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We got a number one Victory Royale. Yeah, Fortnite, we 'bout to get down (get down). Ten kills on the board right now. Just wiped out Tomato Town.My friend just got downed. I revived him, now we're heading south-bound. Now we're in the Pleasant Park streets Look at the map, go to the marked sheet. Take me to your Xbox to play Fortnite today. You can take me to Moisty Mire, but not Loot Lake. I really love to Chug Jug with you. We can be pro Fortnite gamers. He says"Hey broski, you got some heals and a shield pot? I need healing and I am only at one HP" Hey dude, sorry, I found nothing on this safari, I checked the upstairs of that house but not the underneath yet, There's a chest that's just down there. The storm is coming fast and you need heals to prepare. I've got V-Bucks that I'll spend, More than you can contend. I'm a cool pro Fortnite gamer (cool pro Fortnite-) Take me to your Xbox to play Fortnite today. You can take me to Moisty Mire, but not Loot Lake. I really love to Chug Jug with you. We can be pro Fortnite gamers
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Will you be my pro Fortnite gamer? (Pro Fortnite gamer). Can we get a win this weekend? Take me to Loot Lake, Let's change the game mode and we can Disco Dominate. Let's hop in an ATK. Take me to the zone. I'm running kind of low on meds, I need to break some stone "Dressed in all his fancy clothes. He's got Renegade Raider and he's probably a pro." He just shot my back. I turn back and I attack. I just got a Victory Royale. A Victory Royale. Take me to your Xbox to play Fortnite today. You can take me to Moisty Mire, but not Loot Lake. I really love to Chug Jug with you. We can be pro Fortnite gamers
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What about the mercs with a fem SO that talks in brainrot sometimes? Would really want medic in there but it's up to you!
Mercs x Brainrot!Reader
A/n: WHY IS THE TF2 FANDOM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS IDEA? 😭 I SAW ANOTHER FIC ABT THIS AND TWO REQUESTS ASKING FOR THIS PLS
warnings: Brainrot.. a lot of images being used, it’s a shit post who cares tbh
Scout
He’s into it too
Guys it’s scout
“Scout ilysm ur so nonchalant <33”
“Thanks babe ^^ I know I’m pretty alpha”
(Oh btw the alpha thing isn’t a joke he unironically listens to alpha male podcasts)
In the middle of spy’s serious moments you’d both lip sync ‘you are my sunshine’ to each other when he’s not looking
“what the bloody hell are you guys doing..”
“…perhaps itz a coping mechanizm zince scout doesn’t have a father?”
Medic really had to take it there
The ‘fatherless child’ meme was a coping mechanism for him tho
“I’m a fatherless child, of course I have abandonment issues”
“Um babe? Idk if you should joke abt that 😚”
“Na it just makes me more sigma”
You guys love to fuck with the blu team sm with your shenanigans, esp sniper!!
Scout would have his bat and you would have whatever weapon you have with you and yell “skibidi” before jumping him
Here’s something he DEFINITELY didn’t learn from you 💯
creds to urwhouchoose2b on Tik tok
Engineer
He tries so hard to understand
Whenever you show him a meme he does the classic old person holding phone away from eyes thing
Yk the
“Ok so this is the ‘im nothing like y’all’ fish”
“alrighty, and this is..?”
“Oh that’s the Freddy five bear meme, see it’s funny cuz his name is actually ‘Freddy fazbear’ but they got his name wrong so like.. yeah”
“…I’m not sure what I’m ‘posed to say ‘bout this, but I think you belong in a looney bin”
Once he had a project that had the word “alpha” in it and he hated mentioning it to you cuz yk
“giggle”
“…what?”
“Skibidi alpha”
“What??”
Demo man
HE LOVES IT LMFAOO
he’s so energetic esp when he’s drunk so he’s happy to have someone he can share that energy with
Y’all know that “Scotland forever” meme
Well you screamed it after another victory as a joke, but when demo heard it he was confused but also excited?
“SCOTLAND FOREVAA”
“OH? ALRIGHT THEN, SCOTLAND FOREVER 🏴🏴”
cut to him butt chugging beers
Demo doesn’t get it but he has the spirit
He’ll be right there replicating the TikTok audios after taking the point
Dude is drunk 99% of the time so he’s never bothered to ask what any of this means, he’s just in it for the fun
Once you dragged him to the bathroom since he drake too many beers (shocker) but he didn’t want to do it in the toilet cuz he didn’t want to ‘hurt his dear skibidi’
“Cmon demo you have to puke it out!!”
“Noo, take me to the jawbox I don’t wanna hert me skibidi toilet”
“Oh god what have I done”
I think you rotted his brain a little too much
Spy
Don’t even get him started.
He’s so sick of your antics it’s not even funny
“Guys we all have to remember that it’s not about the money.. it’s about the skibidi.”
Passionately grabs spy’s shoulder
“How have you made it this far in life”
Unlike engie, he really doesn’t want to know about it
Especially during missions
“lol spy you’re so devious ASF”
“shhh, enough blabbering!!”
“You are not carti 😶🌫️😶🌫️❌‼️‼️‼️”
You make fun of him a bunch, he can’t think of a single moment where you took him seriously
“Y/n get off the cart!!”
“If we were in Fortnite I’d have higher ground + double pump.”
#idk#x reader#fanfic#Brainrot#skibidi#tf2#tf2 x reader#scout x reader#spy x reader#engineer x reader#shitfic#tf2 demoman#demoman x reader
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Okay I cannot express how much I love your undercover au, it is PERFECTION
I also couldn’t stop thinking about more potential fenton-phantom connections drawn by Sam and Tucker, and their shenaniganery. So, assuming Danny did the whole time-travel dealio here with the infi-map or similar, I’m just imagining Sam and Tucker (mainly Sam) being utterly confused because everything else points to Phantom being more recently dead — his clothes, his speech, astronaut career, etc. So Sam is just [insert cork board conspiracy meme here] because these ancient scripts describe Phantom way too accurately. Could it be that Phantom had ghost relatives — “is that even a thing Sam?” — or is he actually that old? — “what if it was time travel?” “Hush Tucker this is the goth realm not sci-fi” — and they are basically certain Phantom is a modern ghost, how else could he be connected to Fenton?, but still somehow coming to every conclusion except the right one regarding the Phantom-in-the-past stuff.
Also I’m imagining Sam and Tucker investigating haunted houses or something, perhaps trying to take a load of Phantom’s shoulders, or because they’re now into the supernatural. Maybe they drag Fenton along because “we must educate him on the ways of ghosting”. So Sam and Tucker are just doing the whole Buzzfeed Unsolved gig, not letting Fenton out of their sight because “ah novice” while Danny tries to sneakily fight the invisible demon in the background that human eyes can’t see while pretending nothing is wrong. (“This is what is known as a summoning circle, it summons demons.” [Danny, acting like he’s leaning against a wall while really trying to non-conspicuously choke a demon] “You don’t say”. — “these demons are wimps! Oh, Danny did you fall again?” [Danny, having “tripped” in order to pin a demon from tackling Tucker/Sam]. “Yep, tripped, that’s exactly what happened”)
[Undercover AU]
Ahdjhfds omFG. All of this. Sam and Tuck trying to educate “novice” Danny Fenton on the supernatural is comedy GOLD. And Sam with her conspiracy corkboard because all of her work penciling in a timeframe for Phantom's life and death has just imploded with this rouge element of ancient descriptions of Phantom—plus, them realizing he’s a modern ghost reminds me of this conversation I had with @dp-belongs-in-a-hoodie the other day so please enjoy their huge brain—
Kei: I was looking at you recent posts and read the one about Sam slowly compiling facts Abt Phantom to figure out when he died and I just takajalsjaos maybe super early on one of the lil hints is just how well versed Phantom seems to be in modern/internet slang
~ something good happens ~
Phantom: o shit, pog
Sam and Tucker: ???????
Phantom : sweats I uh... I watch twitch streams on my phone. You know. My phone you guys remember my phone. Being a ghost, I have a lot of time to kill haha!!!! finger guns
Also,,, I was thinking about how you can reverse search a phone number and find out who it's registered to (or the name on the phone plan and what carrier) ,,,,,, can you imagine if Sam and Tuck searched Phantoms phone number and found out it was registered to the Fenton's ???
Phantom panicking : oKAY. you caught me..... I,,,,, stole,,, Danny Fenton's phone awhile ago,,,
Art: Akdjdjdkd but them finding out Phantom has fenton’s phone makes them go “oh that tracks” because Danny had lied as fenton that he didn’t have a phone. so there’s a moment where they’re just nodding and then it’s like. “WAIT. GIVE IT BACK”
Kei: Danny internally just like : holy fuck I actually got away with that??????
also have this piece of pure unadulterated gamerspeak
Kei: Phantom talking abt something cool he did in the past: yeah, but dude no cap, it was based as hell
Tucker: Kekw
Sam: if either of you start fortnite dancing I'm leaving
#danny phantom#sam manson#tucker foley#quasar-crew#dp-belongs-in-a-hoodie#undercover phantom au#no one knows au#ask#anon#THANK YOU BTWWWW IM SO GLAD YOURE ENJOYING ALL THEIR HIJINNKKS#sam and tuck taking fenton to a haunted house at the start of their friendship would be a hugely hilarious one-shot/short comic#also honestly also the moment when phantom says he stole fenton's phone lmFAO#Undercover Asks
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i haven’t really thought much abt the continuity recollection much bc it’s not actually true and legitimate bc otherwise 90% of dc chars would like. not be doing anything they’re doing rn etc but realistically just the thought of one day everyone waking up and remembering everything before flashpoint really is the funniest thing
billy mary & freddy sitting in absolute silence in a room together just. deathly silent. and outside the vasquez kids are doing just fine diddling around maybe somewhat remembering that time they were in flashpoint or whatever but not rly. and then billy stands and is like. this guy has accomplished nothing and uses 10% of his headspace for Roblox. what is that. why don’t we know every country’s nuclear codes in case of impending war what is a fortnite dance what do you mean he wasn’t chosen by the wizard how does he even have this power right now and why doesn’t he have existential crises abt morality every 10 min
mary, taking out a drivers license from her pocket: sick
freddy, in the middle of dyeing back his hair black: so you think kit is like dust or something. like is my brother floating in space or what
#mary remembering super buddies and screaming out a window#I have to put disclaimers on these things now bc n52billy fans will kill me but ofc I know he accomplished some things I’m just saying#tht pren52 billy would look at tht stuff and go I could’ve done it better (and he would’ve)
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one of the things that I love abt sadf is that it's almost like a crack fic, but it's treated seriously. i mean it in the best way possible LMAO. it's fun to read and you have a great sense of humor, but the fic itself doesn't feel like a joke. it has emotional depth and even though the characters are kinda goofy (we got a.. number 1 victory royale! yeah fortnite we bout to get down) it's not so ridiculous that it's out of character. they are goofy people and you don't make them out to be more insane or more severe than they actually are. your characterizations of them are very on par with how they are irl.
ive seen some criticisms as im sure youre aware.... but idk. certain characterizations belong in certain stories. i wouldnt expect dream and george in sadf to be moping and sad all the time. and i wouldnt expect them to be singing fortnite songs in their heads in a fic that has a more somber tone. also think that sadf is more approachable (idk if that's the right word) to a wider audience because not all readers are prepared to read a fic with dark themes, regardless of how well its written. sadf tackles complex emotions and circumstances in a humorous and easily digestible way. it doesn't take a heavy emotional toll to read. it's light despite the content and length.
sorry if this ask is unwarranted and not well received. i really love sadf and I think what you've accomplished is really commendable:)
NOOOO U FUCKING GET IT U GET ME U UNDERSTAND… its like silly!!! it’s crack and a joke but also i write it all unironically like u GET who i am and im really just a silly man but also i have deep psychological problems . and YEAH . i wanted sadf to be fun i wanted it to be fun and appealing to people and i wanted it to be easy to read for people like me <- gaydhds
also yeah. i know exactly what ur talking about i know i got haters ! but that always happens when u detract from what others do and get celebrated for it. i didn’t change the landscape of dnf fanfiction or anything but i know that i wrote something that a lot of people found joy in, and just because some people think im not fake deep enough about it means nothing to me. i do not care for the opinions of those i do not respect. and quite frankly some people who also write dnf that think they’re above sadf or whatever prob write dnf like they’re ocs. or they do cringe shit but think they’re so right about it and throw a hissy fit when people point it out. i know what i am i know who i am and i like it. we can all either focus on celebrating what we’re passionate about or we can focus on tearing down people who didn’t do anything to us
#ask#sadf#that’s all im saying!#anon ur so sweet this was high praise to me its not unwarranted at all :)#sadf_praise
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creepypasta characters i would absolutely destroy in a fight
slenderman - listen. slenderman is fucking pathetic. he doesnt have a FACE he doesnt have EARS he cant experience 4 out of the 5 senses how tf do ppl get killed by him. im sorry but if u let slenderman kill u ur weak. i would stab him in the back like among us impostor and he wouldnt even realize what hit him
jeff the killer - ive said this before but hes like. a 13 year old kid. i am a soon to be 21 year old adult. i wouldnt even have to fight him id just hack into his roblox account. maybe id uh. idk kill him in fortnite. idk what 13 year olds like nowadays but im sure i could use it to my advantage if he ever tried to kill me
ben drowned - again how does he kill ppl lmaoooo hes inside a Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask Nintendo 64 Game Cartridge. all u have to do is just not play the game lmao its that simple. u dont even have to touch him to beat him honestly u can just let his cart rot away in ur garage or smth
masky + the other guy (idk ive never watched marble hornets) - ok so idk anything abt these guys except that theyre followers of slenderman and as weve already established slenderman aint shit so i think its safe to say these guys would be no problem. again i havent watched marble hornets but im pretty sure these are just Normal Guys who just happen to be fucked up slenderman followers i think idk. id kill them
ticci toby - yet another guy i know nothing abt EXCEPT the fact that he has a fucking stupid name. i wouldnt have to fight him either id just make fun of his name and hed cry like a little bitch. easy
laughing jack - we wouldnt fight actually we would be friends. clown solidarity
jane the killer - we also wouldnt fight bc we are both lesbians. dykes stick together
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Headcanon for being Hela’s child
Hela Odinsdottir x child!reader
Thor/Loki x reader
warnings: blood/death/ alcohol mentions
a/n: been thinking abt hela a lot lmao
prompt: y/n is hela’s child
you were born in hel
and raised on stories of your mother’s triumph
she always left out her downfall, though
growing up to hate the thought of your grandfather, odin
he was always regarded as “backstabbing coward”
“and what will you do when we finally go back to asgard, my child?”
“stand beside you while you rightfully rule the kingdom, mother”
“that’s correct”
after years and years of enduring hel, you’re only home, you were released at the sight where your grandfather had took his final breath
“you didn’t tell me i had any uncles...”
“they’re irrelevant, my dear”
thor and loki being extremely confused upon meeting the evil family members that they had just discovered
“and odin never said anything about hela having a child!”
“i was born in hel”
:)))
straight up attacking them, it was all you had been trained for
you were your mother’s weapon, that was for certain
craving destruction and blood, that was what you were taught—now that you’d escaped your prison, you could finally do that
and you wanted asgard, you were robbed of that much after your mother was banished
it felt so elegant there, nothing like the depths you were trapped in
striking fear into the hearts of asgardians, but something seemed very off
their fear didn’t make you happy like mother had promised?
it wasn’t very glorious when you killed anyone
“mother, you said this would be fun...”
“you’re not having fun?”
“not even a bit”
your only fun was watchcing skurge dance around for your mom
and it wasn’t even that good then
your uncles returning to asgard for a fight to remember
while your mother was distracted with thor, you ran across the bifrost, running into loki
“now just what do you think you’re doing, child?”
“my mother is a monster, i cant serve her any longer”
this god of mischief believed you
“then you better fight like hell to prove it”
your powers were similar to your mother’s, blades were never scarce to you
thor and the rest of the “revengers” regrouping on the bridge
“what the hell is this one doing here?”
“helping you defeat my mother”
“well, okay then. welcome to the team”
valkyrie didn’t trust you right away
you paid no mind to that, you were focused on one thing
“y/n?! what do you think you’re doing with them?”
“getting rid of you once and for all, you..?”
*thor, whispering* “bitch”
“bitch!”
“typically i dont condone the usage of that word, but your mother gets a free pass”
happily fighting alongside your uncles, it was almost as if you could tell each others next move, it was mesmerizing
you saved loki from being hurt
“well then...thank you, little one”
“im 1200 years old”
“i stand by my words”
hela begged you to join her once more, it was startling and pathetic (and maybe even a trap)
happily watching your mother perish, you hadn’t realized how cruel she was until then
“i’m sorry about your mother, young y/n” -thor
“im not”
the asgardians didn’t trust you very much, you would have to earn it
and you did when you encountered the mad titan known as thanos
you swore you did everything you could, but it wasn’t enough
you had to watch thor be tortured and loki be killed, it was scarring
being picked up by the guardians of the galaxy
“who are you?”
“i barely know who i am”
thor needing to go to nidavellir and taking you with him
“im sure you’ll need a mighty weapon to see the fall of thanos!”
“but...am i worthy of such a thing?”
you felt a sense of guilt for your past actions
and even your mother’s
thor put each of his hands on your shoulders and looked you in the eye (with the only one he had)
“y/n, you must understand that your mother...she poisoned your mind with nothing but hate, but i can tell that you’re much different than her. i’ll be here for you from now on, believe me”
dmitri was able to forge you a weapon of your own, you fell in love with it as soon as you laid eyes upon it
also thor almost died??? that would’ve sucked
and then he took you to midgard, the only thing you knew about it was that the people were weak and irrelevant
but when you met the midgardians, you only met warriors (mind you, you had just landed in the middle of a battle)
another significant fight with your uncle thor
“captain! this is y/n, my (neice, nephew, nibling)”
“hello, y/n. welcome to earth”
“thanks, i hate it!”
going out of your way to save as many as you can, it just felt right
“who is that?”
“well, apparently thor had a sister no one knew about, that’s her kid?”
i nearly forgot about rocket and groot, who you thought were the coolest
“rabbit! over here!”
“for the millionth time, y/n, it’s ‘rocket’”
seeing thanos once again, you and thor thought alike over what needed to be done
you attacked him from behind while thor struck him in the chest, but the disaster ensued and you were left blaming yourself once more
“it’s not your fault, y/n. we all failed”
“captain rogers, i could have killed him, i know that im the one to blame”
everyone could tell that you carried an abundance of guilt, your mother didn’t treat you well
you had to control your anger, you didn’t want to be perceived as a threat
eager to kill thanos
thor told you his stories of war, you idolized him after this
“so, y/n, tell me about your childhood”
“what’s there to tell? i was born in hel”
“good point”
happy to watch thanos die
thor and you rescued the rest of your people and founded new asgard
you and valkyrie ended up running it together, though
thor only became depressed, but he did teach you how to play fortnite
“y/n, y/n look! im doing the dance!”
“very impressing, korg!”
you and valkyrie actually became friends
she realized that the horrors inflicted by your mother were not a reflection of your character, you could be guided by valkyrie instead
“val, where’d all the beer go?”
“ask your uncle”
“why do i even bother”
a shot at redemption after meeting a smaller version of the hulk, giving your uncle a small sliver of hope
and him telling you who jane was
“you never told me you dated a midgardian?”
“yes, well, the reason for that was...”
he started crying
“right...”
tony called you “the little hel-raiser”
you did not laugh
maybe you didn’t have the greatest sense of humor
thor took you back to asgard where you met frigga
“thor, do you know if she’s my grandmother?”
“not a clue”
:)
but you met her anyways
“y/n, dear, it’s good to finally meet you”
“oh, yes, you...you too”
she was very kind, you wished that you were able to see her in the natural timeline
you sort of wished to meet odin, as well
yall kinda saved the universe tho, that was pretty cool
valkyrie brought pegasus to the fight, you rode behind her while shooting daggers below
“you’re very good at that!”
when the fight was finally over, thor made the decision to leave new asgard to you and valkyrie
“you’re ready, y/n. they trust you. and valkyrie will be sure to guide you, ill see you again someday”
#thor odinson x reader#thor odinson imagine#thor odinson#thor imagine#thor x reader#thor#hela odinsdottir#hela odinsdottir x reader#hela odinsdottir imagine#loki laufeyson x reader#loki laufeyson imagine#loki laufeyson#loki imagine#loki x reader#loki#marvel#marvel x reader#marvel imagine#avengers#avengers x reader#avengers imagine
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And then there were two
Grouping: Reader x College BF!Mark (NCT)
Word Count: ~3.48k
Warnings/Themes: non-graphic first time, too many friends with too little boundaries
Prompt: “what do u think abt college bf mark and awkward and fumbling first time”
The dorm is suspiciously quiet when Mark enters. There’s no sound of the XBox going, no sound of raucous laughter, no sound of beer bottles clinking. It’s almost as if you’re alone in your dorm. Odd.
“Mark?” You call from the common area shared by you and your suitemates. “Is that you?”
“Yeah.”
He finds you curled up on the couch, biting at your nails with your computer at your lap.
“Hey. Did you get your test results back yet?”
“I mean, the portal is open. I just haven’t checked it yet.” A sigh ghosts past your lips. “I don’t know if I passed this one. And if I don’t pass, I’ll have to retake the class later.”
“Want me to open it for you?”
“Please.”
Mark makes his way over, arms behind his back as he hides the treasure he brought with him. Once he’s seated you slide your laptop over to him like you can’t get it away fast enough and push yourself back until you’re at the opposite end of the couch. Your toes are the closest thing to him and you wedge them under his thigh while he types in your password from memory.
“Class average was a...64. Yikes,” he reads off that stats from the exam’s page.
“Yeah. It was a doozy.”
“Okay, let’s see. Woah, you got an 83.”
“What,” you shout.
“Nerd.”
Your eyes grow wide and you lunge forward to yank the computer away, hoping that he’s not messing with you. Mark laughs, nose scrunching at you as you take in the actual 83 on your exam’s results screen. The hoarse little shriek you let out is so cute that his heart aches a bit.
“The prof said she was adding a curve for this one. 6 points, she said.”
“Congrats, baby—oof!”
Mark’s back hits the arm of the couch with a thud, taking the brunt of the force from your tackle. It’s a bit awkward but you still manage to get your limbs around him and squeeze. A breathy chuckle floats up from where you bury your face in his neck.
“I was so nervous. I hate Orgo so much.”
“I know, but you work so hard. How could you not do well?”
“Thanks,” you say once you pull back. Your eyes are velvet soft with relief and fondness as you look him over.
You press a soft kiss to his lips and Mark presses back for a moment before pulling back with a jerk. Somehow you’ve ended up in the splayed V of his knees as a pleasant weight in his lap. Not an often occurrence.
“I, uh, I might have brought you something,” he mumbles against the skin of your cheek when you kiss the hinge of his jaw. His eyes and voice go gravelly and dark at your proximity.
“What is it?” You sit back on your heels with a staccato bounce.
“Chicken Haus.”
From the side of the couch he brandishes a large paper bag with a familiar crowing chicken logo printed on the brown surface. The thin paper barrier does nothing to keep the smell from wafting over to you.
“Oh, did you get fries? Let me see!”
“Ah, ah!” He moves the bag out of your reach, causing you to stumble forward. Your glare down at him but all he does is cackle in response. “Say please,” he sing-songs.
“Dude, come on. This isn’t kindergarten!”
“So, I’m ‘dude’ now?” He sniffs and moves to put the chicken back. “Alright, I see how it is.”
“Mark—Mark, wait! Mark, my man. My super capable, handsome man. Please. Let me see the chicken.”
“Nice,” he hands you the bag, trying his hardest not to be flustered by your performance.
There’s a small mountain of your favorites in the bag and you do a little dance before hopping off the couch and making a beeline to the small communal kitchenette.
“Did you eat dinner already?”
“Yeah, I had some stuff at the studio.”
You turn to give him a little disappointed pout. “Still, come sit with me!”
Mark ambles over with a pleased smile on his face. As you look for napkins he admires the straight way you hold your back. The university is notorious for its cutthroat biology major but you’re not the competitive type. So exam weeks are especially hard on you. You always end up stressed and shrunken in on yourself and Mark hates to see it. Few things cheer you back up right away. One of them is the atomic spicy nuggets from Chicken Haus.
“Should we eat in your room,” Mark asks. Your mutual friend Jungwoo, who introduced you and Mark, usually has virtual tutoring at this hour. Mark always feels bad for interrupting him, but normally you’d share some of your congratulatory nuggets with him.
“We don’t have to this time. Jungwoo went home for his mom’s graduation and Doyoung’s at a public health conference.”
“Oh. They didn’t tell me that.”
“Mark,” you let out an incredulous laugh when you finally open the box. “I think you got too many nuggets this time.”
Mark looks down at the party-sized box he handed over a hefty portion of this week’s paycheck for. He supposes it’s a lot for two people to eat, but the dorm is usually overflowing with friends. Tonight he bought a lot out of habit and none of the people he expected to be over are actually present.
“Shit. Are none of the guys coming over?”
“Mm, I don’t know. What’s Johnny up to?”
Mark wracks his brain for his friends’ whereabouts. “Uhh, I think I remember him saying he was gonna go visit his girlfriend at her school. So, I guess he’s not coming.
“Okay,” you sit at one of the stools. “And Taeil and Haechan?”
“Probably, like, playing Fortnite or something.”
“I know Taeyong said he had some work he had to do for his design class, so he’s definitely not coming.” You bite down into a nugget finally and let out a soft moan. “This never gets old.”
Suddenly Mark is hungry again. When he grabs a napkin and a plate you give a gloating smirk.
“I think Yuta’s probably just asleep,” you say after you’ve finished moaning around another chicken nugget.
“That just leaves Jaehyun, I think.”
“I mean, I can text him and invite him over if you want me to.”
Before you can reach for your phone, Mark’s free hand covers yours. You can’t help but laugh a little. Jaehyun and Mark may be good friends, but you know Mark is still a little wary since Jaehyun tried to hit on you the first night you met everyone. There’s no hard feelings, though. According to Mark.
“N-no, you don’t have to. He’s probably just enjoying the night in. Let’s...leave him be.”
“Okay,” you grin and take another bite.
After you finish eating, you make the decision to migrate back to the couch to check out some of the stuff on your DVR. Doyoung has dominated most of the drive space but there’s some shows that you know Mark likes. You tape them on the off chance that he comes over and no one else has something else they want to watch instead.
“Should we watch that zombie series,” Mark asks as he scrolls through the listings.
“I hate their graphics.”
“I know,” he snorts. “But it’s funny how mad you get at their fake blood. Might be fun to watch.”
“If you really wanna watch you can, but I’m not looking. I’m just gonna make myself comfy here, instead.”
You say all this as you proceed to stretch yourself over Mark’s already lounging form. You slot yourself between his thighs before hitching a leg up over his hip. Your head is pillowed by his shoulder and you cage him in with your arms.
“We don’t have to watch it. It’s more fun to watch with Yuta anyway. He always screams so loud, like, I swear he has a 4 octave range sometimes.”
“You’re such a music major,” you wrinkle your nose before peeking up. “Can I hear that project you’ve been working on in the studio?”
Mark’s cheeks flush under the blue light cast by the TV screen. He doesn’t say anything at first, but he does nod. You get up just long enough for him to grab his phone and the pair of over-the-ear headphones he always carries with him.
He takes care to brush your hair out of the way and slip the headphones onto your head gently. He sneaks in a pinch of your cheeks while you wait for him to cue up the song and laughs at the way your eyes crinkle in light annoyance.
The song begins and he alternates between gnawing at his bottom lip and watching your expression unblinkingly. Mark is actually doing super well in his Music Production 401 class and his professor is trying to get him to do an independent study next term. But he’s a perfectionist when it comes to his music. The song’s not finished even though he and Taeyong have been working on it nonstop for the last week and a half.
After a few minutes, you slide the headphones off.
“I like it,” you whisper. “I wish I could tell you something more helpful but I don’t know anything about making music.”
“No, no. Honestly, that’s enough. I feel like you always tell me when you don’t really like what we have, so this is—good.”
“What are you gonna call it?” You grab his free hand and Mark darts his head around to survey the room.
“Tae wants to call it something like “welcome to my playground”. We have to run the name by the other guys in the project. But Professor Seo thinks we should put it online once it’s done.”
“Promise you won’t forget about me when you blow up on SoundCloud.”
Mark tosses his head back and laughs at your teasing, before reaching out for revenge. He grabs at your waist and pulls you down so he can dig his fingers into your sides, knowing exactly where to go so he can torture you.
You let out a gasp and try your hardest to protect your sensitive underarms and the sides of your ribs from him, but it’s too late. Frenzied laughs pour from your mouth and you fight to stay upright. It’s a fight that you lose but not without bringing Mark down with you.
The two of you topple over the edge of the couch in a heap of throw pillows and decorative blankets. You fall first and brace yourself for the impact of Mark’s body. It’s not as painful as you thought it would be and when you crack an eye open you realize it’s because he managed to prop himself up at the last second.
Mark laughs again, but this time it’s small and breathless as he takes in the sight of you underneath him. He yanks himself up so at least his upper half is upright and he looks around again.
“Why are you acting so suspicious? You’ve been acting like you have a dirty secret all night.” You sit up too then, pulling your knees to yourself.
“Ah, really? I dunno.”
But he does know.
Mark is a man of many good traits. He’d like to think, based on what others have told him, that he’s reliable. Hardworking, nice. Maybe even a little handsome if he listens to his mom. But most of all he is incredibly patient.
The last 2 months that you have been dating have consisted of being cockblocked at every turn. And the same thing happened when he was trying to find a good moment to confess to you after realizing that he liked you. Because he and you shared too many friends. Well-meaning but stupid friends.
“I mean—like, I guess I just got so used to us being interrupted by the guys that it’s a habit. Sorry.”
“We’re alone now, though.”
“Ha, right,” he tugs on the collar of his hoodie. “Yeah.”
“So...do you still want to watch the DVR on the couch?”
“Uh, we don’t have to. We could do something else.”
“What do you want to do,” you ask as your fingers crawl up his torso. With a gentle press to his hoodie-clad chest, Mark‘s back hits the seat of the couch.
“Wuh—we could listen to the new SuperK album.”
You shake your head and slink into his lap. You fiddle with the zipper on the front of his hoodie, enjoying the way he fails to keep his cool in the moment.
He looks up at you then, eyes round. “We could... watch that movie Cloud Break. It’s supposed to be really romantic—”
You shake your head again and lean in. “Saw it ages ago,” you murmur against the skin of his neck.
He huffs out a laugh, partly because of the tickle from your lips planting light kisses on his throat and partly because your answer is ridiculous.
“It premiered in theaters two days ago, dude.”
“I have connections,” is all you say before switching to kisses on the corner of his mouth.
Rarely do moments like this ever arise. With your friend group, someone is always in your dorm, or in Mark’s, or texting one of you to let you know you’ll be interrupted soon. One too many traumatic occasions where he didn’t heed the warning taught Mark to be hypervigilant of how he interacted with you.
Honestly, he’s not even sure what to do first now. You’ve already unzipped his hoodie to splay your palms over his chest. He’s certain you can feel the fluttering dance his heart is doing under your hands. His own palms itch with inactivity. But laying them on the bare skin of your waist under the fabric of your shirt feels a bit like a balm against his clammy skin.
It’s like a switch is flipped. Like you’ve both realized how long you’ve been waiting for this moment. Suddenly everything is wandering hands and soft gasps. Time behaves funny in the privacy of the little universe being created on the floor by the couch. First it’s the quick, rough pass of your shirt over your head, getting tangled along overeager elbows along the way. Then it’s the slow and gentle brush of Mark’s knuckles against the skin of your abdomen as he attempts to unbutton your pants with shaking hands. You ask him if he’s scared while thumbing at the plush swell of his lips which are pursed in concentration. He tells you he’s just excited with an equally-shaky chuckle.
That’s what you love about Mark. Probably one of the things everyone loves about Mark. He’s thorough, admirably so. Just like he took his time with his confession,!l and his time with your jeans, he takes time appraising every inch of exposed skin. Some moments are moments of familiarity and he nips at the skin like it’s an old greeting. Some moments are moments of discovery, for both of you. He’s gentler then, drawing a new version of you out from yourself in the form of drawn out gasps or curses.
Many are moments of reciprocity. There are times when you hope his touch leaves fingerprints behind, something that you can keep long after your sweat has dried. And every touch he gives is matched with one you return. The feel of your palm on him, over him, around him draws his muscles taut. When you finally slot together, of course it’s like two puzzle pieces. It’s just right and the breath Mark releases then is almost like a sigh of relief.
Often relief is a quiet, calm thing. Not always, certainly not now. You and Mark chase this relief panting and sometimes clawing at one another. He’s jerky as he moves over you. With arms shaking on either side of his head and this jaw grit tight, he tries his best to make it to the end with you. The way you moan and lock your thighs around him to pull him closer and deeper are the things that push him off the edge. He spills into you with a choked off groan that tapers off when he pulls away finally.
He’s exhausted, but still attentive in his aftermath. Mark whispers sweet nothings into your ear as he beckons you closer to your own orgasm with his hand. The feeling of working over you through the slick of his cum awakens something in the corners of his mind, but he puts that back. For another day, he reasons. Another one of those rare days when he can get you alone. Next time he won’t hesitate.
“You feel good,” he nuzzles the tip of his nose by the base of your ear.
Your breath hitches wetly and you reach down to grip his still twisting wrist. The touch grounds you only slightly because he changes the angle and suddenly you’re floating towards white light once more. Mark watches your hips raise in little broken motions to reach your own high.
Immediately, you pull him back in. He’s confident in the way he follows this time. He swoops in over you, kissing you like the sex had merely whetted his appetite.
“Is there still chicken?”
The sound of Jungwoo’s voice drives you two apart so fast your joints crack. You shriek and pull the closest piece of clothing you can find over your lap and torso. It just so happens to be Mark’s sweatpants, leaving him defenseless and bare.
Jungwoo pokes his head out from behind his bedroom door, headphones hanging around his neck with music oozing softly from the ears. Whatever he sees must be appropriate enough, because he nods to himself then and strolls toward the kitchen. The leftover Chicken Haus sits neatly packaged away thanks to Mark’s previous care.
“Bro, what the hell,” Mark whines from behind the safety of the couch. Just his head peeks over the cushions, making him look tiny. Like a tiger cub woken prematurely. Jungwoo laughs.
“I thought you said you bought enough to share. There’s no way you guys were gonna finish all this on your own.”
“That’s not—” Mark sighs, “That’s not what I mean.”
“Then what?”
“We’re kind of doing something here.” He jerks his chin down to where you’re hidden from view still. Neither of them can see your grimace.
“Oh, yeah, we know.”
“We?”
Your head and naked shoulders pop up then. Mark shifts his arm subtly in front you to preserve what’s left of your modesty. It doesn’t do much.
“Yeah, me and the others were in my room. We heard you did good on the test from our friend Lucas—you know the one who TAs for orgo? We were gonna surprise you, so we all got here early.”
“How early,” Mark’s voice is steady, eerily so.
Jungwoo picks up another nugget and chews thoughtfully while he picks the right things to say. Johnny is the one who is known for being scary when angry, but Mark’s silent fury is frightening in its own right. A tiger cub is still a tiger, after all.
“Early,” he finally says.
“Fuck,” Mark covers his eyes with his hands. His cheeks bloom over rapidly. “Are you kidding me? Like for real?”
“Jungwoo,” Taeyong’s stage whisper cuts through the outburst. “Are they done yet?”
“You think he’s just standing out there talking to himself while they’re still doing it,” Doyoung’s voice enters next.
“Don’t act like you wouldn’t stop to watch a little on the way back,” Yuta scoffs.
“Guys, stop, this is so weird. That’s Mark we’re talking about.” The sound of Johnny’s internal crisis is almost as loud as his distressed non-whisper.
Jungwoo snorts before piling a plate high with more chicken. “You sound like such a mom, John.”
“Hey, wait is there still chicken?” Taeil’s sleepy voice is followed by Haechan giving an affirmative.
The guys stream out of Jungwoo’s tiny suite like a swarm of ants making a line towards the kitchen. Some of them hop onto the counter while Doyoung distributes plates. Others grab up the remaining stools and continue to discuss Mark’s new lack of virginity while serving up fries and nuggets. None of them seem to be concerned about yours or Mark’s presence with their backs turned towards you.
As the others continue to bicker amongst themselves, you turn to Mark. With a knowing look, he gestures for you to pass him his sweats. In silence, you both dress yourselves before making a break to your room. You enter first, diving head first into your bed out of mortification. Mark makes sure to close the door as soundlessly as possible before turning to you.
“We need new friends,” the two of you say in unison.
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in true highschooler fashion i must know.... who are the weebs and the gamers of the cast
Aster’s Kids
(( [name]*= has responded/been mentioned/is set, but has not appeared in design))
Macbeth
Macbeth— no, he did homestuck but he doesn’t really do games and has seen one (1) anime, bc of Banquo (it was FMA:B)
Lady— she’s “too pretty to know what that (anime) is”
Banquo— he’s like. Casually anime. FMA and FMA:B, Yu Yu Hakusho, he had an Inuyasha phase briefly, and he’s big into Pokemon. He doesn’t do much console or PC gaming, but he has a DS and he plays Pokemon games, Stardew Valley (if that’s on DS???), and Animal Crossing (he likes. Chill task based games)
Macduff— will play smash and Mario Kart at parties and is decent
Duncan— nah
Malcolm— dumb shoujo anime/manga is his secret guilty pleasure
Donalbain— he plays indie games. He got Very into Undertale. He likes Bastion, One Hand Clapping, and Cave Story.
Twelfth Night
Viola— their family owns a Wii and she fucking kills it at Wii Sports. Also Mario Kart. She’d be better at Smash if she didn’t insist on always playing as Kirby.
Sebastian— same as Viola.
Antonio— he’s played overwatch. That’s about it though
Duke— he’s seen a few anime, mostly via Netflix surfing. He actually really likes Ouran.
Olivia— nah
Malvolio— nah
Taming of the Shrew
Kate— nah
Bianca— nah
Petruchio— he feels like he plays some sorta FPS
Julius Caesar
Julius— nah
Calpurnia— animal crossing sometimes
Cassius— yes he’s anime but it’s a secret and he will Never admit it
Brutus— he’s anime and Will admit it but no one has ever asked
Octavius — he plays fortnite but he hates that he does so
The Tempest
Miranda— fire emblem baybee
Caliban*
Prospero*
Much Ado About Nothing
Beatrice— probably but idk what
Benedick— same
Borachio
Others
Antony— Smash and Mario Kart at parties and stuff. Got very hyped about Dream Daddy, it was ironic at first but then.
Cleopatra— same as Lady.
Star’s Kids
Hamlet
Hamlet (Tristson) - no. Watches horatio and ophelia instead of playing bc he has “better things to do”
Ophelia (Elskerson) - beats her brothers ass in smash. Mains peach and isabelle. Has played stardew valley. Also mario kart
Horatio (Venson) - plays smash w ophelia and sometimes w yorick. Mains fox and ness. Surprisingly good at mario kart.
Laertes (Elskerson) - has gotten his ass beat in smash. Mains ganondorf and bowser but he sucks at it lol. Aggressively hype abt wii games for no reason
Yorick - hes baby but he has played smash.
Fortinbras - hes too busy studying
Rosencrantz* - yeah both but i dont rlly care abt them sorry :(
Guildenstern* - “”
Gertrude* - no
Claudius* - no
Hamlet’s Dad* - no
Romeo and Juliet
Romeo (Montague) - YES the montacrew has game nights (smash, mario kart, just dance) Benny made him watch ouran and his favorite is tamaki
Juliet (Capulet) - has played mario kart w tybalt but isnt rlly a gamer girl. She likes shoujo anime a Lot and loves cardcaptor sakura
Mercutio (Prince) - KING OF JUST DANCE!!!!!!! KING. Owned a sasuke body pillow on a dare from romeo in middle school. Benny got rid of it. Has seen princess jellyfish
Benvolio (Montague) - shounen stan for the most part. Fairy tail, naruto, dragonball etc. watches slice of life to make fun of it for being cliche. Cried really hard at the nina tucker episode of fma:b
Tybalt (Capulet) - i feel like….he plays overwatch….and mains hanzo
Paris (Bellarico) - has seen episodes of bnha and sailor moon but isnt an avid anime fan. Thinks the 90’s anime aesthetic is sweet
Escalus (Prince) - owned a gamecube growing up and loves pokemon. Slides references to them in his homework like a NERD.
Rosaline*
Othello
Othello (Cuore) - mario kart and smash (doesnt main anyone he likes trying out every character but thinks big mac is fun even tho hes not rlly good at the game) he likes pokemon but doesnt play the games. Watched the anime growing up.
Desdemona (Di’Bianca) - “”””fake”””” gamer girl energy but she’s already tracer AND widowmaker. Good luck stopping her. Sipped a grande low-fat whip caramel macchiato while watching the E3 stream.
Iago (Ilmale) - HE LIKES SONIC UNIRONICALLY BC HE GREW UP W IT. He’s seen some classic shounen anime like bleach and tried bnha. Liked bakugou.
(Michael) Cassio - played persona. Catches himself singing Last Surprise under his breath. Thinks akira kurusu is really hot. Hes right. Has yet to try anime but hes interested
Roderigo (Ingenuo) - i wanna say hes played like dating sims? But not gross creepy ones i mean like from indie artists. Undertale fucked him up real bad.
Emilia (Ilmale) - she likes women she hopped on revolutionary girl utena and keeps searching for wlw anime. Bloom into you got her messed up rn
A Midsummer Night’s Dream
Puck (Robin Goodfellow) - runs a gaming channel on youtube and watches a Lot of anime. Definitely has a lot of merch
Oberon (Kingsman) - anime and game nights at his house! Owns dream daddy for the gay rights.
Titania (Queensland) - realized she was gay after watching sailor moon and the “””cousins”””. Pretty good at video games. Has the persona dancing star night game for seemingly no reason (its for ann)
Peaseblossom - LOVED princess tutu and never shuts up about it. Plays the hall om mig amv all the time
Moth - sings anime ops randomly for no reason. Mains the cute characters on smash
Cobweb - married tharja in fates for the goth rights. Mains bayonetta.
Mustardseed - MINECRAFT.
Hermia - puella magica madoka girl. LOVES the magical girl aesthetic. Started sewing bows onto her dresses
Lysander - the designated gamer of the 4. Immediately attaches to pretty boys in animes. Claimed he was a “bishounen” himself when he was like 14 and the rest havent let him live it down.
Helena - likes mystery/horror anime like baccano and tokyo ghoul
Demetrius - action shounen stan. Owns an akatsuki cloak
Nick Bottom* - watches hentai
Puck’s Dad 1 (Puck based) - pokemon champion fire red
Puck’s Dad 2 (Oberon based) - pokemon champion leaf green
Love’s Labor’s Lost
Ferdinand - started playing volleyball bc he likes haikyuu. didnt think hed get this far
Birone - thinks fma:b is the peak of anime and hes right.
Longaville - likes the boxing anime (cant remember what its called) and smash (mains ryu)
Dumaine - hes the video of the drunk guy making all of the noises in the crash bandicoot game
Princess - she Is revolutionary girl utena
Rosalina - won’t ever admit it but does watch some anime from time to time.
Katherine - hibiki girls euphonium stan even tho she doesnt play an instrument
Maria - got tricked into playing fortnite once. Plays minecraft on peaceful and is rlly excited about bees being in the game
Others
William Shakespeare - “anne whats a waifu”
Anne Shakespeare - has a pkmn card collection. Loves sylveon
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All those flowers, my dude
First of all thank you for asking, this will be longAlso as this took me almsot two weeks already I took the liberty of leaving some queastions out so I wouldn’t take even longerSince this was answered over a longer time span some questions that are aimed at certain days may be slightly outdated (ed what are u wearing today and such)
Alisons: Sexuality?I’m gay my dudes
Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?He/Him, male
Amaryllis: Birthday?My Birthday is in June
Anemone: Favorite flower?This is gonna sound lame as fuck but I rly like roses, red ones in particular
Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?I can’t choose but here are some favorites:
Peaky Blinders, I’ve watched this one so often,,, Cillian Murphy was what got me into it and I stayed for beautiful scenes and atmosphere and the gang drama
Gotham, Let’s be honest, the best thing abt dc are their villains (also suuuuper into Robin Lord Taylor as Oswald)
Brooklyn Nine-Nine and The Office, i like these because they are easy, nice and satisfy my need to have something running in the background while I’m at home. (Also insanely sweet in the case of BB9)
Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?One I still remember strongly is from two boys kissing “you should all live to meet your future selves”
Also many of the poems by keaton st james deeply resonate with me so check those out (most are religious-ish just in case that’s a no no for you)
Aubrieta: Favorite drink?I gotta be boring and say water
I like hot chocolate and a special kind of peach tea and some soda I drank in brazil but water,, yeah I drink that most,, love hydration
Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?Nope
Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?I am, right now, at this very moment
Baneberries: Favorite song?I can’t give you an all time favorite so here’s a random favorite I currently like listening to: Sedated by Hozier
Basket of Gold: Describe your family.My family is not very big and actually hasn’t been a family for a very long time. Namely it’s my dad, my sister, my grandparents, my dads wife, her son, our dog and I. I have never experienced family in my youth so sometimes when I’m with them it’s all very odd. And sometimes it’s stressful. But it’s the first time I actually miss family when I’m alone at home, far away. I speak about my father and my grandparents further below but my sister is very sweet and I’m pretty protective of her, she and I get along a lot better now than before which is a common trait as ull see later.
We often take care of things, and are probably the most planning of the family. My dad’s wife is very good to talk to, having a very different perspective from my own and will always offer up advice. Her son is currently in pirperty and more interested in playing fortnite than anything which makes for some explosiveness at home. Our dog is cute and perfect that’s it.
Begonia: Favorite color?I like blue tones, but a dark, rusy kind of red is cool too
Bellflower: Favorite animal?Dogs Dogs Dogs. By far my favorite animal, they fill my heart with joy. Next up, Giraffes, funny big boys
Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?Morning I think, I definitely work best early.
Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?I actually never really had a dream job as a child. Not that I remember at least.
Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?While I generally ain’t a big fan, like I’m someone very based on conversations so obviously that’s hard w kids. I am growing more to them. I’m far from wanting one but I think children are special in their.. Like innocence. They are beyond all the bitterness and hatred that we adults have. If only parents would be better lmao
Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?I’m afraid of many things. Change for example. And failure. I think that might be because being perfect was important when I grew up and whatever I did it was never enough to my mother especially. Perhaps that has become so deep rooted that I tell myself I can not fail, which makes me very nervous and makes me worry too much.
Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.I spend lots of time on building sites and in hardware stores because my grandparents have houses and my parents often would work there too.
Buttercup: Relationship Status?Single
Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?God I don’t know, I think it’s probably when I’m with someone I care about and it’s easy and light and fun and I feel comfortable and they tell me that they like being around me, or that I made them happy with something.
Canna: Do you have any tattoos?Nope,wanted to have some but money and shit
Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings? I have my ears pierced, but it’s the earlobes so the most basic thing
California Poppy: Height? I insist on 1,70 at least, I will not accept being under that.
Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?In a way, yeah
Carnation: What are you currently wearing?My new boots, black pants, winter coat, black jacket, a blue button up and a lord of the rings shirt underneath. Obviously underwear
Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?When I was a child for sure
Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?A person from school, who’s also in fashion design, but a few years above me that I got to know bc of cosplay.
Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?My Ex
Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?God idk, I like oldish looking ones, elegant ‘n stuff
Columbine: Are you tired?Nah, actually not rn
Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?Sam visiting me in March
Coneflower: Dream job?I’m not sure, definitely something w sewing but idk if I wanna go theater or my own things
Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?Introvert
Crocus: Have you ever been in love?Yeh
Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?Very very far
I’d say I’m pretty damn loyal and also give myself up easily even without noticing. If someone has my love and my loyalty they have my everything basically. Would I commit a terrible crime? I don’t know. Would I be real mean to someone or punch them? Yeah, if it’s reasonable w the situation I would (would it be affective? Not sure)
Give myself up? If we’re thinking real dramatic..maybe yeah
Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?Gemini
Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?Funny or stupid things? MaybeOtherwise honourable stuff, i don’t think so, i don’t view my actions like that.
I mean I survived, that’s pretty cool
Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?Above mentioned survival. Which includes making it out of my mother and her boyfriends abusive grip and household. Moving away. Being true to myself. Dragging myself out of the hole I had fallen in for a while. Getting close w my dad and family. Believing more in myself and stopping things that are not good for me. Getting an apprenticeship that I like. Moving forward in life
Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?If it’d be my dad I’d sit down with him and ask him why exactly. I have had a relationship before in which I did not see how badly I was treated/ that I basically searched someone like my mother. So I’d listen, perhaps to prevent from making the same mistake again. If it turns out it’s nothing reasonable I think I’d tell him that I will pursue the relationship anyway and ask him to respect that and be as nice as possible to my partner.
If it’d be my mother.. No surprise she doesn’t even like me and honestly I wouldn’t give a shit.
Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?Did I say it? Not sure but written it in a letter, it was Sam
False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?If my grades speak for themselves it’d be my apprenticeship, or like idk working hard about something I enjoy. I take this very seriously and give it everything I can. I’ve been told I’m good at talking, not sure if that’s true
Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?I’m envious. It’s not that far that I am not happy for people, I think i generally have it under control but sometimes it gets the best of me and fills my stomach with nasty emotions.
Also saying stop. I do a lot for people, and I’ve been prone to letting people use and step on me for too long xnot standing up for myself
Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?The past month was actually absolutely terrible so not much to find here.Uhm..the bad thing that happened got our family closerI spend Christmas and new years w my familyI got amazing gifts and letters from my friends
Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?Stressful. I worked on my semester project and I feel like hardly anything worked
Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?I’m moving towards a happy place. But I’m definitely doing a lot better already
Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?Finish my apprenticeship, surgery, be able to make my own money so I don’t have to rely on my dad so much (he does enough for me already) and so I can get more distance between my mother and I
Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?In no particular order
1. Dogs, god whenever I see a dog I’m happy because they are so cute and loyal,,,,,,,
2. probably everyone and their dog says this but my friends, honestly, I don’t know where I’d be without them. They helped me through terrible times in my life, are a constant source of love and joy to me.
3. my family. Since I didn’t have that for a long time I cherish it even more now that I do. It’s amazing to have a family that supports you behind you. I’m super grateful for everything they’ve done for me
4. the possibility to do the apprenticeship that I want to. it’s not always easy,,,I lack the money lmao but I’m so grateful that I can do this, because it makes me feel like I’m actually worth something in the working,adult world. I’m good at this
5. music. I listen to it so often, I can’t imagine not having music
6. sunshine, there’s something wonderful about going outside and feeling the warmth of the sun on your face, when it’s spring and winter has just gone by and you just have to smile because everything is bright and you’re surrounded by light
7. myself. Listen I dislike myself as much as the next guy but I’m working on appreciating myself and I am insanely proud of myself for coming as far as I have come. I don’t let myself feel it very often but having myself, it’s a good thing. I know my younger self would be very happy knowing that I did all those things for us.
8. something that makes me happy is creating, might it be art, or sewing or writing, anything really. It’s a pain in the ass and frustrating at times but I love looking at something knowing I did this, finishing it. And then looking back at it later and seeing how far I’ve come again
9. playing video games. It’s just fun to lose yourself in a story sometimes.
10. Christmas Markets. I don’t like Christmas itself. But I love the Markets, it’s the atmosphere of it. The food smells amazing and there are all those lights and there are kids with actual shining eyes because they see Christmas so magical and they are in awe by all the lights and honestly I feel the same awe sometimes when I’m on those Markets
Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed? Hardly anything lmao. Listening to music. Distracting myself with either talking to someone or playing/watching something. Tho that often makes me feel guilty on the long run. What helps if stress is overwhelming me is writing down what it is that is stressing, like making a list and trying to untangle the mess, looking at what I have to do one by one
Hellebore: How do you show affection?Since I’m A big fan of honesty I usually just say it. I like to tell people when I get some emotion. Like just telling them that I appreciate them. I think it’s nice to just be told that sometimes. Besides that I do things, like I’ll send anon messages or offer help just assisting somehow. Like not always outright having them know it’s me,like affection from afar. And well I’m helpful when I care abt someone especially, like “I can do this for you”
And being super openIt’s not alway clever as experience has shown but to me offering up things about myself means trust means affection in a way. Like giving a part of myself to someone. lmao
Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?Making it to this point, I wasn’t in a very good state just a bit ago. But with the help of my friends and family I made it out of it. I have an apprenticeship I enjoy, I have my own flat, I have something to stand up for again. I can appreciate myself some more. I was able to see toxic relationships i was in and get away from them and not let myself be guilted but seeing them for what they are and acknowledging that while I am not a saint it doesn’t mean that I have to accept any treatment. I stood up to my mother, even if just a bit that was a huge step for me.
Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?I barely had any of it recently so I can very much put what I want to do. Which would be drawing. I haven’t done that properly in so long and I miss it. Like both sketching stuff on paper but mostly full pictures, sketching, lining and colouring somethin. Having a full art piece at the end. Also Play Games. And talk to my friends. Haven’t had a nice hour long convo with Nina or Charlotte or Sam in ages and I hate that.
Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?That’d be Charlotte and Nina
Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?I would hide away in my room and imagine. Invent stories, characters, anything to distract me from how unhappy I was. I would act them out in my head when I laid in bed so I could sleep.
Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?I did not treat someone that I care about very well a few years ago, I didn’t give them the honesty they deserve. I was an asshole. Even if we spoke about it, I still feel very bad about it.
Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?Indulging. When I have things to do but take a break I always feel super guilty for not doing anything.
Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?It seems it comes from the Roman name Julianus, and was the name of a pangan Roman Emperor as well as a name of saints. Sometimes meaning youthful which fits because I look like a baby
Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.I grew up in a big city in Germany. Very busy City with high buildings and no time. I lived in a flat when I was very young, a room with big windows where I’d sit and look out ot. Then we moved into the house my dad still lives in. Where houses were built in rows and more people knew each other, I’d walk home and pretend to not see them as to not have to speak to them.
Then I moved in a beautiful flat in a more busy part of the city, with a bookstore in the same building and a supermarket right down the street. My hometown is best described in the colour grey. I dont think it very pretty if I’m honest.Still its full of memories and not half as bad
Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?Talking about the one in the house. Light peach coloured walls. Small but with big windows to look out of. An old wooden bed in front of one Window, and even older Closet next to the door, already so old that it had been ancient when my dad had been young. A desk in one corner at the other side of the room, above it shelves filled with books, little trinkets on the windowsills. Cabinets filled with paper full of secrets. Posters on the Walls and a round mirror that I hated looking into when I was young.
Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years? God no. I have repressed most of my younger years. My teenage years were filled with confusion and self doubt. I was a mess, I hated myself, not knowing who I was. And then knowing but being shamed for it, hiding away and keeping my head low to survive. Pushing myself to the limits and clinging to the thought that I could escape at age 18
Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.My Mother and I are not on good terms. I’ve spend countless of years desperately attempting to please her, hoping for love or anything close to it. I was constantly let down by her. My mother is someone that I fear I’ll never understand, adapting to the men that she is with. Claiming to have reached compassion and selflessness while being the opposite. Acts childish and has never accepted or supported me. Now attempts to lure in my sister whom I fear for as she’s always wanted my mother to love her. I have estranged from her very much and currently I am happy seeing her as less as possible.
Onions: Tell about your dad. I remember my father as a very autocratic person in my youth. He’d always work and would only be home to cast judgement. We did not get along well, and my mother, like grima wormtongue, had influenced me further into seeing him as a terrible person. Now I see him very differently. In fact I am similar to my father. Hard working, well spoken and crafty. We share a similar humor and I am very thankful for his support over the last year. To me my father is a very good example of how sometimes people can actually change, sometimes second chances will not disappoint you. My father cares very much about our family and I am happy to have gotten close to him again.
Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.I won’t lose many words about my mother’s parents as there isn’t much to say about them.My mothers father was always sick, more often because he believed he was. The years before he died it had only gotten worse. My Grandmother was never really happy in that relationship, something I believe she handed down to my mother.
My fathers parentsWell, when I was young it was difficult, they aren’t exactly children people, despite trying. I especially had my difficulties with my grandmother, who was work above everything and wanted everything to be perfect.I remember her always fixing my clothing. Countless of instances of her and my dad arguing.
When I got older we had barely any contract until I had my coming out to my dad, who told my grandparents. Much to my surprise and I still respect that so much, they were immediately supportive and accepting, perhaps even more than anyone else from my family.
In the last year we grew closer. They helped me with my flat and would come over to set up a few things. I took them to a restaurant that my grandfather would always talk about whenever we talked, happily.
My grandmother and I had phone calls at least once a week, she was also the most interested in my apprenticeship, always curious, sending me old magazines and ideas she had. As well as button ups and shirts she had bought for me or old ones from my grandfather.She offered me support when we talked, told me they’d do anything they could
When my sister and I were getting clothing for my grandpa, as he was saying with us, I found a book on my grandmother’s bedside table.It was an educational oneIn it was also an article she had cut out of a newspaper, the title saying how the support of the family is the most important thing to lgbt children.
I miss my grandmother
Peony: What was your first job?I worked a summer at my mothers workplace. Cleaning watches and watch straps, replacing small things on the straps
Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?We met 2014 on a cosplay convention in the city I grew up in. We met on the first day of that, where we all hung out in a group and then he and Charlotte spend the next day w us as well.
Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?I bottle it up, focus on something that keeps me busy. Sometimes other people’s pain or doing things for them. Distraction from thoughts really. I’m best when I’m busy
Pink: Where is home?If you’d asked me a couple of months ago my answer would’ve been easy and quick. But now phew, I mean I call my place home as in “I’m going home” and I call my dads place home as in “I was home over the holidays”
But I’m not sure, not really
Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?I could go endlessly both about important historical events and tragedies as well as personal mishaps and bad choices. But eventually I actually think this is too big of a question to answer like this. I’m generally better in speech than word when it comes to things like that
Primrose: Describe your ideal life.Steady. As in a job that I like, that provides me with enough money to survive well. Not to worry about everything. Having Dogs, as that I something I always wanted. Living somewhere in the city (always dreamed of a Fachwerk House but yeah…), with the possibility to visit my friends that I am in good contact in. Living with love and happiness. With a connection to my family still as good as now. Perhaps with someone,,,
Rose: What’s your favorite sound?I love the sound of paper, like books, pages turning, things like that. Also soft rain
Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?I’m a Class A represser. So it’d probably be many things centered abt my mother.
Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want? I want my semester presentation to go well tomorrow. That’s all I care abt rn
St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things? It used to be harder in the past but I’ve gotten slightly better at it. I’m still struggling with feeling but it’s a work in progress.
Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?My Friends and Family, cheesy I know but over the last year I’ve become more set in that. Once more I noticed how much strength those can give you. And also noticed how important they are to me by the way things that happen hurt me
Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?7 hours, couldn’t fall asleep at first but that’s usually my minimum of sleep
Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?School. I have a timed, strict schedule thanks to that and it forces me to get up until a certain time in the morning. That helps a lot actually
Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?I’m still in an apprenticeship but I enjoy it a lot
Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?I have a new pair of shoes that are so beautiful I wish I had the look and body and style to wear them day to day. Also got some cool button ups
Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.Look at this and you’ll see first hand https://www.pinterest.de/Gayneral/
I’m sorry I’m bad at desctibing my aesthetic. It’s like, historical stuff, museums, snowey Fachwerk, religious themed things, bee themed things, watches…
Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?My semester project is due to two and a half weeks and I’m super nervous about finishing it like boooooy
Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?Sadly I’ve been super busy recently so I’ve only been able to read a tiny bit in my holidays, Acht Nacht by Sebastian Fitzek
Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?Still in school, doing good, and enjoying it
Still having a good relationship w my father, my sister and that whole family
Still good with my friends, hopefully seeing them more often
(maybe in a relationship pls don’t @ me)
Generally happy, not having to worry too much
Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?Thanks to tumblr I do, and I hate it
Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.I take my school very seriously. And I have zero tolerance for those in our school that don’t.
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