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pengillys · 8 days ago

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i want more hours for work next year and bc i'm casual i can work at more than one school so i think i'm gonna apply to a few other schools closer to the suburb i live in and see if anything comes from them ☺️

#and if i'm lucky enough to get interviews i'm thinking of mentioing that i'd also be open to do volunteer work on days when its needed too #to show initiative and all that but like idk if that's a good idea lol #like i do not wanna come off as *too* eager you know??#but then again volunteer work could lead to a bit more of permanent position if they like me enough soooo 🤷🏼‍♀️#i overthink everything it's annoying #ahhhh idk what to do besties

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veerbles · 2 months ago

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I know it's certainly been said before, but I just know in my heart of hearts that ronan (impulsive, romantic, religious, all or nothing) woke up with a ring in his palms the morning after he and adam kissed for the first time. and then he probably didn't dream for a while, after his mom and gansey and cabeswater and noah - but once he started again and also started sharing a bed with adam I just know that he dreamt rings again, and I just know at some point adam caught onto it, and I just know adam (practical, logical, love-skeptic, took a year to consider his feelings before making a move) freaked the fuck out. and I think that's hilarious.

#trc #pynch #don't TDT @ me I'm not interested #but I just think it's such an interesting dynamic - ronan doesn't think anything through and adam overthinks EVERYTHING #and in trc we see that balances out; adam gets to carefully and throughouly consider his own feelings #without having the chance to doubt ronan's affections because ronan is SO consistent with his staring and gestures #and I think adam's obsessive independence and absolutely shit family history will make him soooo commitment phobic and wary of marriage #but it's just impossible to not have to evaluate your feelings and have necessary conversations about it with yourself #when your boyfriend consistently manifests his desire to marry you lmao #pynch dynamic is adam trying to convince himself he's unknowable or lovable #and ronan annoying the fuck out of him with concrete proof it's fundamentally untrue #when your bf is so annoying it makes you a better and more emotionally healthy person 🤗

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emilyartstudio-s · 2 years ago

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Style (Stan x Kyle) please?

Here's a doodle I will finish for patreon :,)

#asks #style always everyday #sorry guys i might restrict what i post here because i hate it when my art ends up on pintrest JFSHK #there's a tumblr official on there and it posts my art automatically? And it's annoying???#I'm there to search for poses and new artists #but it's so discouraging seeing it there and then the comments are all dinks lmao #it sucks because i like posting any and all south park art here like ships but omGod dude #people want to be weird about everything ugh im just here to have funnn #rant over i just have been overthinking about it but i'll be okay and just accept it eventually lmao #((Restrict as in I'll just keep doing fun art that makes me haha #I'm just waitin gfor the south park specials but I want to draw out the oc art i have in my sketchbook lmao #maybe make a speedpaint HDKSJ

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foulfeast · 1 month ago

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Ohhhh i now remember why i got shy about talking abt ocs

24/7 fear that someone will tell me my ideas are cliche/stupid/bad in some other and it will hurt more bc these are my own creations and not just fun and play

#kurjatxt #i was trying 2 explain some stuff and i was immediately like #:/ does this feel like some kinf of weird hype for ancient mysticism and does that go into promoting the current day false ideas plaguing #people that make them drink unpasturized milk :/#is this too based on my view on magic from my enviroment bc it is based on my personal experience on seeking safety in #nostalgia and playing w the idea of balancing what you get from the past and integrating it into the future vs. just being stuck in the #past vs. the danger of completely rejecting the past told through the lense of smth i loved as a child: fantasy/magic/fairytales :/#and could be alienating and immature and demeaningly simple to other people who grew up in an enviroment already more inclined to #this kind of balance :/#or is me thinking about this demeaning to people bc i should be able to trust them to see what i make as silly ramblings by some random #tumble user just exploring their own experiences through story instead of trying to make some large sweeping statements about #the world and its reality :/#or is it bad of me to be careless about bc of COURSE i should put the upmost care into what i put out into the world and make sure that #everything i make is inclusive and as accessible to as many different types of people to relate to :/#or is that dumb is that limiting to art and am i giving a bad example and furthering the idea of people #havibg to make everything as palatable to everyone as possible JUST in case that nobody gets even slightly hurt or annoyed :/#man being a creator is hard OOPS that is also an evil thing to say being a creator is the luckiest thing you can ever be and ur just beinh #a whiny bitchbaby :/#<-#all that just. a small portion of the overthinking #and yk what it started from?#thr statement '<#in this world magic can be kind of more compared to how modern science is approached'#THAT SENTENC3 #I AM SO STRESSED ABOUT #WhY IS MY BRAIN LIKE THIS!!!! I DONT KNOW!!!#sorry this is prolly the longest tags ive ever put on a post sorry to whoever opened the see more for this #its just. i think tj3 first tim3 ive been able.to expresw the circles my brain does and its kind of therapeutic #maybe i should start writing these circles down more often so i could see how dumb they rly are on paper #instead.of fretting inside my heae

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timetravellingkitty · 16 days ago

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I cannot with this woman

#i'm prolly overthinking here but like. she definitely doesn't like me as much as i like her (as a friend)#which is insane cause objectively she's the one who's initiated everything: she's the one who started dming me and formed a friendship but #also like. she's too good to be true tbh i love her lots #she's told me she thinks im a good friend and she likes me but i cant even seriously fathom her thinking of me positively which is a me-#-problem AAAA I LIKE HER SO MUCH BUT IM A DUMBASS AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO TREAT HER 😭#im paranoid that deep down i significantly annoy her at worse and am just there at best i mean she doesnt have to like me no obligation here #but idk. i should prolly be offline instead of wtever this is #ਰੇਵਾ

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vessuna · 10 months ago

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i got diseases of the brain currently, are people cool with me continuing their ask replies for me as threads … 😭

#if i have muse for it of course but #sometimes i don’t #sorry i overthink everything im sat here like ‘well what if they don’t want me to reply and am annoying …’#me @ me vc just write and have fun!! who gives af #i am so aware of my own irrational ways of thinking but i can’t just turn it off unfortunately 😭#☆ / out of character.

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seaofreverie · 3 months ago

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Every once in a billion years I suddenly get very lucky and pick up one band merch delivery on one day, and then get another band merch delivery from another band on the very next day

#let's fucking gooooooo #once i'm less preoccupied with this art challenge #(((((that is starting to make less and less sense to keep going with day by day #but i guess i'm going to continue with it anyway more out of stubbornness than anything else #and it would be lame to stop now when i alredy have most of the ideas ready in some form #and the means to finish all this stuff as long as i stop being annoying about it and overthinking everything #and because i can only feel semi-normal when i don't feel like i'm wasting my life away and i'm instead making any sort of thing #since literally nothing else is helping me feel not awful at this point #it'll be fine as long as i don't think about it and instead devote as much time as possible to another thing. anyway !!!!!!!!!)))))#i'm going to have so much fun with the self-titled tmbg album puzzle #literally perfect album cover picture for a puzzle i'm so glad this got made #and i loooove the propaganda t-shirt!! :3 #i'm already assembling my london trip wardrobe and it's going to be most of the t-shirts being band t-shirts at this rate #maybe i should really turn that 'born to die' drawing into a t-shirt too. perfect time to do that #goosepost

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necromeowncy · 1 year ago

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I saw a post regarding fic collections/how they're difficult to navigate, so I put some outlines in the descriptions for both Reflections and Delights:

I hope this is easier to browse! I'm never sure if folks somehow miss seeing these... Looking back, I probably should have made each of these fics their own individual oneshots, but I was self-conscious about spamming the wolgraha tag on AO3 and thought people would get mad at me somehow. lol (I realize this is silly, now, almost 2 years later.)

Anyway. I hope you enjoy, if you haven't read these yet! Reflections are canon-related stories, and Delights are extremely kinky oneshots.

#I'm overthinking but what else is new lmao #ffxiv fanfiction #ffxiv fanfic #Promises Kept #AedRaha #wolgraha #g'raha tia #elezen #wol x g'raha tia #aedric vaillencourt #elezen wol #wolexarch #when I look back at these and everything I've written it's like..damn..I really do write a lot somehow #I have a secret fear that I'm annoying with how much I post/write about these two but I gotta yeet these thoughts somewhere!!!!!#I have so many fics that I just..hoard to myself because of this fear #one day I'll post 'em if people want #I'm just a shy anxious person at the end of the day and I have so many thoughts about love

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reflectionsofgalaxies · 4 months ago

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good lord my brain is running laps and i just wanna knock it out and get some goddamn sleep

#apparently just bc I figured it out my brain still isn’t gonna chill out #now i’m stuck between do i communicate and embarrass myself #in hopes that it calms down the fears that i’m already aware are probably irrational #or do i do my best to ignore it and hope my brain chills out on its own soon #and that in the meantime i don’t do my go-to moves when i overthink something #which are running away or getting mean #(not like. mean mean. but snarky. and a little harsh and irritable)#bc no one has done anything wrong!#myself included so far!#my brain just will not let go of this stupid fear #and it’s the same fucking fear that has haunted me on and off through every era of my life #i WILL NOT isolate myself or push people away that’s wildly counterproductive #and honestly i find it mind boggling that that’s even a response bc IT MAKES NO SENSE #anyway everything is changing and it’s fucking me up big time #there’s too many things changing all at once and tbh i’m fucking terrified #and this just happened to be the thing that finally pushed me into ‘cant fucking deal with this’ territory #and nothing has even changed! it’s all in my head right now!!!#it’s so fucking frustrating to know something intellectually but your emotions are off doing their own shit #‘you can’t think away emotions’ I CAN FUCKING TRY #it comes down to fear and anger at that fear and anger at change #i’m so angry and there’s nowhere to direct that anger #being angry at a concept or the very passage of time is just so unsatisfying and annoying #*change as a #personal #i’d say sorry for the vent posts but i can’t afford therapy so #and this is the next best thing

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kuroosdarling · 1 year ago

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the urge to make a new blog

#i’ve never wanted to leave kuroosdarling and it’s not for a bad reason or anything #but i’m also forever annoyed that i can’t change this to my main blog #i have a cute new url that would b perfect for a rebrand too #(shoutout to the precious mootie who gave me the idea)#but !!!#it seems so scary to start over #bc i really do love this blog a lot #and it doesn’t feel right to change the url here #this is so dumb to even be thinking sm about but !!!!#forever doomed to overthink about everything #anyways if u read all this i love u and i smooch u #might delete this bc >_< !#ANYWAY #done rambling (for now )#⁺. ʚ aims lore ɞ ⋆˙

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youremyonlyhope · 7 months ago

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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.

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lycanpunk666 · 5 months ago

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“Is it bad enough to talk to a doctor or do I just have small scattered symptoms of a mental illness so mild that it doesn’t deserve a label”? More at 11

#this is about the fact that I like. hallucinate sometimes lol #not super strong it’s probably just an overactive imagination but I see stuff at the corner of my eye all the time #I don’t like analog horror anymore because most of the time it’s not even that scary but then LATER I keep SEEING shit and I don’t even like #react to it. it’s like ‘oh of fucking course you decide to come here now. twat.’#oh yeah also I overthink like a madman and worry constantly about getting ‘caught’ all the time even though I’m obviously not doing anything #wrong. I can’t wait to go to college this fall and have that at least not be about my parents #but yeah this time round it’s more about my friends secretly hating me #I don’t mean like just ‘oh you’re annoyed at me and didn’t tell me directly’ I mean manufacturing a whole personality and then turning aroun #and mocking everything I ever said behind my back #punk speaks #anyway I’m sure it’s just anxiety and an overactive imagination

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goyurim · 6 months ago

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exceptionally talented girls are on tumblr oversharing about their mistakes in the tags

#it's like this #so i completely screwed up my experiment #(for the second time!)#and i was supposed to complete this set of experiments like a month ago #my supervisor has already gone on about how i'm behind on my project yada yada #so that sucks ok.#but what's worse!!!#is that the sweetest guy ever #(who took out time for me and taught me how to do these set of experiments initially)#(now i'm doing them on my own for the first time and they're not going. well. to say the least)#is who i screwed up in front of.#like what's bothering me is not that i screwed up or i'm behind on my project #i'm bothered by the fact that not only did i embarrass myself in front of the nice guy #but i probably hurt his feelings too #like. what if he thinks he's a bad teacher. bc of ME #i annoyed him throughout the process too like at some point i am 100% sure he was done with my shit #but being the sweetest guy ever he didn't say anything about it and helped me anyway #and like. its AGGRAVATING why i'm like this. why am i so annoying #but also like. what's up with my priorities #why am i not bothered about the right things #why do i care So Much about how other people feel bc of me #also like. maybe it wasn't even me. like logically the poor guy was sick he wasn't feeling well #so the annoyed look on his face was probably bc he's busy or he didn't sleep well or whatever #like. not everything is about me. maybe his annoyance want about me #but i cant help but think that it was and i hate myself for it #when will i learn the simple act of Forgiveness and Moving On #like. i Know I'm overthinking this i Know it's irrational but. i'm just so hurt by the fact that i hurt him #moon talks

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moodr1ng · 6 months ago

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one weird and annoying effect of me spending so much time on mainly american social media and watching all these american shows and movies and reading books by american authors and having all these online friends from america etc etc is that like.. when i write i no longer feel like i can set my stories in france? like, bc i write in english it feels like i need to set my stories in an english-speaking country, and the us is the easiest one to set up (i think in a way it kinda feels like the "default setting" of western media?). i feel like if i wrote a book set in france itd be weird or confusing to people, and also im always bugged bc like.. the stuff i write in english cannot be directly translated into french, like it doesnt correspond 1:1 to french sentences, and so if i set a story in france im always bugged bc i think "but that cant be what the characters are actually saying, because theres no equivalent to this in french". so i end up setting a lot of my stuff in the us, except ive only been to the us once and not long enough to get a good impression of what living there is like (not to mention ive only been to nyc), so i also feel like when americans read my stuff theyre gonna immediately go "huh? thats not how things are here. this author is a hack who cant do research." .. so then sometimes i set my stuff in fictional countries or in an ambiguous impossible setting which mixes stuff from various english-speaking countries + france, but then that makes my story immediately less grounded. this is such a big issue that it blocks me from writing entire stories i wanna write bc i just cant even begin to put them somewhere 😔

#97 #ig the two options are like..#either suck it up and write shit set in france even if ik the language thing bugs me #or set it in the us and have someone from the area im writing about read through it and correct everything i got wrong #both of which are a bit daunting.#'sunny' is my one story thats explicitly set in france #and the language thing bugs me SO SO SO much.#even the tiniest bit like..#omars nickname for sunny is 'bunny'#which works double as a cute nickname + as a play on her name right #but in french itd be like.. 'lapin' which could be a nickname ig but #it has a totally diff vibe. its not as cute. it comes off more weird or forced as a nickname.#and it has nothing to do w sunnys name.#stuff like that is always annoying me.#oh yeah 'brotherhood' is also set in france i forgot lol and i had the same issue there!#the librarian in brotherhood makes a pun on the phrase 'early bird gets the worm'#but thats not a phrase in french and neither is 'bookworm' with which she makes the pun #so its like. no she didnt say that. she cant have bc theyre supposed to be speaking french.#actually sometimes i even feel like im not knowledgeable to write france either!!#like i wanna set something in paris but while im in paris often im always a passerby #and i feel like i cant write paris in an authentic and genuine way #so what am i just supposed to set all my stories in my city and nowhere else??#i probably overthink this stuff.

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koumeowkami · 8 months ago

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taking care of myself isn't enough i need to delete the twitter app immediately

#I'M SO ANNOYED 😭😭😭😭#i can't even seem to distract myself damn. why do i have to be the one overthinking Everything ........#🌸 ; lyn rambles about stuff

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honeysucklethornsandalligtrhorns · 9 months ago

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been crying recently because i’ve been feeling really lonely but more people on my badminton team have been talking to me and acknowledging me and it’s making me feel so much better. it’s good to know that people care.

#crying right now but in a good way #i feel like i’ve faded because i don’t put myself out there #since i don’t want to annoy people or piss them off #to know that i am appreciated makes my heart sing #🌫️#i overthink literally everything #and need reassurance very often that people haven’t decided to randomly start hating me #which i hate myself for #but it’s good to hear #i think

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