#i really REALLY wanna know if im right on the future he saw because thatll be SUCH an interesting narrative

[peridoxikal-redux]

Have you played the new chapter of the future saga for xenoverse 2? If so thoughts on it?

Hihi yes I have!! (I've been so distracted with the DQ3 remake that I keep forgetting to respond to everything OTL )

Let me just say... I love being right!

There was just something in that trailer that screamed "Fu isn't himself now" and Ch2 basically confirmed that. He may say he chose to become this way, but its likely him talking under the influence of his own experiments.

Plus, it looks like this version of him with Ultra Supervillain will likely be a future DLC character given I noticed he had a lot of completely new voicelines that you don't hear on his base moveset + things offered with customization. He's certainly much more mocking and even sounds more....pained? At least in the dub?

Of course, this is an arena fighter, somebody's gonna sound hurt eventually, but this seemed like more than normal. Taking into account that Jiren sounded like he was in a fair bit of pain from US throughout the story, I fear US may also be hurting Fu on some level alongside its altering of his personality. (US seems to latch onto aspirations of the user and drive them to extremes.)

As for what Fu saw in the future that would drive him to do this and start distancing himself, my biggest guess is that he saw a bad future. Most likely, judging from a lot of factors, it may either be a future where the cac/player character dies (likely from his own experiments), or that something the cac does ends up ruining everything for him or even KILLING him. These are just my guesses though. I'm holding onto the fact that he had mentioned wanting a rivalry like Goku & Vegeta's with the cac in ch1, and even though he claimed he was joking...he's not. You can really tell.

I haven't played with the JP audio yet but his tone throughout most of ch2 had me concerned since it was a clearly intentional choice for him to lose his pep outside of the times he's putting up a front.

Tl;dr: I called it and now I can't wait for ch3. Not to psychoanalyze or whatever but I just Know my faves so like..

Man...the cruel irony that US is turning him into what his uncle wanted too.

[dulharpa]

this is for hayley! @whistlingwillows a dear friend <3333

it’s meant to be a birthday present haha. i just want to shower you in love;;; so thought maybe i could go through as many of your fics and comment on them :^)))

(TO EVERYONE ELSE: please go to @whistlingwillows blog and read her fics!!! they are SO FCKIN GOOD AND AMAZING AND UGH HER MIND (it’s a lot of mcu and her bucky and steve fics are a*. i DEFINITELY RECOMMEND))

i wish you a VERY happy birthday and i hope we stay friends for many more years <3333333333 

i’m going through your masterlist heehee ;)))

ah first off, nice theme! i never could rlly see it before because i’m always on mobile heehee. also sorry for not reviewing them before??? i don’t usually read fics on tumblr as you’ve probably guessed;;

anyways, IM GON REVIEW THE SHIT OUT OF THESE >:DDDD

far from home -  bucky x stark sister!reader

firstly, i like how youre introducing the reader from buckys pov, like you can sort of already gather what shes like from them

‘Bucky can hear Tony’s soft inhale, feel the intensity of the man’s glare directed at Steve. He shouldn’t be eavesdropping, but a twitch of muscle would be enough to alert both men that he’s here. With the amount of tension crackling in the air, a brush against the wall would be equivalent to a thousand cymbals crashing in cacophony.’

IM CRYING ALREADY. the imagery in here is GLORIOUS. your tone here is so fitting! oo and the alliteration here is perfecto

ooooooo!! the backstory coming in  👀👀

‘despite what some people think that Steve and Captain America are two different personas, there will always be parts of Steve in the Avenger, and parts of the Avenger in Steve. They both want to believe in something good. They are, after all, one in the same.// Just as how Bucky and the Winter Soldier are the same man despite everything. HYDRA simply amplified the hate, fertilized the seeds of rage, curated the quiet thunder within his soul, within James Buchanan Barnes so that the Winter Soldier could thrive.’

yIKES! lol this is very character study like! nICE. it hurts tho, my poor children, i love you both 

oo ‘starlight eyes’ that is a very nice way of describing them

‘“Then what was London?” The protesters. “São Paulo?” The earthquake. “Vancouver?” Freezing cold water.//“Look, I care if Stark’s gonna run us over trying to find her. I care enough because she’s part of our team. Come off it, Steve. I know she can take care of herself. I’m gonna take a nap. Dr. Cho said no partying post-Singapore and what do you know, we throw the biggest party ever.’

ooo singapore uwu and london? (coincidence? haha jkjk) and the hints abt reader and buckys background are so good?? but so annoying??? like i just wanna KNOW yknow?? 

‘The water runs copper and the sting bites at his palm as he tries not to think. Tries to focus on the numbing cold that runs over his skin.’ 

your imagery is so vivid?? im actually in awe??? i am so regretful i havent kept reading your fics. like i know they are amazing, i just keep putting them off??? idk man. hopefully this makes up for it (gd tho, im still not done with commenting on one fic. this is what im doing with my motivation teehee ;)

‘ He feels weak. Tired. He wants to go back to bed but he also wants to stay out in the sun for a few hours more. The sun kisses his skin through the windows and he squints against the blue sky, wondering ‘

mood during this quarantine lol

‘“Oh, right.” Your voice is flat, uninterested, cold, as you stare at him. “You killed my parents.”Shit.‘

 OUCH LMAO THATS C O L D, O GOT +100 PHYSIC DAMAGE FROM JUST READING THAT

ooo robin as a nickname noice. very much gives me batman vibes lol

oh! and the way of doing the ‘flashback’ is neat! very original. it both tells us what happened AND buckys reaction to it again. he can re-analyse himself and reader. very cool

‘If you walk away now, don’t bother coming back!” Silence. Bucky can hear his own strained breathing, your soft sigh as you soaked in his ultimatum.’

👀👀 yikes that ultimatum. :// not good bucky. tbf theyre both trying to hurt each other but Yikes

eyy!!! readers pov!! finally! and the switch after we find out the outsiders pov? brilliant

oh no :(( more angst

‘When’s the last time you saw your therapist?”“Don’t have one. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself.”’ they BOTH need therapists;;;;

very good fic!!! :DD they rlly do hate each other! i definitely like how you went back and forth with the timeline! it gave me a v strong idea on what yn was like even before we rlly got introduced. i am now very curious on where reader is? i love your characterisations! 

i will read the 10k+ fics but heck the last one took me ages lolol (i will comment in the future tho!! i promise <3 ) (that took me over an hour jjhghgdjh)

slipping away- amnesiac modern bucky x reader

omg,,, AMNESIA! >:DDDDDD

‘ Put your fucking seatbelt on’

oh no, istg theyre going to have a car crash arent they (’ doesn’t put the seatbelt on to spite you.’ NO PLEASE PUT IT ON U DUMBASS)

ok,,,,, at LEAST he put it on before he got hit, thank heck. but still. youre so cruel to your poor characters lmaoo

oh gosh

‘You fall apart slowly, like pieces of you peeling away until you’re nothing more than your broken heart. The sobs that wrack your body are relentless and you shove your forearm into your mouth to muffle your cries. You want to bite into your skin. You want to distract yourself from the agony tearing you to shreds. You want to feel anything but the pain.///Tears sweep into your hair, cloud your vision and your whole face floods with heat as you try to breathe through the pain. You’re cleaved into pieces on that bed, eyes squeezed shut as the tears keep flowing, and your throat burns’

this hurts damn, it is so vivid?? i can really feel it 

i am so glad you got into writing yk?? so glad

NO PLS, TELL HIM. TELL HIM :((( ‘shes nice once you get to know her?? shes known nat for years now!! years!!

oh god ‘he looks younger without the burden of your time together’ this is so angsty omg

‘Well, he was stumbling through his apology and I just let him finish.” Your body fills with warmth as you remember his embarrassed smile, the way he shoved his baseball cap farther down his head, chin tucked to his chest, trying to hide that face. “When he was done, I opened my mouth to say something polite but what came out was ‘You look like someone I’d very much like to kiss’.”

this is so soft i stg im crying in the club

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTT , you left it off like that!!! thats so cruel!!!! i can’t!!! how dare you!!!! :””””””((( im typing this with tears in my eyes ill have u know!!

anyway!!! very good fic!! you could honestly make that into a longfic very easily lol. i felt too many emotions :(( 

i was just about to say where is the fluff!! where is it!! when i saw the next one and yay :))) pls i cant have more angsty stuff rn

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cookies and rings and things bucky and reader

‘how much do you love me?’ ‘count the snowflakes, multiply by a million’

did you have to start the fic off with such a SOFT line? its so soft! so TENDER 

‘He wonders what kinda insane person wears socks without any clothes on, but then decides that it’s the kind of person who’s fallen in love with him.’  jesus, the soft moments filled with love are the greatest <3

you can write fluff so well, whyd you have to pain me with all that angst ;””””) (1/10 hurt, 9/10 comfort is the way to go lolol) (jkjk ill read the angsty ones too when i have the spoons) (gonna reread that hydra steve one and ik thatll fuck me UP)

‘ Then, he can feel the cold metal of the ring she slid onto her own finger less than twenty-four hours ago and realizes that he had thought a lot of things shouldn’t be possible, and yet they still are. ‘

you literally brought me to tears reading this softness, you have truly found my weakness

‘ She’s so damn gorgeous with flour on her face and eye bags beneath her eyes that he’s sure she will inevitably make his heart burst ‘

he already likes her so much! i can’t believe this is affecting me so much :’)

‘Bucky is quite sure Sam is in love with his girlfriend in the fact that he’s in love with the fact that his girlfriend is possibly in love with Bucky’

this is so soft??? sam loves reader bc reader loves bucky sm. pls my hear <3333

you do fluff SO WELL DAMN 

‘F.R.I.D.A.Y.’s voice echoes in his small little perch and he still thinks it’s weird without having the side effect of Stark in his suit chasing after him to hear the A.I. but he shoves that uncomfortable feeling of the dead man out of his head. That is too much regret to unpack right now on a mission. ‘

yike bringing back that reminder oof

but thats so soft??? (i am def overusing soft but,,,,, i love it and the vibe) she sent him cookies! god i can feel the love  

‘She expresses her feelings through cooking, which Bucky has learnt the hard way. One time, they got into an argument over something stupid—he can’t even remember what started it—and came to the kitchen at 2AM to see her sitting at the kitchen island crying her eyes out and surrounded by baskets of muffins.’

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 my hEART

you show how much they love each other in so many ways??? i am dying

“Alright, I like it.” Rolling his eyes, he pecks her forehead and she smiles victoriously. It’s so adorable that Bucky, with less than three hours of sleep, adds, “God, I want to marry you.//”“What?”//Oh.Shit.

oh my god! i am literally tearing up!!! AGAIN!!!!!!!!

oh shit o am literally crying

your fluff got me crying harder than your angst i hope youre happy

I really hope you enjoy reading this?? i keep forgetting to like text you but i wanted to do something for your birthday. especially in quarantine when everythings gone crazy. one year i swear ill do something REALLY good for you. not making promises bc i hate if i dont. but ill like, learn how to podfic because you D E S E R V E  I T 

ive spent like three hours doing this lolol 

thank you so much for everything hayley!

[censorediamond-blog]

And still, theres so much more i want to say...

This is dumb, both of us know this is dumb and i know nothing i say rn would make you care, cause u dont. never will .but  im going it cause honestly i cant stop thinking about you, its sad and pathetic but true and whoever i tell gets annoyed cause they know im wasting my time, and they know my name never crosses ur mind, but youre on my mind constantly and i hate it cause ur in love with her. and i dont blame you, she's perfect, and u deserve nothing less. and sure u could say  why would i wanna be with someone if it was all fake. But the thing is i really don't believe it was all fake. it couldn't be, i'm not that much of an idiot. And maybe part of me thought "u only dated me for the hook ups" but i find it hard to believe ur that big of a dick and plus me and u both know u could have gotten that without the trouble of dating me. i probably sound dumb to you cause u made it clear that you were over me, plus this happened almost seven months ago and i wanted to believe i would get over you in a short amount of tome. i know its super pathetic,  im super pathetic. i keep thinking about the little moments, every single tiniest detail that has ever happened between us, even the ones i know for a fact you dont even remember way before we even started talking and before the dead sea. but idk u shared too much for it to be all about the hook ups, just you being a part of my life for an amount of time was probably one of the best thing that even happened in my life. it was everything to me and i dont think u get how much i love and care for you. and i regret a lot regarding this topic and although the fact you basically used me when you knew how much that meant to me really hurt. nothing even compared to the hurt that came when i got a glimpse of what we could be, then to drop it like that. cause it gave the need to imagine shit i shouldnt even be thinking about. how things would be different if you were still mine and i was still urs. how happy i would be. but i know im positively sure you are happy, for the most part at least. but ik while i was thinking about you and how i would kill to be with you and spend time together and just be together. you were thinking about her, how you would kill to be with her and spend time with her. I know you're graduating now and this is  the last thing you want to hear now but ive been holding this for such a long time i just want to get it all out of me. But i guess i didnt make u happy and ive accepted that and idk i just missed u i guess, i have seen you in such a long time, until laiths party and i dont know if you realized the second i saw you my heart actually stopped like i dont even think its possible to miss someone that much and then to finally see them, although i know youre with anood now and i would never do anything to sabotage your happiness anwar, as much as it doesnt seem like that, i dont know why im so in love with you, as much as i try to deny it i cant but only admit that is true, i shit you not there has not been one single day, since October 28 that i have not thought about you when i wake up and before i go to sleep, all i do is look at my phone and open ur info on my phone app looking at the picture i have put as your contact and the song i put on for your number so i know the second i hear it, its you and the vibration i put thats only different to yours. Every single time i just randomly hear power trip on shuffle i cant help but think of you and how youre doing. Anwar this is taking so much of my dignity to even think of sending you this even though now i know its all gone and you're probably laughing of how desperate and pathetic i sound, but I couldn't help myself. and i dont want to be friends csuse ik me and ik itll always be torture just being ur friend. even now i always have these little day dreams where were together and u come over all the time and my mom and legit my whole family loves you and loved you ever since that day... my mom talks about you and asks about you every single day because i never had the courage to tell you we broke up such a long time ago and part of me keeps holding on to that one in a million scenario where were back together and u like me just as much as i like u but i know thatll never happen cause id always just be the hook up right.

I know im not gonna achieve anything by telling you this but like seriously what do i have to lose, atleast i can understand i should start living in the moment and not thinking deep far into the future and just doing what i want to do while i still can because we all actually dont know when were not gonna have that chance anymore. This has taught me many things but ever since ive never known how to look at any other guy and think '...but hes not anwar' even though if i ever hooked up with anyone after you but just so you know i have just once, just to try to convince myself that there are other people in this world that i could start thinking of besides you but, obviously, it didnt work.i know youve been over me for such a long time now but you meant everything to me up unto this point and for how long this will last.I know you're probably out having fun with your friends right now, maybe even with her, but im not ashamed of my feelings and i want them to be out and clear in the open. As much as it pains me to say, i love you anwar hinnawi, always have, always will.

anyways idk what the point of this was i just wanted to get it all out of my system. i hope everything in your life right now is the best it could be, i really do genuinely care about you as a person besides all of this and youre the first thing i always wish for every single time i pray, lol that sounds so gay but its true ahah, okay im done now and like thanks if u read all this i guess, maybe i achieved the fact that now you know everything and how ive felt ever since you left me.