#i see it as a positive i guess
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so i showed my mom the pics i had saved, including the guy i called "my boyfriend" and she explicitly said "aw you and your boyfriend" and so i said "i dont really remember much about him honestly" to try and prompt her to tell me literally anything and she went dead silent before moving on. like??? hello???? am i just reading into it too much or??????? like i know he was dads friend but he was around enough that surely my mom would be able to say something about why i liked him so much??
anyways on the plus side i had a feeling i havent really had in like, a decade; the urge to just fall asleep, content, with the lights on.
thats something i used to do consistently as a kid. i'd read until i got dead tired and then just fell asleep with the light on, either using a blanket or my book to cover my eyes (sorry sib2, that mustve annoyed the hell out of you). i was just laying here in bed drawing and to have that feeling again felt very nice, very good, very happy, and very satisfying.
#vent#rambles#cw grooming#??#again i have no idea#we unpacking all sorts of shit here#both figuratively and literally#i see it as a positive i guess#its nice to feel that hard to describe feeling#it makes me feel more like me#ya know?#trauma#trauma cw#trauma tw#childhood trauma
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did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back
#fascinating stuff. let’s see if i (person with the worst executive dysfunction when it comes to doing laundry) remember it#i literally have this issue where i’ll let dirty clothes pile up in the laundry basket for an entire month#like it takes me that long to get around to it#and then- who would’ve thought- i find that i don’t have anything good to wear. strange!#finally did it last night and i’m like ohhh that was so difficult but the payoff finally#augh#peach rambles#hall of fame i guess#shut up about socks. idc.#this was a fun positivity post of sorts it’s about overcoming executive dysfunction#derailing into jokes about losing socks is. it’s not horrible but just boring and annoying#it was supposed to be celebration!! and encouragement!!!
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stayed gone but you're the sinners watching/listening
(AKA I spend an unnecessary amount of time editing)
#osrs.mp4#screen positions in the beginning are accurate to the transitions btw cause you can see specifically which screen it is in the transitions#also it starts at the news broadcast because NO ONE heard vox's intro. cameras weren't rolling yet#hardest part was trying to figure out how to do the alastor parts LMAO#guess vox can look like he's struggling against nothing and screaming at a radio why not#hazbin vox#hazbin hotel vox#vox#vox hazbin#vox hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#alastor#alastor hazbin#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor the radio demon#radiostatic#staticradio#onewaybroadcast#I know it's just stayed gone but who in these tags wouldn't want to see stayed gone right#hazbin hotel#1k#2k#5k
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There is a theory that the way children play serves as a means to simulate and prepare them for the tasks they'll take on as adults. So for all the narrative weight both Jinx and the story give the boxing machine at the arcade it would never have prepared her or the kids to take on Piltover.
What are the two things that Piltovans excel at over their Zaunite counterparts to keep the hierarchy? Weapons and technological development.
When you look at the way Piltovans invest in their children, they don't prioritize hand to hand/melee combat training. Piltovans focus on giving their children experiences in handling firearms, a pursuit that is both leisure sport for the wealthy and a key offense against dissenting Zaunites.
And from the show notes even Jayce, whose family occupies the upper middle class, was sent on educational excursions across Runeterra to explore the world and learn what it had to offer. Without Jayce's education abroad he would never have been inspired to pursue the concept hextech.
It's no wonder that the two figures that are set to be Piltover's biggest threats from Zaun are Jinx and Viktor, becasue they engaged in the same kinds of games and activities as their Piltovan counterparts.
Jinx didn't have an entire forest preserved to help her practice her sharpshooting like the high houses of Piltover, but she did excel in the few games at The Rift (the arcade) that built on her talents. She's the only Zaunite thus far who's long distance offensive is a strong counter to Piltover's forces.
Viktor couldn't travel the world like Jayce did, but for better or worse he managed to stumble into an opportunity to get real opportunity in research not offered to his peers through Singed. It was through that experience that Viktor knew to turn to Singed when he was at the end of his rope, and the consequences of that will be fully realized in season 2.
Ironically, the kind of skill the boxing game champions is only good for keeping other Zaunites in line. Vander's days of fighting Piltover were way behind him when we first met him, and Vi spends season 1 primarily fighting other Zaunites. It's no surprise the Zaunites who embody the old ideal of strength in Zaun that the game portrays, Vi and Vander, are largely at the mercy of Piltover and end up collaborating with them to avoid further harm.
Zaun's future as an independent city-state couldn't happen if they stuck to their old ideals. The people who stand a chance against Piltover are the ones that not only succeed but excel at playing Piltover's games against them.
#arcane#arcane meta#jinx arcane#vi arcane#caitlyn kiramman#jayce talis#viktor arcane#i also imagine silco heavily invested in jinx's technical education once he took her in#vander ensured the kids were warm safe and loved but he wasn't planning on advancing them or zaun in anyway like silco was#i guess there's also a parenting metaphor in here about the way a parent can harm their children based from their own trauma and ambition#i also think it's interesting that the boxing game kept score for the players and immediately ranked them for all to see#but the shooting game didn't do that instead players had to manually track their own score against each other#who knows how many kids in zaun actually know math that well to keep up with the game and their competitors#the boxing game also has more space in the arcade and is more centrally positioned for other people to view and admire the plaayers#there's more incentive in zaun for kids to play the boxing game rather than shoot
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↳ You never know when the good you do may come back around.
#went back to rewatch this scene after i heard and wanted to CRYYYYY#niko sasaki#dead boy detectives#dbd spoilers#dead boy detectives spoilers#dbd#also i went through way too much trouble to make these and then went 'wait. im not that smart there's no way im the only one who saw this'#went to the tag. saw at least two other gifsets that already did it.#was like.......WELL. THREE CAKES I GUESS.#mine isn't even good but i put way too much time into just getting the stuff for it so. throws this at you. im crying#at the scene not the cakes. i mean also the cakes but more the scene.#like.... how long has it been for her....#does she ever see them again between her death and this scene? or has she waited a very long time indeed?#will they ever find out it's her? why/how is she in this position? etc. weeping.#gert giffer#i guess
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Hi,
JIN LING IS NOT HOW AN ABUSED CHILD BEHAVES. He sasses at JC and he KNOWS he's all bark no bite. The instances of JC hitting JL in canon are EXCEPTIONAL. If JC hit JL regularly, he would NOT have said "Not even my uncle hits me!" at WWX. That shit STICKS. You are all stupid
#jc#jiang cheng#jiang cheng positive#jin ling#jl#inspired by a jc anti that crossed my “for you” tab#also personal rant ahead:#my dad hit me TWICE and i only remember one of the times#admittedly i didn't see him regularly#but TWICE. and i only remember one of those instances#my stepdad didn't hit often but he yelled#and guess what?#the instances my dad hit me are insignificant to me#i remember being upset in the moment but barring that. zero. nada. and i love him#the yelling stuck to me like a leech#so yeah. abused kids don't sass at their abuser like that#abused kids don't use “not even my caregiver hits me!” as a gotcha#jl is not the healthiest#but considering all the baggage jgy and jc have#THEY DID A GREAT JOB#AND THEY DID BREAK THE CYCLE#jl bratting off to jc who never knew how to talk to jfm#jl being spoiled by jgy who was loathed by jgs#THEY WERE GOOD PARENTAL FIGURES#jin guangyao
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@mcyt-yuri-week Day 5, Rose/Thorns I never stop thinking about SL episode 8 never ever
#gempearl#pearlgem#shinyduo#shiny duo#trafficshipping#I tried to word it a few different ways but I feel like its still so easy to interpret this as negative but noo its positive#because the thorns here are referencing the scarlet persona that Pearl's embraced. being left with nothing but it - the thorns#But it's not that Gem likes her just for her scarlet persona. She likes her for her. Pearl's not just thorns#Gem doesnt really care about the “thorns” or the petalless rose stem. she cares about Pearl. She thinks Pearl's cool (thumbs up emoji)#Pearl changes into her scarlet fit like she has many times before with the purpose of scaring people & leaning into her feared witch thing#but Gem's just like “omg slayyy” and its the best. And to Pearl it's like whoag#Gem never saw how she changed. Never saw her be ostracized and the aftermath#But she thought that the Pearl she did see in SL was cool and so easily accepted her when Pearl herself though herself so unacceptable#she got love from the Mounders and BigB and that warms my heart but Gem being a newcomer immediately embracing Pearl is just#it hits different#whoa jimbo way too many tags hghghgh#mcytyuriweekvalentines#at first I thought about smth like “where the others saw thorns you saw a rose” but I thought it was more fitting this way#I guess you guys be the judge of that haha idk what Im saying#tubby art
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Watching tristamp: oh vash has mommy issues
Watching trigun 98: oh vash has MOMMY ISSUES
Reading Trimax: Actually Vash went through an extremely traumatising event at a young age and had to face the realities of humans. Rem was there, as the twins' mother figure, to represent the good. Reconciling humanity's differences is what made him how he is, and he projects that onto Rem. In this essay I will-
#trigun#vash the stampede#wolfwood#vash#trigun stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun maximum#trimax#tristamp#trigun 98#tri98#i guess it still kinda counts as mommy issues if he projects#i just don't think any other media does this background justice#is so much more complicated than “Well Rem said-”#he's not human but he is a person#it's HARD to keep going after lossing faith in humanity#it's HARD to see what he did and forgive them#and goddammit it's HARD to forgive them again and again and again#and stay POSITIVE (outwardly) the whole time#sorry for this novel in the tags#trigun spoiler#trimax spoiler#i just fucking love him#okay????
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One day I accidentally saw the spoiler and people were like "oh, but it was without a context, we have to wait for it!" and it made me truly curious to see what the whole scene was about
And let me tell you it turns out I was perfectly happy not knowing what it was about
(But you know, curiosity killed the cat. And I loved this scene, it was positively heartbreaking, angst in its finest form. Exactly opossite to what I expected to happen knowing this season was supposed to be quiet and gentle and romantic)
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens season 2#good omens spoilers#go season 2 spoilers#digital#animation#my art#crowley#david tennant#aziraphale#michael sheen#ineffable husbands#not exactly quiet and peaceful and romantic#wonderful scene though by the way#definitely worth watching and crying over it#and yes I rotoscoped otherwise it would take me days#I don't have days#I also didn't have good quality pictures#so by rotoscoping i mean marking position of the body and guessing how should I draw and shade it#you can see it by the awful quality of some frames
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normaltown pt 2 also HOW HAS IT ALREADY BEEN 1 YEAR
IT HAS BEEN. SO LONG SINCE I LAST DREW THESE TWO. and it's barely even them tbh WHATEVER
i had the brilliant idea to combine the personality swaps with my anniversary post, so bam. the ship that got me playing the sims 2 in the first place and instead here i am frolicking the fields with tanmeric and tycutio every single day 😭 sighhhh i have tarnished their name, their reputation... how will they ever recover... i'm sorry pasnerv nervscal pavorious anxious-curiosity pascal x nervous i love you i love you
neways. it's been a rocky 2023 irl, but on here everyone was literally so damn kind. there was such COOL inspiring art i saw (i literally would not have improved as much as i did without it) and i ended up making the bestest buds ever and met other awesome people too ^_^!! so thank you to everyone in this gay ass fandom 💝💘💗
here's the og art btw OMG DON'T LOOK!!!!!! 🤢🤢😬😓
who gave this old man the camera smh
HE'S SO 😞😞💓💓💓💓
#ts2 fanart#<- throwback to when i used to tag my art this. i became so lazy 🥱#nervous subject#pascal curious#tycho curious#strangetown#shart#sims 2#i don't think it's really registered in my mind that it's ACTUALLY BEEN A YEAR. THAT'S INSANE#i remember checking my phone a while after posting my og fanart and seeing those first 4 notifications... legendary feeling#coming from twitter where 0 people gave a SHIT and it was so isolating 😢 (plus there barely was/is a sims 2 fandom there anyway)#just realized nerv's left arm is in the exact same position in both pieces#art imitates art i guess
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what i like especially about the pronouns in the goblin emperor is that this language doesn't just have the T-V distinction (aka informal vs. formal second-person pronouns, in this case 'thou' vs. 'you'), it also has informal and formal first-person pronouns. having BOTH of these distinctions in the same language lets you fine-tune your tone by mixing and matching. with only one axis of formality, when you use informal pronouns, are you being familiar in an intimate way, or in an insolent or dismissive way? when you use formal pronouns, are you being polite or standoffish? you can't tell just from the pronouns; there's ambiguity. but a language where you can use a formal first-person pronoun in the same sentence as an informal second-person pronoun allows you to distance yourself (via the formal first) while also being familiar (via the informal second), thereby achieving the conversational tenor known to linguists as Fuck Thee Specifically.
#just kidding i don't know what linguists call that tenor. or any tenors. i'm not totally positive what a tenor even is#but i can't let that stop me from writing a jokey post on tumblr dot com#register is a very interesting area of linguistics that i know very little about#so i'm probably revealing the depths of my vast ignorance here to all the sociolinguists who surely hang on my every word#but i've always thought of the formal/informal pronoun thing as being about two things: intimacy-distance & rudeness-politeness#and of course you can usually tell from context whether a formal pronoun is meant to indicate distance or politeness#(plus distance and politeness are related to each other (to various degrees depending on culture))#but it seems like it would be cool to have a built-in alignment chart of sorts just for pronoun combos#instead of prep jock nerd goth...why not try intimate self-effacing polite superior?#the goblin emperor#pronouns#register#sociolinguistics#my posts#f#anyway i know i said i wasn't going to reread the goblin emperor...but guess what. lol#and i edited my tags on that earlier post but fyi the language DOES distinguish between plural and formal singular pronouns#i had said i thought it used the same pronouns for plural and formal but i just wasn't paying close enough attention#so anyway i just reread the part where maia is talking to setheris in formal first and informal second#and you can see setheris going ohhh shit. oh shit oh shit oh shit#i'm in biiiiiig trouble#you sure are dude. that's the Time to Grovel signal#it's interesting because at the very beginning of the book when i first saw the formal first used i just thought it was the royal we#because i knew the main character was supposed to be royalty#but then EVERYONE was doing it. so it's not the royal we it's just the formal we#however. this does make me realize that the way the royal we would function in a language that retains the t-v distinction#is the same way i'm describing here. it's just reserving that particular tone (i'm better than you and am displeased with you)#for royalty only. which makes sense given royalty's whole deal
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i have a very important ask sitting in my inbox suggesting a Christmas-themed f/o who i know will make me absolutely insane when i watch their source material...so i wanted to post my other Christmas-themed f/os 🙈💖 anyone else have any festive blorbos? 🎅❄️🎄
#Snow Miser is an absolute given. look at him 😳#Buddy the Elf is my FAVOURITE who i would absolutely die for and is about as close to kinning as i've ever come 😂#the Grinch is. largely carnal#and yes you see it. i did choose Hermey the Elf from the terrifying Island of Misfit Toys movie#i adored it as a kid and always had the biggest crush on him 🙈🙈🙈#AND I KNOW I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE BECAUSE I'VE SEEN THE SELFSHIP ART-#bonus points if anyone can guess who the character sitting in my inbox is. i'm positive a few of you are feral about him#snow miser#buddy the elf#the grinch#hermey the elf#the year without a santa claus#elf#how the grinch stole christmas#rudolph the red nosed reindeer#the island of misfit toys#rankin bass#starleskatalks#christmas
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Wild how we know that Elizabeth Woodville was officially appointed to royal councils in her own right during her husband’s reign and fortified the Tower of London in preparation of a siege while 8-months pregnant and had forces gathering at Westminster “in the queen’s name” in 1483 – only for NONE of these things to be even included, let alone explored, in the vast majority of scholarship and historical novels involving her.
#lol I don't remember writing this - I found it when I was searching for something else in my drafts. But it's 100% true so I had to post it.#elizabeth woodville#my post#Imo this is mainly because Elizabeth's negative historiography has always involved both vilification and diminishment in equal measure.#and because her brand of vilification (femme fatale; intriguer) suggests more indirect/“feminine” than legitimate/forceful types of power#It's still bizarre though-you'd think these would be some of the most famous & defining aspects of Elizabeth's life. But apparently not#I guess she only matters when it comes to marrying Edward and Promoting Her Family and scheming against Richard#There is very lacking interest in her beyond those things even in her traditionally negative depictions#And most of her “reassessments” tend to do diminish her so badly she's rendered utterly irrelevant and almost pathetic by the end of it#Even when some of these things *are* mentioned they're never truly emphasized as they should be.#See: her formal appointment in royal councils. It was highly unconventional + entirely unprecedented for queens in the 14th & 15th century#You'd think this would be incredibly important and highlighted when analyzing late medieval queenship in England but apparently not#Historians are more willing to straight-up INVENT positions & roles for so many other late medieval queens/king's mothers that didn't exist#(not getting into this right now it's too long...)#But somehow acknowledging and discussing Elizabeth's ACTUAL formally appointed role is too much for them I guess#She's either subsumed into the general vilification of her family (never mind that they were known as 'the queen's kin' to actual#contemporaries; they were defined by HER not the other way around) or she's rendered utterly insignificant by historians. Often both.#But at the end of the day her individual role and identity often overlooked or downplayed in both scenarios#and ofc I've said this before but - there has literally never been a proper reassessment of Elizabeth's role in 1483-85 TILL DATE#despite the fact that it's such a sensational and well-known time period in medieval England#This isn't even a Wars of the Roses thing. Both Margaret of Anjou and Margaret Beaufort have had multiple different reassessments#of their roles and positions during their respective crises/upheavals by now;#There is simply a distinct lack of interest in reassessing Elizabeth in a similar way and I think this needs to be acknowledged.#Speaking of which - there's also a persistent habit of analyzing her through the context of Margaret of Anjou or Elizabeth of York#(either as a parallel or a foil) rather than as a historical figure in HER OWN RIGHT#that's also too long to get into I just wanted to point it out because I hate it and I think it's utterly senseless#I've so much to say about how all of this affects her portrayal in historical fiction as well but that's going into a whole other tangent#ofc there are other things but these in particular *really* frustrate me#just felt like ranting a bit in the tags because these are all things that I want to individually discuss someday with proper posts...
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Concept: LQR big naturals but also with the flattest ass. Make him a titty dorito
Lan Qiren Breasted Boobily down the stairs of Cloud Recess
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#poorly drawn mdzs#MDZS#wei wuxian#lan qiren#jiang cheng#nie huaisang#lan wangji#lan xichen#bonus comic#The trio gets away with all the hijinks because the sound of their headmaster's big baps alert them to his positioning#and provide bountiful shade#ANON.....I am so sorry for how long I had you waiting for a reply#I wanted to wait until I had introduced NHS and it took a while to get to that point#I bounced back and forth between whether this was funnier with or without the twin jades being present but I like them being there#their inclusion makes it more relevant to where we are at in the story#and i guess this sets up the next comic (which had its spot stolen by this) pretty well?#I don't know if LQR's honkers are gonna stick around in my comics; even if it makes for good comedy#I so deeply love the big naturals meme. So of *course* I was going to draw this#Oh Oh OH Speaking *of*#theres one tumblr user who i see in my activity feed who always makes my day more than anyone else#If you're out there....yodas big naturals.....Thank you for making me laugh
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Okay heres the finished one! Had Lost at Sea on repeat while drawin this
#alan wake 2#alan wake 2 spoilers#i guess#miranda is drawing#I was gonna fix the bullet hole position and then got so excited I finished the papers falling with him I forgot but I’m not changing it#also the lyrics from lost at see talking about if it’s a lighthouse or my glowing eyes and it’s like am I a monster of the deep#so I gave him scratch’s eyes from the profiling headshot and left the left one white because you can’t see it in the headshot#idk they were stuck in my head#and the lighter water around him is like a lighthouse’s light shining in the dark#I just wanted to share my thought process 👉👈 if anyone was interested
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Ah. He’s kind
#guess whos watching the one piece anime now….#zolu#monkey d. luffy#one piece#op fanart#not me strategically positioning my tags so you see the most important 2 first or anything#the first one isnt that important#but i thot u guys should know anyways#no wait it IS important cause u see it gives u the needed context to know that this is actually a screenshot redraw of luffy being gay#i could have just said it in the post but i had such a cute caption u kno???? i cudnt ruin it!!!!!
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