the public, the things left unsaid, left unaddressed. "So many things we're not saying [out loud, in front of cameras]" Now they can have that conversation, although still not literal, now with his new music he can say these things. He can make that WMI directors cut. He can sings this damn song about being too young, singing he can't believe he gave into the pressure when they said a love LIKE THIS would never last. Shit he couldn't do before. Or I just think too highly of him and he just had a conversation in the kitchen, fine with me either way.

It's been two years since I’ve seen your face

[sweet creature horse noises] eh pf hmfpf Stunt line? easy direct effect of dude this song is so obvious you gotta put something in there really, the public knowing he and E broke up for 2 years? (here is another ask about this) I mean, he's pretty direct with his songs but none of the lines are as smackbang in your face as the lines that specifically fit E. This for sure isn't a "H and I broke up for 2 years", if he wanted to describe being broken up with him for 2 years I doubt he would describe it as not seeing his face, if they would break up it would be pretty horrible for them as they would always have to see eachothers faces everywhere, on all the records, in any throwback to the band, whatever framed accomplishments in their homes, forever, right? I'd expect some kind of Why do I still see your face everywhere line over this then. There also isn't any 2 year timespan available in the aggressive larrying timeline giving room for this being an honest line, has it ever been quiet for longer than a couple of months? I've seen it explained as a nudge to "two weeks" instead of "two years", but hmpf who knows really, first and foremost this just screams stunty to me. It's also countering the "face-to-face at the kitchen table" line. What is it? Are you face to face or you haven't seen their face for 2 years? Whose face is where? Whose face is hung up high in the gallery?

I'm tryna find some better words to say

Before I let this moment slip away

'Cause now I realize

Welp at least he agrees those "2 years since I've seen your face" weren't the best words, I think this is just filler much.

For more lyric analyses: Perfect Now (short) (full breakdown) - Sunflower vol 6 - Louis’ 28 songs playlist parallels Fine Line - Ever Since New York - Harry’s top 10 songs - Love You Goodbye - Right Now

#too young #smart thing with lyrics #<- thats the tag for anything about lyrics #welikeparallels #anon it's been 84 years I know im sorry I hope youre still around #I hope this was what you were looking for #i know i go a little overboard but i mean if you read my blog and ask me to do an analysis do you expect anything less

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michu-writes · 3 years ago

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hello!! How are you?? Im the anon who requested the social anxiety hcs and can i have a matchup if its no problem?

so, starting off, im pansexual and my preference is mostly boys. My main hobbies are drawing and writing and analysing characters! I have a dog and occasionally feed a stray cat i see a lot. Most of the time, people describe me as quiet/secretive but with close friends im loud?? More open and talkative i suppose! And the occasional: “you’re very mature for your age but easy to rile up” basically, the mom friend lol

I hope this is okay and if its missing stuff pls feel free to tell me!! (Just left out appearance since im not comfortable)

I ship you with...

Stan Marsh!

He thinks it’s cute how quiet you are around other people, and how loud and open you can be when you’re with your friends! He doesn’t mind the “mature for your age”, because he can be like that too sometimes.

The first time he actually interacted with you, was after school, when both everyone was going home. Him and his other friends happened to go the same direction as you. When the boy was going to separate themselves, Stan couldn’t help but have his eyes on you, as you walked over to a cat and fed it some left over food from your lunchbox. Ever since that day, he couldn’t stop thinking about you. You were so generous to the cat. He wanted to talk to you, but never really had the time.

Then his best friend, Kyle, noticed that. He basically just started to push Stan to go talk to you during lunch time. He then gave up and walked up to you and said hi. He was quite suprised that you weren’t talking that much. He started to think that you didn’t really like him that much. But then you eventually became friends and you seemed to talk more! He was so happy hjashdjd

Anyhow, he loves your drawings! He thinks your artstyle looks super cool, and would brag about it to his friends! Also his parents loves you, especially Randy. Randy would probably tease both of you all the time, leaving all red. Stan would be really embarrassed and apologize about it. He doesn’t really read since he doesn’t really have the time to do so since there’s always new shitty stuff happening in the town almost everyday. He really wants to though, and wouldn’t waste anytime reading what you write and compliment you about it! He loves how creative you are!!

Also he absolutely loves your dog so much. He has a soft spot for her/him LMAO. Sparky and your dog would probably become good friends as well :D!! Once Stan met your dog, he at least pet her/him for 2 hours /hj.

#south park #stan marsh #south park stan #x reader #x y/n #y/n #south park x reader #stan marsh x reader #fanfiction #headcanon #fluff

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phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust · 3 years ago

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I’d disagree with the anon that Paul was “incapable” of love, but I do agree he was very distanced, and pretty cruel (to women) when he was younger. (It was unfortunate they bought into the love at first sight myth, but he was also a charmer, and dropped affection and got colder after fucking them.)

But I just can’t see romantic interest on Paul’s end. I’m sure he loved John, but a lot of the “sexual/Romantic evidence” really can just be as construed as platonic love. I feel there may be some confirmation bias looking for “clues”. (Not an attack on anyone, but some of the analysises seem to try too hard, really).

He does make references, with the whole “calling him babe during concerts”, and “in bed” but that could just mean he’s not uncomfortable with coming off “gay”. He has a quote about it somewhere I think. He’s supportive of the community at any rate.

This is kind of my own bias, but at times I think he…plays it up a little during the present day? Again, I’m positive he did love John a lot, but with how he is, a charmer, good at manipulating his image, he knows there is a benefit to building up the “magical” Lennon McCartney dynamic. John’s dead, and the old conflicts have faded, so he has no reason not to. I don’t think he’s anti-social, or a psycho or anything, but he certainly does put a lot of thought into his image, especially now, with how he wants to leave his legacy.

I’m less knowledgeable about John, and the speculation about his mental illnesses, but on his end, I can certainly see it. Maybe he’s just blind, but the looks are very much…yeah. He does seem to rely Paul a lot, and hold him in very high regard (REGARDLESS of what those old male biographers might make of him). You just know he was suffering over Paul, poor bastard.

Not sure if anything happened. I think Paul knew though, and either ignored it, or was kind, knowing John wouldn’t act on it. OR he didn’t notice! With the whole “we shared beds A LOT. you would think he’d make a pass at me, darling~”

I guess that’s how I see it. I don’t really have strong feelings on the nature of their relationship, or want them to be “confirmed”, so I try to be as objective as possible! Not a shipper, but not a male biographer. In fact, I was very put off learning the ship was a thing at first! With every fan base “having to” ship the main male leads, that’s what I thought this was. But after three years, reading actual books, primary stuff, I’ve began to change my mind on its legitimacy, and this was my conclusion. But new information can always change!

(Sorry for the long long analysis, god! I just took my adderall and I should go eat! Feel free to block me for spam/harassment.)

Yeah, this is basically my big mclennon dilemma: did Paul love John?

Of course he loved him, but I mean did he harbour any homosexual feelings towards John - and I just go back and fourth on that a lot.

In my last response to an anon I wasn’t necessarily trying to argue that Paul was romantically/sexually attached to John, because all in all, I don’t believe he did - but it probably came off that way because I didn’t particularly like the way the anon had phrased some stuff (like calling him “a master manipulator” and “incapable of love”) and so I just sort of wanted to show that the relationship was more nuanced then just “john was simping for paul”. My overall point with that response was more so that whilst I think Paul struggles in showing real affection and emotions, I don’t think he was incapable of love prior to Linda. I think he did really love John (in whichever form of love you want to take it: romantically, platonically etc.)

And so my point I guess wasnt so much that Paul was always capable of love (because I think he did at least love his family, his close-friends, probably Jane etc.), but maybe more so that he was always capable of intimacy with another person, though he struggled with it.

But yeah, he was quite cruel to a lot of the girls he slept with in the 60s, but I wouldn’t say that suggests he was incapable of love (i know thats not what you’re saying but other people might interpret it through that lens) I would just say he was young, dumb, ridiculously rich and famous and not emotionally mature enough yet to really empathise with most of those girls. Not trying to completely excuse him, but like, i dunno, i always just try to view people from the most human perspective. Everyones an twat sometimes yknow

I also really struggle to see romance on Pauls behalf towards John - the only times I think “wait but maybe he did fancy john back” is when I read some of his lyrics (like in ‘Coming Up’, ‘Yvonne’s The One’, and to some extent ‘Here Today’ - though I think interpreting Here Today as strictly platonic love is still a valid interpretation). I mentioned this in a different post though, that analysing his lyrics just isnt particularly convincing for me, because it feels more like speculation - and also as someone who does write songs, I know that a lot of lyrics just arent as deep as we wish they were. It is really difficult to be truly introspective and honest in a song, without exaggerating or hyperbolising or fictionalising any autobiographical aspects.

I do see your point with Paul possibly playing up the “Lennon/McCartney m a g i c” - im not entirely sure how much I agree, but I do agree to some extent. I think he’s always been very image conscious, and being in what is probably the all-time most famous pop band definitely wouldve heightened that. Even as a teenager I think he’s always just had this natural charm about him, and that tends to stem I guess from a need to be liked; I think you can see it in every interview he’s ever done to be honest. Its not necessarily a bad thing, (because id take a charmer over a rude knobhead any day) but I guess it sort of just shows that Paul is flawed like everybody else. Also, just read @mothernatures-sons tags and I agree with her - Paul just knows when to be a nice person! Nothing wrong with that! It isnt manipulative like the last anon suggested, its just how most people are: polite :) Ive heard a lot of anecdotes from people who have worked with or met Paul and the majority of them say he was a just a nice guy. Not saying he was never an arsehole (cause yeah he was pretty cruel to those girls in the 60s) but I think overall, hes a pretty good guy 👍

On the other hand though, you could also say that superficial journalists are looking for superficial answers - and Paul knows what the people want to hear. But occasionally ill hear an interview that does seem more intimate then most - I havent listened to it in awhile, but the interview he did with Sean I remember felt more honest to me then most. And when he said he’d like to spend the day “in bed” with John, to me that felt like a genuine and fitting response. Because, whilst it has sexual connotations, it also just feels like he’s saying he’d just like to sit around, chat, dont chat, just whatever with John for a day. Like he would just like another moment of intimacy with him.

I think we are pretty much in agreement on most of this though! At first I was also like “nah, mclennon isnt real, teenage girls just love shipping guys!” (I am a teenaged girl and I can confirm this lol) but then it just sort of became apparent to me through reading more and more about their relationship that there probably was something more on Johns behalf. If John wasnt in love with Paul, then it feels as though a lot of things he said and did just dont add up (the big one for me is him marrying Yoko so soon after Paul married Linda - like I really cannot come up with a heterosexual explanation for that!)

But when it comes to Paul, though ill have moments of doubt, I dont think he was in love with John (homosexually) and I do think a lot of the evidence on Pauls behalf seems like a stretch (but like you, im not having a go at anyone, because I understand that it is easy to carried away, plus its fun - but realistically, most of Pauls evidence just is not convincing to me). He’s comfortable with his sexuality, and I really do try to respect that and not force a gay interpretation of quotes or songs from him, unless it is genuinely making me question his sexuality and mclennon.

PS dont worry, I didn’t take this is spam at all!! And also, I would never block someone just for disagreeing with me! I enjoy discussion and I think its good to engage with people who disagree with you! To be honest, id only block someone if they were purposely being a real arsehole <3

#mclennon #discussion

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whorefordazai · 4 years ago

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oh em gee heyyuh segc thing 😏💋 congrats once again on the milestone sweetie 😘👏🏻 can I get uhh one match up with a guy joo-say-oh? *why do I think I know who you'll give 🤔*

my pronouns are she/her, no zodiac cause I don't believe in those 🥲 i have shoulder-blade length black hair with flat bangs (imagine Yosano but uglier) and am 5"2 (157 cm to he exact) rip

Hobbies include analysing so many things (I'm pretty sure I'm slightly decent at recognising people's qualities), writing, reading, and drawing. I'm a musician but it's ages since I've played. I love talking with my baes too! Youll immediately know I like you if I keep pestering you lol. Oh and you know who my kins are bae 😚🍀💗

My love languages are (as the recipient) Acts of Service and Quality Time and I also love giving Words of Affirmation to my babies ☺ Lifting their confidence is literally one of my favourite things to do and I'm a super ride or die person. I literally squared up to defend my friends several times 🤪

My aesthetic is all over the place 🤧 Is it light academia? Is it street style? Is it soft? I have no idea. I like cute stuffs tho, like those kinds of pretty Korean outfits. Fave colours are uh lilac or tosca or soft brown

My dream date is to visit a theatre/orchestra and book stores oh my god. Those calming stuffs like that 👉🏻👈🏻

I hope I make sense 🥲 And I hope this isn't too much? Uwhduwus im so sorryyyy if it is 😢❤ Once again congrah too lay sheons baybee 🤪🎊

I match you with...(you already know so lemme make this fun for both of us 🥲)

Sakunosuke Oda! ´ˎ˗

(surprise shawty 🥲🎉)

👾 oda doesn’t befriend many people, so I feel like you guys would be friends before lovers. you mentioned you can understand people pretty fast, so if you confront him about himself, he’ll probably be standing there like “damn, woman 👴🏻.” he’ll probably be reluctant to tell you he’s into writing stories (he’s a little shy okay) but once he realizes you’re also into writing stories, he’ll low key be so excited to talk to you about it (he won’t outright show his excitement tho) the least he’ll say is “oh? oh that’s nice🙂🤝” don’t be fooled, he’s jumping on the inside.

👾 you might pester him a lot, and he might not give much of a reaction but really, he’s super glad that you haven’t become bored of him and his rock personality 😚 I feel like his love language is also quality time, seeing as though he works in the mafia and doesn’t get much free time. the time you guys spend together is probably at book stores or definitely with the orphans.

👾 this man is kinda touch deprived okay🧍‍♂️he didn’t realize how much cuddling he needed until he saw you in a pretty comprising position where the orphans where sleeping with you, all cuddled up by your body. mans almost dropped his grocery bags and just stood there like “🧍‍♂️💗” he thought to himself “I must obtain this thing humans call...cuddling🧍‍♂️”

👾 lemme sayyy—oda isn’t one to talk about his feelings, not because he thinks they aren’t important—more like he doesn’t wanna bother you with them. so your love language being words of affirmation and boosting confidence is perfect for him ☺️ you always notice when he’s feeling a little glum, so just grab his cheeks, place a big kiss on his nose and assure him that he’s the best man anyone could ever ask for 🥰

SONGS ´ˎ˗

- come a little closer | cage the elephant

- young and beautiful | lana del ray

- carolina | harry styles

- yellow | coldplay

- runaway | aurora

MESSY LAYOUT ´ˎ˗

#event match ups #bungou stray dogs #bsd imagines #bungou stray dogs x reader #bsd x reader #bsd odasaku #odasaku x y/n #odasaku sakunosuke #odasaku x reader

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latetaektalk · 3 years ago

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hi there ^^' i'm... kinda new to this whole tumblr thing and have been wanting to write on here for a while but this huge place is kinda scary sometimes haha ;; do you have any writing tips or tricks that would be good to know for newcomers? (also your music taste is immaculate, i love it)

hey love 💕 first of all, welcome to tumblr!! its a fun place,, youre gonna love it, and learn to hate it lol second of all, thank you for complimenting my music taste 😳

now im not quite sure if you want only writing tips or writing blog tips, so ive included tips and tricks for both!

WRITING BLOG TIPS :

have a masterlist. this might seem stupid and obvious, but ive seen people with no masterlist. people are lazy, so if they cant access your writing easily, they will just click away.

have a clean theme. aesthetics are important. they are. people love clean and easy to navigate themes. again, people are lazy, so if you make it easy to click through your blog and get to your writing, youll increase the chance of people reading your stuff!

how to get your work show up in general. putting links in your fanfic might lead to your story not showing up in the search. ive also heard that a banner thats too big can cause that. even using too many tags can lead to your work not showing up. its complicated.

the first five tags. im sure youve heard abt this already but the first five tags are the tags that will actually show up! so if someone follows #bts fluff and you tag your fic with that, your fic can show up on people's dashes as a recommended post!

tag accordingly. speaking of tags, please tag accordingly! theres nothing more annoying than finding a jimin fanfic in the taehyung fanfic tag. i really discourage you from mistagging your stories. if im scrolling through the taehyung fanfic tag and find a jimin fanfic, it makes me want to not read it. just tag your fics accordingly.

reblog your fics. i mean it. seriously, reblog them as much as you want! people live in different time zones or sometimes forget abt wanting to read your stuff, so reblogging it consistently for a week or so to get it on people's dashes helps!

teasers and taglists. i recommend doing both! teasers help to get people excited for your story and taglists ensure that people will read it, or at least remember to!

dont stress abt notes. now, this is less of a tip but rather something i just really really really want to tell you! i know youve heard this before, but please do not stress about notes. tumblr fame does not exists! it doesnt matter if your writing gets 2 notes or 300 or 5k notes! i do understand how getting a lot of notes can be motivating (every fics deserve all the love in the world by the way!!) but in the end, it should not be your motiviation to write. focusing on notes will ruin writing for you. it will. the amount of notes your fic will reach has nothing to do with how good your writing is. dont let something as superficial as notes ruin the fun of writing for you. its seriously not worth it! write for you and no one else!

WRITING TIPS :

write self indulgent fics. i seriously think all fics should be self indulgent. writing fics should be fun, so please write whatever you want! also, theres no such thing as an overdone trope. if you want to write a fake dating enemies to lovers fic, please write it! you might think there are already a bunch out there and its not worth writing another one, but youre wrong! there isnt one out there thats been written by you yet. go write it!

make playlists. now this is a bit specific to me because im absolutely obsessed with music, but making playlists that fit the mood of the fic has always helped me while writing and gotten me out of writers block before!

take your time. writing is freaking hard and when writers block hits, theres rarely ever something that you can do. try not to stress too much abt it! it happens to the best of us!

balance dialogue and detail. its important to find a middle. if im reading a fic and theres paragraph after paragraph after paragraph of detail, the chance of me just skipping that part is really high. because even though i love detail, it does get boring. so use dialogue to spice it up!

reading. okay, this sounds weird because youre asking for writing tips, but reading seriously help your writing so much! if you wanna improve your writing skills, reading a lot is going to be key. now, im not saying reading is necessary, but i do think that it can help you to better! whats even more important though is that you try to analyse people’s writing while reading. when i say you should analyse people’s writing, i do not mean you should write an entire analysis of a book, but to take a second and think to yourself how the authors just did that. how did they convey oc’s sadness? why did they just describe the weather? whats the purpose of this scene?

switch up sentence/paragraph length. shorter sentences/paragraphs = emphasise something and pick up the pace. longer sentences/paragraphs = slow down the story and allow for more detail. its important that you do a mix of both. utilise the length to your advantage. a well placed short sentence/paragraph can pack a lot of punch and turn your sad story in a heartbreaking one.

outline your fics. look this is very personal again because some people dont like to outline their fics, but i recommend outlining your fics. and when i say outline your fics, you can do it as little or as much as you want! it can be a few notes, or a long list of every detail you want to include. i just want you to know where this story is headed. its so easy to write yourself in a corner and trust me, you dont wanna end up there.

allow yourself to be free. this connects to the previous point i just made. even though i do recommend outlining your fics, i am also a firm believer of taking the story somewhere else if you feel like it. ive scrapped complete outlines before. half of the scenes i write also arent in my outline at all. you dont have to stick to the outline. if you think that a specific scene would add something to your story, then please go ahead and write that scene. just always remember where youre headed and dont loose focus.

have fun. i just really wanna reiterate this point again. its just so important to me that you have fun while writing! seriously. its just fanfiction. it should be fun. go crazy. i support you!

okay bub i hope this was helpful 💕 if you have any other questions/want more tips/want me to elaborate on something, please just hit me up! my ask box is always open!

#writing tips #jimintopia #linh.ask

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bloodbenderz · 4 years ago

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this is possibly a dumb question and a weird one, so feel free to ignore! but i was reading one of ur analyses (on the lok anarchy article) and that was a lot of fun to read and i thought u made v salient points! i was wondering if u had any advice on how one can get better at coming up with their own analyses and stuff like that. maybe it’s a lack of brain cells or maybe it’s a part of my brain that i haven’t flexed in years, but i want to be able to do that (i think it’s called “critical thinking” lmao) but cannot fathom how to do so to the point of being able to think and organize analyses/essays like this. again this is a weird q with an answer that will vary/not exist depending on who’s asked, but i dig ur analyses so here i am

thank u sm! this is a super broad question but im just gonna assume u mean literary analysis cuz thats what this blog is about (usually)

my first piece of advice is to read nonfiction. for me nonfiction has always been the best way for me to build a Framework of critical thought (for example, learning about science and its history gives me the tools to criticize modern scientific education and pop science) aside from teaching u abt historical/scientific fact, these writers will usually have ways of thinking abt things that u will not have considered before, and as u follow them thru their argument, u will not only understand Theirs better but u will also start understanding better how to formulate ur own. u can find whatever format works best for u, like, podcasts/audiobooks or print or ebook or whatever, but find some content abt something that interests u and go for it!

when it comes to fiction, i would say my advice is to both consume a lot of fiction AND ALSO consume a lot of analysis of it. (also remember that ur mind basically functions on You are what you eat. Dont spend too much time watching trashy dramas or reading fanfiction. read/watch/listen to a VARIETY of content) as u consume content, ask urself WHY do i like this? what specifically abt it is appealing to me? why does it ring true, or why doesn’t it? notice motifs bc thats usually the easiest way to notice symbolism (for example theres a lot of mirrors and reflections in russian doll. what does that mean?) and think abt what they could represent in the story. track character development, make mental notes of a character’s motivations and ideals, and notice how the story affects them and ask if it makes sense. give urself room to dislike things (Just because legend of korra is the sequel to a show u really liked doesnt mean u have to like lok too!), but ask urself why u disliked them, and see if u can form a convincing argument abt it.

look at other people’s analysis of fiction! watch video essays and read other people’s analysis! u dont have to agree w them, but see what patterns they’ve picked out, and see if u can pick out patterns like it next time. it’s really just practice the more u read/watch critically, the more u get better at it!

for me fiction is the most fun and creative way to Apply critical thought because like. every piece has a Point to it. Nonfiction will just come out and tell u what their point is, but fiction requires u to figure out what theirs is, and bc of that there’s a lot of flexibility in how u read it. (hint: as long as the text doesnt actually disprove ur reading, that’s a valid Point! another hint: not all Valid points are Good) also, i dont wanna sound like an asshole here but theres no way to avoid it so here it is: a lot of people dont criticize/analyze fiction properly bc of their emotional attachment to it. they’ll project things onto characters that arent supported by the text, they’ll write “fix it” fanfiction that ignores or misunderstands the important themes of a story, they’ll excuse genuinely bad writing bc theyre attached to the characters (can anyone say 2020 supernatural renaissance?). its fine to be emotionally attached to a story (and if it’s a good story u WILL be emotionally attached to it) but when u write analysis of a story set ur affection for the characters aside for the moment cuz u will always end up with much fairer and more interesting analysis when u do.

also, find somebody to talk to abt fiction or make a blog abt it! its fun to talk about and u will find it easier to form arguments when ur actively talking abt it cuz honestly i only ever have a half formed thought when i write my long posts i just sit down and start typing and i organize my thoughts once theyre already down

so, idk. tldr: read more nonfiction, read less fanfiction, write more analysis. And pay attention in english class if ur in school

#maybe i just specifically like nonfiction a lot but its really helped me develop the lens that i use to read fiction #asks

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prettywordsyouleft · 5 years ago

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That’s It?

Prompt: #119 for anon – “I just really need to talk to you.”

Anonymous said:

May I request 119 with Im Changkyun??? Thank youuu

Pairing: Im Changkyun x reader

Genre: fluff

Warnings: none

Word count: 1198

There were always sentences that would provoke certain emotions in a person. Some would spark joy or excitement, others contempt and annoyance.

But there was one that was universally dubbed as anxiety-inducing.

I need to talk to you.

Changkyun swallowed, the sentence hadn’t even been spoken out loud and still he felt the immediate surge of concern. Why did you need to talk to him? What had he forgotten about or done wrong to warrant such a sentence?

He stared at the simple message on his phone for several minutes, blindly jostled by his best friend Jooheon. “Dude, you look unwell, all good?”

“Ah, well, I don’t know,” Changkyun admitted, allowing Jooheon to read your message. “This doesn’t really bode well, right?”

“That’s from Y/N?” Jooheon asked and Changkyun nodded. Jooheon dismissed the apparent anxious expression on his friend’s face. “I saw her earlier in the staff room, she seemed completely fine.”

“To you, but maybe I’ve done something?” Changkyun wondered softly, letting out a heavy sigh. He started to brood, over-analysing every aspect of his recent interactions with you. He couldn’t think of anything that he had done to warrant your need to send him such a message and dropped his head into his arms with a groan.

Jooheon patted his shoulder gently. “You know, it could be something good.”

“There’s no exclamation mark,” Changkyun replied immediately, glancing up at Jooheon. “I wonder what it is that I’ve done wrong.”

“Only one way to find out, message her back.”

“Right now? I uh, I need to get back to work. These emails aren’t going to send themselves.”

Jooheon shrugged. “The sooner you rip off the band-aid, the quicker whatever it is will be over and done with.”

Of course, Changkyun opted to do all his remaining work before approaching your message. When he logged off his computer, he looked to his phone, noticing the flashing notification light. Heaving in a deep breath, he unlocked the device and saw another message from you.

I just really need to talk to you.

Guilt washed over him for making you wait so long as he cowardly protected himself from whatever you had to say. Hitting the call button, he balanced the phone on his shoulder as he collected his belongings and managed to pull on his coat. You answered after the fourth ring. “Finally!”

“Sorry, I was caught up in work, is everything okay?”

“No, you made me wait all day,” you grumbled and Changkyun sighed as he walked towards the elevator.

“Well I’m free now, can you tell me over the phone or-”

“In person, this is kind of important,” you intervened breathlessly. “I’m waiting for you by your car.”

“Oh, right.” Stepping into the elevator, he pressed the ground level button and swallowed awkwardly. “I’ll be there shortly.”

It felt like the longest ride ever and yet when Changkyun reached the bottom, he almost pressed the highest floor button to ride away from his concerns. He knew he had dragged this out far too long now. Jooheon had been right. His mood wouldn’t have stumbled this low had he done something about this hours ago.

When he spotted you, Changkyun tried to gauge your expression. You didn’t smile, and that made his stomach knot up further. He soon reached your side, lifting an awkward hand in greeting. “Hey.”

“Hey, can we talk in your car?” you asked quickly and numbly Changkyun nodded, unlocking the doors and went over to the driver’s side. Once in the car, he didn’t look directly at you, rather, angling himself so he could see you enough without giving off that he was anxious.

It was then that he realised you were fiddling with your ring on your finger and his brows knitted together. “Is it something bad?”

“What?” Dazed, you shook your head. “No, it’s nothing bad.”

“Really?”

“It’s serious though,” you admitted, looking in every part of the car except in his direction. “I uh, have something I need to tell you.”

Changkyun took a shaky breath, trying to guess the words that would come from your mouth. When he landed on the idea of you potentially leaving him, it made him lurch forward, taking your hand in his and shaking his head. “You’re not- we’re not changing how we are right?”

“Well, it might change after I say this,” you said, blinking several times. “Changkyun, I-”

“But I don’t want us to change,” he breathed, shaking his head again. “I like how we are. I know we’ve only been together for nine months now but I don’t want to break up and-”

“What? Break up? Where did you get that from?”

Desperation had taken over and his words started falling out in quick succession. “Well, you said you needed to talk and that only means one thing which is never good and so that’s why I avoided having this happen earlier in the day because I don’t want things to be bad between us, Y/N. I want us to-”

“Changkyun, I love you,” you confessed and he sucked in so much air that he began to hiccup. Watching him for a moment, your lips slowly spread into a smile. “Are you hiccupping because I love you?”

“Wait a min—ute,” he managed, trying to rid himself of the problem he was facing. And then he shot you another look. “Did you just sa—y you lo—ve me?!”

“Oh my goodness, you sound so cute right now!” you giggled, cupping his face within your hands. “I love you. That’s what I want to tell you. I realised this morning how much I needed to tell you. And it drove me mad waiting all day until now to do so.”

“You love me—ee?!”

“Even when you sound so ridiculous. Do you need some water? I think I have a bottle in my bag.”

After gulping down the drink, Changkyun waited for a few seconds to see if he was cured. He then groaned. “I was so anxious all afternoon thinking it was something bad.”

“Why would I have anything bad to say? You only ever make me smile!”

“You sent I really need to talk to you. What else was I meant to think?”

You grinned. “So what are you thinking now?”

“What do you mean?” he asked and you gave him a pointed look. “Oh.”

“Oh? That’s it?!”

“No, I love you too.”

“You said that with barely any effort,” you grumbled, your disappointment evident.

Changkyun smiled, running his hand through your hair. “Because it’s not the first time I’ve said it to you.”

“It is too!”

Changkyun shook his head. “I breathed it into your ear last week.”

“When?!” You were aghast and Changkyun grew sheepish.

“Uh, you were asleep beside me but still-”

“I obviously didn’t hear you then!”

“Can you hear me now?” Changkyun asked and you softened, watching him intently. “I love you too, Y/N. Even if you make me panic over your sentences.”

“You’re not going to let this go, now are you?” you whined and Changkyun chuckled, pulling you into his embrace.

“No, but the good thing is, I’m not letting you go either.”

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derireo · 5 years ago

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Wilting Lotus / CH. 5.1

The Two Fools

Omi and Izumi explore her abandoned apartment.

He decides to destroy a couple of things during the visit. Just for kicks.

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"So they decided to shut it down because..?"

Izumi was staring up at the place that she used to call her apartment, but it was obvious that no one lived here anymore. The front lawn where a large sign used to sit was now overrun with weeds while the walls of the building looked like they were being swallowed up by invasive creeper plants. Omi's arm was still comfortably wrapped around her shoulders as they stayed put on the sidewalk, her head resting against his shoulder as she analysed the graffiti that ran along the walls.

The sound of Omi's tongue clicking was the only response Izumi was going to get given how silent the man was the rest of their way here. The lack of cooperation made her sigh in resignation and she decided not to ask anymore questions unless they were actually important. For the time being at least.

She just had to guess that Sakyo and Itaru didn't want this building anymore because she didn't live there anymore. Her conjecture probably wasn't that far off anyways.

Flinging Omi's arm from her shoulders, Izumi readjusted her outfit as she made her way inside the abandoned building, the toes of her boots kicking away the stray pebbles that rest on the ground.

The man who accompanied her pursed his lips at the sudden loss of warmth, but silently crinkled his nose as he reminded himself that she had just very rudely pushed him away. Slinging her bag over his shoulder, Omi's tongue poked the inside of his cheek as he followed right behind the wandering woman, his temper still pleasantly mellow.

"Ugh, stairs." Izumi moaned sadly when pressing the button to the elevator didn't work, hitting her head against the metal doors.

It wasn't too far, but she lived on the third floor.

Omi, irked by how fast she had given up already, offered his services.

"I can give you a ride," he started, "but it's gonna cost ya."

And as much as the offer was tempting, Izumi grimaced at the word 'cost' and shook her head with a barely friendly chuckle, her eyes totally not glaring up at Omi as they smiled at him. His own gaze was indifferent at the expression on her face, but the corner of his mouth curved upwards when he saw how annoyed she seemed to be.

"No thanks, Sweetheart. I"ll manage." Mocking him with the nickname Sakyo usually called her, Izumi briefly poked her tongue out at Omi. Her little feet immediately carried her in the direction of the stairs before the tall man could react and grab her or something, and she tried to keep her giggles quiet when the sound of his footsteps followed after her own.

Their shadows danced along the length of the walls as the old wood beneath their feet creaked under the weight of their bodies. The sound of wandering mice and other critters tapping along the floors and ceiling covered up the tired breaths of Izumi as Omi casually trailed behind her, eyes fixated on the strain of her calves.

But as strong as she was, her endurance fucking sucked.

"I'll carry you. Free o' charge."

"Oh thank fuck." Izumi sobbed at the new offer, her body twisting around once they finished the first flight of stairs. At this point, her knees felt weak and she was about to die from exhaustion so Omi saying he'd carry her was like a dream come true; she honestly didn't think her short legs were gonna make it.

With arms held wide open, Izumi waited to be lifted onto his shoulder again, only to be startled by the feeling of already familiar hands gripping onto her waist and hoisting her up into the air.

Her reflexes were barely fast enough when latching onto the man, her legs tightly curled around his waist while her arms looped around his neck as Omi made no other effort to hold onto her himself, his hands reaching out to grab the handrails so that they wouldn't fall down the stairs.

"I can definitely tell that you wouldn't care if I died." Izumi sighed, wistful almost. As much as she found herself physically attracted to this man she was touching, his personality was nearing the line of a total deal breaker.

Omi found it easy to agree with her statement as he focused on getting the both of them to the floor that Izumi used to live on, the pace of his breathing barely changing.

The silence he left Izumi in annoyed her to no end; having been so used to Itaru's ramblings and Sakyo's never ending sighing or growling. She also didn't want to admit that she enjoyed being spoiled with attention, but with Omi's indifference, and maybe even dislike, towards her, she was definitely weighing the pros and cons on throwing a little tantrum.

But no. She shook her head, much to Omi's agitation. She had to keep her cool. Losing her temper with Omi like this was obviously going to put her in a tight situation, and she wasn't willing to die by this fucker's hands.

"Frowning isn't a cute look on you." She said offhandedly, already getting bored having to stay quiet with her emotions while her chin hooked over his shoulder, the side of her head leaning against his just to make him a little more annoyed.

At this point, Omi wasn't planning on opening his mouth to shoot her with a retort. Izumi would probably hit him back with something even meaner to say, and then they would have to do a back and forth to see whose feelings would get hurt first.

And nobody really had time for that; plus, Omi just wanted this girl off.

"Here. Get down." The man heaved a sigh of relief when he saw the large number '3' on the wall at the top of the stairs and went to pry off the clingy monster from his body.

Izumi tutted when her feet met the floor, but didn't say anything else to Omi who was trying to brush off any dust or dirt she brought upon him (rude!) and opened the broken fire exit door that would lead them to the hallway where her home was. The circuit breaker was undoubtedly shut off from all those years ago so the only source of light was the sun rays coming in from the end of the hallway.

The silence that resided in the place that Izumi once called her home made it slightly eerie, but she willed herself not to be perturbed and started to venture down to find the door to her apartment room.

"Ugh.. It's so cold. I kinda wish they left the electricity on." Rubbing her hands against her arms, Izumi stopped in front of a door that had one of the numbers hanging off. Her lips pouted when she saw the broken door frame and the cracked door itself; probably in this condition due to her never giving Sakyo and Itaru the key before she left.

She nudged the door open with her foot and held onto her arms as she walked in to the near empty home, just a few things like her ratty old couch and a few wooden chairs left askew in the living room. And she didn't notice then, but it seemed like the table in Itaru's 'office' was actually her coffee table.

Reduce, reuse, recycle, huh?

"Should blame yourself for wearin' that outfit you got goin' on." Omi said as he ventured to her kitchen where a leaky faucet remained along with a few broken dishes left abandoned in the sink. If anything, Omi would have offered his jacket to her if she asked, but she didn't. So. That's kind of on her.

"I'll kill you." Her voice travelled from an area of the place that was probably her bedroom, and the empty threat left Omi chuckling to himself as he brushed his hand along a cracked cupboard, fingers catching onto the handle that would let him open the tiny cabinet. The man grimaced when the collected dust flew in front of his face and he waved it away with his free hand as he examined whatever was inside.

The cupboard mostly housed a unique array of shot glasses, showing how much of an alcoholic the girl was in the past, along with a small arrangement of porcelain plates and one single kiddie bowl.

A small wave of repulsion went through Omi when he took a closer look at a mug that caught his attention though, a curious hand reaching out to properly examine what was on the ceramic.

It was a personalised mug that seemed to have a not so hot picture of Izumi with her former boyfriend on it, their arms wrapped around each other.

With one of the worst choices of font, Papyrus, was a sentence that ran around the image.

I hope only love and happiness meet us hand-in-hand in the future.. Guo Dian.

Happy Graduation, Izumi.

This? In Papyrus? Out of all fonts? Omi didn't major in anything let alone graphic design, but just looking at this abomination told him that this bullshit was hideous as fuck. He was going to have to do something about this.

"Yo, Izumi-san." He called out.

"En..?" Poking her head from a doorway, the girl's eyes squinted at Omi who had the mug casually hanging from a long finger, eyebrows scrunched him as she tried to see what it was he was trying to tell her through his vague gestures. She only realised what he was holding in his hand when she remembered that there was only one or two mugs she owned as a new adult, and the only one that had a picture on it was the present that Guo Dian gave her on her convocation day.

"You ever tell 'im this the ugliest shit ya ever seen?"

"Uh.. I thought it was kinda cute at the time.." She trailed off, slightly embarrassed. Sure, it wasn't the prettiest thing to look at, but it's the thought that counts, right? Izumi treasured it for many years after receiving it, but she totally forgot about it once she left to go overseas. She didn't use it much anyways, considering how worn down and scratched all of her shot glasses were while the mug looked like it had been barely touched.

"Right, well," with an easy but powerful flick of his wrist, Omi lobbed the ceramic mug across the short length of the living room, leaving it to fly far enough to hit and smash the rest of an already broken window that lead to the outside of the building, "you thought wrong."

Wincing at the sound of the crash of the window and then the smash of the mug landing on concrete, Izumi quickly frowned at Omi before disappearing to her bedroom again to go back to doing what she was doing before he interrupted her. Whatever. She didn't like that mug anyways.

The lack of reaction was kind of disappointing to Omi, but he decided not to push her any further just in case the kitty actually had claws, using the leaking faucet to wash away any of the dust that managed to stick to his fingers as his nose wrinkled at the memory of initially witnessing the tragedy that was Izumi's only graduation present.

If it were him, he would have dumped his partner right then and there.

"Ugh.. Omi-san?" It was Izumi's turn to call out for him, not that it mattered to the man but he perked up at the helpless tone in her voice, already making the short trek to her bedroom before she could tell him what she needed help with.

She was surprised to see Omi standing in the doorway when she was going to walk out and drag him from the kitchen, but smiled gratefully when he was in her sights, hands shoved into his pockets.

"You good?" Eyeing the piece of plywood that Izumi was holding onto, Omi pursed his lips and took a single step forward to see how she was managing. The plywood looked a bit new, and considering that Sakyo and Itaru had been here once before told him that they were the ones who installed it.

They said they were having trouble opening something a while back, so it must have been something valuable hence the plywood screwed shut over the huge ass hole they made in the wall.

"Obviously not." Izumi grunted, fingers sore from pulling at the barrier for so long. "There was literally no reason for this."

Awkwardly bouncing on the balls of his feet, Omi continued to watch the girl struggle. Was she going to ask him to lend a hand or..?

"Please help me." She whined, removing her hands from the small crevice that helped her pull at the industrial wood. She brought her fingers up to her mouth and cutely placed soothing kisses to the parts that would undoubtedly bruise later, causing Omi's mouth to twist in disgust at the adorable display.

"Hm. Thought you were never gonna ask, Sweetheart." He smiled sarcastically to which Izumi reacted the same, both of them glaring at each other as Omi shrugged off his black denim jacket and tossed it to Izumi who hardly reacted fast enough to catch it. No one else would have put it past Omi to ignore the girl until she asked for assistance since he liked watching others struggle, but there was something about Izumi that made it all the more fun.

He had just met her today, and not that he'd admit it, but he was kind of enjoying himself right now.

"Hold it or wear it, don't care. An' quit lookin' at me like that." Omi sighed as Izumi crinkled her nose, the weight of his jacket making it difficult for her to hold in both hands. A slight grumble came from the girl once the man had turned away from her to pull a tactical switchblade from his back pocket, the matte carbon fibre attracting her attention.

Her eyebrows lifted, impressed by the slick blade, and took a step back to let Omi do whatever he was planning to do, arms casually slipping through the sleeves of his large jacket to keep herself warm. "You gonna somehow cut through the plywood with that?" She inquired while sitting down on her old bed, the sound of the creaking springs causing her to grimace and readjust her position on the hard mattress.

The half-hearted joke made Omi want to hit his head against the wall, but he didn't, instead bending to his knees to get a better look at the screws that were still managing to hold on. "I ain't that strong." He rolled his eyes to himself, hooking the blade into the divot of the first screw to get it loose and then worked on the next one in the other corner to get the top half disconnected from the wall. He worked quickly so that he wouldn't waste any more of their time, and without touching the other screws at the bottom dug his hand between the plywood and the wall to manually force it off.

The sound of wood splitting caused Izumi to stop zoning out, her body jolting at the sudden break.

"Yeah.." She grimaced again, seeing how the poor wood lay at his feet. "Not that strong.. I agree.."

Izumi sighed once she saw the huge hole that hid away the safe she only opened once, the dents in the metal clear as day to both her and Omi. Sakyo and Itaru could have done a better job at trying to open the safe, right? It was just a simple 4-digit code, but it looked like they couldn't even figure it out. There were a few scratches on some of the numbers that told Izumi that they focused on those, but they missed the mark.

They didn't get a single number right.

"The code was 3825.." Izumi mourned as she quickly went to kneel in front of the safe to drag her fingers along the dimples in the metal, not yet touching the keypad. Omi's eyebrows creased as he watched how her small hands poked out from the long sleeves of his jacket and crossed his arms over his chest, not really knowing why she would assume anyone would figure that out by themselves with no sort of clue from the owner.

"3825 for 'fuck' when you look at the letters.." She explained not a second later, and it was at this point that Omi would have honestly preferred if she didn't say anything at all.

The urge to rip his jacket off her body out of anger was strong, but she unlocked the safe before he could make a move. Omi was left having to pretend he was only outstretching his hand to anxiously bite at his nails while Izumi gathered whatever was in the safe, the sigh that left her connecting to how Omi was feeling at this very moment.

"Didn't like 7448?" He muttered to himself when Izumi shuffled away from the safe to close it, the woman standing to her proper height as she turned her head to look at him with an innocent expression, eyes oddly sad for some reason.

"'Shit' wasn't as funny as 'fuck' at the time." She murmured gloomily, thumb brushing over the items that lay in her hand while Omi took a step to take a better look. His face contorted once more into an expression of disgust when he saw another photo of Izumi and Guo Dian together, along with a pair of amber kanzashi hair combs and a simple, black titanium ring.

"Top tier humour." He said, snatching away the photo that rest in her palm. The protest against him went ignored as Omi rummaged around in his pocket for something, his tongue poking out just the slightest bit as he dug deep to conjure a single match kept safe in a small plastic baggie from his trousers. "We're burnin' this shit."

"No! I look cute in that photo!" Izumi shot a hand out to try and reach for the picture that Omi took from her, but the man only held it above his head with a petulant frown, nose scrunched that she would even bother to try and save this forsaken piece of chemically sensitised paper.

The agitation was clear on Omi's face when Izumi's hand made contact with his chest as she tried to get closer to the photo, straining herself on her toes to at least brush her fingers along the edge of the item while her body leaned into him. Her struggle was genuine as she wheezed out a childish whine, but was quickly silenced when Omi's hand came down to roughly pat her cheek, an arm tucking around her waist to bring her back to the flat of her feet.

"I'll cut his half off then we burn it." He offered then pushed away the girl from him to keep their distance, brushing off the imaginary dust that she brought upon him. "Want you to explain why those are important though." He pointed at the traditional hair ornament and the ring being held tight in Izumi's hand. The amber resin glowed bright despite the dim lighting in the bedroom, and the ring glimmered just the slightest when the light from the window hit it as Izumi examined the accessories herself, lips pouted.

"I just told Itaru and Sakyo that these meant a lot to me," she sighed, not noticing Omi brandishing his switchblade again, "they're making it seem like they hold a different meaning though. I don't quite get it."

The smooth sound of his blade slicing through the photo made Izumi fall back into reality and she pressed her lips in a thin line when she noticed how he narrowly missed cutting her whole arm from the rest of the picture. She didn't say anything, but Omi knew how unimpressed she was with him when she put her hands on her hips; looking awfully cute (not his words) with how his denim jacket dwarfed her.

"Any special markings on 'em?" He murmured as he plucked the match he had from its baggie, taking a single step closer to the girl to reach out with the tiny thing. Before Izumi could react, Omi's wrist flicked in her direction to strike the match against his jacket that she still wore, a brief spark flying before the head lit up into a flame.

The action made her flinch in surprise, momentarily forgetting what his question was as her eyes darted back and forth between her sleeve and the match with widened eyes.

"H-How.."

"Cap gun powder, water, nail varnish." He didn't let her finish as he brought the match to Guo Dian's half of the photo, casually letting it burn in one hand as he motioned for Izumi with the other, telling her to hurry up and answer his question. The old scars on her body ached when her gaze didn't move from the flickering match and the melting picture, but willed herself to break away from the bright flame to avert her attention to the simple ring that Guo Dian had given to her as another present.

"Er.. Ah! There's a lotus emblem inside the ring.." She gasped in surprise, noticing the thin engraving that was touched up with gold. She then flipped the kanzashi combs in hands to see another set of lotus emblems in the top left corners, the black paint protected by a smooth coating of some type of varnish.

A deep intake of breath was heard coming from Omi as he finally dropped the ruined photo of Guo Dian along with the match, casually stepping on the flame with his white shoe to extinguish it before it could catch fire onto any of the rubble that was around. Stepping away, his foot revealed the burnt to a crisp sensitised paper and the dead match in the spot where the ex boyfriend's head used to be.

"'Kay. Good to know. We're done 'ere." The man mumbled as he tucked Izumi's half of the photo in his jacket pocket for the girl to hold onto, wrapping his large hand around the crook of Izumi's elbow to begin pulling her out the bedroom without giving her any time to look at anything else. "Let's go."

"Hey!" Izumi complained, unable to use any strength against Omi to make release her. She tried digging her heels into the floor to make the man let up, but Omi wasn't having it and pulled on her arm to make her stumble forward until she crashed into his side. Izumi groaned in agitation as her nose dug itself into his rib cage, but Omi was left unaffected, his arm moving to go back around her shoulders to escort her out of the abandoned apartment room.

"Can we at least go eat some food before we go back?" She put away the kanzashi in the same pocket Omi put her photo in and wore the black ring on her middle finger, squinting up at the man who was leading her down the hallway and towards the stairwell. "I didn't get to before I visited the office."

He shot a quick glance her way only for him to revert his gaze to the flight of stairs they were going to have to go back down, and made a move to grab Izumi firmly by the waist, hoisting her up into the air for a bridal carry, only to hear her complain again.

He was not going to let her slow them down by going into a corner to heave and catch her breath again. She went limp in Omi's arms just to spite him and make things harder, but his simple answer of 'no' made her shoot up to punch him in the shoulder.

"You're the worst."

#noice #proofreading took me an hour and some to finish #i hate proofreading #hope y'alls like it! part two of chapter 5 will hopefully be out in a few days or more #hopefully there aren't any mistakes left but i wouldn't put it past myself to miss them #wilting lotus #omi fushimi #izumi tachibana #fushimi omi #tachibana izumi #a3!#a3! imagines #a3! act! addict! actors!#A3! Actor Training Game #a3! scenarios #a3! headcanons #sakyo furuichi #itaru chigasaki #ser: mafia au

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thesunnyshow · 4 years ago

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Name: reya

Writing Blog URL(s): @chu-ni

Age: 19

Nationality: african-british

Languages: english, swahili, korean

Star Sign: libra

MBTI: enfp/entp (it always changes lol)

Favorite color: purple!

Favorite food: i really love chicken burgers

Favorite movie: princess and the frog

Favorite ice cream flavor: vanilla!!

Favorite animal: elephants

Go-to karaoke song: fancy - twice

Coffee or tea? What are you ordering? caramel frappe with whipped cream, in general i prefer tea though

Dream job (whether you have a job or not)? secretary general at the UN….or an author

If you could have one superpower, what would you choose? making anyone agree with me and do what i want them to do

If you could visit a historical era, which would you choose? ancient egypt!!

If you could restart your life, knowing what you do now, would you?.....no.

Would you rather fight 100 chicken-sized horses or one horse-sized chicken? neither if i could lmfao but i’d go for 100 chicken sized horses

If you were a trope in a teen high school movie, what would you have been? the nerd who’s actually really pretty after she gets a cool makeover

Do you believe in aliens/supernatural creatures? im not sure about aliens, but i definitely believe in ghosts and spirits.

What are some small things that make your day better? when i can have moments to myself to enjoy my own company. or when someone asks me what i want to eat and they bring it for me 🥺

Fun fact about yourself that not everyone would know? uhm…...probably the fact that i write fanfiction lol..but outside of that! i sing in the shower. and i talk to myself a lot.

What fandom(s) do you write for? nct dream currently, but in the future i want to expand to other groups!

When did you post your first piece? 17th of June 2018.

Do you write fluff/angst/crack/general/smut, combo, etc? Why? i can never write just one genre. predominantly i write fluff with a dash of angst for spice simply because i love a story that has an issue and then having that issue be resolved for a happy ending. when i started my blog i was 17, and so i said i wouldn't write smut. now that i'm older im feeling more and more comfortable writing suggestive content at the very LEAST.. so maybe in the future i might write smut, who knows? i like writing fluff because i like making people feel good, but i like adding angst to it because i feel like the contrast between the two is very *chefs kiss* to me.

Do you write OCs, X Readers, Ships...etc? i only write x readers!

Why did you decide to write for Tumblr? i first got tumblr when i was 13 years old and i was a fresh kpop fan lmfao. i wanted somewhere that shared my interests. of course i discovered x reader fics on here and i was in awe, i guess of how much power writers had in contributing to fandom content and keeping readers satiated. i’d always loved to write and so i’d always wanted to start my own writing blog, and for 2 years i did write for other blogs! it wasnt until 2018 that i finally took the leap and decided to start my own, because i wanted to impact people's emotions and take them on a journey through my writing.

What inspires you to write? what inspires me….teen movies, music!! music is a big one for me, and also the books that i read. i also grew up playing otome games so the plots and writing from those influence my writing a lot.

What genres/AUs do you enjoy writing the most? i really enjoy writing royalty!aus as well as exes!aus. i love to do them cause they require me to build a world and with royalty aus specifically i love weaving together bits of political intrigue, or arranged marriages, etc. its so much fun!!

What do you hope your readers take away from your work? that if this world is too rough or too much, you can always escape from it. it might not be physical, but immersing yourself in a universe that's entirely different for a little while can help soothe you.

What do you do when you hit a rough spot creatively? usually i try and take breaks. the problem with that is that my breaks can go on for longer than i’d like and im trying to fix that. so my other solution is to read read read!! read as much as i can, or go back to books that i loved. ask myself what i liked about the writing, what are some parts that i thought were amazing examples of good writing - i note them down then see if i can apply that to my own work. another thing i do is take a break from writing my longer, fleshed out works and write blurbs! blurbs are a great way for me to write but not feel like its tedious because i don't have to spend as much time on them and it gets me into the groove of writing without feeling stressed out.

What is your favorite work and why? Your most successful? my favourite piece of work is miscommunication. it took me months to write that, even after i lost all the work halfway through, and its the longest piece of work i have written so far, so its kinda like my baby. my most successful is candy jar. its also the work i owe my blog exposure to - it was the first piece i published, and it was also the first piece of writing i did in around 4 years.

Who is your favorite person to write about? i don't have much out for them, but i really enjoy exploring mark’s and jeno’s characters. they're people, but in my work i enjoy analysing them and judging how they’d act in different contexts.

Do you think there’s a difference between writing fanfiction vs. completely original prose? the only difference for me is that fanfiction (depending on the fandom) has some of the stuff fleshed out for you already, such as the world its in. if youre the type to write AUs then the only thing you already have is the characters - the planning, the writing, the drafting, and everything else is still the writer's responsibility. therefore there isn't much of a difference between the two for me.

What do you think makes a good story? a good story, to me, is one that takes me on a journey. it could be any genre, but i like to feel immersed and connected to the characters and the world in it. also aside from the obvious, like good grammar, a good story feels natural to read. i don't feel like skim reading half of it.

What is your writing process like? my writing process consists of me getting inspiration - usually from a song, or a film or a book ive read or a game ive played - i note down my idea and who i want the story to be about, and then bullet point the whole story, with some snippets of particular dialogue i want the reader or the other person to say at certain scenes. i then open another document ( i have a writing app on my phone, called werdsmith, so i use that!) and set a word count goal i want to hit so i can track my progress and start writing the fic, with fleshed out language and exposition. when im done (usually after a couple weeks up to a few months, depends on the length of the plan) i read through it to fix any mistakes, then i transfer it to docs so i can read it again and italicise any areas i feel need it.

Would you ever repurpose a fic into a completely original story? i...don't think so. mainly because the original fiction i read and would like to write for myself is predominantly fantasy, whereas the fanfic i write on my blog is usually non-idol, normal fics.

What tropes do you love, and what tropes can’t you stand? im a SUCKER for enemies to lovers, royalty ofc, “and they were roommates”, and i think superhero aus are really cool but there isnt enough of them :( idol/you as member aus....not feeling her… also abo/werewolf/vampire aus….not feelin em

How much would you say audience feedback/engagement means to you? a LOT. a HUGE amount!! i said before how i like giving my readers somewhere where they can immerse themselves as an escape, even for a short while. hearing about how my work affected them, made them feel, makes me feel less insecure about what im writing and thus more confident to publish it.

What has been one of the biggest factors of your success (of any size)? i’d say reblogs. and also putting out more content. when i first uploaded candy jar i went to my one of my favourite writers (jaeminlore) and asked her if she'd be okay with reading it and giving feedback. to my surprise she loved it and her reblogging it to all her followers is literally what gave me a bunch of followers all of a sudden who loved what i’d written. to keep that momentum i created more and more content, and while i haven't uploaded as often as i've wanted to or written as much as i’d wanted to, i can say i have a good amount of work on my masterlist for people who are looking for more to read.

Do you think fanfic writers get unfairly judged? 100%. fanfic has an unfair reputation for just having bad writing and cringey fics (and i feel like this is because of the way society views the demographics who predominantly consume and create it), when in reality i feel like those who write fanfiction are extremely talented and selfless people. they're on the internet creating content for free for people to enjoy and like any other work of art they're putting time and effort into it. i think it should be respected. any form of art is going to have its good and bad sides.

Do you think art can be a medium for change? hmmm….yes. i feel it can be a way to reflect the thoughts of people and also be a way to inspire people to do more.

Do you ever feel there are times when you’re writing for others, rather than yourself? sometimes. sometimes i feel like i'm forcing myself to write because i feel like if i don't then people will forget about me or they’ll forget about my blog. while what i choose to write about is for me, i feel like the speed of my writing and what im writing isn't to the quality i want it to be cause i feel like i gotta get it out for people to read.

Do you ever feel like people have misunderstood you or your writing at times? i've never felt that way!

Do your offline friends/loved ones know you write for Tumblr? only 2 of my friends know, and i only told them like. a week ago!

What is one thing you wish you could tell your followers? i wish you guys would message me more! i'm quite a sociable person, and i’d love to have regular anons who talk to me 👉🏽👈🏽

Do you have any advice for aspiring writers who might be too scared to put themselves out there? i think one common thing amongst all writers is that we write what we want to read. so don't feel like nobody's gonna read your work, cause somebody will. you gotta act like your work is top tier even if someone says it isn't - always write the best you can, and just do it! like don't even give yourself time to overthink it, write that fic, make it look pretty, upload it onto tumblr and do not be afraid to ask your favourite fic writers to read your work once its up!! i’d be happy to read and give feedback for any fic writers as well so don't feel afraid!

Are there any times when you regret joining Tumblr? ive been on here for 7 years….i grew up on this site lmfao. but i don't think i regret joining tumblr once.

Do you have any mutuals who have been particularly formative/supportive in your Tumblr journey? shes not very active anymore and i miss her very much but user hyuck-s was so supportive and i love her!!

Pick a quote to end your interview with:

she believed she could, so she did.

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