#i should set this to music
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You know what? You're Absolutely Right
Shanty for Side-Tracked Authors
I set about to write a tale of heroes brave and true, I'd primed my hands and paper for the story to come through- But when my pen was in my grasp, there came a merry knock, And a Sailor I found on my doorstep, to take me down to the docks.
We're going to the docks, me boys, a'sailin' we will go, Upon a ship we'll cast away to sail o'er the fathoms below! Leave ye behind your manuscript and stationery-box: Put out to sea, ye authors: we're going to the docks!
The ship sat in the harbor like a writer at her desk, With neither clue nor inkling as to where her tale'd progress. A harpoon was thrust into my hands as up the plank I walked And it looked a little like the pen I'd left behind for the docks.
We're going to the docks, me boys, a'sailin' we will go, Upon a ship we'll cast away to sail o'er the fathoms below! Leave ye behind your manuscript and stationery-box: Put out to sea, ye authors: we're going to the docks!
We sailed for many a month and day upon that open sea, And our voyage seemed as aimless as my writing had felt to me. I often sat atop the nest, a'drowning in the thoughts Of what I would've written had I not gone down to the docks…
We're going to the docks, me boys, a'sailin' we will go, Upon a ship we'll cast away to sail o'er the fathoms below! Leave ye behind your manuscript and stationery-box: Put out to sea, ye authors: we're going to the docks!
So listen up, ye authors, with your outlines and rough-drafts, Beware the Sailor's knock that comes as you're practicing your craft: Make sure your doors are bolted tight and double-check your locks, For if ye be not careful, you'll be dragged away to the docks!
We're going to the docks, me boys, a'sailin' we will go, Upon a ship we'll cast away to sail o'er the fathoms below! Leave ye behind your manuscript and stationery-box: Put out to sea, ye authors: we're going to the docks!
And what of me? Where am I now? What has become of me? Well me lads, I'm now a sailor on that wide, blue, salty sea My writing I've forsaken, be that for the better (or not) Until I can return to port and run back down to the dock!
We're going to the docks, me boys, a'sailin' we will go, Upon a ship we'll cast away to sail o'er the fathoms below! Leave ye behind your manuscript and stationery-box: Put out to sea, ye authors: we're going to the docks!
"to the docs we go" i say, intending to write
"to the DOCKS we go" says the eighteenth-century sailor lad who lives in my head
i nod in assent. he is clearly wiser than i. to the docks we go
#margin writes#guys it's finally happened. i've written a shanty#this makes absolutely ZERO sense outside of the context but hey. i've never written a song before#i should set this to music#SHANTIES
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figure skating set right now please. thanks
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#GUYS I AM PUTTING OFF WORKING ON MY COSPLAY SOMETHING STUPID. im tireddddd i like sleeepingggff i want to play and drawwwww#after work I literally ate a giant bowl of mac n cheese and climbed into bed. lifestyle choices of a 9 year old#anyways i want figure skaitng set. bad. PJSK HAS A WEIRDLY LOW NUMBER OF ACTUALLY WINTERY SETS... like 3. kind of.#i have some thumbnail sketches but im kind of stumped on composition for them. my idea was a nene focus set#(IF HER NEXT FOCUS ISNT PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THEMED INWILL DIE. BADLY. THEYRE GOING TO AN OPER AHOUSE. PLEADBR)#originally my idea was for nene to be biting a medal i was very sold on it bc i love nenes competitive side#however her outfit is so nice i want it to also be part of the art .. its heavily inspired by that one iconic eunsoo lim dress#from her somewhere in time program iirc. im really undatisfied with emus dress tbh my origimal idea was to give it a phoenix look#but a lot of the firebird/phoenix skating programs have very sleek dresses and i want emus to be fluffy. the balance is hard ..#and since i want her program song to be once upon a dream from sleeping beauty i swerved to make it look a bit like auroras ? but again#it definitely feels like the weakest of everybodys ... maybe i just love her too much and want her to look the best. sorry wxs.#tsukasas outfit is supposed to look like a shooting star. easy. program music moonlight sonata 3rd movement like from dazzling light. easy.#actually i like takahashi daisukes moonlight sonata program its a medley of the 1st and 3rd movement.. i think the calm at the beginning#is best. maybe smth like that.. for his card inhad him doing a haircutter spin but again. the outfits good i want the outfit visible. damn.#ruis the one im very set on even now. girl why are you so phantom of the opera.#it has a lot of beautiful programs to reference but the outfit i didnt really have any solid reference i kind of just balled#my main idea was to make it look a bit like both christine and the phantom.... gender Fluid.#my yapfest... i should be SEWING!!!!!!!!#despite my yapping im not that well versed in figure skating i cant really distinguish jumps i just like it . and medalist#i only do normal skating. bc i played hockey for like 7 years LOLLLL inlove skating though Heart.
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What if I'm the Monster?
(Based on Monster from Epic the Musical, it's incredible, give it a listen)
So! For the past few years, Danny has done nothing but defend Amity Park from Agressive Ghosts, Lunatic Ghost Hunters, and the GIW, all on his own. But no matter what he does, he is always seen as a Monster by the people of the town, just for being a Ghost.
Over the years he has lost a lot.
His Best Friend. His Mentor. His Mom.
Tucker was caught by the GIW and arrested for helping Phantom, and was never heard from again. His Parents still visit the Mayor's office for any word of him, but no one has any idea what happened.
Danny and Clockwork had a falling out after Danny refused to go down his intended path. He wanted to live his own life, one not predetermined by a Time God. Clockwork had told him that he would regret the decision, and left.
And his Mom had died after discovering his secret. She had surprisingly accepted him, but then the GIW had tried to capture him and she decided to defend him, and she got caught in the crossfire.
Every time Danny tried defending the people of Amity Park, he was vilified and hated even more. He would never be a Hero in their eyes, he was no Justice League. He had lost so much just defending them, but he couldn't bring himself to resent them, they didn't know what they were doing, it was how they were supposed to think. He still needed to defend them.
But he could no longer do so acting as the Hero.
Being a Hero stopped him from raiding the base that he assumed Tucker was being held in. Being a Hero led him to disagreeing with Clockworks advice. Being a Hero led to his Mom's death.
So he would be The Monster, instead.
#Dpxdc#Dp x dc#Dc x dp#Dcxdp#Danny Phantom#Dc#Dcu#Epic the Musical#Monster#This is based on the song “Monster” from Epic the Musical#Danny decides that he has had enough being the Hero#The town hates him but he doesn't resent them for it#He still wants to save them and decides that if being a Hero isn't working he just needs to become the Monster instead#Dead Maddie Fenton#Missing Tucker Foley#Idk if he should be dead or not#Danny refused to follow Clockworks advice and let somebody die instead of saving them#He saved the person and accidentally set himself on a bad Timeline#Clockwork is Mad#Big Mad#Go and listen to Epic the Musical#It's genuinely incredible and so are the Animations done by the Talented YouTube Animators like Gigi#Not much DC in this one again but I thought the concept was cool
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so. i just watched most of the new quintonreviews Sam & Cat video and for Reasons i looked up both Goomer and Frankini on ao3 and theres only One Single Fic thats tagged with Goomer/Frankini. fucking criminal.
double criminal for it being tagged as "past Frankini/Goomer" bc the actual relationship focused in the fic is fuCKING GOOMER/DICE. BITING AND KILLING.
#i have seen neither sam & cat or henry danger i just really love Goomer my boy Goomer#although i probably am gonna watch the henry danger musical episode bc Quinton really seemed to enjoy it#and also i love a good musical episode#anyway if i do ever end up writing Victorious/HWU crossover i Will be mentioning Goomer and Frankini in it at some point#mmmmaaybe. depending on how old Frankini is supposed to be. and when i decide to set it. ill have Frankini and Hunt be bitter exes#(bc giving Hunt the most batshit crossover ships is really fun to me)#he & Frankini would have been some super toxic whirlwind romance that ended So horribly and they hate each other#anyway i should go to bed now its past midnight lol
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the tortured poet composer
#stole the caption from oomf on twitter#this is about to be HIS album !!!#moulin rouge#moulin rouge! the musical#moulin rouge broadway#aaron tveit#broadwayedit#aarontveitedit#musicaltheatreedit#moulinrougeedit#*#should i make a set like this but with every tswift album? 🤔
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obsessed with ideas of what a fight between those two would look like...
#update: my brain tried to kill me but it didn't work and also i can legally drive now#cats the musical#my art stuff#munkustrap#the rum tum tugger#i have yapped about this endlessly to people but ill harp on it one more time. i don't think either of them would back down if sufficiently#like. annoyed? set off? by each other#because i think in general situations they'll both back down. munkustrap will back down when it's not worth it and it's better to just let#tugger posture. and tugger will back down if with a bit of posturing still if he can see that munk actually won't budge because#actually fighting him just isn't worth it. like i feel like they have a fairly good sense of which one of them should just let it go in a#given situation#i'm looking at them partially as cats and partially as people lmao. i think in a situation where the arguing topic is one that actually#matters to both of them and they disagree - this drawing is on an argument about griz i thought of fx - they'll be locked in a bit of a#standstill until they can figure themselves out. in this situation the way i have it in my head tugger would back down but he would not wan#to. he'd just know munkustrap's standing his ground on this one and there's nothing he can do about it so he'll just turn tail and#scamper off eventually#cue silent treatment for a week or something#and then they take a few naps together and life is beautiful again#bazinga
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can we all agree for a minute that games dont need to look any more real? like we're at a point where you can sometimes guess a video game scene is from a live action film if you see it blind, we dont need to make them any more detailed, because it just drives up the costs of the consoles that run them
game devs need to stop making graphics engines more advanced and start optimizing their shit better cause if you include potato settings for a game and my custom-build pc starts whirring up like a fucking bomb, something is deeply wrong there
#cyspeaks#still mad that the ffxvi demo refused to run well even on lowest settings#like it should not be that hard to make your game accessible in the graphical sense#i dont give a fuck how accurate the lip syncing is or what pores on a character's face are dirty#i care about the gameplay the story and the music. usually in that order unless the music is exceptional (see: sonic games)
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favourite stupid relationship dynamic: idiots who would immediately protect and defend the other but never themself
#still thinking about how lxl just takes whatever life throws at them without fighting back (esp in the lxl movie)#so it was up to the other (mainly yujiro) to do the protecting (of aizo) since he was clearly not going to do anything about it#poor yujiro never fought back against the longleg/shortleg until aizo was brought up… no sense of self-preservation with that one#‘you can mess with me but not my bf!!!!!’ kind of energy#ig aizo did kind of defend yujiro in the [redacted] anime ep 4 nonsense and pointless scandal scene but that’s about it…#give aizo more chances to play the hero for his cute bf!!!!! the princess carry wasn’t enough!!!!#though. ngl it’s kinda funny how aizo’s always portrayed as the husband and yujiro the wife in their r/s (see: meoto)#but yujiro is always the one fighting for aizo’s honour. l&k novel (i think; still havent read it). lxl movie. chizu hallway scene (kind of)#and even in honeypre he got aizo the werewolf costume (instead of the pumpkin). he was the one who gave aizo a gift on white day (like a bf)#he even turned aizo into a worried wife when he (the bumbling husband) wandered out till late in kyoto to look for a *phone strap*#hm. well. im not sure what the point im trying to make is other than the fact that lxl are idiots for each other ig#they may be really really stupid but they love(?) and support each other (in a sense)… two menaces in a pod.#they should just get married (again)#though speaking of lxl marriage remember when that music magazine spread misinfo about how meoto was set in the sengoku era#and everyone believed it? the mv sure shocked everyone in more ways than one lmaooooooo#lxl twt was on fire that day. ‘horns??? a fantasy setting????? what happened to the sengoku era?????’ it was so funny you h a d to be there#but. hm. we’ve had quite a lxl content drought… disregarding the [redacted] mv they havent been seen in 4 months#throwing out a guess that they’ll get a new song for a winter comiket cd or sth. idk#sure hope that lxl do not get a new song or mv before kimikawaii release though bc that’d be unfairrrrrrrrr
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Isekai Polites snippet 2
When Polites had started wearing his glasses, he had begged Odysseus for a piece of the best cloth he had. Just a small square, leftovers from the many tunics and drapes and other sewing-related items the palace had.
To clean my glasses with, he had claimed.
Odysseus had given him that and more by also carving a small container, the inside lined with more of the soft, expensive cloth he and Eurylochus had spent hours scouring the markets for because they refused to settle for giving Polites scraps.
“Eurylochus and I thought you’d want one. To keep it safe when you’re not using it,” Odysseus had said.
Polites had, predictably, tackled Odysseus, and they had rolled and wrestled on the floor, laughing, while an exasperated Eurylochus stood at the side, holding Polites’s glasses and ‘glass case’ with careful, careful hands.
At that time, it had been the most genuine show of trust Polites had ever given him. Those glasses had been the last piece of home Polites had, or so he claimed. They had never really found out where he had come from, only that it was far beyond the sea. He’d been the only survivor of a shipwreck when he was young, and the glasses had been one of the few things he hadn’t lost.
The moment Polites and Odysseus had met, they had gotten along immediately. Polites had looked at Odysseus as if there was nothing Odysseus couldn’t do, and it was a faith so unwavering that Odysseus was helplessly charmed and determined to be worthy of it.
But for Eurylochus, there was no instant, unwavering faith. He and Polites were friends, there was no denying it, but it had taken time for Polites to stop looking at Eurylochus strangely, whatever barricade hidden behind his eyes crumbling as time chipped away at its defenses.
He could still remember it, even years later. The turning point of their friendship.
The way Polites had stared at Odysseus, still seeming surprised at every show of care despite their friendship. The way he had taken the gift with gentle hands, turning it over before pulling off the glasses from his face, placing it in the wooden container, and snapping the little box closed.
“Thank you, my friends,” Polites had said softly.
The way Polites had, a moment later, said slowly, but with growing brightness, “Eury—“ And Eurylochus had jerked, because Polites had never called him that before. Polites lips had twitched into a grin, his eyes shining with laughter. “Hold my glasses.”
The way he had so easily dropped it into Eurylochus’s hands when, before, Polites had rarely ever let anyone else touch it.
Even startled, Eurylochus had caught it. What else could he do, when he had finally been shown that faith he thought only Odysseus would ever be given?
And then he groaned as, immediately right after, Polites had tackled Odysseus into a very rough hug that sent them both to the floor in a laughing mess of limbs that Eurylochus avoided with a tired sigh. But he kept Polites’s glasses safe, and he strived to be worthy of that trust since then.
#epic the musical#polites#odysseus epic#eurylochus epic#polites epic#mw#isekai!polites#this is still crack and i write this for fun#might take me like. two months tho hahahaha#to write the whole complete set#this is a crackfic and should not be taken seriously#but it was fun to imagine
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it's been one of those days. let me share my alive/dead(?) girl detectives playlist for your sapphic yearning needs
#it's happy then silly then sad then gutting <3 as it should#palasaki nation rise up#i'm always caught lacking#crystal palace#niko sasaki#palasaki#crystiko#dead boy detectives#dbda#dbda playlist#dbda music#music#cool tunes#eh i set up this tag a long time ago. now it's kind of cringe but. i am free#Spotify
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idk if i ever got around to just commenting how strange it was that juto and rei swapped palettes in their bp outfits but it’s strange that they did lol and now we got juto straight up wearing his blazer the way rei wears his fur coat in the mtc album art
and now i’m really wondering if there was more to those duos in the block party lol
#vee queued to fill the void#like i’m SURE i’ve rambled at least about ramuda and saburo somewhere#but what i had been thinking about with rei and juto was the fact that they are both conmen using a higher power for their own benefit#i can’t remember which it’s in it’s either in uncrushable or in an mtc song i think#but juto has a verse where he goes ‘i’m the og gangster’ and bc of that verse#i’ve been hc that juto was a member of the yakuza himself if not a street gangster before his dead partner swept him off his feet lol#like juto is not a cop bc he likes the force he’s a cop as means for an end to create his ideal world#very similarly to rei lol he played the long game with chuuoku not from a place that believes in what chuuoku stands for#(tho i’m sure at some point it could have been like that lol)#he’s using them and everything he has to create the world he wants to see#and i’ve been wondering with this album set being callbacks to their og solos musically#(nagosaka’s tho SHOULD be callbacks to their 2nd solos which is v important for this next tag in the tag vomit lol)#bsb and count the money are in the blues genre so theoretically awake and whatever’s rei’s next solo will have the same genre#jiro and kuukou should both have rock solos what i’m saying is that the bp pairs are also connected by the music lol#i just can’t tell if it’s deeper than a hint for shared music genres lol
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Rarely post about my actual life or stuff I’m doing but I get to see Belle and Sebastian live in just 3 short days!!! I’ve been looking forward to this for months, they’re probably my favourite band of all time and I’ve been listening to them since I was an actual toddler. I’m the most excited I’ve been in like a year and will absolutely update afterwards.
#belle and Sebastian#music#live music#I rarely go to concerts because of sensory issues but I’ve decided it’s super worth it in this instance#I have a whole ass list of songs I hope they play I should just make the set list at this point#eeeeeeeek
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Happy birthday ritsuka uenoyama the entirety of given DOSENT DESERVE U AT ALL
#the narrative the characters the fandom and kizu should be ashamed of themselves ngl#the way you gave your VERY ALL to save mafuyu at his darkest being there at his lowest helping him to find light again#even if you think you are no better than the other even when you dont know his whole story even if you feel no better than his first#you still gave your very best for him by finishing his deceased lover's song and sang it for him#only for your character arc your development your issues insecurities and trauma to be ignored shunned and discredited#your lover was your first but you knew you weren't his first#you knew he loved someone way before you and now that he's gone your lover still clutched on to the past#but you helped him moved on from the darkness and give him the light through music#you ended up filling the void he left for your lover and everyone else only for you to become a shadow of him#the fact that you a main character is constantly set aside and had no character arc whatsoever just to make way for a deceased lover#you are often demonized and hated and told that his lover and his previous lover should've been together and he would choose him over you#and when you asked him one thing he then ignored you and you tired to reach out to him only for them to blame you as you are the problem#seeing you often makes me sad because you did SO MUCH of the story and the narrative would just trash you out#but when someone calls out that you deserved better the same people will stake them saying that you dont undertand the narrative at all#if they cant appreciate your efforts just because you are not him then i would#if you were my oc i would give u the amount of love they never gave#if you were my oc i would develop and expand your character arc so that i would know you better and your ambitions#if you were my oc i would make sure you would be as loved as everyone else#and if you were my oc i would create someone to love you understand your troubles and appreciate you efforts way more than your lover could#the fandom may love a previous lover he loved but you ritsuka uenoyama shall be mine#dont mind the corny ass tags i just feel like it lmfao#uenoyama deserves better#uenoyama ritsuka#ritsuka uenoyama#given#given manga#given anime#bl animanga
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Listened to Eternal Dance Engine ~ Shall We Dance!! one too many times (and then like a hundred more times afterwards for good measure) and dropped everything to go draw this. Also tried out a new shading process which kinda did what I wanted it to but I’ll keep experimenting
#art#len’en#tsubakura enraku#tsurubami senri#suzumi kuzu#that’s right!! I deliberately left the front of Tsubakura’s hat out of frame and mixed their outfit details so it could be either of them#quite excited about that I think it’s fun#to note: I don’t seriously ship Tsubakura and Tsurubami (hedging my bets on the possibility they could turn out to be related)#(and also like I’m me I don’t generally care about shipping much)#but I think it’s funny to joke about and frankly I think it’s hot when characters are manipulative#anyway title of this piece ‘shall we dance’ subtitle no. 1 ‘fellas is it gay to when the imposter is sus’ subtitle no. 2 ‘all job interview#/firings should be set to threatening latin dance music’#also not exaggerating between Tsurubami’s and Suzumi’s version of Eternal Dance Engine I really might have listened to them for eight hours#I think I like Suzumi’s a little less overall but the last minute slapppps#digital
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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Does anyone else get the thing of like you're already so obsessed with something that you're like it would probably be good if I was less obsessed with this / I need to shut up about this but at the same time you constantly find yourself thinking I have Got to get more obsessed with this. I have Got to get more obsessed
#its the thing of like i really want to spend more time on this but also i feel like i shouldnt spend all my time on it so i try to reel it#in but im not particularly good at doing that anyway so i really am like i should just say fuck it and immerse myself even more however#its hard because the more i do that the harder it is to reign it in when i do actually need to#but theres so much i want to research and learn and also do and spend time on where im like i have Got to dedicate more of my time to this#while at the same time being like this is already taking up so much of my time but also because i worry that it is i end up wasting a lot o#time that i could be spending getting more obsessed with this thing. soooo idk but i dont know if that makes sense#its like how im also really bad at working on music becsuse i know when i sit down i will lose several hours so i avoid it but then i end u#not playing music...but i would be happier if i let myself just lose myself in it but then idk. im bad at like Setting aside time for thing#its always all or nothing which is frustrating!!!!! but its like my worry is i wont be productive in other ways but im not anyways so#it doesnt actually matter... sooooo yeah i have Got to get weirder . i have got to just let myself get weirder asap#i think this is also part of the late diagnosis thing of i spent my Entire life forcibly repressing my interests and cutting myself off fro#them after being told i need to. but actually i can just be weird but its really hard to let yourself do that without shame but it is#unjustified in this instance therefore i should take the opposite action and just keep doing it sooo im gonna do that. bye!#i am gonna go listen to bootlegs for approximately 5 hours
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