#i think he is hard on Rufus bcos he just sees him as a potential extension of himself

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You also have to take into account that this room was designed to hurt Rufus physically & psychologically ( Rufus is not disabled because of the WEAPON blast, it's because of the L room lacking anything to cushion his arrival, resulting in him getting wounds you would usually get when you get into a car crash)

Even if Shinra sr had affection for him, he was still willing to hurt him as much as he could while forcing Rufus to recognize that he loved him if he want to get out, making it a form of unintentionnal gaslighting.

As silly the slide & the L room is, it portrays well how absolutely complex & messed up an abusive parent/child relationship can be. Being able to hurt people despite the fact you love them is terrifying on its own right & what make it worse is how Shinra sr conceptualized that room for his 5 y old who was trying to butter him up & was worried for him.

he went down the loser chute

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I have noticed that you have been drawing a lot of Rulena as of late (Nothing wrong with that btw! You're the reason I've come to enjoy the ship and love seeing it on my dash!) when before you've drawn Tsengrulena, and was I wondering what drew you into focusing on their relationship?

Hi! Thank you for enjoying my art. It's always nice to see more people getting into this little boat =D

I think what got me into this ship specifically is learning & examining more about Elena's story & personnality (and let's be honest, I'm not good at drawing interactions so when it's three people at the same time, it's gets even more complicated and tiring) and my brain decided to focus on Rulena because of the potential and it's such an underrated ship even among rareships, it needs more love.

Ts/engru has still a good number of people producing art & writing and i was kinda feeling a bit burned out for various reasons. Ts/elena is a rareship but it has it's own litle fanbase & is more popular and I've trouble getting into it bcos I personnally can't see them work out at as a couple (not in the long run at least), in particular after reading the novels unless there's someone playing "the bridge" in-between hence why I can actually see things work out in Ts/engrulena.

I'm a bit sucker for the kindred spirit trope & I've found that there's some similarities in their backstories & motivations and still, both of them are also really different people. I can see softness but also intensity developping between the two. Rufus controlled & enigmatic personnality ( that hide a more emotionnal side) contrast a lot with Elena's klutzy fireball side. They are in a way like ice and fire and equally as ruthless. Steadfast and clever but also really flawed people. I can see all kind of dynamics, interactions & stories developping from there and how they could grow into a power couple.

There's interactions in the novels between the two we don't get to see directly but are cited but there's that sense of trust & respect and there's those little moments like Elena thinking that Rufus deserves to live somewhere "better" than Cliff Resort or Rufus checking on her by the window of his lodge while standing, despite the pain and immediately trying to find fo her something else to do (despite the fact that she did a great job with the stimulants projects) that made me go "aw".

Rufus take her seriously on a professional level but was also never shown dismissing of her feelings. I don't think he would coddle her at the same time (which I feel is something Elena wouldn't accept) & instead do what it takes to have her evolve in her job. Despite her temper, BC shows that Elena is someone open to critiscism as long she doesn't feel berated. And we see the way Rufus tries to advise Tseng in the same game. He is firm but fair tho we can see some frustration at some points from his part and ask for his opinions on the matters.

And when seeing Rufus's personnality in Remake & how he acts around with Cloud, it's hard for me to no think of him not taking some kind of interest in Elena unless they decide to make him a total asshole with her for no reasons.

And idk, I just really like the idea of Rufus gradually having someone who manages to have him feels less guarded around and open up as well, not because Elena is a soft caretaker type, she isn't really but because of her honesty and because she cares fiercely.

Also , I think that they are super hot malewife/girlboss ship and have a lot of horny energy that needs to be satiated lmao.